i never quite know what to feel ^^'

anonymous asked:

HONESTLY!!! I NEVER THOUGHT I'D FIND ANOTHER PERSON WHO DISLIKES THAT SHIP TOO AAA A A. AA

from what i know quite a few people don’t like it

and i feel kindA bad about it because at the end of the day, there are ships out there that are a lot worse 

but yeahhh. even tho it’s possible the narrative could be building up to subverting the cliche i kinda doubt it, especially since marco is apparently based off of the creator’s boyfriend 

   “You know I’m curious about what it’s like to be able to actually rest.” It had been a feeling that eluded her for quite a while now. She thinks back to trying to sleep every now and then, and it never works. Not fully. She can closer her eyes and remain still, but enough of her will still be going and existing and pulling that she’s always at work. Always in motion.

the signs as i know them
  • aries:has a great sense of humour. soft voice. strong willed and stubborn. kind. fair. stunning appearance. doesn't talk much about feelings. adventurous. neither angry nor up to a fight 24/7. dreams of starting a family. gets along with people. never insults or hurts others on purpose. is actually quite sensitive.
  • taurus:master of organization. sometimes a little confused. is stubborn and rarely changes their opinion but always listens to what other people have to say. quiet when lost in thoughts. financial genius. generous. sometimes a little mean. will never let you down. great friend / husband / dad. is actually a great cook but doesn't eat 24/7. does sports and loves nature. is a "wow look at the moon"-person.
  • gemini:clever. hates boredom. always has a plan b/c/d. cares for their education. talks a lot. sometimes lost in thoughts. tends to overthink. always have a great story to tell. never underestimates others. believes in their friends. always know the answer. is not annoying 24/7. know when to shut up. bright smile. active. loves adventure. never shouting when angry. doesn't let others feel their anger. nature-lover.
  • cancer:very caring. will ask you how your day has been. invites you to their house to make popcorn and watch your favourite movie/series. very funny. good sense of fashion. is the friend who will take you home when you're drunk. makes sure you're ok. is fascinated by science. lovely eyes. adorable. never loud but always present. emotional but not a cry-baby.
  • leo:proud and loud. not easily insulted but when they are they roar. knows so many cultures. is interested in new things. can be very soft but won't show it unless they trust you. bright smile. always polite. will be there for you when you need them. unique sense of fashion. hard workers. chatty. always know how to handle a difficult situation. reliable. trustworthy.
  • virgo:feel much more than they would admit. don't have many friends but would do anything for the friends they have. careful. neither waste money nor time. a little stingy. the friend that feels what you feel. can read your mind sometimes. loves to surprise people. to be avoided when angry. calm down easily. loves to make others smile. sometimes too caring. loyal.
  • libra:sometimes a little weird. hardworking. sometimes they believe in themselves, sometimes they give up on themselves. aesthetic-lovers. usually very well dressed. polite. interested in art, history and literature. doubt their skills a lot. sometimes a little absent. instead of shouting they don't talk. loves conversations with new people.
  • scorpio:NOT EVIL AT ALL!! very emotional but never reckless. you can call them at 3am and they will be there for you. sometimes they don't know what to do with all their feelings but they will never let you suffer because of that. the best friends. adorable. stunning look. hard voices, hard souls, soft heart. are interested and show their interest in you and your feelings. will apologize immediately when they see they treated you wrong and they are truly sorry. mysterious. when they trust you they tell you everything. a little revengeful but would never harm others.
  • sagittarius:hilarious. clever. tell great jokes. are interested and caring. fight issues. don't show their emotions. won't be angry for long. colourful people with colourful minds. somehow they always know what's going on. love to work out. learn languages quite fast. honest.
  • capricorn:serious people. sometimes very stubborn. well educated. strong. smart. working to achieve their goals. never ever ever give up. never show defeat. don't cry very often. love the sun. good at making friends. do not forgive easily. forgive but don't forget. will remember almost everything they did / heard / said in their lives. loyal. know what they're worth.
  • aquarius:entertaining. bright personality. you can always spot their voice. has a very emotional part they won't show anyone. can make a bad situation good. great friends. sometimes a little bossy. tend to put on a show. won't mess around. chatty and makes new friends easily and quite often. has many friends but only like 2-3 real friends they would trust with their lives. hate to show when they hurt. very intelligent.
  • pisces:not crying 24/7. not weak at all. develop crushes easily but get over them very fast. either things don't mean anything to them or they mean the world to them. lost in daydreams but have the brightest fantasy. can be a storm. if they see you treat them wrong they leave. loyal to the people they love. can be revengeful. scheming. knows exactly what people deserve. would never harm anyone who doesn't deserve it. want justice. hard to get. hard to understand. great friends. worth the fight. will hold your hand and go through hell with you. passionate lovers.
Male and female signs I know

Aries Male: Very awkward at first, super easy to approach. Laughs super loud and is actually v shy. Super playful and loving, caring for those close to him. Not one for anger unless provoked

Aries Female: Loves to argue with people but never means to hurt their feelings, passionate about who and what they love, actually super lazy but athletic. Creative as fuck and very cuddly

Taurus Male: Quite at first then super funny and loud, pretty random and like never cried. Really handsome and very fashionable, a born smooth talker and kinda insensitive

Taurus Female: Worried about something literally all the time, very sweet and scared of being a burden, likes to have fun and party, super chill and loves babies

Gemini Male: laughs a lot, super awkward but actually not awkward at all, open about certain things but also extremely closed off about others, loves videos games and fun people

Gemini Female: everyone thinks you’re a Bitch at first, super funny and actually really smart, random facts all the time about anything (usually never on topic), likes clean and kinda crowded spaces, loves people but hates them all

Cancer Male: really weird sense of humour, happy being alone, loves family a lot, refuses to let go of past relationships, super shy at first, hard working, actually a sensitive nerd

Cancer Female: actually super indecisive, never fucking tells you if they’re upset, loves random adventures as long as they have people they love with them, Netflix binges are a normal things

Leo Male: cocky as fuck but super insecure, loves attention, somehow always has money for food, laughs at his own jokes more than he laughs at other peoples, “what should I do with my hair?”

Leo Female: aggressive, likes to tease people (in a loving way), loves but hates being teased back, cries whenever they feel they’re not good enough, exaggerated storied, really funny

Virgo Male: unique style, cries when they get pissed off at someone they love, constantly stressed out, simple things make them laugh really hard, not very good at telling jokes, loves people way too much

Virgo Female: bad ass TBH, easily attached, cute style, lots of stories to tell, being around them is comforting, seems to have their life together basically all the time, lowkey freak

Libra Male: knows so many people but considered like 10 of them their friends, easily excited, good advice, good at making decisions for everyone but themselves, introvert who loves people

Libra Female: makes lots of weird noises, always has a story to tell, actually really stressed out, laughs a lot, constant confusion, “what should I do/get/pick/say/eat/buy/etc.?”

Scorpio Male: a dick in a funny way, quite at first, not afraid to tell you if you’re annoying, loves to tease, shares pics about sex on fb

Scorpio Female: will fight you, not afraid to talk to strangers, loves being home and doing nothing, hood playlists, dreams about relationships, their stories are important

Sagittarius Male: fuck boy, funny as fuck, not very loud, drinks a lot, rebel who cares too much about everything, once they’re attached they stay attached

Sagittarius Female: school makes them cry, lots of relationships that last a long time, cute style but wants to look bad ass, willing to fight u, memes

Capricorn Male: really quite but somehow everyone knows them, videos games all the time, can’t express feelings and breakdowns like one a year

Capricorn Female: actually pretty loud and fun, hard to keep in touch with, can’t fall out of love with that one person, critical of a lot of things without meaning to be

Aquarius Male: knows like everyone, meme master, laughs when you laugh, not talk to them for a year and then easily pick up convo like nothing happened

Aquarius Female: super cheeky, doesn’t really argue about anything, chill as fuck, loves loud and fun people, fascinated by people and the way they do things, delicate but will kick ur ass if they have to

Pisces Male: not good at expressing things, shy, v giggly, resting Bitch face, loner, comfortable to talk to

Pisces Female: aesthetic snapchat, love fun and lowkey dangerous things, once they hate you they hate you, weird sense of humour, in their own world

I never wanted something safe
I wanted something of a storm
With raging feelings and hands that can’t keep off each other
I never wanted quite nights talking about our favorite movies
I wanted spontaneous visits and our bodies intertwined.
I didn’t want somber apologies
I wanted you to make sure I treated you right
I wanted you to fight for me,
I never wanted you to leave me behind
I needed something that made my insides combust with what felt like a universe exploding in me
—  I needed: Carol Shlyakhova(strong-but-breakable)

“I turned thirty-five recently. Everything is one big question for me right now. My dog died in January. I quit my job. I chopped off my hair. I got in a huge fight with my boyfriend last night and now I don’t know what’s going to happen. I feel like I’m about to fall apart. I’ve never been the type of girl who thought too much about kids, or dreamed about her wedding day, or thought about her wedding dress. But I’m thirty-five now. And I can’t help but wonder if it’s ever going to happen. And when is it going to happen? And who is it going to happen with? I’ve been a bartender since the age of eighteen. I got used to it. It was safe. I couldn’t mess up. There’s only one way to make a Manhattan. And the whole reason I quit my job was to pull the rug out from under myself. I wanted to use my cosmetology degree and pursue a career in hair styling. But I’ve interviewed with several salons now, and nothing has come of it. I’m really losing my self-confidence. I feel like everything is crashing down around me. I think I spent seventeen years stuck as a bartender because I was so afraid of feeling like this.”

“I sometimes wonder what would have happened if my mom hadn’t died. I was always with her, and I always followed what she said. So I think that if she was still around I probably wouldn’t have gotten expelled from school. Dad spent all his time at work, so we were like two total strangers after she died. He’d try to reprimand me without knowing who I was or how I felt. He’d tell me to put down the guitar and quit wasting my time. And he’d never show any sadness about Mom. He thought he was being strong but he wasn’t helping us or him. By not crying, all he did was make us feel more alone.”

(Mexico City, Mexico)

I wonder how Ben feels knowing that Rey got everything he wanted

She got his fathers love and adoration after knowing him for less than a few hours, something Ben never felt he had

She is loved by his mother as well, they hug like they’ve known each other their entire lives

She has friends who love her, and would die for her, they accept her for who she is and not what she can do for them

And she most likely will get special treatment from Luke that he himself never received because he was never quite ready enough for that yet Ben

And above all she has no conflict about what side she belongs on, and was never torn between where she felt accepted and what she knew was right

3

What about when you were younger, before One Direction. Did you always feel like you didn’t fit in?

When I was younger it was something that I always felt. There are people who fit into certain stereotypes; I never fit into them. I remember once, when I was younger, in drama class, an assignment where everybody had to do an impersonation of somebody else in the class. Everyone did an impersonation, but nobody could do an impersonation of me.

Why do you think that is?

I don’t know. I always thought it was quite strange. I didn’t understand it at the time. It makes sense to me now, because I wasn’t ever that particular in anything. I was always doing different things, a bit of a floater. Now that I’m older, I embrace it. That’s who I am. (x)

7

Tangled in a thread of destiny you are power-less to change…your soul to never know peace or freedom…bound to endlessly lose, reborn of hatred enterally for reasons you know not of…you’ve met with quite a terrible fate haven’t you?”

We talk a lot about love and yet we never seem to know enough about it. We make metaphors and construct rhymes to capture its essence but we never quite get it. It’s easy to write about it because it’s so common. And yet, in truth, none of us really know exactly what we’re saying. It’s a feeling, not a description. I could tell you that you make me feel like a rain forest, and you wouldn’t have a clue what I meant. Because in that moment, I wanted to tell you that you made me feel full, that every bone in my body vibrated to the rhythm of your voice, that life bloomed beneath every inch of skin you touched– but of course, there is no way to perfectly explain that, you cannot put feelings this big into words. But I still write poems about you. Everyone still writes them and I can pretend they are all about you but they will never amount to the real thing. I think a lot about words and language and the power that strums within them all and I put a lot of faith into what I say and create on the pages. But no matter the range I try, from 26 letters to over 50,000 characters, no amount of poetry in any tongue will be able to describe love the way I want it to. So sometimes, at three in the morning, I put my pen down and go back to bed. Sometimes that is the closest I can get to saying this is love and I am here for it. Sometimes all it takes is being next to you.
—  A conundrum about words and love and everything good in the world of a writer
8

I know the pain you feel. I’ve been there. I know the battle in your head to quit… I’ve had it far too many times. I’ve fallen and I’ve gotten back up only to fall again. But I’ll never stop. I’m only getting stronger and closer to my goals. For every time I fall forward on my face… I’m still moving ahead. So never quit. Hold on to what you love, chase what you desire, believe in yourself, and never stop. It’s your choice. We need more dreamers.. So please. Never. Stop. —Cody Christian

8x01 “We Need To Talk about Kevin”

♬Another year has passed me by. Still I look a myself and cry. What kind of man have I become? All of the years I’ve spent in search of myself. And I’m still in the dark. ‘Cause I can’t seem to find the light alone. Sometimes I feel like a man in the wilderness.  I’m a lonely soldier off to war. Sent away to die, never quite knowing why. Sometimes it makes no sense at all♬

  • shion:nezumi, i'm glad that you exist...
  • nezumi:...
  • shion:and i'm glad that we met...
  • nezumi:....
  • shion:i love you, nezumi
  • what nezumi wants to say:*shion if i haven't met you i'd still be an asshole and i'd never know all these feelings, i'd be just a loner and probably would die soon, since that day we first met, you saved me, you were always there by my side... a-and i've got to say you have quite a pretty face, i mean the best i've ever seen, and i have strong feelings for you, like, what i mean is... DON'T YOU DARE LAUGH OK... shion, i...i love you too*
  • what he says:shion, i have to go, this is goodbye, may we meet again someday, hasta la vista baby
7

Jannis Rolfs
Germany
Nikon D3100

You’re so young, yet your perception of the world is quite mature. What message are you hoping to portray with your work?

I dont really know, I’ve never thought about a message that my pictures could express. I take photos of things that catch my eye in any way and edit them in a way that I like. Sometimes I try to create a specific look that projects a particular feeling but how someone perceives an image is entirely up to him. Maybe I’ll try to concentrate on this way when taking photos in the future!

Tumblr: @jannisrolfs

SUBMIT TO WANDER

I think the biggest source of disagreement between the LGBT and asexuals has its roots in this: The former have traditionally been considered perverts, and the latter have not.

That really colors you, growing up as LGBT, and I think it’s something that we can all come together on. That sense of being wrong, warped, disgusting, outcasts. It’s something that comes back to you, that you can never quite shake. Even if you were fortunate enough to have a loving family environment that fully accepted you, society at large would be more than happy to let you know.

Oppression as an asexual is different. It’s not one of inherent wrongness, so much as not living up to expectations. Your mom may be disappointed she’s not getting grandkids, but she won’t throw you out on the street.

Asexuals don’t seem to realize this, I guess. I see you talking, laughing and crying and complaining about heterosexuals/sexuals altogether, and it always comes down to this: Wow. What perverts.

We feel it. We cringe. We try to tell you, but you just tell us, hey, we’re all oppressed here!

I’ve seen, on so many occasions, LGBT trying to fit something to them, to make them feel better about themselves. “These characters are gay/bi, like me.” “This character is trans/nonbinary, like me.” “I can tell because they act like me.”

And you swoop in: “Don’t make this a sex thing! Not everything is a sex thing! They’re just asexual, and don’t care about that sort of thing!

You pervert.”