i miss you all the time

i miss being in a relationship and staying up late on the phone or laying in bed with one another wide awake just talking about nonsense in the middle of the night while holding each other or rubbing your thumb along their hand. i miss surprise dates and staying in for movie nights or just running errands together because that’s time spent together and getting butterflies even when you text them.

anonymous asked:

Hi!!!! I really in love with your writing!!!! OMG!!!!! Virtual hug to you!!!!! Can i request minific like rfa+saeran lost their wife MC in their anniversary night because of car accident? Like MC die on the spot? Thank you! I love u soooo much! Muah!


Did you miss me? Cos I missed you all a SHIT TON. LIKE OMG. So I’m like the absolute worst because of my two-month hiatus. Honestly, guys, life has just been sucking. Welp, I’ll go more in-depth later buuuuuut I am posting once again. I want to apologize because my writing is SUPER DUPER RUSTY. So I apologize ahead of time if the ficlets suck :( BUUTTT YA GIRL IS BACK. So without further ado the request :3 It was a GREAT prompt but ya girl can only do so much with car accidents D: Leave me some comments guys, critiques anything you’d like to see me do, or anything :)

As always show ya girl some love FOLLOW/LIKE/REBLOG <3

Oh, and if I were you guys, I’d uh prepare your hearts for some major angst >:D

Wanna know why I was MIA????

Need a master list? I gotchu


It was your first anniversary together as a married couple. Four years of having your beautiful soul in his life, Yoosung was thankful for the fateful day you staggered into the RFA chat room.

In the beginning, he didn’t think anything of it, he knew he thought he was just attached to you because you had filled Rika’s spot. The differences between you and Rika were colossal. He loved you more and more every day; he couldn’t believe his ears when you accepted his marriage proposal.

You were his and he was yours. He had finally graduated school and now he couldn’t wait to start a family together with you. He bolted out of work, excited to meet you. You guys were celebrating your first anniversary together and everything had to be perfect.

He couldn’t wipe the smile off his face. He grabbed a bouquet of flowers, sunflowers, your favorite. You always thought roses were super cheesy and excessive, in his opinion he thought that it was fitting to you. Like the flowers, you made his life much sweeter and brighter by simply existing.

He began walking to your rendezvous point when he spotted you. He felt his heart skip a beat and his breath lightly catch in the back of his throat. You were beautiful. Feeling his eyes on you, you glanced over at him, smiling brightly and Yoosung just melted. He felt his pace quicken, the need to have you in his arms overwhelming him.

 You quickly made your way over to him, not paying attention. That’s when it happened, a car ran a red light and smashed into you. Yoosung froze. He couldn’t register what was happening. The world was spinning and he couldn’t seem to hear anything. He was your limp body lying there on the pavement as the car sped away.

He saw blood pool near your body and that shook him back into reverie. He ran towards you, tears streaming down his face. This couldn’t be happening. It was your anniversary, the first of many. You were his happily ever after. How could this happen?

He gingerly lifted your head, his tears slowly falling on your face. There was no movement or reaction from you. Cold realization settled over him. He became hysterical, “MC? MC? Open your eyes babe. Please” he broke down sobbing.

Darkness clouded over his eyes and the next thing he knew was he woke up in a hospital bed. Seven sitting in the corner noticed the movement and quickly was at Yoosung’s side. “Hey bud, how are you feeling?” he asked tentatively.

Yoosung groaned, “I don’t know what happened dude, I just had the worst dream that MC was in a car accident.” He clutched his head and let out a breathy laugh. “Speaking of, where is she Seven?” he asked.

Seven just looked at Yoosung, heartbreaking in his eyes. The color drained from Yoosung’s face. It wasn’t a dream after all. His life was a living nightmare. Tears began running down his face once again. He didn’t know what to do, what to say, he just needed to see you, one last time. 

He walked into the solemn operation room, the hum of the machinery just clawed at his ear drums. He knew what exactly the ominous sound meant. He walked over to the bed, a silhouette was draped in white cloth. Its funny, a year ago seeing you draped in white cloth brought tears of joy to his eyes, but this white cloth was the antithesis of that.

This white cloth signified the end, happiness being wrenched from his arms. With shaky hands, he removed the cloth to see your face one last time. He couldn’t do it. First Rika and then you; he couldn’t bear to see your face. He covered your rigid cold body once more and slowly kissed your forehead. Tears streamed down his face as he made his way out. 

He walked out of the hospital into the night. He never did show up to the funeral. He didn’t think his heart could take it. You had managed to glue the pieces that Rika has shattered but how could he ever get over your death? You were his everything. He lost contact with the RFA, moving into a quiet rural area, practicing animal husbandry. He vowed that he would never fall in love again. It was much too painful and he simply couldn’t move on from you. You were his soul mate, his life partner. He just lived his life quietly and alone, waiting for the day he could meet you again.  


She never really knew what her life would be without you. Honestly, everyone has a life but until the day Jaehee had met you she hadn’t really lived.

Her days previously were dull, focused on working and becoming a successful, thriving member of society. Now she looked forward to so many silly things. Waking up in the morning next to you, sharing a simple meal with you, stealing quick glances at you, your little inside jokes and so much more.

She found joy in everything that involved you. In the beginning, she was hesitant. She didn’t know if this was friendship but she knew it was something deeper. Never in her life, did she have such a connection with anyone and she was grateful that you had the patience to wait until she realized her true feelings.

She loved you. It was as simple as that. You two had tied the know two years ago and were celebrating your two year anniversary. You both didn’t like doing anything too extravagant. Just spending time with each other was more than enough.

Jaehee was lost in thought, as she walked alongside you. Admiring your beauty, she didn’t know how on earth she was able to live before. Looking back at how she used to be, she seemed so dull and serious. She was grateful having you in your life.

She heard skidding, and she saw a car barreling towards her. She froze, finding herself unable to move. “Jaehee” she heard you screech. To her surprise, she felt herself hurtle over and a sound of a crash behind her.

No,” she thought to herself. “Please, it can’t be” She turned to see your limp body lying on the side of the road, smoke coming out of the assaulting vehicle. A whirlwind of emotions flowed through her, but she got ahold of herself. She dialed 911 and reported and accident with casualties. She then sent a mass text out to the RFA, alerting them of what happened as she sidled up to you.

You appeared to be unconscious. That’s a lie. She didn’t need to be a doctor, but she knew there would be no way you could survive with your body laying like that. She had faith though. She knew life couldn’t be so cruel. 

She felt numb as she climbed into the ambulance with your body, not responding to the EMT. She couldn’t say anything. She couldn’t feel anything. She sat in the waiting room of the hospital as the members of the RFA hurriedly shuffled in. She looked up with blank eyes, “Everyone, it seems that MC is no longer with us,” she stated as calmly as she could. She heard the boys break down in tears, holding their heads in disbelief.

Jumin walked over to her, and bent down, “Assis- Jaehee, are you alright?” She wanted to laugh, how on earth could she be all right? What an asinine thing to ask? She looked up at him incredulously ready to fight, but her eyes met with his grey irises, his heart breaking in them.

He knew she wasn’t all right, he wanted her to stop pretending that she was. Her eyes filled with tears and her body shook as she let out a cry, “It’s not fair. It’s just not fair. First father and then mother, I tried so hard to protect my heart but she wheedled herself in and now she was taken from me as well. How can life be so utterly cruel?!”

She buried her face in her hands as she felt arms around her. Everyone loved MC and it broke their hearts to see such an abundant expression of sadness from Jaehee, the stoic ex-employee of Jumin.

She held the wake for the funeral for MC at the coffee shop, she knew its what you would’ve wanted. Your family and friends showed up, everyone loved you. Jaehee smiled bitterly, it was so hard for her. She was so used to having you in her life, being the center of her joy. She didn’t know what she was going to do. She was grateful. She was happy that she had the chance to get to know you and fall in love with you. She was grateful that you showed her how to truly live. She would never forget you as long as she lived, she felt eternally indebted to you. She closed her eyes as she slowly wiped the trickling tears from her eyes, “Goodbye MC, I love you.”


He was handsome, that was common knowledge. What Zen loved the most about you was how down to earth you were. All his previous relationships were so incredibly shallow; it’s no wonder that they ended. Actually, that’s wrong, it was destiny. They ended because he was waiting for you.

You were always there for him and so supportive. When you had mysteriously joined the RFA, he had joked about being single. Sure, you piqued his interest. He thought you’d go running when you saw how narcissistic he was, to his pleasant surprise you saw right through him. You saw that it was simply a coping mechanism, seeing that he was actually really insecure and he just “faked it until he made it”.

Zen was sure he fell in love with you in the chat room, even to him that sounded silly. How on earth could you fall for someone you’ve never even met before? He just felt such a strong connection to you he couldn’t help you. When you had shown up to his apartment, he was absolutely floored. You were just as beautiful on the outside as you were in.

He knew he was moving fast, but when you were almost kidnapped he realized that he wanted to be with you. He knew, that he had gotten it right this time. Here you were celebrating your first year together as a married couple, two years together in total.

Everyone said you two were moving too fast, but you didn’t care. Zen loved you more than anything in the world and he knew you loved him just as much. He was still so insecure; you deserved everything in the world, the absolute best. He was still climbing the ladder to fame but you never ever voiced a complaint. Was he doing a good job loving you?

He made sure that your first anniversary together would be special. He picked you up on his bike and tossed you a helmet. You grinned as you put it on and hopped on the bike behind him, wrapping your arms around him tightly. He felt your warmth against his back as he revved up and drove.

He took you to your special place and you were pleased to see a blanket laid out with all your favorite foods and a bouquet of flowers. You looked up to your movie star as he bashfully laughed and lead you over to your feast. He loved this, these little moments, spending time together. He kissed you deeply as he asked you to close your eyes. You looked at him skeptically as you obeyed.

You felt him reach around you and move your hair to the side. He placed something around your neck and you opened your eyes. You held up your phone to get a better look at the necklace as you saw a simple pendant with a gold star.

He blushed, “I know it’s nothing too fancy, but when I’m a huge star I’ll get you a proper one. I just wanted to give you that so you know that no matter how famous I become, I am always your star first. ARGH, I’m being too cheesy” he said as he buried his face in his arms embarrassed.

You grabbed his face and kissed him deeply, smiling as he returned it appreciatively. “Zen, unfortunately ” you said breathlessly, “I love you more than anything, don’t ever forget it please.” He was on cloud nine, as he peppered you in kisses. You both cleaned up and started to head back.

He zoomed on his motorcycle, carefully maneuvering his way through traffic when he heard a loud honk and just silence.

Zen found himself gaining consciousness in a hospital room. He smelled the stale air in the hospital and he heard Jaehee stir as she cried out, “He’s finally awake.”

He groaned as he held his head and felt bandages. His leg was in a cast and his shoulders were throbbing. He opened his eyes to see the members of the RFA in front of him, well except-

“Where is MC guys?” he asked as he clutched his head once again, “Yoosung, why are you crying I’m fine?” he exclaimed lightheartedly.

Everyone was silent for a minute and then Zen heard Jumin break the silence, “Zen, I am sorry to in, unfortunately, did not make it. You two were struck by a drunk driver and she was pronounced dead at the scene,” he said stoically.

Zen snorted, “Very funny guys, where is she? Hiding in the hallway?” He started to get up from his bed. The RFA members just looked at him solemnly as it slowly dawned on him. They weren’t joking.

That’s not possible though, there is no way you could be gone. You two were destined for each other, made for each other. How could this happen? “I need to see her,” Zen said forcefully as he abruptly stood up, pushing the members away. 

Seven blocked his path. “Zen please, she’s gone,” he pleaded with her. Zen grew aggravated, “Get out of my way,” he roared as he shoved the red-head to the side. He found Jumin standing in front of him.

“Zen, I understand you are upset but please, you need to rest, you were also badly injured.” Zen couldn’t take it anymore, he felt all of this emotions and frustrations bubble over and he punched the chairman’s son in the face. “MOVE.”

Jumin gingerly touched his lip and swiftly raised his hands to calm his bodyguards down, “Let him go, he’s grieving” 

Zen hurriedly made his way down to the reception desk, “Excuse me, can you tell me where my wife MC is?” The nurse led him over to a room, void of any light. There you lay in the middle of the room, lifeless. Your body was covered in cuts and bruises but you were still as beautiful as ever. No wonder the room was dark, lifeless, you had taken it all when you passed. Just like this room, his life would be reflected like this dull, lifeless.

There was no him without you. He felt tears stream down his face as he began to sob. Everything that he had, it was thanks to you. All of his efforts it was for you, hell he even forgave his family for you. How could he possibly go on? He went to check out of the hospital. His wounds would heal, at least the ones that he obtained from the accident. However, his heart would never heal. Zen knew you were his one.

The funeral was small and quiet, just family and members of the RFA came to show support. Zen was devoid of all emotion; you had taken his heart. He approached your open casket to say some final words when he felt his breath hitch. You were wearing the necklace he had gifted you and everything flowed out of him. He lost energy in his legs as he fell to the ground sobbing. To his surprise Seven and Jumin came to his side, squeezing his shoulder supportively. He recollected himself as he held his fingers to his lips, kissing them tenderly and placing them on your cold blue ones, “Goodbye my love, until we meet again.”  


“Money can’t buy happiness” When Jumin had first heard that, he simply thought it was something commoners used to say to not feel so inferior to people like him who were better off. He foolishly believed that he had everything, and then he met you.

Sure at first he had his suspicions. Would you be another one of those gold diggers that liked him for his brand and money or would you be like his mother and break his heart. You see, he had very little faith in women. His stoic nature was a product of his upbringing; he couldn’t exactly help it.

Yet you understood him at a deeper level than anyone else had. When he lost his mind when Elizabeth the 3rd went missing you were there for him, you understood him and the pain he felt, the loneliness he felt, the fear he had of giving himself to someone just to have them break his heart. You accepted all of that and in turn loved him, the man he is today is all thanks to you.

For once in his life Jumin Han, could say he was actually happy. He had a beautiful wife that gave him everything, including a family. You two had gotten married pretty quickly and when you told him you were expecting twins he was ecstatic but terrified. He wanted to be an amazing father, fill the voids he felt when he was younger and you assured him that he would be amazing. Not only that but he wouldn’t be alone, Jumin had finally found a home.

You had been married for five years now; life was amazing. Jumin woke up every day with a smile. You had given birth to your youngest son two years ago and life was blossoming. Jumin felt blessed every day to wake up next to you. Sure your Elizabeth, your two sons, and daughter sprawled across your bed ruined the mood a tad, but he loved every second of his life.

Seeing you tackle being a mother to all three of his kids and be the poised collected wife of the C&R Heir, he was awestruck at how you managed to do it all. Every day he found himself falling deeper in love with you. 

Because it was your five-year anniversary, Jumin had made sure to have his father watch his children. He needed time with you alone and he loved his kids but this was his day with you. Money was never an issue with Jumin, but he knew you hated all the extravagant presents. So he took you to a suite in a hotel and made you dinner. Candles and all, the table filled with your favorite foods. 

He loved it because to him, the little things were what made your bond stronger. He rested his head in your lap and you just enjoyed each other’s company. Sure it wasn’t lavish and expensive but this was exactly how you two loved it.

Jumin abruptly sat up and turned to you, “MC, if you would please be honest with me my love. Have I done a good job as a husband, loving you, caring for you?” 

You grabbed the poor man’s face and hugged him tightly, reassuring him that yes, you were the luckiest girl in the entire world.

Jumin closed his eyes and breathed in your scent, his heart pounding, tears threatening to fall. It’s odd, everyone teased him for being robotic and stoic, but you stirred all types of emotions in him. 

It was getting late and you two knew that the Chairman had probably had his fill of his grandchildren. You two made your way down the stairs and settled next to each other in the car, cozying up to one another. The driver started up the car and made its way down a busy intersection when your vehicle was stuck.

Jumin felt his body fly forward as he lost his grip on you. He awoke outside the vehicle, lying on the cold hard ground. He groaned as he grabbed his head in agony, his skull was throbbing. He heard sirens in the distance and he looked around and finally spotted you.

He made his way over to you, but he knew. You had not made it. Not with your body at that angle. He clutched your lifeless body and sobs escaped him. He cried out your name over and over again. Screaming. “Please god, I’ll do anything, please don’t take her. She is the only thing I have ever truly wanted, PLEASE”. 

He cried out, but it was futile. You had left him. What was he going to do? How was he going to survive? You were his everything, his only reason to live, you understood him like no other. What was he going to do, oh mc? He let out another loud cry.

The funeral was painful. The magnitude of despair in his eyes was enormous. He took one last look at you. Hair, that you changed every day, always making you beautiful not matter how it was styled. Your eyes, that captivated him, the mischievous glint, how they sparkled when you smiled. Your smile, that gave him warmth and solace. Your arms which embraced him, finally giving himself a home after all these years of being alone. He couldn’t, he didn’t want to go back to the cold loneliness he felt before, the abyss of darkness he felt of being devoid of any emotions.

He turned; he was going to let Assistant Kang know that he was going to pour himself into work. Not to be bothered, he couldn’t deal with emotions they were too troublesome. He saw his three children, your three kids, in the arms of the RFA.

You hadn’t left him alone after all. He broke down once again as he embraced his children. How could he forget? How could he abandon them?

Emotions weren’t troublesome. After all, all three of your children were born from the love you two had. He wouldn’t regret a second, not one moment of him being with you. He wanted it all, the good, the bad, the heart-wrenching.

He kissed your forehead for the last time, “Thank you, my love, for everything you have done and everything you have given me. Words can’t begin to explain how much I love you, but just know that I do. Don’t worry, I will take care of the kids properly and love them just as much as I love you. Wait for me my love, for I will be forever yours.”


He didn’t deserve you. Seven knew that he knew it better than anyone in the world. The problem was he was madly in love with you. From the second he had laid his eyes on you on the security camera, he knew he was in trouble.

He also knew that he was no good for you. But the more you two talked the deeper he fell for you. You were perfect for him; he wanted you. This was him though; he didn’t get a happy ending. He was sentenced to a life of misery.

He pushed you away; it hurt him more than it hurt you. You, however, were as stubborn as ever and he was happy you were. Every step he took back from you, you took ten forward. He didn’t want to hurt you, he wanted you to be happy and safe, even if that meant that he had to be mean to you and show you better options.

He couldn’t do it though. At the end of the day, he loved you, more than anything in the world. To his disbelief, you loved him too. After the whole debacle with Mint eye and his brother, you two could finally be together.

Everyday Seven had to pinch himself, to make sure he wasn’t dreaming. Surely there wasn’t a catch, right? There was no way he could be this happy without any catch? There wasn’t though, it was simple you loved him and he loved you. 

You had gotten married after a year and were celebrating your two-year anniversary. He couldn’t believe it, he had spent two years with you as his beloved. To be with him through sickness and in health, through good and bad, he would do it all as long as it meant you would be by his side.

It was your two-year anniversary but he planned to do the same thing every year. He packed up a fulfilling lunch of HBC and Ph.D. pepper and you two hopped into one of his babies and made your way to the countryside. Stargazing was your favorite pastime, sure you weren’t able to get married at the space station, but you would take a look at the stars every anniversary.

You lay on the blanket giggling gazing at the stars, as Saeyoung looked at you. You were so beautiful; he couldn’t believe how lucky he was to find someone as amazing as you in his life. You were there for him when things were rough and he was so lucky. He felt his eyes fill with tears and drops trickle down. “Fuck,” he cursed.

You looked over at him, worried at his sudden sadness, “Saeyoung, what’s wrong babe?”

He pulled you into a tight embrace and kissed you. “Nothing, absolutely nothing is wrong as long as you are going to be with me forever.”

You giggled as you wiped the tears from your redhead’s face. “I plan on being here forever mister, so don’t try to get rid of my any time soon,” you joked. He laughed as he grabbed you to cuddle. 

It was nearly dawn; you two began packing your stuff to get ready to head back. In the distance, Seven saw a vehicle, which struck him as odd since this area was extremely deserted. He saw the vehicle zoom closer and recognized it, as someone from another intelligence agency.

He yelled at you to get down, as he sprinted towards you. It was too late, you turned and he saw the confusion etched on your face as your body was thrown into the air. You hit the ground with a sickening thud. He pulled out a gun from his car but it was too late, the perpetrator had gotten away.

He sprinted to your limp body, praying with everything he had, that you were ok. That God was not so cruel to take you from him. He pleaded, bargained, begged him, saying that he would leave your life forever, that he should take him instead of you.

It was too cruel. He was the target, why had they come after you. Why did this happen to everyone he loved? Was he cursed? Damned to roam this planet, forbidden to get close to anyone or anything. Please God, if you’re there, don’t take her away from me. She is all I have ever wanted. I will do anything, anything you want me to JUST PLEASE DON’T DO THIS. 

He sobbed ad he lifted your lifeless body into the car. He saw a tiny box wrapped up sitting on the passenger seat, which belonged to you. He opened the box carefully, wondering what on earth you could have gotten him.

He held the note and read it in disbelief, “Dearest Saeyoung, now my love you can make all the stupid dad jokes you want. I love you.”

His hands shook as he held up the positive pregnancy test. Tears flowed out of his eyes as he screamed. You were pregnant. How could the world be so cruel?

He cried and punched his seat until his throat was raw and his fist were bloody. There was only one emotion running through him now. He drove back to his house, contacted the RFA and held a small funeral; halfway through he disappeared, he couldn’t take it.  God damn it MC, I told you, I told you I was no good. Sure I would be heartbroken, but I’d rather that than have you dead. 

He went off the grid; his bloodlust was the only thing that he felt. He didn’t stop, he hunted day and night for the people who did this, for the people that took away his one source of happiness; the people who robbed him his wife and child.

Vengeance was the only thing that was on his mind. He finally found the perpetrators and exterminated them. He felt nothing; he had accomplished the final thing he had to do. MC, I can’t do it. I can’t live without you or our baby. I’ll see you soon.

He lifted the gun and held it to his head; he wasn’t scared. He was going to see you, and finally be happy. With a pull of the trigger, he made the ultimate profession of love for you.


He never said, “I love you” to you. Which seeing that you two had been married for a year, seems odd. Sure he felt it and you conveyed it verbally more times than he could count.

He did love you. He didn’t know why he couldn’t say it. It was your one year anniversary and Saeran was determined to say it to you today.

He chalked it up to nerves but honestly. Saeran had no idea why you were with him. You were beautiful, smart, kind and patient. It seemed that everyone in the RFA loved you, but you wanted to be with him. Was it because you felt bad for him? Did you pity him?

As pathetic as it was, even if that were the case, Saeran would take it. You made every day bearable. He loved how warm your embrace was. How your eyes seemed to light up when you spotted him in the crowd. How you always did all the talking but always remembered the little things he would say. He loved you. It was as simple as that.

Being with him wasn’t a walk in the park. Sure he had gotten better but you had been with him for five years. It took him four years to open up to you and even then he couldn’t say those three stupid words. He knew, that you knew how he felt. It was nice to hear it though, just like how his heart swooned every time you told him, he wanted you to melt as well.

He began walking over to your usual ice cream parlor for your annual date when he spotted you outside. He groaned inwardly, how was it possible for you to be this cute? You turned and spotted him, lighting up immediately, and he felt the heat rise to his face.

You excitedly grabbed his hand as you grabbed your ice cream and made your way to the park to cloud watch. You were happily chatting away as Saeran began feeling down. You deserved everything in the world, someone to tell you that he loves you every second of the day, someone affectionate and kind, someone that was the complete opposite of him.

He felt a pang in his chest. Maybe you deserved better, maybe he should let you be happy. Was he holding you back? He dropped your hand and began walking the other way 

“Wha- Saeran? Where are you going?” you called as you chased after him.

“I can’t do this. I need to go home. We need space,” he said as he began crossing the street.

“Saeran, a break? I love you! What do yo-” you were interrupted by a loud honking sound as you were flung into the air.

Saeran hearing the commotion, turned around only to see you sprawled on the ground. He broke out into a run, his feet pounding the pavement. No. NO. NO. This wasn’t supposed to happen. You deserved better. He was giving you a shot to be better. You were right behind him how did this happen. He shouldn’t have turned around.

He finally made his way to your body, as he lifted you onto his lap. His hands were wet and matted with blood, he let out a sob, “No, MC, babe I’m sorry you can’t leave me. I’m sorry please, say something anything please.”

Tears began flowing down his face. He called and ambulance and then his brother, “Saeyoung, I don’t know what happened she was right behind me and now she’s bleeding, please oh god.”

He broke down crying hysterically. He couldn’t do this. He had never loved anyone like you. He never wanted to love anyone else but you. He heard you groan, “Sae- Saeran? Don’t cry love, I’ll be fine.”

His body shook, even now you were tending to him. He cried, tears flowing freely down his face, a siren in the distance alerted him that help was near. He saw your eyes flutter lightly, “Hey no, no. MC stay with me. I love you. You hear me you idiot, I love you so you can’t leave me ever.”

Your eyes fluttered, the ghost of a smile played on your face, “You finally said it… I love you too Saeran. I lo-” and with that, your head lolled to the side. He kissed you, saying “I love you” chanting it like a mantra that could possibly bring you back to life. 

He watched as the EMT’s lifted your lifeless body into the ambulance. They pronounced you dead at the scene. He saw his brother and broke down in his embrace. Why didn’t I tell her that I loved her sooner? Why didn’t I tell her I loved her every second of every day? Why is life so cruel?

He couldn’t even attend the funeral. He saw your face and locked himself in the bathroom to cry. He spent his days at your grave, and he spent his nights awake, often crying himself to sleep, just to repeat the cycle the next day. He loved you more than anything in the world and he couldn’t believe you were gone. He didn’t know what to do without you. He was empty. The only thing he seemed to be able to say was, “I love you MC”. If only I had been able to say it to you before it was too late.

WOW. Holy shit this was a loooooong one and hella depressing. OMG, I like low-key cried a few times while writing this. Worse because I played this song on a loop while I wrote this D:  be warned kiddies. But um hello? Who is amazing for reading this long ass ficlet, that is a bit rusty because of this ol’ writer, YEAH DAS RIGHT YOU BABY GORILLA <3
Just a friendly PSA- so just like in the fic, driving can be super dangerous. Please make sure that you all drive safely and responsibly because it’s not only your life that can be affected. Let me know which fic broke your heart the most >:D As always I love you guys <33333333 MUAH <3

devastated doesn’t even come close to how i feel, knowing you have left us nicky. all too soon champ. you were a bright soul that lifted everyone, even in the darkest of times. you deserved an eternity and more of happiness and joy. breaks me that you will not have that nicky. i hope you know how many of us out here appreciated you and everything you’ve done and accomplished in your life. this is not fair. in any sort of way. and oh god you will be missed nicky. forever our kentucky kid #69. love you and miss you. always.

Little surprises

Fluffy smut

Pairing: Jimin x Reader


“Hey, I’m home.” I heard Jimin as he entered our shared home. 

We had been living together for six months, we had been in relationship for two years that time. He was back from the tour he seemed  extremely exhausted. I couldn’t blame him, the flight itself was exhausting and they had to perform in almost every single country in South America.

I was sitting on the couch and turned around to see him. He dropped all his stuff and I stood up and we both ran into each other. Yes, I forgot. I needed to avoid movements like this. I pressed myself into him and hugged him which he returned without thinking.

“I missed you.”

“I missed you, too.” He smiled. “Do you have any plan for today?”

“My plan for today is cuddling with you and telling how lucky I am to have you as my boyfriend. But except for that no, I didn’t plan anything.”

“Great. That’s what I wanted to hear.” He laughed and started to pempering me with kisses on my face.”I want to take you out for a dinner. To express my gratitude towards you, how amazing you are, you handle me like a pro.”

“That means I can choose the restaurant?” I giggled.

“Yes. You can.”

“How about our first date’s place?”

“Our minds are really connected.” 

We arrived hand in hand. I was nervous as hell when I knew I had to break the news for him. After he left, I felt sick and threw up a lot. Then I went to the doctor who told me I was expecting. 

I had known I was pregnant for a week. I cried a lot, I didn’t know how would he feel about it. We weren’t too young - we were both adults with promising carrers. He was a busy idol, I was a busy fashion designer. Did he really want the new life which was growing in my body? I had to tell - even if he rejected us, I would raise the baby up.

The waitress came to our desks and she was really into Jimin, I could see it. Jimin didn’t really care about though. We ordered the same, that restaurant was indeed our favourite place to eat.

“Well… she was really admiring your handsome face, she forgot me being here.” I rolled my eyes.

“Well, it was a weak attempt to seduce me when I have the most beautiful girl in the world.” He said kissing my knuckles affectionately.

“You are so cheesy.”

“I never lie.”

We smiled at each other butI couldn’t hide the nervousness, He was my other half, he recognized the uneasiness around me. His eyes burnt into mine, trying to find the supposedly cause of my unusual behavior.

“What’s wrong baby?”

“I have to tell you something. It will be hard to accept but…”

“You can tell me anything, And to prove it, to make you in better mood, I want to do something for you, baby.”

I couldn’t process his words when I saw him kneeling down and pulling out of a little box. My eyes widened, surely I didn’t see that coming. Park Jimin on his knees smiling at me with box in his hand.

“L/N Y/N. You are the only one I want. We have been together for such a long time. I treasure every single day we spend together. I know we both are busy, especially me… but I love you more than anything, I want you to grow old with me, to be the the mother of my children. I love you. Will you marry me?” He asked me for my hand romantically and opened the box to reveal a beautiful diamond ring.

I started crying, I felt better and less stressed about his reaction.

“Yes.” I said and leaned down to kiss him passionately. He responded right away after he pulled away the whole restaurant cheered, he put ring on my proper finger.

“So…Jagi, can you tell me what is bothering you?”

“Jimin…I’m pregnant.” 

His face was shocked, his mouth dropped open.

“Repeat it, please.” 

“I’m pregnant. You’re gonna be a father.”

Now it was his turn to tear up. He rarely cried but when he did, he did it for a reason.

“Y/N…thank you. You are amazing.” I caressed his cheek, just like he did to me earlier.

“No, I should say thank you, you are the sweetest person alive.”

“When we will be at home, I will surely show you my gratitude.” He whispered to me.

He kissed me hungrily and pinned me to the bed, he didn’t waste time and started to kiss down on my neck. He knew how much I liked - it had always turned me on, I couldn’t hide my moan, I didn’t want to deny how much he was pleasuring me. I was really fond of his plump, kissable lips. 

“I could listen the sounds you make forever.” He whispered in my ear.

He had already taken off all of my clothes and I had removed every kind of fabric from him.

He looked at me with adoration as he started to rubbing my clit.

“Tonight, it’s your night, baby.” He said and gave me a short kiss. “God, you are so wet.”

When I felt one of his fingers entering me, I bit down on his shoulder. He pumped in and out - then added a second and later a third.  

“Cum for me, Y/N.” He said in a husky voice and I indeed couldn’t hold it back.

He licked his fingers seductively and winked at me.

“As sweet as I remembered. Are you ready?”

I nodded and he entered me, I felt I was in heaven. Our bodies becoming one, hearing his soft noises, looking into his eyes - it felt amazing and I wouldn’t have trade this sensation to anything.

“You are so tight, damn.” He grunted and got deeper and deeper in me. 

“You can move, baby.” I encouraged him and he started thrusting in a slow pace. He filled me up completely in the familiar part of me and he put his forehead on me.

“I love you, Y/N.”

“I love you, too but please go faster.” I chuckled and he laughed. I loved our relationship - there wasn’t any awkward things between us, our cards were open.

Jimin obeyed and picked up his pace, the pleasure was so intense, I could see stars in the room, I knew I was close. I scratched his back but instead he put my hands away to intertwine our fingers.


“Me too, baby.” He answered panting heavily.”

Not even in a minute, we both came.

After cleaning ourselves up, we were laying in bed, my head resting on his strong chest.

“I’m so happy with you. I can’t believe I am going to marry my best friend, my love of my life and now…the mother of my child. How can I be so lucky?”

I pecked his lips softly before replying. “I was thinking about the same thing. I am going to marry my best friend, my love of my life and now..the father of my child. Can anyone tell me how can I be so lucky?”

(A/N: sorry guys I write everything using “I” because I really think sentences like “you watched him bla bla bla” are so unnaturalistic for me, sorry. )

EXO reaction to their girlfriend feeling forgotten

Anonymous said: EXO’s reaction to their gf passionately singing Hello by Adele bc she feels forgotten

A/N: I know you asked specially for her singing Hello and all, but I changed a little bit if you don’t mind :), here’s some angst for y’all sort of.

Suho : (happy birthday best leader mom ever!)  He’d easily pick up on how you sounded different on the phone and when you said ‘it’s nothing’, he’d sigh and tell you how much he misses you , when you’d deny it and tell him you feel that he has forgotten about you, he’d spend a good amount of time trying to reassure you otherwise and he’d apologize for making you feel that way.

Originally posted by daenso

Lay : Aw this boy will worry so much, he’d feel deeply sorry about this situation and would promise you that he’d be there more often, even if it was by the phone or anything of that sort, he’d probably also tell you how you’re always on his mind.

Originally posted by yixingsosweet

Baekhyun : Will feel really troubled by you feeling this way and will talk smoothly to you explaining how it isn’t true and that he’d make you understand that , also will think to himself for days to come and reflect on how much he treasures you and your happiness.

Originally posted by progamerbyun

Kai : Probably wouldn’t understand at first but would eventually pick up on your change and worry over you, would ask you to understand that if it wasn’t for his schedule, he would be with you and ask you not to feel like that.

Originally posted by katherine8595

Xiumin : Will absolutely deny any claims that he had forgotten about you and would want to meet you as soon as possible to clear stuff up, “you know I love you, why would you make me feel like that? that only makes me miss you more”

Originally posted by secrethideoutme

Chanyeol : Will feel absolutely horrible about you feeling like he had forgotten you, so he will spend a lot of time talking to you about it over skype (or others) , would probably send you songs he has been working on and telling you that he wrote them thinking of you to prove that he would never ever forget you.

Originally posted by lifemindwalker88

Sehun : This boy will either apologize after hearing you out or will argue about it claiming that it isn’t his fault but will end up talking about his feelings in the middle of the discussion, afterwards, he will spend A LOT of time thinking about what you told him and trying to come up with a solution, resulting on these moments of him mumbling to himself and even asking some other members their opinions.

Originally posted by sehunicorne

Luhan : His heart will break a little hearing how sad you are about this, he will do absolutely anything in his power to make you understand he never forgets you, even when he is acting or performing, he is always thinking of you and how he’d like to enjoy every moment with you, even though work doesn’t allow him a lot of the times.

Originally posted by 7thvelvet

Tao : Will take sometime to understand too, but when he does, he will tell you how much he misses you, will probably check with everyone when does he have a clear schedule so he could spend it with you and will unconsciously call/text you more during the days.

Originally posted by dazzlingkai

D.O. : “y/n, what do you mean ? it’s fine, just tell me what’s going on inside of your head” , after hearing you out for a long time, he will try to explain in a soft way how what you said was not the case and that he will contact you more during the day, will probably also set out a date for you two to meet.

Originally posted by dazzlingkai

Chen : Will be suprisingly serious about the whole thing and will feel a little guilty about it, even if he knows he can’t help it and will try his best to make you feel good and happy again, will also search for an avaiable day to spend with you and will make you sure you’re always content afterwards.

Originally posted by rxxbinc

Kris : “I’ll talk to you more often, don’t worry, I miss you a lot too” , he will feel guilty about making you sad and will make arrangements to see you soon, will also contact you more often even if you didn’t ask him to, will reflect on it for a while and decide that he would do anything for you not to feel like that again.

Originally posted by andyswarhol

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A/N: It’s been such a long time I’ve written a reaction so I’m sorry if this sucked and the reactions are quite similar, I’ll try to get more reative next time, but I always try to be faithful to how I think they would truly react , regardless, I hope you like it and I’m sorry for taking so long with this request, I’m back to posting everyday now and I feel really happy about that <3

I talk about her a lot but I really love Tien’s design

This isn’t even thirst she’s just on point in every way

This woman looks ready to pull up on you in a fuckin lamborghini murcielago she paid cash for so she can take you out to dinner

y’all pull up to some new york city times square restaurant and the staff is prostrating themselves. she ain’t even like the food she just wants you to feel special

roll up to her penthouse after dinner and some thugs try and rob y’all but she puts bullets in their heads without missing a step. nobody ruining her night dammit

she lets you unbraid her hair and she ain’t trip on it or get it caught in anything because she’s fucking flawless like that

she had the maid light some candles and y’all watch shrek 2 because she knows you think shrek 2 is a cinematic masterpiece

she even sing holdin out for a hero and sound better and more soulful than bonnie taylor

i want to die in some inconspicuous way
to have everything mean nothing
would mean everything to me
to die in a way that’d hurt my mother the least
to stay out of the papers and off the tv
i wouldn’t bleed out in the bathtub
cause blood fucking scares me
but i’d jump in front of a car
like so many of my friends have
like the time you took the needle
even though it can kill you
and tom couldn’t sleep for weeks
cause he had to watch you
well what choice do i have
when all the men in my family
thought the only answer all
was swinging from trees
i know that it’s selfish, punching out early
but who’s gonna miss me?
who the fucks gonna miss me ?
[NEWS] Super Junior Members Share Photos From Their Most Recent Meetup

When a group has so many members, it’s not easy for all of the members to gather in one place. However, Super Junior’s most recent meetup only had two members missing.

Leeteuk was the first one to share a photo of their reunion on his Instagram, where he wrote, “#meeting#superjunior#sj#suju#superjunior” 

Yesung and Siwon followed suit, captioning, “It’s been a long time ^^ #superjunior #break,” and “good day for good friends,” respectively. 

Eunhyuk put a humorous twist on his post, blurring out the other members. He captioned, “I edited mine too. Love you, members.” He then uploaded a photo of him and Donghae with a Time magazine frame and joked, “We were caught by the Time magazine. #Let’sBeCareful #Paparazzi #D&E” 

Donghae, Eunhyuk, and Siwon are still serving in the army, but it seems that they were able to make time to meet with the rest of the members. Ryeowook is also currently enlisted, but he was not able to make it to the reunion. Meanwhile, another missing member, Kangin, previously received a sentence for driving under the influence

Source: Soompi

Soo @mistamakehercum this is the last edit of me and you. I had a lot of fun shooting this. I know told this man I wouldn’t be sentimental but that was a lie. But you’ve been my right hand and I’m honestly glad to have met and spent time with you. You and @krisamaevu mean the world to me.  Thank you for all the laughs, the love, and for never sugarcoating things for me. You’re a real one Neez. Don’t ever change. Thank you for the support and having my back through everything. Love you big head and I hope to see you again one day. Don’t be a stranger. 

– Aly

Busan (Long Distance!Jimin)

Plot: Spending a special day with long distance!Jimin (part of the One Day series)

Word Count: 1190

A/N: so this series is basically gonna be about when BTS gets really really busy and doesn’t have much free time and what would happen once they got a day off, where they would go, what they would do, stuff like that, the link for this is long distance relationship!Jimin (here) which involves youtuber!Jimin (here)

His arms were around your waist, holding you close to his body, his face buried into your neck. His hands gripped at your shirt, mumbled “I missed you so much” escaping his lips. The scent of his cologne was all you could smell, a smile forming on your face as you realized it was the cologne you had sent to him for his birthday. His own smile appeared, his eyes brightening as he leaned back to look at you, a look of love in them.

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Eruri of the Month: Daddy



Of course it was their youngest, Eren, again.

“What is it this time?” Levi asked, closing his book for the fiftieth time.

“Mikasa hitted me!”

“Oh? What did you do to her first, Eren?”

Eren glared at a spot on the carpet.

“Did you pull her hair?” Levi ventured.


“Will you do it again?”

Eren shrugged. “If I do it more Mikasa said she’d put more crayons up my nose.”

More crayons? MIKASA!” Levi yelled.

“I’m here,” Mikasa muttered from her spot next to him on the couch. After all these years, his eldest continued to mystify and spook him with her quietness.

“Mikasa, if I find any crayons missing—ever—I’m blaming you first, understand?”

Mikasa nodded, looking especially sulky as she pulled her safety scarf over her mouth.

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Surprise Times 2

Anon asked:  What about Lady Sif being your girlfriend and the team (AoS) finding out by accident. Like maybe she came out of nowhere one day to surprise you, and the team was like “Wtf are you doing here?! ”, and she was all exited like “I’m here to surprise my beautiful warrior, I miss her”, of course the team would be like “da fuck ” and the reader came rushing when she heard that sif was there and hug her and the team end up like this \(*0* )/

After 1000000000000000 years I’m finally doing this.

This is short, I am literally rushing so I can finish this before mom shows up. I’m so sorry if this sucks y’all.

Warning: Cuteness

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Wipe Off the Dust

All the moments that slipped by 

The times I didn’t look into your eyes

I instead glanced down to the floor

When I wanted to speak but didn’t know how

Cause you made me nervous, made me want

Every second to feel perfect

But they didn’t and now they’re gone

All those times you stood next to me

Smiling to yourself so pleasantly

I want to know what was on your mind

But then the space between us grew wider 

You’re shy and so am I 

But somehow, the few seconds I spoke to you mattered 

To me at least, and I think to you I do too

Your sister told me you cared about me

That I made you smile, and you thought I was sweet

She made me blush, you did too

And then I saw you that night when the world was changing

I was crying, and I hugged you and suddenly 

The space between was no longer 

For a split second, things felt connected 

Until you walked away and my world was shaken

But then I think of you and I’m no longer breaking 

The next day you made sure to come say hi to me 

Now I know that I mean something to you 

You mean so much to little me

And now I look at the moments I thought we lost

But these moments aren’t gone, they’re just covered in dust

I wipe them off and keep you in my mind 

I hope you do the same for me and you find

I’m always with you, and you with me 

Little Witch Academia - 20

> “Yea… Diana couldn’t handle magic well, but during that same time ALL THESE LADIES WERE WITH ME!” Damn it Jimmy! LIES I TELL YOU, LIES!

> Akko… 1) I think you built up a tolerance! 2) JUST HOW MANY POISON EXPERIMENTS!


> why am i tearing too!

> Agreed… It’s Diana

>> Agreed more! because it’s Kirigiri!

> Merry F###’n Christmas!

>> She’s going HAM next episode with this unlock!


> LMFAO! “I will not repeat myself…”

>> we finally have a new found respect for each other … aka friendship!

Regarding the AJ + KV situation

I would like to point out something horribly unfair about the AJ and Kirsten situation. Before I say this, I would like to preface I mean no ill to MGG in saying this I love him, but he missed multiple episodes. AJ and Kirsten, if I recall correctly missed none, but at least less than MGG. Yes, you can argue he makes more money directing, but Kirsten also WRITES episodes, yet she is making less money than her male counterparts? And they have all been on the show the same amount of time, so there is absolutely no excuse as to why our ladies should be paid less. I thought this was something worth pointing out. 

talesfromcallcenters: "I have to go, I will be right back. This is a tornado d--" "STAY HERE AND FINISH HELPING ME!"

(We were doing a tornado drill. Aim: Get to X room in two minutes. Calls stopped coming in ten minutes before. TEN MINUTES BEFORE. The average food pantry appointment took about three minutes to set up. Eight minutes past the time the phone center shut off, someone flagged me down.*)

Me: “OK, you’re fine Miss. You’re all set to go.”

Miss: “Oh. But I need to know about [event happening six months in the future.]”

Me: “We haven’t gotten any info on that yet.” (1:30)

  • Sends others to room *

Miss: “But what about Y that’s [not related to any of our services]?”

Me: “You’d have to call (number) for that, Miss. I’m sorry, but I need to place you on a brief hold —”


(I was acting supervisor so I was the boss, but we could put people on hold all the time, so I knew she was a bit off.)

Me: “We are having a tornado drill. Call back in ten minutes or wait on the line.”

Miss: “*But I need your help on (Y I’ve already said we don’t do!)”

Me, looking at coworker who gives me permission to terminate the call. “I’m placing you on hold. We’re having a tornado d-”


(All of our services are free.)

Me: Puts woman on hold and runs to room

10/10 would work at that agency again. Also, she wasn’t on hold when we got back.

By: writeandknow

1 Year of Twitch Streaming & A 4 Hour Game Jam

For my 1 Yr Anniversary Twitch Stream last night I got audience input to help design a game. People in chat gave me one noun for what the game is about, one verb for what you do, and one more noun for an item/resource. We ended up with…

Destroy roasted vegetables using chopsticks.

This gif demonstrates what was achieved in four hours, minus all the time spent giving away a bunch of games like Octodad and Stardew Valley!

Game mechanics? Stab only the roasted vegetables to score points. Stabbing fruit will subtract points. Stabbing a tomato is a multiplier for whatever you hit next (and tomato multipliers can stack!). But watch out because the fruit REALLY wants to be eaten and will try to get in the way!

(Download link coming soon…)

PS: I stream every Sunday night in Australia. Don’t miss out on the fun :p 

can you just imagine how they felt accepting that award? think about it. this award was completely based on votes. they stood there knowing that they had so many people behind them. they stood there knowing that they had impacted so many lives. they stood there knowing they had endless support from so many people. imagine how that must feel. you and i both know that they didn’t have it easy. but they stood there tonight and they knew that all those sleepless nights, all the times they had to miss meals, all of the struggle was so worth it because in the end they have a family like no other. if it wasn’t already, tonight most definitely solidified the bond that we have with them.

they have each other, but they also have us. we have them. and i think that’s more than either of us could ever ask for.

kclmcaskett  asked:

what are the best episodes for amy santiago?

Hello! I’m not 100% sure of what you mean so here is a list of episodes that I think show Amy’s personality (I know you said “the best” but I love Amy with my entire being so I couldn’t limit myself to a few) (I tried to stay away from Peraltiago eps because you asked only for Amy, though I couldn’t help myself and put a few in there) (in most of these Amy isn’t in the A plot so maybe you’ll think it’s weird that the ep is on the list but her moments in all these eps are amazing and I think they really do show her personality).

I’m putting the list under a cut because it’s kinda long (and please everyone feel free to add to this if you think I missed anything).

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anonymous asked:

I really like the term 'queer' and I use it a lot, but I don't want to offend people for whom it is an offensive term. I should add, I'm 15, so I've missed a lot of queer history by simply not being alive. I know there was a slogan "we're queer, we're queer, get used to it" before my time, so how did queer become a slur? Would I be offending a lot of people by using queer, or is it just butt-hurt people that would be offended?

There’s been a lot of talk about “queer” in this blog today so first of all I’d recommend you check the last few replies and reblogs on this blog because they are relevant to you and it wouldn’t make sense paraphrasing all of it.

Anyway… you can use any label for yourself that you want. The word “queer” originally meant something that’s weird or different and thus was used as an insult against people who weren’t straight and/or didn’t peform gender the way that was expected of them in a cisnormative society.

The community did with is as it did with many slurs - it owned it and turned it into something positive. “Gay” and “lesbian” have been used as slurs yet people use it every day. They even call themselves dykes and faggots which - guess what - are slurs as well.

And tbh: every word can become an insult if the person who uses is has a malicious intent. That’s not a reason to language police those who use “queer”. It’s been reclaimed decades ago so I’m getting real tired of this recent “you can’t use it, it’s a slur”-sentiment because honestly most of the people who say you can’t use “queer” are biphobic and acephobic assholes.

“Queer” has the power to bring the whole community closer together because queerness is our unifying element. That’s what all of us are in one way or another. “Queer” doesn’t mean “weird” anymore - it means “not cisgender heterosexual” - and that’s the widest possible definition for everyone who’s a part of this community.

So please! Call yourself queer! It’s a beautiful word!