i never thought this would happen to me

Myth: We must always be positive

“So when my cancer showed up, I really could not understand how that could happen when I had always been such a positive person! I believed that my thoughts must have created the cancer, and so I would fear my thoughts.

Prior to getting cancer, I’d spent a lifetime trying to be positive, always putting on a smiling face because I wanted to be liked. Whenever I felt a negative thought, I would quash it, never allowing people to see me as fearful.

Every time a fearful thought about cancer or death would come into my mind, I became even more fearful, believing that each of these thoughts would directly contribute to the progression of my illness. So I tried to force myself not to think them! Why am I still having negative thoughts? I would ask myself angrily. I’m working so hard at controlling them and at being positive and creating a positive reality. Why is it still not working? Why is the cancer still progressing?

The fear and frustration I felt during that time was palpable, and speaking with well-meaning people often only made me feel worse. I truly believed that the cancer was progressing because I was “not getting it.” I was convinced that my beliefs weren’t strong enough or that my thoughts weren’t positive enough—or both.

And then I also feared the fear of my thoughts. I was drowning in a never-ending whirlpool of fear! But in the near-death experience, I realized that the key wasn’t being positive, it was being myself! I didn’t need to eradicate all negative thoughts, I needed only to love myself for who I am, not for who others wanted me to be!”

- Anita Moorjani

The depression is getting worse I don’t think I can do this anymore. It getting to be too much for me . Never thought I would let myself get this bad but I did. If I’m not posting in awhile. You know what happened.



Day Four: The Moment You Knew Lucas Would Always Like Riley

2x21- Girl Meets Texas Part 2

“What if that’s not what I think we are” I always felt that this line alone was so powerful. Lucas was never okay with Riley brother-zoning him. He never saw them as siblings or friends, he always thought of them as something more. That’s when I knew that no matter what was going to happen, Lucas’s feelings for Riley were always going to be romantic. 

anonymous asked:

Wait a minute, are you trying to imply the reason hydrangea never came back was because she eloped with a lady who thought she was a herring? I know what happened to her is a big mystery within the story, and meant to imply something bad happened (either to her or caused by her), but like, that would be the most hilarious plot twist. Thought she disappeared because of some horrible event? Nah, it was just because gay.

are you telling me a character being gay would be out of left field for me my guy 

I don’t talk much about girls and my sexuality with my friends (idk, it still feels awkward for me, even after years of them knowing).

My best friend doesn’t see very well, but when there is a hot dude around her vision becomes so good. We started joking about her ‘hunting’ guys and that it makes her vision better. So, this morning we were texting, both of us were so tired on our way to work and could barely keep our eyes open. I texted her that I saw a girl with an amazing tattoo and that woke me up. She texted back asking if I went hunting for the tattoo or the girl.
I blushed so hard and couldn’t stop smiling. I wrote her back from work - ‘why not both ;)’ and she laughed.

It was truly awesome. I never thought something like that would actually happen to me.

My heart was broken before I met you. I never thought I would love someone new, or maybe just to feel something again but I did with you. My heart was in pieces but it made a big room for you. All the space you occupied there fixed all of me. I found peace in your arms and after a long time I felt being loved again. You are the best thing that ever happened to me
—  k.m

Planet Earth. This is where I was born, and this is where I died. For the first nineteen years of my life nothing happened. Nothing at all. Not ever. And then I met a man called the Doctor. A man who could change his face. And he took me away from home in his magical machine. He showed me the whole of time and space. I thought it would never end… But then came the Army of Ghosts, then came Torchwood and the war. And that’s when it all ended.