i need to get better at these things :

I don’t like the negativity I’ve been seeing in certain tumblr posts. Why is it that some smaller artists embrace bashing on larger artists for very minuscule things? Being an original artist does not make you any better than a fandom artist, they work just as hard to make their work. And quit shitting on nsfw artists or artists who do pinups, that stuff isn’t easy, they work hard too.

 'They do this and get a bunch of notes when I do-’ Stop whining. Keep trying and keep working. Bashing other artists are not gonna help your art get recognized or help you get notes, it just makes you sound bitter.

anonymous asked:

Hello! So my high school is a good school (especially for a public school) but that also means that we get a ton of summer work. Like it's more than just reading a summer book for a class, I have to write some essays and be ready to hand in 5 chapters of notes and have a project done amongst other things, and I'm really stressing out about it all. Anyways, do you have any motivational tips/good ways to organize work and efficiently get it all done! Thank you!!

Hi! My first note is think of how much better your holidays will be when you’ve done all the work! You can relax and not have overshadowing stress or that last minute panic of trying to get a million things done in a short amount of time. It is also important to note that you don’t need to solely focus on work until it is done. I’d recommend trying to tackle one or two (more if you’re happy too) each day that you can. Obviously starting sooner is better since you’re still in a working mindset and won’t be left condensing information at the end of your holiday. Definitely take time for yourself and to enjoy your holiday. You shouldn’t work 24/7! Here are a couple of posts that might help:

Hope this helps! You can do it! (ノ◕ヮ◕)ノ*:・゚✧ xx

anonymous asked:

Whenever you ask an artist how to git gud at art their response always seems to be something along the lines of "practice a lot". What do you practice on, though? I feel like just doodling aimlessly is not wery rewarding, at least for me.

Well of course.  You’re not supposed to doodle aimlessly, you’re supposed to doodle with the intent of getting better.  Draw the things you don’t know how to draw, draw them again, and draw them a million more times after that.  The things I practice on are gonna be different from the things you practice on.

You don’t “git gud” at soccer by learning a few tips and tricks, you “git gud” at soccer by kicking the ball over and over, running around, kicking it more, and discovering in the process of doing so what techniques you need to work on to make yourself better.  A coach helps, but a coach isn’t gonna be able to tell you “the secret plan” to make you good at soccer.”

Not to mention, the “doodling aimlessly” thing… I get the feeling you’re categorizing notebook drawings and sketches that don’t get finished as “aimless.”  Dude… what do you think I was doing my entire career in school?  What do you think I still do these days?  What do you think ANY artist ever did?  Those “aimless” doodles ARE practice.  It’s a matter of mindset.  If you think they’re pointless, then yeah, they’re gonna be pointless, because you’re going at it with a defeatist attitude.  That’s gonna get you nowhere.

anonymous asked:

Your health comes first and foremost, so don't try to rush your recovery from this bought of depression for us, okay? Take things at the pace you need to get better, and work on your mental and physical health for yourself and not for anyone else. We can wait; this is your life, and your wellbeing and happiness ought to come first. You are loved and supported, and there will be better days. Take good care of yourself.

That’s very nicely said, but at some point I need to make money again ^^ so I kinda have to rush it. I really want to get myself some things this summer and that takes a bit of money that I currently not have, so yeah. I really need to get through this so I can offer commissions. 

But thank you, I make sure to not take it too far with pushing through it. 

anonymous asked:

hey, so umm... i teared up while reading that "you look great..." post and just wanted to say thank you for posting that. i do not cry easily at things like that. normally when reading those things it doesn't affect me that much but this one really hit me for some reason. i'm getting a bit better about being less insecure about myself but really it's just when i'm at home, when i'm in public i still feel very insecure and posts like these really make me feel better, so thank you!!

Small reminders like that are so lovely, I think they’re fantastic things to share. I definitely needed to read it too. I think we all need to be reminded of it. I’m so glad it made an impact though. You’re beautiful inside and out. Confidence takes time to grow but you’ll get there! xx

@basaltdragon

There’s no such thing as better or worse, in my opinion…I just have a firmer grasp on my hand control than a beginner artist, and even then, I was once in their place…I’m not even a beginning amateur at animation and I don’t think it’s something I’d pursue as a serious hobby, just something fun to occasionally work on, and I don’t think you should put yourself down as a form of compliment (but I do love your kind words otherwise, they fill me to the brim with joy)

I think every artist can have different style/ability paths - some people are amazing cartoonists but lack talent in the realistic section, some people are amazing with shading and shapes but lack understanding of anatomy, and so on. Personally I’m great with drawing people but I hate drawing backgrounds - I’d rather just paint them!

You find what works best for you, and just cause you start off bad, doesn’t mean you’ll never be good…I believe in you and I think you should keep on trying, especially if you ever get that tablet!

xochitlsworld  asked:

I hope you get better soon man

Poptart: thank you I’m gonna be getting an assessment next week for what medication i need so that will be fun uh things didn’t go the best today but it still went so that’s a thing

voxofthevoid  asked:

Bet on It's 'I didn’t mean what I said about your mother' line - and the ficlet in general - made me lose my shit laughing. Thanks! I needed that after the last couple of days.

In reference to this post

AW. THANK YOU! Humor is my favorite way to try to live. I hope your last couple of days weren’t too awful, and that things get better soon :)

anonymous asked:

How do you cope with the anger caused by your parents actions? I no joke need a better coping mechanism, I bite myself until I bruise

Honestly, it’s hard. My parents have been such assholes to me so many times. It’s hard to even think about. I used to cut myself back in middle school because I couldn’t stand the abuse. It was too much. I would get bullied at school and then come home and get bullied by my parents. 

I would say 3 things contributed to my ability to better cope with my parents bullshit:

1. I’m in a healthy, committed relationship with the best guy in the world (ok maybe I’m a little biased lol). But he really is my biggest support system and I feel so lucky to have him in my life :)

2. My relationship with God. If I find myself getting angry or upset, I just pray. It also helps me sleep because I’ve always had trouble sleeping. 

3. This is probably the biggest factor. My parents bought me Ayurvedic medicine from India. I know, I know. It sounds shady and you probably think it’s poisonous or something but I’ve been taking it for 22 months now and my mental health is better than ever. I’ve suffered from major depression and anxiety since I was a child. Panic attacks, trichotillomania, suicidal thoughts, eating disorders. I dealt with it all my whole life up until recently. This medicine actually helped cure my mental health problems. No, this is not an advertisement or endorsement. No, I’m not getting any money from this. I’m just putting it out there that you can recover from mental health issues without shady western medicine with side effects like organ failure or sudden death. Sometimes a good therapist isn’t enough. Personally, I’ve talked to therapists and I just find them all annoying. Taking these and slowly getting better was easily the best decision of my life. Message me privately if you wanna know more. 

I hope you start to feel better soon :) I’m always here for you friend <3 

connormurphweed  asked:

our boy michael fuckin mell (for the character ask thing)

1: I’ve grown up on video games and don’t particularly like the newer games??? Like I get the appeal of FPS but cmon where’s my banjo kazooi? My Pokémon snap? My Kirby air ride?? MY CRASH BANDICOOT. These are everything.

2: panic attacks :))) constantly :))

3: DEPENDENCY ISSUES TO THE MAX HERE YO WHAT UP I NEED THE PEOPLE I LOVE IN MY LIFE OR I CRUMBLE

Difference:

1: I have,,, perfect vision,,, better than the average person,,, my eyes are really really good.

2: I don’t drink soda. I can’t do it. Carbonated beverages freak me the heck out.

3: despite it being legal, I’ve never smoked weed.
Ever.
I mean, everyone has it, and I’ve had it offered it to me more times than I can count, but I don’t got time for that. No THANKS

(long post, sorry)

In spite of everything I love Harley Quinn but, damn, writers treat her so badly. I swear, the temptation to make her actually stupid must be terrible because it’s so often implied, or explicitly stated, that she slept her way through school. First of all, it does not work like that.  Second, she’s not a therapist or a psychologist, she’s a psychiatrist, she’s a fricking MD and a damn young one too. Managing pre-med and collegiate gymnastics that she relied on to keep her scholarship? Harley is fucked up, but she’s not the dumb blonde she plays. (also stop making her stacked, she’s a gymnast. she is 4’11” of pure muscle and is not top heavy)

If you want a good Harley backstory it’s simple. She’s ADHD but medicated and slightly robotic because of it. I want to take special care not to demonize meds but, rather, people’s disapproval of neurodivergence and a lack of focus on what is best for a patient rather than what is most convenient for others. So, maybe, around ten years old Harley is a hyperactive space cadet who’s brilliant at tests but sloppy at coursework, who would be a gymnastics prodigy if she could actually focus on technique and put in practice time instead of fooling around. Then the meds come and it’s actually really cool because she can do the things she needs to do instead of just wanting to do them, doing something else entirely, and getting in trouble. People are proud of her, she’s proud of herself. But now there are expectations. Family and teachers and coaches overschedule her, find worth only in her success and don’t care about her mental health at all as long as she’s performing and castigate her when she does fail. Fuck if you don’t internalize that. But she doesn’t look unhealthy and she’s doing amazing. She actually has to choose between the Olympic trials and continuing her grad studies. She probably has some issues with self-harm but it either doesn’t look like self-harm or is well covered up. 

When Arkham accepts her, fresh from her residency, it’s not a mistake. The woman is amazing. All they can see is a mountain of achievements rather than the seething ball of nerves, self-loathing, and imposter syndrome boiling just under the surface. That’s when Joker comes in. He’s got the Hannibal Lecter shtick down. Where everyone else sees an intelligent driven young woman he sees a frightened overwhelmed girl who is working her hardest to convince the world she’s anyone other than herself. Sending her into a nervous breakdown would be too easy so he doesn’t even bother. Instead he’s open with her, almost friendly. The other doctors are amazed, Harley is amazed, she’s not done anything particularly revolutionary but, for the first time in forever, it looks like the clown prince of crime is showing progress. He unravels her and it’s a challenge, she flinches back and gets very serious when he comes too close to the real Harley under the professional. Still, soon she’s questioning everything. She doesn’t even really like her co-workers. She hasn’t had a real friend in years. She’s forgotten how to have fun. Did she ever want this to be her life or did she just do it for other people? It starts so slowly that it looks, at first, like she’s getting better at self-care. Maybe something totally silly one weekend, a trampoline park where she can enjoy the way her toned body moves without stressing out over landings, a face painting booth at a street fair, some garishly colored downright tacky decoration that clashes with her sensible apartment. Suddenly she realizes how much she hates knowing the difference between cream and ecru. The beigeness of her life is repulsive. She hates the person she’s pretending to be even more that she hates herself which is really saying something.

After her weekend of freedom she would have called in sick if it wasn’t so suddenly important to see him. The relief she feels at talking to one of Gotham’s most infamous supercriminals is disturbing but it is relief and she’s been swallowing a slow-motion panic attack for hours. She admits, though she shouldn’t, that she took his advice about doing something fun and he teases her, what would straight-laced Doctor Quinzel do for fun? Did she realphabetize her sock drawer or buy a new clipboard? It’s not important to impress him, it’s really not. He’s dangerous, cruel, and he looks so proud when she admits that she bought a lamp shaped like a lawn flamingo. The only mistake, he says, is that she should have stolen it. She hopes the wicked thrill it gives her doesn’t show on her face. It does. She almost even laughs. He likes it when he can make her laugh and she likes it when he likes things.

It’s wrong and unprofessional, the relationship she develops, and she knows it but her whole life she’s been so high strung. Nothing she’s done has been for her, she’s not sure she knows how to really do selfish things anymore, but he knows the selfish things she needs to do. It feels good when she follows his advice even when it’s small things like the rainbow striped socks she wears concealed under her very bland slacks and sensible shoes. She’s so happy, almost giddy, and he loves her happiness, he loves her, he loves the real her that she’s had to beat down and hide for so long, the her that even she isn’t able to love. She is able to love him, though, and since he loves her she’s able to love herself for him, to protect and nurture something so important to him.

When the choice comes between her old self, the tedious endless labor of making the world proud, and Him, the spectacular man that brought color into her life, it’s not even a question. She kills Doctor Harleen Quinzel, she throws away the version of her that let herself burn just for medals and hollow accolades. She embraces Harley Quinn and it’s so much a part of her nature she can’t even see that she’s still living her life for someone else’s approval, except this time that person is a murderous clown. She hasn’t let her hair down, she’s just put it in pigtails instead of a bun.

ACC Rant

(Feel free to ignore this.)

Okay I just-

I need to rant. I was watching Advent Children (Complete) again today and I just-

I love Tifa. I do. I really do. But dear god this is not okay.

I get it, I really do. Both of the kids are gone, kidnapped by what are basically miniature-Sephiroths, she’s scared and frustrated and feels helpless. Cloud has been constantly coming and going for two years now, and she’s looking for stability that isn’t there. She’s taking out her frustration and fear of the situation on the first person there who comes into conflict with her. But I just-

That scene. I hate that scene so much. Because while I understand where Tifa is coming from, she has absolutely no idea what she’s talking about.

I’m sure that everyone (minus Vincent and Nanaki, probably) expected for him to be okay after meteor. Tifa thought that he’d be there and be stable, be okay and around. After all, Sephiroth is gone, ShinRa is gone, the WRO is up and running and getting everyone electricity again. Cid is providing transportation, and Barrett is providing fuel. Everything’s okay now, right? Why should Cloud not be okay?

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Destiel, Bi!Dean and preparing the audience for a “shocker”.

I just did a re-watch of 12x10 and it really got me thinking again about Benjamin and Cas’s talk in the car with the boys about Benjamin and his female vessel.

At the time the episode aired, I think I was so excited about the prospect of Cas being in a female vessel, and how this could potentially shift a heteronormative audiences perception of Dean and Cas that I didn’t realise just what else they were trying to do.

This is about reassurance.

This is the conversation that was had in the car:

CAS: Benjamin is always very careful. Long ago, he found a powerfully devout vessel in Madrid, and her faith, it… she gave him everything – her trust and her body.

DEAN: Wait. So Benjamin’s a woman?

CAS: Benjamin is an angel. His vessel is a woman. But it – it’s – it’s more than that. She’s not just his vessel.

Just this small exchange is important as exposition for the audience. It is about preparing the audience for what is coming up. The idea that Cas was also once ‘a woman’. Which, okay, no he wasn’t a woman, he just had a female vessel, but imagine how that would have gone down had this exchange not taken place? Imagine how a general audience would have reacted to Cas and his female vessel had Benjamin just been another angel in a male vessel?

Probably a lot like the way Dean acted here, with confusion.

By giving us the Benjamin character and this particular scene as well, the writer has successfully prepared the audience for Cas in his female vessel. Preventing raised eyebrows and confusion because the audience will remember this conversation and apply it to Cas.

“Castiel is an angel, his vessel WAS a woman. His vessel is now a man, Cas is still a dude and it’s not weird. Cool beans.”

(when I think of a general audience watching SPN lets just say that I certainly don’t think of the fandom or tumblr. I think of my brother and that is something I won’t get into here. Heteronormative doesn’t even begin to cover it.)

The fact is, making one of your three main lead male characters a woman for an episode is a weird thing to do, the kind of thing that would probably make some audience members uncomfortable. So adding in this exposition, this reassurance, removes that level of discomfort, it gets them used to the idea first, like a buffer.

See for a show like SPN, whilst its always been a bit weird with its story lines, it’s never been all that progressive. As much as we would all like to wish that all SPN viewers were like us – liberal forward thinking people who are willing and eager for TV to break a few taboos – the chances are that is very much not the case. Its an old show, it has an established audience (apparently a bipartisan audience amazingly) and therefore breaking boundaries the way more modern shows have (such as American Gods, How to Get Away with Murder and Orange is the New Black) just isn’t really in the cards. Those shows established the taboo stories, the queer main characters, the representation, from the start. They built their audience on those foundations. SPN can’t do that without isolating part of its audience – unless it thinks very carefully as to how it may present such notions.

I hope I am explaining this in a way that makes sense. See this is of course about Bi!Dean and Destiel (as if anything on my blog WASN’T about those topics). Because here’s the thing. On any other, newer show, for Dean to come out as bisexual, for two male lead characters to enter into a homosexual relationship, it wouldn’t be a big deal. Those shows could build their audience around those concepts, because they would be ingrained into the show from the start.

For Supernatural, that sadly isn’t the case. SPN didn’t clearly establish Dean as Bisexual early on, and Destiel isn’t canon, it has always been the subject to interpretation with just enough ‘no homo’ so that anyone who chooses not to see it doesn’t have to (again, excluding 12x19 but we’ll get there)

One of the biggest hurdles to getting bi!dean and canon destiel, is for the SPN creators to overcome this fear that half their audience would reject them if they actually went there. It would be seen as coming ‘out of the blue’ and all those heteronormative people would raise their eyebrows and moan and be utterly confused by it.

That’s why Supernatural needs the buffers. It needs the gradual exposition, the subtle desensitisation of a general audience to anything even mildly “progressive”. If Supernatural wasn’t putting these buffers in place already, I would think we would have a problem. I would be much more apprehensive at even the idea that destiel could be a thing that is actually happening.

What is so fantastic, is that just like in 12x10 with the fem!Cas buffer that was Benjamin, we have already been getting buffers all throughout the last few seasons.

Here are some of my favourites:

  • Jesse x Cesar – 11x19 – These guys are my absolute favourite, they were created specifically to show the audience that you can be a gay man and also a macho man. That gay men aren’t stereotypes, that hunters can be gay and settle down and especially that gay romance doesn’t change the theme of the story. The big take away from this episode is that it shows the general audience that men like Dean Winchester can be gay/bisexual.
  • Hannah – 10x17 – This was a real eye opener for any Cas x Hannah shippers. Because Cas didn’t treat Hannah any different, and he had exactly the same warmth and affection for Hannah in her male vessel that he did in her female vessel. Basically this was a nice punch in the face for any homophobes watching. SPN doesn’t care about your heteronormative ships. You wanna ship Hannah x Cas? Fine! But Hannah’s in a dudes body now and guess what? Cas doesn’t care! How do you feel about THAT?
  • God is Bisexual – 11x20 – This was just a nice big fuck you to homophobes everywhere. Don’t like queer characters? This is NOT the show for you! Because in our world even GOD is queer! Yay for LGBT representation! It works as a buffer because once again it is sending a message to the general audience that this is the kind of thing you can expect on our show. We are changed now.
  • Dean rides Larry – 12x11 – Okay so maybe it’s not an obvious buffer, but it is kind of a subliminal message so I’m counting it. Dean riding that damn bull was the most sexual scene we have had on this show in seasons (and no that god awful thing that happened in 12x02 doesn’t count – nor does the same god awful thing from 12x08). The jokes alone, the sexual innuendos. This entire episode is loaded with subliminal messages basically screaming at the general audience to maybe just consider the fact that Dean likes guys.
  • 12x06/12x20 – Max Banes – like Jesse and Cesar Max works as a buffer because he is another way to get the general audience used to the idea that characters that are similar to Dean Winchester can be queer and it’s no big deal. Max is badass, funny, smart and charming and also 100% canonically queer (whether gay or bi we know textually that he is totally into dudes). Sam and Dean don’t bat an eyelid at his sexuality, so neither should the audience. It is just one part of his character and certainly not what his story is all about. Max is proof that you can have a queer character who is a badass and a hunter whose story is basically nothing to do with their sexuality. Their sexuality just happens to be a part of who they are.
  • And finally – Destiel – season 12 – I’m making this its own buffer because honestly? There is no way to view Dean and Cas’s relationship as non-romantic at this point. I think that the writers have slowly been turning up the dial on Destiel probably since 11x18. 12x19 really drummed it in for us though. The angel/human love themes of 12x10, the textual “I love you” in 12x12, the MIXTAPE and everything else about 12x19. This is all preparation. It is indeed a build up to a reveal. Destiel is it’s own buffer and even if people do still accuse it of ‘coming out of nowhere’ once it goes canon, all the writers have to do is gesture at season 12 and the fucking mixtape scene and say to those people “in what universe does the gifting of a mixtape between people who are not explicitly related NOT have romantic connotations?” Only a fool would argue with that if they had any knowledge of pop culture history. Sorry, but that’s the truth.

Anyway, that’s my thoughts on that. A show with a long established audience about to make a move that could potentially appear (but not really) out of left field would need to build up that move through a series of well thought out buffers, symbols, themes and subliminal messages before actually making it.

Like how Benjamin was the writers way of normalising Cas’s female vessel, the past two seasons have been a journey to normalise bi!dean and destiel in preparation for making both of these things explicitly canon. Yes we still have a way to go - it still needs to be stated explicitly in the text that Dean is into guys, in love with Cas bla bla bla, but we are getting there.

In summary. Destiel is endgame. Dean is bisexual. The general audience better learn to throw their heteronormative goggles in the bin because this is the state of this show right now, and it is good. 

Done… FINALLY … I don’t have to stare at this anymore… ohwait this is my business card design for the upcoming convention.. nvm….  눈‸눈

High Lords Comforting

Rhys: Has this down to a science; back rubs and gentle kisses. “What’s wrong?” Impossible to be denied because his eyes are so wide and pleading; but if he can’t get Feyre to talk, he just turns on SexyMode™ until she becomes annoyed/aroused enough to talk to him.

Feyre: A good listener. Lets Rhys rant for ages. “I know this must be difficult for you, and I’ll always be here.” “Thank you, Feyre darling. I can’t believe it…this betrayal hit home.” “Yes…Cassian shouldn’t have opened your favorite bottle of wine without asking.”

Helion: Smiles everywhere, lots of pleasant touching, whispering foul things that just make his lover laugh so hard. Will do anything to make them smile again. Do they want to see him perform a dance routine? Get Sexy and I Know It cued up, here comes Helion.

Thesan: Cuddles his Peregryn lover. “What are you–” “Shhhhhhh, I’m being soothing.” “Oh, I’m doing alright–” “Shhhhhhh, you need to be soothed.” “No, really, nothing’s wrong–” “Shhhhhhhhhhh!”

Kallias: Definitely builds a pillow fort or, even better, an igloo for him and Viviane to escape into if she’s feeling blue. They can make little snowmen, and he likes to tickle her until she starts to giggle. “Has anyone seen the High Lord?” “Ah…he’s in his igloo.” “AND I’M NOT COMING OUT UNTIL MY WIFE SMILES.”

Tarquin: Mild internal panicking at the thought of something being wrong. But he’s a comforter; brings his lover everything that they find joy in. Will eat ice cream in bed with them, takes them to watch the sunset, they read books together. Its all familiar and soothing and comfortable.

Beron: Doesn’t know something is wrong; doesn’t care. Doesn’t have lovers because ew

Tamlin: Smiles gently, tips up his lover’s chin and brushes away a strand of their hair. Kisses them on the forehead. “You know what you need to make you feel better?” he whispers softly, his lips like a butterfly kiss on their forehead. “What?” Another kiss on the tip of the nose, and then, “SoLiTARy COnFineMEnT” before he throws them in a locked room. “iT bUiLdS ChaRAcTeR!”

‘Reflecting’ on an infinite universe.

I can imagine Pigde’s adventure starting to get to her. The more space she explores, the more her universe expands, and the more places where her family isn’t. A game with chances of a thousand-to-one becomes billions-to-one, and she keep losing. The amount of  space between her an her family just keeps getting bigger.

Also the transparent looks good.

goodnight