i miss you but i'm not coming back

Vodka was easier to swallow than the fact that you weren’t coming back.
I have a very fragile heart that constantly breaks at the thought of your arms around someone else.
—  Things I realized when I admitted that I’m not over you, part II
I go to bed Every. Single. Fucking. Night. wondering why having me wasn’t enough for you.
I’ll be waiting for you when you’re ready to love me again,
I’ll put my hands up,
I’ll do everything different,
I’ll be better to you.
—  Adele ‘I’ll be waiting’
I have to constantly keep myself busy because if I don’t, I start to think about us, and I make up reasons why we should be back together, and then when I realize that we aren’t going to be, I crawl into bed and try to fall asleep. At least in my sleep you and I can be together and everything is okay again.
—  My friends don’t understand how badly I need them to be around me or else I’ll just end up crawling back to you.