i often feel the same way

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I’m really sorry to hear how much this weighs on you, dude. Like I said I kind of get this, as in I’ve often felt this sense of shame and unworthiness around my desire with others but it sounds like for you it goes deeper and I’m really sorry you have to grapple with it because I think you’re interesting and kind and attractive and it sucks that you don’t get to feel that way. ��

Thanks - having you say something is always worthwhile, especially since I know you’ve had some similar things even if not the same. :) And, like, I do have moments where I do get to feel it, but the other shit is always waiting to ambush me if I have a single lonely night.

I think honestly for a lot of people no matter how much they move past stuff, and maybe even only rarely feel really down on themselves, when they do have the bad nights or feeling unattractive it is Golden Oldies Night on Self Loathing 103.2 FM. It often seems to be all the old stuff that circles ‘round and gets you again - it stays fresh a lot better than the good stuff (but hopefully one makes more good stuff as you go).

Really what i need to do is get better at feeling interesting and kind and attractive and not have it be solely tied to romantic or sexual attraction. I’m working on that, but it is a slog ‘cause I think we all know how feeling a lack of something during formative years tends to build some pretty well-paved mental pathways.

Initial Thoughts: Tiger Philanthropist

This episode marked a change in the way the story in SU would be progressing from now on. Many times it’s been pointed out how the Gems are ill-equipped to be Steven’s caretakers, and how usually, they themselves are the ones for whom Steven needs to put his own needs aside. 

The Gems have deep personal issues that they refused to acknowledge for a very long time, centuries in fact. Their suddenly being guardians of a teenage boy was not going to make those things go away. So early Steven spent a lot of time being ignored and left behind. It’s a fact he brings up in Rocknaldo. While we’ve been analysing it and pointing it out, it’s more than clear that Steven has been aware of it himself.

As the Gems engaged with him more, he found himself in the middle of meltdowns, arguments, and panic attacks. And we’ve seen how having to put aside how he feels has worn him down and given him issues of his own, about never being a good enough Crystal Gem, and never matching up to Rose.

These feelings culminated in the latest Steven Bomb (Bomb 5), when Steven decides to put his feelings first and refuse to listen to the Gems, instead seeking out Blue Diamond. What he realises is that doing to Greg and the Gems exactly what the Gems did to him was not going to make things better.

But I think it was a wake-up call for the senior Crystal Gems as well. Their becoming more accommodating of Steven has been a long, slow process. In this episode, Steven actually feels comfortable enough to tell Amethyst how he felt about wrestling, that he disagreed with her decision to quit, or at least the way she quit. 

And that’s something relatively new, because Steven doesn’t often talk about how he feels when he’s with the Gems. Instead of making light of it, Amethyst engages him on the same level. She tells him about wrestling’s personal relevance to her at a particular stage in her life. 

When Steven goes back to the ring, we expect he can take down human beings easily. When Amethyst appears, we know it’s not to save the day. That is how much our expectations of the characters changed. It’s a far cry from season one in which we believed Steven couldn’t defend himself.

Contrast to episodes like Joking Victim, Amethyst didn’t just stand by and let things happen. She washed her hands of wrestling but went back because part of her knew Steven had unfinished business. And she put aside her own desire to quit so that Steven could have closure.

I would say they end the match on their terms, together. Wrestling was never about feeling like he was good enough. His reason for doing it was to spend time with Amethyst. He was hurt because she decided on quitting without telling him, as if those memories didn’t matter.

In a turn of events, it is Amethyst, not Steven, who makes the speech that says exactly those things. In what I hope becomes a more common occurrence, someone who cares about Steven pre-empts how he feels instead of his having to do it the other way around all the time. 

What Amethyst gave him was assurance that the memories he treasured of their being together meant something to her too. And it implied that finding something else to do was always going to be an option. Wrestling had gone stale for them, but their relationship did not.

I’m glad this kind of shift occurred in a daily life type of episode. It is small acts that people decide to do every day that make them who they are. Becoming a totally different person in a dangerous or extreme moment loses the meaning of the act if only because the change is not as organic and nothing sustains it after the adrenaline fades.

I hope that this shift continues on. It was one thing to begin to care about Steven, but I find it significant that the Gems are also learning how to care about Steven, because it does make a difference.

Your voice sounds completely different in different languages. It alters your personality somehow. I don’t think people get the same feeling from you. The rhythm changes. Because the rhythm of the language is different, it changes your inner rhythm and that changes how you process everything.

When I hear myself speak French, I look at myself differently. Certain aspects will feel closer to the way I feel or the way I am and others won’t. I like that—to tour different sides of yourself. I often find when looking at people who are comfortable in many languages, they’re more comfortable talking about emotional stuff in a certain language or political stuff in another and that’s really interesting, how people relate to those languages.

—  Francois Arnaud 
I’m tired of being sad and having no clue as to why I am this way, so I’ll write about the happy bits of me and why I smile. I dance when I’m alone, when the music gets just right and I’m sure that no one is watching, it’s okay to feel lonely, I used to not like the idea of it, but once you’re comfortable in your own skin even depression starts to feel like a breeze. I’m reading a book that says we are the beliefs and thoughts that we think and believe in. So if I say that I’m happy a thousand times, one of those will come back as true. So if I say I’ll find the love of my life some day, some day she’ll appear in front of me while I’m writing another poem. It’s good to have goals, the only goal I’ve ever had up until recently was to keep myself happy with someone else, that’s not a goal, but an illusion. You can’t live your life for someone else, it’s called your life for a reason. Happiness must happen when I say so, so I’m saying so. We bring into this world the kind of kindness that we’ve been dealt, so when I fake a smile, my mother is omnipresent. Although it’s not real, fake it until you make it, right? The book also says, spend more time doing things that make you lose track of time, so I decided to write again and more often than not, to not compare myself to others because once you start doing that, there’s no going back. I don’t write like someone else, I write like myself. I don’t think like anyone that I know, there’s just you and the beautifully twisted world, we’re all trying to find redemption inside of coral skies and trustworthy friends. I would break my own hand to contain my anger, it is contained. Happiness is what we make it, so if I say that it exists, then it will be so. Listening to your guidance, that makes me happy. You know who you are. Breathless to the words, you paint the sunrise with your pinky and promise that as long as I’m here today, tomorrow will not be filled with sorrow. I keep writing letters to the future person that I will be, I wonder if I’ll change. I probably will, we all do in one way or another. I’m the kind of person that snaps a picture of the sky while I’m driving, I’m reckless, but we’re still alive. Life’s too short and I need to be more careful, I’m certain that death has given up a few passes for me. Do you ever feel like you’re running out of time? Like there’s something trying to make a statement, a lost word that even google couldn’t even get its hands on. Do you ever feel like no one’s really listening? We’re all selfish in the end, but the ones that truly listen– they are the ones that I live for. I maintain online friendships better than I do with my siblings, I guess our thinking is just on different frequencies. On the topic of frequencies– the you that you would like to be is out there, you just need to listen. Hear the right words said by the right person and you’ll be in the right spot to be the you that you’d want to be in this life. Do you ever feel like you’re not good enough? Remember that thing I said about thoughts? Sometimes we just need to let go a little bit, embrace the art of it. To be left to the wind, the unknown will bring us to more adventures and you may not be loved by many, but there’s a chance that you will be– why not take it? I would like to break out of this, I want to smile more and to laugh a little louder, I just want to make myself proud of who I will be versus who I used to be. And you can’t turn back the hands of time, you cannot change your mistakes– they are permanent, but you are not. There is a fire inside of your chest and if you keep suffocating yourself with an indescribable pain then you’ll only suffer in a incomprehensible way. I just want to fill this world with more love and less pain, I see a butterfly and I’m easily distracted– how beauty will fly past you if you’re not even paying attention because you’re so damn sad all of the time. So I drop all signs of negativity and lean towards the positive, I am the only vibe that’ll alter my moods, so I must feel more wealthy than a million silver spoons even if I don’t have any, so I must create the art that likes to spill from my fingertips, we live such short lives– why not be the best version of yourself? Who will you be if tomorrow was your last day on this planet? Will you cry because it’s over? Or will you search the ends of the earth until you’ve found the fountain of youth? I’ve got a secret to share with you. You can be a 100 years old and still have the sweetest smile, you can be in your 20s and have a soul heavy enough to sink the titanic, life is strange, life is strange. We live our youth to buy pretty things, but live our oak days trying to make up more time– it waits for no one, the wrong turn will break you, a simple kiss will turn your thoughts into poetry and a life of self-hate is a road that needs constant validation– why not be your own way out? Be your own lover, be your own brand of music, be your own kind of poem, be your own story of kindness, and if you’re not perfect just look around– nobody is. I’m tired of dreaming, I want to build it instead. You can’t be who you want to be if you’re still having the same thoughts from last year– you can’t change or heal in the right way if you’re not willing to break a few pieces of your heart because the clutter inside of our minds often match the attitude that we give off. So like a quote, so like a poem, so like a bedtime story. If I repeat it enough times, I’ll be happy. I just want to be happy. I just want to let go of the bad feelings. I just want to love myself enough to see a brighter day. You can’t change the world if you can’t even change yourself, right? If I repeat it enough times, then it must be real. I will be happy. Sadness is a crucial emotion because without it, being delighted and euphoric wouldn’t be so dense, but that’s the beauty of the intensity to which we should love ourselves. I want to be so fucking glad to wake up today that it’ll just drown my depression into the white noise. I want to glow in the dark and live like the jellyfishes, give my poetry the immortality to always bring a smile onto the faces of those that love who I am even if I’m a bit flawed because at the end of the day– you’re the only one sleeping on your bed, you’re the only one who’s going to determine if you’ve got enough room to breathe, you’re the only one to have the last say if you’re art or not.
—  I wanted to write something happy for you–
yes, you. The person that’s reading this.

It’s ironic that people call Taurus a boring sign when they literally embody what most people in society try to aim for: luxury, comfort and money. At the end of the day, most people would want to be comfortable in their house, eat some nice food, and dress nice. Not a bad thing at all.

People with Taurus people are completely capable of embodying the qualities of a rich person. They’re calm, steady, and they have great taste, but they’re also accused of being lazy and overly indulgent, which can be true but… Like, I feel like most people who follow societal norms would aim to do that, yet they will call Taureans boring at the same time. Do you see how it’s not making any sense at all?

People strive to be what Taurus embodies, but they will also turn around and call them boring at the same time and it literally makes no sense.

soften the blow. 12x13 coda. deancas. (ao3)

Cas picks up the phone halfway through the second ring. “Dean?” he says. “Is everything all right?”

“I love you,” Dean says. Cas inhales sharply on the other end of the line. “And I don’t have any bad news to follow that up with.”

“I–” Cas says. “What?”

“Getting real tired of people telling me that just to soften the blow,” Dean says. He hangs up, heart racing.

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The "Myth" of Black Love

Let me start off by saying that I got inspiration for this post from another post about the disillusionment of a black woman about dating within the black community, expressing that too many black men aren’t attracted to black women and ideally go for non black women. Which got me thinking that with all this recent promotion of black couples via social media, I feel like we can’t just focus on the pros of black love, but we must also bring to light the darker, behind the scenes reality for black women finding love among black men who directly and indirectly express their refusal to be with black women.

I get it, the praise for black love has to do with unifying the black community by saying, “See, black men and women DO love each other.” And yes, I believe it. I don’t believe the photos I see of black couples on social media are fake or anything, but can we also bring to light female black singles and how their singleness is affected by the presence of misogyny noir and anti blackness among black men? Dating in general is hard, but imagine how dating is as not only a black person, but a black woman who does not fit Eurocentric beauty standards (such as light skin, light eyes, loose hair, slim facial features, etc.) Often times I commonly see these types of “conventionally” attractive black women paired up with black men more so than mono-racial looking black women - I wonder why?

As a mono-racial, dark skinned black woman who grew up in predominantly white spaces, from my own experiences on and offline, I can confidently say that a lot of black men don’t consider me to necessarily be their “ideal” type based off black and white standards of beauty, and I feel like black and white standards of beauty go hand in hand for obvious reasons having to do with cultural assimilation, a history of colonization, and so on. Which brings me right to another point I’d like to make about looks equating to superiority or inferiority. Sure, you can’t judge a book by the cover yet too often black men do so, falling prone to the stereotypes associated with non black ethnicities of women - so it’s not just about non black women meeting a Eurocentric standard of beauty easier than most black women. It’s also about how black men view them as less “controlling” than black women, therefore more agreeable and “nicer” JUST due to ethnicity and ethnicity alone. Mind you, I’m not saying black men who date outside their ethnicity all have agendas behind their attractions, BUT I am still iffy about their reasonings for “racial preferences.” I think now is a good time to quote myself from the post about the disillusioned black woman:

“And whenever I see a black woman who exclusively dates outside the black community I feel like it’s not for the same reasons black men often do it - for black women who either often or only date non black men I feel like I have more understanding for them because of the treatment they receive from black men who often have no issue with voicing how undesirable black women are to them. That gives black women more authority of their love lives by expanding their dating pool (since the lot of black women go for black mates) vs. black men who often go for non black women for superficial, anti black reasons rooted in sexism. So when a black woman says “I don’t date black dudes” I don’t see it as excusable but at the same time I understand her reasons for doing so more than a black man refusing to date black women. I feel like black women are often looking for genuine love, the kind of love too many black men can’t give them because of their racial baggage, while said black men are oftentimes looking for trophies to use to spite black women and make non black men “envy” them for “stealing” their women.”

You read it right. I do feel like a lot of black men aren’t capable of loving black women the way they need to be loved, which has to do with seeing their blackness in the same way that they see their own and not letting gender be the deciding factor concerning superiority vs. inferiority, especially if said black women don’t fit the Eurocentric standard of beauty. I will say that non black men aren’t the “golden ticket” of black women in order for them to find love - there’s undeniably issues of anti blackness and sexism in all communities. But at the same time since non black men aren’t hit the hardest by racism, since anti blackness is global, they do have less baggage from that and less pressure to socially conform in my eyes. Because really, I believe more non black men are attracted to black women more so than they let on, it’s just that their cultural ties such as pleasing family and community hold them back from acting on this attraction confidently.

We really do need to have a real conversation about misogyny noir alongside “black love.” Because part of the way black men are going to love black women unconditionally has to do with an awareness of their own social conditioning and their own perceptions of black womanhood.

Writing is a skill that many people struggle with, and when it comes to academic essays, many people are so anxious about writing that they don’t even know where to start. Many find it easier to begin when they have a clear idea of what they should and should not be doing, so I’ve compiled some tips to hopefully alleviate your essay-induced anxieties.

1. Hooks—you don’t need one. In fact, I would argue that you shouldn’t have one. They’re a juvenile method of starting a paper and, in many cases, they involve broad generalizations that aren’t even true. “Since the beginning of literature, people have been interested in how evil characters are portrayed in novels.” Have they, really? When exactly is the so-called “beginning” of literature? What is your proof that a largely illiterate society cared about the way in which characters were depicted when people like Defoe and Behn were penning some of the first English-language novels? One could argue that most people now don’t even care about how characters are depicted in novels. Get my point? It’s juvenile, sounds lazy, and you can skip all of this by just getting to the damn point by opting to begin your essay rather than constructing a flowery hook.

2. Your thesis. In most cases, your thesis should make an argument of your own, and it should be an argument that you can prove with evidence. You could have a spectacular sounding thesis that is saturated with sophisticated claims and language, but it doesn’t matter how good your thesis sounds if you don’t have textual evidence to back it up. Further, you need to make sure that your thesis answers the question the prompt is asking—if the prompt asks you to use Rousseau’s Discourse on Inequality to access the actions of Frankenstein’s creature, you better make sure that you directly and clearly relate those two texts in your thesis statement. When constructing your thesis statement, make sure that you are addressing the prompt fully, and ensure that you have adequate evidence to back up your claims. You don’t want to get too far into an essay only to realize that you don’t have enough evidence for your argument.

3. Creating a voice in your writing. Have a strong, confident voice. Sound sure of yourself. Don’t say things such as, “This might prove why this character does this.” Make a confident argument—explain in a clear and confident manner the way in which your evidence supports your thesis argument. This is easy to do once you learn how to integrate appropriate quotes into your essays.

4. Using quotes. Quotes are necessary for most forms of essay writing; without them, your argument is weak. Provide context when introducing a quote—don’t simply throw a quote at your reader with no context or explanation. Use shorter quotes when possible, and integrate them into your sentences. Try not to let a quote stand alone as its own sentence. Here’s an example of successfully integrating appropriate quotes into your writing:

“However, Caliban openly attempted to rape Miranda, and when Prospero mentions this, Caliban enthusiastically states that if Prospero hadn’t stopped him, he would have “peopled else this isle with Calibans” (1.2.420-421). Prior to this attempted rape, Prospero and Caliban apparently shared a reciprocal relationship, wherein Prospero taught Caliban English and, in return, Caliban “showed [him] all the qualities o’ th’ isle” (1.2.403).

As you can see above, quotes are used to provide succinct evidence for what you’re talking about. They show that you have read and possess a clear understanding of the text, and they provide textual evidence that strengthens your argument.

5. The structure of your essay. Your essay does not need to be a cookie-cutter five paragraph monstrosity that has been drilled into your brain since 8th grade; you can switch it up as you see necessary. It’s not necessarily a bad thing to have paragraphs of varying lengths, multiple paragraphs discussing the same argument, or even to bring up previously stated topics and arguments in order to further explore what you’re talking about. Don’t feel obligated to constrain yourself to formulaic writing when frankly, it often isn’t the best way to write a paper. Make your argument in the most natural way possible, and if that required seven body paragraphs, then so be it. 

6. Editing your essays. I advise reading your essay out loud when editing. In your initial read-through, check for grammatical mistakes and typos. These mistakes will be obvious if you read your paper aloud. After ensuring that your paper is free from technical errors, reread it again to check how one idea transitions to the next. Does your essay have clear and natural transitions from topic to topic, or are there abrupt shifts that need to be worked out? Finally, make sure your paper adequately proves the overall argument you’re attempting to make. Is your argument the driving force in your paper, or do you make unnecessary digressions? These are all important things to consider before turning in your final essay. 

Remember, writing essays is something that, with practice, can become quite easy. Don’t treat writing an essay as some kind of foreign, impossible task; all writing an essay really involves is making an argument and attempting to prove your argument with evidence. If you can do this, then writing becomes substantially easier. Good luck!

Responses to childhood trauma.

Our therapist mentioned a while back that there are common responses to childhood trauma.  The obvious ones being fight or flight. But she said three others were freeze, submit and attach.

I don’t think I understood at the time but looking at my system now I can see examples of all of these responses in system members.

They’re pretty self explanatory I guess but I just wanted to share this for reference if anyone finds it helpful, like I have.  I think these are even more relevant in dissociative disorders such as DID because there are often conflicting feelings towards abusers - we are often attached to them despite their abuse.  For us that has been one of the most grueling things to admit.

I know freeze is very common, in later trauma/abuse as well as child abuse. It often happens when fight/flight can’t happen and is when a child will become silent and still, anything to avoid drawing the attention of their abuser. It comes with a sense of powerlessness.

If the freeze response doesn’t work, the child can “submit” by going along with whatever the abuser is doing, in the hope that if they comply it will be over quicker/they won’t be punished. This can be seen in animals - they “play dead” and hope for the attacker to leave them. Submit parts often feel a great deal of shame and take on the blame/responsibility for what has happened.

It is apparently common to have alters who represent these trauma responses within the same system. I can now see all of the responses in our system, for example, fight presents in hypervigilant alters such as protectors, flight can be seen in those alters who distance themselves from external people to avoid being hurt, freeze is obvious in very scared/traumatised/often younger alters who can be stuck in the trauma, submit parts can feel shame or appear needy, whereas attached parts have a fear of being abandoned/always try to be better.

I’m not sure if this will help anyone but it helped us to figure out why certain alters act in a particular way/believe particular things.

macdennis lesbian concepts

  • girl!dennis dennis-systeming a bunch of dudes
  • girl!mac compulsively cutting all the sleeves off all her t-shirts
  • dee and dennis hypercompetitive twin sisters
  • “can a femme be a top, or is that reserved for butches?” “well, i’m sure there’s a great deal of switching back and forth, but i think more often than not butches are tops, unless they happen to be soft butches”
  • this but come to my window by melissa etheridge
  • that one episode where mac and dennis fall asleep in a u-haul and dennis wakes up with a hand slung over mac’s chest takes on new meaning
  • girl!dennis dresses the exact same way w the button-downs and flannels 
  • “three cool girls looking for other cool girls who want to hang out in their party mansion. nothing sexual.”
  • the nightwoman cometh
  • “fast times at ridgmont high?” “look, i know you wanted to see american pie again, but i feel like we’ve seen that 30 times in the last two months, and i thought that we could mix things up, plus the video store clerk girl said this movie’s awesome, so…” “the video store… clerk… girl… i feel like you won’t stop talking about her… also, fast times at ridgmont high? phoebe cates’ physique is nothing like the lineup in american pie” “okay, stop, i don’t want to have any more conversations about girls’ physiques” “girl!dennis, in cup size alone…” “that’s what i was trying to avoid! a conversation about cup sizes!
The Difference Between Oppositions and Squares

You can find the difference between aspects in how the signs work with each other. It can be really hard to solidly tell a difference between an opposition and a square, since they can bring similar, disharmonious effects. However, this does not mean their effects are exactly the same.

An opposition is composed of two sister signs… but what is the actual composition of an opposition? In order to have an opposition, you need two signs that share the same polarity and mode, but are different in their elements. For a square, you need to have two signs that differ in polarity and element, but share the same mode.

The effects of oppositions and squares are quite different. For an opposition, there is often an emphasis of two sides. Instead of functioning like a single, powerful unit, like a conjunction, the two planets involved in an opposition will often go into opposite directions to achieve the same motive. You can see that the signs involved in an opposition have the same motive because they have the same polarity and mode. With the same polarity, opposing signs will have their motive take place in the same environment, which can either be external (masculine) or internal (feminine.) With the same mode, the two opposing planets will go at the motive with the same energetic method. This does not mean the actual method will be the same, but the framework of the method will be. The actual method will differ through the elements and the rulerships of the signs involved. Many of the signs that are opposing each other are also ruled by planets that have massive archetypal differences, which drives the disharmonious differences in an opposition. For example, Aries is ruled by Mars, the planet of conflict while Libra is ruled by Venus, the planet of harmony.

It’s also important to note that the two opposing planets will also take place in opposing Houses in the natal chart since the planets must be 180 degrees away. The reason why there is such a polarizing pull from an opposition is because the planets involved in an opposition are involved in two Houses that are focused on seemingly “opposite” subjects. A good example is the 1st and the 7th House. The 1st House is focused on the self, while the 7th House is focused on the other - both are tied to relations and identity.

For a square, there is the feeling of a “block” between two planets in two different signs. One planet will try to express itself, only to be blocked by the other planet and vice versa. There can be a lot of tension with a square aspect, for the native can often feel restricted from doing what they seek to do. Often, for planets involved in a square, there is often a feeling of knowing how to channel your energy (due to the same mode) into a certain task, only to find that the actual energy required to get to the task are in two completely different environments, which is why a square feels very tense. For example, Scorpio is square to Aquarius. Both signs would like to remain stable, yet persistent in a certain subject (since they’re both fixed,) but Aquarius would like to gain this stability through rationality (air) in the outside environment (masculine,) but Scorpio would rather gain this stability through emotions (water) in an inside environment (feminine.) Due to the different polarities and environments involved, there’s a conflict. It’s hard to accomplish a task involving two different environments and methods. It’s important to note that the squares take place in Houses that are 90 degrees away from each other, since a square is 90 degrees between two planets.

Often, you’ll find that the Houses involved are often subjects that strive for the same goal, but through different ways. A good example is the 1st and 4th House. The 1st House represents your identity, while your 4th House represents your family. Both you and your family strive to invest in your success, but you can find that your family will want something different from you, even though the end goal is success. This is why people can sometimes feel that the family is a threat to their identity.

huetre  asked:

Could you please explain why thinking that about medieval Europe is inaccurate?

It is an age-old fallacy that between the fall of the Roman Empire and the beginning of the Renaissance, European history stood still for a thousand years.

In fact, the period known as the European Middle Ages is a very turbulent, complex and most of all, huge subject. There were periods of great cultural blossoming, like the Carolingian renaissance in the 8th and 9th century, or the height of Gothic art in the 12th century. There are countless beautiful medieval works of art left to us, like the Book of Kells, Romanesque and Gothic cathedrals, and Byzantine icon painting. There is literature like the Icelandic sagas, the Canterbury Tales, and the poetry of Dante and Petrarca. There were technological advances that greatly increased agricultural production, like the three-field rotation system, the windmill and better ploughs.

Of course, there were also periods of deep misery and death, like the 14th century famines caused by the onset of the Little Ice Age, or the wave of bubonic plague that killed about a quarter of the European population around 1350. We’re talking about a thousand years, after all. There were ups and downs.

Trash-talking the medieval period was started by fans of the Renaissance. The “Dark Ages” were invented by people who felt that anything which did not emulate classical culture was barbarous. This way of thinking about the Middle Ages has proved very tenacious. And now, when people (on Tumblr) want to sing the praises of Asian, African or American cultures from the same period, they often feel the need to invoke that “Dark Ages” myth for contrast.

Personally, I feel like you can love both the Great Mosque of Djenné and the Notre Dame. Both Tang and Old English poetry. Of course, we in the West come from a point where we saw anything that was not similar to our culture as inferior. We’re not completely rid of that mindset yet, but I hope we can move past it someday. Doing it at the expense of dismissing a thousand years of fascinating European history and culture would be a great shame, though.

This semester, I will start specialisation programs in East Asian and Middle Eastern history (had there been a program for African history, I might’ve taken that too). Mainstream history teaching in the West is still very Eurocentric, and I want to gain a more complete understanding of world history. Still, medieval European cultural history will always be one of my favourite subjects.

AU where bitty is on the lacrosse team and manages to keep the lax bros out of smh’s hair long enough that the boys start to get suspicious

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part 1 here


After what Bitty has been referring to in his own head as “The Incident” (with capital letters and all), things between the lax team and the hockey team are… Better? Naturally, Bitty couldn’t tell his team about what had happened, and in fact hadn’t even been pressured to; the teammates who’d been in the house at the time hadn’t even realized he was gone until he was strolling back through the door. So much for having each other’s backs, Bitty had mumbled to himself as he rolled out his pie crust.

But that had been nearly a month ago, and since then, the hockey team hadn’t been over even once to bang at the door with complaints– not even when the house had hosted a party two weeks ago and their music had been loud enough for the bass to be felt a full block away. It’s unusual behavior, and Bitty would be lying if he ever tried to say he isn’t curious about it. The way he sees it, they’re probably just feeling guilty over the whole kidnapping thing. Which is probably fair, all things considered, and Bitty appreciates their consideration. For the most part.

Despite the hockey team’s apparent peace with the lacrosse team, they do still seem a little spiteful. Either that, or Bitty is projecting his own spite onto them; he’s been sitting at the house’s kitchen table for a full two hours now, picking at a now cold tray of bagel bites as he tries to finish an essay. It’s not due until the next Monday, a fact that has Bitty thanking any and all gods who may exist, because there is no way in hell he can finish it tonight with the loud music blaring from across the street. Bitty keeps finding himself bouncing a leg to the beat and staring blankly at his laptop instead of actually writing, and after the fourth time, he finally sighs and slams the thing shut, sliding it perhaps too roughly into his backpack. He deposits the entire bag safely by the stairs before he heads out.

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Timshel: Arrow 5x18 Review (Disbanded)

I love Mumford and Sons. They are one of my favorite bands. If you ever get the chance to see them live, please do. They are one of the rare talents who actually sound better in person. One of my favorite songs is “Timshel.” (Their live performance is stunning.) I always think of Oliver Queen and John Diggle whenever I hear this song.

Timshel by Mumford and Sons

Cold is the water
It freezes your already cold mind
Already cold, cold mind
And death is at your doorstep
And it will steal your innocence
But it will not steal your substance

But you are not alone in this
And you are not alone in this
As brothers we will stand and we’ll hold your hand
Hold your hand

And you are the mother
The mother of your baby child
The one to whom you gave life
And you have your choices
And these are what make man great
His ladder to the stars

But you are not alone in this
And you are not alone in this
As brothers we will stand and we’ll hold your hand
Hold your hand

But I will tell the night
And whisper, “Lose your sight”
But I can’t move the mountains for you

The word “timshel” was in the back of my mind as I watched “Disbanded.” John Steinbeck built his entire novel “East of Eden” around it. “Timshel” is referenced in the story of Cain and Abel.  It’s a Hebrew word that means “Thou mayest.” It has a variety of definitions, even in Hebrew, but Steinbeck settled on “Thou mayest” because of the meaning behind it. The character Lee, a Chinese servant, explains in “East of Eden”:

“But the Hebrew word, the word timshel—'Thou mayest'—that gives a choice. It might be the most important word in the world. That says the way is open. That throws it right back on a man. For if "Thou mayest'—it is also true that ‘Thou mayest not.’” (24.2.73)

Ultimately, it is free will Steinbeck is exploring. “Thou mayest” means mankind is neither compelled to be good nor doomed to evil. We have a choice. Mumford and Sons is exploring the same theme in their song- all we have are our choices. And that is how John Diggle reaches Oliver Queen tonight.

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What would NCT 127 be like jealous?

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Anon: (I’m not entirely sure how to phrase this) How would NCT 127 and NCT Dream act when they get jealous because another member is getting close to the S/O? Please? 😍😍Thanks!

I’ve copied and pasted the members who are also in NCT U here, as I’ve done this before for NCT U. Hopefully you’ll like this! Also, I know you asked how they would be if they were jealous over another member, but I honestly don’t think a member would do that to another so ya❤️❤️❤️

Also Imma be posting In bed with… Yuta later on tonight so please anticipate that too!😇


Taeil:

Originally posted by nctmark

The type to just sit and glare. He wouldn’t be the type to say anything, not just when he’s jealous, but in general too. Whenever you were with his members, he wouldn’t mind though - he trusted you and he trusted him. But if you were with anyone he was unfamiliar with or didn’t trust, he’d watched from afar staring at him with glazing, cold eyes. Eventually you spot his behaviour, and leave them walking towards Taeil and wrapping him into a tight hug. “You don’t need to worry about me Taeil, I’m all yours”, you’d reassure him, smoothing out the frown lines between his eyebrows.


Johnny:

Originally posted by neotechs

Johnny wouldn’t get jealous often or easily. I think he’s very self-assured and confident in himself; he’d be able to read you easily and know whether you meant to make him jealous or not. However, if ever he was jealous, he’d be very blunt and direct, even going as far as insulting you and basically making you feel like crap. He didn’t want to hurt you, despite being fully aware of his actions; he just wanted you to feel the same way as he did. After realising how offended and crap you felt from his comments, he’d immediately try making it up to you by making a fool of himself - and, of course, it’d work.


Taeyong:

Originally posted by neotechs

Taeyong wouldn’t get jealous often or easily. He knew he was yours and you were his; your relationship would be very deep, sincere and genuine - neither of you would be willing to satisfy such a bond. There would be the rare occasion where he’d turn very sour, bitter and jealous. Usually, if he was already quite upset or self conscious as it was, seeing you with any man but him, would make him very jealous. He’d immediately storm up to you, grabbing you by the arm and pulling you away from the conversation, despite your protests. Pulling you into another room, he’d enclose you into a tight hug and whispering into your neck to never leave him.


Yuta:

Originally posted by nctuhohahyes

Yuta would be so scary and mad when he’s jealous. He’d never physically hurt you, god no, and he’d never try to intimidate you. But if he was jealous, he’d definitely make sure you knew. It’d start off with glares and the rolling of the eyes, moving onto blanking you until eventually he’d just burst and start raising his voice. He’d rant for a while, using his hands and arms widely, throwing them up into the air frustratingly. With you not uttering a word or saying anything that could just provoke him into ranting again, he’d eventually calm down, sitting down heavily next to you head in his hands. He’d apologise and be very sympathetic after you explained thing to him and reassured him you weren’t planning to leave.


Doyoung:

Originally posted by johnnyseo-ismylife

As a boyfriend, Doyoung would be more than delighted to show you off to everyone and would basically be your biggest fan (even if you weren’t famous or an idol or anything) He liked having other people stare at you with admiration, with the full satisfaction of knowing that yes, they could look, but no, they couldn’t have you. Doyoung would get jealous if you didn’t tell him about your plans with one of your male friends; it would worry him a bit. He’d turn very clingy, first pouting and swinging your hands between you and him, hoping his cuteness would stop you from going. It’d go through many stages of aegyo and kisses and complaints until he’d be literally clinging to your leg, begging you not to go with tears in his eyes at this point.


Jaehyun:

Originally posted by nctuhohahyes

Jaehyun would immediately go silent and walk away angrily if ever he was jealous. He knew that if he stayed there any longer, he’d only do or say something he’d later regret. Knowing fully well that you felt his presence leave, he’d continue the silent treatment not even looking at you when you came over to comfort him. Eventually he’d break and rant at you, which was surprising for you since Jaehyun was rarely open and blunt with his feelings.


WinWin:

Originally posted by nakamotens

Expect a very clingy and whiney Sicheng. He wouldn’t hold back, which would be surprising as usually, he’d be very awkward and shy with any PDA or skinship. But even one look from a gu directed towards you, and he’d be on your case, wrapping his arms around you and smiling cutely. It’d all be very secretive and subtle because this is winwin lmao but if the situation got any worse for him, he’d move onto being even more clingy, trying to distract you and pull away. Only afterwards would you realise what he was trying to do.


Mark:

Originally posted by kingminhyung

Mark would try to hide his jealousy. He wouldn’t want his feelings to affect anyway; he’d think he was being unreasonable and would fight with his conscious as to what to do. Pushing the feelings back, he’d put a smile on and pretend things were okay. However, as time goes on, his smile would falter and his heart would drop when he saw you made no attempt to pay attention to him instead. He’d end up putting up with it though, until afterwards where you’d apologise and comfort him for being so insensitive towards him.


Haechan:

Originally posted by ithastobemoontaeil

Although Haechan is more of an adult than a child, when he’s jealous he’d automatically go into “child-mood”. There’d be a lot of pouts and frowns on his behalf, but he wouldn’t try to pull you away from the prying eyes or stop it from getting worse. He’d wait until you confronted him about his odd behaviour, and only then, would he start acting mature. Quietly, he’d say what was up and how he was feeling, but the situation would be very stiff and awkward, even after you had resolved things. But within a few days, normal life would return and the situation wouldn’t be brought up again.

Sherlock loves John. Sherlock sees John as his family. Sherlock would kill his own real blud family in order to keep John alive. John is his family and he loves John more than anything else in this world. Nothing you say can convince me otherwise.

But MY question is: does John see Sherlock as his family? Does John love Sherlock back?

Threesome

Threesomes are a tricky topic, lots of people think that it’s something they would like to do at some point, most men seem to prefer themselves with two girls, but there are some who even prefer to be with another man and their girl. The reality can often be very different, and honestly can cause a lot of problems for partners when introducing someone else into a sexual experience, partners can often be left with feelings or rejection or inadequacy. So for some it’s probably best left as a fantasy. For me and my husband it was a fantasy for a while and took a long time before we acted on it. For some it’s more fun spontaneous, just meeting a random guy and end up back in a hotel room together or something.

For me the first time was on a vacation we took together, when you go away you tend to leave some of your boundaries back at home and are a little more open. We had arranged to meet a potential guy in a bar on the second night we were there, he was living in the area and we had spoken to him for some time before hand, mostly to see what he was like, see that he was relatively normal etc. Also meeting in a bar allowed either him or us to walk away if things were not right or you didn’t click.

The whole getting ready for the vacation almost became centered on this threesome we were going to try, me and my husband were both excited and nervous in equal measure and was really quite funny on the short flight down there. The first night we went for a nice meal and an early night. The day of the meeting, we went to the beach, and asked each other if we were ‘ok’ about a hundred times each.

Getting ready to go out was fun, doing make up, he dressed up in jeans and a shirt. I had shaved, every inch of myself from the neck down, done my make-up and chosen a little black dress to wear. I like the dress as I don’t need to wear a bra with it, and is short but long enough I can get away with wearing no panties. That was a little something me and my husband planned that I would be commando, to add a little excitement, though I did carry a thong in my purse as you never really know how an evening will go. Other than my little black dress (photo at the end of the story), I just had a black pair of high heeled shoes on.

We got to the bar a few minutes before the arranged time, we didn’t speak much on the short journey there, just sort of smiled a little at each other. I think we both wanted to try it, but you want the other person to want to too, and you don’t want to seem too enthusiastic if they are not too. The bar was a good choice, the music was not too loud, so you could have a conversation, but it was loud enough that you wouldn’t really be overheard by anyone. The bar was quite small with a few tables taken, but we found a place towards the back. My husband ordered us a couple of drinks and we sat nervously waiting, while I realized the slight problem of sitting on a chair in a very short skirt that rides up as you side down, and feeling the cooler breeze between my legs.

We both saw the other guy arrive (ill call him Mark), and he spotted us at the same time, with an awkward smile and wave he came over. He seems quite shy and quiet at first, and mostly we all made small talk, offered a few compliments and sipped at our drinks. The first hour followed in very much the same fashion. After a few drinks we chose to order some tequila, which soon relaxed people a lot more, I was feeling quite drunk, and my husband and mark seemed well on their way too. This helped us to talk about the night a little more, I had mark come and sit next to me too, so I was in the middle of my husband and mark. I know my husband was really horny as I know he hadn’t cum for about a week, and marks eyes moved often from my boobs to my legs.

We probably looked a little ‘close’ for a group of three, but no one paid us much attention. When mark went to the restroom, my focus was back on my husband and we would kiss, but when my husband left I shared my first kiss with mark, and his hand was in my lap, I parted my thighs a little and his hand slid slowly up. His eye sprang open and looked at me with a massive grin as he realized I had no underwear on, and he had for the first time touched my freshly shaven, tight little pussy.

We went next door to a club, where is was quite busy, we danced together, but by now we were all loosened up and all wanting to go somewhere more private. We took a taxi back to our hotel, where again I sat in the middle of them in the back, however this time they were a lot more attentive towards me. Their hands were roaming my body and their hands feeling their way up and down my legs, I would kiss one and then the other. The taxi driver must have known full well what was going to happen when he stopped outside our hotel. We were all a little drunk, and so turned on that it seemed to move as a dream from taxi to hotel room. When in the room I was standing kissing Mark, and my husband was in close behind me, he pulled at my zip at the back on my dress and it fell to the floor so that I was now standing naked apart from a pair of heels between two men. After some more touching and kissing, I sat on the bed and took off my heels. They stood in from on my, and stripped naked too. They were both rock hard before id even touched them. I looked at these two big hard cocks, and looked up to their horny and lustful eyes. I sucked my husband’s cock while playing with Marks cock in my hand, then changed to sucking marks cock while rubbing my husband’s cock wet from my mouth. We then went into the shower together, where there was a lot of soapy rubbing and touching going on. I got out first and went to the bed and laid in the middle of it with my legs wide open. My husband ate my pussy while I sucked Marks hard cock. After they both sucked on a nipple each and groping my boobs while they worked their fingers inside of me.  Mark was the first to get on top of me and slide his cock in me, It felt so big but so good with every trust I wrapped my legs around him. I played with my husband’s cock and sucked it between groans. The changed positions, and my husband was pounding me with a great excitement as I tasted my wet pussy from Marks cock.

I stood on the floor and bent over the bed, as they both stood behind me hard, they slapped their big cocks against my ass. My husband then knelt on the bed in front of me, and I went to on all fours, and Mark fucked me from behind as I sucked my husband’s cock, Mark was making suck loud groans as he complimented my ass and moaned as if he were in heaven. The thrill of being spit roasted like this had me Cumming too, being fucked doggy by mark, I held my husband’s cock as I screamed out Cuming so hard. All of a sudden Mark Is groaning louder and starts to go rigid and I can feel him Cumming in me. Me and my husband are turned on more, and as Mark gets off me and lays on the bed, My husband starts fucking me doggy, his hard thrusts pumping all Marks cum out of my pussy and can feel it running down my thigh. It isn’t long before I cum again, and my husband cums inside me too. I can feel his cum being released in me stronger than normal, he stays inside me for a few minutes until he pulls out his cock which flops against his thigh exhausted. We all laid naked on the bed not speaking for about 10 minutes next to each other breathing heavily and feeling very satisfied.

How the Southern Democratic-Republicans act around someone they love

thomas jefferson:

  • he’d be just minding his own business you know and he’d hear someone say your name and he would just join the conversation without invitation and start talking about how great you and how amazing you are because man have they seen how amazing you look? and he would realize that he just walked up to a complete stranger and started talking about how wonderful you are
    • james would laugh so hard at how embarrassed thomas gets after he just sorta apologizes to the stranger and he wouldn’t talk about anything else for the entire week and james spends more time with you and hints to thomas’s crush on you like all the time and thomas would just be freaking out
      • james would accidently bring it up to get you to pay attention in a meeting and he would say your name and thomas would look up immediately and would smile a bit. hamilton and washington would be laughing so hard at this point
  • if you two were already close, he would go out of his way to visit you during his lunch breaks and things like that
    • you work forty five minutes away and he only has a ten minute break? no problem for thomas, he calls off sick, james making the comment that thomas is sick but he’s lovesick. thomas slams the door in madison’s face and makes his way to your work to see how you are
    • him taking you to a greenhouse and getting genuinely excited to tell you about all of the different flowers because he loves flowers and he knows so much about them?
    • whenever you ask him what’s the most beautiful flower in his opinion, he has to refrain from answering ‘you' 
  • he is so scared of messing things up between you guys because yes, he understands that he can be an asshole but he doesn’t want you to think of him like that? and by scared i mean he is terrified, nobody jokes about how he doesn’t deserve you after hamilton did that and even he realized he crossed a line when thomas got so upset over it
  • he becomes slightly more affectionate when he realizes that he is in love with you and he kinda just holds your hand for a second too long or hugs you longer than what is considered friendly- although if you aren’t comfortable with being touched, he would completely understand and he would just shower you with gifts
  • it isn’t really obvious that he has a crush on you but he just is generally a nicer person over all since he met you and it’s the little things really that can lead you to the fact that he is in love with you, like how he always gets you your prefered morning beverage, even though he didn’t have to work for another two hours and how he smiles at you when he thinks nobody’s looking

james madison:

  • he is an absolute trainwreck whenever someone mentions you i mean you haven’t james  being clumsy before but as soon as someone mentions your name or he sees you he just kinda accidently drops whatever he is holding or he trips and he gets really flustered and would apologize profusely and smiles awkwardly i mean he is such an awkward babe
    • thomas tries somewhat to not be a complete asshole because he doesn’t want his friend to get physically injured and by somewhat i mean thomas does his best to refrain from mentioning you every second so he usually mentions you every minute or so, give or take and it gets to the point where he almost spills coffee on george washington because thomas asked james if he had asked you out yet
    • he is so awkward? like he gets so nervous whenever he sees you because he wants to make a good impression on you and he kinda ends up stumbling over his words a bit? thomas usually has to talk to you for him since he falls apart everytime he sees you
  • if you two knew each other already, he would be slightly more comfortable around you and he would really enjoy listening to you talk about things you love and things you are passionate about because there’s something about the way your eyes light up and it seems to make his entire day better, when he sees you so happy about something and it makes him smile so widely 
    • if you ask him about stuff he likes to do he is actually going to be very very confused because someone genuinely wants to know about stuff he is interested in and they get excited when they see him happy? he just wants to cry and hug you at the same time
    • you both sharing your interests and jefferson and burr just smirking because you both are looking at each other the exact same way now and both of you are so oblivious to it
  • he doesn’t feel like he is good enough for you so he is always expecting you to fall in love with jefferson or hamilton or someone else- someone more important than him and he kinda just accepts that the feelings are probably unrequited and that you don’t feel the same way about him
  • he just is around you more often because he enjoys spending time with you, even though if he is completely nervous that he might say the wrong thing the entire time but it’s worth it? he still isn’t completely sure whether or not spending time with you is worth the possibility of messing things up between you two and possibly ruining your friendship but he does it anyway
  • his crush on you is very very obvious i mean the poor man absolutely loves being in your company so much and he doesn’t even bother to hide it anymore and he smiles brighter when you around and it’s so obvious to everyone around you guys that you are each other’s worlds.

aaron burr:

  • he first really realizes how he feels for you when him and alexander are just debating about something stupid- it’s not even competitive or at least it wasn’t supposed to be but with hamilton literally everything is competitive. and so you join in, on aaron’s side (alex sees this as an act of betrayal and acts offended)
    • and aaron gets pretty excited about it and alex notices this because aaron never looks this happy to debate about trivial things and so they go on with the debate and even though alexander loses (aaron was determined to impress you // alex wanted to help aaron) he is still so smug and aaron naturally gets concerned and confronts him and alex kinda spills that he knows about how he loves you and aaron is just really confused now because he didn’t even know himself?
    • alex can’t stop laughing when burr tells him that he didn’t even know and burr is just kind of glaring at alex and they keep awkwardly glancing at you to make sure you aren’t listening to them
    • alex is now hanging around burr to try and help him win your affections and do stupid things such as flirt with you for aaron in which aaron ends up blushing a lot before pulling alex away and groaning and missing how your eyes look so amused at the interaction every time alex tries to talk to you
  • he is actually still very very nervous if you guys already know each other and alex being alex has to step up his flirting game if you guys already know each other and it confuses everyone because who is he flirting for? is he flirting for himself? is he flirting for burr? 
    • james and thomas try to fight alex when they realize burr likes you and alex clears things up with them and they for some reason feel that this is an excellent idea and so now you have three people flirting with you for one person and aaron is just screaming
  • he wonders why you don’t date or flirt back with alex, thomas or james because he is just him and they are them but he sorta pushes those fears away and actually starts flirting with you and all of the others just back off immediately and oh that’s why they were flirting with you in the first place, for aaron
    • thomas, james and alexander are all like proud parents when aaron finally tries to flirt with you and you just start smiling widely after he does and for the first time, you would flirt back and aaron would actually be so confused because you never did to anyone else but by then it’s so obvious how he feels and how you feel that just kinda rolls with it
  • it’s not very obvious in the beginning, near the debate but it comes more clear after three men are all flirting for their friend who always has to drag them away while mumbling several apologies to you and how the conversations between the two of you always end up with him smiling brighter than before and how his friends always tease him about this
Tonight (Young Hearts) [j.j]

Jughead x reader in which they admire each other in secrecy.

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With a handful of courage, I don’t mean to impose (oh oh I feel it now)
And faintly I whisper a secret you know (oh oh I hear it now)

It had been a month since (Y/N) had moved to Riverdale. She had arrived halfway through September, almost October. Much like Veronica Lodge, she was a big city girl, but she hailed from the west coast. Los Angeles to be exact. There had been a lot of buzz surrounding her arrival and her appearance in the small town had not let anyone down. With (H/L), (H/C) hair and big, sparkling (E/C) eyes, (Y/N) (Y/L) was quite the attractive girl.  

She had befriended many people, including Cheryl Blossom (who had immediately taken her under her wing) and Betty Cooper, who had introduced her to her circle of friends. She tended to hang out more with Cheryl though, seeing as how the girl really needed someone after the death of her twin brother, Jason.

The few times she did decide to join Betty, she would feel like a mess. And it was all because of Jughead Jones III. He was the one friend of Betty’s that (Y/N) could never act normal around. She was always awkward around him, and always found herself stuttering and unable to speak to him. Lucky for her, no one had noticed her little problem, not even Veronica, who was a lot more observant than she let on.

She shared multiple classes with Jughead, including English and biology. A few weeks into school, she decided that she needed to get over herself. Jughead was just another (potential) friend. She just needed to speak to him. like a normal person.

Well I caught your love but I didn’t catch your name (oh yeah and I feel the same)
And I’m wondering why, is it wrong if it’s right

The root of her problem was her first day in English. She had arrived on time and had been forced to stand in front of the class and introduce herself. She remembered standing up straight and showing no fear, speaking confidently until her gaze got to the mysterious boy sitting in the corner who was watching her intently.

Jughead couldn’t really explain why he was observing the new girl with such intensity. She was beautiful, there was no doubt about it, but Jughead felt himself getting lost in the sound of her voice. When the teacher told her to sit next to him, he panicked. When she had sat down and asked to borrow an extra pencil, he panicked even more. He had given her the pencil in his hand, losing his breath when she smiled at him after thanking him. ‘She has a beautiful smile’ was the only thing that was running through his mind as he rummaged through his backpack, pulling out his extra pencil.

(Y/N) had been left speechless. She had asked to borrow the boy’s pencil hoping to make a new friend but when he turned to her, she had lost all ability to speak. He was cute. Really, really cute. She had only managed to squeak out a ‘thanks’ and smiled at him before turning in her seat, face as red as a tomato.

They had stolen each others’ hearts and they didn’t even know each others’ names.

Cause I don’t wanna say goodnight, when we just started a fire
We’re burning bright by the hour (in the moment, can you show it)
Young hearts never want the night to end

The day that (Y/N) decided to stop acting weird around Jughead, she had accepted Betty’s offer to join them all at Pop’s after school. Stepping into the semi-crowded diner, (Y/N) quickly made her way over to the booth where Betty & Co. were sitting at. Squeezing herself into the booth, next to Archie, she gave everyone a blinding smile.

“ Hey guys!’ she exclaimed.

“So she speaks!” said Kevin. “And here I was thinking that you were yet another one of Cheryl’s brainless minions.”

(Y/N) chuckled. Whenever Kevin had tried to befriend her, Cheryl had always come along and pulled her away, never failing to make a snide comment about Kevin. It was frustrating.

“Hey (Y/N),” Veronica said.

“Sup,” Archie greeted.

“I’m so glad you could join us,” Betty added.

They all turned to Jughead, who was staring openmouthed at (Y/N).

“What? Do I have something on my face?” the (H/C) girl asked, blushing at his stare.

Jughead quickly shook his head. “No, uh, its just a surprise to see you here that’s all.”

That was the only awkwardness for the rest of the evening. The group of friends stayed at Pop’s until closing time, never running out of things to say as great friendships blossomed.

Chasing the clock, will I see you again? (oh oh we’ll see tonight)
If it’s perfect now, let’s be perfect again (oh oh I think it might)
I’m not used to this feeling, but you help me let go (oh yeah and you do the same)
And we both can’t deny, young hearts never die

As they left Pop’s that night, (Y/N) found herself walking alongside Jughead, with Betty & Kevin in front of them and Archie & Veronica trailing behind them.

“So (Y/N),” Jughead began, liking the way her name sounded coming from his mouth, “Will you be joining us more often now?”

The young girl smiled at Jughead. “Yeah. I think I actually will.”

And so she did. For the next few weeks, the girl joined them at Pop’s almost every single day. She and Archie had bonded over music, especially after he found out she could sing. With Kevin, she bonded over the fact that they liked to judge the people that they didn’t like together. She bonded with Veronica over the fact that they were both new, and that they both came from big cities. With Betty, she found a really great, caring friend.

But Jughead was different. They bonded over nearly everything. Taste in music. taste in movies. They spent a lot of time together and the others were beginning to notice. it didn’t take them long to pick up on the longing glances, the shy smiles exchanged. Archie and Kevin confronted Jughead about his feelings and Betty and Veronica did the same with (Y/N), resulting in both teens shaking their heads and vehemently stating that they were ‘just friends’.

Cause I don’t wanna say goodnight, when we just started a fire
We’re burning bright by the hour (in the moment, can you show it)
Young hearts never want the night to end
Tonight, if only words could describe
The feeling for the first time (I can feel that it’s real right now)
Young hearts never want the night to end

Eventually, the visits to Pop’s would end up with Archie, Veronica, Betty, and Kevin all making excuses to leave, effectively leaving Jughead and (Y/N) alone each night. They would never actually leave, and instead went outside to sit in Archie’s truck, spying on the two teenagers. When the two teens finally left the diner, they’d notice that Jughead would always walk (Y/N) home.

“They are so sweet its sickening,” Veronica stated as they watched Jughead give (Y/N) his flannel.

“It really is,” Kevin agreed. “They are so oblivious.”

“We have to do something about this,” Betty said.

“Well what do you propose?” questioned Archie.

Cause something tells me we
Are more than just silhouettes
It’s something that I won’t forget, forget, forget, forget, forget
And if I could stop the clock with you, I knew, I knew

“(Y/N)!”

The (H/C) girl stopped and turned around as she heard her name being called. Motioning for Cheryl to continue walking without her, the girl fixed her attention onto Betty.

“Pop’s? After school?”

(Y/N) chuckled. “That’s not even a question anymore. You know my answer will always be yes.”

“Great! See you then,” Betty replied as she walked off.

After school came along a lot faster than expected. (Y/N) walked into the diner, sliding into her now usual seat next to Jughead. She felt butterflies in her tummy as Jughead smiled softly at her before continuing his conversation with Archie.

“Alright guys,” Betty began. “Today, we are here because we have a serious problem to discuss.”

(Y/N) looked curiously at the blonde girl before looking at Veronica, who had a mischievous smirk upon her face.

“You see,” Veronica said, “The thing is that we’ve noticed something recently, and we just have to point it out.”

Archie got up and stood next to the table. Betty joined him.

“The thing is,” Kevin continued, “(Y/N), Jughead likes you.”

(Y/N) looked at Jughead in shock as he glared at his friends.

“And Jughead,” Archie said. “(Y/N) likes you.”

Jughead whipped his head to look at (Y/N) so fast she was surprised his neck didn’t just snap.

(Y/N) slid down in the booth as she felt her face heat up.

“Well,” Betty finally broke the silence. “We gotta go, so enjoy your date!”

Cause I don’t wanna say goodnight, when we just started a fire
We’re burning bright by the hour
Young hearts never want the night to end
Tonight, if only words could describe
The feeling for the first time (I can feel that it’s real right now)
Young hearts never want the night to end

“You like me?” Jughead asked as the rest of the gang left them alone. (Y/N) was to embarrassed to do anything but nod.

“Well that’s great,” Jughead said.

(Y/N) straightened. “What?”

“It means that I can finally ask you out without fear of rejection,” Jughead said nonchalantly.

“Rejection? Jughead why on earth would I reject you? You’re amazing,” the girl said.

Jughead couldn’t help the blush that spread across his face.

“Well you’re even more amazing than I am,” he said as he cupped her cheeks and pressed his lips to hers in a short, sweet kiss. “So I guess this is our first date.”

(Y/N) could only nod in response.

Chasing the clock, chasing the clock
Will I see you, see you again?
Chasing the clock, chasing the clock
Will I see you, see you again?

Once again, the gang hadn’t actually left the diner and were just lounging around in Archie’s truck.

“YES!” Betty and Veronica exclaimed as they saw Jughead kiss (Y/N). “We did it!”

And so the two teenagers finally ended up together, on their first date at their favorite place, wishing that their night would never come to an end.

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So I lied, I’m sorry. “Time Water Pt.4″ isn’t up today but here, have this little story that I thought up while listening to Tonight (Young Hearts) by The Colourist. I hope you enjoy it, its not my best I’m sorry. I probably wont have Pt. 4 up until Friday night so please bear with me. Anyways, asks are open!

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