i operate the fans

Did you see what DC are doing? Today in Superwoman they implying our new 52 Superman is actually the pre new 52 Superman and he’s with Lois. Like seriously? what are they smoking?  I know what I read for the last 5 years and it is not this crap. Our Clark, who they gave Kryponite cancer, is dead. He was in love with Diana. He had no romance with nu 52 Lois! How can they seriously undermine everything like that in one stupid issue of a comic just to push the old status quo? Nothing is earned and they dump everything to pander to clois fans who already have a Superman and Lois and son currently in the comics. This is not even good writing. It is making stuff up to cover up the glaring plotholes to pander to Rebirth. I came on board with the new 52 and enjoyed the stories. If this is how DC operates with story, and new fans then I can’t be investing my time or $$ to be lied to and misled. I feel disrespected as a customer. Could they not have just ended the new 52 on a high note and give the older readers what they wanted with Rebirth? Least I would have had my stories. I look at the books I have now and I feel so angry. 


This is called hacked writing. 

DC is flat out lying and changing everything at a whim to serve Rebirth. He is with Lois? Look, new 52 Superman was in love with Diana of Themyscira aka New 52  Wonder Woman.  New 52 Superman had his own origin in a company reboot in 2011. He was not pre Flashpoint Superman. He was his own version like the Golden Age, the Silver Age, the Bronze Age, animation, movies, tv all had their varying origins but essentially the character being a Superman at his core. DC cannot come now and claim the other guy is him. This is dumb and contrived and yes a total disrespect to those of us  who picked up the books and believed the advertising ie it   was a new verse being developed. In short, DC lied to us to buy a falsely advertised product for 5 years. The guy pre Flashpoint does not have the same origin as new 52. They want to steal and merge two vastly different lives without the groundwork.

It is scathing disregard for new 52 Diana. Rebirth writers treating the character as if she was some sloppy seconds or some dumb mouthpiece to justify the changes . This is the woman who was there for new 52 Clark in the most critical times in his life. Not new 52 Lois who did not earn his love. Nor did she constantly put herself at risk to help him as Diana did. Diana from Throne of Atlantis through to Trinity War, Darkseid War, Doomed, Truth, Rao’s invasion,  Final Days,…was at his side, supporting, protecting, fighting alongside and defending her Clark. She loved him and he loved her. He wanted to marry her. Not Lois. New 52 Lois dated other people, saw him mostly as a good friend, got engaged to another man, outed Clark secret etc. And she gets new 52 Superman’s heart based on what? Because they decide to change things at will overnight? Wipe out new 52 Diana and hijack our Clark? And then no doubt change the whole way everyone met and history to pander to themselves. The ironic thing in all this will be the people who hated on new 52 Superman and called him fake will want to say he is real now because he is with Lois. I guess who you bang is what gives you morals and motivates you according to DC. Not your upbringing, choices, heart, honor etc. Diana clearly being with him makes him not Superman because she is … what? Not a good person? Or only Steve Trevor can make her a good hero? Screw all of you at DC who have this idiotic thinking. 

I have no respect for creators and a company who do this. As you say, end a story properly. Make it matter and count. Start the new story and do your thing.  Don’t steal, usurp, undermine stories that came before. Your talent did not create it to just wipe it out or steal it as yours. God forbid all the fans could have something to read and comics be inclusive and appeal to a more diverse readership than only give to the demo that demands nostalgia, rehashes and insist nothing must change.  I feel there is such a level of spite/vitriol leveled at new 52 by some of these so called professionals. I have read what they called fans who don’t kiss their butts and dared to like the changes/stories in the new 52. DC gave us that and they call us “not true fans”, “fake fans”, “haters “etc? Don’t worry your company has ensured many like me will vote with my wallet and give my hard earned money to talent and story telling that is not convoluted, has coherence, not fixated on hating others, and can be understood and isn’t jumping the shark.

We have our ship. We had it before and we’ll still have it. It is growing because people love Clark x Diana. They are a true relationship of equals. Detractors can’t stop that no matter what they try. The fact they have to lie, jump through hoops to do it shows how they have to scrape the bottom of that barrel. 

So to Rebirth, Reborn, Regurgitate whatever  you are.

A wild concept of Katie Holt, a.k.a. Pidge Gunderson after the Mad Banana finally watched Vividred Operation.

I actually don’t like unnecessary fanservice in that anime but I like the concept and story. Suddenly an AU came across my mind: where Season 2 of Vividred happened except that the new main character is this space pidgeon. An AU where the Vivid System has finally been patented and used for more advanced space travelling. And of course, docking, the term in which Steven Universe fans have their own term: fusion.

The more interesting part is that Pidge can dock with any Paladin. Yes, these Paladins are supposed to be the new operators of the newly-enhanced Vivid System.

I’ve already formulated the story. And this is not just Vividred’s fault, lol. Special mention to @soumadian, @ri-koon, @catgirl0926, @besh-drawing-stuff and @fanart-rainbox: I’m sorry, guys, but your fanart and your imagination inspired me to formulate this AU. Look, I love this girl, okay? So I thought of doing this, making her cute with still the sass.

Sorry and thanks a bunch that you exist, along with all Voltron fans. And their badass art.


Bandit from Tom Clancy’s Rainbow Six Siege game

finished: DOC, SLEDGE, FUZE

fanart from my current favourite game, I used on the first pic the original concept art, and the ingame icon to make it look more realistic, and on the last two pic I made a screenshot then redraw it

I really hope one day they will make a face reveal for all of the operators

since I’m an artist and when I’m into a fandom I usually try to find fanarts around the internet, and I can see that fans of this game struggling to make pictures/fanarts because most of the operators’ face are hidden behind masks

So I plan to upload more operators, and maybe the developers will realize what fans wants, and you can help by sharing these pics, free to share them anywhere on the internet, but at least don’t erase my name from it, I spent too many hours on one pic and there will be lots of them hehe :)

anonymous asked:

If you don’t subscribe to the clone theory, what are your personal theories about Operation Kuron and what happened to Shiro?

Personally, I’m a fan of the idea that it’s the same Shiro but not the same body. I also think it’s entirely possible at one point we might run into Shiro’s old body, occupied by a new party, that makes us think it might be clone theory because Shiro being Shiro he’s gonna freak out and not defend his originality like he probably should.

The main reason why I like to think it’s the same Shiro psychologically is… given how long we’ve been here with s3&4 Shiro I’d kind of hope all his character development is going to stick- rather than having to suddenly have a “reset” and bring the “old” Shiro up to speed in some way, which would happen inevitably with clone theory even if the Shiro we’ve been following keeps his memories and development.

My relationship with the clone theory is I think they could swing it effectively if they did it, but, personally, I don’t think it’s the most interesting twist from here, and I think what’s so interesting is that so much of this, so far, has pretty exclusively been a problem to Shiro himself.

He’s the one voicing the doubts, saying “things don’t add up, something’s wrong here”, and while he’s careful not to say that around his team… there’s the fact that even if losing the Black Lion was an awful stress point for him, he kept pushing Keith towards it and I think it was more than fear of unworthiness.

I think Shiro’s already afraid that he’s some kind of secret infiltrator, that the empire’s going to use him to hurt his team. 


Fuze from Tom Clancy’s Rainbow Six Siege game


Next one will be Glaz or Jäger

Fuze is my favorite one this far, it was a challenge to draw him, because his birthplace is Uzbekistan, and I don’t know much about them, but it was great experience!

fanart from my current favourite game, I used on the first pic the original concept art, and the ingame icon to make it look more realistic, and on the last two pic I made a screenshot then redraw it

I really hope one day they will make a face reveal for all of the operators

since I’m an artist and when I’m into a fandom I usually try to find fanarts around the internet, and I can see that fans of this game struggling to make pictures/fanarts because most of the operators’ face are hidden behind masks

So I plan to upload more operators, and maybe the developers will realize what fans wants, and you can help by sharing these pics, free to share them anywhere on the internet, but at least don’t erase my name from it, I spent too many hours on one pic and there will be lots of them hehe :)

Rosswood Falls?


I know I’ve already uploaded something like this, but I wanted to put in more effort this time.

Marble Hornets almost completely won over Gravity Falls in this pic. The atmosphere is also a bit darker and more serious than the last one.

Simple Battery-Operated Fans

         I get the question all the time while fursuiting, “isn’t it hot in there?” .. well, it can be if you don’t have a fan! A lot of people aren’t mechanically inclined, so hopefully this tutorial can help out in the construction of a fan for cooling your mask down. This tutorial covers how to hook one fan up to one 9v battery, with a toggle switch to turn it on and off.

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anonymous asked:

How are the RFA (including V and Baeran) when they pick up how self conscious you are of acne and that you pick at your skin?? <3

  • a/n. hi! shoutout for a friend! check out her page! everyone please send love to my pretty friend ( lyssa ) for me okay?? she’s one of the few people who inspires me to write!! without her encouragements i may not be where i am now~ here’s your request anon! please enjoy reading!

RFA + V and Saeran with an MC who has acne/picks on her skin


  • he was so confused at first when you two went grocery shopping one day
  • you were buying hella lots of FACIAL CLEANSERS when i say lots it’s /hella lots/
  • from those charcoal masks from etude house to the white heads remover ones sold at skinfood inc.
  • because your face looks pretty and fine for him why do u need to use those stuffs??
  • when you two got home you immediately locked yourself up in your bathroom and never came out till 2 hours later you missed dinner
  • he got so hella worried he marched up to your bathroom door and knocked frantically
  • “MC? Hey? Are you alright there? You missed your dinner too!” poor worried bby he didnt eat he was waiting for you
  • “Y- yeah! I’m fine! I’m coming out later!” but your voice was faltering badly and he eventually forced himself in he forgot he had a spare key
  • “I’m coming in, okay?!” and when he saw you crying yourself while hiding your face behind your hair he rushed to you
  • “W- What happened?! Oh god, MC!” he’s so teary-eyed now because he hates seeing you suffer & he’s with you but he couldn’t do anything about it
  • and he’s not used to see you looking so broken
  • he roamed his eyes and saw the messed beauty products on the floor; some were opened and the others not
  • “Hey… Look at me.” he tipped your face up towards him, caressing each scars visible “You’re beautiful for me. You’re more than enough even with these scars. I’m lucky to have you in my life, sweetie.”
  • “But… look at my face… I’m ugly! I’m a mess!“ you cried into his touch as he gently pulled you to a tight hug
  • “I love every inch of you, even the imperfections… Because it’s a part of who you are, okay?” you felt yourself calm down a bit at this because he is being such a romantic ball of sunshine
  • since he got so worried that this might bring your spirits down, he tried to look for some alternative safe facial cleansers you can use that is safe for your skin
  • he called zen numerous times but he won’t pick up so he resorted to calling luciel
  • the next day he asked seven what would be the perfect medicine for acne and scars on the face and seven told him to buy a certain cleanser and a tablet and mix it together, an ointment and a herbal soap ( he said he used it once when he got pimples & acne when he stayed up 5 nights straight because of a mission in a harsh environment and it miraculously healed his face )
  • when you got home that night, you were so surprised to see him sleeping on the couch; you went to wake him up by kissing him lightly on his lips & you were so surprised when you saw what he was cradling in his arms
  • he was carrying a mixture in a bottle, a sort of ointment and a soap you can use for your face tied together with a green ribbon and a note in it,
  • “Seven said this works like a miracle! I know I told you you’re beautiful the way you are but I don’t want you upset and less confident about yourself. Use this so you’ll feel better! But I still love you even if you look like an unshaven gorilla!” uHM yoosung that’s not entirely a compliment but he was still successful to cheer you up
  • he was so surprised to see u snuggling next to him the next day and you are both in your living room’s sofa
  • he was happy to see you finally have a smile on your face after the fresh events of yesterday he may or may not have stolen a kiss from you then

Zen *trigger warning: light face imperfection shaming

  • for zen, having skin imperfections is almost considered a sin of the well-being ( he’s pretty oozy when you talk about skincare and since he’s an actor who walks up to stage and shows his face off to many people, it’s a must that you know how to take care properly of your skin )
  • but he overlook the fact that you had some on your face, he loved you for who you are, acne-filled face or not because he loves you as a whole with all of your imperfections and assured you countless of times that it’s alright and he loves you no matter what and you’re still very beautiful to his eyes
  • so when one day, you were receiving letters from your mails, you have read a fan mail that was not enclosed in an envelope
  • ‘She will ruin your career! She is super ugly! Someone as beautiful as you deserves someone equally the same! Blahs blahs’
  • you couldn’t finish reading the fan mail since your eyes started prickling with tears
  • so you thought you’d take the matter in your own hands
  • you went out that day and bought hella lots of facial cleansers from all of the famous brands you know of ( you’ve seen some that zen are using )
  • and when you got home you tried some and you cried when your face started to become itchy and reddish, the acne seemed to have gotten worst
  • you locked yourself up in your bathroom and cried
  • when zen got home from a rehearsal, he was so surprised to not see you anywhere inside the house
  • “MC! I’m home!” silence “Huh… She’s not here…” he laid down the groceries he bought along the way when he noticed a really looooong receipt laid on the kitchen counter
  • when he read what it contained, he was so surprised to see that everything was for facial cleansing
  • his eyes caught a pile of letters and an opened one he swore he saw only red that time when he read the content
  • he immediately rushed to the only place he knew you’d be at: the bathroom
  • and he was right, you were there, muffling your soft cries
  • he hesitated to knock at first but then just proceeded to do so
  • “MC? I know you’re there… What happened? Are you crying?”
  • “H- huh? N- nothing! S- something just pricked my eyes! I- I’ll be going out in a sec!”
  • but no, he did not wait for you, he slowly unlocked the door ya boi zen used a spare key and let himself in
  • he was kneeling before you before you can even compose yourself
  • “Tell me… is it that fan mail? I saw that you’ve read it…”
  • “W- what? No! Of course not!” you frantically shook your head without letting him see your face
  • “Why are you not looking at me?” his voice was full of concern and as soft as a coo
  • you hesitantly raised your head as you watched what his expression would be but no, he was not fazed by your reddening acne
  • “I- I’m too ugly for you, Zen…” you said sadly and you felt fresh batch of tears running down your cheeks
  • he touched every reddening part of your face as he, himself reflected a sad look towards you
  • he only hugged you so tight as you cried gently into his arms
  • “I’m sorry… I feel like this is all my fault… I might have failed to show you how much I love you no matter what at some point.”
  • you shook your head as you hugged him back tightly “No… it’s my fault. They were right… I will just destroy your image…”
  • “Please don’t say that. What they say don’t matter to me. I am your lover, not them, alright? You only listen to what I say… and I say that you’re beautiful. Too beautiful for my own good…” you gently laughed as he kissed your forehead and then your nose and then gently on your lips
  • “Don’t worry, tomorrow, I’ll hold a press conference and tell my immature fans that if they kept on bothering you, I’ll resign as an actor.”
  • “What?! No! You can’t do that! They’ll go crazy!”
  • “You’re more important to me, okay? Your welfare always comes first. If they started to disrespect you just like that, then I won’t have any assurance that it won’t happen again in the future. I can’t operate on such a harsh fan base.”
  • and the next day, you were so surprised by the amount of apology and gifts you received you even got a 10,000KRW worth gift card from etude house holY CHERITSU
  • zen holds such tremendous destructive power


  • you were in jaehee’s office ( aka jumin’s lair lolol ) when this happened
  • her co-workers saw you and they started gossiping
  • “Is she Ms. Kang’s lover? She looks like swiss cheese!” i’ll fucking punch these girls is2g giggle gossip giggle gossip
  • you pretended you didn’t hear what they said when you saw jaehee coming to you with arms open
  • you beamed at her as you hugged her back
  • but when your eyes spotted those same girls who laughed at you earlier who was still laughing at you, you couldn’t help yourself tear up
  • “U- uhm… I need to go to the toilet first. I have- uhm, business there! I- I’ll see you around!” and you ran your way towards the nearest restroom
  • “MC! Wait!” jaehee shouted after you ran off but no, you’re too embarrassed to face her
  • you washed and rubbed your face using water and ur handkerchief, you kept on rubbing and rubbing until your face turned red
  • and your tears mixed with the water you kept on splashing, hoping these pimples and acne would just disappear
  • you heard a soft knock on the bathroom door and since you locked it, the person couldn’t enter
  • “…MC?” you heard jaehee on the other side, tone laced with concern “I know you’re there. I… checked the CCTVs.” UHM WHAT
  • “W- wait a minute! I’ll be done!” but your tone was quivering and jaehee noticed this one
  • “Are you… possibly crying?” she asked, her knocks now getting louder “Let me in, please.
  • you got guilty when she basically begged for you to let her in and you did as told
  • when you opened the door, she immediately hugged you, caressing your hair in the process as she rested her face on the crook of your neck you both are of the same height
  • “What are you doing to yourself? You’ve… been acting a bit strange.” she whispered as she slowly let you go
  • “T- those girls… They… said I looked like swiss cheese.” you blushed because you sounded like a child telling on her mother
  • “Who?” her face scrunched up, confused
  • “Where did you see them?”
  • you looked away and spoke in a small voice, “U- uhm… those girls in the receiving area. I think they’re working here.”
  • and her face lit up in realization
  • she enclosed your hands with hers and said with a gentle smile, “You’re beautiful no matter what. They’re very blind if they can’t see the beauty standing in front of me.”
  • you looked like a ripe cherry in season because jaehee stop making my heart beat fast omg
  • “Please wait for me at my office. I shall… take care of some things.” she tugged you as she held your hand and gently dragged you back to the office
  • and you were so surprised to see those two girls who were laughing at you to be madly apologizing and even giving you some tips of how to get rid of acne
  • ??
  • you looked over to the side and you saw jaehee smile proudly on her own while giving you a thumbs up
  • the power of a chief executive assistant is scary in a corporate aspect


  • there was this dinner party you and jumin attended together
  • but you were too nervous to attend jUST BECAUSE YOUR FACE IS FILLED WITH ACNE
  • though jumin didn’t seem to mind about it but he never actually said anything about it either
  • at the back of your mind, you thought that maybe he was trying to ignore the fact that you look like a fucking cheese grater
  • but he told you he loves you countless of times and even made you feel it
  • but it didn’t seem enough for you lately you were being a bit needy for his emotions
  • and when he started mingling with other guests, both respectable business men and gorgeous bachelorettes, you felt incredibly insecure
  • because they are so dazzling and every lady inside these halls perfectly suited jumin more than you
  • he didn’t even accompany you tonight!
  • you were left alone sitting and eating your dessert on the table when you noticed the other girls on the next table giggling your way while looking at your face
  • you couldn’t take it longer so you stood up and went for the powder room
  • when he couldn’t see you anymore inside the halls, he grew frantic
  • “If you may excuse me for a while, I have something to tend to.” and he immediately went looking for you
  • he was about to give up when he couldn’t find you and just decided to visit the CCTV room to look for you there
  • but he heard you mumbling angrily inside the powder room
  • two women just went out from there while giggling badly, he knitted his eyebrows as he softly pushed the doors of the women’s powder room
  • “MC?” you jumped in surprise when you heard his deep voice and dropped your foundation that caused it to break apart and spill all over the floor
  • you stared at it as you felt your eyes getting watery at the current predicament
  • “Are you alright? What fell?” he asked in curiosity as he finally took a step forward
  • “No! Stop right there. Don’t come near me!” you spat angrily as you tried to gather the broken pieces together, hoping to get it back together
  • he was taken aback by your sudden hostility that he couldn’t help but ask in concern, “What’s happening to you? Did I do something wrong? If it’s your make-up, we can always buy another–”
  • “You don’t understand!” you lifted your gaze up as you glared at him with tear-filled eyes and tear-stained cheeks but he just stares at you confused
  • “What? I won’t understand if you won’t tell me. Why are you crying?” oh gr8 he just throws sarcastic remarks at you
  • “No! Leave me be! I have some business to take care of!” and you went inside an empty stall, banging the door on his face
  • “…Nobody has business to do inside an empty stall.” he flat out says, making your anger boil more
  • “Get out! I will poop!”
  • “Then, I’ll wait here.”
  • “No! This is the girl’s restroom! I’ll call the security!”
  • “My men are currently the ones who are guarding the hall.”
  • “Just… Go! Get out! I don’t want to see you!” your voice hitched because of your tears god why is jumin sometimes so infuriating!!
  • you heard him sigh exasperatedly as he said out of frustration, “You are being absolutely childish.”
  • “Whatever! I won’t leave if you stay here! Go back there, they might be looking for you!”
  • “…fine.” and when you heard him step out of the room, you let out a frustrated sigh
  • just as you moved to open the stall, you were so surprised when you saw him leaning against the door with a dark look upon his features
  • “Have you calmed down?“ he asked without any evident emotions on his voice but you can tell he’s a bit irritated “If you have, you are coming with me.” and with that, he dragged you out of the powder room and back into the party hall & you were so confused because he just went directly to the center isle and checked if the mic was on
  • your eyes widened at his next movements
  • “I hope everyone is having a good evening. Well then… Let me begin. If any of you insult my very beautiful wife here, you will pay. This is because I love her so much.” he breathed and turned to kiss you passionately
  • “Insulting her means insulting me as well. So you better watch what you say from now on.”
  • he smiled softly at you as he tucked a loose strand of hair behind your ear, “Come, my love. Let’s leave. Have you been doubting what I feel for you? Is it the reason why you’ve felt so insecure? Then tonight, I will make sure you never question my love again.”
  • did he realize he’s announcing that on public? omg


  • he was so confused when he saw you surfing for the most effective brands that will remove acne from your face
  • because your face looked perfect for him and it is part of what he loved about you??
  • he can’t help but notice that you’ve been feeling under the weather lately just by observing your bodily actions
  • “Honeyy~~! Do you want to play Immortal Combat with me? Come on, I’ll let you win this time!”
  • and when you straight up ignored him, he was so surprised that he got extremely worried because you were not being yourself at all
  • one day, when you got home with a bag full of cosmetics and facial cleansers, he asked you, “Ah!! Welcome back, my baby! Ohh!! That’s a lot! What are you gonna do with those?”
  • “U- uhm, nothing!” and then you immediately rushed to your room, locking the door
  • oh god help the tomato head he’s getting extra worried coz you have not been talking to him properly for 2 straight days
  • he gently knocked on your door after 30 minutes of waiting for you to come out but you didn’t
  • “MC? What are you doing?” when he gently pressed his ear against the door, he couldn’t help but hear you cry softly “MC?!”
  • he panicked so bad he immediately went looking for his spare key
  • when he opened the door with his heart beating madly against this chest, he rushed to you and when he saw you lying down the floor with a bottle of opened facial cleanser and blood on your finger tips, he had already thought of the worst
  • “What happened?! Dammit!” he gently picked you up as you struggled to get away from his grip
  • “No! Get away from me! I’m hideous!” you cried but he didn’t let you go
  • “Stop! Stop this, MC! Ow!” he cried in pain when you accidentally hit him on his cheeks and on his jaw
  • you immediately calmed down when you saw how he bit his lower lip to prevent himself from feeling the pain
  • “Luciel…?” you got worried because you accidentally hit him and when he lifted his gaze up on you, it broke your heart so much; he looked so broken
  • he closed his eyes as he inhaled sharply then he dipped his head on yours and kissed you
  • “Please… don’t scare me like this again.” he said, pain evident on his quiet voice “Oh god. You don’t know how scared I was! I saw… blood on your fingers.”
  • “Luciel…” you bit your lower lip but you couldn’t prevent your voice from faltering “I’m sorry…”
  • “No matter what, you’ll always be my beautiful MC! Ahh… I hope you realize that soon…” he smiled again as he gently caressed your reddening cheeks, touching gently every scar he can see
  • “Without this, it isn’t you. Then you’ll no longer be my MC…” you slowly smiled at his attempt of cheering you up because it was hella sweet
  • when he saw this he smiled fully as he pulled you into a deep hug “Don’t ever do this again, alright? Promise me…”
  • “Alright, I- I promise… uhm, I love you, Luciel.”
  • “Me too. I love you. Always will.”


  • he had not been used by your sudden change of behavior
  • he woke up to you one day not even finishing the breakfast he prepared for you nor even the lunch he made that day
  • you went out without telling him anything that’s why he got worried
  • but he decided to wait for you at home
  • when he saw you carrying shopping bags filled with nothing but FACIAL CLEANSERS he became concerned
  • “Hm? What are you going to do with those, MC?” he asked as he gently touched the bag but you immediately pulled it out of his reach
  • “Nothing! I- I’m going to head to bed soon, okay?” he was so surprised because this was the first time you became incredibly snappy at him and it was still afternoon and you’re heading to bed already??
  • he sighed because he decided to let you calm down first and that he should not deal with you when you’re still this heated
  • but when he found some stashed photographs on the dining table, and it was all pictures he took of you, he became confused
  • and then he realized what you were going to do with those cleansers you bought
  • he headed to the common bathroom connected with your bedroom and he was right
  • he saw you there, rubbing cotton madly at your reddening face
  • he immediately grabbed your arm to try and stop you from frantically destroying your face
  • “MC! Stop! What do you think you’re doing? That will irritate your face more!” but you did not listen
  • you cried as you continued rubbing the cotton and when he finally grabbed your hand and grasped it tightly with his is when you finally stopped
  • “Please… stop doing this to yourself…” he pleaded, pulling you into a hug
  • “J- Jihyun ??” you were so surprised because you felt tears falling down your shoulders coming from him
  • “Stop… destroying the face of the one I love…” he continued to plead and soon you felt yourself cry more
  • “I’m sorry… It’s just that… I’m not pretty. I make your photographs ugly. I’m sorry…”
  • “Ssh… don’t say that. To me, you are the most beautiful work of art.”
  • and he ended up teaching you how to gently apply it to your face since he doesn’t want to see you so depressed with your current problem


  • “Hey, Saeran… what is beauty to you?”
  • you had asked him once when you two were on the way home from eating out
  • he turned to look at you with a deadpanned face while letting out a small sigh
  • “What kind of question is that?”
  • “Ehh! Just answer me!” you remembered yourself whining because of his answer
  • “Jeez… alright, alright. Stop being so pushy. Beauty is something only few can appreciate and are lucky to have.”
  • he pouted his lips as he whispered ( you almost didn’t hear it ) “…and I’m lucky to have you.”
  • you looked at him quizically as he just shrugged and continued to sip on the fruit shake you two had for a take out
  • that conversation has been playing on your mind like a broken mp3 player since you noticed your facial problem have returned
  • you have a cotton ball on your hand and a few bottles of opened facial cleansers while you were looking at the mirror on your bathroom— you had gone frantic since your acnes began to show up once more
  • when you dabbed gently on it, you were so surprised to see that your cheeks only reddened further as you felt a burning sensation on your face
  • what you did has made your face irritable and urged for the acnes to swell more
  • “Oh god…” you choked back a sob because wtf it has gotten worst than earlier!! goddammit!
  • what face are you gonna show him now?? you looked horrendous! your face is red with swollen pimples!
  • when saeran got home, he was surprised to see your disorganized shoes on the foyer and the kitchen was messy
  • the worst of the worst has come circling inside his mind and he immediately yelled for your name, his tone shaking
  • when he finally arrived at the bathroom door, he was surprised to hear your sobs you didn’t notice him enter the house and you thought you’re still alone
  • he came knocking heavily on the door that you jumped from surprise and you hit your hands on the sink’s surface, making you yelp in extreme pain
  • when the door suddenly slammed open, revealing a saeran with heavy beads of sweats on his forehead, disheveled hair and panting madly
  • “What happened?! Goddammit! MC?! Fuck!”
  • he rushed to your side, immediately tending to you since you were crying from the pain of hitting your hand and the pain of being not beautiful enough for him
  • when he saw the scattered cleansers and make-up supplies, he immediately realize the situation that happened he’s p much knowledgeable with this stuff trust him on this one
  • “No.. please, don’t touch me!” you cried further and this has certainly took saeran aback like he couldn’t believe what you were saying “I look horrible! Oh god… I’m sorry… I’m not good enough for you…” you choked back a sob
  • “What are you talking about?” his tone was quiet yet with conviction “Since when has physical appearance became a hindrance to us?”
  • there he is again with his quizzical remarks!
  • ”…I have been a monster. I believed I cannot be saved after everything came crashing down. But you… you accepted me. Despite everything… despite my own ugly past… and you got the guts to call yourself horrible?!”
  • you lifted your eyes to him when you heard how his tone hitched then quivered, he looked broken and sad and you can’t help but feel a lot sadder
  • “Beauty is something only few can appreciate and are lucky to have.” you heard him repeat what he answered to your question before. you steadied your gaze on him as he stared at you intently
  • “I love you. Isn’t that enough? You’re beautiful for me. What more do you want? I’m lucky to have you in my life. Are you still looking for more?”
  • he was blushing hard while saying this and is not looking directly at you ( you got up and tackle-hugged him because wow you didn’t know he was this romantic?? and what he said really lifted your spirits )
  • you laughed with glee as you urged him to repeat what he said
  • “…NO.” and he went outside without any second glances he was so embarassed excuse him for a moment
  • awe shucks you do know he does love you to bits
Shinhwa Company’s Updates: About the concert in Japan
  • Please take note that I’m not the best translator, but I hope this will help you all to understand the situation.

[NOTICE] Apology for stopping 2017 Shinhwa Concert in Japan:

Good morning. It’s Shinhwa Company.

On the May 30 (Tue.) - 31 (Wed.), 2017 to come, was scheduled
The 2017 Shinhwa Japan Concert.

We have the sad news to said that the performance was canceled due to the circumstances of the organizer company.

Shinhwa Company,
Japanese fans who are waiting for a concert in Japan for 4 years, and fans all over the world

Although we did our best for the preparations, we were finally notified of the decision to stop the performance.
About this point, we at Shinhwa Company are deeply saddened.

We apologize to all the fans who were looking forward to the show with all their heart and sincerity.

Shinhwa Company will make every effort to ensure that the refund process for all those who book the show is smoothly proceeded through the concert ticket reservation service.

If there are any parts where the refund does not work smoothly, we will do our best to call for compensation and solve the problem.

For more information on refunds, we will notify you immediately as soon as the performance agency(organizer) reports the exact details.

We sincerely apologize again for the sad news that the show is cancelled.
[I’m not sure about my translation below]
Shinhwa Company will not be affected by this performance. So that fans will not have to worry about further damage.
We will do our best.

[NOTICE] 2017 Shinhwa Japan Concert canceled, about Shinhwa Company’s position:

Good morning. It’s Shinhwa Company.
On the May 30 (Tue.) - 31 (Wed.), 2017 to come, was scheduled
For canceling the performance of Shinhwa Company, we will inform you of our position.

During that time, Shinhwa Company even though the preparations for the performance vere very poor from the organizer company.
Despite this, we continued to make constant efforts to make the concert possible.

However, the Japanese organizer company was consistently unfaithful to respond to the major contract for the concert preparations,
At the end of April, at the end of the sale of the Japanese fan club tickets,  we have not shown willingness to perform because of problems with delivery of tickets with the Japanese fan club operating company, which has nothing to do with the performance contract with the organizer.
So, even though there are various contract violations of the organizer company, the Shinhwa Company was willing to continue the performance until it compromises various rights such as reduction of the contract fees with the determination that the performance should be performed unconditionally for the fans who reserved the performance we tried our best, but we did not prevent the unfortunate result.

( 1 ) Violation of contract from organizer company

  • - Minor progress such as flight, accommodation, performance stage system configuration
  • - As specified in the contract they should abide the performance stage device for the three days
    from 20:00 on the day before performance.
  • - The matters conveyed about the stage without any consultation and with greatly reduced drawings (drawings is contract fees)
  • - The amount of the second batch of contract fees was to be paid until the end of April is still unpaid

( 2 ) Japan fan club official operating company related

  • - I truly quite understand this part, but I can’t find the english words for explain it, so I resume, there was also problems with the company that manage the offical japan fanclub, with tickets etc
    Shinhwa Company is saying that it’s true, there was problem, but

    «That information is not correlated with the performance agreement contract and is not a condition for the contract with the organizer company».
    For this part, Shinhwa Company also asked the Japanese fan club management company for clarification.

( 3 ) Consultation for performance

  • - Despite the fact that the preparation of the performances from the Japanese organizer company was very poor, the Shinhwa Company continued to make efforts so the concert could be.

In the end, in order to help the organizer company, we tried to make concessions about the contract, as reduced the fees for the 2nd batch that till unpaid, as long the organizer company provide a stage to perform.
However, the day after the agreement was concluded, the Japanese organizer company reversed the contents of the agreement and requested to postpone the performance by referring to the issue ( 2 ) which had nothing to do with the contents of the contract with them.

So, Shinhwa Company visited Japan for the final negotiation with the company
For fans who pre-ordered performances, we repeatedly stated that the performance should be proceed normally.
The contract amount has been further reduced, and the performance stage device and various operational contents have been shown to give utmost consideration to the situation of the organizer company. Therefore, the Japanese organizer company again promised to do the best for still preparing the concert for Shinhwa Company.
Despite the violations of various contracts by the Japanese organizer companie and the poor preparations for the concert.
Shinhwa Company, for fans who pre-ordered and waited for the show
We gave up our contractual rights, and  have expressed our willingness to continue the show once the minimal set of stage devices for Shinhwa’s members have been made available.

But despite our efforts and commitment
Today on May 24th, we were informed of the suspension of the Japanese performance..

At this point, less than a week before the performance
As well as a lot of Japanese fans who came with their hopes and encouragement,
For fans in Korea and abroad, we were informed of the news
We sincerely apologize once again.

Shinhwa Company will enter into a strong legal process for the violation of the above contract
Also, do not let the fans who are damaged by this canceled performance
We will do our best.

If the Japanese organizer company is passive in refunding to the fans who purchased tickets
such as appointing a lawyer in Japan we will do our best to make a normal refund to you.
We will be able to provide more detailed guidance on this part in the future.

We apologize for the sincerity and patience of the fans who waited for the performance once again.

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[fanaccount] The YUNJAE encounter on 15.10.02

Initially I had decided not to write about it because I considered the most important info was already shared by other fans and I did not think my opinion would be necessary, especially since I did not take any videos of the moment, and I thought everything else I could add was already out of timing, BUT since that short video of Yunjae ‘hugging’ came out I see a lot of people being unsure about it, which is totally understandable because I know how it feels like not wanting to overreact about something unless we’re 100% sure it’s true.

So basically I pondered if I should speak out about my own experience and what I saw with my own eyes, and decided I wanted to write about it and share it with the fandom because:

1.    They did bro-hugged.

2.    I have been on the other side of the coin and I dislike having all sort of versions and not knowing what is real and what is not.

3.    I dislike when people exaggerate facts and write biased fanaccounts.

4.    I dislike when facts get twisted due to mistranslations, so I rather write this myself in English.

5.    I know I can write an objective fanaccount for everyone who was not there, and I feel  in that way I will be contributing to a better understanding of what happened in such a memorable day for us.

Who am I?

An international fan from Mexico, currently living in Korea, studying a master’s degree, post lawsuit DBSK/JYJ fan (meaning I support and love the 5 boys), Chun biased, Yunjae shipper but not the delusional kind lol, I just like them together ^^

2015.10.02 – Gyeryong-si, Ground Forces Festival

I arrived to the event place early in the morning on Friday Oct 2nd, I was there from before the event started so I also got to see Jaejoong performing “Arirang” and Yunho MCing the opening ceremony, and that also was a very special moment because after all these years we were finally seeing the two of them together in one place. But at that moment I was still not sure that meant they had been talking or whether they were in good terms or not.

Now, you all know what happened after that, Jaejoong performed at the Fringe Stage after the Opening Ceremony and Yunho was the MC for the Main Stage afternoon performance.

There was another Fringe performance scheduled for the afternoon at 3:00 pm and I thought Jaejoong would perform again, but seeing how there were considerable less people waiting for the performance to start I felt that fans already knew Jaejoong was going to perform again.

But I decided to wait anyway, after all I was already there and it’s not like I had anything more interesting to do. So the afternoon performance started but I knew Jaejoong would not come out first if he was going to perform so instead I went to the Main Stage, and saw some fans at the backstage looking to the direction of a tent on the opposite side, Yunho was there, so I took a couple of pictures, he was there with his manager and parents.

According to the time of the pictures that was at 3:20 pm. The group of fans there got closer to the tent where Jung was, but I seriously felt that was a little bit too much, as in I felt he would feel uncomfortable somehow, I don’t know just the idea of standing there in group observing him and taking pictures and videos constantly seems wrong to me, I did not want to be there so I left to the Fringer Stage again, and that is when Jaejoong wore the mascot suit and came to the Fringe stage XD So I was there and I saw him fangirling over the soldier who was performing at that moment, obviously I never imagined Jaejoong would be the one wearing the suit! I just remember I kept looking at the mascot and smiling because its actions were so cute and funny! I really thought “whoever is inside that costume is good at this”. Now that I think about it, it might be that Jae has seen us fangirling over him for so many years that he knows exactly how to portray a fangirl lol

And you can see me on the video CJES posted being totally oblivious about Jae dancing behind me. I actually was thinking “please don’t pick me to dance with you because that will be embarrassing” …ugh >.<


Anyway after the Fringer afternoon performance was over and Jaejoong didn’t perform as I had expected, so again I just started to walk around, and by that time there was very few people and I saw a couple of fans waiting outside the Operating Headquarter tent, I thought maybe they knew Jaejoong or Yunho were inside so I waited there too.

I few minutes later, Jaejoong came out of the tent, and I was so shocked to see him that close, I seriously did not expect to see him there, but he was just right there! and there were only around 8-10 Chinese fans and me!

When Jaejoong came out of the tent he walked directly to the blue tent on the side of the Headquarters one, I had not noticed before, until Jae went there, that Yunho’s parents were sitting in that place!!

Blue tent where the encounter happened lol

I could not believe the magnitude of what I was witnessing, Jaejoong greeted Yunho’s parents and he was standing right in front of Yunho’s dad and talking, I think I was so shocked about the implications of such a moment that I totally did not see Yunho was also there at first!

I somehow felt as if I should not be there, I felt it was such an intimate, personal, special moment for Jaejoong (greeting Jung’s parents after all this time), that I did not dare to look at them constantly or take pictures of videos, I was shaking and my heart was beating fast and I just did not know what to do with myself.

There were also Yunho’s manager and Jaejoong’s manager (not An-Chan, probably someone CJES sent), and when the Chinese fans were trying to take pictures and videos with their cellphones and cameras, the managers walked toward us and started yelling at us in a not polite way to not take pictures and to go away.

To be honest I don’t know why they acted so harsh about it, their attitude made it even more obvious that it was such an important moment that somehow they did not want people to see/share proofs with the world XD But also I think Yunho and Jaejoong did not care about it, because honestly, if they didn’t want people to see them together talking and such, they wouldn’t have done it right there in the open in front us fans, because of course they saw we were there, so they could have gone inside the tent, but they did not, so I think Yunho and Jaejoong were so cool about it that they did not care if fans saw them together or not, which is a good thing, right? :)

So they were talking there for a little while, and that is when you see pictures of Yunho standing up and walking to Jae’s sister to greet her and you can see also Jaejoong’s niece Seohyeon near Yunho and Yunho looking to her.

And then, when Jaejoong started saying goodbye to Yunho’s parents bowing to them several times and all, it’s when the bro-hug happened. Like I said at first I was not aware Yunho was there, but I did saw when Jaejoong shook hands with this guy in blue jacket (which was Yunho XD) and bro-hugged. 

What I mean by bro-hug is basically –>>THIS <<–(CLICK THE LINK YOU GUYS XD) but softer …it was not a long full hug (not MKFM kind if you’re wondering lol), but the fact remains that they greeted goodbye in a way you don’t do unless you’re close to that person and of course if you were in an awkward position or not totally in good terms with someone, you do not bro-hug like that. If they were just being polite to each other they could just have vowed to each other and that is it, but it was not the case :)

So after Jaejoong greeted goodbye he walked to the bathroom and Yunho and his parents went to the back of the Headquarters tent, I do not know if they went inside or not because from where I was standing I could not see, and even though other fans followed them I did not want to do that, like it was too much.

After a few minutes Jaejoong came walking back from the bathroom and shared a couple words with his sister (Seohyeon’s mom) and went to the back of the Headquarters tent too where Yunho had walked to earlier.

After a little while Jaejoong came back again and went inside the Headquarters tent through the front door, where I was standing, I told him he had worked hard in Korean and he vowed :3

I remember seeing Jaejoong all sweaty and his face was so red and I was wondering what had happened to him, I thought he didn’t look good, now I know it was because he had been playing around with the mascot suit before coming to greet Yunho and his parents, it all makes sense now hehe.

I kept waiting outside the main gate of the headquarters tent because I was trying to calm myself down after what I had witnessed, I looked at the only picture I had taken with my camera and I realized I had captured Jaejoong, Yunho, Jung’s parents and Jae’s sister in one frame! I was shaking and I could not believe I had proof of the encounter, I had been there to see it with my own eyes, I did not need to read it from someone else or be doubtful if it had really happened or not, because I knew it had happened because I saw it myself!

The time I took this picture is 4:33 pm

Then Jaejoong came out of the HQ tent by himself again, that boy ^^ and he walked to the Information boot placed beside the HQ tent, I was so surprised he went out by himself, as if he was not a celebrity, and all the fangirls there started following him so close and taking pictures with their cameras, I felt bad seeing that, so I followed from a distance that I considered it was not invading his personal space lol

He went into the information boot as was asking something, then he came out and I was standing right there, I did not expect him to come out from where I was standing so I was shocked, and so I was face to face with him, because fans were surrounding us and I could not move back, then he said “excuse me” in Korean and I moved to the side so he could walk by, I just took a picture from his back once he walked away.

So that is basically what happened, after that Yunho left the venue first, and Jaejoong left after.

I do not know if this makes things clearer for everyone, I hope it does, and if you have any questions let me know, I really just want facts to be straight and clear for everyone.

In my personal opinion, Yunho and Jaejoong are in good terms, that is for sure, I do believe it after what happened on Oct 2nd, not only this but also that another video of them inside a tent and Yunho helding Jae’s arm before leaving. For me this moment is not about the pairing itself, I mean, it’s not that now I think they are together or anything like that, but for me this represents that they had the chance to talk (during the weeks they were together at Headquarters training for the festival), to solve their issues, and that they are in good terms now, that they were ok about fans seeing them together talking and all, and it makes me believe this is the beginning of a reconciliation between the 5 of them, I don’t know if one day they will perform together again, but just knowing they can be in good terms again and openly being in touch and all, that’s enough for me to have peace of mind.

I feel so fortunate and thankful for the chance I had to be there to see the encounter, because I can be sure of what happened and therefore I am in peace, and I do hope me sharing what I experienced helps you to be in peace too ^^

I could also attend the festival 4 days, and there is many things I could share about the experience and how our boys are so professional, considerate, talented, thoughtful, etc. but that would be way too long, but I can say I never felt more proud to be their fan, and I just have more reasons to keep loving and supporting the five of them and having hope until the end.

Thanks everyone for reading this and feel free to share it so more fans can also clear their doubts ^^

*fandom hug*


PS. will post the Spanish version later, I’m off to class now ^^

EDIT: if you need more detail about the bro-hug if the video I linked you to is not enough lol

Yunho walks to Jaejoong and then he extended his right arm and Jae did the same, they shook hands and half hugged (kind of bumped their shoulders).

Someone asked me if they hugged with both arms around each other, they did not hug like that ^^ No both arms around each other :)

But seriously, that does not make any diference! ^0^ what happened is awesome enough I think lol