I'll Miss You...So Much~Jeon Jungkook
You knew the day was creeping around the corner. The day he had to leave.
It wasn’t a surprise two months before this day he came walking into your apartment. His shoulders low and his eyes red, he wasn’t in a talking mood. He didn’t hug you right away he just stood there, his eyes scanning over you. He was trying to engrave the happy look you had as you spoke on the phone with a friend, the way your hair was falling into your eyes. He couldn’t stop the tears that fell down his face. This was the first time he was leaving without you and he didn’t know how to break it to you.
When your eyes met his you felt a shift leaving the phone call you turn to him. His voice was caught as you asked him what was wrong, he couldn’t speak. So he just walked to you and sat down his body down falling into your lap making you jump. His face was buried in you stomach, his arms around you as he cried. To say you were surprised by his actions was a understatement. When the words actually left his mouth you froze your hands in his hair, mouth parted as he looked up at you. When you finally spoke he was blow away, you had taken the news diffrent then he thought, you understood. It was his job, his life you knew him going away on tour was always going to be in the cards. So you didn’t take it to heart, you knew you’d find ways to surprise him on tour. You knew you’d see eachother.
But just because that night was easy to get through doesn’t mean him actually leaving was.
Standing at your bedroom doorway watching him finish packing the last of his personal stuff made your eyes water. As if he knew his eyes look up at you and he rushes over. His arms wrapping around you lifting you off of the ground. “You’re taking me…right?” His question was soft spoken as you pull away whipping the fallen tears you smile and nod.
“Till the last second I’m going to be with you.” He gave you a smile as he looked at the time and frowned. It was time to leave, grabbing your keys you turn to see the two bags he had packed following you out it was silent as he held onto your hand as tight as he could.
The drive was quiet, his hand on your thigh as you drove his eyes studying you. The small pink tint you always had on your cheeks or the nervous habbit of chewing on your inner cheek you did. He wanted to engraved the way you looked, smelt and felt in his brain so he could never forget even for a second.
As you pull up you smile at him, watching him get out you follow along. His hand grabbing yours as he sees the others, all waiting for you two. As he races to them with you trailing behind him hand still in his made you smile. His child like personality comming through when he saw his friends. Placing his bags with their's he lets you go making Namjoon and Jin jump to hug you. Light laughter filled the air as you pull away only to be pulled into more hugs, the last who hug you was Jimim a frown on your face as you did so.
“Make sure he’s happy chimchim.” You whisper in his ear making him pull back and smile, he watches Jungkook from behind you speaking to Suga and Tae a small broken smile on his face.
“I’ll give him extra hugs.” His smile was large as he pulls you back into another hug. When he pulls away arms wrap around from behind you, a nose nuzzling into you neck. Letting out a soft sigh you turn around and hug him, his sent makimg your head spin. You eyes began to water when you heard they’re manger calling ten minutes till they need to leave.
“I love you, kookie.” You whisper into his neck, standing so close to him made you want to dream lf the day he wouldn’t have to leave you all alone for months.
“I love you too, Jagiya.” His voice broke of as he pulls his head away from your neck. His eyes trying to met yours but all you could was hang your head as you cried. The sight alone made his heart shatter but the noise that came out of your mouth made it feel as if someone stepped on the broken pieces. “Hey don’t cry…please your tears hurt me more then you think.” He pauses as you look up and whip at your eyes, a small frown as his thumbs run over youe cheeks a few times, whipping away the tears that stayed.“Smile for me, please. Smile. I want to see it before I leave. Not your tears.” His words made more teats gloss your eyes as you throw yourself at him.
“Im going to miss you.” Your words were broken up as he pulled you away and pressed his lips against yours. One of his hand holding your neck as the trails down your side. Your hands tangled in his hair as your lips moved togther. The feeling of his on yours made both tour hearts flutter. The sound of whistles made you smile as you pulled away, tears still falling down yoyr face but not laughing was impossible with the boys around.
“I’ll miss you…so much.” His words were shaking as he let them out. A hand placed on his shoulder made it all to real as he shales his head. “I don’t want to go.” He whimpers as he shoves his face into your neck making you stumble back. His words making Hobi who had touch his should frown.
“Hey, hey look at me.” You mumbled rubbing your hands up and down his back. “Don’t say that. Don’t you say that. This is your dream Kookie. And hey..hey look at me.” You pause pulling his head from your neck,his eyes on yours the moment you he’s away from your skin. “I love you. So much so that you leaving will hurt, but it will be worth it..because you’ll be living your dream. And I can freely dance around in my underwear to your music, without you making fun of me.” He laughs as you cup his cheeks, making him nuzzle closer to you.“You also get a chance to make fun of Jimin everyday about how small he is.”
“Yah!” Jimin yells at you making you both laugh.
“I love you.”
“I love you too, now go. They need you.” Your words were soft as you drop your hand from his face. Pushing him, he is taking into Hobi and Jins arms as the walk to the gate. Your eyes falling to the floor as you turn and slolwy walk back to your car.
I’ll miss you…so so so much.