i made this for my tumblr crush

What if there is no one
who is made to love me?
Someone who will hold me
when fear takes over my mind
or wakes me up at night
when terror finds its way into my dreams?
What if no one will ever look at me
the way I look at them
or need my presence to feel complete?
—  // What if I’m unloveable?
I love you
I love you a lot
I love you so much more than I’ve loved anyone or anything
But now it has started to hurt
It hurts to love you
It hurts to not be loved back even for a moment
And I can’t write this any further
Because the tears in my eyes have blurred my vision
And the pain in my heart has made it cold
—  One Sided Love/Pain // JustScribbledWords
I love you
I love you a lot
I love you so much more than I’ve loved anyone or anything
But now it has started to hurt
It hurts to love you
It hurts to not be loved back even for a moment
And I can’t write this any further
Because the tears in my eyes have blurred my vision
And the pain in my heart has made it cold
—  One Sided Love/Pain // JustScribbledWords
When I first met you, you didn’t catch my attention at all. You started talking to me. We would make sarcastic remarks towards each other, and you wouldn’t get offend. You made me laugh and just smile a lot. I couldn’t get you off my mind. Then I started getting excited to see you. I started getting butterflies around you. Started to laugh a little to hard at your jokes. Then one day it hit me. I like you. You became beautiful to my eye. The way you’d look at me, I knew you felt the same. I fell for you unexpectedly. Its the most beautiful and most horrible kind of way of falling for someone.
—  Crushing a little to hard
My dad writes a poem for my mom every Christmas, and she frames them and puts them up all over the house. I’ve always thought ‘That. That’s what love is. That’s what I want.’ Today, I went to a bakery with a boy and we talked and laughed about the silly little things we both do, and I learned that his laugh reminds me of fluttering wings and soaring so high you can do nothing but smile. We adventured through to the bookstore for hours and read and goofed off between the shelves, and I learned about the stories he’s made of and his terribly hilarious sense of humor. He told me he had always felt a little lonely as we walked around town with coffee, and when I grabbed his hand, it closed around mine like it was the easiest, most natural thing in the entire world. It felt like I was holding the moon. He shook hands with my father and I stood there smiling and thought, ‘This. This is what it feels like.’
—  It Feels Like This

Woo, another piece done!

My SO is a huge fan of the Resident Evil franchise. One of his childhood crushes was actually Claire Redfield (ʃƪ¬‿¬).

I’ve been meaning to do this piece for a long damn time, but I’m glad that I waited until my style had evolved to this point (also, with RE7 being out, it seemed like an appropriate time). There’s still a lot of progress I wanna make, but I’m pretty proud of this!

HEY! I haven’t uploaded anything to this tumblr for awhile mostly because my tumblr app stopped working and also I got an instagram for my art too so I sort of forgot about my tumblr… lol oops. Anyway, I made a few things since my last upload so I’ll be posting those here within the week. But HERE is a portrait I did of my current biggest celebrity crush- Lauren Jauregui of Fifth Harmony. I couldn’t resist; she’s got a great nose and bone structure and hair and eyes… she’s pretty much the perfect muse. I actually had so much fun painting her that I might even do the rest of the group… who knows?? Anyway I’ll be seeing more of you tumblr- I promise!


pairing: lin x reader

warnings: toxic relationships at the start. some cursing. mostly fluff.

summary: the three times saying ‘i love you’ was a mistake. the one time it wasn’t.

words: 1028.

notes: alright so ?? this is the first time i’ve written something xreader !! and the first time im posting my writing on tumblr !! i dont know if its good so i’d really appreciate some feedback<3 (also english isnt my first language so feel free to correct me if i made some mistakes!!)

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You made me doubt everything
and that was okay,
but now I do not even trust myself
and I cannot find a way

You are every answer
to questions I don’t know,
if this love could be my ending,
does this make you Romeo?

—  // imbroglio

I recently hit 500 followers on my main blog and 4k on my sideblog, so I decided to do a follow forever to thank the blogs that bring the gay great content to me!

Special shoutout to @karavzorel for making my banner and putting up with me in general. ♡

Shoutout to @myfriendsarevictorious for being my frist tumblr friend, my one and only name buddy @cap2 & my fellow redhead @chydanvers

My irl friends: @greenmeetingblue - @redphonebooth3 -  @wankelende  @letswastetimeagain - @sillydreamstar (and her art blog @dreamdazzle)

Friends I made on this site: (even if we haven’t talked in awhile) @llenaluthors - @pvelchekov - @licking-uranus - @pnycreative - @bwclexa @colinodoneghue - @carmilla-vampire-karnstein

Mutuals are bolded & my current tumblr crushes are in italics.

@alexmaggie - @aliciacarey - @alohamoraz @alyciadubnamcarey  @alyciajazmin - @ashrainbowmonkey - @attackofthepygmypuff @bobbywatson - @clarkeofthebikru - @commanderbitanic  @commanderlexaofthegrounders - @cosimacormier - @danverstrash  @danvhers - @decaheda - @decalexas - @deafclint @dichenlxchman

@elizasanvers - @geralehane - @hedaswarrior - @hedawolf - @isis-library @jacksonmayan @jennifersanistons - @karaluthors - @laynemorgan  @llenasluthor - @longlivetheheda - @missawyers - @natallieportman​  @nyssalghul - @onedayatatimenetflix​ - @ontari - @panagiota-k  

@queeralex - @rebell-ohne-grund - @rootxsam - @sawnvers - @snvers  @supahgays - @supercorpgayby- @swnews - @thehaughtcommander@thelittlealice​ - @toodrunktofindaurl - @velvetcinema - @wanhedaclexaa@wlws - @woeligewinterslaap - @wonderswoman - @1supergay1

Tumblr Milestone: 35K Followers

I have finally made it to 35,000 followers!!!!! I can’t believe it!!!! So I’m going to do something I have never done before x3 I’m going to give everyone my Tumblr Crushes ^^ So if you are on this list then I love your blogs!!!! I love all my followers <3 You’re all the greatest!!!

They are as following: @lolisarereligion 14%, @cute-girls-from-vns-anime-manga 5%, @laughoutloli 4%, @aoichan 3%, @mylolimoe 3%, @man-nona 3%, @phucnghinguyenhoang 3%, @acqua4 3%, @karutamo 2%

Title: Scars and Candy Bars

Word Count: 1186

Prompt: A Carl imagine where you’re Michonne’s badass niece and Carl has the biggest crush on you and everyone knows it, but you don’t like him back.. yet.

(( I absolutely love this request, it’s so cute! I based it off of 4x01. My requests are open so feel free to drop an idea. & tumblr might’ve just dicked up my formatting so I’m sorry ))

The sun began to peek out from behind the thick forestation surrounding your unique home. When the apocalypse started, your family lived with your aunt, Michonne, and her family at a refugee camp. Somehow, you both were the last ones standing, which made you very close.

It was early and all of the prison’s population were still asleep, but you decided it was a good time to get a head start on the fences. The air was fresh, the breeze carried the aroma of the crops Rick and Carl were growing, the combination almost masked the smell of rotting corpses. You picked up a sharp-ended cane from the rack and began taking out the crowd of walkers piled up against the fence. Before you knew it, hours had passed and people started emerging from their cell blocks to start the day. You noticed Rick working in the fields.

“Hey, (Y/N)!” Carl called out and waved to you while making his way toward his dad. You waved back, earning a giggle from Karen, who was working next to you.

“What?” You joked.

She simply looked at you a smirked before saying, “You really don’t know, do you?”

Before you could ask, you saw Michonne riding in, coming back from her search. You immediately hung up your tool and ran over to open the gates for her.

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today I:
• realized that back in The Day I totally had a crush on Uma Thurman and Hilary Duff but didn’t know it was a crush because of the Veil of Heteronormativity™
• had two different men at my job throw their tickets at me and snatched them back after I ripped them while five other grown men (at diff times) literally stood within 8 inches of me and made me want 2 scream and reminded me that I can’t stand men
• spilled my water bottle on my armpit
• actually finally made a blog rec list that backfired because tumblr is a piece of shit

The last day
of my Year.
Yet again
I rise up
into a new number

What have I done?
Who am I now?

Do I love myself more today, 
than yesterday?

Have I made myself proud,
have I been kind to myself?

When I was little, I always felt
sorry for the year I was finished with,
I couldn`t stand thinking about
my year crushed to dust,
so therefore I thought 
about myself, 
holding my old number
in my arms, 
gently putting it
to sleep,
and then it was crushed,
into the pile of crushed numbers
that was my eternal past.

Today I think
about all I should`ve done
the things I wish I could honour myself with
and this gives me a hint
of the things 
that I will regret, 
the day I am old,
and ready to wander off
into the eternal continuum. 

At least
I am happy,
for where I am 

(Even when in pain).

Thank you
for yet again
a year.

mewlly  asked:


🌚 = talk about my crush

weellllll,, as of right now I don’t have one anymore tbh,,, all di boys I used to like are all sh*t =////

📖 = tell a story

one day I was home alone and my mom and sister come in and my sister is holding a cactus. its so cute and she’s so happy about it and that made my day!! also the sunset that day waS SO good what a day!! (tHat was bad but it is true lmao)

💕 = tumblr friends

aahh man I think I’m gonna miss SOME BUT S&GDOVB:

@5egin @yoongs-bitch @clizastamusic @cryjeon @kooksgf @tggk @jimnsgr1 @starboygguk @hobitxt @jeongkug @4begin @arrozito @ydaegu @hob2 @sanasgf @4aehyung @el-perrito-super-gorditoo @99ml @yoomn @frstlv @1bf @1astlove @misokim @peachseokjins @1stlove @pjjms @1of1grl @jhopesplaylist @dewyjimin 💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕

thank you so much for the ask!!! 💕💗💕💖

hey i’ve been thinking a lot about the little things you do, your quirks, and things you do when you’re with me 
and how they affect me a lot
like the way you smile automatically when you’ve been hit on the face with a ray of sunshine

that time you told me i have a calming presence and it made my heart feel things i didn’t know were possible to feel
how you etch your fingers over my hand, and the touch lingers just a little longer than it should, but it does, and it does things to me
i play that time you came into a room, saw me,
and kissed my cheek and chin
over and over again in my head a lot
and wonder if it was just my imagination or it really happened
i think a lot about how you can’t really wink, but you wink at me anyway
and i feel like you’re the greatest winker in the world
if that’s even a word

i think a lot about those times you tell me about people you’re texting, people who think you’re beautiful
(but possibly not as much as I think you’re beautiful)
and i try my best not to get jealous
but remember that you tell me these because you trust me
and i try to put up a brave face

i also think a lot about the way you make me feel
like how every time things get dark, i know you are there
a light at the end of the tunnel, a source of joy and happiness
and everything good in life

i think of how every time we meet
i almost tell you i love you
but i don’t
because i want things to be the way they are
just for another day

—  a letter to my love i’ll possibly never send by @emotionsarecrazy

When I was in 1st grade, my best friend and I had a crush on the same guy.
He was our friend and I think he knew about it because we made it pretty obvious on a daily basis by doing whatever it is 6 year olds do when they have a crush.
This one school day, my best friend and I made him two separate cards.
We basically just made a huge heart in the centre of a blank sheet and coloured it pretty.
Both of us wrote ‘You are my hero’
(Two reactions to this:
1. Oh my god. Why!!? Cringe.
2. The kid me had way more courage and game.)
When we both gave our cards to him, he did something really shitty. After handing it over to him, we both went from our seats on the last bench to the teacher’s desk to collect our books or something?
When we returned, we found both our cards crumbled and lying on the floor.
We both picked up our cards and looked at the guy with utter shock. He was supposed to be our friend! Why was he being so mean?
I tore the card and threw the pieces on his face.
My best friend on the other hand, uncrumbled the paper and said something like, ‘I will give this to my brother. He is my hero too.’
After this incident, the guy and me didn’t talk for what seemed like forever but was probably only a week.
My friend tried to be the mediator because even after the whole incident she didn’t seem to care and was normal with the guy.
She told me something like, 'he said that if you wouldn’t have behaved so rudely, he would still be talking to you. He liked my reaction better.’
I got mad at her and didn’t talk to her forever too.
Things between all 3 of us got back to normal after a bit but seriously though, I’m glad the kid me reacted the way she did.
As an adult, I’d probably just burst into tears if the same thing happened to me now.

I want to go back in time
Where everything was still possible 
You and I still have a chance 
To be together 
Before everything changed because of a wrong turn 
I can’t take back the time I made a mistake 
If I could go back in time 
I would go back to the day we met 
Before I was hurt, before you ran away from me 
You ran away without an explanation 
—  All I wanted was for you stay