i made you the thing mom!!!

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Savannah: So, I just had to ask something, are you the one that made those delicious macarons that are upstairs in the kitchen?

Vivian: Yeah, I am. My mom’s a chef and she’s kinda been teaching me a thing or two. I’m glad that you like them and that they came out okay, they’re my favorite!

Savannah: Yeahh, I can tell. (chuckles)

Vivian: What - what is that supposed to mean?…

anonymous asked:

I wish my mom was like that.,,,, I told her about YouTube and I wanted to try and I got looked at like I was crazy.

the thing is all i said to her was “look the book that i made for dodie is in her snapchat she didn’t throw it away” and my mum just went and said what she did,,,, what a gal

I made dinner. But things were really odd & up in the air about when they were leaving so there wasn’t enough food. I mean there was enough food, but not to my standards. Not everyone could have seconds if they wanted and I’m not sure the men had enough even though the extra chicken went to them. Basically if I don’t have leftovers I haven’t cooked enough bc SOMEONE could be left wanting. And we ate EARLY so they could get out at a decent time.

This was a long way of saying I’m hungry again and I’m gonna make nachos.

Why Yuri on Ice is so fucking important

I mean the obvious reason is canon queer couple who are supportive and deeply in love:

But there is a lot more as to why their relationship is so important.

Yuri struggles badly with anxiety, self esteem issues and I would argue depressive tendencies. 

A lot of his coping techniques we see are similar to ones I employ or have employed

He cries alone, not wanting other people…not even his mom to know how much pain he’s in 

He engages in physical activity when anxious probably because he can’t sit still (know the feeling which is made worse by not actually able to be active in my case)

He clearly has panic attacks

Later when Victor accidentally triggers Yuri’s feelings of worthlessness and inadequacy he shuts down completely which is a defensive strategy I am all too familiar with. It’s an attempt to keep from breaking down completely by going numb and withdrawing from the world around you even though it fucks things up even more.

but Victor in this case does the right thing and pushes Yuri just enough. He opens up and give Yuri space to come to him on his terms.  When Yuri does talk it out with Victor he reveals his fear of appearing weak. 

I used to be obsessed with this.  I’m less so now and other negative thoughts have become stronger but for a long time I hated opening up about my thoughts or feelings and really hated anyone’s attempts to draw me out. My husband was the first one who could see past my attempts at pretending to be fine or to shut him out and instead managed to draw me out.  He did it a similar way to Victor by just being there going “I know you’re not okay but I’m not going anywhere…talk to me about it please.” and that felt not like an intrusion or him feeling I was weak (and he told me he didn’t see me that way in the same way Victor does here) instead he was, like Victor here, a wall I could lean against.

Which leads me to Episode 7. 

Here we have Victor fucking up big time. He thinks tough love might motivate Yuri and here’s the thing.  That would have broken episode 4 Yuri but episode 7 Yuri knows Victor is lying and is pissed and hurt…but he says that.  He feels strong enough to confront his lover (and they are lovers already by this point because come on!) and say clearly “You fucked up!”

This is so important because he calls Victor out on his fuck up and reveals his fears but at the same time is able to recognise it’s an irrational fear and that he does trust Victor’s feelings.

He is able to clearly talk back to his lover, declare his needs and Victor fucking listened which is also really important.  He could have kept it going after all, he was looking to shatter Yuri’s heart as a motivational thing but as soon as it actually happened he backed down with a “I made a huge mistake!” reaction which is great and why I kind of love “I don’t understand humans” Victor.

But then we have Yuri’s thoughts during the program:

he’s not upset that Victor saw him cry or wondering what Victor thought of him because he’s okay with crying in front of Victor.  He’s just glad he got the tension out of him. That’s a big deal and shows how much faith he has in Victor as a partner

In fact he even thinks Victor’s panic was a little funny which is huge growth. 

Which is why we get the next bit:

He’s not blaming himself for their fight like I think he would have done in the past. He knows Victor fucked up and is able to see that.  That’s a huge leap forward.

The tone he uses here is interesting because he’s acknowledging his issues without rancour or self hatred.  Just a statement of fact that he has issues and it’s not news and he thinks Victor should be ready to handle it and is willing to see it’s not just his problem but Victor’s as well.

Yuri doesn’t skate perfectly here but he skates well and better then he expected because he got out what he needed to during the fight and now feels emotionally lighter for it. He’s still a little annoyed with Victor but he’s not angry, not really. He knows Victor is remorseful and doesn’t want to leave him so instead he thinks about getting his revenge by surprising Victor with the quad flip. He’s again thinking more about Victor and their relationship so that he manages to better in his routine then usual.

That’s a huge sign of both Yuri’s growth as an individual he’s able to recognise his anxiety and confidence problems and also recognise when his fears are irrational and still have faith that his boyfriend/coach will be there for him.  He’s surprised by the kiss at the end I think because of the venue but that look at the end when they are so in love gets me every time.  

I love that we have such a healthy dynamic between these two that even when one of them fucks up they fix it by communicating and are stronger for it.

That’s why it’s so important.  Yuri’s growth as a person dealing with chronic anxiety and poor self esteem and the like is very very real and Victor is so good for him but he’s good for “I don’t know how to human” Victor who from what we’ve heard from other’s is not known for caring about other people. Christophe says it and Yakov says it.  That he’s selfish…but that’s not what we see with Yuri.  We see a Victor who is trying so hard but fucking up and then trying harder because he loves him so much.

God they are the best couple on tv ever

The signs as things my dad has said to me

Aries: “Tell the cops to wait, I’m playing Call of Duty.”

Taurus: “Fuck it, I’m going to Canada.”

Gemini: “COME HOME THIS INSTANT I ACCIDENTALLY MADE 144 COOKIES.”

Cancer:  (playing cod) “I can’t hear you over the sound of me kicking all these twelve-year-olds’ asses.”

Leo: (pointing to a bruise on my hand) “Is that a hickey?”

Virgo:  “Don’t tell your mom, but I’m happy for the gays.”

Libra: “Sad movies are dumb.  I don’t want to pay ten dollars to cry for two hours.  I do that every day for free.”

Scorpio: “I want the board to change my job title from CEO to supreme leader.”

Saggitarius: “The only reason I have a facebook is to embarass your mom.”

Capricorn: “I have a crush on Eric Dane.”

Aquarius: “I’m hiding from your mother because I just told her to fight me and I’m scared she’ll win.”

Pisces: “When I die, make sure I get a viking funeral.  If I’m getting cremated, I’m getting cremated like a badass.”

I ran out of toothpaste today and I know it’s silly but I thought of you because you always reminded me to buy more and you always made things easier.
I’m just trying to take care of myself without you.
I’m just trying to breathe without you.
But it’s gotten harder since I remember the way you said ‘I love you’ and nobody holds me like you did.
And my mom says that if it’s mean to be it will be but you don’t see it the way I do and I wish I never met you so I could forget how you slept next to me so I wouldn’t need a random stranger in your spot.
What I’m trying to say is I ran out of toothpaste and it’s been months since I’ve heard your voice but I can still hear the way you said my name when I think of you.
—  Nobody Could Replace You

ok but philip shea literally comforted and supported lukas through his PTSD without breaking down himself because “i kept my cool for my mom, i can do it for you too”, he forgave lukas for all of the asshole things he did because he knows lukas was terrified and didn’t mean any of it, he kept everything a secret just for lukas even though he didn’t want to, and then when lukas was finally comfortable with himself and his relationship with philip, philip took cute polaroid pictures of him and made them a playlist to listen to while they cuddled in a barn. get you a philip shea he’ll treat you right.

I don’t know if I will have the time to write any more letters, because I might be too busy trying to participate. So, if this does end up being the last letter, I just want you to know that I was in a bad place before I started high school, and you helped me. Even if you didn’t know what I was talking about, or know someone who’s gone through it, you made me not feel alone. Because I know there are people who say all these things don’t happen. And there are people who forget what it’s like to be sixteen when they turn seventeen. I know these will all be stories some day, and our pictures will become old photographs. We all become somebody’s mom or dad. But right now, these moments are not stories. This is happening. I am here, and I am looking at her. And she is so beautiful. I can see it. This one moment when you know you’re not a sad story. You are alive. And you stand up and see the lights on the buildings and everything that makes you wonder. And you’re listening to that song, and that drive with the people who you love most in this world. And in this moment, I swear, we are infinite.
—  The Perks of Being a Wallflower (seex)
Iconic Bigbang quotes
  • happy birthday bro - T.O.P & Taeyang
  • skkuurrrrtttttt - GD
  • dope video, congratz - Taeyang the troll
  • everything, you guys are my everything - Seungri
  • ssmeeeeelllll - Ahjumma Daesung
  • you liiiiike ? - T.O.P
  • food is the most important thing in my life -T.O.P
  • our seungri sings well - proud mom kwon jiyong
  • Ever since I was little, I liked chairs - T.O.P, the chair enthusiast
  • I’d like to thank the man who passed out and made this art possible and I’d also like to thank the sunset - Taeyang, instagram photographer

(feel free to add more!)

*watching ice skating competition with my family*
  • Me: Wow! That triple axel was amazing! Even though, I would really like to see a quadruple axel in competition.
  • Mom: How come you know so many things about ice skating?
  • Me: Well, I'm kind of obsessed with it
  • Mom: And what made you obsessed?
  • Me *sweats*
My Timeline of Top Surgery & Recovery with Dr. Raphael in Plano, Texas.

This is just a master post of my top surgery experience & recovery. I had double incision mastectomy with nipple grafts in Feb of 2016. I also had lipo. The total was $6,750 ($6,000 for the masc and $750 for the lipo on the sides.)
Pictures will be made available at request.

Pre-Op:

  • Because I do not live in the Plano area I drove 5 hours to Plano the day before my surgery and had my pre-op apt that same day.
  • At pre-op I met with one of the nurses and with Dr. Raphael. This is your opportunity to talk to him about your chest, incisions, to bring up concerns and so on. In my case, my mom asked all the questions because she wasn’t as versed as I was on what was going on. 
  • At pre-op they give you a lot of things to sign, they take before photos, and just go over the basic run down of everything you need to do before surgery.
  • Try to plan your pre-op apt as early as possible that day. You will have to go get your prescriptions the day before your surgery and you don’t want to run into the pharmacy closing on you or any issues with the pharmacy not accepting the scripts. I went to Walgreens to get mine filled and they gave me a hard time which led to an hour run around between Walgreens and the doctors office.
  • I was prescribed extra medicines because I had issues with nausea in previous surgeries. If you have concerns about nausea tell the nurse at your pre op and they will get you what you need to prevent you from getting sick. They will walk you through possible medicines you may need based on your medical history and/or allergies you have.
  • The anesthesiologist will call you the night before your surgery. They will tell you not to eat anything too heavy for dinner and to make sure it is pretty bland. I couldn’t eat any dairy either. Also, clear liquids for the most part. Of course they advised me not to eat after 10pm for safety. 
  • Make sure you have a support system with you. First of, you can not have surgery without someone to be with you but I took my mom, my best friend and his brother with me. The surgery center also will not let you have surgery without people to care for you afterwards.
  • Pack or get yourself some button up shirts. You will not be able to get into t-shirt well if at all that first week or so. If you are trying to get into t-shirts that first week you will more than likely pull something as you are not supposed to be lifting your arms at all. (Think about the arm range of a T-Rex. That will be you.)
  • I am a pretty hairy individual so I shaved my chest a couple days prior to surgery. About a week before surgery you should start prepping your body for surgery. You will wash your chest with Betadine Skin Cleanser. You should get this information when you set your surgery date. If you don’t get it, email the office.
  • You will take 500mg of Vitamin C daily in addition to any multi vitamin you may be taking. DO NOT take any extra Vitamin E because it may cause some bleeding.
  • Do NOT take any aspirin or ibuprofen one week prior to surgery and up to two weeks after surgery. (i.e. Bufferin, Anacin, Advil, Motrin, Datril, Excedrin, Anacin-free, etc.)
  • NO SMOKING. Especially 1 week prior and two weeks after surgery.
  • Also, you will have to stop testosterone 2 weeks prior to surgery.

Surgery:

  • My surgery was at 7am and lasted about 3 hours according to my best friend.
  • When you get there you will check in at surgery check in desk on your right after you go through the doors.
  • When they call you back you will change out of your clothes into the hospital gown and socks. (I took this opportunity to take my last selfie in my binder.)
  • You then will be escorted to your surgery bed. The nurses will get you all cozy and warm (I personally overheat easily so I had to have them cool me down a little bit) and start your IV. The anesthesiologist will make an appearance to just walk you through some things. Dr. Raphael will also come in and draw the incision marks and other surgery related things on you.
  • After everything they will use your IV to put you to sleep and start wheeling you to the surgery room. I remember being wheeled to the back and everyone being all smiles. I knocked out right when then they put me on the surgery table.


Post-Op:

  • I woke up and I only remember them asking me if I wanted something to drink (sprite? ginger ale?). I also remember being wheeled out to the car and my best friend and his brother getting me in the car. I remember being placed in the bed in the room. I remember taking a post op selfie and being able to use the restroom by myself.
  • Wearing sweat pants and/or athletic shorts are a must after surgery.
  • My first meal after surgery was mashed potatoes and gravy. Something pretty light is always best.
  • You can only sleep on your back and you have to sleep elevated.
  • I personally had a problem staying awake the first 3 days after surgery or so. I would fall asleep in the middle of doing things. 
  • You will have a post op the day after surgery. Here they will teach you and whoever taking care of you how to care for your dressings for the next week.
  • Your chest is dressed with pads to soak any blood from your incisions. If you had lipo you will have a half pad on those entry points below incisions. Over that is 2 ace bandages that are wrapped tight to deal with swelling. (They are meant to be tight but if you have trouble breathing then loosen them. They are there for support.) The ace bandages will be wrapped over your chest and your lipo points. The ace bandages stay on majority of the time unless you are changing the pads. DO NOT MESS WITH YOUR TAPES OR ANY OTHER BANDAGES! Only change the pads once a day.
  • Dr. Raphael does not use drains.
  • I developed a minor rash around my lipo points because I had to much moisture there from the neosporin. If that happens to you stop putting the neosporin there.
  • At your one week appointment they will remove the dressings and you will see your chest for the first time.
  • Reveal day is very emotional for most people and I knew that I would forget everything that the nurses told me in terms of my continued aftercare. My tip is to have someone record the entire exchange so you can re-listen to the aftercare instructions later.
  • At one week I was told I could drive again, I could sleep on my sides, I could shower again, and that I could wear t-shirts again. (I personally waited to drive longer than that though because I did not feel comfortable at all.)
  • You will continue to wear the ace bandages for a month. It’s hard to think about binding after surgery but its to contain swelling, so don’t cheat your recovery.
  • For your nipple care, you will be given Adaptic (non-adhering dressing) that is meant to keep your nips moist. you will apply some vasoline to the Adaptic. Then you cover that with a gauze pad and medical tape or fabric tape. (All things you can find in the first aid aisle at the store. The nurses will give you some to get started.) You will do this until you run out of the Adaptic they give you. Which should be about a month to 6 weeks.
  • The tapes on your incisions will fall off on their own. Don’t pull them off. They should all fall off on their own around 4 weeks to 6 weeks.
  • After they fall off you will place provided silicone strips for your scars for a while.
  • At the time of surgery, I was delivering pizzas for a living. I will admit that I jumped the gun on returning to work too early. I ended up going back after 3 or 4 weeks. When you can go back is determined by what kind of work you can do.
  • At 6 weeks, my left nipple looked to have healed wonderfully. I pulled the last of my visible sutures, as instructed, that day. My right nipple still had a little spot to heal but seemed to be healing just fine.

Random Tips:

  • If you have a hard time taking pills like I do. You can try taking them with apple sauce.
  • Make sure you have Miralax and Fiber. Pooping after surgery is really important because the pain meds will stop you up.
  • Don’t over do it. Sit down and rest. I am the type of person that will do everything but I can not stress how important it is to sit down and rest and not try to be Superman. Watch your range of motion, even if it feels, “just fine”. It will have effects on your healing.
  • Netflix. Netflix. Netflix.
  • I don’t hear this referenced too much but for those of you who play instruments, I play violin among others, I would suggest waiting the entire 6 weeks before playing again. 

The nurses will honestly give you everything that you need for recovery. There is no need to worry about recovery supplies. They really give you everything. Make sure you read all of the paperwork they give you in terms of pre op and post op. I did have surgery in Feb of 2016 so things make have slightly changed. This is also MY experience and MY experience alone. My health is different than yours so please listen to the nurses and doctors. I shared my experience to help others have an idea on what to roughly expect.

If you have any questions, feel free to message me or send me asks!

1. The first time I kissed you, it was barely a peck. You made me nervous but in a good way like no one had before. You laughed and told me it was cute.
2. I tried to sleep over at your house but your mom caught us at 2am and sent me home. She never liked me much after that.
3. The waiteress at Olive Garden shot us snobby looks when we both only ordered chicken gnocchi and water.
4. We drove around town blaring an old Drake album and belted our hearts to the second verse of track two. We must have played it a thousand times.
5. I went down on you for the first time in the basement bathroom with our friends in the next room.
6. You left town for two days and I swear I have never missed a person so much. I could feel it in my bones.
7. You snuck out your bedroom window to meet me in the jeep. We parked and I should’ve been scared of getting caught but you always had a strange way of calming me.
8. You started spending so much time at my house we had to buy groceries for you.
9. We skipped class to have sex and when we came back I swear everyone saw it on our faces. You got me my first detention that day, but it was worth it.
10. We went to a water park and you screamed like a little kid on all the slides. I had to hold your hand.
11. We took a three day trip and shared a hotel bed with dingy white sheets. I fell in love with you there in that poorly lit room.
—  11 things we did when we were 18
@needumost
Signs as Things My Friend’s Brother Has Said

Aries: You’re just mad because my memes are spicier than yours

Taurus: Your name’s not Bob, scuttaloo

Gemini: Don’t worry about your memes, dude, your memes are dank

Cancer: Don’t assume things- it’s bad for your reputation

Leo: Tell me all your secrets

Virgo: I know how words work, you don’t

Libra: Mom, touch Stella’s ear aggressively

Scorpio: Do you want to do late night squats with me?

Sagittarius: It is a party because, I, am bringing a pinata

Capricorn: We put the bling in siblings

Aquarius: *Insert picture of sandwich* If God was a chef, he would have made this

Pisces: Someone threw a tampon at me :D

what she says: i love freeze your brain

what she means: If you look at Freeze Your Brain at face value, you could easily interperet it as simply about JD’s fixation on 7/11 and his issues oversharing. But it’s really more about a place that feels normal and familiar and safe in a frightening and new situation. It’s easy to overlook this, as a lot of the song is made to be comedic. Take the lines “When mom was alive/we lived halfway normal./Now it’s just me and my dad,/we’re less formal” for example. During the musical, it’s easy to focus more on Veronica freaking out than on JD’s words and their meaning. This is done intentionally, as if to show that JD hides how hurt he is about his mother’s death with other emotions, as many people do. Towards the end, it is shown that JD uses slushies to control a possible self-harm habit and self-destructive thoughts, and that’s when the gravity of the song hits you. Despite sounding light-hearted, Freeze Your Brain is about a teenager trying to hold onto the one place that makes him feel safe and happy no matter where he is. If you consider the possibility that his mother introduced him to 7/11, it’s also about trying to recapture childhood emotions, despite the fact that so many things have changed.

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“One thing I’ve had to work on is being really tough on myself. My mom says that when I was a kid she always felt bad punishing me because I always punished myself the worst when I made mistakes, locking myself in my room and feeling so bad I did something wrong or hurt someone. But when I’m writing, I can’t second-guess myself. You have to be confident enough to have ideas.”

After Yoi
  • Mom: What's with that sudden interest in ice skating
  • Mom: The dog's name is not ''Makkachin''
  • Mom: Why do you want to make history?
  • Mom: Who/what made you feel never enough?
  • Mom: Who set you heart on fire??/
  • Mom: ''Vkusno''?''Ciao ciao''?''Katsudon''?
  • Mom: No, we can't have a cat just to you call him ''Yurio''.
  • Mom: You are NOT a evil witch.
  • Mom: Round and golden things? Rings, gold medals,...
  • Mom: Yes, we only live once, no need to scream it.
  • Mom: I don't get it, why do you have to scream every wednesday?
  • Mom: No, today is not Wednesday yet...
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So guys. My fam is having a really hard time coming up with money for bills, and my mom hasnt been able to get a job yet. My anxiety has made me unable to go out for jobs so I really need help. My fam has gone to the point of selling things and we got bills out the ass..I REALLY need help right now guys and if you cant commission then please signal boost or spread this around. thank you guys!

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My mom’s waiting….Keep thinking what you’re thinking. I don’t have a choice.