i mean, why the hell not

Be More Chill Dragging Michael Along AU, It Takes Two

“Could you pretend to be my girlfriend from Canada?” Michael looked back at Jeremy with a confused face.


“Could you pretend to be my girlfriend from Canada? I mean…you are my best friend and you already like wearing dresses and wigs and stuff. You just need to show up, kiss me during play rehearsal and then leave!”


“Oh come on why not?”

“Because that’s stupid. Why should I cover for your dumb ass?”

“Because I’m your best friend ever?”

“Not happening.”

“Come on Michael, please? If you want, I’ll pay you. I have like three hundred dollars of Bar Mitzvah money left.”

“Jeremy if I accepted that I would be a prostitute.”

“I don’t want to have sex with you, I just want to show Rich I’m…not a virgin loser…” Michael’s look of anger seemed to disappear as he saw Jeremy’s face when he said that. He looked ready to cry making Michael feel guilt for arguing with him.
“Fine, I’ll pretend to be your girlfriend from Canada.”
“Really?!” Jeremy immediately brightened up almost tackling Michael to the ground with a hug. “Thank you, thank you, thank you!”
“Sure thing bro, just get off me. You’re ruining my makeup.”
“Oh right, sorry Mike.” Pulling away Michael adjusted his red ringlet wig before looking back at Jeremy.
“But what about Christine? If she thinks you have a girlfriend don’t you think she’s not gonna want to date you?”

“We can break up.”

“Wow we haven’t even started our relationship and you’re already breaking it off with me.”

“No, you’ll break up with me! And then she’ll feel really bad and try to comfort me!”

“Sounds thought out except for one tiny thing, what about Jake?”

“We’ll worry about Jake later.”

“Whatever you say dude.” Michael’s phone vibrated as he looked down to read it. “Oh shit, they moved my show up. I’ll drop you off on the way there.” Michael grabbed his keys as Jeremy followed closely behind. The cardigan wearing teen almost ran into Michael when he came to a sudden stop. “And you have to promise me one thing.”

“Yeah, whatever you want Michael.”

“You’ll come to one shows.”

“I can’t go tonight my da-”

“Not tonight, just any night.”

“Y-yeah…I can do that.”

“Cool, if I get off early we can play Apocalypse of the Damned tonight!”

“That sounds awesome!” They fist bumped heading out the door to Michael’s PT Cruiser.
As Jeremy sat in his bed he began to think about play rehearsal tomorrow. He tried not to be a pessimist but sometimes all he could think about was how everything could go wrong tomorrow. He just needed Michael to come, pretend to be his girlfriend for a little bit…possibly make Christine jealous and then they’d leave together and it would be over. No matter how many times Jeremy told himself that a little voice in the back of his head nagged at how everything could go wrong.

‘What if one of them saw his shows?’
Who would go see a drag show with Michael in it?
‘What if they know he’s a boy?’
'What if they think Michael’s ugly?’
Michael’s not ugly…
'As a boy.’
Now that’s just rude.

Before Jeremy could argue with himself anymore the door to his bedroom opened making him jump in surprise as his dad came in.

“Jesus dad, there’s this thing called knocking.”

“Sorry son, just checking on you. Sounded like you were talking to someone.”

'Oh shit…did I say that stuff out loud?’

“Oh, uh just playing a game on my phone.”

“Alright.” His dad awkwardly lingered in the room letting him know he wanted to say.

“Something you want to talk about?”

“So…I saw that girl who dropped you off today. She’s really pretty.”

“Oh that’s…Anne she’s a friend from Canada.”


“Yeah she’s going to be here for a few days.”

“Okay.” Another awkward silence fell over the room before Mr.Heere began to back out the door. “Night son, see you in the morning.”

“Night dad.”

I spent ten months as a florist TIME TO BITCH ABOUT THE SUPPOSED WESTALLEN FLORAL COLORS because what is this shit

listen I’m hoping this is a colorist issue (like cisco’s pale skin wtf) but…..what the hell is that bouquet/boutonnière combo

actually it’s more like ‘what the hell is that boutonnière’ why is it entirely fucking yellow I mean if you want a yellow rose, sure, that’s normal but why the fuck is the baby’s breath also yellow shit’s hideous that’s not something that’s done’ 

and it doesn’t even match the white of Iris’s bouquet like….if you’re gonna have wedding flowers, you at least need a unified color scheme. Yellow bout and white bouquet? what is that shit. like, if you’re not going to coordinate with the bouquet, at least have it match your tie! this isn’t the way to shoehorn in Flash colors, y’all.


Quick reminders!

  • I am a spoonie. I’m pretty dang sick and face a lot of obstacles in day to day life (eating = hell, walking is hard, I’m in constant pain, etc., etc.)
  • My name is Mouse, not Heather :)
  • I live in my bubble of Hellenic polytheism and don’t know much about the other pantheons!
  • I have very little energy (like I said I’m pretty sick). If I answer your ask with a link to a different answer I made it means I wanted to answer your question but I’ve already put the energy in!
  • I’m SUPER busy with school. I’m taking 21 college credits this quarter. My life is classses and homework.

So episode 19 of Vrains gave us the major plot dump into Yusaku’s backstory that we have all been wondering about since the first flashbacks we have seen of him being rescued and can I just say once again, what the hell Vrains?! That is honestly really messed up even by Yu-Gi-Oh standards. I mean, child soldiers was messed up in ARC-V but Vrains decided to take it a step further and do child experimentation. Oh I can’t wait to see how Vrains is going to get dubbed.

Anyway, we still don’t know why these children were kidnapped in the first place and probably won’t know the reason why for a while. We still don’t even know who the other four victims are which is what I think we are going to focus on next after this Playmaker vs Akira duel. I can’t wait to see how messed up they are after seeing how bad Yusaku and Kusanagi’s brother’s PTSD are.

Speaking of the duel, Ignis is really starting to get annoying in it with all his “oh we are going to win!” to “oh no we are going to lose!” in a matter of seconds and it makes Playmaker make this comment.

And when I first saw this episode, I honestly stopped it and went “wait…” at this part.

Pause and rewind back to episode 16 where Ignis says this to Playmaker.

As soon as I remembered this comment, it just hit me. Yusaku acts more like an AI than the actual AI. 

And that’s when I realized. What if the experiments, the Hanoi Project, was some kind of mind/soul split where they took these kids and implanted them with AI technology and in turn extracted their emotions that they unleashed to give free will to an AI, creating the Ignis species. 

It might sound crazy but hear me out. Yusaku has some kind of weird ability that we haven’t touch upon a lot yet but Ignis calls Link Sense that allows him to see and sense things in the network even when he’s not logged in. We clearly see this in episode 3 where Yusaku was able to see Revolver even though he wasn’t there in the real world. 

Another thing to add with this that in episode 19, we see this weird eye thing.

I don’t know what it is but after the whole Zarc thing, I don’t trust it and I’m pretty sure it might be Yusaku’s “special person” because when “she” started speaking, it was on screen. 

And everytime after Yusaku lost a duel, it would let out these weird particle things. Since Yusaku was still wearing the head suit, I think they were transmitted straight into his brain while taking away his emotions that he experienced during his duel. 

During when all of this was happening, Dr. Kogami used these emotions to give free will to the AI and since they were from children, that would explain Ignis’s childish nature. At the same time, they gave children the minds of an AI, for what reasons I don’t know. Maybe the Knights or SOL, whoever is the real mastermind behind all of this, want super human AI Duelists but with human bodies? It is still to early to tell but it is something to think about. But if this is true, I’m just waiting for a switch to be pulled and all six of these kids just go hive mind and try to kill everyone. I kinda want to see that happen now. 

So there’s my two sense for this whole mess at the moment. What do you guys think? Am I onto something or am I just starting nonsense as always? 

anonymous asked:

Going back to season 10 after seeing that gif set, why did the demon blade stop Dean when Sam held it at his throat? Being a Knight of Hell, why didn't he just knock it aside?

Hi there! I assume you mean this post about the promo vs how 10.03 actually looked?


Dean had been tormenting Sam most of the episode. I’d copy paste some key dialogue here, but really Dean had been delivering some of the most pointed critical hit sorts of barbs throughout the entire episode by this scene. He was tormenting Sam. For fun. Because demon.

He was daring Sam to kill him. Because he knew that would hurt Sam. And that was his goal there.

Dean didn’t actually believe that Sam WOULD kill him (and I don’t think any rational person watching the show thought Sam would kill him either), and that was the whole point. Dean walked himself closer to the knife, and was saying, “Do it.” You can see him saying it in that last gif in that linked set. Then look at the gif right above it, at Sam’s face.

Luckily Cas shows up and (after clamping down on Dean with angel strength and telling him “It’s over,” three times, they wrangle Dean back to the chair in the dungeon and administer the last dose of the blood cure. While they’re waiting, Sam and Cas have a heartbreaking conversation that I’ve quoted a bunch of times:

SAM: What the hell are we doing to him, Cas? I mean, even after I gave him all that blood, he still said he didn’t want to be cured, that he didn’t want to be human.
CASTIEL: Well… I see his point. You know, only humans can feel real joy, but … also such profound pain. This is easier.

It was about hurting Sam, and heck if that didn’t hurt.

Granted if the scene went on any longer without Cas showing up to help, we can’t really say what would happen (I imagine he WOULD’VE knocked the blade away, then probably laughed and picked up his hammer again and started swinging). But that scene in itself was about delivering a pointed emotional blow to Sam.

I personally see echoes of s2 in it– the exact same way John had told Dean that he’d have to save Sam, but if he couldn’t save him then he’d have to kill him. And that really messed Dean up mentally and emotionally. It was an AWFUL burden for John to have put on Dean. And now Sam’s sort of in the same position here regarding Dean. He’s desperately trying to save him, but whoa… 

anonymous asked:

Sorry to break it to you but all your faves love you to hell and back?? I mean genuine "shit why can't I focus on anything else rn" kind of love where you get embarrassed for no reason just thinking about them. Why?? Because they all love you so fucking much

bro… u zagged on me so hard…

thank you……….

When I said I wanted a portacabin scene I didn’t mean Larry and Robert I actually meant Aaron and Robert where the hell is Aaron running around why is he not working that lazy monkey haha

MATH NERDS, I need you!

Ok, mathamigos and science/physics history buffs…I need your help.

Many, MANY moons ago, someone explained to me why, in geometry, a circle is broken up into 360 degrees. There’s a specific mathematical reason it’s 360 and not, like, 200 or 440 or some other number. The reason is tickling at the back of my brain, but I just can’t remember, and I can’t figure out how to search for a detailed answer (because my Google Fu sucks.) I’m looking for a thorough, step-by-step breakdown/proof/etc.  

I would also love to find the same type of breakdown for things like, why someone chose to chop a day into 24 equal parts (I mean, yeah, astronomical observations are gonna require equal units of a complete circle, and 24 is 360/15…but why the hell did they divide by 15? Which also begs the question, why is the number 60 so damned important? That might actually be the real root of all of this, but, again…I can’t freakin’ remember why! Ugh!)

Lastly…if anyone knows of additional info along these lines - like if other cultures came up with a different number of hours in a day and why? If another branch of mathematics splits a circle into a different number of divisions and why? (Aside from calculus, I mean) - I’d love that info, too.

Ok…LASTLY lastly: If anyone knows of a really great site or book on the history of physics and mathematics, I’d love to know about it. 

(Btw…the history of calendars is fascinating, but that’s not what I’m looking for right now.)

Many thanks, in advance, to any of you who read this, whether you send me something or just pass it on or whatever. I appreciate any help. 


@omgbubblesomg @chiisana-sukima @messier51 @trisscar368 @hazeldomain @enoliel @living-for-fiction 

I know I know more people who might know this stuff, but for the life of me, I can’t remember who right now. I apologize if I didn’t include you. Please don’t take it personally. My memory is a cruel, fickle bitch.

A Deal With The Devil

Story by reddit user CommanderSection

The deal was simple; we’d get to ask him a couple of questions and he got to ask us a couple of questions. A bit odd if you ask me. What could The Devil possibly want to know from us? I couldn’t tell you.

“Is heaven real?” I asked.

“Yes,” he replied, his voice like dying embers in a fireplace, “and so is hell.”

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Quick interjection: When you keep saying ‘on the line,’ you do mean online?


well i dont see why not! tbh i loved amethyst’s fanny pack and i kinda wish she’d kept it lol

AND! here’s a pilot/concept amedot too!

me being (very) brutally honest with the signs

Aries- You’re such a goddamn hothead all the goddamn time. Not everyone likes to be constantly doing something every second of every day. You get angry with people for the smallest and most trivial reasons but god forbid someone take a dig at you. You’re such a hypocrite and it’s annoying as fuck. You act like an edgy teenager that’s constantly throwing a tantrum. You also boss people around and expect everyone to just follow your lead and if they don’t, you get pissed at them for having a mind of their own. You seriously need to take a look at your life and stop seeing everything as a fucking challenge that’s rigged against you. My god, I get tired just being in your presence. 

Taurus- You’re a lazy fuck and way too materialistic and possessive. You literally have no desire to do anything because you love to sit on your ass. You take “treat yourself” to a whole new level and not in a healthy way whatsoever. It seems like every chance you get you cause arguments and then you contradict whatever the other person is saying just because you can’t look at anything from a different point of view. Even if you get to the point where you realize you’re in the wrong and the other person is right, you’ll just continue to argue for the sake of arguing and god forbid your ego take even the slightest blow. It’s irritating as shit like you really think you know best when in reality you’re just a stubborn bitch. What a bore.

Gemini- Look, I know you guys get a lot of flak. But take this into consideration…… it’s because most if not all of it is FUCKING TRUE. You have so many different personalities I don’t know which one is even real. You gossip 24/7 and flip-flop between who you talk to and who you talk about. You’re completely unreliable and unpredictable and also clingy as fuck. Seriously, I feel like I can’t get away from you. I just want to go to the bathroom, I don’t need to hear the story right now about how Sarah said that Dylan said that Kimberly found a sock in the dryer that wasn’t hers. Literally no one cares. Another thing that you do is once you get tired of someone, you just throw them away like garbage. (Also Trump is a gemini, and I know you guys can’t control that but like come on. Of course he’s a gemini.)

Cancer- You really need to stop being so whiny or I’m actually going to lose it. Everyone has problems so stop acting like such a victim all the goddamn time. You’re so moody all the time and you act like a small child that needs to have their diaper changed. You also cling onto people as soon as you meet them and cry if someone doesn’t answer your text within 5 fucking minutes. Don’t you have your own life to live? Oh wait, I forgot you spend every second in a dark room and refuse to come outside unless it’s to answer the door because you ordered shitty takeout. You consider changing your clothes adventurous and honestly it’s so boring. Introverted doesn’t even describe you, you’re more like a complete hermit (CRAB. HA!)

Leo- Hey leo, wow, are you actually reading this? I’m kind of shocked because I never thought you’d ever stop looking at yourself in the mirror. Seriously, you’re probably the most vain sign out of all of us. So much so that if someone criticizes you in even the smallest way, you get so offended and act like you’ve been shot in the chest. You think so highly of yourself, and while it’s great to have confidence, you take it to the next level, which is extreme arrogance. You love to have the conversation focused around you. You’re the type of friend that if someone is telling you about their problem or just their day in general, you’ll interrupt them and start talking about yourself and it’s DAMN ANNOYING. How do you still have friends?

Virgo- I’m gonna tell you right now, you’re not as perfect as you think you are. You’re so quick to critique other people that you write them off as not good enough before even getting to know them. You’re the type of person that would tell their friend that they were breathing too loudly. For fucks sake, you’re such an over analyzing pedant it makes me want to slap you in the face with my fucking asymmetrical hand. Your pessimism is damn near blinding, I probably wouldn’t want to hang around you for more than 10 minutes or you’d make me feel self conscious about how I fucking walk or some shit. You can’t take or make a joke. You’re skeptical about everything and you’re completely inflexible. You like to think of yourself as an intellectual but really you’re stuck up, narrow minded and someone I constantly find myself rolling my eyes at.

Libra- You are manipulative as shit. You’ll tell someone they look good without even looking up from your phone. You lie all the time and don’t really give a fuck if you hurt other people’s feelings because you really only look out for yourself. You’re also a huge fucking coward. When your friends need you to have their back and actually be there for them, you run and hide and say, “Oh sorry I just didn’t want to get involved!”. What a lame fucking excuse for ditching your friend in their time of need. You’re also extremely indecisive to the point where it’ll take you 3 hours just to choose where you want to go eat. It’s tiring as fuck. Just MAKE A CHOICE FOR ONCE IN YOUR LIFE. Have your own fucking opinion. You’re like a goddamn sheep.

Scorpio- Why the FUCK are you so aggressive for no fucking reason? You manipulate people just for the fun of it. You get jealous so easily and usually you don’t even have a reason to be jealous. You just are. It’s pathetic. You like to think that you’re so cool and mysterious but in reality people just see you as a moody and brooding asshole that no one really wants to bother getting to know. I mean, why would they? What’s the point? Every time someone even tries to get close to you, you completely brush them off and act like you don’t care about them because keeping your “mystifying” aura is soo important to you. And if you do let someone in, you treat them like they’re your possession and it’s creepy as hell. You obsess over them and you want to control them. God forbid they hang out with someone that isn’t you and then you resent them for no goddamn reason other than having a life of their own. Do me a favor scorpio and don’t talk to me.

Sagittarius- Honestly if a sag is reading this, you’re just straight up getting a taste of your own medicine. You’re tactless as shit and it makes me not want to be around you, ever. You’re inconsiderate of others and impatient with everyone. If someone isn’t moving up to your standards you will become agitated and aggressive and then you take it out on the person. You constantly need to be doing something else because your attention span lasts about 2 fucking seconds. You act like an 8 year old. You’re also really superficial. You don’t bother getting to know the deeper layers of a person because, like I said, you’re impatient and also just plain lazy. You take people for granted and are careless when handling the feelings of people closest to you. You’re also a really self-obsessed know-it-all. Go climb a fucking tree, sag.

Capricorn- Four words. Lighten. The fuck. Up. You are by far the most power-hungry of all the signs. You take everything so completely seriously that I don’t even know if you understand what “fun” even is. You always have to have two feet on the ground at all times and you can never ever be spontaneous and it’s so fucking dull. You’re conservative and disdainful nature can be so overbearing at times that even your friends need to get away from you. That is, if you have friends. You’re a complete pessimist so who knows if anyone can actually tolerate that. You constantly have to be the most successful person in a room, and you make sure you reach this level of success through abusive and controlling behavior towards the people around you. Your selfishness grosses me out.

Aquarius- I asked you what time it was. I didn’t ask you if I was afraid of time passing or the fact that it’s a manmade construct. For fucks sake, just shut the fuck up about this deep shit for once. I don’t want to contemplate how large the universe really is at fuckin 8:30 am on a Monday. You’re rebellious even when it doesn’t matter and honestly all it does is piss people off. You’re constantly trying to deviate from the norm that you make the same fucking mistakes that other people already made, but you don’t fucking learn from other people’s mistakes because you always have to go your own way. Maybe listen to other people for once? You’re the most detached sign out of all of them and you hurt people by acting aloof all the fucking time but you don’t care because you chalk it up to “this is who I am!!! I need my freedom!!!!”. You need to actually think about how your actions affect people you care about because if you don’t, you’re REALLY gonna end up alone and you won’t be able to do a damn thing about it. 

Pisces- You need to stop feeling sorry for yourself all the time and get it through your head that you’re not always the damn victim. You don’t take responsibility for your actions and you always find a way to blame it on someone else because you’re NEVER in the wrong, are you? Poor little pisces. You’re not as innocent as you want everyone to believe. You’re constantly daydreaming and it becomes really annoying when I’m trying to talk to you and you just completely zone out because you love living in your little imaginary world. You’re the WORST at solving your own problems and conflicts because instead of dealing with them you just avoid it all together and end up leaving the mess for someone else to clean up. You’re really nosy- you love to get in other people’s business. But you don’t go to the person directly, you have to be sneaky about it and gather rumors from other people. You’re also very over-sensitive. Out of all the signs, you’re by far the most likely to respond to this post saying how this isn’t true and that I’m just a “big fat meany!!!” and then add a bunch of angry/crying emojis.

(disclaimer: Don’t worry, I don’t really hate your sign (unless you’re a  * * * * * * … lmao). This was just for fun and I know it’s harsh. Don’t take it too personally. You’re an individual and ultimately you determine who you really are. Except for you, * * * * * * . Fuck you.) 

  • Yurio: *overhears a heated argument coming from Victor and Yuuri's room*
  • Yurio: *slams open the door* WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON IN HE-
  • Victor: *arms folded* Yuuri is trying to tell me that I'M the most beautiful man alive
  • Yuuri: that's because you ARE. I MEAN HAVE YOU SEEN YOURSELF?
  • Victor: YES! I HAVE! That's why I can say with certainty you are THE MOST gorgeous person to EVER walk the face of the planet
  • Yuuri: Victor Katsuki-Nikiforov. ARE YOU SERIOUSare you forgetting who's made the cover of GQ on MULTIPLE OCCASIONS
  • Victor: oH that was just publicity for the ISU and you know it! Look at yourself. Right now. You're just RADIATING and don't even get me STARTED ON YOUR EROS
  • Yuuri: I was just mimicking YOU OH MY GOD. YURIO. TELL HIM HE'S MORE BEAUTIFUL
  • Victor: NO. Yurio tellHIM that HE'S more beautiful
Pewdiepie “Racist” rant

Alright, let’s get something straight here before we get started. I am not slandering the man, my rant is to ALL THE FREAKING IDIOTS SCREAMING HE’S A RACIST. 

In layman’s terms, I’m calling out the people calling Felix out.

Look, do ANY of you even know what racism even is? I bet you don’t. Did he actually use the slur to directly insult a person, that one person or several? Or did he say it while playing a game? 

Because if your answer is ‘while playing a game on a stream…’ then here’s my answer to you.

ITS A GAME! PEOPLE CURSE AND SLUR ALL THE TIME AT A GAME! How in blazes does that make him racist?!

Now, if he was playing a game and directly used it with ill intent toward the player(s) THEN we have a problem. But did he? No, he didn’t. So that tells me, everyone’s being butthurt over something that isn’t even a problem. Making mountains outta mole holes situation here.

And you’re making jackasses out of yourselves. -claps- Congrats, you won the ‘Fucking Idiot’ award.

The n word is just a word, and it has a very bad history. A very bad, bloody history and I understand that completely. But here’s the thing. If its an racist insult for anyone but a black person to say it, then WHY say it to themselves like its a friendly insult? Its NOT an exclusive word for one “race” to say. Its a goddamn word that no one has copyright to. 

Because if that godforsaken word is SUCH a problem then by logic… NO ONE SHOULD SAY IT. And I mean NO ONE. Like I said, its not a special word exclusive to one race. Either EVERYONE gets to say it and everyone puts on their big kid pants and grow the hell up. Or NO ONE SAYS IT and we can be done with the mess.

Its been how many centuries and everyone is STILL hung up on that word? Has harsh as it is… move the fuck on. Jesus.

Now, the reason I’m saying all this is because I personally am just sick and tired that the ‘racism’ card has been used to flag the smallest of shit just because someone got triggered. Unless its an actual fucking problem to be address, that damn card has maxed out its credits a LONG ASS time ago. And needs to fucking stop. Like really. If you pull that crap over the smallest of shit, you look like a fool and deserve a smack across the back of your head. 

Another reason I’m putting my two cents on here, is the amount of bullshit I’m seeing of how people are flipping out about Felix saying such a word and people are attacking his friends

His. Friends.


Enlighten me.

How in the HOLY HELL do his friends have ANYTHING to do with WHAT HE SAYS?!

Felix is an adult, HE takes responsibility for his actions and no one else. Why should Mark, or Jack or any other YouTuber that is friends with Felix have to take responsibility for his actions? Why?

Go on. 

Tell me why.

Because by that logic, YOU’RE responsible for all of your own friends’ actions. Your best friend in school? Let’s say they’re taking drugs and get caught. By your logic of the YouTubers having to take responsibility for Felix’s actions, you take responsibility for your friend’s choice to do drugs. Not very fair is it? Why should you, if it was your friend’s choice? Makes perfect sense by the logic you’re putting out there for YouTubers to do it.

But it doesn’t make sense does it?

Didn’t think so.

Mark, Jack… every other friend Felix has, they don’t owe you an apology for being friends with him. They can disagree with him and be a little disappointed but apologize to the public? 


They don’t need to publicly call Felix out for anything for whatever the “fans” want. 

If you honestly feel that way to the YouTubers, you might as well fucking unsub. They’re not gonna cause drama for your amusement and pleasure, to watch them snipe at each other for stupid shit. You can do that on your own time with your friends. And if you do that, then it proves you’re a terrible human being.

So if you’re hoping for that shit to happen then you’re sorely mistaken and can kindly fuck off. They have better shit to occupy their time with than to deal with drama they’re not even a part of.

And with that, I’m done ranting.

DACA and what it means to me

*disclaimer when I was typing this I was a crying mess it might not make sense. It might also not flow together and just sound like a bunch of random thought but this is my story as a DACA recipient.

I am a DACA recipient. I was brought to the U.S. when I was a year and a half old. I’m not sure if I was brought here illegally or legally and then overstayed my visa. I never asked my parents about it. Hell I didn’t even know I was an illegal immigrant until I asked my parents why we never went to visit our family in Mexico and my we never left the state or hell even the county.

I lived in constant fear of being deported when I found out I was an illegal immigrant. The city that I grew up in had ICE raids almost every day for a couple of years. And then they stopped.

It was hard being a teenager and having to hide this huge secret that you never asked for. It’s difficult having to explain to your friends why at the age of 16 and 17 you don’t have your drivers license and weren’t going to get it any time soon. It was also hard to explain to them why you would turn down acceptances to so great universities because you don’t qualify for FAFSA or any kind of financial aid. Why you are going to a community college when you had a great GPA and good SAT/ACT scores. Why you didn’t apply for any scholarships because the all require you to be a U.S. citizen.

Living in constant fear because now you are going to lose the only thing that made you feel safe. The one thing that allowed you to have a good paying job. The reason why you don’t have to pay out of state tuition at school.

The U.S. has been my home for 19 years. English is my primary language it might have not been the first one I learned but it’s the one I speak the best and the one I am most comfortable with. To even think about going to Mexico makes me nervous. What am I going to do there?

Teens and adult like me didn’t ask to be in this position. Us DACA recipients are either attending school or have a job. We pay our taxes and every time we renew our permits we have to go through another background check. We are just people who want to make a decent living and make a difference in this country a country that has been out home for as long as most of us can remember. I mean how may 20 year olds do you know that have already have had to have 3 backgrounds check just to prove that they deserve to be able to have a decent job and further their education.

Less then a month ago, I went to my lawyer to renew my DACA. I paid almost a grand for both my legal fees and application fees. Money that I won’t get back if DACA get terminated. And now I have to wait and hear what Trumps official decision on DACA but I’m sure we all know that he’s going to end it. And with that end my dreams of ever being able to finish my education.

So please show some compassion and call your local senator and congressman. Telling not to end DACA and show your support to people like me who just want to live a normal life with out fear of being deported to a country that is foreign to them.