i need to stop with painful headcanons

More things Bruce has said to his kids:


“You were such a cute kid. What happened?”

“So, if everyone else jumps from the roof, would you jump too? … I know that you jump from the roof every night … It was a rhetorical question!!”

“I love you, but go away”


“Do you understand English?! I said no more killing!”

“Language, dammit!”

“You cannot sell your brothers on Craigslist!”


“Why did you just put that in your mouth? … I don’t care if it was a dare! Spit it out!”

“I’m not talking to you until you put on pants”

“At what point did you think it was a good idea to test how long you could go without sleep?”


“He is your older brother, do not use him for target practice”

“I understand that a dog’s mouth is cleaner than a human’s, but don’t let the dog lick your Popsicle!”

“Did you give Tim a black eye? … No, the dog was not the one to do it, try again”


“Why did you put makeup on Dick? Now he won’t stop talking about his cheekbones“

“Stephanie, you don’t even live here, why are you paining the living room?“

“Will you stop trying to hug Damian? He claims that affection makes him breakout in hives“


“You’re my favorite child“

‘I need you to watch the boys while I’m out … Yes, I know that most of them are grown men, but they seem to get into trouble when left unsupervised“

“I’m glad that I have one sane child“

Batboys as things my family has said part 2

Batboys as things my family has said part 2
Ps: my family is bilingual with French or at least everyone but my dad.

Tim: hey uhhh where’s the uhh… what’s the uhh… *mumbles to himself for a second* what’s the uhhh… you know the uhhh *does crazy hand gestures to try and explain* what’s it called?

Jason: I don’t know what you’re trying to say.

Tim: cmon it makes sense.

Jason: no it really doesn’t

Dick: *walks in*

Tim: dick! Where’s the *does the same gestures as before*

Dick: the blender is under the sink.

Tim: *gives Jason the I told you so look* thanks dick.

Jason:….. whAT THE FUCK!


*dick is helping Tim practice for his interview*

Dick: so Tim. What is something that keeps you motivated?

Tim: well there is this one quote that I always keeps me motivated *clears his throat* follow your stupid mother fucking dreams.

Dick: although I loved that game grumps quote. It’s not professional at all to say that.


*everyone is arguing*

Damian: *turns to jason seething* J'espère que tu n'est pas allergic au noix. Car je suis prêt de bottée les tiens dans ton gorge. (Translation: I hope you’re not allergic to nuts cause I’m ready to kick yours into your throat)


Jason: well I’m not allergic to anything so no worri

Damian: *cuts Jason off by hitting him*


Dick: Jason loves me.

Tim: sureeeee

Dick: *gets a text from Jason* awee see he just texted me.

Tim: what does it say?

Dick: it says… “check your voice memos <3” aweee *dick opens up voice memos and opens the memo that says “love jay”

Jason on the voice memo: dick. Go fuck yourself.

Tim: I told you.


*bruce and alfred are enjoying their peaceful morning. It’s quiet.“


Damian: *attemps to run up the stairs to see Jason in pain but knocks a vase over on the way up.*


Tim: honestly just let him go blind.

Jason: FUCK YOU!!!

Alfred: it was wonderful while it lasted *looks off into the distance*


Tim: *is extremely sleep deprived again* hey uhh what’s 7 x 10?


Alfred: I am severely concerned for your health.


RFA + V + Saeran Kinks

Anonymous said:

RFA + V + Saeran kinks plS ^q^ <3

Here you go! Also I’m sorry that some are longer than others. I elaborated more on the people that had more kinks because I really feel like Yoosung,V and Jaehee are generally very vanilla. Nonetheless, I hope you enjoy!

I also got carried away with saeran please forgive me but you're welcome saeran stans

NSFW below!!


 I honestly don’t see him as much of a kinky person. He’s pretty vanilla in terms of everyday sex. Occasionally spicing it up with a bit of role play. Even though yoosung isn’t the type, he’d be open to trying new things as long as it’s not tooooo crazy. He’d be open to things like extended foreplay is that even a kink i don’t even know


 bODY WORSHIPING IS HIS THING! He will never stop telling you how beautiful you are and how much he loves every inch of your gorgeous body. especially if you wore lingerie. He is also into consent (obviously they would all need consent, but he like to verbally hear it many times) he would love to ask you vulgar questions just to hear your response. the way you would answer as he’s thrust into you just makes him nghhhhhhh- the beast™ 


rough sex. enough said He’d love the ddlg stuff. i don’t think he’s much of a sadist though. he’d just want to control you make you feel like he owns you. he’d like some minor bdsm play such as handcuffs blindfolds and silk ties you guys saw that coming he loves seeing you squirm in the binds as he continues to pleasure you, things getting more and more heated as he hears your whimpers. He’d also want to mark you but he’s gotta do it in places that aren’t visible to the general public out of respect to you and to spare you the embarrassment even though he’d really want to do it anyway (he’d probably just leave one on your collarbone bc he couldn’t resist) 


 I also really don’t think she is kinky. there isn’t much to say about her honestly. i think she might be an exhibitionist. the feeling of being caught gives her that rush that she can’t get anywhere else. She tends to follow all the rules so she gets really excited when there is a possibility to be caught doing something “bad" 


is a low key daddy honestly. He is a confirmed sadist so i don’t doubt he will drag out foreplay to tease you in every way he sees fit. He also has a roleplay kink. He’ll bring out costumes that he bought for you to get your opinion. I also feel like he’d be an experimentalist. He’s always down to try something new with the consent of both people. He also has a thing for sound. Hear me out on this. anytime in mysme when things got heated saeyoung never has his glasses on. i’m telling you right now his vision is sHIT. he just stares at a screen all day so it’s a given. since he doesn’t wear his glasses during sex, he’d probably close his eyes. which heightens his other senses. it's a reach I know I have an overactive imagination 


okay he is not kinky whatsoever. He is super vanilla. but i do see him being into body worshiping. he’d want to make you feel like the goddess he says you are. he also has a thing for taking pictures and videos of the intimate moments. 

 jihyun i swear to god if that click sound was your camera 


 like i mentioned before this dude is kINKY OH GOD PLEASE I KNOW IM GONNA GET CARRIED AWAY WITH THIS okay so first of all he has a major dominance thing. he always wants to be the one to dominate you but imagine him being bottom oh shit that’s going to the spank bank (i also may write a fic about this in the near future) he will dabble into light bdsm like blindfolds and handcuffs or rope. also he’s definitely a sadist, but he will only give you pleasurable pain because he’s afraid to hurt you although he’d never admit it. Overstimulation is his favorite thing. I even touched on this in my dirty talking headcanon shameless plug seeing your body writhe underneath him as you beg him to stop in between moans oH GOD I NEED TO STOP NOW

anonymous asked:

Headcanons for physically disabled Matt or Mello and how the other is supportive?

- Matt suffering with Lupus, joints inflamed and stiff. He struggles to move around a lot

- Mello walking at a snails pace when they do manage to go out because Matt physically cannot keep up, it hurts too much to try even on his medication

- Matt yelling down the hall to Mello to come help him open a can for him because he can’t twist the can opener without wanting to scream from pain

- Mello glaring at anyone who makes snide comments about Matt’s disability pass on his car or when they used the disabled parking spaces because he looks young and healthy so of course he obviously is

- Mello encouraging Matt to sit when they’re out because he’s in pain, Matt refusing because if he sits down he knows the pain will be worse when he gets back up, if he can get back up

- Mello going with Matt to all his doctor appointments because when matt goes alone the doctors ignore him. Somehow that magically stops once Mello shows his face

anonymous asked:

How 'bout some minor angst, Swerve is really frustrated and ends up snapping at his human s/o and they start crying, how would Swerve react?

Yeah I’m feeling the angst right now, let’s do this! * rolls up sleeves*  I always figured hurting Rung took an emotional toll on Swerve, so that’s what I’m going with here. Thanks for this and I hope it’s okay?? My angst skills are rusty. 

  • It had been a long, hard day for everyone on the ship. After Fort Max went haywire and took two hostages, the liasion found out that Rung had been severely injured. They were trying to seek more information on what had happened exactly when they spotted their giant alien robot bf, Swerve. His face was pinched and hard from worry and anger, immediately raising their alarm.


  • When they rushed over and asked what was wrong, they learned that because of Rodimus’ orders and bad aim, Swerve had accidentally shot Rung in the head. Whether he would be able to make it back from this was still to be seen.


  • Their heart sunk in their chest. They could tell that Swerve was upset about it, even though nobody blamed him. It had been a bad situation and mistakes were made, but the guilt didn’t rest on Swerve’s shoulders. His s/o tried to comfort him, to help Swerve realize that. Rung wouldn’t blame them and he’d make it through this, they reassured him.


  • As they talked, Swerve slipped more and more into his depressive thoughts. He couldn’t believe them, to him his s/o was just full of it, trying to calm him down with lies. But he knew the truth. Finally, his temper broke and he snapped at his s/o. He didn’t want to hear it! He had shot Rung and who knew if the bot would ever recover?! There’s nothing you can say that will fix that s/o!


  • There was a stunned silence between them. The human had never had Swerve snap at them and in turn Swerve couldn’t believe he had been so rude to his s/o who was just trying to help. But it was when he saw the fresh tears glistening at the corners of their eyes that he felt like his spark had just been punched.


  • Oh no, no no don’t cry s/o! Please he’s so sorry, he didn’t mean any of that! Swerve immediately picks up and his s/o and holds them close, walking them both back to his habsuite. By the time they reached it, his s/o was full on crying and he was near tears himself. He hated knowing he was the cause of this pain for them. He never wanted them to be sad.


  • They were apologizing and he was apologizing and it was just a mess. Finally, Swerve just decided to use his holoform. As soon as he was able, he grabbed his s/o in a big hug, pressing them as close to him as he could. The two stood there for a moment as his s/o slowly stopped crying.

  • When they pulled back, he cupped their face in his hands. ‘I’m so sorry s/o, you mean the world to me. Please don’t cry, I love you’. The human understands when they see the pain in Swerve’s eyes up close, how upset he is at the whole situation. Instead of trying to tell him things will be alright, they just need to be there for him. The two hug again, Swerve forgiven in the human’s mind. ‘I love you too.’


anonymous asked:

Nevra and Ezarel's reactions to you flinching during an argument? You guys aren't yet in couple but they love you and they don't know if you return their feelings! Thanks!

I hope you enjoy these headcanons, Anon! ^^


  • Immediately stops whatever he’s doing and takes a step back.
  • No matter how angry he gets, he never ever means to hurt a friend, let alone the person he likes.
  • So seeing you flinch is a painful tell that he’s gone too far.
  • He’ll apologise immediately, asking if you’re okay but if you need your space, he’ll leave with a look of regret etched onto his features.


  • Is surprised and slightly ashamed.
  • He’s naturally sharp and when he’s arguing he can get down right vicious, so it’s not like he’s unused to seeing people recoiling from his harsh words.
  • But it stings to know he’s caused you pain.
  • The argument will be swiftly forgotten, a look of regret on his face before he leaves quickly, a pit of guilt settled deep in his gut.

anonymous asked:

I feel like McCree would be the kind of guy to cope through humor, like making jokes about his left arm and stuff. He just seems like such a down to earth sweetheart and I've got it bad for him ;o;

  • He’s totally the guy who would throw his prosthetic arm when someone says they need a hand.
  • Whenever he goes to the beach, he keeps his prosthetic off, spends some time in the water, then runs out screaming that a shark took his arm. He loves scaring children. 
  • Will use the “that cost me an arm and a leg” joke, but takes it further because “It was a half off sale so it only cost me my arm.”
  • Talking to someone who wants to lose weight. “I dropped 10 pounds in a day.” he says. “How?” the other person asks. He then holds up his prosthetic and chortles. 
  • Will even take phantom pains lightly. “This stupid ghost keeps bullying me. Make him stop, I need to sleep.” 

anonymous asked:

Hey, I love your blog! If it’s not too much trouble, could you do an imagine or hcs based off of a gif you posted a little while back of kit and he’s saying “did he hurt you?” Thanks love💕

  • Kit would do anything to keep you safe
  • If he saw anyone doing anything to hurt you, he would put a stop to it
    • Emotional or physical pain
  • If someone did actually hurt you, you could almost guarantee that they would need to go to the hospital
  • Kit would make sure you were okay and he would ask no matter how many times you say that you are
  • He would rather someone hurt him then you 
  • If you told him he couldn’t hurt someone else he would still get them to hurt him instead of you to make sure you were safe
  • Even when he was hurt his main concern would still be on you 
  • He would feel awful if he couldn’t protect you 
  • Kit’s just an over protective, caring, cinnamon roll  

anonymous asked:

I SWEAR if this doesn't wake isak up and make him realize that Sana is in desperate need of a friend right now I'm gonna sue. @julie We know you know we know you look at tumblr, we know you read the headcanons, please stop heaping pain on Sana.let the boy squad x sana rise already goddammit! I am tired of people not paying attention to her! *shakes phone and screams*


anonymous asked:

In so many of the beautiful moments between pere and khadgar, i feel (and excuse me if i am mistaken) that it mostly show how khadgar makes peregrin happy. So my question is, how does pere make khadgar happy? :)

Oh ? If it does show more of this then I should make sure to draw both side more equally. Cause I do believe in some “equality” between them, as in, they both help each other equally, give each other as much strength and happiness, and there’s no… savior/damzel in distress. Dunno if what I say makes sense xD hopefully it does ! 
First, thank you for the question 💜 and sorry if I talk too much here xD

I’ll tell you how I think she makes him happy. Be warned though, my version of the story changes a few things (I strongly love and respect the books, I just have my version of it, with more happy!Khadgar to be honest xD)

Lately I’ve been thinking about Khadgar’s past. This, too, would be my headcanon. But I do think… oh, I feel shy telling more of my hc xD hopefully noone thinks I’m forcing my headcanon on anyone x//D I’m just sharing my thoughts.
We know Khadgar has a lack of self esteem, which would be the reason for his recklessness, and for too often thinking everyone’s life matters more than his. Or just his own problems, pains, etc, he just puts it aside to help others and cheers them up and though I adore his friends, I don’t see much of them really helping him with that, while he does help others with their feelings. Mostly because he won’t talk about it. He did once, he couldn’t contain it anymore, but it didn’t change anything, he didn’t really get help after that, not even encouraging or comforting words. (He even apologized for saying how bad he felt.)
Anyway. As I was thinking about it, I wondered if something in his past led him to believe his own feelings don’t really matter. (I may be influenced by the movie (only influenced !), cause there’s nothing about his family in the games/books, as far as I know (?) and the movie talks about it, so… that stayed somewhere in my mind - if you haven’t seen the movie, it says his parents gave him to the Kirin Tor when he was 6 and he never saw them again, or his brothers and sisters.)

So, back to Peregrïn. Their bond led them to trust each other enough to talk about this kind of things. And though I don’t know the secret of Khadgar’s past myself, I am sure he told Peregrïn. 
So the first thing she does to make him happy, is to be someone he feels comfortable with, who he can trust. He knows he doesn’t have to apologize if he feels bad. He knows to her, his feelings matter. And she’ll listen and help.

Her love for him is strong. And she is very open about it. She’s not shy to say how much she loves him anywhere, anytime, enjoying the view of his smile, or to see his red, flustered face. But making sure he never forgets his worth, how much he matters, how important he is. 

Now that I think about it, the reason why you feel my art shows more of how he makes Perry happy might be because she is very, very demonstrative. You can literally see on her face all the good she thinks of him everywhere.
I mean, look at this :

You might be thinking “wow, he really does make her happy”, and you’d be right ! But this is also about his happiness, because how much she loves him, and how wonderful he is in her eyes is important for him and makes up for his own self esteem lack. She appeases him. And eventually he’ll start believing that if he’s good for her, then he’s good.
(I know all this might sound weird if you’re just playing wow xD he doesn’t really show all that. It’s a lot of years after the books so I like to believe he feels a lot better.)

She actually knows him well enough to know how to make him smile, chase the bad thoughts away, help him with things, etc. (And that’s a very tiny silly thing, but I think he enjoys making up new puns and jokes just to make her laugh.)

Now going further into the story. Oh boy this post will be long I am SO SORRY.

They grew up and Khadgar became “old”. And that’s where my version of the story changes a bit from the books. Because he had love before, and he still had it. When he was afraid to lose it, she reassured him. She held his hand, supported him, loved him, allowed him to still be a kid sometimes (I’m talking about times he was 18 to 22 years old). 
There’s parts in the books that made me very sad because he was lonely, bitter, didn’t think anyone could love him, felt like his life was taken from him even before it started. And I like to think Perry changed that by being by his side. And making him happier. He wouldn’t have to feel unloved and hopeless because she is here.
And what I was saying earlier ? About noone really helping him with his problems ? Well I do believe having her, her reassurance, her optimistic mind, her smile, her love, yeah… I do believe it would be different. And I don’t mean to change the story for you guys o///o I’m just saying, I like this version because he is happier.
I think my art shows it, nothing makes me happier than seeing them happy, haha xD

So this went a lot deeper into the story than you imagined by asking me that, I’m sorry, I’m way too talkative, and though I’m still a bit shy about sharing my stories and headcanons, I also love talking about them, haha. 

How she makes him happy in the end, well, they spend a lot of time together since they were young, they share as many laughs and adventures as they share their pains, making it a lot easier to carry, being two. They can be kids together, laugh and be silly, even during dark times. She knows his soul and how to take care of it, she gives him love and she cares about him. I think she makes him happy kind of the same way he makes her happy. 
In my mind, they’re more than lovers, they are friends, family, home, soul sisters. 

And she taught him how to ice skate, guys. And she makes apple crumble. Slightly burnt. No, seriously, there’s a lot of tiny everyday things, you know ? Simple as that.

By re-reading this post I realize they both have quite a complicated, sometimes dark past, but somehow they’re both positive persons, smiling a lot.

Also little disclaimer ! the books are NOT about Khadgar being sad and frustrated, I know. And I ADORED all the times he smiled (how many times did I read “Khadgar grinned/smiled” and smiled along with him), his positivity, his strength, how much he cares about everyone, understands them, knows what they need, how he laughed with Turalyon, made friends, helped them even though there’s a war going on ! But y’know, still helping Turalyon and Alleria and their couple drama. He’s so, so cute. He had reasons and the right to be hurt at times. I just wanted Perry to appear in the pages and hold him and change that and take away the pain. 

If Sasusaku is Bokura ga ita
  • Sakura: I’m sorry. I promised that I’ll always be watching over you yet...
  • I lost the sight of you on the way...
  • Sasuke: I ran away from you that's why.
  • Sakura: No, you didn’t run away...
  • You just had to stop by somewhere... That’s all..
  • And then got lost a little on the way...
  • Your compass must have been broken.
  • But still... you came back.... You came back to me.
  • You must be tired, right? It was painful, wasn’t it? It was hard for you, right?
  • But everything’s all right now. No need to worry.
  • Just relax and rest here.
  • Sasuke: Thank you for waiting for me.


oh yes, i am very about this

  • “Luckily Neil left home before he progressed past cutting up hunks of dead animals.”
  • listen guys, Neil was taught how to use a knife before he could even hold an exy stick. Neil knew knives way before he fell in love with game, and while that’s not a fact that he loves, it is a fact that is wholly true.
  • (plus, he’s the Butcher’s son - knife fighting is something written in the beat that thumps inside his chest, in the blood that flows through his thick veins, the ghost of every body he ever had to defend himself against. for him, wether he likes it or not, knowing how to use a knife is like knowing how to breathe).
  • now, Neil is a GOOD PERSON generally (okay, he probably just doesn’t care about people enough to be actively BAD). he wouldn’t hurt someone unless they were trying to hurt someone he loves. and he would never use a knife unless there was literally no other option 

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anonymous asked:

Cinder x Mercury: "Just this once."

“Just this once.”

She shook her head, but she didn’t stop him when he carefully unbottoned her dress. 

“I’ve seen worse”, he said. “And you’ve seen my legs, so no need to make a big deal out of it. But you’re in pain and I can help you. So let me.” 

anonymous asked:

Headcanons for Daniel if he sees his partner in physical or emotional pain?


- If he sees you in physical pain he will find whoever hurt you and probably sacrifice them
- Like even if it’s just a papercut someones getting sacrificed
- you’re constantly stopping him before he murders someone
- If it’s emotional pain he’ll try comforting you but he’s not very good at it
- He’ll listen to you vent and cuddle you if you need it???

anonymous asked:

English major anon: I don't normally share my headcanons, but I've been reading a lot of my old ballet reading material (i did ballet up until I was sixteen when I shattered two ankle bones and had to stop for obvious reasons) and... What if Lance used to dance? I'm not kidding around here, everything he does in canon proves my point - he is agile, flexible, has amazing tolerance against pain and fatigue, he's meticulous and patient and focused when need be, the way he presents himself (1/2?)

(2/2) and the way he holds himself is almost elegant (I’m reaching but fuck it). I bet my ass he panche-s when he bends and walks with duck feet if he’s not paying attention. He’s also a quick learner, or at least he’s really good at adapting, which is a common ability ballerinas have as they have to learn combinations really quickly. Oh, and he’s really good at working on teams, (but he’s also really competitive, *cough* ballerina competitive streak *cough*). Just… ex-ballerina lance.




     The “I have so much work to do.” at the end of Laurens Interlude
     has a triple whammy. Alexander is working so much because he’s
     been reminded that death could be just around the corner even
     though he “won” so many times and prospered. He’s working
     double because his friend is dead and now he has to work for both
     of them.

     The most painful of the three is that he’s hurting and grieving so
     much that he needs something to fix it. What does he do? He writes
     his way out
. That worked before when things fell apart and people
     died around him. Why wouldn’t it work now?

anonymous asked:

Futaba is nearsighted, Makoto's farsighted, Haru needs glasses to read, and Ann is nearsighted and also needs them to read. Bonus: Everyone plays the game where they switch their glasses and after they go full circle everyone's crying and two boxes of tissues are used to stop the pain in their eyes. "Never again" they all agree. 2/2

Oh boy. Just imagining Akira in the middle of it having his glasses bent when they arrive at him again and looking at everyone like “I’m so done”.

Originally posted by gifsme

staryysky1029  asked:

Can you please do a Scm guys reaction to mc dying because of child birth.👌

I had seen a lot of fanfic about MC passed away and their child survive. So I am going to do it slightly different. The gods lost both MC and their child.

“What do you mean by you can’t save both of them?” Your God shouted while the rest of the gods tried to hold him and calm him down.

“Your wife lost too much blood and your child suffocated by the baby cord that wrap around his neck.” The midwife tried to explain in fear.

Few days later and base on his POV
Alone in my secret garden since the day I lost both of them, I can’t believe this place will once again belong to me alone. I dream of bringing our child here together with her but I lost both of them. She taught me how to love but once again I am scare to love. Loving someone is so painful and I love her so much that it hurt now. Why give me the knowledge of loving someone and take away more from me? I can’t even being alone now. My heart feels empty. I really need both of them. I closed my eyes and tears flow down my cheeks.

I been practicing cutting the rabbit apples for days since the day I lost both of them. I finally managed it but I soon realized that she won’t be here to share my joy anymore. She promised to start a family with me but I lost both of them instead. Why aren’t I given the chance to experience the love of a family? Am I fated to be alone all this while? However, why let me meet her and give me hope to have a family, then took everything from me? This is worse than not knowing in the first place. I missed them so much and I can’t help break down crying.

I locked myself in my room since the day I lost her. The king had locked my power when I tried to turn back the clock. All I want is have both of them by my side. Why doesn’t the king understand? I feel so useless for not able to save them. She taught me the meaning of true love but I can’t even love anymore now. My heart is dead when I lost both of them. How can I join them in another world? How can I see them again is what I repeating asking in my mind.

Looking at the photos in front of me, I can’t believe that these are all the memories I had for her. I were so looking forward to have a family photo taken after our child was born but this will never happen. I can feel my other side start showing more often but I don’t care anymore. She is not here with me anymore and thus it does not matter. Why is our love such a short life? They had done nothing wrong at all. It is not fair to take them both away from me. Why so cruel to them? I think I might go crazy for missing them.

I wake up and saw many wine bottles on the floor. I grabbed the filled bottle nearby and start drinking again. I can’t believe I lost her twice. This time, I even lost our child. Why give me hope that we can be together again and then took them away from me? Why had I done to deserve this? The fact that they had done nothing wrong as well, but why took them away from me? All I want is to be with my love ones. Is that wish of mine so difficult to be granted to me? I continue drinking in the hope to seek an answer which I know that I will never find.

Since the day I lost her and my child, I can feel my curse is back. I can feel my strength getting weaker and weaker. I guess that it happen when I lost the will power to live anymore. I shut myself from everyone and staring at the fishes that swimming in my room. I can’t help but recall the time we spend here together. I even dream of bringing our child to swim together. Maybe it is good that my power is weakening, I can join them soon. Wait for me, I will be meeting both of you soon and I closed my eyes to wait for the day to come.

I locked myself in her apartment since the day they both gone. I have been wondering if she will still be alive if I just continue watching her from far. She could be still having her life as she wanted. I am not only causing her death but our child as well. He did not even have a chance to see the world at all. Everything is my entire fault. Why punish them instead of me? They don’t deserve it at all. I hate being a god and I am so useless that I can’t help them. I sat on the bed and start sobbing.

I been working days and nights nonstop since the day I lost her and my child. The rest of them keep asking me to take a break and I refused. I can’t stop thinking about her and my child the moment I rest. It just hurt so much that I am not even dare to take a break. Why showed me the meaning of hope and love, then took it away from me? I rather back to cold blooded than losing both of them. How can erase the pain in my heart? Wait, I need to start working again. I only slow down for a minute and I already missing them so much. It is so hurt and I trying not to cry but not sure for how long.