i may have cried while making this

Ok so because I hit 1.2k followers plus I had a few people want me to do one I’ve decided to do a follow forever!! Mutuals are in bold btw ^^


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Ok I think that’s everyone! I’m so sorry if I missed you cus tumblr was being a butt and not showing me everyone And now I’m gonna write a few extra messages ^^

To all of my mutuals:

I know I don’t talk much, but just know that I appreciate you all so much. I wish I could talk to you all more but I’m a shy and awkward bean yes I said bean Really I love you all and thank you for following me <3 <3 <3


Chey!! We’ve been mutuals for sooo long. I remember getting tagged in so much Jackson posts and tags lol. Your texts and snaps give me life, no lie, and I love your sense of humor. I love you so much and I will always consider you a really great friend no matter what <3


Elena my #1 hoe lol. We met when you sent me an anon and I will forever remember that day just because of you. We fight over some things but you’re one of my best friends and I love you so so so so so much. You can make me laugh and smile even when I’m pissed off lol and I thank you for that <3


Logan! ^^ God it feels like we have been mutuals forever lol I read your message in your follow forever and I felt so happy! And the quality Rocky content I get to see because of you is something I will forever love. But hey you go on an be a nctzen lol <3


Ok so I followed your blog a really looong time ago lol and I’ve always love your writing. Ngl when I saw you followed me back I was super happy to the point of fangirling lol Plus you know PENGUIN LOVE I still read your stuff to this day and I still love it so much <3

All in all, I’m so happy that I made it to 1.2k followers here starting way back when I was jacksons-smile. It’s been a long journey and I’m super excited to keep going on it with all of my followers and mutuals!! I love each and every one of you so much that you can’t even possibly understand, and I hope you have a wonder day/night!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

The most important things are the hardest things to say. They are the things you get ashamed of, because words diminish them — words shrink things that seemed limitless when they were in your head to no more than living size when they’re brought out. But it’s more than that, isn’t it? The most important things lie too close to wherever your secret heart is buried, like landmarks to a treasure your enemies would love to steal away. And you may make revelations that cost you dearly only to have people look at you in a funny way, not understanding what you’ve said at all, or why you thought it was so important that you almost cried while you were saying it. That’s the worst, I think. When the secret stays locked within not for want of a teller, but for want of an understanding ear.
—  Stephen King
Concept Evaluation Performance Spoilers

Oh Little Girl

  • prettiest stage
  • Jung Sewoon’s voice was the prettiest, although Lee Gunhee’s voice was pretty too
  • Lee Euiwoong’s face, dance, and rap was perfect; his dance style was perfect for the choreography of the song
  • Bae Jinyoung’s face was really pretty, had light makeup on but it suited him well, was very energetic, and during his parts, he showed off his charms; even with contact lenses on, his face was so small you have to go closer to his face, he wasn’t nervous at all
  • Choi Minki was the focus of the stage, he’s like a real man, he will go up ranks for sure
  • Gunhee’s voice was a must for the team, his dance and singing was really good
  • Park Jihoon was cute, sexy, and prefect in real life
  • Ahn Hyungseob did lots of aegyo and sent many hearts, and Euiwoong went crazy with hearts, flying kisses, and bright smiles 
  • Jinyoung, Jihoon, and Minki did their puppy pose from their entrance together


  • OP could not hear the full song because they kept on cutting their rehearsal to redo and rewatch how they did
  • Kang Dongho looks like he lost a lot of weight, was so handsome, his voice supported the song perfectly, an amazing vocal
  • Takada Kenta’s face was really pretty, had light makeup on but it suited him well, he flew on stage
  • For the actual stage, Yoo Seonho wore a black suit, he opened it and did body rolls and lied down on the floor (please do not sexualize him)
  • BoA asked what kind of song 열어줘 is, and Seonho said it was a sexy and inappropriate song
  • Kang Daniel’s killing part was throwing off his jacket and body wave
  • Kim Yongguk did really well in the rehearsals, he sweat a lot while dancing, his dancing was very good
  • Kenta and Yongguk suit the concept the best
  • Open stage was very sexy and mostly contains body waves
  • audience asked for an encore


  • Park Woojin was in really bad condition today, he caught the shingles and wore an eyepatch, his face was swollen
  • Hwang Minhyun’s visuals need to be praised, at the end his smile…
  • Lee Daehwi’s voice suited the song very well
  • OP thinks Kim Jaehwan will suprise everyone
  • Kim Jonghyun’s visuals was very handsome and his visuals were 100, his expressions killed, seemed to understand the song very well
  • Lai Guanlin made a huge mistake in the choreography (another OP said it wasn’t that huge, it depends on your own perspective)
  • Park Woojin and Guanlin rapped, and Ong Seongwu did the killing part
  • BoA asked something to Guanlin but he didn’t understand, so Daehwi explained it to him in English (i thought this was cute)


  • fireworks in the introduction and last chorus, paper strips fell at the end
  • Kim Samuel, Park Woodam, and Ha Sungwoon said this may be their last performance
  • OP cried while hearing Lee Woojin sing, “his voice brings back people from hell”
  • Samuel must have a mindset to improve, he was flying on stage

I Know You Know

  • Kwon Hyunbin’s skills keep increasing, this stage is the best one he did, makes your eyes keep going to him
  • Kim Taedong’s makeup looked amazing on him today, his dance was amazing, OP assumes his rank will move up a lot

translation credits: jinbutton, no_more_oppa

note: these spoilers may contain inaccurate information as they are just translations from others; some of the spoilers are from an OP that saw their rehearsal, not the actual performance


This is for the anon who requested the bipolar disorders one around a few weeks ago, I am sorry for the long wait but it is finally done and I really do connect to this story so much. I hope you will enjoy it xx

Eyes fixed on the floor, her arms wrapped around herself, Y/N was sitting on the couch with her friends all around her but still she felt all alone. She was trapped in her own silence, despite the loud laughs coming from her best friends. She had tried to stay focused, to pay attention but her mind couldn’t help but drag her away. Her emotions were usually all mixed up but at this exact moment, she couldn’t feel a fucking thing. And when you think about it, what’s worse than feeling too much or not enough? Feeling nothing at all. She had everything to be happy about. A loving boyfriend. Some pretty incredible friends. A job that she was glad to have. But her mental illness was destroying everything around her, including her own happiness. Because one minute she’s sunny then the next, she’s pouring down rain.

She flinched as she felt someone nudged their shoulder with hers and she looked up, between the confused glances of the boys. She slightly jumped at the feeling of a hand on her knee and she looked up to the man that owned her heart, a worried look directed towards her. “Is everything okay?” Jack asked, his blue-eyes darting over her face and he could tell that something was wrong. “Yeah, I’m just really tired.” Y/N said, sending him a smile and he smiled back, dropping a kiss to the top of her head. “Do you want me to drive you home?” Jack offered, grabbing hold of her hand before intertwining their fingers together. Y/N looked at their locked hands, Jack brushing his thumb gently against hers, before looking up to meet Conor’s eyes and the older boy instantly knew. “Actually, I need to go home to work on something so maybe I can drop you on my way if you want.” Conor offered, getting up to put his jacket back on. “Are you sure?” Jack asked, frowning at this brother. Y/N got up, letting go of his hand and Jack frowned even more. “Yeah, I don’t mind.” Conor simply shrugged, exchanging a look with Y/N. The other boys were still sending them confused looks and Y/N bend down to press a quick kiss on Jack’s lips. “I’ll see you later.” She smiled at him before both Conor and her were out of the flat.

A heavy silence suddenly fell over the whole apartment. “Don’t you think it’s weird?” Josh asked, the question directed to Jack and the 22-year-old boy frowned once again. “What is?” Jack replied, confusion itched across his face as the others boys all looked at each other. “How Conor is spending more time with your girlfriend then you are!” Oli scoffed as if his statement was evident and Jack rolled his eyes. “What are you saying?” Jack questioned, a slight hint of annoyance in his voice. “Just that your brother and your girlfriend are really close and that’s not normal, mate.” Josh explained, not mentioning the word that Jack probably wouldn’t want to hear anyway. “Come on, they’ve know each other for years. I wouldn’t even be with her now if it wasn’t thanks to him.” Jack admitted, getting up to put his jacket back on. “We don’t want you to be hurt, bro.” Joe stated, smiling up at this friend but the fake blonde boy sighed before taking his keys. “I know but they both wouldn’t do this to me.” Jack said, his chest tightening at the thought of what they could be doing. “Where are you going?” Josh asked, watching his friend get ready to leave. “Just grabbing something at mine. I’ll be back soon.” Jack smiled at them before walking out of the flat and hopping into his car, driving where he knew he probably shouldn’t.

And Jack was right because as he arrived at his girlfriend’s flat, he was surprised to see Conor’s car parked there. He felt himself fill with nerves as he was hoping that his mates were wrong all the way. He quickly climbed the stairs to her floor and he frowned as the door was slightly opened which was unusual. He pushed the door open slowly and froze as he heard his brother’s voice. 

“You need to tell him, Y/N.” Conor snapped, a slight hint of anger in his voice. And Jack felt his heart shrink, the boys were right and he had been blind. “He loves you. That’s not fair to him.” Conor continued, his voice now soft as he made a step towards her. It went silent for a moment and Jack was about to walk in, his veins popping from the anger but stopped at her next words. “I didn’t took it this morning, Con.”Y/N said, a voice crack escaping her throat and Jack felt his heart break even more. Was she talking about the pill? Conor stepped towards her, wrapping his arm around her in comfort. It was too much for him to handle. 

He violently closed the door behind him, walking furiously in the living room, eyeing the both of them. “So how has it been since you two are seeing each other, huh?” Jack snapped, his stare cold on his older brother. Conor immediately stepped away her, a soft look on his sibling. Conor knew this would happen. “I can’t believe I didn’t see it! You and my brother? Y/N,really?” Jack yelled, this time looking over at her who had tears streaming down her face. “Don’t yell at her!” Conor said, getting in front of her protectively. “I can’t believe you’d do that to me.” Jack said, his tone harsh, pushing him slightly. “Why? What did I do to you? Was I not good enough?” He said, his eyes meeting hers. She was sobbing and he didn’t know what to do. “We’re not seeing each other, you idiot!” Conor snapped at him, pushing him back and his eyes turned from anger to confusion. Conor reached out for something behind him and handed it to Jack.

Jack frowned at the orange box that was in his hands and his eyes fell on the writing. 

Y/N Y/L/N. 

Bipolar disorders. 

Last visit : 02/25/2017

His anger waved off and was replaced by guilt because he had been wrong. So wrong.

Conor looked between the two of them before dropping a kiss to the top of Y/N’s head. “I’ll call you.” Conor stated, giving her a soft smile before walking out of the flat, leaving a heavy silence hanging in the air.

He put the small box down and walked closer to her, brushing his fingers on her bare arm and her eyes were locked onto the ground. “Why didn’t you tell me?” Jack asked, hesitantly but she still was staring at the hard wood floor. “Conor has always known and it was already a burden for him, even before I knew you. I didn’t want you to be invested in this mess that I am.” She admitted, her voice weak as she moved away from him, passing a hand through her hair. “It’s too late for that.” Jack said, watching her intensely, seeing a part of her that he had never seen before. “You can still walk away while you can.” She said, crossing her arms as she was fighting the new tears forming in her eyes. “I never will.” Jack admitted, stepping towards her, taking her hand in his. “You don’t have to ashamed about it, it makes you who you are.” He started, brushing his fingers against her cheek. “I can imagine how much it sucks but you can fight it. And I will help you with that. Because you may be a mess, but you are my mess.” Jack finished and Y/N wrapped her arms around him, letting her emotions out as she cried onto him for a while. 

“I’m sorry for not telling you.” Y/N mumbled between her tears and Jack kissed the top of her head gently. “I’m sorry for thinking that you were cheating on me with my brother. That was childish.” Jack said, smiling as he felt himself relax after being on such an emotional roller coaster. “It was.” She said, wiping her eyes quickly, giving him a soft smile and he leaned in to give her a soft kiss. “Keep that smile right there, okay?” Jack asked but it sounded more like an affirmation.

 And with the nod that Y/N gave her, he knew that it would all be fine because he was there for her. There was no cheating. Just a beautiful messed up girl that would be alright because she had the best persons by her side.

The most important things are the hardest to say. They are the things you get ashamed of, because words diminish them — words shrink things that seemed limitless when they were in your head to no more than living size when they’re brought out. But it’s more than that, isn’t it? The most important things lie too close to wherever your secret heart is buried, like landmarks to a treasure your enemies would love to steal away. And you may make revelations that cost you dearly only to have people look at you in a funny way, not understanding what you’ve said at all, or why you thought it was so important that you almost cried while you were saying it. That’s the worst, I think. When the secret stays locked within not for want of a tellar but for want of an understanding ear.
—  Stephen King
Personal Jesus - REDDIE

songs listened to while writing this (i also suggest you listening to them too to get the vibe please!!!): personal jesus - depeche mode, daddy issues - the neighbourhood, fallingforyou - the 1975, antichrist - the 1975

hey guys! soon i may or may not have definitely cried while writing this (thanks to the music) so i really really hope you all enjoy it. but anyways yeahhhh ok bye

word count - 1.1k

warnings - literally the slightest mention of richie’s parents, uhhh a little bit of making out even tho i don’t really count this, mention of (dry) blood. (some of these you might think are stupid but i know i have some ‘weird’ triggers so i like to write down everything i think of)

DISCLAIMER!!! These boys are aged up to ab 17 in this okay? I know this whole “don’t sexualize these boys!!!!” thing is real B U T, if you’ve read the book and seen the movies, you can clearly see there are plenty of sexual innuendos. PLUS, these kids are smoking and drinking and shit so if you think that writing ab sexual things even AFTER aging them up is bad, just move on. Plus, we’re writing about their characters, not about the real boys. ANYWAYS, happy reading :-)

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You’ve Got One Voicemail

Prompt: Imagine Spencer leaving you a message when he develops anthrax poisoning.

“Umm, hey, Y/N. I hoped I never would have to do this, but here it goes. If you’re getting this, it means things have turned for the worse. I’m leaving this for Garcia to send you only if it looks like I might not survive this. We’re looking for an unsub that is poisoning people with anthrax. I’ve had a vaccine, but if you get this it probably means that the vaccine didn’t work.

“I just wanted to call you to let you know, well, do you remember that night a few weeks ago when we were supposed to meet up for dinner, but I had a case? Instead of pressuring me to go out you showed up at my place with some take out and the Doctor Who box set and we just sat around and talked and watched tv. There was a point in the night when you had just fallen asleep leaning against me and I looked down and I realized that I loved you and I wanted to spend my life with you. I went out and got a ring the next day.

“I just wish I told you how much I loved you, Y/N. You’re amazing: you’re smart, beautiful, and all around perfect and for some reason you choose to be with me. I still don’t know why you do, but if I do get out of this I’m going to make sure to cherish you everyday and tell you in some way that I truly love you. If you do get this message, please don’t blame anybody but me for being reckless when I entered this house. I just wanted to make sure you know how much I love you. If you get this message, you should go into my top drawer at work and you’ll find a ring. Please take it and remember me, but still live your life. I just-I-I love you, Y/N. Alright, Garcia, I’m done.”

End of message.

Rewriting the Past - three

Originally posted by blondejongin

Pairing: ReaderxBaekhyun

Word count: 1.6k

Summary: Baekhyun was your first love when you were sixteen. It was passionate, hot, and messy. But all of that ended six years ago, after a four-year battle for your relationship. Now, you’re twenty-six years old and still reeling from the relationship when suddenly, Baekhyun shows up on your doorstep.

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