i mean not physically

anonymous asked:

I would love to see Alex and Maggie comforting Kara after Kara gets blown up in a car and watches the person who is confiding in her die just because he's confiding in her.

Alex is her first phone call.

Alex is always her first phone call.

Her shirt is burned through and her jacket smells of gasoline, smells of fire, smells of ash.

Smells of the ash of the man who had just been speaking to her, confiding in her.

Trusting her.

And she failed him.

Failed him, like she failed all the aliens in the bar that night she wasn’t there to stop the massacre.

Failed him, like she failed to save Kelly the night of Myriad, because James and Winn were her friends, and somehow that made their lives more valuable than the life of someone she barely knew but saw every day for two years.

Failed him, like she failed time and time and time again.

So she calls Alex.

She calls Alex, and she can do nothing but sob.

Alex comes to get her, and she’s in DEO gear, and she’s in the DEO van, but that’s not how they’re leaving.

Because Alex isn’t there to pick her up to report for work.

She’s there to take care of her sister.

Of Kara Danvers, Kara Zor-El. Not Supergirl.

Supergirl can be debriefed later.

Kara needs comfort, now.

“I got you,” is all Alex says as Kara falls into her arms, as Alex covers her burnt-through shirt with a pullover sweater as Kara shrugs out of the jacket that smells like her failure, like his death, and then there are sirens, and Maggie is sprinting out of her cop car like a bat out of hell, and Kara dimly assumes that she’s running for Alex, but she’s not, she’s not, because when she grinds to a halt in front of them, it’s Kara’s name that’s on her lips.

“Kara, I am so sorry, are you – are you hurt, I mean, physically? You know it wasn’t your fault, right? The explosion pattern, there wasn’t anything you could have done – “

And Kara breaks, then, because Maggie knows, and Alex knows, exactly what is on her mind.

That a man with a husband and kids and a mother and a father and a best friend from high school is dead.

And it’s her fault.

Maggie knows, and Alex knows, because they’re both experts in blaming themselves for deaths they couldn’t possibly have prevented.

“Sawyer! You gonna get a witness statement or what?” her partner calls, and Maggie tilts her head at her girlfriend’s little sister.

“Do you want to go home, Kara? I can hold off my guys for you if you need to breathe for a while before we – ”

But Kara, still wrapped in Alex’s strong arms, shoots out a hand for Maggie’s wrist.

“I want to go home. But come with us,” she barely whispers, and Alex almost sobs, and Maggie has to fight down tears, and Kara doesn’t even bother, her tears tracking through the ash on her face.

“Come on, you two. I’m gonna get her attended to, I’ll have the statement for you later. Catch a ride back with Taylor, would you?” Maggie calls, and her partner gives a curt nod, and Maggie ushers her Danvers girls into her squad car.

She doesn’t comment when Alex slides into the back seat with Kara instead of riding in the front with Maggie, and she doesn’t comment when instead of buckling up, Kara just lays down on the seat and puts her head in Alex’s lap and lets Alex pet her hair, whisper in her ear, kiss her forehead, hold her steady.

She doesn’t comment. She just drives extra carefully, because she has precious cargo in the back seat.

Alex helps Kara stumble out of the car when they get to her apartment, and Maggie carries Kara’s jacket as Alex half-carries her upstairs.

“It’s my fault,” are Kara’s first words when they step inside.

“I get to live because I can just fly out of there, because nothing’s going to penetrate my skin, but he… he doesn’t even… his family won’t even have a body to…”

“Kara. This… this isn’t your fault. You couldn’t have anticipated it, you couldn’t have known – ”

“Alex, what good am I if my reporting puts people at risk and I can’t even rescue them as Supergirl? How… what good am I, then? Any of it?”

“Kara, listen to me. If you start blaming yourself for things you can’t control? You’re never going stop. Ever. Trust me. I know. You can’t let this get inside you like this. You can’t. This wasn’t your fault.”

“Alex, I’m not a soldier, I don’t – ”

“Hey, Little Danvers, listen, neither am I. Look, you can grieve, Kara, and you can rage and you can mourn, and James told me you used to set up a car next to his heavy bag and have a punching fit, and I can take you out to the garage right now if you need to. But your sister’s right. You start blaming yourself for this, and it’s not gonna stop, and you don’t deserve that. I promise you, you don’t.”

“But I lived. And he died.”

“There’s no shame in surviving, Kara,” Alex whispers, and Kara sobs, and Alex wraps her in her arms, shushing her and soothing her and holding in her own tears because her little sister needs her right now.

Maggie kisses Alex’s forehead and puts a hand on Kara’s shaking shoulder before she stands up and pads into the kitchen.

“Where you going?” Kara mutters from where she’s buried her face in Alex’s polo.

“To order you some potstickers, Kid Danvers.”

Kara sniffs and Alex grins.

“So can I keep her?” she asks, and Kara sniffles and nods.

“You can keep her,” she agrees, and she thinks that maybe, just maybe, if she has big sisters like this, she might be worth something after all.

anonymous asked:

when do u think deckerstar each fell in love with each other or started falling in love?

I think you people live to torture me with all these feel-worthy deckerstar asks omg. Edit: Okay I just finished this and I’m so sorry this just ran away with me. I just have so many feels about deckerstar. 

Chloe:

I definitely think Chloe started to have feelings for Lucifer around the 1x11 mark but didn’t officially start to “love” him until 2x07. 

Okay yeah I know big jump, but let’s be realistic! During season 1 Chloe really doesn’t know Lucifer until probably 1x09 and onwards. Sure she’d seen some parts of him in the rare vulnerable moment (like in 1x04), but until Father Frank dies I don’t think she had a reason to really start to develop feelings. Now before you all start bombarding me for that last comment, hear me out: think of it from Chloe’s prospective. This arrogant, self-absorbed junkie of a man verbally states he’s sticking around just because he finds her “interesting” and oh, he wants to sleep with her. That is not an incentive for Chloe folks!! If anything that is an incentive to get away and stay away from “walking- heroin” Lucifer Morningstar. As a single mother she does not want to take a bite out of that cake. 

But then in 1x09 both Chloe and the audience see something different in Lucifer. Father Frank’s character did a great job drawing the angel out of Lucifer by showing a more fun and sensitive side of our favorite Devil. He shows more emotions than he has all season; laughing and playing the piano and crying when Father Frank is murdered. This shows not only us, but Chloe as well, that Lucifer Morningstar’s persona of playboy nightclub owner is just a persona. This episode stripped back that layer of him and showed us all of Lucifer’s insecurities and just how kind he could be. The end scene with the piano colored him with so many more emotions than I think Chloe ever thought was possible. After this episode we see him really start to change for the better.

Which leads us to 2x07. Up until this episode, Lucifer and Chloe’s relationship grows by leaps and bounds, but this is the first time Chloe can visibly see the change. She’s had time to let the “attraction” feelings settle in and the moment Lucifer says “I think he would be proud of you” that does it for her. That compassion and consideration from Lucifer is what she has been unconsciously waiting on. In season 1 and even in the beginning of season 2, the old Lucifer would have never said that. No, that would be too touchy-feely for the old him. Those eight words change everything. They show emotional capacity and have real love behind them, and I think that makes her realize that her hug has love behind it as well.

Lucifer:

Lucifer, on the other hand, started to feel things a little earlier. My guess is that Lucifer started to have feelings around 1x07 but never let himself believe he was in love with Chloe until 2x12. Could I say he was in love with her by the end of 1x13? Yes, but I won’t and here’s why.

So in 1x07 the main focus of the episode for Lucifer was jealousy. Now jealousy is a fickle emotion; it is not without a source. That source has to come from your core emotions: love, hate, ect. Well Lucifer doesn’t necessarily hate Dan so it must be the former. The moment Lucifer becomes jealous of Chloe spending time with Dan, it shows just where his feelings lie. He is beyond just “intrigued”. No, intrigued wouldn’t warrant emotions of this intensity. This kind of passionate jealousy stems from passion itself. 

This passion has been bubbling since 1x04 and has just now turned itself into “attraction”. I don’t mean physical attraction, because Lucifer has always found her physically attractive. No, I mean he finds everything that makes Chloe Chloe attractive; which is a foreign concept to him. Never before has he felt something this deeply and that is what ultimately scares Lucifer into repressing those feelings until 2x12.

Now as I just stated, Lucifer was in hardcore denial mode in 1x13, which is why I’m not picking it. The reason I pick 2x12 is because of one line: “This is real”. Yes one of the most famous and important deckerstar lines to date. That line holds so much more than Lucifer realizing that their relationship is real. It means that everything is now real. All of his repressed emotions, all of her mixed signals, their fears, their love: it’s real. It’s all real.

Lucifer has lived his life with no idea how it feels to be wanted or to be loved. Seeing this woman terrified out of her mind that something could happen to him just blows his mind. He always told himself nobody could love the Devil, but here Chloe comes running to wrap him in this hug because she’s just so relieved he’s okay. And for once, Lucifer lets his walls down and believes it. He believes her. And just this once he believes in his own love.

Sometimes I literally sit and feel bad for Cinderella and Prince Charming. BC I don’t know what they did to deserve Chad. I mean he literally in canon physically assaulted Jay for no reason then made fun of him for eating his trash. How did he come out like that? Like Cinderella suffered abuse, how did he become so abusive? I just don’t get it.

drawbacks of synesthesia: when i say music hurts people think they know what i mean but i actually mean it physically feels like getting punched

i might not be beautiful physically but that does not mean i cannot be beautiful in other ways. i can be beautiful with my kindness. i can be beautiful with my intellect. i can be beautiful with my empathy, with my compassion, with my humour, with the way i love. and maybe one day that will be enough for me to look in the mirror and feel content with the person i see because i’ll know she has more to offer than just a pretty face. 

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What if my problem wasn’t that I don’t understand people but that I don’t like them? What if I was obliged to hurt you for something like this? I mean, physically. I think you’d have to believe afterwards, if you could, that agreeing to participate, and then backing out at the critical moment was a mistake. Because that’s what I’m telling you, as clearly as I can.

Nightcrawler (2014) dir. Dan Gilroy

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Margherita Lucilla Siani - Overwatch OC: Overview

Ta-daaaa! This post has been stocked in my scraps for like… a decade! I’ve been changing things, names, dates so many times that I have issues myself to remember who and when. But we are finally here!

Some general, basic informations about my Overwatch Child, Margherita. It’s the first time ever I go this deep with an Original Character, so I really hope you like her! More infos, skins and backstory will come soon.

Fancy to tell me if you’d like to play as her? Ahah! I totally would!

I wrote more detailed explanations about her abilities, but I’m gonna hide the rest of the post since I talked too much. LOL

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what he says: “i crave validation" 

what he means: i am no longer physically able to repress the urge to show off how cute and happy i am when i’m on vacation w the loml and i need everyone to know and while we’re here can we talk about how cute he is too and how good i am at capturing his beauty through the art of photo can you believe we have traveled the world together and he is next to me in my life,

anonymous asked:

you know how Dean was lecturing Cass on how to pick waitresses in the preview clip? imagine if Cass used that info to pick a male waiter and Dean getting jealous.

Oh Man, Dean would be so pissed, and would 100% try to act like he wasn’t absolutely seething with jealousy.

Dean: “Yeah,  yeah, Cas… Go, uh, get ‘em. But, uh, you know you could do better, right?”

Castiel: “I don’t understand. He’s quite physically attractive.”

Dean: “Yeah, yeah, but, I mean… He’s like a 6 and you’re waaaaay outta his league-”

Castiel: “I wasn’t aware there were leagues assigned to physical attractiveness.”

Dean: “It’s a figure of speech, Cas.”

Meanwhile, Sam is fucking *dying* because this is the funniest thing he has seen all week.

Castiel: “What assigned rating do you think I should go after, Dean?”

Dean: “I don’t know, man… You’re like… up there on… on the scale, I mean. You could easily get a nine or ten…  Y’know…”

Castiel: “So someone of your attractiveness level, then?”

Dean: (blushing furiously) “I… uh… I didn’t say…”

And then Sam makes a coughing noise that sounds suspiciously like “Destiel” and Dean tips his drink into his lap. 

anonymous asked:

Do all your weapons have names?

nah, i go through weapons too quickly for that. i do have some favorites though, that have been with me for a while, which have picked up nicknames. there’s a real nasty grenade launcher that i frequently use to make holes in buildings that clint insists on calling my ‘lockpick’ as if i dont know how to break in like a normal assassin. i know how to pick a lock clint. exploding stuff is just more fun.

 i have a set of sweet little throwing knives that natasha usually calls the manicure kit. i would object to that more if they didnt come in handy so often on nail painting night. 

i have a regular claw hammer which has seen combat and is officially named the ‘Hammer Of Barnes.” thor blessed it for me. i dont know if that makes it more effective in a fight but it is pretty cool. 

i have a big trench knife that has been called ‘mantra’ after that one time when Dr banner was about to hulk out in a hospital ward because it was being attacked by hydra agents. clint was trying (poorly) to keep him calm, and was yelling ‘do your breathing exercises!! use your mantras!!’ at which point Dr banner grabbed my knife and stabbed a hydra guy. he did not hulk out. we were very proud of him.

i once told tony that my fists were named ‘business’ and ‘pleasure’ but i was just messing with him. his face was pretty priceless. 

but my favorite named weapon has always been my throwing steve. by which i mean the captain america that i sometimes physically hurl at my enemies. it may not be the most dignified way to get steve into a fight but it sure is effective

Halla! Please feel free to suggest any words and I’ll edit them into this post!

adda: verb, to add. e.g. to add a friend on fb.

ass: short for ‘altså‘, can be used quite loosely, f.x. therefore, so, well.

drita: adjective, shitfaced, pissed, hammered, basically a way of saying you’re really drunk.

dritt: adjective and noun, shit.

drittsekk: adjective and noun, literally means shit bag, could be translated as asshole.

This is quite long, so I’ll put a read more thing just under here :o)

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Halloween

Summary: Nat and Wanda trick you into going to a Halloween party at the Stark Tower.

Warnings: smut- oral (receiving), penetration; fluff

A/N: Wrote this to get out of my writer’s block. I hope you like it!


“Fuck!” Nat yanked the strings tighter and you gasped for air. “I know I wanted to wear a corset for Halloween but-”

“Authentication is the key.” She helped you straighten. “And look at how great your breasts look.” 

“They do look pretty great.” You admired yourself in the mirror, running your hands down your torso and enjoying the feeling of the leather under your fingertips. “So…are you finally going to tell me who’s going to be at this party?”

“Nope, it’s a secret.” Nat chuckled as she adjusted her hair and makeup. “Don’t worry, you’re going to have fun.”

“You’re in for some serious hell if you’re lying to me.” You pointed at her and slipped into your leggings. “Why do I have to be a sexy cat? Why can’t I be like Victorian royalty?” 

“Because last time you were drunk you let it slip that you’ve always wanted to dress up as one.” Wanda slipped into the room grinning. “I told Nat and she helped me get the costume, now let’s go.” 

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So I get so angry and frustrated with healthy (BOTH physically and mentally) people are lazy. I just can’t stand it because they’re wasting that perfectly good body to sit on their asses and do nothing. Or even have not healthy people do stuff for them.

It makes me so mad because I would kill to have a working body so I could do all the things I’m dying to do. I’d kill to be able to work out and go on adventures and travel the world…and just exist happily in no pain. I would kill for that. I think about it every day.

And then here are these certain people who could do all that and more. But they’re sitting on their asses doing nothing. Too lazy to even walk down the street for something or take the trash out or whatever. It kills me. I just want to scream at them.

I know this isn’t the nicest opinion but it’s something I feel. It’s something that makes me cry and rage. I just want a working body so badly and they’re wasting theirs.

omgcp-themed asks!
  • Jack: Tell us about something you’re passionate about.
  • Bitty: What happened the last time you had a crush?
  • Shitty: How do you define your gender & sexuality? (If you don’t want to say, just write “I have no deets, man”)
  • Lardo: How do you express your creativity (writing, drawing, music, etc)?
  • Ransom & Holster: Do you have a best friend? If so, how did you meet them?
  • Nursey: Are you a naturally calm person?
  • Dex: What’s an issue you’d fight someone over?
  • Chowder: Would you say you’re a friendly person?
  • Tango: What’s the last question someone asked you? (besides this meme)
  • Whiskey: Are you introverted, extroverted, or somewhere in between?
  • Mandy & Jenny: What’s some of your favorite music?
  • Parse: Tell us about something you’ve done/haven’t done that you regret.
  • Bad Bob & Alicia: Who do you look up to?
  • Suzanne & Coach: What’s your hometown like?
  • Hall & Murray: Do you play/watch sports? If so, which ones?
  • Georgia: Describe a difficult choice you’ve had to make.
  • Johnson: Write & answer your own question!
  • Señor Bun: not a question, just saying hello and hoping you have a nice day! :)
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“What if my problem wasn’t that I don’t understand people but that I don’t like them? What if I was the kind of person who was obliged to hurt you for this? I mean physically. I think you’d have to believe afterward, if you could, that agreeing to participate and then backing out at the critical moment was a mistake. Because that’s what I’m telling you, as clearly as I can.”
Nightcrawler (2014) dir. Dan Gilroy