Even smiling to you is difficult now. All the little things we used to do so easily seem to be a challenge for me now. It is so difficult for me to just look into your eyes. It’s hard to even just look at you. Because just by looking at you, all the memories of us can’t seem to stop flooding into my eyes and mind. They filled me and discombobulated me. And it will only bring and cause me pain and dismay. In other words, you didn’t bring me happiness. When I smiled thinking of you, it is our memories I’m missing.