i might delete this

I kind of want like the double sided klance aka when they’re around others, their instinct is to fight to the death but when they’re alone, like if they’re paired up for a mission or if they’re the first ones to dinner or something they act completely different?? Like they don’t really talk in each other’s presence but if they do Keith manages to smile a little bit and Lance tells a considerably smaller amount of puns around Keith and he’s really polite and tbh they act like kind strangers that just met ?

Where was this going? I don’t know but I figure after a while, they start to realize the differences and how comfortable they are around each other and then maybe they get TOO cozy on accident like playing a weird game of footsie or like Keith kinda sitting too close to Lance or Lance awkwardly puts his hand over Keith’s and either someone walks in on them or they scare themselves and flee? And then they have a hard time adjusting again because of what happens but for some stupid reason none of them want to address it because labels are anxiety-inducing and the wordless company felt nice??

There is no conclusion lol just focus on Keith leaning into Lance because he likes being as close to him as humanly possible within their weird social boundaries

i might delete this later but im working on a story that may or may not be adrien x nathaniel *cough* i haven’t had time to draw it so here’s a sneak peek i drew in school

Lol I know I complain about AP a lot and my classmate actually noted how annoying that was during geo (thanks dude) but I am legit scared. Everyone thinks I’m smart just because I get a few good grades but I’m not.

I’m actually an average joe pretending to be a little above average :/

Which means I’m worried again because the quiz is tomorrow and I’m not sure how I can write a fairly well short answer in like 5 minutes?? Rip I don’t even know if I studied the right material cause today my classmates were talking about political vs social vs economical(?) and I’m like ???? Where????

Lol ok.

160816 Suga’s FC Post//Trans

The thing with music is that it comes easy then becomes really hard then comes easy again / sometimes (I) sit there for dozens of days and nothing comes out and other times (I’m) there for only ten minutes and music comes out / hmm (I’ve) been making music for 11years now and it’s still hard haha like life
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Turns out I started making music since I was 13

During this long journey I think I was able to take time to organize my thoughts on who the person ‘me’ is / although I was able to organize my thoughts on who I am, I’m not going to tell
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Of my beats, I chose only the aces to work with / I had saved them for Bangtan’s album but well…I think I’ll be able to make better music anyways :) / I’ll be doing music for much longer than I have been so far *laugh*
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I spent close to half my life making music, you’d think it’d get tiring but while living my 24years there hasn’t been anything else I’ve been as passionate for / since my personality is impatient anytime I started something new it never lasted :)
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I’ve always wanted to be the best to someone

That’s why I was restless and anxious while comparing myself to others, not being satisfied (with my work), being greedy, thinking, being sad…

Greed which was a weapon sometimes turned into anger

While working on this mixtape, (I) went back to my 13 year old self and saw a memory stuck in the corner of my mind / When I first started making music, rather than someone who is the best at making music, I wanted to make music that would give comfort and emotions to someone.
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I think this work has been work that brought me comfort

Why does this young guy have so much resentment

The guy of expectations was always so far from me so there were many times when I clenched my jaw* / due to that I was always able to show you beyond expectation

What a relief :)
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I don’t really like interpreting and explaining songs

Music isn’t the creator’s but the listener’s

That’s why during my album reviews I don’t explain the song or the lyrics but I focus on the process in making the songs / Even if I were to explain, it’s not something that really can be understood / Interpretation is solely on the listener

Chew it out, tear it apart, taste it, enjoy it to your heart’s content
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While doing this work I felt like I was going back and forth between heaven and hell multiples times a day / Sometimes I’d feel great about something and then get scared about messing it up / sometimes I’d feel ah this is enough and then feel a bit of regret / It felt quite different from what I felt (while doing) Bangtan’s album / I started this while going around on tour and it was crazy but while working on the second half I’m thankful I had some breathing room because the bighit family helped.
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Thank you to Yankie hyung and Suran nuna who helped without hesitation with just one phone call even though it’s not even an official album and just a mixtape :)
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Will be together with you at your creation and at the end of your life
Wherever you are, will welcome you
In the end, at the end of adversity, will be in full bloom
Though the start may be humble, the end will be prosperous
*lyrics from so far away feat. suran*

(trans cr. Joyce @bts-trans)
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Min Yoongi is most definitely a genius

DO NOT REPOST
Trans by @bangtoori​ 

norted replied to your post “*i might end up deleting this later* i just want to say that if anyone…”

Hey friend I support you!!! I’ve pretty much stopped participating altogether because of the discourse in this fandom!!! It’s a toxic place! And most of the people doing the witch hunting are convinced they are doing good things which bothers me further! Anyway, I love your blog and I hope you’re able to move past this and have a great fun time and do your own thing because we love it. I hope you have a great day/night and people don’t bother you too much.

thanks! I’ll be able to move past it but i think it may have colored the way i view things from now on. it just makes having fun and being happy in the fandom hard when their are people actively being mean. its just strange to me because i would never go out of my way to go witch hunting like this. and i had to stop participating in the loads of discourse that happen purely for my own mental health. hopefully things will die down for a while. 
but thank you! 

luci-imhome replied to your post “*i might end up deleting this later* i just want to say that if anyone…”

I am so sorry that the part of the fandom that has problems with such things are bothering you so much. I know that you try your best, i do too, i so understand that you want to be a safe place and if your not, no hard feelings. I hope you feel better soon after writing that, i don’t want something that brings you joy to simultaneously bring you fear due to other people. Like other repliers have said, there are many of us who do love your blog and love you. I hope you feel well soon ��

I’m already starting to feel a lot better!!! thank you so much!! 
I can’t say that it won’t affect the way i think about the fandom and maybe how i view some of the others in it, but this isn’t enough to run me out yet lol. and getting all these super awesome positive messages has been more than enough to remind me that the majority of the people here don’t think like that. so thank you again !!! :)