Seven Years (Kai) 1. Timeless Love
Seven years. An obsession? A crush? Or maybe…just love at first sight.
Fourth grade, a time when a child can be happy and free. They usually think about stuffed animals and having fun right? Well, that’s not how I experienced it.
You can say I had more…mature thoughts?
Well anyway, fourth grade. We all gathered in the gymnasium to see the new elections for the school president.
Of course you had the overachiever kid who does sports and gets good grades. Sitting next to my friend, we chatted over the boring speech each candidate gave. “I’m so grateful for having blah blah blah blah,” the usual speeches but my friend and I made a game where we filled in what they were really saying. For example, "I like to eat frogs and poop. Thank you so much for letting me pee my pants in school.“ Stuff like that. Real mature right?
But all that changed. Now, you might think I was over exaggerating when I describe this, but I’m sincere. It was like he just shined with happiness and bubbles? I don’t know but that’s how I remember it. Just bubbles of light floating around him.
As he walked up to the podium, he took the microphone and just simply smiled. I couldn’t help but stare as he continued through his speech.
Shaking my friend I almost yelled, "I like him!”
You know what she did? Laugh. She laughed! And! He heard it! She was so loud! She just laughed as he stared at us from the back of the gym. It was an embarrassing time but also one of the best. His first glance at me.
After his speech, I was the loudest clapper until the teachers yelled at me thinking I was fooling around. Hey, you can’t suppress love right?
Ok, flash forward to middle school. A time where the hormones kick in and relationships last a day.
Finally I could spend two years with him. Two years of passing in the hallway and maybe even talking to each other. Oh did I forget to mention? He’s a year older but ya know what they say, age doesn’t matter.
Anyway, he fitted the criteria for perfect. Awesome talents for music and super smart! Double advanced math, like come on, how do you do that?
He was my hero and student model. But all that had to fade.
My friend, not the one before but a different one, ran up to me and said, “I found a really cute guy and you have to help me be with him?”
I was so excited for her until she told me who it was.
“Kai! He is so cute and smart! Do you know him?! Can you help me?!”
I couldn’t just tell her and crush her crush. So I played the pathetic friend.
“Um, sure. What do you need me to do?”
Oh boy did that crush me on the inside. It felt as if multiple nails started puncturing my heart. But I had to pull through.
“Ok, so you have lunch with him right?”
“Yay! Ok, so just go talk to him and tell him about me and just get him to like me! Is that ok? If it’s too much I’ll ask someone else…”
“No! I mean, no it’s ok. I will help you.”
Hey, if I actually get to talk to him, why not?
So came lunch. I could just feel all the butterflies and frogs leap inside my stomach. He was sitting at his brothers’ table.
First of all, walking up to an all boys table is freaking hard. Second, he was there all with his smiles and everything.
Gotta calm down. Breathe.
For a 13 year old, this was pretty hard.
Walking up to him I shyly asked, “Are you Kai?”
He looked up in mid laugh with his friends, “Um yeah.”
Pointing towards my friend I said, “Do you know her?”
He looked over and nodded, “I’ve seen her before. Why do you ask?”
I could feel my hands get damp, “Um, she uh, likes you so would you go out with her?”
He stared at me blank faced, “Go out? I don’t know her. How can you expect me to go out with someone I don’t know?”
His friend piped up, “Hey! Lay off the guy! He doesn’t want to date her so just back off!”
I looked at the floor, “I…I just wanted…”
“Wanted to what?!”
Kai stood up, “Chanyeol please. I’m not a 3 year old I can speak for myself.”
He sighed and looked at me, “Hey, don’t get upset. I just don’t want to date someone I don’t know. Is that ok?”
I looked up and half heatedly smiled, “Yeah.”
He smiled back, “Good.”
As I walked away I could feel the heat rise in my cheeks.
Is it bad to feel relieved?
“So what did he say?!”
I stumbled my words, “He uh…he’s not ready to be in a relationship and he doesn’t know you so he said no. Sorry.”
She sighed, “Well, it was a shot right?”
“Yeah…but what do you like about him?”
She looked up, “What?”
“What do you like so much about him?”
She thought a bit, “His face? I don’t know. I just do.
"Well that’s no reason to like someone.”
She scoffed, “What? No reason? Well who do you like?!”
I stuttered, “I uh…nothing nevermind.”
I walked away and that was the last time I talked to her until later years.
Junior High went on. Kai and I never talked again but I still kept him in my heart. Even when I didn’t see him in my last year, I knew to hold on one more year until High School. Then I would have 3 years with him and this time I wasn’t going to back down.
Freshmen. The “children” of the bunch. I was a so called “nerd” mixed with a few “popular kids” but no one really noticed me. But I didn’t care, all I knew is that I had to study hard and I get to see Kai everyday for the next 3 years.
I actually got into advance English. I felt achieved and actually proud of myself. At least I had one thing to relate with him.
Walking to lunch, I spotted him. He was sitting with my dance friend and a few others but I felt so elated to actually have lunch with him.
Sitting with my friends, I couldn’t help but glance over a couple of times just to see him.
“Hey_____, it’s Kaiii,” my friend teased.
“Yeah I know shut up!”
“He’s looking at you.”
“No he’s not.”
“Look for yourself.”
Daring to peek over, I saw his eyes land on mine. Only a second until we both looked away but it still got my heart racing.
“Shhhh please. I might get a stroke at the rate my heart is going.”
We laughed and I looked back one last time to see we met eyes once again.
Walking into English, I saw my friend clinging onto Kai’s younger brother that was in my grade.
“You can’t move! My boy can’t move!”
His brother laughed and patted my friends head, “It’s ok man! I’ll come visit.”
I sat still in my chair just staring into space. My friend in front of me waved a hand in front of my face, “Earth to ______? You ok?”
“He’s moving,” I said monotonously.
“He’s moving. After all this time, he’s moving.”
Hey guys! So here’s the new story inspired by my little problem. Well not so little but you get it lol. Yeah, it’s hard to lose your first crush even after liking them for so long but you have to let go eventually right? It’s hard but I’ll have to see how it plays out. Love you guys!- a-bit-crooked