i need the art book or something idk man

idk man, i kinda wanna be in a punk band and have tattoos and listen to rock music, but i also wanna be indie and have like a flower shop or a coffee shop or something, but i also wanna be a teacher or something and get a degree and make my parents proud, but i also wanna be a comic book artist and go to art school even though i can’t draw, but i also wanna be nothing at all because fuck everything, it’s not worth it, ya feel?