In spite of everything I love
Harley Quinn but, damn, writers treat her so badly. I swear, the temptation to
make her actually stupid must be terrible because it’s so often implied, or
explicitly stated, that she slept her way through school. First of all, it
does not work like that. Second, she’s
not a therapist or a psychologist, she’s a psychiatrist, she’s a fricking MD
and a damn young one too. Managing pre-med and collegiate gymnastics that she
relied on to keep her scholarship? Harley is fucked up, but she’s not the dumb
blonde she plays. (also stop making her stacked, she’s a gymnast. she is 4’11”
of pure muscle and is not top heavy)
If you want a good Harley
backstory it’s simple. She’s ADHD but medicated and slightly robotic because of
it. I want to take special care not to demonize meds but, rather, people’s
disapproval of neurodivergence and a lack of focus on what is best for a
patient rather than what is most convenient for others. So, maybe, around ten
years old Harley is a hyperactive space cadet who’s brilliant at tests but
sloppy at coursework, who would be a gymnastics prodigy if she could actually
focus on technique and put in practice time instead of fooling around. Then the
meds come and it’s actually really cool because she can do the things she needs
to do instead of just wanting to do them, doing something else entirely, and
getting in trouble. People are proud of her, she’s proud of herself. But now
there are expectations. Family and teachers and coaches overschedule her, find
worth only in her success and don’t care about her mental health at all as long
as she’s performing and castigate her when she does fail. Fuck if you don’t
internalize that. But she doesn’t look unhealthy and she’s doing amazing. She
actually has to choose between the Olympic trials and continuing her grad
studies. She probably has some issues with self-harm but it either doesn’t look
like self-harm or is well covered up.
When Arkham accepts her, fresh
from her residency, it’s not a mistake. The woman is amazing. All they can see
is a mountain of achievements rather than the seething ball of nerves,
self-loathing, and imposter syndrome boiling just under the surface. That’s
when Joker comes in. He’s got the Hannibal Lecter shtick down. Where everyone
else sees an intelligent driven young woman he sees a frightened overwhelmed
girl who is working her hardest to convince the world she’s anyone other than
herself. Sending her into a nervous breakdown would be too easy so he doesn’t even
bother. Instead he’s open with her, almost friendly. The other doctors are
amazed, Harley is amazed, she’s not done anything particularly revolutionary
but, for the first time in forever, it looks like the clown prince of crime is
showing progress. He unravels her and it’s a challenge, she flinches back and
gets very serious when he comes too close to the real Harley under the
professional. Still, soon she’s questioning everything. She doesn’t even really
like her co-workers. She hasn’t had a real friend in years. She’s forgotten how
to have fun. Did she ever want this to be her life or did she just do it for
other people? It starts so slowly that it looks, at first, like she’s getting
better at self-care. Maybe something totally silly one weekend, a trampoline
park where she can enjoy the way her toned body moves without stressing out
over landings, a face painting booth at a street fair, some garishly colored
downright tacky decoration that clashes with her sensible apartment. Suddenly
she realizes how much she hates knowing the difference between cream and ecru.
The beigeness of her life is repulsive. She hates the person she’s pretending
to be even more that she hates herself which is really saying something.
After her weekend of freedom she
would have called in sick if it wasn’t so suddenly important to see him. The
relief she feels at talking to one of Gotham’s most infamous supercriminals is
disturbing but it is relief and she’s been swallowing a slow-motion panic
attack for hours. She admits, though she shouldn’t, that she took his advice
about doing something fun and he teases her, what would straight-laced Doctor
Quinzel do for fun? Did she realphabetize her sock drawer or buy a new
clipboard? It’s not important to impress him, it’s really not. He’s dangerous,
cruel, and he looks so proud when she admits that she bought a lamp shaped like
a lawn flamingo. The only mistake, he says, is that she should have stolen it.
She hopes the wicked thrill it gives her doesn’t show on her face. It does. She
almost even laughs. He likes it when he can make her laugh and she likes it
when he likes things.
It’s wrong and unprofessional,
the relationship she develops, and she knows it but her whole life she’s been
so high strung. Nothing she’s done has been for her, she’s not sure she knows
how to really do selfish things anymore, but he knows the selfish things she
needs to do. It feels good when she follows his advice even when it’s small
things like the rainbow striped socks she wears concealed under her very bland
slacks and sensible shoes. She’s so happy, almost giddy, and he loves her
happiness, he loves her, he loves the real her that she’s had to beat down and
hide for so long, the her that even she isn’t able to love. She is able to love
him, though, and since he loves her she’s able to love herself for him, to
protect and nurture something so important to him.
When the choice comes between
her old self, the tedious endless labor of making the world proud, and Him, the
spectacular man that brought color into her life, it’s not even a question.
She kills Doctor Harleen Quinzel, she throws away the version of her that let
herself burn just for medals and hollow accolades. She embraces Harley Quinn
and it’s so much a part of her nature she can’t even see that she’s still
living her life for someone else’s approval, except this time that person is a murderous
clown. She hasn’t let her hair down, she’s just put it in pigtails instead of a
I don’t know why but 2015 exo evokes something in me like everytime I see a picture from exodus era or love me right era I have to physically sit down and quietly say ‘I love exo so much’ as a single tear proceeds to escape my eye please bring 2015 back
Batfam reacting to their phones running out of battery
Dick:*shrieks and collapses to the floor like the Wicked Witch of the West* “NOOOOOOOOOO—” *lies there for a few minutes, his arm flung over his forehead, swooning*
Babs:*glares at the phone for the longest time, her face cold, before violently launching it across the room*
Jason: “Oh-shit-fuck-NO. No don’t you dare—” *dashes to plug it in and almost makes it to the charger, before it dies* “FUCK.” *stands there staring at it for a moment then calmly plugs it in, scowling*
Tim:[10%]*presses the DISMISS button* “I should plug my phone in.” [5%] “Oops. I’ll plug my phone in right after this Youtube video.” [0%]*the phone freezes and goes black* *a look of horror crosses Tim’s face, then resignation as the phone drops out of his limp hand* “I am Icarus and I have flown too close to the sun…” he mumbles, his eyes vacant.
Steph: “NO. No-n-no oh no you don’t you piece of apple pie. You overpriced, overrated granny smith… if you die on me I swear to Steve Jobs…”*string of apple-related profanity substitutes continue as she makes a beeline for her charger and plugs it in, smiling in triumph* Ha! That’s what I thought. *it still shuts down* “MOTHERF—"
Cass:*shrugs and forgets about it for a few days until Alfred visits and plugs it in, shaking his head because Bruce was losing his shit over it*
Damian:*flings phone down in disgust* “Cursed object! This company is getting sued for their product’s appalling battery life. I’ll make you rue the day you ever thought of creating this poor excuse of a device!” *stalks off to get a charger and yell at Tim because that always makes him feel better*
Harper: “Aw, shoot. Epic bat-fail.”*shouts to a crowd of strangers on the subway* “HEY. Anybody have a charger I can borrow?”
Duke:[5%]*speaks to the phone, waving his hand like a Jedi* “You will not die on me. You will live eternally because I forgot my charger chord.” *the phone dies and Duke sighs, looking at it disappointedly* “If you listen closely, Duke, you can hear the Force… it is talking to you… telling you that you’re an idiot.”
Bruce: [49%] “Hrn.” *pulls out charger chord and plugs it into his utility belt*
I just had to share my room because it’s finally completely unpacked and ready and I love it. We moved in to our new place over a month ago but we still had stuff everywhere and today is the first day it’s all perfectly in place.
5 Things You Can Use For Motivation Anytime, Anywhere
1. Your tribe - think about who’s in your life. The people in your life can either motivate you to be better or be your motivation to do better. Assess your inner circle and ask yourself if you want to become the average of the people you spend the most time with - it may be time to find new company.
2. Your health - how do you feel? Think about how you feel on a daily basis, if you’re tired of the rut you’ve fallen into - now is the time to start taking action to change your situation. If you’re not in good physical health - now is the time to start cleaning up your diet and moving into the body to heal it.
3. Your wallet - is it empty? We all need money to survive and an empty wallet can be great motivation to start taking action. Money is not evil and the pursuit of it can be healthy - depending on the intention you have for trying to acquire it. Ask yourself “what would I do if I had all the money I needed?” and work toward making it a reality.
4. Your dreams - are they going to remain a fantasy? Think about all the things you wish you could do in this lifetime and then ask yourself “how would I feel if someone told me I would never get to do those things?”. You are the only one who gets to decide if your dreams come true or not.
5. Your idols - who are you influenced by? Think about the people you look up to and why they inspire you. Emulate their behaviour if you want to achieve the level of success they have in their lives and be prepared to work your face off - as my business mentor Gary Vee says.
The best motivation is progress and progress comes from actions, if you want to stay motivated - you have to take action consistently every single day. There will be challenges, there will be mistakes and there will be late nights - but one day you will be able to look upon what you’ve created and be glad you put in the work.
Think about what you want & don’t stop until you get there.
Peace & positive vibes.
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Can I just say that I have never been more happy in my life? Hamilton brought me and my wife closer – it got us through one of the worst traumas of our lives, and it brought me here. Where I get love and support for just being my dorky ass self and drawing my little doodles of these amazing and wonderful characters.
Thank you guys, all of you, so much for being so sweet and supportive of my fun little hobby and continuing to encourage me. You guys are all beautiful and amazing and just
thank you. For showing me personally that being myself is okay. That me and my wife are #goals, you guys are goals, all of you beautiful wonderful people akdhlgs;
I just get so emotional thinking about it I love you all so much ;___; Thank you for being here and existing and being you. <3
What did you think of the interviewers comment "I've seen all the episodes of the entire Netflix Marvel catalog and I had to like, start thinking, was like, did they get together in Daredevil ? With like, how the layers if their relationship was, and I was trying to remember their chemistry together...." to Jon and Deb?
I AM SO EMOTIONAL! ABOUT IT! *deep breath*
Okay, I went back just to double-check, too, and at the ~2 minutes mark, the interviewer does preface that he’s seen the first 6 episodes. So he saw about the first half of TP and actually had to wonder “did they get together in Daredevil?”
That’s…amazing, and I think it’s really promising for the kind of emotional depth we can expect to see in TP between them. The waterfront clip confirms how much Frank cares about Karen, of course, but IMO that little comment also cements that it’s as consistently present between them in their interactions, from the both of them, as we’ve been hoping. I also think that’s a bit promising for how much interaction we’ll get between them (and with each other related to each other, such as what Karen’s willing to do to help Frank and vice versa) in at least said first half of the season.
I want to give massive kudos to the interviewer for asking that, as well, because he seems like he tries the best he can with this question to keep it as neutral and respectful as possible. And he brings this up only after getting an opening when Deb talks about how messy characters/relationships can be and how they’re too complicated to boil down into questions like ‘describe X in 3 words’. He sounded like a passionate fan that got the darkness of Frank and Frank’s world and loves it…which I think makes it that much more telling that even though he fumbles with it, he does push to low-key bring up that romantic angle/layer anyway in what comes off like a genuinely unprepared, non-generic, fan perspective question.
If someone that loves all the shows, and clearly didn’t come away from DDS2 with that obvious slant for them, then got confused by the uptick of intensity between them in TP…just how obvious is it? How intentional was it – how much of that is in the script, and how much is just because of Jon and Deb’s wonderful chemistry, as he mentions?
And not to sound like a broken record, lol, but Jon and Deb’s answer is everything! Because they don’t dismiss that! They acknowledge the chemistry, how unexpected and amazing it is, and still give us that “it’s completely unnamed and unlabeled” and “it can be whatever we feel in the moment”. The chemistry part could be kind of an opening to gently dismiss anything more, but they don’t. Absolutely nothing is ruled out.
So, yeah, I think that’s really telling for the emotion we can expect for them to show for/about each other on-screen and that it’s hinting at that angsty first meeting we’ve all been expecting, tbh!!
I just need enough of you to dull the pain Just
to get me through the night ‘til we’re twins again 'Till
we’re stripped down to our skeletons again 'Till
we’re saints just swimming in our sins again
I’m not feeling great lately, so this is a completely 100% self-indulget thing i drew as a way to cope with it