i miss you! : (

So the boy you gave your everything to
Walked away without looking back
And you’re left to pick up the pieces he left behind

2 boys later and you’re getting good at pretending he’s not here
But you’re still planning for ways to go back
Still searching for a reason to call

The boy you gave your everything to
Gladly took it, knowing full well he wasn’t planning to stay
He took and took and took until you were nothing but a ghost of what you use to be

i am no longer the girl i was when i loved you. i have reinvented myself. i no longer like coconut chapstick or gold eyeshadow. i no longer like horror movies or your stupid posters in your room. i no longer stay up until 5am just waiting for your name to pop up on the screen. i no longer cry everyday. i no longer barely make it through the day. i like sunshine and pale eyeshadow and coffee and art and thunderstorms and i am now everything you will never get the chance to know. i am better. i have found sunshine rooted in my very own veins. i am new, and i hope you envy the newfound warmth that i have found in myself.

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I’m not a big one on—I don’t know what to call it—getting all glamorous. I don’t really worry about my looks, and I don’t worry about getting old. Exterior beauty doesn’t mean a lot to me. I mean, sure I like to look nice—sometimes. This is going to contradict all the pictures with the interview, because I’m very glammed out. I’m a total hypocrite.

Asomniari’s for no reason in particular buddy thank you

No but seriously this all started because I was thinking about all the Lavellans I’ve written with and how much I adore all of them. And because I’m close to 200 followers, but that’s not important. What really is, is how much I adore all of the writers I’ve had the honor of writing with and getting to know their characters. Seriously I couldn’t have asked for a better group of people to welcome me back to rp after a year of unintentional hiatus.

And as always, extra special shoutout to @fadewalking for basically giving me the impulse to make this blog and join the DARP community. I made Felassan on a whim and I am beyond grateful I actually followed through with it. And to @arsuledin, my solas, my man, my grape jam….ilu

So, in no particular order, all the people I’ve had the chance to write with since making my blog i’m sorry if i forgot someone

@shift-shaping|| @tanadhal ( @raikogan)|| @youriinquisitorialness|| @atonings|| @ashabellenar|| @hawkelana|| @rattrunner|| @ritcd|| @banalvhen|| @theeternalsun|| @flame-of-ostwick|| @atishabanalras ( @varriictethras), @xfenharel|| @winterfollows|| @bellafaire-bellafine (the wife)|| @attentatore|| @somnivr|| @mademyselfreal|| @hawkelana|| @falondinan|| @uthnan|| @vengefulandraste|| @willbeshot (we haven’t written, but ur a blessing on my dash)|| @dirthama|| @swcrdiisms (we haven’t written either, but ur pchill)|| @tatooinetot || @serasbeesandarrows || @louminx (for being cool and nice even tho ur not an rp blog)|| @finedwarvencadash || @dalishflame|| @dyncmii|| @lucernimaevaris|| @onthesirenscall|| @deshonneurs|| @napsoldier (rachel the light of my life ilu most of all)|| @fenharelxenansal

Oh Kurt,

No one has inspired my own music like you have. Even though it feels like I don’t understand your lyrics something tells me that you understand me. The reason you’re still idolized to this day is because you still make everyone who listens to you feel like they’re not alone. I wish you never left. But you’re an angel now. And we love you so much! Wherever you are, i will love you ‘til the end of time and so will the rest of your fans.

Happy 50th Birthday 😢💋