(jazz hands) I have depression.
Some of you guys are probably like “you didn’t have depression before??” To which I reply: lol. Cheers bro I’ll drink to that.
Long story short, I’ve spent the past three years operating off the assumption I had depression, but never actually tried doing anything about it. But this weekend, I finally did what I should’ve done a long time ago and talked to my family and a therapist, resulting in a formal diagnosis and plan to actually like… help myself.
I’m making this post for two reasons:
1. To encourage others to get help. Making shitposts about coping on tumblr.shitass.com is all well and good, but it didn’t actually… do anything for me. It just helped me make excuses for my shitty mental health, and convinced me I could take care of it myself. I couldn’t, suffice to say, and I’ve wasted a lot of time and chances for myself, something I don’t want for anyone else. If you have the opportunity to get help, take it. Even if you don’t think you need it. Especially if you don’t think you need it. You’ll be better off for it in the long run.
2. I don’t know how active this blog will be for the time being. I’m about to start medication as well as therapy, etc, and I’m sure that’ll change a lot of things for me. I also… am really tired, and tired of putting on a brave face, and I kind of just want to keep to myself. So even if I’m still more or less active on here (aka reblogging posts and such), I’ll probably be keeping to myself more. Which means, for the most part, I won’t be answering asks or dms. It’s not that I’m ignoring you, it’s more that I just. Don’t care enough to try anymore. Sorry. If I reach out, turn up, but otherwise I won’t be interacting with people as much as I recuperate and focus on myself. At least for a while.
So… yeah. I won’t lie, I’m not in a great place right now, but what else is new? The only real thing that’s changed is that I’m finally starting to help myself and, while this isn’t the greatest of circumstances, in my opinion it’s a damn good way to end 2017.
May 2018 treat us better, and I’ll see you all on the other side.
❤️ Katie K.