Warning : Major angst, I shed a tear while writing and also cursing
Word Count : 4884 words
A/N : This is the part 2 of ‘That I Have Regretted’, I was really hoping that the part 1 pulled your heartstrings to the point of almost snapping and judging by the comments some of you left me, I kinda did it??? loll anywho I’m also currently writing a romcom for Steve Rogers so make sure to look out for it! for those who wants to be on my taglist, dm me, I might accidentally skip it if you leave a comment on a story so just dm me and tell me that you want to be tagged for my upcoming stories. Btw I might make this into 3 or 4 parts ?? Let me know what you guys think about this story! Your input helps me write even better and if y’all hate looking at my face pls let me know so that I won’t make you guys feel uncomfortable while reading whatever it is I wrote and change my picture to a picture of someone or something else loll. - Nana 🌸
A/A/N : HIS EYES PIERCED THROUGH MY NONEXISTING SOUL I HATE HIM FOR DOING THIS TO ME
He wouldn’t budge from his kneeling position he was in at the first 7 hours of the operation, no matter how his legs hurt from the awkward position and angle, no matter how his brain told him that he’s tired from all the fighting and that he needed rest, no matter how his stomach cried out for food and his throat croaked for water, he ignored it all so that he would be the first to know about (Y/N)’s condition.
the topic for this post is in regards to the most common
practice of the western fandom when it comes to contributing to their
ship/fandom. it is the medium i am most familiar to: fanfiction
this is a guide that will assist you in choosing the correct
tags to label your work
in the previous posts i stress greatly about how both the
commonplace ship tag “ereri” (and the less common “rivaere”) are borrowed tags. they
are tags/ship names we have taken from the japanese fandom and so have specific
japanese ship names are typically created as such: since
many fanworks are R18 and there is a strong rule of courtesy when it comes to
preference of “top or bottom”, in m/m works in particular it is customary that
the first syllable(s) of the character who tops [is dominate] will go first in
the ship name, and the first syllable(s) of the character who bottoms [is
submissive] will be second
eren/levi: ereri follows this as such eren/rivai
エレン、リヴァイ ＝ エレリ
levi/eren: rivaere follows this as such rivai/eren
リヴァイ、エレン ＝ リヴァエレ
*please note, in japanese levi’s name is spelt phonetically- “rivai”
but this is how japanese fandoms come up with ship
names/tags. western fandoms have a different method.
though, depending on the fandom, if it’s anime/manga/video games-
should there be a “western counterpart”(what the snk fandom is btw) it is not
uncommon for the western counterpart to adopt the japanese tags/ship names (like we have done). however there are times a western counterpart will make its own ship names and
style these names like they typically do in fandoms for ships of a western
series. it’s because western fandoms have a different method that our ship tag is befuddled. people are misusing it because they have tacked onto it a western mentality though it is a japanese ship tag. this is harmful because the japanese ship tag is created by specific rules and as such has a specific meaning. trying to give it another meaning with western logic just doesn’t make sense because the tag wasn’t created to support that logic or any other meaning than the one it originally has.
when it comes to western series fandoms, they typically have (1) prevailing
preference on “who tops or bottoms” and (1) ship name is decided to be
unanimous. this ship name does not always adhere to the fandoms’ most
popular/decided on preference. the unanimous ship name is usually decided as a
combination of the character’s names: the first half of one character’s and then
the second half of the other character’s. and what combination of these names
that usually “sounds the best” is how it’s decided.
even in western series fandoms, a unanimous ship name does not equate a unanimous tag.
i will use a western fandom i am familiar with as an
the BBC show “merlin”. The most popular m/m ship is “arthur/merlin”,
and the unanimous ship name follows western rules: it is “merthur” (merlin arthur). arthur
topping merlin is more popular than merlin topping arthur, yet for the ship
name merlin comes first. this is just what was decided in that fandom when they created their ship name.
since “merthur” is a unanimous ship name it can be used to
speak of both works that are “arthur/merlin” and/or “merlin/arthur”. be as that
may, should the fic have sexual content or the writer has a preference, it is
still common practice and courtesy, that if merlin tops arthur in a fic- even
if the fic is labeled “merthur”, the pairing tagged/presented on the work
would reflect the content and thus be “merlin/arthur” and not “arthur/merlin”.
we have an extremely huge problem when it comes to
fanfiction for our pairing and it is this confusion on tagging.
a work that has eren topping levi might be labeled “levi/eren”
or a work that has levi topping eren might be labeled “eren/levi”, because there
is confusion that “ereri” is unanimous it is also confused on if the whole tag
of a ship itself is also unanimous. it is not possible for a ship tag to be unanimous unless
every single fan ships a pairing one certain way. as mentioned before, this is an
extremely popular pairing, loved by many and interpreted differently by many so
there are different preferences and as such different tags depending. that is
just how it is, but it is not a difficult thing.
since our fandom is a western counterpart of a japanese
fandom we are borrowing their ship names/tags. but when it comes to tagging our
fanfic we are not borrowing japanese tags. we have our own tags that follow the
same format as almost any other fandom. if your fic has sexual content, who tops and
who bottoms is the deciding factor of whose name goes first and whose name goes
for examples i will be utilising AO3′s format, it is customary to include the surname(s) of the character(s) in the ship tags of this website and so the tags will reflect that. however it is up to you should you be posting on tumblr or a blog site like lj if you want to include surname (i personally rather like to, this is spoilers free below)
if levi tops and eren bottoms, it’s “levi/eren” and should
be tagged as followed:
if eren tops and levi bottoms, it’s “eren/levi” and should
be tagged as followed:
if at some point they both top/bottom (switch) in the work,
or will in the future depending on how you see it, it is either “levi/eren/levi”
or “eren/levi/eren”. you could use a tag like this
but perhaps they don’t switch in the same scene. or you don’t
want them to switch until later in your work. or that tag is simply too much
effort and you’re retagging old works. taking that into consideration, what would be easiest is add the other
tag with whatever ship tag you originally have and it will look as such (or the
other way, i don’t know what choice you thought you’d regret the least):
if your work does not have sexual content both tags can be used. people are usually only picky about preference when the work contains sexual content b/c one way might not be pleasing to them like the other. if your work does not have sexual content and you have a firm preference, of course any work can choose one tag over the other. the writer is the creator of their work so they know what their work is.
why is this a big deal?
it’s because writers are not accurately tagging their works.
tagging for the ship is tagging for content.
tagging for preference is as important as
for tagging for content like certain kinks (eg; foot fetish, breath play,
somnophilia, fellatio) that your readers might share with you, and certain
warnings (eg; rape, character death, extreme violence) that your readers might want
depending on what you wrote and what you tag, determines on what sort of reader
you will draw in.
you should not tag your work to be something it is not. if you do this it is a disservice to your work, yourself,
and your audience.
people will choose to spend time on what they think they
will enjoy. readers typically choose to read a fic because they think it will
suit their tastes.
i will tell you now as a writer myself for this fandom and
this pairing. my preference as i have stated on my blog is “levi/eren”. i only
tag my work “levi/eren” because i only write “levi/eren”. and a comment i have received
countlessly from readers has always been essentially: “i was relieved. you
tagged the work as levi/eren and the work is levi/eren.”
i am making these posts on tagging partially because of such comments. why was i receiving such comments? does not every writer tag their content correctly? and then i was told this is not the case. and then i have seen it is not the case.
please remember, when it comes to your work, when you post, you the writer are the one in control of the tags on your work. the writer should know what tags they should use, because
they wrote the content of the work.
do not be ashamed of what preference you have and do not be
afraid to tag your work for what it is. the reader will know when they read
your work what the truth is. the work is what it is. and the reader will know if you have deceived them for
the sake of their potential readership.
in the case of many readers, they will definitely not trust
you to read your work again if you have failed to warn them about certain
content; the ship tag is that powerful. as powerful as tagging for warnings of unsavoury content (i have learnt my lessons too)
rather than ensnare a hit to your work- cultivate a company
that will appreciate your work. i cannot imagine how many writers were thought
of badly not because their writing was bad, but because they had mislabeled
their work and left a bad taste in the reader’s mouth from the reader’s
if a reader goes in expecting x/y but the content is y/x, the reader will be upset about that. especially when they only
started to read the work because they trusted you to present the work as what
and it is especially important to tag your work when your work
contains sexual content. let’s be real, porn is one of the most sought for type of works to
read, and the most mislabeled despite that it is the most easy to tag.
tagging is a courtesy and it shows you care.
please care about your work, your readers, and other people
in this fandom.
nobody wants to waste time reading something they know with
certainty they’re not going to like.
i speak to you as a writer again. the feedback you receive from
people who truly value and understand your work because they share the same
preference or likes or kinks, will always be the people who will enjoy your
work the most. they will be the most likely to return to you. you will have their
trust. they will be the most likely to speak to you about what they enjoyed and
what you might need to work on. they will invigorate you and help you.
readers are important and so are you the writer.
i have always thought, writing fanfic is for fun, it is for
my own self-satisfaction and i still think that, and that the most important
person to enjoy the work is the person who created it. love your work, be
honest about your work; always strive to improve and berate yourself over how
it can be done better. enjoy yourself and let your readers enjoy your work
for what it is. and that can be done if you show your readers consideration. you will love your work more if you do and so will your readers. have pride in what you do. everyone likes what they like and tagging is a tool that
helps people who likes things exactly as you do, find your work.
please tag your work correctly.
i would like to stress for what seems the nth time. nobody
is better than anyone else for having a preference. whether you only like one
character to top or bottom, whether you like it when they switch, whether you view them
asexual, or aromantic. if you prefer them as girls. if you prefer them in a
modern setting over canon. however you like it. write what you like. but tag what it is you like.
we all ship this pair because we love them and no one’s love
is greater than the other’s.
do not allow at any time for someone with any preference to
look down on yours. people are always willing to cause trouble when they are unwilling
to change, unwilling to learn; when they are arrogant and stupid. but we all
have in common that we love this ship, just like how each tag has a meaning
that will not change that fact too cannot change.
i am sincerely grateful to the people who have reblogged,
liked, and even shared their stressful experiences from the misuse of tags. you
have been helpful and i hope your input will also encourage everyone to tag their works
and the works of other’s correctly.
if you have read this far, thank you so very much for your
time and consideration. i sincerely encourage you to reblog this post. i’m sorry it’s so long, writers never shut up. see you
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I’ve been meaning to do this one so I finally finished with it! :)
I was too busy spazzing and dying that I didn’t realize I gained this many! It was a month ago when I gained 1K+ and now WOAAAHHHHH!!! I don’t know how to do follow forever but I’ll try. HEHE
First of all, WHY? LOL You might regret it because I tend to spam LEO and just blog whatever I feel like. I never thought people would follow this mess of a blog because I blog for my own pleasure.
AND THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR GOING CRAY WITH ME!!! I used to read all your tags, but lately I haven’t read most of them because VIXX KEPT DROPPING BOMBS 💣💣💣!!!
I don’t really know what to say because I’m overwhelmed and not good at this. I guess I’ll mentioned my fave blogs and people that I’ve become close friends here.
amazon-bookworm - I’ve known her since pretty much I created this blog last December or January. She’s an awesome friend, very level headed and she always spoils me and her followers VIXX SMUT!! 😏 If you haven’t check her fics, do it now and get some ice while you’re at it.
velzonly - I’d just met her recently and I feel like I found my other half when it comes to spazzing and just dying together. Whenever new updates come out, we both just become a mess and spout nonsense. Her tags are the best! She’s also very up to date when it comes to VIXX. Follow her on her twitter if you wanna be updated as fast as a lightning.
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