i need to freakin' graduate already

wow straights don’t know how lucky they are. they are literally represented everywhere. u listen to a song on the radio ??? s t raight. u watch a tv show ??? 3 wild straight couples appear. u watch a movie ??? there is always a straight love plot squeezed into the story. u read a book ??? hello™ there are the straights again. like they don’t even have to search for things ??? while i need to graduate lesbian detective school to be freakin able to find one decent piece of lesbian fiction that i haven’t read 39290480939 times already because there are literally no alternatives ??? straights just need to open any book in the bookstore and there is already a straight romance flourishing on page one. imagine what that must feel like ?? can’t relate

anonymous asked:

Hey dude I'm having a crappy day and idk who else to turn to bc ur just a couple years older than me, you've already been through all the junk im stressing about I graduate on thursday and it just feels like i wasted high school bc i don't have many friends and i didn't participate a lot, i don't have any scholarships, i don't even know what college i wanna go to, and its all freakin me out bc i just want to draw and be happy but idk im havin a rough time ig. I just need someone to say its okay

oh my god you’re absolutely 100% fine

If you can, start off at a community college. I’d highly recommend it. Take some art electives. It’s a FANTASTIC way to meet like-minded people who are probably close in age to you. Join the art club if there is one.

In my experience, community college is SO much better than high school. My high school experience wasn’t even That bad, and I still think it’s a million times better. It’s nice cause you can just sorta.. go at your own pace. You get to start fresh with new people, a new campus, new opportunities.

There’s no deadline to figuring your life out. Even if it takes you a while, none of that time is wasted because it’s part of what led you to your discovery, right?

anonymous asked:

*Curtsies* Dearest Duke I come to you to seek advice. I am writing a book and I am nearing the end of my first draft except I lack the motivation to finish it. I was wondering if you have any tips on how to get motivation to finish the first draft. Thank you!

*Curtsies* I have some general advice here, but I get a lot of questions about this so maybe it deserves its own post. 

Advice for Aspiring Authors: How to Get (and Stay) Motivated

  1. Keep reading. It’s what makes writers want to write. Get a pile of your favorite books together, and when you just can’t make yourself put pen to paper, open one and re-read one of those scenes that made you want to be a writer in the first place. (But be very cautious not to let what you’re reading influence what you’re writing too much–or you may end up stealing ideas, without even really meaning to.)
  2. Make a playlist. I am a firm believer that music be the food of writing. I have playlists for each project and sometimes individual characters and they are sometimes hundreds of songs long. Make a playlist that could be the soundtrack to your novel, songs that could be the theme song if it were a TV show, your characters’ favorite songs, etc. Make that playlist and use it to get yourself geared up when the fire’s dying.
  3. Make a pinboard. I’m going to be honest with you, I fucking hate Pinterest. I don’t even know why. However, I’m currently living in a place where I don’t have a printer and I’m not allowed to stick shit on the walls, so Pinterest it is (and to a certain extent my author blog). I make pinboards the way I make playlists–for places, people, and entire stories. If my head’s not in the right place I scroll through a setting board and it makes the transition from my tiny living room to a big sprawling field that much easier.
  4. Have a daily goal. This can be as vague as ‘Finish Chapter Five’ or as specific as ‘write 2,000 words,’ but you need something to shoot for. It’s much less daunting to sit down at the keyboard if you have a specific idea of what you’re trying to accomplish.
  5. Track your progress. Did you meet that daily goal you just set? Whether it’s a wordcounter or just crossing another day of writing off the calendar, having some way to show your progress is an enormous incentive to keep progressing. 
  6. Reward–or punish–yourself. Human beings are a lot like dogs. We’re more likely do a trick if we know we’re getting a treat, so find a way to reward yourself for making progress. Wrote 1,000 words? Have a Hershey’s kiss. Wrote 2,000? Have two. (Don’t do this with booze. Trust me.) If you’re better motivated by the need to avoid negative things, set up punishments for yourself. I’m not saying you should go all house-elf and slam your face in the oven door if you don’t meet your daily goal, but do find a way to make sure it doesn’t happen again. Revoke your own TV privileges. No chocolate for you. You’re grounded until you get this done.
  7. Strict Workflow is your best friend. Strict Workflow is a free Chrome extension based on the Pomodoro Technique. I won’t explain that here, but bro, it fucking works. It works so well that the chair of my department said to a roomful of graduate students last week, “If you’re not using the Pomodoro Technique you need to be.” I can get four or five hours of work done in one sitting with this.
  8. Look back. If you’re losing the magic go back and read some of the scenes you’ve written already that you really love. Highlight great passages or sentences or bits of dialogue. Sometimes you have to remind yourself that yes, you are good at this. If you’re anything like me this will light a fire under your ass and make you freakin’ desperate to finish your story so you can see how perfectly all the pieces fit together for one glorious moment before revision starts and you realize it’s actually an unholy fucking mess.
  9. Look forward. I’m not going to harp on about why you need to outline, but this is one of many reasons. If you have an outline, you know exactly how much work you need to do before you get to that one exciting scene you can’t wait to write, and that’ll motivate you to get through the other ones. Theoretically you should be in some way excited about every scene (If you aren’t, why is it there?) but no novel can be dripping with drama from start to finish, so there probably are some bits juicier than others. It’s like when you’re watching your favorite movie and you can’t wait to get to the good part. 
  10. Remind yourself why you wanted to write this thing in the first place. Make a list of at least ten reasons why you love this novel, and why you want to write it. Keep it close, at all times, so you can whip it out whenever you start to feel like giving up might just be the easiest thing. 
  11. Just fucking do it. To embellish a Nike slogan, sometimes you have to just fucking do it. I’ve said it more than once, but this is one of the things that separates people who really have it in them to be writers and people who are only ever going to write as a hobby. Want to make a career out of it? Treat it like a career. If none of the rest of this shit is working, sit down and don’t get up until it’s done, even if you’re grinding your teeth the whole damn time. Determination is key.

Good luck.

Fic: The end is just the beginning (or This is how the story goes) - 1/2 (The Vampire Diaries; Stefan/Caroline)

Fandom: The Vampire Diaries

Rating: PG-13

Pairing: Caroline Forbes/Stefan Salvatore

Summary: “I’m Caroline. Caroline Forbes,” she says instead, reaching out a hand across the table. It’s a long three seconds before he reaches out and takes her hand. Firm grip, warm skin, and shakes once, “Nice to meet you, Agent Forbes.” AU fic.

Author’s Note: I’m not really sure how to preface this. I can’t tell you where this came from, except to say it is heavily inspired by Alias and Sydney/Vaughn, who I shipped oh so very hard, and if you’ve seen the show before, you may actually recognise some of the scenes and themes/character variations which I have unashamedly used. In other words, this is a monster of an AU fic with steroline as spies and it tells the story of their escapades to save the world from evil, and somewhere along the way, they may or may not fall in love … If you’re going to read this, I suggest you settle in, get comfortable, it’s going to be a long and bumpy ride …

 

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Part One


Rumours of a walk-in fly thick and fast through the office. There’s a general buzz that follows such news. Questions of who and why are part and parcel, and she’s the one tasked with getting to the bottom of both.

When they ask her to debrief him (it’s definitely a him, that’s as much as they all have), she can’t help the tone of surprise.

“Me?” she asks.

She’s probably one of the youngest and least experienced agents at Langley but that doesn’t make her any less eager to impress. Not when she’s constantly battling innate misogyny in a man’s world.

“Is that a problem, Agent Forbes?”

“No,” she’s quick to negate with a shake of her head, “Not at all sir.”

Director Stevens gives her a pointed look from behind rimless spectacles and it’s a look that says I’m giving you a chance, don’t make me rue the day we recruited you.

“I won’t let you down.”

“Hmm,” he nods, before throwing out a name and finally answering the who? “Stefan Salvatore.”

Again, she’s surprised, but does a better job of hiding it, “As in … ?”

“Yes.”

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