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New Brown America

When I was a kid, the one thing I wanted more than anything else was a Cabbage Patch Kid.

But, in the late 80s/early 90s - they didn’t make Cabbage Patch Kids with light brown skin and dark brown hair and eyes. 

There was black and white and that’s how the world was divided….but not because I grew up in Southall. 

Pretty much every kid I went to school with had brown skin, brown hair and a mom who made them eat rice every night. 

So, where were our dolls? 

I watched Hasan Minhaj’s Netflix special - Homecoming King - recently and I fucking loved it. LOVED it. It was like hanging out with my coolest cousins - it was hilarious, heartfelt and bilingual. 

Originally posted by allycoalition

Here’s a dude that looks like me and sounds like me. 

Someone who can reference Drake and knows heartbreak. 

Someone who also understands that if you’re reading this, it’s already too late, I’ve bit the fucking laving in the biryani and I think I might be dying, man. 

Over the past couple of years - I’ve noticed it more and more. 

More Indians represented in media. 

More people who look like me and sound like me. 

For me, it started with Kal Penn in Harold and Kumar Go To White Castle

Originally posted by okaayawesome

For the first time in my life - I saw an Indian character I could relate to. For once, I saw an Indian person who didn’t have a thick, ridiculous accent. An Indian person who wasn’t mocked with “smelly curry” jokes. 

Sidebar: Literally fuck every single person who makes this joke. Firstly, people didn’t die in the spice trade for you to be so goddamn ignorant and secondly, do you even understand how complicated and lush and beautiful a curry is? How much time and energy and love it takes to make? No. You don’t. So, shut the hell up and try not to choke on your shitty mayonnaise sandwich. 

I saw an Indian dude who dropped pop culture references and used the word “dude” about as much as I do. I saw someone whose dad looked like an angrier version of Paps. I saw an Indian who wasn’t a doctor or an engineer or a call center employee. 

Alright, fine. He was applying to med school in the movie but like the man said:

Originally posted by thecheeziersnack

And then came Mindy Kaling who was basically a goddamn revelation in really cute shoes. 

A smart, funny, mouthy Indian woman WRITER who gives ALL the fucks about cute packaging for make-up and SNL sketches? 

Originally posted by shashaaussi

It was like hearing my voice for the first time. Holy shit - that’s what I sound like?! That’s amazing! My voice is like a cross between Fergie Asha Bhosle and Jesus! 

And of course, there’s Aziz Ansari. A man who created a genuinely honest look at the first-generation immigrant experience for millennials with Master of None

The “Parents” episode of the first season and the “Religion” episode of the second season really hit home for me. The former deals with the stark differences between immigrant parents and their children and the latter deals with coming out to your parents about your lack of religious convictions - both issues I’ve certainly dealt with in the past couple of years. 

I am part of #NewBrownAmerica

I can talk about the issues of the GOP condemning systemic poverty as if it were a mortal sin, I can rhyme every single word in Montell Jordan’s This Is How We Do It, I know how Ganesh got his elephant head and that Mom has hidden little Ganesh statues in all of my apartments she’s been in and I’ve been making cups of chai since I was six-years-old, so I’m totally comfortable mocking the shit out of anyone who orders chai tea lattes. 

Chai means tea. Latte means milk. You’re ordering a tea tea milk and you need to knock it off. 

And I can do whatever the hell I dream of doing because isn’t that the promise of America? 

I’ve even become more comfortable with speaking Gujarati. I mean, I’m super rubbish at it and my pronunciation will make every one of my masis wince, but I’m not embarrassed anymore like I used to be. 

We were trying to book an AirBnB last night and I asked J to text the link to our buddy. 

“How do I do that?”
“Here. Batawu.”

As in, here. Let me show you. 

I’m becoming more myself and it feels easier. 

Maybe because I’m in my mid-30s and you just don’t care as much about that kind of stuff anymore but also because there’s a we now. 

I see people like myself on television and it’s such a big fucking deal. And you know what’s even more exciting?

In like, fifty years - it won’t even be a big deal anymore. Some little Indian girl is going to see tons of people on TV like her and she won’t even bat an eye because duh, why wouldn’t Indian people be on TV like everyone else? 

Representation matters and seeing this new crop of talented, smart, funny and brilliant brown people who grew up on Bollywood and Barbies, Ganesh and Ghostbusters and the goddamn pressure cooker going off at 8:00 in the morning gives me such hope. 

Still waiting on that Cabbage Patch Kid, though. 

here’s a thing, though. as far as more neutral criticism/commentary

i think peter’s relationship with tony/the avengers will always be (or at least currently is) muddied by a couple of things: 1) mcu’s general aversion to genuine emotion that doesn’t lead directly to jokes, constantly, but that’s not the main topic of this particular rant, 2) the fact that, considering the wider mcu, it’s very hard to place the portrayal of this relationship in terms of whether or not it does/should adhere to the usual superhero genre conventions

see, peter’s arc follows the very typical pattern of “teen has Big Dreams, gets powers, helps out locally before being invited to be an actual avenger” (see for instance kamala khan). there’s that dose of “the Adults aren’t listening! i have to do this on my own!” (see: young avengers). their age and general inexperience and the highly questionable nature of the mere possibility that they may be allowed to fight in wars when they’re objectively not even old enough to fully understand what they’re consenting to… those are all things that make you go “mmmmmyeah lol we don’t talk about that” when you’re reading a standard teen superhero comic

homecoming (aside from mcu’s everpresent tonal problem when it comes to developing genuine relationships between people) does well in that context. it wasn’t made for the critical adult so much as it was made for the twelve year old in their spider-man costume dreaming that tony stark would find them one day and pull them into this world of superheroes. it takes peter’s side and perspective (as it should). when all the bells and whistles in his suit become inconvenient as he’s trying to catch bad guys, i daresay a casual audience member is more prone to get frustrated at tony stark for having included the bells and whistles than they are to remember that peter’s only having that problem because he hacked into the suit and broke all the ground rules tony laid out for him exactly because he knew peter would be overwhelmed. when peter’s begging tony if he can please keep that suit, it makes you sad that tony takes it away and then peter goes back home to cry about how he lost “the stark internship” because he thought that “if he tried really hard then tony would let him have something more but then he screwed up” (not an exact quote but he does express that sentiment to aunt may). like. it’s really heartbreaking

and yes, i think the movie does mostly a good job balancing out the two perspectives on that conflict, tony and peter’s. you see peter neglecting school and friends and missing decathlon and missing quizzes and ditching detention and lying to aunt may and all of that while he has that suit, but then tony takes it away and gives him The Lecture about how he shouldn’t have that suit if he was going to be nothing without it, and that’s when peter goes back to his life, spends more time with ned, picks up his grades, invites liz to homecoming – and when the moment comes and he has to make the choice between standing by and doing the right, heroic thing, he goes out and fights regardless and it’s tony’s words that he remembers when he’s extremely overwhelmed

then you have a guy like happy hogan, right. and in the context of a typical Teen Hero story, happy is That Guy. he’s That adult who’s simultaneously aggravating and comedic in his total incompetence. there’s always That Guy in those stories that take the super-teen’s perspective! That Guy who doesn’t listen to the kids for whatever petty reason and now the kids can’t reach iron man so I GUESS the city will have to be saved by a fifteen-year-old in his spider-themed pajamas and his best friend who’s sitting in the computer lab at high school during the homecoming dance. happy embodies that straight-forward plot necessity that’s a Typical Superhero Thing. i’m actually entirely convinced there has to be a whole TV tropes entry for that specific role

and like that’s fine! TONAL BULLSHIT ASIDE (honestly you don’t even know how much i hated the whole thing where happy was interrupted while he thanked and apologized to peter), you get the (attempted) moment trying to show that happy is a good guy after all and he cares for peter and he’s nervous about his own job and, assuming that sort of moment to be successful (which it kind of isn’t because again why does the mcu have to turn everything into a joke) then what you’re left with is the idea that both tony and peter (and pepper if you extend this all the way back to im3), for all of their smarts and independence and grievances, simply have too much heart to resent happy for his many and numerous slips. that’s important closure if you don’t want the audience to hate or question the emotional weight of a character that was brought in specifically as an annoying comedic inconvenience

THE THING IS, THOUGH: peter parker wasn’t introduced in this movie. peter was introduced in a movie that, according to the russos and m&m themselves, intended to question the foundation of basic superhero conventions. they poke at all those “lol we don’t talk about that” Superhero things, like collateral damage and loss of civilian life and whether or not superheroes “invite” threats and the international consequences of what definitely looks like military interventionism if you take away the Superhero goggles. peter’s presence in the avengers in this context (which will most likely be part of the context of the next avengers movies) is highly highly highly questionable, ESPECIALLY in light of homecoming, which emphasizes peter’s vulnerabilities as a teenager. i know there are attempted in-universe explanations for tony’s decision to bring peter into cap 3, but none of them make real sense and none of them will ever be realistically acceptable. simply because there’s a brutal – a BRUTAL – clash in genre expectations happening there. you physically can’t watch that peter recruitment scene in cap 3, plus literally everything that has to do with his presence in that airport battle, without saying “you know what? this is a Superhero Movie ™” (unless of course you’re willing to swear off and harshly judge everyone, and i do mean everyone on BOTH sides, who was involved in the airport fight in any capacity)

(and sidebar: i do think there’s a greatness, in a meta level, that tony served as a kind of a gateway and channel to Classic Superhero Nonsense in cap 3 – i’m reminded of the commentary where the russos said that the music playing during tony’s suit up sequence in the helicopter was intentionally composed to sound like the most Superhero ™ track in the whole movie – and that makes me emotional specifically because tony *is* so attached to the general Superhero Ideal – he *is* the only avenger who was shown signing kid’s iron man toys and keeping iron man drawings and artwork, he came up with the “earth’s mightiest heroes” catch phrase (and “friendly neighborhood spider man” too for that matter), he gave the team a building after fighting alongside them once, he literally could not help but reveal he was iron man, etc. the russos said in the cap 3 commentary that in an ensemble movie, it was important for them to bring in a little of the spark of every franchise and make it part of each character, and all technical shit aside, i think it’s cute and heartwarming that tony’s character was able to bring in that strand of uncomplicated, child-friendly superhero stuff – tony stark is, after all, the single avenger who had a legitimate kid sidekick in his own movie and that’s fantastic imo)

ANYWAY what i’m saying is there’s an inevitable clash in genre expectations going on between peter and the avengers because as of cap 3, avengers stuff seems to be tearing at genre conventions while peter’s story sort of needs at least one of those conventions, in a BIG way, in order to stand on its own as something that’s actually enjoyable and not 7392739 levels of disturbing. if you take away the Superhero Goggles while watching homecoming then that’s…. yikes….. especially on the happy hogan front, imo, since tony is shown to be keeping track of peter, while happy, the assigned mediator, does a pretty crappy job at getting back to peter and answering distress calls. but even like in general, the idea of tony wanting to recruit peter to the avengers because he was able to fight a murderer wearing giant wings while wearing his spider pajamas is…. so insane and irresponsible. and if you dissect that it’s probably going to kill a lot of what’s enjoyable in the premise of a casual and lighthearted coming-of-age teen-hero story, which is what homecoming is

(oh and make no mistake – as i mentioned before, the mcu’s aversion to displaying emotional genuineness without making fun of itself DOES take something away from the build up and power of tony and peter’s interactions, imo, every single one of them that’s not the ferry argument – and personally i feel like that in turn hurts the general idea of peter as someone with ties with the avengers)

all of that being said, i did genuinely enjoy the movie (and context plays a big part here – it IS pretty damn enjoyable to see anything at all that has to do with the development of tony and peter’s relationship after a full year of post-cap 3 fandom bullshit) but ha BOY expect The Discourse. it’s going to happen. it’s absolutely going to happen because it’s entirely too easy (if not… almost inevitable?) to question the general premise of “adults providing means and tools for teen heroes” when you’ve got the wider post-cap 3 mcu universe practically begging you to by putting in check the very nature of and outlook on the typical self-governed superhero team

Fairy Tail Chapter 523 Review

Okay Double chapter this week so come on with FT chapter “Will fate burn”

The cover page is Happy and Carla in a chinese festival. That’s it. Okay so on to the chapter.

Okay so starting from where we left off, Gray is going to use a lost iced shell. I’d like to draw attention to the bottom right panel of Gray during Avatar. He says “I wanted to see it“ which I believe he means the book of END. Either that or it’s implying he learned lost attribute from them.

Okay little sidebar, Gray says lost attribute added will enhance a spells powers than normal. Now we know Lost magic is a thing, it’s classified as magic that’s very rare and almost lost to most knowledge seems standard. But lost Attribute seems to be something different like if you use lost attribute than your spell no matter what will increase. I think lost attribute is basically the user tapping into that primal magic or as Rustrose would say “returning to the abyss of magic” that this is the user returning to that undiluted magic. I know it’s odd but this is an interesting concept.

Okay Gray. I get it. You have had so many sacrifice themselves for you and you’ve had to live with that mourning and this has happened many times to you. But, this is war. There is suppose to be sacrifices made and if you think you guys have suffered all that much than your kinda wrong you just lost Makarov. Which is troubling but it was one life. But at the same time I understand that you wouldn’t want more suffering kinda a tough choice.

Okay for most the chapter the dialogue is on point but this one exchange was stupid. “There is no eternity” would be fine but saying “the ice will melt” really is just very vague. If you said something like “My followers will not stop till they melt it” that be fine but the way the sentence is structured it seems like he’s saying the ice will melt on it’s own. But Gray here sounds more dumb by saying if it does melt that’s far down the road’s problem. Gray don’t you know eternal I mean your basically saying every one will forget you but hey it might mean nothing anyway. The hell sense does that make?

I, Really like the symbolism and imagery here. Like no lie, first having it be Ur which is so nice and have it transition over to natsu. Really good sequential story telling.

And I know what people will say, “natsu had to come in to be the big damn hero because Mashima that’s just standard shounen and of course Natsu needs to be pandered to” well I’ about to diffuse that right here. Gray is bringing up a good reason about his grief he feels from almost killing his friend in a blind rage, but here’s what I love Natsu references he could do the same. We have self awareness right here. Then we have the questioning of their friendship. A standard questioning of friendship becomes so much more powerful by adding emotion to the scene. This isn’t some Natsu is stoic reaffirming they are friends this is him on the ground trying to reach Gray.

Welp, touching moment over cause Zeref wanted to be a dick.

Queue standard Natsu is serious two page spread.

“I guess I’ll just stand off to the side, it’s not like I have an ability to access a 9 different forms which grant me a wide range of magic. Better let the men handle this.”

Also Lucy you don’t look like you have any faith in Natsu right now.

So we cut outside the guild to see Erza (Who had her bones broken) all fixed up. You know I’m not even mad. If Wendy can bring juvia back even when she’s only a centimeter away from death, then I’m sure a whole skeleton can be fixed just fine.

Also this resolve works for makarov, but Irene. NO. She was pretty much crazy and pretty much would’ve nuked all of you. But hey cause she killed herself I guess it’s okay.

oh yes. oh yes! OH YES!

And great way to end the chapter.

Also I love how Acnologia references how bored he is. As if he is getting tired of this whole damn arc.

Post Chapter Follow Up: I really liked this chapter. Seriously it was good.

On the Pro side, we have actual emotion that carried over in to the theme of friendship and didn’t feel to shoved down our throats.

Also big thing is the pacing in this chapter is actually really good. Nothing goes by too fast and it all gets in what needs to be done.

We have the air of this final battle beginning and had such a weight to Zeref taking center stage and Acnologia arriving. I couldn’t be more pumped. I’m Hoping that while Natsu tanks the whole zeref thing that at least Gray and Lucy contribute. Also the fact that august even stops fighting really is an amazing sign of what’s coming up.

On the Cons side, nothing really. There are a few snags in the beginning but I think it doesn’t ruin the story overall.

Final Verdict: 8/10

  • Actual character emotion shown on screen
  • solid chapter
  • good pacing

anonymous asked:

"Namjoon is a genius and namjoon is in the top tier of kpop rappers." How so? I don't disagree, I just want to hear some Namjoon appreciation.

me: loves this ask

me: takes 8 years to respond

im sorry i took forEVER to respond pal! i wanted to do this justice and ive been hella busy

OKRR. SO THIS IS WHY JOONIE IS ONE OF THE GREATEST

1) lets look at the obvious first; the reception of various rappers and the general rap community

  • Warren G: “Even though I wasn’t able to understand his lyrics completely, I can say that it was really good. The flow, the style and his rhythm are all very good.” and “When listening to Rap Monster’s songs, it sounds a bit like me or Snoop Dogg rapping over the beats to what we’ve made.” AND “If I comment from an artist and a producer point of view, Rap Monster is one of the best rappers I know. The way he delivers his rap is outstanding.” (me: *chokes*)
  • Tiger JK: called namjoon “the industry junior who changed his preconceptions about idols.”
  • SPIN Review: “With smartly snagged instrumentals from Run the Jewels and Big K.R.I.T., a cameo from Tech N9ne sidekick Krizz Kaliko, and surprisingly sturdy hooks on the piano-bar blues “Life” and the hammering standout single “Do You,” Kim Namjoon actually stands a chance of making a dent in the States.”
  • XXL Mag: “Rap Monster rarely fails to live up to his name. The Ilsan, South Korea-raised rapper is one of the region’s most dexterous rappers, capable of switching flows effortlessly as he glides across an array of diverse instrumentals.”
  • DJ Booth (Lucas G): “I really like the balance between rapping in Korean and rapping in English. If the project was all in Korean, I’m not sure I could have connected with him but by mixing the two languages together he provides the listener with a brand new experience; I don’t feel like a passive listener. Shit even when he’s rapping in Korean, I can still feel his words. He’s got a hunger and an excitement that can be felt in any language.”
  • Tony Jones: “Rap Monster can outrap any rapper” (tbh not super relevant but i had to include it bc its so cute)
  • i highkey feel like there is more but rn im functioning on half my brain cells rip


2) lyrics; this is really important to me. lots of ppl pick rappers off of their beats and how lit they are.. THIS ISN’T RAPPING. if yall want lit beats tune into the producer or just listen to trap. that’s not what rap is about. 

lyrics are CRAZY important! and like, diss and bragging lyrics are such a sidebar. if you can only diss and brag I’m sorry but you aren’t worth shit lol.

here in my opinion are some of his best lyrics (READ THIS SHIT! YALL PLEASE)

  • “the thing that redeemed me too, the things that pushed into me - the distant precipice and everything, that’s all me - foolish humanity, you too can become gods - hold your head straight and try, a saint’s smile - Jesus’ footsteps, Allah’s prayers - even until Maria’s love, all of it is inside you - this is unconditional redemption and unconditional belief” (God Rap)
  • “I live to understand the world - But the world didn’t once understand me” (Always)
  • “these people who clamor for respect with their own mouths - even they don’t know the misjudgments of those words - freedom and self-indulgence, they’re obviously different” (Do You)
  • “if you look less at wits, there are a lot of things that change - you were born as a hero, why are you trying to become a slave? - “because it hurts, it’s youth” - that kind of definition is the biggest problem - in life a genre is a trap, just like music - because you become an idiot as soon as you’re tied down there - fuck that.” (Do You)
  • “every night inside me I quietly fight with myself - my heart pounds, my colleagues stab me in the back - while saying that I became a moron after joining a company- yeah fuck you I’m an idol, yeah yeah I’m an idol - at one time I hated it but now I love to get that title” (Awakening)
  • “I thought I could catch the mirage known as happiness - but the me in front of my desk wasn’t happy even for a moment - without my mom knowing, I put a sheet of white paper between the pages of my workbook - my identity that I wrote down matched to the drum and bass - a different, relaxed feeling compared to when I got my report card” (Voice)
  • “do you know the reality that there’s no shadow in the fire? - then will I become the fire or will I become the light, that’s my question - so if I become the light then in the daylight, then the darkness - closes his eyes when it’s bright and when others sleep, opens his eyes again - even though I felt suffering I thank you” (God Rap)
  • “life is more beautiful knowing that we’ve taken a loan on death - even light is treasured more when there’s darkness - the sunshine appears after we’ve passed through the storm” (Life)
  • “but the thing that we all learned at some point was how - to step on someone, to catch them, to erase them, to hate them - fuck all the peace and love, I know that that’s the natural enemy of success - that’s too obvious” (Life)
  • “everything can coexist, positive and negativity - the thing that guides me and this world is ultimately those two’s synergy - all wanderings related to existence, sometimes until they’re chaotic - even those moments now seem lovable - if you’re confused about what is right and what is wrong - what makes me want to live again, think about it” (I Believe)
  • OK SO LIKE THESE ARE DISS LYRICS BUT YALL BETTER KNOW THIS IS SOME OF THE MOST SAVAGE SHIT IVE EVER HEARD: “Even if you don’t like me, you know me - I like hate comments more than no comments - I DON’T KNOW YOU - BUT YOU KNOW MY NAME” (Cypher 4
  • credit to btstrans for lyrics


3) delivery…  every rapper has their own style and namjoon for sure has great fucking delivery omg (that voice tho). in terms of pure flow i have three fav songs…

Awakening: the song that made me a Rap Monster fan (way before I knew what kpop was). The intensity and emotion in his voice still gives me chills.

Joke: his vocal control, his phrase stylization, his ability to spit so flawlessly with like no air… Joke is ALL about flow

P.D.D.: so chill… but the way he raps still draws in the listener; this is partially due to the natural depth and beauty of his voice, but a lot of it is in the energy his delivery has, even when it’s relaxed as fuck. namjoon raps like he’s telling a story, and the rise and fall of his voice is perfectly responsive and sensitive to his lyrics.


4) live stages! his lives are great. i won’t say they’re perfect, but they are still awesome and he always gets hype as FUCK and gets the audience into it

What Am I To You: i literally get so fucking emotional. dont debate this with me, this is honestly his best live stage ever. fucking flawless.

Do You: you see me bopping to this shit in my home? im getting fucking hyped yall as i write this


OKAY BOO BOO HOPE YOU LIKED THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!! comment/reblog with what you think makes Namjoon an amazing rapper!!

as always, if you think im wrong, pls message me ;)

TDB’s Great Glee Rewatch

Okay guys - we’re really going to do this thing, and I’m excited to kick it off soon.  :) 

Season One Schedule: 

  • Sunday May 7th: Welcome Week - I thought it might be fun have everyone send in, or reblog, some get-to-know-you stuff - like how did you enter Glee fandom, what made you stay, some stuff about you.  I know a lot of us know each other already, but this is a way for newer (or less vocal) people to meet others and find new blogs, etc.  


  • May 14: Pilot
  • May 21: Showmance
  • May 28: Acafellas
  • June 4: Preggers
  • June 11: Rhodes Not Taken
  • June 18: Vitamin D
  • June 25: Throwdown
  • July 2: Mash Up
  • July 9: Wheels
  • July 16: Ballad
  • July 23: Hairography
  • July 30: Mattress
  • August 6: Sectionals
  • August 13: Hello
  • August 20: Power of Madonna
  • August 27: Home
  • September 3: Bad Reputation
  • September 10: Laryngitis
  • September 17: Dream On
  • September 24: Theatricality
  • October 1: Funk
  • October 8: Journey to Regionals

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Some notes - 

~I’m not going to double up on episodes - the ending date for the rewatch will be sometime in the fall of 2019. 

~Tag for the rewatch: TDB Rewatch, and then individual episodes will be - TDB Rewatch: Acafellas (etc) 

~I’m still planning to do Meta on Mondays, Polls on Tuesdays, Throwback Thursdays, and Music on Fridays

~All my opening posts will be on Sundays - but if you guys want to do a liveblog thing on Saturday nights/afternoons - go for it! I encourage you :) 

~Season 2 will start on October 15, I’ll post the next part of the schedule around that time. 

~I plan on redoing the sidebar. Old things will probably be condensed down to one page.  

This is all still a big work in progress as to how it’s going to work - but I’m on board, and think it’ll be a fun thing.  Thanks for being patient! 

**Important**

I could use your help with two things

1. If you guys have poll ideas or meta question ideas that you’d like to share (or any additional content) please feel free to drop a line any time, and I’ll include your questions, etc in the corresponding posts.  

2. I plan on doing round up posts that include links to people’s meta and thoughts.  I NEED VOLUNTEERS TO HELP WITH ROUND UP POSTS.  Seriously guys - this is a two year project, and if I get a handful of people who will help out with this it’ll go a long, long way.  Drop a line if you’re interested in helping out. 

anonymous asked:

Rank the primarchs, 1-18 (or 19 depending on Alpha Legion) in terms of hot.


Let it be said that:

One, I have not read a lot of lore. So my knowledge of the Primarchs per se are not extensive. Some are lower on the list than others and have less babbling because I don’t know them that well.

Two, I am extremely biased. I’m so biased that I should never be invited to judge a beauty pageant. I like who I like from what I know. Which isn’t a lot. I don’t claim to be an expert on anything. I answered a question sent to me. My personal opinion is just that. Nothing more. Nothing less.

Three, of those I do not know as well I just ranked on boinkability. Yes that is a term. I think. I could’ve just made it up.

Four, you can beg to disagree and call me a heretic. ^_^ You can debate me, dispute with me, all is well. Make your own list. I would love to read about it. Now, let the insanity commence.

Art by @horus-did-nothing-wrong

1. Magnus the Red…have you not seen my blog? And my header? And my sidebar? And my OC? And my 4 chapter fanfic (which should be 5 by now but damn writer’s block) All indicating my love for the Big Red, tragic mess of a sexy nerd. Just his hair alone is worth writing porn about. Have you seen his shirtless model? That butt window? The blanket of a loin cloth that’s probably not even enough to conceal what is hiding behind it? O M G. While he may not have the prettiest face (that honor belongs to Sanguinius, honestly) or the bulkiest of builds (Vulkan I think), it’s the overall package that he comes in makes him, in my uber-biased eyesight the sexiest piece of masculine meat that graced the covers of a BL book. He’s intelligent, confident, and he genuinely cares about his Legion, his brothers and his Father. He’s man enough to admit his mistakes and pay for them. Is he perfect? Goodness no. But he’s perfect for me. @askthecrimsonking

Art by @toranekostudios

2. Sanguinius...is this even a question? LOOK AT HIM. Look at the beautiful, perfect, angelic boy. That hair. Regardless of what color it came in. Those gorgeous wings. Whatever color they come in (ah, come on BL guys, make up your mind). He’s not only handsome, but he is kind (yeeea forget about the black rage and the red thirst…but maybe I can overlook that). He has a good heart. Yes I’m a sucker for a guy with long hair and a heart. So sue me (okay seriously don’t, but you know what I meant). I can overlook the sausage curls (that’s what straightening irons are for) but who cares about that when you’re jumping his bones (and he’s actively trying to dodge you? Too cute, Sansan). @asksanguinius40k

Art by @pholcidae

3. Roboute Guilliman…This choice climbed up from somewhere down the middle, LOL. Yes he has endeared himself to me the last few months (thanks in no small part to @ultramarineblues and @possiblyhereticalultramarine) . When I first got into w40k I was told he was one dimensional and blander than a post-surgical diet. But I find that not to be the case. To quote @ultramarineblues “So what if he’s vanilla? It can still be good vanilla.” He’s a good man, an honorable man, and all the crazy fluff us fans made gave him a bit more dimension, in my biased, egotistical opinion. Also, I’m a sucker for a blue-eyed blonde (My track record is ridiculous). His looks make him hot. His character makes him even hotter. @askrobouteguilliman40k

Art by @toranekostudios

4. Leman Russ...it’s the braids. It’s got to be. How many men do you know can wear a braid and a ponytail and still look like he can ravage you both on the field and in the sack? Those fangs! Oooooh but the things I can imagine him doing with it. He’s the kind of man who would take you out on a date (or a one night stand) and you KNOW you are going to have fun in this lifetime and the next. He is that awesome. He looks good whether he’s a ginger, blonde or brunette. Though I like golden-haired Russ the best. I imagine he howls when he gets stimulated. He is literally a sexy beast, the one you want to do all the nasty little things your heart desires. Tie you down and make you…okay Imma stop now before this gets out of hand. @asklemanruss40k

Art by Cecilia Murillo Valdez

5. Corvus Corax…did I ever tell you folks I have a thing for long hair? Yes, yes I do. Especially when it is worn well. And pretty, and smooth and…okay I’m going off track. There’s not a lot I know about Corvus, other than he can turn invisible (OMG THE KINKY POSSIBILITIES…..SHAAADDDDUP) and that he’s a pretty laid back, cool, guy who doesn’t seem to have a beef with anybody. He’s chill, and I bet he wouldn’t mind experimenting, LOL.  @asktheravenlord

Art by @horus-did-nothing-wrong

6. Konrad Curze…Oh you other, sad, tragic mess. I would so jump on you. Because really you’re pretty handsome in a creepy kind of way. Also I’m a fan of Batman. Well that and I really want to give you a hug, put you in a warm, foamy bath and make you some soup even if you probably want to hang me over the clothesline in the most unflattering fashion. But wait…I didn’t do anything wrong! I can do everything right if you let me ;-) @askkonradcurze

7. Lion El Johnson…He’d be higher on this list if he wasn’t such a wet blanket. Seriously Lion! Objectively he’s very handsome (see blonde boy comment up there), but how long can you last until the grumpiness gets to you? I want to have fun, boy! Now smile a little and act like you want a piece of good ass, k? He does kinda look like he would go for a little lite S & M, or a threesome. In secret. In a cave. That’s in a forest somewhere… @asklionjonson

Art by @sisterofsilence

8. Angron…Oh oh Angron. You’ve had it bad, like some of your brothers. Its unfortunate. But even with the Butcher’s nails you are a fairly fine specimen too. The caring part of me wants to take you aside and give you lots of hugs and TLC (that’s Alise’s job of course @sandvichette) but no, you are lovable in a tragic way. I’m sure you look smokin’ in your gladiator garb, however it may look like. I bet you carry it well. Especially when you’re swinging your sword. No, not THAT sword. Get out of my gutter brain…eeeeeep.

Art by @magnifigal

9. Jaghatai Khan...I’m not a big fan of topknots but you carry it fantastic, man. And you look like Jason Momoa. Or Ken Watanabe. Maybe both. Plus, they’re both hot. You’re also smart and witty. Like Khal Drogo and Tyrion Lannister had a lovechild (okay did I just give you a bad visual? Sorry that was not intentional). Plus you ride bikes. HOT! But you also have the attention span of a 3 year old. Who ate a sugar bomb. I have a feeling your encounters maybe wham-bam-thank-you-ma’am-see-you-later-I’m-chasing-after-the-eldar-because-I-hear-they-do-sexy-cray-cray-things. @ask-jaghatai-khan

10. Vulkan…I’m a sucker for a nice guy. I really am. He’s one of them. I bet he’s sweet and likes to cuddle. But he probably takes up the whole bed. But have you seen those abs? And pecs? Is it true you lost your mind? I hope you find it soon. Because an unstable giant is an unstable giant and…yeah that’s scary. Is it true that you like fire? Is that a fan headcanon? I have a fear you will set the bed on fire…hopefully in a good way. @ask-the-lord-of-drakes

Art by @horus-did-nothing-wrong

11. Perturabo...Another nerd. I swear it’s genetic. You’re cute, and you’re very smart and talented and severely underappreciated. I’m just scared of your cybernetic hairdo. I feel like I’m going to get electrocuted if I ran my hands through your hair. Which isn’t stimulating, unless we’re talking about burns. I also hear you’re salty as heck. I even started calling you Salturabo. You’re gonna be bad for my blood pressure. In more ways than one.. @ask-perturabo

12. Rogal Dorn...you’re not low on the list because you’re not eye candy (coz you do look like Soldier76’s hot, older brother), but because I know my dear friend @mrsdorn adores you with all her heart and I feel like a traitor. Also because you were mean to Sigismund. They say you have tight arse cheeks though LOL.

13. Fulgrim…Okay you’re pretty. But you’re also extremely vain. Who the heck wants to boink a guy who’s prettier than them? Okay I would, but still! The man is so full of himself there is room for nothing but Ferrus Manus and his…iron hands, hahahahaha. @fulgrim-the-phoenician

Art by @twopunch

14. Ferrus Manus…If manly man is your type, yes, he is your man! (I used that word too many times) The man is skilled with his hands. Both hands. I bet he can do a lot of amazing things with them. He looks like he likes to dish it rough too. Now I’m wondering if I should put him higher than Fulgrim. He has a short fuse though? Yeah that’s a bit of a de-fizzler. I would run the minute he raises his voice because I have issues with someone who used to yell at me (okay that escalated fast didn’t it?) @askferrusmanus40k

15. Alpharius/Omegron…seriously who can tell which is what? I can’t. My vision is as good as the Crimson King’s without the fancy psyker magic. But secrecy can be fun. You guys might be fun to do RPG blindfolds with. Because. Reasons. The novelty may wear off after a while. A very long while. I still don’t get you. Both of you. Any of you. You’re so confusing. That takes your hotness down a notch. Okay a few notches. @ask-alpharius

Art by @toranekostudios

16. Horus…Heresy. Granted he has his good points, and objectively he may be good looking and charming and is friends with every other person on this list. But…man the heresy. Instant turn off. My beautiful Red Boi tried to save your ass because he cares about you and what the bloody fuck did you do to him, you oversized, heretical man-baby with daddy issues? Why are you not on the bottom of this list? One, because I blame Lorgar just a hair (pun intended) more than you, and two you actually may have a hair (stop with the stupid puns already) of regret because you killed my beautiful angel who loved you too, you piece of Chaos-infused, overrated spoiled brat.

17. Lorgar…Religious zealot. Any lady boner I might have died with those two words. Though I do feel kinda sorry for your background (see Konrad Curze)…I still blame you for the heresy you little shit. Well you’re not tiny so…big shit? That sounds even worse. Either way…ehm no. The only reason you’re not at the bottom of this pile is because of your brotherly love for Angron. And you’re actually good friends with my number one man. Also you’re a scholar and a poet and a nerd. So you have SOME redeeming factors. Maybe.

18. Mortarion…where do I even start? The stench? The grumpiness? The overall salty behavior? Granted he did not have the greatest of backgrounds but COME ON Morty. That betrayal at the Council of Nikaea put the nail in the coffin of any desire I may feel for your smelly carcass. Russ may have razed Prospero but that’s because he got tricked by Horus (and he actually gave Magnus an out…which he didn’t receive but that’s another story). You….you didn’t have to turn on your brother like that. Make him feel like shit. For being HIMSELF. Seriously! You’re number 18 because you messed with my number ONE man.


Sorry not everyone had pics. My internet was being an idiot. I hope you enjoyed my foolishness ^_^

realorafable  asked:

do you have any ideas as to what myrish lace might look like, perhaps compared to a lace that we may have (in our world)? i never know what to visualize, and grrm does seem to mention it quite a lot so it has been bugging me! thank you so much!!!

Hi! It’s hard to say what Myrish lace might look like, because GRRM doesn’t describe it in detail, and there’s actually lots of different types of lace in our own world. Let’s see what the text says about Myrish lace, and maybe that will help us visualize it.

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apparently necessary reminder: google exists! i’m not a know-it-all source, honestly i shouldn’t even be your second plan after google unless it’s a question specifically based on me or something relating to me

i try to keep my blog as a safe/positive space so i’d like to avoid negative topics as much as i can! this meaning discourse in fandoms or in general and i keep the politics to a minimum unless it’s lighthearted jokes or absolutely necessary to share.

if you want to commission me please send an email to time2snart@gmail.com

-what do you use to record and edit your speedpaints?

i use OBS to record, and i do my editing in after effects!

-what do you use to draw?

i use a wacom intuos tablet and i do my art in paint tool sai

-what are your pen settings?

i just use the default stuff! minor changes may be made like adjusting sliders if i need it for a certain thing, but for the most part everything is just default

-a blog called papersans is claiming to be you! are they a thief?

that’s literally me, i use it to archive my art so i can find stuff easier without having to hunt through my tag. also available in case people like my art but hate my personality aha

-when is your birthday?

february 6th!

-what is your sexuality?

don’t know, don’t care, don’t intend to do either of those any time soon either.

-how long does it take you to draw?

quick things can be as short as 30 to 45 minutes. sketches often 5-15. big full colour things ranging from flat colour to fully painted can end up in the shorter range but it’s not uncommon to hit the 2-4 hour stretch.

-can i draw you/your ocs?

of course! ahh gosh i would love to see as well!

-favourite band/singer/musician?

USS, marina and the diamonds, the hoosiers, big data, MSI, mother mother, caravan palace, vinter in hollywood/savant, MIKA, ken ashcorp, two door cinema club, the living tombstone, porter robinson, tegan and sara, anamanaguchi, passion pit, studio killers, and also does my friend matt count?

as u can see i’m not good at narrowing lists down

-will you do art for cheap/free?

nah. art is currently the only job/income i have, if ur interested in commissioning me my prices are here. feel free to email me if you want something “off menu” and we can discuss prices about that. sometimes i might do doodle suggestions but it’s rare ur thing’ll actually happen. i collect a sort of suggestion bank on @papersans 

-(venting or something involving abuse, suicidal thoughts, self harm, bullying, eating disorders, or other similar things in real life situations. even in fictiong i’m iffy.)

i hate to sound rude or not be of help, but please don’t send these messages to me. they send me into horrible anxiety attacks for several personal reasons. if you’re having such negative thoughts i implore you to speak to someone you trust without an anonymous mask, or do your best to seek help from a professional. i have my own things to worry about and as much as i’d like to help, i simply can’t.

-why didn’t you answer my ask?

i get a ton of asks a day, not like millions or hundreds or whatever. but enough it gets hard to handle. in terms of social ability i’m actually the worst and i have tons of friends who can vouch for this, so it’s hard for me to keep up. not to mention that now with how my class schedule is i go long periods of time without checking my phone so i can’t reply to things as they come in, and i often have a limited amount of energy after the end of the day (or in the morning when i wake up, it’s also a time factor in this case) and can only get to a few asks at a time. if i’ve missed your ask or i just don’t seem to every reply to you, it’s not because you’re a nuisance or i hate you or anything. i just honestly can’t socialize well and get overwhelmed super easily. often times if i can’t think of a reply to a question or it’s a super repetitive one (or one featured in here) i’ll usually pass them by because i hate forcing reactions or saying the same thing over and over, so it’s not anything that’s your fault.

-how do you draw lineless/do you have a link to your lineless tutorial?

right here!

-how do you do your checker patterns so easily?

tutorial to come… at some point…..

-how do you draw [blank]?

honestly my art style is such a fucked up thing that’s so personalized to my own use i can’t do or make tutorials. the best i can do is direct you to my youtube to study my real time videos. they might even be more beneficial than a tutorial, you learn better from studying and figuring stuff out yourself in art than you do from someone telling you what to do.

-can we do an art trade?

sorry, i’ll have to say no. i’m not necessarily busy but i get stressed very easily, so i try to keep my art to either personal stuff or work ! if you would like art from me, please considering commissioning me! my prices are listed in the link on my sidebar/description.

-can you tag [blank]?


sure thing! i usually don’t reply to these asks and i just backtrack to tag recent posts that are necessary, but i’m usually down to tagging things when needed! just know due to issues with memory and just that i tend to blog fast i might miss some things or forget- feel free to remind me! some things i won’t tag for personal reasons without explanation, though, but those cases are rare.

-how tall are you?

i’m 5'10"- before we get into the height discussion that always happens: 1) yes i know that’s apparently really tall. 2) if ur below 5'8" ur itty bitty to me 3) above 6'0"? i’ll give you an acorn to stand next to me at all times to make me look smaller and i can’t guarantee i won’t fall in love with u on the spot. 3) 5'9"-5'11"? we’re now allies in the war i’ll guard ur ankles u guard mine

-what happened to TF?

i kindly ask ya to fuck off

-what is TF?

the less you know the better

-what does “beware the askbox ghost”/“yo spencer wright here and billy queue cobra mean”?

1. the askbox ghost tag is my tag set up in xkit for answered asks to be automatically tagged as when i’m on desktop

2. another xkit tag, it’s for my queue! it’s a pun based on the show “Dude, that’s my ghost!” from the opening sequence

-not a question but important to say STOP CALLING ME DAD OR ANY PARENTAL TITLE i thought we dealt with this months ago but apparently it’s still a goddamn issue. if you do you will be blocked.

-are you still into eddsworld?

literally every time i get this question it further convinces me to not get back into the show no matter what new content comes out. i’m sick of the fandom, and slowly just getting more reasons to not like it. it was fun at first but now it’s just tiring and not within my interest. i moved on to other things. let’s face it: eddsworld is old and dead and tired and i’ve used up every single idea i have there’s no point for me to continue trying to conjure up new content for something i’m bored of. stop asking about it. stop asking me to draw it and honestly avoid even suggesting ideas for it, they don’t help. if i want to draw for it i will but it’ll be once in a blue moon and likely not without me getting the essence of a bad taste in my mouth. please let me move on before i pull every individual hair out of my head over this. maybe in the future at some point things’ll ease over and i’ll stop feeling sick every time i hear about the EW fandom but for the time being, no. i’d rather pull out each hair from my arms and legs individually and then try and glue them back in place in perfect position. i’m reaching the point where if you even mention eddsworld to me, whether you want me to draw it or not yes this includes casually trying to start a conversation about it with me, i’m going to completely ignore or even more likely block you.

-(any sort of “are you still into ______” question)

please just. don’t ask this. in any case. why is it necessary to comment on the fact i have changing interests and focuses. just assume most things i still have a fondness for but if i move onto something else chances are i just won’t draw it as much bc it isn’t in my focus.

-do you still draw eddsworld?

not unless ya fuckin pay me i don’t. literally. i’m not drawing eddsworld on my own will anymore because i’m sick of the fandom and sick of hearing about it. want to see new eddsworld art from me??? stop being cheap and expecting free shit from artists that don’t owe you anything. you wanna see EW stuff from me so badly pay me. my commissions are here and almost always open unless i say otherwise. don’t have money or a way to send it to me? not my problem and too bad on your end. 

-you reblogged something from someone extremely problematic/unsafe

thank you for letting me know! tell me what it is they did, even better offer proof on it. i’ll likely delete the post and blacklist their url to hopefully prevent their name popping up on my blog in the future. i won’t publish these asks mostly to avoid discourse or in the event false information is provided. sorta just safety precaution i guess

-you’ve done something bad

again, thank you for letting me know! if i post or say something questionable please feel free to message me and i’ll try my best to address the issue and adjust accordingly. i’m aiming to grow as a person so critique is welcome, both on me and my artwork. don’t just come up and call me an asshole or a prick or something, actually point out the errors and explain why they’re wrong so i can better understand and it doesn’t just turn into a defensive round of who’s worse, because i tend to be a very defensive person.

-i think someone is stealing/reposting your art!

thank you very much for telling me! don’t message them right off the bat, come to me first and i will deal with it. i’ve dealt with this shit tons of times and it’s tiring as fuck but i’d rather repeat the same stupid civil message over and over again than start a giant calamity over something and end up with someone getting hurt. if you do get involved please stay polite about it don’t throw insults just a simple “hey this art was done by princeofmints/tv-headache/zachary jack/dirtypip/(etc my other account names) and he doesn’t want his art reposted, please take this down or add proper credit.”

-can i use your art as an icon?

sure man. only on places like instagram, tumblr, or twitter though, and proper credit in an easy to see place must be given. if a piece of art is of my ocs or especially vent art though never use it for icons. thank you.

-can i repost your art?

man oh man i really wish you wouldn’t but if you have to whatever. just make sure to credit me in the description easy to see, preferably at the top instead of a mile at the bottom under a read more. instagram is really the only place i’ll tolerate reposting WITH CREDIT, everywhere else do not repost my shit. do not trace my shit. do not recolour or edit my shit. want to use it in a video? ask me first please and then add proper credit that’s easy to see.

-can i colour/finish one of your sketches?

please don’t. please, please, do not. even if you don’t intend on posting it i would prefer you don’t do this.

-what is…

       -the adventure zone?

a podcast done by the mcelroy family. justin, travis, and clint play dungeons and dragons with griffin taking on the role of dungeon master. you can listen to it on maximum fun or search it up on itunes

       -don’t starve?

an indie survival game, mostly unique for it’s art style and creative choices. that’s why i’m fond of it, at least. i find it really pleasant to look at and listen to and watch and i love the characters and stories behind it! the game does cost money but just reading through the wiki about the characters and watching the trailers on youtube can give you a pretty good idea on what it’s about, so playing the game isn’t really necessary to be in the fandom i think.

       -oxenfree?

sort of a fantasy, sci-fi horror game. some teenagers go to an island for a party but end up contacting ghosts and get into a whole slew of shenanigans. this one i do recommend playing mostly just for the vast amounts of dialogue and choices to be made. there are a few parts that are a little jumpscare-y but if you keep the lights on and play where you feel safe i don’t think they’d be too bad! might trigger really bad paranoia though so be safe. they mostly consist of figures fizzing in or sudden static. if you play through it a second time on the same timeline they do get a little worse and even doing my best to comfort myself one of the pictures does nasty stuff to me just because of the way it looks. it’s not gorey or horrible or anything it’s just unnerving as fuck.

      - camp camp?

a 2D animated cartoon by rooster teeth. it’s about a kid named max who’s attending a summer camp, Camp Campbell, against his will and frequently tries to escape or at least cause as much havoc and chaos for the counselors as possible. he often gets help in this from his friends Neil and Nikki, the other campers sometimes aid in this as well. either intentionally or without knowing. would i recommend watching it? well. uh. i don’t know. saying it’s by rooster teeth might be enough of a warning to some people that it contains some not entirely safe content, but in case you need depth: it features A LOT of swearing, plenty of injury and some blood, and the unfortunate references to hitler. aside from that it’s got a cute style to it and it can be pretty entertaining to watch, david is fucking adorable. if those previously mentioned downsides are things you can’t handle, then i definitely recommend avoiding the show.

    -(something that isn’t listed here)

you can always google stuff

-how do you feel about people mimicking your art style?

for me personally, i won’t gripe about it too much just because i learned art from trying to mimic others and my own style is just an amalgamation of art styles i really like that sort of transpired into it’s own unique(?) thing. when it comes to people trying to draw in my style it personally doesn’t bother me too much, most of my concern actually goes out to the other artist. if ur gonna mimic a style please know the concepts and basics of it. don’t just draw in it because it looks cool, learn the aspects of it and why things look the way they do. i mostly say this because i see a lot of artists copying me and i can tell they don’t really know what they’re doing and it’s seriously hindering them. if you want to learn from my style, please, go ahead, just make sure to study up and learn your own path to avoid hurting your own progress. saying this, there is a point where i very much do not like this stuff and it makes me uncomfortable. but that’s more along the lines of people tracing, just straight up redrawing my stuff, or trying to mimic so closely you could be mistaken for me or ur aiming to have a style indistinguishable from mine. those i’m not okay with. but like, learning from and using me as a study point is okay just make sure u have a breaking off point where ur own individual style comes out for ur own sake.

–a sort of secondary explanation to this as well

ANONYMOUS ASKED A QUESTION:

(apologize in advance if I get any info wrong) I’ve been in a group chat for awhile and ya know they like to draw art and they are into the whole ew fandom (TBH happy you left it before things Got out of hand) but someone in the chat always seems to say that they drew in your style a lot. Personally I don’t think that any art style looks alike but I wanted to know your thoughts about people having similar art styles with you? I’m sorry if you already answered this question I just haven’t seen it

ANONYMOUS ASKED A QUESTION: 

Also I wanted to ask you on this blog and not your main because if you’re not ok with it I really don’t want people calling out artist that have your style

my thoughts are like. if someone wants to draw in my style on occasion (like for fun like a study or a meme thing) then it’s cool. if they want to study my style to incorporate pieces into it that i’m also okay with (i could honestly probably look at parts of my style and name what each part is from and who inspired it. like a franken-style) if they have a style that’s obviously inspired but still personal and unique yeah i’m absolutely cool with it that’s really cool to see the impact i have on people

what i’m not okay with is obvious tracing, redrawing, colouring my shit, and the like. i’m not okay with someone trying to perfectly imitate my style for their regular work for a lot of reasons.

one is paranoia about identity. i want to keep my stuff unique and recognizable and if everyone mimics my shit perfectly that sorta ruins years of work and strife and striving for me and i fear possible work. plus i already have to deal with people making accounts and posting my stuff pretending to be me i don’t need someone doing that but also producing their own content that passes and using my name for attention

two is paranoia for them. if you mimic an art style you’re setting yourself up for failure. do not even try to mimic parts of an art style unless you know exactly what they’re for and figure it out on your own to make sure you really get it. don’t get an explanation for each detail from the artist. figure it out on your own to really understand how to make it your own (specific example of this: the lines i draw on cheeks and noses for face colouration/characterization i have seen maybe one-in-a-million people know how to properly do this when they draw in my style. if you try to mimic or incorporate style pieces that you don’t understand you’re setting yourself up for failure and an art style that’ll just never look right because it’s not you, it’s someone else but like the photocopier mucked up a bit. like when you compare an on-brand pokemon doll to a knock-off from amazon with a spelling error in the title. or like Bart vs Just Like Bart.

and tbh i do appreciate the ask being sent here because i see so much harassment going on from assholes to people who are probably young and just learning. like. yeah i’d prefer people not mimic me perfectly but honestly don’t fucking attack people for it. don’t even make commentary on it. as long as they follow any of my blogs or have read my FAQ they’ll know my stance and instead of asshole messages they just need time to sort out their own work or find a few different inspirations to pick pieces from. the only time you should point anything out that someone is doing is if they’re tracing, reposting, colouring my sketches, or just redrawing my stuff (ie they draw their own version of a drawing of mine either of the same character or a different one) and even then i prefer people not comment, i prefer they come to me and let me deal with it to avoid havoc. bc a lot of the time there’s wrong accusations. if you see me messaging someone like on instagram or youtube that confirms “yep this is zac’s drawing stolen” then feel free to comment but don’t you dare be an ass about it. take the “this artwork is stolen/trace/etc please take it down for the sake of the artist.” y’know?

-why do you have an entirely separate blog for your FAQ? you know you can make blog pages, right?

i’m well aware of that and originally my faq WAS set up on a blog page, but unfortunately many folks proved to be either lazy or just couldn’t figure out how to get to a blog page on mobile so i had to set it up this way for accessibility purposes.

upholstered furniture

pairing: pansy parkinson x harry potter

setting: modern, non-magical, reality/film star au; based on this

word count: 4,654 words


(7:22 am) Did you see the casting news yet? For Boy Who Lived?

(8:15 am) fuck off its sunday

(8:16 am) Ronald.

(8:17 am) unless they chose to go with an actual fucking cgi flamingo i dont give a shit right now and it can wait until tomorrow

(8:19 am) It really can’t. Harry’s going to fire you when he finds out.

(8:19 am) ??????? get ur blasphemous ass back to church no he’s not

(8:20 am) Yes, he is. It was YOUR idea to scrap the chemistry test.

(8:23 am) omg what is ur DAMAGE chemistry tests r dumb af harry hates them

(8:24 am) And sometimes you have to act as his AGENT, not his best friend, and advise him to do the things he hates, Ronald. Like chemistry tests.

(8:25 am) thx for the fortune cookie fun fact i’ll pass it on to harry’s latest oscar nom ok

(8:29 am) Check Variety. They reported on the casting this morning. There was a “leak” at the studio. Naturally.

(8:32 am) harrys gonna fucking fire me ur right


BREAKING: Hurricane Hollywood star tapped for female lead in Paramount’s Boy Who Lived

October 11, 2016. Los Angeles.

Well, it’s official.

Seemingly permanent tabloid staple Pansy Parkinson (Hurricane Hollywood; The Hottie and the Nottie), better known for her outrageous late-night party antics than she is for her acting prowess, has been cast as Harry Potter’s (Under the Stairs) on-screen love interest for the futuristic dystopian thriller, Boy Who Lived, slated for release by Paramount sometime in Summer 2018. While Parkinson has been persistently vocal about her desire to make the transition from her Cristal throne in Vegas to the slightly more respectable silver screen, this will be her first role in a major motion picture.

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eene-fangirl  asked:

Either 1. Do an analysis on the scene from A Fistful of Ed where Eddy sticks up for Edd. Starting from after Kevin leaves the scene to the end when the Ed's are sharing hotdogs. Or, if you don't wish to do an analysis (But, still think about doing an analysis) you can answer this question. What is your favorite thing about Eddy sticking up for Edd in a Fistful of Ed? *Look at the post on my page if you have any questions.

I love this scene SO MUCH!  I’m gonna do this under the cut, I don’t have time to comment on everything right now so I’ll add a few more comments after I get dinner.

These screenshots are from a folder I made forever ago labeled “Raw Eddy” because I LOVE the way Eddy’s rage from over the entire series finally boils over (pretty literally, the animators rev up his boiling outline to an extreme twitch before he erupts) and all that frustration turns out to be the group’s secret weapon against their biggest enemy at that time.

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A/N: YAY I DID IT! I WROTE A THING! so I used your request to play with formats… and the way did everything is so extra… it’s midnight and I’m hella sleepy…. I really hope this makes sense… I did the best I could…. hope you’re ok with Ben Solo… poor baby doesn’t get enough love…… did I mention how hella i is at the moment? I did this to myself. damn…. I just crushed my cat and now he’s mad at me… Merlins beard my life’s a mess. 

WARNING: BULLING AND SOME PRETTY FUCKED UP SHIT IS SAID! KYLO GET CALLED A BUNDLE OF STICKS!

SIDEBAR: I DO NOT CONDONE TO HOMOPHOBIA AND I DO NOT CONDONE TO ANY HATE TOWARDS THE LGBT COMMUNITY! 


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*100 Followers kylo requests prompt list.

*Texts from Kylo Masterlist



He sat broodingly on the edge of the bed; eyes to the ground, brows furrowed and lips pouting. Tonight was a big night for him and you both. Tonight was the night you told your parents you were dating Ben Solo.

Your parents had a strong disliking towards Han and they didn’t express much interest for his teenage-anxiety-son either. Though Ben was nothing like Han, your dad had managed to convince your mom that the Apple didn’t fall far from the tree and Ben was a bad seed!

For years you avoided him. You would walk past him and look the other way while he was getting picked on by the other kids. Anytime he was being bullied you would just stand there with your friends silently as they called him nasty things. 

Ben was a gentle and sensitive soul who would just take everything the other kids threw at him. 

one day after lessons ben was cornered for no reason in the corridors of the resistances base. A boy by the name of Otan thought it was funny to rough Ben up and call him names for having longer hair than rest of the other boys.

“Look at this faggot!” Shouted Otan as he pulled on Ben’s dark locks. “He’s got hair like a girl! What a little bitch!”

“Yeah! I bet he likes boys too!” Shouted another kid.

Otan scrunched up his nose in disgust. “You know what we do to fags like you??? We fuck them up!”

Snapping, you picked up your book and hit Otan in the back of the head then kicked him in the balls for good measure. You had been silent for far too long and refused to just let the bullying continue. 

Taking Ben’s hand, you ran out of the building and into the hangar area where you know the two of you could be alone.

“It’s ok to be different, Ben.”

He shook his head vigorously. “I’m not gay.”

“I know.” You whispered. “I just mean it’s ok to not fit in. Just because you like to be alone doesn’t mean you’re weird.”

“I don’t like to be alone.”

You frowned. “Then why are you always by yourself?”

“Because the only time anyone says a thing to me is to insult me… so why would I want to fit in with people like that?” He sighed.

You felt guilty; tears welling in your eyes and they easily spilled over. “I’m sorry those laser brains pick on you, and I’m sorry I’ve never done anything about it. It’s just my dad wants me to stay away from- but- I would rather disobey my father than watch you get picked on another day!”

“It wouldn’t have to be like this, you know.” Ben hung his head. “My father should have never borrowed money from your father if he was just going to run off with the intention of not paying your father back.”

You took his hand and smiled sympathetically. Ben was a hurting boy who was ashamed of his own father.

“My dad says you’re a bad kid, but I don’t think you’re bad. I think you’re just misunderstood.”

“If you only knew what went on in my mind-”

“-let’s be friends, yes?” You cut him off.

he smiled innocently. “I’d like that.”

from that moment on the two of you were inseparable. he became your best and only friend. you traded your popularity for obscurity only to found you were happier that way… that he made you happier. you stopped caring about the whispers and learned to ignore the glances. his eyes and whispers were all that mattered.

It was Ben’s idea to keep your relationship a secret. though, you weren’t scared of your parent’s disapproval; he didn’t want to cause any trouble. he had been struggling a lot with his own self, and the last thing he wanted was to carry the guilt of tearing your family apart. 

somehow you had convinced him to out your relationship by saying it was for the better. sneaking around and the thrill of being caught was fun at first, but you wanted to openly love your boyfriend. you wanted to be able to hold his hand through the corridors and kiss him tenderly while everyone gawked. you weren’t ashamed to be seen with big nose Ben and you wanted desperately to prove that to him.

“Do we have to do this?”

gently dropping to your knees in front of him, you grabbed his hand earning his full attention. his eyes were full of so much fear and so much doubt. poor ben felt his anxiety peak. 

“how many times do I have to tell you we absolutely have to.”

Ben closed his eyes and took a deep breath. “you could lose a lot. I’m just saying.”

“well, I’m just saying we’re going to be fine!” you said.

“your parents hate me.” he frowned.

you shrugged happily reaching out you cupped his cheeks, making him bush.

“they don’t hate you… they just do see things the way I do, and if they don’t accept us- so what! I have a lot of money save up that they don’t know about. we could just run away somewhere. I don’t really care for the resistance and it’s not like your excited about training with your uncle luke. if things get rough and money becomes tight, we could always stay with your mom. she loves me, right?”

“adores you,” ben smiled. 

“I’m ok as long as I’ve got you.”


A/N: did this suck as bad as I thought it did???? not gonna lie this was kind of hard. 

I WANT TO WRITE A DAMN S7 SPUFFY POST

HOLD ON TIGHT, BITCHES, BECAUSE WE GON’ TALK ABOUT SPUFFY IN S7 AND ALSO SOULFUL SPIKE AND ALSO BUFFY. WHY? BECAUSE I MOTHER FUCKING FEEL LIKE IT. IT’S GON’ BE LONG AS SHIT. YOU HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA MOTHER FUCKER. LITERALLY, THIS WILL TAKE YOU AT LEAST AN HOUR TO READ. STRAP IN, WHORES.

I’m gonna calm down now.

So, Spike is back in Sunnydale. He’s the First’s bitch, but we don’t know that yet. I dunno why it is exactly that Buffy was so surprised to see him in the basement (other than he looked weird and hadn’t been around recently), but to me it looked like she wasn’t scared of him? You know, like she should be after he tried to rape her? Is that because she knew he felt horribly about what he did or because she could tell something was different about him (the crazy, I mean)? And also, we know now that Spike was out of his mind, seeing things because of the First. But watching it back, you can see the exact moment he realizes that the girl in front of him was really Buffy. The little “Buffy, duck” thing was, well, adorable. 

Okay, so I believe that everything Spike said when he was “crazy” had a meaning to it. You just gotta look deep enough. So, when he says “Don’t you think I’m trying! I’m not fast. I’m not a quick study. I dropped my board in the water and the chalk all ran. Sure to be caned. Should’ve seen that comin’,” I think he’s trying to tell Buffy (and probably the First) that he’s trying to atone for what he did, but he’s not succeeding because he hasn’t had his soul in a long while. The progress he made before the soul was washed away as soon as he tried to rape Buffy. And he suspects that he’s being punished for it now. Spike dialogue in the first episodes of S7 are so profound. You don’t realize it on the first run through, but if you go back and really listen, it’s astounding. 

Buffy obviously isn’t too untrustworthy of Spike in this scene. I don’t know if, like I said before, it’s because of the crazy or because she knows she can handle herself or what it is, but she seemed to be ready to fight the ghost-like things with Spike by her side. The tender moment where Buffy asks Spike what he did to himself, with him answering “I tried to cut it out,” is one of my favorite moments of the season. It’s a very nice moment between the two of them where you can almost see Buffy feel sorry for Spike, even before she knows what he went through. 

This end sequence with the various “baddies” talking to Spike is pretty significant, to say the least. Of course, it gives us insight into the thing that’s going to be the final boss for the season, but it also shows us Spike in a way we’ve never seen him before. For someone who loves Spike more than anything, this is a big deal to me. He’s busted up and broken down, so somber that he didn’t get to give Buffy his “I have a soul” speech. It’s a very powerful scene, to me. 

Aye, Spike is back in black. So to speak, I mean, he’s wearing blue. Which is out of character for him. So, maybe he’s not back in black exactly. Whatever. 

I really love the backseat attitude he takes with Buffy in this scene. I’ve said that in a post before, but it’s such a running theme with him throughout the season that it’s important to note. First of all, he genuinely is there just to help out. No ulterior motives. That’s already a totally new Spike. Second, he knows that saying sorry won’t do jack shit. He knows that and he tells her that. He also tells her that if she wants him out, he’ll go and stay gone. That. Is. A. Huge. Deal. Spike is letting Buffy drive this situation all the way. And, again, he’s not doing it so she’ll come back to him, he’s doing it because he’s a good man. He maybe shouldn’t of called her wariness of him being “skittish,” but nonetheless.

I really love that Anya was the one to realize he had his soul back. I also really love that Spike doesn’t want Buffy to know. He sort of implied that in the scene prior, too, when they were checking out the hole in the ground. He knows that he probably won’t get her back, but he doesn’t want to influence her in any way by telling her he has his soul back. He doesn’t want that to be an excuse, he just wants Buffy to realize that he’s changed somehow. 

The part before the church, where Spike accidentally stabs that guy, is a very interesting way to deliver, basically, the plot for S7. First, Spike says, again, how painful it is to have the soul inside of him (because he’s unaware that it’s First messing with him at this point). Then he says something that has sort of a double meaning for both the First and for him. The “call it quits, now there’s an option. If only it were that easy” bit. For Spike, it means that he feels like he’d be much better off if he could get rid of the soul, but he doesn’t see that as an option because he doesn’t really want to get rid of it. For the First, it means that Buffy can’t quit. She’s revving up for the fight of her life, and there’s no going or coming back from it. 

After Spike yells at the First, I really love how Sarah gives Buffy the expression of, almost, pity for Spike. It’s a nice way to show that she knows this Spike is different from the one she knew in S6. She just doesn’t know how, yet. 

Sidebar: I’m gonna brag on James’s acting with basically every scene I talk about, so get ready.

The little speech before the “from beneath you, it devours” line is so well done. James knocked it out of the park. It’s the right amount of creepy and ominous. And James also makes it very clear that Spike has been snapped into a sort of trance that makes him say the things he said. I’m not done braggin’ on James in this episode. Hold up. We gon’ do the church scene. Which is, besides the lovey dovey stuff at the end of the season, my favorite scene in the whole show.

I told y’all the blue shirt was weird! A “costume” he says. Whoa, that’s sad as hell. Buffy with the touching of the wounds again. C’mon, Buff. Don’t you know he’s sensitive? No, but really, Spike asking her if he was “flesh” to her is so profound. Spike begins by asking if Buffy even thinks of him as a person at all, then if he was ever anything other than a “sex toy” to her, then he sort of resigns and “accepts” that that’s all he’ll ever be to her. “Service the girl.” One line I want to dwell on here is “Feed on flesh. My flesh. Nothing else. Not a spark.” To me, this is Spike telling her that he doesn’t blame her for not loving him. Because there wasn’t a “spark” (soul) to love. There was only flesh, ergo, only sex. It’s very, very sad to me.

“The girl doesn’t want to be serviced. Because there’s no spark.” I mean, it’s pretty obvious what Spike means here, but God isn’t is heartbreaking? Knowing that when he says “spark,” he means “soul” makes this scene so much richer. Hearing him say he tried to find his soul because she didn’t want him just hurts. And he feels ashamed of it, of everything. He can’t even talk about it unless he’s in the shadows. Spike dreaming about killing Buffy… here’s the thing: I feel like he dreamed of that because of, what he said, her making him “weak.” He wanted her to not be there so he wouldn’t have to love her and let that love make him better because being better is too painful. But I also think he dreamed of killing her because, to him, that would’ve been better than what he did do (attempted rape). I don’t know. Either way, it’s a hell of a bit.

“Angel, he should’ve warned me.” Click. Buffy sees. She understands. She knows why he’s so different now. You can see her trying to work it out, even rationalize it away. No, he wouldn’t’ve gotten his soul back just to be with me, would he? “Bit worse for lack of use.” Initially, before we know about the First, that’s really fucking sad.

So, when Spike says “It’s what you wanted, right? It’s what you wanted, right?” I assumed he was talking to the First the second time around. But I think, now, that he was talking to God. Saying to him you wanted me to have my soul back, right, so you could punish me for everything I’ve done? That ends up tying in with what he says about everyone he ever hurt screaming in his head at him to go to Hell. And I think Buffy gets that, too. I think she feels sorrow (?) for Spike because she realizes that’s a hell of a lot to feel guilty about.

Spike’s confession, or rather, literally everything he says from here on in, is one of the most heartbreaking, sorrowful things I’ve ever seen on television. Buffy asks him “Why?” Spike tells her. He says “Why does a man do what he mustn’t? For her. To be hers. To be a kind of man who would nev– To be a kind of man.” Let’s talk about that for a moment. The break in his voice at the end of that sentence, fucking ow. This is the first time we get a verbal confirmation of Spike’s regret about the attempted rape. Not only did he get his soul back for Buffy, he got it back for him. He didn’t want to be the kind of man that would do that to someone, let alone someone he loved. In fact, he says instead that he wasn’t even a man before. He didn’t deserve to be called a man, so he got his soul back so he could be one, any kind at all just so long as he wasn’t the void of a man he thought himself to be before. I keep saying it, but holy shit is that sad and profound. 

Okay, I know this bit by heart, ready? “And she shall look on him with forgiveness. And everybody will forgive and love. And he will be loved. So everything’s okay, right? Can we rest now? Buffy, can we rest?” This is what he was hoping would happen. Not what he thought would happen, but what he hoped for. Spike wanted to come back to her and be forgiven and loved. Which, of course, that happened, but Spike is too fucked to realize that that’s a possibility right now. He then says, kind of sarcastically, “So everything’s okay, right?” It’s not really meant to be sarcastic, I know, but the way it’s put into the scene it’s almost like Spike is saying it should be better now. Why isn’t it better? That’s why he says “Can we rest now?” He just wants it to be done. He just wants Buffy to love him. But at the same time he thinks he doesn’t deserve it and thinks he’ll never get it. So, he’s numbed himself to the idea that the pain will never stop. He’ll forever be in a state of regret and grief and aching pain. I think that’s why he rests on the cross, because nothing could hurt more than what he was already feeling. It may also be a metaphor for Spike still feeling like he’s a monster that doesn’t deserve forgiveness. Because, cross’s burn vampires, right? So, of course, Spike is still a vampire. Spike burning himself on the cross could be a way of reminding himself that no, of course she can’t love you. You’re still a monster. 

James killed this scene. The acting quality here, for the both of them, is just amazing. It gets me every time, I get pulled into the world and all I can see/feel is Spike’s torment. Lovely, yet haunting. 

Speaking of James killing scenes. So, this episode isn’t Spike-centric like the previous episode was, but this scene doesn’t disappoint. 

So, of course, in this scene (which had to of taken extreme discipline and talent to film) Spike is talking to Willow and Xander and Buffy. It’s interesting to me that Spike can see Willow when no one else can, same with Anya. I suppose the thing that made Willow invisible doesn’t apply to demons? Anyway.

Okay, so the thing he says about the permission slip? I’ve got no idea what the hell he’s talking about. I did say earlier that a crazed Spike’s ramblings meant something if you listened hard enough, but I think that’s an outlier that doesn’t mean much other than confirming that the Hellmouth is drawing darkness to it. I think from then on in this scene, it’s pretty obvious what Spike is talking about in regards to himself or to Willow and the body, so I won’t explain, just talk about it.

Bragging on James again, the moment when Willow says she can’t find anyone, Spike gets this look on his face like that’s strange because I’m looking at them right now. 

Couple questions: How did Spike hear about Willow skinning Warren? And also, why is Willow not more concerned that Spike is literally out of his fucking mind?

I love the little nod to “Fool for Love” in this scene when Spike asks for a word that means “glowing.” I also really love that Spike doesn’t chalk up this scenario as him being crazy, he knows that Willow isn’t there exactly. I’m telling you man, Spike is right a majority of the time. Even when he’s crazy, apparently.

Holy shit, this scene is so sad. 

I mean, obviously, right? I think Buffy was already feeling pain for Spike. Not feeling sorry for him, but understanding and knowing that the pain he’s feeling is real and that he really does feel badly about the things he’d done in the past. You can tell that, too, because she’s appealing to his “hero” side to try and get him to be lucid so he can help. She tells him that Cassie needs his help, hoping that’ll get through to him. And Spike trying to “stay quiet” is so sad.  

When Spike pegs himself as the evil in the basement, you can see Buffy feeling that pain I talked about earlier. And when she explains that it isn’t her that is going to be hurt, that’s when I took the screen cap above. That face breaks my heart. He’s so confused and lost and pained. Like he knows exactly where he is but doesn’t at the same time, and he can’t figure out why. He’s using Buffy–looking at Buffy, into her eyes–to keep him grounded.

“Don’t-don’t leave me. Stay here and help me be quiet.” This is another one of those moments. You know, the sad ones. 

Okay, really quick here. Spike’s using this moment to make up for what he did to Buffy (for himself, not for Buffy), at least a small bit. He tells one of the dudes trying to kill her that he’s a bad man. I don’t think this is a totally straight forward line, as I thought it was before. I think Spike said it to mean I’m a bad man, but I’ll be bad for the right reasons. Him whimpering as he hit that guy is sort of hard for me to watch just because it isn’t the roaring, Jesus Christ that hurt, scream that usually comes out of him when he hurts someone; it was small and weak, and that’s not the way we’re used to seeing Spike.

Right, so the “someday she’ll tell you” bit. We know how that ends up now (extremely sad), but at the time we’re just as confused as ol’ Spike. I wonder, when Buffy did tell him, if he remembered that moment. 

Jesus, I didn’t realize how long crazy Spike lasted. You have no idea how many I wanted this conversation (as shown above) to be real between Buffy and Spike. I know a lot of people use the “we’ll get through this” line in Spuffy posts as if it were real, but God. I can’t imagine Buffy ever being that gushy towards Spike, but I can dream.

Added on to that, the First is one evil son of a bitch to do this to Spike (giving him the closure and peace he feels like he’ll never have with Buffy). Of course, the main thing to remember with this scene is that it is a real conversation to Spike, at least in the moment he’s having it. So, Spike talking about Dru and telling Buffy he could never ask for help after what he did to her, that’s a really beautiful moment from him. It’s also very sad because he’s telling her that they’ll never get past it all and she’s telling him she sees that he’s changed, and we know that they do get past it and Buffy does see the change.

The actual talk they have won’t make you feel any better, either. Spike says he doesn’t have anywhere to go other than the basement, and boom, now you’re crying again.

So, I was originally going to skip this episode, but this scene and the one immediately after are too important to pass up. Buffy helping Spike is a big step anyway, but when he touches her? And she jumps? But she says it’s her not him? Listen, I’m glad that six episodes in, they’re still addressing the attempted rape and how that’s affecting Buffy. But the fact that after he tells her he’s sorry for touching her arm, she says it’s her issue and not his? That’s a big deal. Especially because it’s totally understandable that she’d be jumpy. It conveys that she knows he’s not the same man as he was when he tried to hurt her. Basically, this scene shows us that Buffy doesn’t think she needs to be cautious around Spike at all anymore, that the jumpiness (in this scene) was just a bodily reaction. The amount of strength in that, man, whoa.

The scene after this one is the one where Dawn is asking Buffy why she’s helping Spike, even after he tried to rape her. I love this scene because Buffy tells Dawn that Spike knew as soon as she threw him off that what he’d done was horrible. I appreciate that little tidbit because it directly contradicts a lot of what she said in Season 6 about the fact that she could never love him because he was monster. 

Mkay, I’m not saying much about this one, even though it’s an important one for Buffy what with the admitting how she feels/could feel about Spike and how she treated him before and pretty much everything bad about their relationship.

I really do appreciate that Buffy is more self aware at this point in the series (even though she gets cocky and bossy later on). It makes me like Buffy as a character a lot more. In seasons prior, I found it really hard to like her as much as I should like a main character. In Season 4, she was too reserved when it came to college and Riley; in Season 5, I didn’t like the whole “mom” thing going on with Dawn; in Season 6, she was a total bitch to Spike for the majority of the time. Season 7, though, I can appreciate all of that and where it brought her. 

I also really like that she admits out loud to herself that the way she treated Spike was awful, but also that she shouldn’t of let it happen in the first place. Now, I’m mostly happy that it happened, but for Buffy’s well being and state of mind, it really shouldn’t have (although I’m sure with Spike to talk to, some of her pain was lessened at least).  

So, she knew Spike really did love her. She knows now that she acted the way she did because she didn’t want to be loved. That is good character development right there. K, we’re done here. Moving on.

Dude, how damn strong is the First that it can make Spike kill but the pain from the chip doesn’t snap him out of it? Christ. All I’m gonna say about the scene above is: holy shit, can you fucking see how much she cares about Spike? She’s fighting with herself so much on what to believe. On the barest level, yeah, Spike is William the Bloody. He could kill people again if he wanted to. But realistically? Nope. Not Spike. He wouldn’t. Couldn’t. And not just because of the chip. I love that about this scene.

Quick sidebar about it: when Buffy asks how his night was (obviously to see if he’d be all lol, I ate a girl), Spike looked so freaking happy that she was talking to him about something so normal.

Aw, man this scene is gold. This is another one of those ones that I’ve basically got memorized. Buffy is trying so hard to be the old, hard-ass Buffy. But, like, she so can’t because she knows that Spike didn’t do it. 

It’s very sad that Spike doesn’t remember any of it, but that’s a whole other thing. The way he defends himself by saying he couldn’t of killed anyone because of his soul is so damn cool. Of course, in the next episode, Buffy tells him that it isn’t just his soul but the fact that he’s a good man that keeps him from hurting anyone. 

Spike calling Buffy out about being jealous…oooo. I didn’t think that she was jealous at first, but after watching it back 2,000 times, I started to see it. I don’t think she was jealous before he brought it up, but when he did, she had the fleeting wh-no! I’m not jealous, please! thought. Which is totally a lie. 

If Spike is always right, and you know it, clap your hands *clap* *clap*. But honestly. I like his roundabout way of telling her he still loves her. I’ve said this in posts before, but I don’t think Spike wanted to tell her he still loved her. I think he wanted to try to stop using that as a way of convincing Buffy. He just wanted her to know he’d changed. No matter what that meant for the two of them because his goal this season was definitely not to get her back.

Spike being so defensive about the killing is pretty sad. He’s so scared that he did do it. And then it escalated to horror when he realizes he did. And then he calls Buffy for help, aw.

Spike’s trigger song is kind of pretty, yeah? Maybe it’s just because James was singing it. It’s worth noting here that Buffy wasn’t trying to hurt Spike, she was trying to snap him out of it. Even before she fully understood that something was messing with him. 

I always appreciate Spike’s vamp face, don’t you? Wasn’t the moment he licked the blood from Buffy’s arm almost…sensual? I guess for a vampire, blood is sensual, but it’s just a very interesting few seconds to me. Especially because the taste of Buffy’s blood specifically seemed to jog his memory of the killings.

In case you haven’t been able to tell by my choppy writing, I’m watching these scenes as I’m typing so it’s probably a little confusing as to what part I’m on. Sorry about that. 

So, we’re in the cellar, after the fighting and the “sorry, ma’am, but it’s my job.” Listen to me. Someone as large and in charge as Spike/James should not be allowed to look that small. The same deal happens in the scene after when he’s wrapped up in the blanket in Buffy’s house. It’s so fucking heartbreaking to see. That’s the sign of a good actor, right there. Damn.

The pain in Spike’s expression, his eyes, his face. Holy hell. He thinks Buffy is definitely going to kill him and he wants it. He’s not just okay with it, he’s not just understanding in why she has to do it, he wants it. His voice breaks, too, when he asks her to kill him quickly, when he talks about the song, and when he asks to forget. Just the sound of his voice is enough to make me cry.

I love that Buffy sort of tells Spike that he isn’t in pain because of the soul but because of whatever it is that’s messing with him (the First). And he asks her for help again. For the second time this episode. And she says she will again. Bitch. That’s…wow.

And here we see Buffy fighting so hard to help Spike. For her mission but also because she doesn’t want him to feel the pain he’s been feeling for so long. That’s very sweet. Also, I don’t know why, but Buffy feeding him is also very sweet to me. Maybe it’s because you can see it in her eyes, that she’s scared for him and that she wants to help him.

So, when Spike says (in answer to Buffy asking him how he got his soul back) that he “saw a man about a girl,” I feel like this is a really important moment for Buffy. Why, you ask, it’s only one line? Well, because, usually when Spike says he’s done something for her or because of her or any time he shows affection for her at all, Buffy takes the whole revulsion approach. But she didn’t this time. Instead what she showed on her face was, dare I say, guilt. Guilt that the reason for Spike’s guilt is because of her, because she’s why he got his soul. She does the same thing when he explains that he went through torture to get his soul back.

And. Here. We. Finally. Have. Spike. Confronting. Buffy. About. How. Shit. She. Treated. Him. We’ve seen how badly Spike feels about the attempted rape, Buffy confronted him about it. And now, here, we flip it around. Spike gets a chance to tell her that he understands why she did it, although it still hurt him. 

Here’s the thing: Spike is generally right about most stuff. And I think he pegged Buffy pretty well in this scene…but not the current Buffy. He pegged the Buffy from Season 6. Of course, in the basement later, she corrects him on that, but yeah. Spike says he hates himself, Buffy has that guilty look again.

Okay. Okay. Okayokayokay. I love this scene.

First of all, Buffy cleaning up Spike, love that. I mean, it isn’t his blood, but still. Unless it was from her kicking him in the face. Anyway.

Can you imagine how pleased Spike probably ended up being with himself that he bit Andrew? Like, after he figured out how annoying Andrew was (I love Andrew, but you know what I mean)? Every time Andrew brought up their road trip or tried to play 20 questions with him, I bet Spike thought at least I got to bite you. 

Good guys being martyrs and trying to put themselves in the ground are my weakness. Spike telling Buffy to kill him is ugh! 

It’s a really interesting piece, though, coupled with Spike telling Buffy how horrible he’d been in the past. Initially, I thought that Spike trying to rape Buffy was a freak thing, so to speak, that he wouldn’t of done it with Dru or any time before that. Now, though, I’m not so sure. In this scene, when he tells Buffy she got off easy, I assume that’s what he’s talking about right? Because when he says the thing about him damaging a girl just enough so that she’ll still cry when he- And he cuts himself off? He was going to say when you rape them, right? From a story standpoint, that’s very interesting to me. I don’t know if it’s because I find rape so vile or what it is, but I just didn’t think William the Bloody or even Angelus would do that to someone. The way James and David played those characters, I guess I just assumed that rape wouldn’t be something they’d do.

And the whole time Spike is trying to anger Buffy enough so that she’ll kill him, she’s telling him that he is not that bad man anymore. That he’s worth saving (like that Fred reference I just threw in there?). 

When Spike says “it’s not love” in reference to why Buffy hasn’t killed him, I have a theory. Buffy told him it was because he fought by her side because, for one that’s true, but also because she figured that’s the only way he’d listen to her. But I think that when he said “it’s not love,” Buffy though to herself not yet. Just my opinion, but if she did? Dayum.

Then Spike pegs Season 6 Buffy again, and she corrects him, like I said earlier. It’s nice to know that Buffy’s grown so much so that she doesn’t need to hate to do her job. 

These lines right here, I love them. “You faced the monster inside of you, and you fought back. You risked everything to be a better man. And you can be. You are. You may not see it, but I do. I do. I believe in you, Spike.” It’s not an I love you, but isn’t it almost better? Buffy had never said anything like this to him in the past. It is such a huge deal that she’s not only saying it to give confidence to Spike, but because she really believes it. And Spike. Oh, Spike. As soon as she said she believes in him, he got this look of almost confusion on his face that turned to…well, the only way I can describe it is that he was glowing. Hearing that from Buffy of all people made him believe in himself. Beautiful, beautiful moment.  

These next two episodes are gonna go by pretty fast because there’s not a whole lot of Spuffy (which is why we’re here). I don’t know where, but I’m pretty sure at some point Buffy expresses the need to find Spike. Which is important because, for example, in Season 5 when Glory kidnapped him, Buffy expressed the need to find him…but only because she didn’t want him to tell Glory that Dawn was the key. This season, she wants to find Spike because she wants Spike back. Needs him back. She doesn’t want him to die. How amazing is that?

So, the main thing with this episode, obviously, is that Spike isn’t giving into the First because Buffy believes in him. Do you realize how powerful that is? He’s fighting to be good, one of the hardest things he’s ever had to do, and the thing that’s making it easy for him is Buffy. That’s incredible.

As if it wasn’t enough that Spike is being tortured, now he’s fighting to believe that Buffy cares enough to come for him. OH MY GOD, how sad. Of course, the First is making him doubt it more than he normally would, but Spike is faced with something here that he hasn’t addressed yet this season: how does Buffy feel about me? Surely he’s thinking to himself that after all he’s done, she’d be crazy to risk her life to save him. But he’s also hoping that since she believes in him, since she saw his change, she’ll come anyway.

And then she does. And Spike is so happy it makes my heart hurt. Jesus, his face when he realizes it’s really Buffy is something I’ll never forget. I don’t know if I’d say he got to a point that he didn’t believe she’d come for him, but when he saw her…he lit up. Relief and love and joy all bubbled up inside of him. His face was absolutely beautiful in that moment. And Buffy. Seeing how happy he was to see her, the love and elation behind his eyes. It’s a hell of a thing, with two people, when you can be happy just because the other person is happy. 

Their hands. This is such a sweet moment. All of it. Buffy being concerned, Spike being a gentleman, Buffy running her hands down his chest, their hands touching and the eye thing they do. I wanna cry tears of love. I wish I knew how to say more about it, but it’s just so serene and beautiful that all I can do is let it speak for itself.

I just want to say one thing about this moment here and the scene prior (in the demon bar). It’s very, very nice that they’re in a place that they can look back on the memories of them fighting together and being together in a positive way. The vitriol and toxicity forgotten. 

So, first off, they’re having a normal conversation. Which is, like, what? Spike saying that Buffy keeps him safe mirrors what he said earlier in the season when he wanted her to help him be quiet. I don’t know how to explain exactly why this is such a big deal to me, but it is. Maybe it’s because he depends on her or because he wouldn’t have been able to kick the First’s influence without her or what, but the fact that she affects him so much is really powerful to me. Also, is it not super adorable that Spike and Buffy are like Mom and Dad to the potentials?

I’m gonna go ahead and talk about the chip removal now instead of sticking a picture in here because I think I’ve overloaded you with pictures for the last couple episodes. I really love how the entirety of Buffy’s storyline this episode is figuring out how to help Spike. I love, too, how the show pitched it at the end like will she remove the chip or not, does she really trust him enough? As if it’s not obvious already that, duh, she does. That doesn’t make it any less of an important choice, though. Not because well, what if he goes back to being bad. Because he won’t. It’s important because it not only tells us that Buffy trusts Spike enough, it tells Spike that, too. 

In this scene, Buffy stands up to Giles about Spike. Giles. Her father figure. The one she’s looked up to for seven years. She makes the same argument she’s been making to everyone else, about Spike having a soul. But not only that, she vouches for him being a good man, but only if they give him the chance. That’s sort of a new concept for her. Essentially, she’s putting responsibility on herself and everyone else to help Spike be better. That’s pretty cool. And the fact that now, all of a sudden (or rather, after her newly found faith in Spike), she considers the chip to be an act of evil. Like, what? Literally, ever since he got the chip, she’s been saying that it’s like God’s gift. Which, for Season 4 (maybe a little Season 5) Spike, that was true. 

It’s strange because she could’ve said since he has a soul, he doesn’t need the chip. That would make it Spike’s responsibility to be better. But she didn’t say that. She said that it was evil fighting evil. Which puts the blame on them. It’s quite a nice show of her feelings for him.

“You look nice” he says. You know he’s thinking holy hell, she’s beautiful. And she’s trying to spare his feelings about the date (but also, is it just me, or does she not totally see it as a date? Because maybe Wood isn’t the one she really wants?) And Spike is a gentleman, again, of course. Which, to me, it looks like Buffy is just a little disappointed that he’s not jealous. Maybe jealous is the wrong word, but she seems to want him to still want to be with her. Does that make sense? Added on to that, or on the other hand, she is also genuinely grateful that he’s stepping back. And then Spike says that some girls like bad boys and that prompts them to remember that they still have the hots for each other, which is good. And Buffy leaves, Spike looks sad because, big shocker, he does still want her and he’s sad he’s losing her.

I was going to skip this moment, but I couldn’t. Look at his face. You know when you’re watching a movie or something and the guy the girl is supposed to be with steps back to let her be happy with someone else, but then they have a moment where he looks at her and his face says God, I love you. Even though I can’t be with you, I love you more than anything in the world. That’s what his face says. And Buffy’s face is saying I didn’t know I could have these feelings for him, but then…how come I am?

Isn’t this episode supposed to be about Wood? There sure is a lot of Spuffy to go around. So, Buffy telling Spike she’s not ready for him to not be there. It’s such a simple scene, but so much comes out of it. Spike is still trying to remove himself because he still, deep down, doesn’t think he deserves to be as happy as he is when he’s with Buffy. Buffy tells him he has to stay. Now, think about that. If she was talking about needing him as a fighter, that would make sense. You have to stay because you’re our best warrior. But she said he has to stay because she needs him. I know they taught us this in elementary school, but “want” and “need” are two very different things. To need is to have to have something because it is essential to you. As in you can’t live without. To tell him he has to stay has such deep meaning. 

And when Spike says the thing about her not needing him because Wood is a demon fighter, Buffy doesn’t say well, yeah, I need you here for that, too, but… blah blah blah. She completely disregards the idea that Spike is there just to be another body. Instead she tells him he has to stay because she’s not ready to let him go. And the way Spike looks at her. It’s like he’s just realized that she might actually feel something more for him. That’s such a surprising notion to him. God, I love this scene. 

So, here’s the thing I love about this scene: the old Spike. Not at first, because when Buffy tells Spike she’s showing Wood the operation, he’s very polite about how it’s a good idea because Wood’s a good fighter, blah blah. But, oh, when dear ol’ Spike gets jealous. I don’t dislike it, in fact, I like it a lot. Because it’s not really the old Spike in sense of the dangerous one, it’s the old Spike in the sense of his personality. For the most part, that’s always a good thing. I mean it’s pretty obvious, but he’s more sarcastic in this scene, he throws in a sexual innuendo, he does the whole macho man thing. It’s great. Also, I like the little nod to Angel with the I’ve got a soul, so now I’m unique…mostly.

Alright, I get that Buffy is trying to make herself “big” for the potentials and the Scoobies, but what she said to Spike was unnecessary. I am proud of him, though, for not biting back the way he normally would. I mean, he argued with her, but he didn’t try to hurt her with what he was saying. 

Literally, this scene was so out of the blue. It shocked me when I watched it because, before this (within the episode), Buffy had no issues with Spike at all. She literally just started something to look tough.

Spike has the right to be confused as hell. And hurt. Basically, she’s making him think that she doesn’t appreciate what he did in getting his soul. That the consequences of him being a better man are that he got soft. Which is bullshit because she doesn’t want the old Spike back. One thing she said that was true was that she was no where near the old Spike. Which isn’t a bad thing at all. And I think Spike knows that, but can you imagine going through so much suffering for someone you love only to have it thrown back in your face? That doesn’t piss you off, it breaks you.

All that being said, I do think that Spike wasn’t being as fierce as he had been in the past. I think he was doing all he could after the First and the soul, so he wasn’t holding back, but I think he was a little afraid to be a badass again. Whether that’s because he thought he’d lose Buffy or because he thought he’d fall back to his old ways, I don’t know. But, I’ll tell you what, when he put that coat back on, he was ready for some fucking action. I think he realized that he could keep that piece of himself, the fighter, and still be the good man he wanted to be.  

No Spuffy in episode 16, but here, have this extremely strange photo instead. 

Okay, here we are with another Spike-centric episode. In this scene, Giles sticks that wormy thing in Spike’s head to suss out what his trigger is. So, I understand why Giles is wary of Spike, but also, like, leave my baby alone! I’m happy, though, that Giles decided to help Spike (even if it was just because Buffy wouldn’t let him do anything else) instead of killing him.

SIKE because he didn’t try to help Spike at all in this episode, he was 100% trying to kill him. But this isn’t about Giles.

I like the little moment we get (after the wormy thing crawls into Spike’s brain, when he loudly exclaimed ow!) where Buffy is worried about Spike. I mean, of course, at this point we know she cares for him, but to see her be worried about his well being like that is adorable. 

Now, after the flashback with horrible poetry, Spike is all defensive and closed off. Of course, after what he remembered. My favorite fucking set of lines from this episode is when Spike says “Get these sodding things off me, I’m fine!” and then Buffy says “Don’t you think you should take a little time, calm down?” and then Spike goes “I am calm.” It’s just so damn hilarious to me for some reason. Know what else is funny is that Spike is so embarrassed about talking about his mother and when he was a baby, as if it’s inherently embarrassing to have even been a baby in the first place. But, for real, can you imagine a little baby Spike? So cute.

And then Buffy stands up to Giles again on Spike’s behalf. Although, granted, Giles is sort of right and Buffy’s judgement is a little clouded, but it’s still sweet okay?

Taking a break from Spuffy for a minute to talk about Spike. The block of time when he’s trapped with Wood provides us with a hell of a lot of information. Other than the flashbacks, of course. So, obviously, what Wood has done to Spike here is extremely unfair. And Wood knows on some level that the Spike that killed his mother is not the same one that’s standing in front of him. That’s why he plays the trigger song. 

But, it’s still a really shitty thing to do because he’s not just killing the “animal,” he’s killing a good man. Just because he chooses not to see it, doesn’t mean it isn’t true. 

Now, in my opinion, Spike took a bit of a dip in this scene as far as morals go. I do think that Wood deserved to get the shit beaten out of him, and I do think that Spike was justified in telling Wood off about the whole “that’s how the game is played” thing. But I don’t really think Spike should’ve said the things he said about Wood’s mother. Mostly because we know ensouled Spike. We know he feels like shit for doing the things he did in the past. I think the reason he said those things about Wood’s mom is because he wanted to hurt Wood emotionally, at least slightly. Which is a regression to the old Spike, and not a good part of him, either. I understand why he did it, but he went just a little too far here.

Dude, when Buffy first looks around that room (with the crosses everywhere), she looks genuinely pissed. As well she should. At first, I was little disappointed that Buffy defended Spike on the grounds that he’s a good warrior, but now I realize that she probably did that because “combat-talk” would be the only way she had even a slight hope of making Wood understand. I don’t think she threatened him for any other reason besides what she said about not having time for vendettas, but I’d like to pretend that she did it to say if you fucking touch my love again, I will kill you myself.

I do appreciate how she said that the Spike that killed his mother didn’t exist anymore. It is sort of sad that all of this broke her relationship with Giles, but honestly, what was he expecting?

Ding, ding, ding. I’ve got an unpopular opinion: I don’t really care for Faith. To be fair, I didn’t watch Angel (other than the Spike bits), but I just don’t really like her being around. I remember when she was the “big bad” she pissed me off so much. Like to a point where I couldn’t enjoy the show. It’s different when an antagonist makes you mad, but you can still appreciate them as a character compared to when you literally can’t watch the show because you can’t stand the character. I recognize that she’s good now, but I guess I just don’t like her attitude. I know, I know. That’ll get me some backlash. But I need to preface with that in case I bitch about her later.

Okay, back to the show. When Spike and Faith meet for the first time (the second time, really, but you know), it’s pretty funny. Especially because of Spike’s annoyance at being compared with Angel. That’ll never get old. One thing I will say is that I like how (and I know they did this on purpose) Faith and Buffy as well as Spike and Angel are opposites…but opposites that are a lot alike. You know? And originally, Spike and Faith would be more alike, just like Buffy and Angel were more alike, but now it’s flip flopped. I dunno. Kinda cool. Moving on.

Jesus Christ, the flirting pisses me off so much. I know that Spike wouldn’t go for Faith since he’s in love with Buffy and always will be, but it’s just annoying as hell to me. Faith’s personality is very showy. I think it’s mostly who she actually is, but she always gives off this sort of fake, “I’m trying to be badass and cool” vibe. Maybe that’s why I don’t like her. Anyway, when she was down in the basement talking to Spike, Spike mirrored her attitude, and I didn’t like it at all. Like, when he was talking about having sex with Buffy, he turned into a stereotypical douche bag. I can’t explain it well, but I hated them interacting with each other. It felt really out of place for the episode, the season, and Spike’s character. I liked the nod to Season 6 Spuffy, though, what with the Spike being amazed with good Buffy is in bed and all.

The reason this scene is important is this right here: Buffy is jealous. Like, of another girl with Spike. What? That never fucking happens. Also, she was totally coming down there to hang out with Spike. There wasn’t any news to tell him, she was 100% just going down there to be with him. Don’t worry, Buffy. I’d be pissy, too. I’m glad they shut that shit down after this episode, though.

I totally forgot about this scene in this episode, otherwise I would’ve skipped over it. Just one main thing to say about Buffy defending Spike to Giles again. The way she says that Spike is the only one that’s watching her back mirrors Season 6 Spuffy really nicely. Because in Season 6, of course, she felt like the only one she could be honest with was Spike. Granted, that turned out horribly, but here it ends up beautifully. 

Good God, this episode means so much. The last three of the series, really. Okay, so Spike is blowing up on a room full of people (that could kill him) for Buffy. Honestly, the group was a little bit justified in what they did. You know, because Buffy was getting out of control. They probably would’ve done better to sit Buffy down and talk about it rather than vote her off the island, though. That thing Buffy said in the previous episode? About the whole Spike being the only one to have her back thing? Well…looks like she was right. God, the things he says about her. You can tell so well how much he loves her and respects her. And the thing is, if Faith wasn’t there to challenge him, he would’ve gotten through to them. Go back and watch that scene and look at the shame on everyone’s faces. It’s good.

And then he and Faith beat on each other and Spike literally sniffs Buffy out and goes to find her. Vampires, man.

I’m gonna talk about the rest of the Spuffy in one fell swoop instead of breaking it up into scenes because, holy shit, that’ll take a lot of time and I’m tired.

When Spike finds her in the house, he’s legitimately so damn excited to tell Buffy about Caleb and the vineyard. It’s mucho adorable. And he’s still totally on her side even when she isn’t (like when Buffy told Spike she believed in him). He tells her that it’s chaos without her just because he thinks that’ll help. It’s SO FUCKING CUTE. Tell you what did help, though, Spike telling Buffy he hit Faith. And as soon as she was like “Really?” Spike went oh, will that help? Hell, I’ll kill the bitch if it’ll make you happy. It’s funny in a sweet way. I guess it needed to be to precursor “the talk.”

So, this talk mirrors the one from “Never Leave Me” almost exactly. Buffy gives the long “I hate myself” speech and Spike gives her her confidence back. I’m gonna break it down more than that, obviously. This is, after all, one of my favorite scenes. Buffy is basically ragging on herself for cutting people off, but she projects that onto the current “her,” which is not the same as the old her (Season 6 Buffy). She did cut off her family of fighters, but her growth from Season 6 to 7 is freaking amazing. Which is why Spike jumps in after she says he only wanted her because she was “unattainable.”

Buffy says “Stage is yours. Tear me up.” And he fucking did, yo. Before I talk about what Spike says, I want to emphasize the importance of the fact that Buffy is listening to him. I’ve said it before, but usually when Spike says something affectionate, she tunes it out. Can you say “character development”? And also, this is the very first time Spike not only tells Buffy that he loves her, but also why he loves her. Okay, let’s get into it.

I’m starting kind of in the middle here with the “100 plus years, and there’s only one thing I’ve ever been sure of: you.” 100+ years. Dude, that’s a long time of not being sure of anything. Buffy breaking through that mold is such a meaningful thing. And (praise for Sarah) Buffy’s eyes twitch because she’s about to cry. Because Spike telling her how much she means to him really touches her (and the episode’s title is “Touched,” how ironic). Buffy never had that reaction when it came to Spike before this. You can tell how much what he’s saying means to her by just looking in her eyes during this scene. Spike saying he’s not asking her for anything sort of drives in the already pretty clear point that he’s not saying any of this for him, he’s doing it because he believes in Buffy and wants her to believe in herself. Totally selfless. And then what he says about her being “a hell of a woman” is just so beautiful. Spike saying she’s “the one” has two meanings, right. First, Buffy is the chosen one, of course. The Slayer. But she’s also the one for him. The only one he’ll ever truly love. Naturally, Buffy says “I don’t wanna be the one” in reference to the Slayer thing, but Spike brings it home with some good ol’ fashioned humor.

Buffy asks Spike to stay with her. My head is spinning, that’s so huge. She’s looking at him with such love and beauty. And Spike, being the gentleman that he is, is prepared to sleep on the “comfy chair.” But when Buffy asks him to hold her…no hesitation, Spike goes to her. He doesn’t do it for him, he does it for her. He’s completely there with her, for her in this moment. He doesn’t want to think of this night as the best night of his life because he wants to give all of himself to Buffy.

The two of them being the only ones in the “love montage” that weren’t having sex just makes it so much more impactful. They’ve already had their time to be physical, but they never got the chance to be intimate. The fact that they finally get to here is transcendent.

And when she wakes up in the morning, Buffy looks at him with such wonder. She smiles, very slightly, thinking about all he’s given her and how amazing he’s become. How fucking beautiful is that?

The talk. In the kitchen. Oh my God. First off, Spike is trying to make the previous night less of a big deal because he’s used to Buffy responding that way and he thinks that’s what she wants from him (plus, he probably did it so it wouldn’t hurt so much if she said it). 

But Buffy looks so saddened that it didn’t mean more to him (or so she thinks). She tries to brush it off for the same reason Spike does.

Dude, when Spike walked out, I was so concerned that they were going to leave it at that. But, oh no. Buffy was having none of it. Quick note: the fact Buffy is the one doing the you mean a lot to me, tell me I mean a lot to you thing? Damn.

So, Spike is obviously really surprised that what he said to Buffy impacted her that much. And him telling her he’s terrified–of loving her, of letting himself get close, of being this happy–that’s so powerful. He looks at Buffy like she’s his whole world, which she is to him. Then he tells her it was the best night of his life (100+ years of it). I think he was hesitant to say anything because, for one he’s not mushy gushy, but also because (like I said earlier) he didn’t want to talk about him. He wanted that to be for Buffy. But this makes it about the both of them together, and that inevitably brings them closer. 

Let’s talk about facial expressions that are important to me with this scene. Buffy’s face when Spike tells her it was the best night of his life: elation, love, amazement. Spike’s face when Buffy tells him he doesn’t have to be terrified/when she says she was there with him: relief, joy, awe. Okay, we’ve got to move on, even though I’m crying all of a sudden. Dear, I wonder why.

It’s the final episode. Holy shit. Aaand Angel’s back. That’s fine, we like Angel. Angel is a good guy. 

The way Buffy tells him about Spike is one of my favorite things ever. I mean, she’s so mature and kind about it. At first, it’s funny because Angel is totally confused and jealous about Buffy and Spike. Which, you know, understandable. Last Angel checked, Spike was a miserable jackass. And Buffy doesn’t deny that she’s in love with him. And she says Spike is “in my heart.” Whaaa. And she basically refers to him as her boyfriend before saying he isn’t, but…I dunno, I’d say if the world wasn’t ending…they’d probably be pretty close to together by now. I guess they are anyway, but still. 

The thing I like about this scene is that usually, in the past, when Buffy sees Angel (after not having seen him for a while) they kiss and love on each other and basically pretend they’re a couple when they’re together. 

But the way she feels about Spike is enough to counter that. Not in the way that it did with Riley. With Riley, it was more about loyalty. Like, she couldn’t do the thing with Angel because she was dating someone else. With Spike, it’s about Buffy saying she isn’t in love with Angel (to be fair, I don’t think Angel is really in love with Buffy anymore either) but she thinks she could be in love with Spike. So, she and Angel can’t do the thing because her heart belongs to someone else. Yeah. Whoa. 

The “baking” thing, I don’t know that I like that analogy. Aside from the fact that it’s a funny thing to reference when talking about Buffy and Spike vs Buffy and Angel.

This scene is so damn beautiful. Spike being jealous of Angel in the way he’s jealous of Angel is great. He’s not angry or bitter, he’s terrified that he’ll lose this one, beautiful girl. The only one he’ll ever really love. The one that saved him. Buffy. 

And then Buffy calls Spike a “champion,” and I’m telling you, I’ve never seen anyone’s face glow as much as Spike’s in that moment. Buffy, too, is trying to convey with her eyes how much he means to her. I’m so, so happy they spent that last night together. I’m not going to say anything about the lovely looks or the cuddling because it’s so amazing on its own.

The scene that will make everyone cry for the rest of eternity. The fire hand thing. The fact that Spike and Buffy’s love is strong enough to do that? Sure, it could’ve been because Spike was a ball of fire at the time, but you know that’s not what it really is. 

Buffy fell in love with him the second their hands touched. I believe she had been in love with him for a while before this moment, but she didn’t realize it until it hit her: she’s going to lose him. But Spike doesn’t fucking believe her. That’s so damn sad. I’m glad, though, that it gave him the peace he needed as he died.

For me, Buffy’s last words in the series being “Spike,” are totally justified. Spike went through an enormous arc and ended up being a pinnacle character to the show. I think a lot of people still see him as a secondary character, but really he’s become so much more, to Buffy and to the show. So, I think Spike deserved to be the last word to come from Buffy’s mouth.

Okay, I’m gonna do some general thoughts and opinions/closing statements here.

The first thing I want to point out is Spike’s appearance this season. No black nails, no dark lash line. Much less villainous. Now, realistically, I know that James had been keeping weight off from the time he got on the show up through Season 6 because he said that the vampires that “made it,” so to speak, were super thin (because, like, they’re dead). But after Season 6, Joss was like “Bro, eat something” and so James gained a little back. So it wasn’t intentional, but what it did was symbolize the change in Spike from no soul to soul. How he wasn’t all hard edges and bad boyish anymore. That’s kind of cool.

The other two things I want to talk about is Spike and Buffy’s maturity. It’s insane the amount of change the both of them went through just between Seasons 6 and 7. 

So, Buffy. She’s in a much better place with herself than she was in Season 6. This is very good. It’s just such a cool thing to watch her grow. Where she ended up at the end of the series, especially with Spike, was as a very mature and put together person.

With Spike, it’s the same thing. The soul made him be a lot more honest with himself. Which helped him grow. I mean, you can tell easily with his dialogue this season. It’s much more mature. And where he ended up was at peace. With himself, with Buffy. It’s quite beautiful.

Alright, that’s it for this post. Did you make it? You should totally tell me if you did. This is too long, I realize that, but I worked very hard on it and I’m pretty proud of it to be honest. Even edited the pictures and everything. 

Spuffy means so much to me as I know it does to other people out there. I just wanted to discuss my favorite season for Buffy and Spike. They’ve given me warmth and light and joy, and it’s something I’ll never let go. So thank you, Spuffy, for giving me hope.             

ANALYSIS -- BATMAN: GOTHAM ADVENTURES #17

On a recent trip to visit my folks, I went through some boxes and found, sans cover, this copy of 1999’s BATMAN: GOTHAM ADVENTURES #17. Gotham Adventures was my full-stop favorite comic when it was coming out, a combination of me being smack dab in the middle of its target demographic and it being really, really well made. Tight story, dynamic artwork, clean, crisp colors and letters. As I transition from Vacation Dan back to The Schkade That Works, I thought it would be a useful exercise to go through this issue, page by page, to see how it ticks.

I’ll be focusing mainly on the pencils and colors by Tim Levins and Lee Loughridge, respectively, plus Scott Peterson’s script — Terry Beatty is one of my favorite inkers ever and letter Tim Harkins acquits himself expertly, so I won’t have much to say about them beyond “continues to be amazing, surprising no one.”

And please, feel free to check me on any mistakes I might have made, add your own commentary, or share similar examples of good comics done well.

Batman: Gotham Adventures and all characters contained therin are of course property of DC Comics, reproduced here solely for educational purposes.

PAGE ONE

We open strong with a full-page splash. Three distinct players whose suits, hats, and bad ties immediately code them in the Timm-verse aesthetic as ‘Hoodlums’ give us immediate sense of threat. Their momentum is heading left, into the fold, against the western flow of reading; this is because they’re bad guys — their actions go against the proper order of things, up to and including the reading flow. But also for another reason, which the right-most hood’s reaction sets us up for, compelling us to turn the page.

PAGE TWO-THREE

An even stronger followup with a double-page splash. Batman smashes in through the window in a powerful left to right movement, in direct opposition to the gangsters’ movement on the previous splash. The background establishes the family Batman is there to protect, as well as the shabbiness of their apartment and clothes. The fact that Batman’s cape can still be partially outside the window while he’s hitting the hoods who just came through the opposite doorway immediately sells how small the space is. What could these poor people possibly have that’s worth three armed gunmen kicking down their door?

PAGE FOUR

This page is all about one thing: establishing Batman as an overwhelming force. Strong left-to-right movement, always dominating the panel, no signs that this is especially difficult for him. His first line of dialogue: a piece of short, relaxed, confident detective talk.

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anonymous asked:

Imagine that there is a big age gap between you and Barba and that you're friends and family don't understand. They don't think it's right to date someone that's like 25 years older than you and they don't want to give him a chance. Then finally they get to know him and see that he's a really good man and that you two are a perfect couple.

Originally posted by all-things-raul-esparza

So I shrunk the age gap in this imagine, because the reader would have been halfway through college (20 years old), and that is a bit too large of a gap for me. 

“Are you sure about this YN?” My mom asked for the fourth time. The answer was not really, lunch with my parents and Rafael was something I had been pushing off for months, but at some point my mum had forced it.

“Yes mom.”

“I am just saying 17 years is a long time. He was driving a car when you were born.”

“He grew up in the city, he wasn’t driving.” I could feel her roll her eyes.

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anonymous asked:

Hi, lovely! I was doing a bit of stalking (I know, what a creep) and I honestly love your page! Your sidebar image is stunning, I was hoping you could do a tutorial based on it?

LKSFLASKDF you’re not a creep, you’re a sweet little bug!! and thank you so much!!

underneath the cut is a tutorial on how to make my current sidebar image (or something similar to it):

** this is a very image-heavy tutorial because i’m trash at explaining myself!

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Under the cut you’ll find ### lyrics from seven Broadway shows. They could be useful for bios lyrics, sidebar descriptions, para titles, plot or character inspiration. The lyrics aren’t necessarily in order as they appear in the show, but they are grouped by song. My favorites are bolded. PS I would suggest looking up the context of the lyrics before using (especially because all these songs are too good to not listen to).  

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Yes friends, I did a thing! I’m really close to my next milestone and it’s the end of the year so I thought I’d recommend/give a shoutout to my favorite blogs for you guys. So here we go! Thank you all so much for making my 2016 this great 😘  also, I’m so impressed that I made that graphic!!! like it’s not perfect but I made the tumblr sidebar thingy all by myself and it looks alright! 👏🎉🎊

bold = F A V O R I T E S!! like these blogs are goals!!
❤︎ = mutuals/friends
* little side note, I’m only mentioning active blogs and my favorites as of now, so don’t worry if you’re not on here, I still love you! (and hopefully you do the same)*

a - d
@amigonew, @atomative ❤︎, @astroboyband ❤︎, @cheoli, @crystalclearpentagon ❤︎, @chu-mins@chiqkihyun, @choi-giraffe ❤︎, @choajoah@choiminoh@celo-mar, @candyeon@doyoung ❤︎
e - h
@exolightly ❤︎, @flowerboyshownu, @femaleidols@gyuzizis, @gdwho ❤︎, @hypertone, @honeyxxxmoon ❤︎, @history-network@hostoria ❤︎, @honeypup, @hanichul ❤︎
i - m
@iam-imchangkyun ❤︎, @inpinitaize@jeonthegreat, @jooheonl@jaetaeme ❤︎, @jooheonsbooty@jinne@junmyeonsexual ❤︎, @katypery, @knkinky@kimswonpil ❤︎, @maerinah@mauloveskpop ❤︎, @monoka, @madtwn ❤︎, @monstax-nm ❤︎, @m-onstax ❤︎, @monstaxmemes, @meiqie, @mangaetteok, @malegroups
n - r
@nikittysan, @ohhsenshine@parxjimin, @poutygguk ❤︎, @ravi-shment ❤︎
s - v
@santaeminism, @shiningqueens@starlight-starbright-goddess ❤︎, @sinsoghi, @sehunsbulgingboner❤︎, @senshiofwisdom ❤︎, @sleepyikoala ❤︎, @santagustd@shinspirit, @tvixx ❤︎, @twices@ttae@vvonho ❤︎
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@woozeok, @wonhobe ❤︎, @w-ooshine ❤︎, @winwins ❤︎, @wonhard ❤︎, @wonhuff❤︎, @wonkyuns, @xiuminsdreams@yugyeomism@yimkugyeom ❤︎, @yeo1, @yooneroos@yewcn@yoongimmin

And here’s a big thank you to all of my followers! You’re always so kind to me, sending me all those sweet messages, requests and writing cute things in the tags on stuff I’ve made. I love you guys endlessly, thank you for sticking with me this year! ❤︎ 

Exit Rave: I Remember You

[This is intended to be a spoiler free recommendation/review for I Remember You. Unfortunately if you’re interested in this show already, and have seen anything about it on tumblr you probably will already be mildly spoiled for it, and because of the nature of the show it’s hard to avoid them and give a thorough review. But I’m going to do my best. This is long. Big surprise there, I know. And highly effusive. Hope you enjoy it.]

About this Review

I have delayed in putting up this review, because I wanted to complete a review that really did this show justice. I finished I Remember You, otherwise known as Hello Monster, pretty much as soon as it finished airing. But instead of writing this immediately, as I generally would, I wanted to give my thoughts I chance to solidify before I put something out. Thus, chronologically, I watched I Remember You before Marriage, Not Dating and High School King of Savvy but put those reviews up first while I’ve been working on this one.

I Remember You is the best drama I have watched so far and a close contender for my favorite drama of all time. Being qualitatively the best and being subjectively my favorite are very different measures of quality as I estimate them, and that this manages to hold a place at the top of both of those lists speaks to the effect this show had on me.

I like police procedurals. No let me rephrase that, I have a problem with police procedurals. From trashy, seemingly endless popcorn cop shows (like Castle) or those that I consider to have actual cinematic merit (NBC’s Hannibal, BBC Sherlock, or the first season of True Detective) I’ve seen a lot of them. In general I feel like homicide detectives are a fairly American preoccupation. We don’t even get out of bed for less than a serial murder case for the most part.

And because I am almost overly familiar with the genre I hesitated to start this show because I worried that the details would annoy me. Cop shows just don’t seem to play in Korea the way they do in the US. We make this type of show in our sleep, but based on nothing but my own observations they just don’t seem as popular over there. Based only on the domestic rating for this show I think my supposition might be correct.

And if you’re like me, some of the details are going to raise eyebrows. There is a lot of people wandering in and out of crime scenes, or sleeping in crime scenes, or not wearing gloves when handling evidence. The, for want of a better world, pretense at realism is considerably less studied. My recommendation? Ignore it. Ignore it because it isn’t egregious and everything else is so well done that I didn’t care about the little shit at all by the time I reached the end.

Before I get into the meat of what made I Remember You so great, I want to address a couple of sidebar issues and then ignore them completely for the remainder of the review:

So…perhaps some of you have heard of a little pop group known as EXO? As it turns out they’re kind of a big deal. Who knew? And one of their members does dramas sometimes. I mean besides the fan service, self promotional web drama EXO Next Door. Like, actual critically acclaimed dramas with actual for serious actors. One I happened to do a review of, in fact: It’s Okay, That’s Love.

Originally posted by jonginssoo

And this actor/pop idol, one Do Kyung Soo, stage name D.O., plays a baby psychopath in I Remember You.

Originally posted by osnase

^^And a million ovaries around the world cried out in unison and were silent.

I enjoy Kyung Soo. He is a good actor, especial considering his age and relative inexperience. He made a good psycho. He has a relatively minor role in I Remember You, and aside from the EXO connection, I don’t understand/don’t approve the obsessing over him as Murder Baby. 

There were so many stand out performances that it’s rather unfortunate that they are being overshadowed by the idol actor in the series. But, like I said. No hate. I have no problem with idol actors. I like Murder Baby, I want to pinch his cheeks and share murderous tea with him. But I’m not going to talk about him anymore in this review.

The other thing I wanted to address rull quick was that the first episode of this show–down to the music, down to the sociopathic consultant, down to the illustrated thought processes superimposed on the screen–kinda thinks it’s BBC Sherlock.

It is not BBC Sherlock

Luckily it gets over that misapprehension really quickly all things considered and finds it’s own style and pace. But I feel like some mention of this similarity is fair since the influence is obvious. Don’t start watching this show and think it’s just a rip off and rage quit. Alternately don’t start this and think you’re getting the same thing, because it is a different animal.

The Actual Review

It is insanely hard to give a summary of this show without spoilers. A lot of the summaries I’ve seen are actually legitimately terrible or really misleading. If not that, then spoilery as hell. Everything about the early episodes builds logically and inexorably to the ending. The plot is really tight and well thought out and it’s clear that the writers knew exactly what they wanted to do from the beginning. This is a hard thing to find in Kdramas because of the live shoot system, which is why pacing tends to bottom out in the middle or the story suddenly implodes at the end. I don’t know if I Remember You was shot live at all, I couldn’t find that information, but if it was live-shooting didn’t have this unfortunate effect.

I’m going to side step the summary issue here by not giving one. Suffice to say that this show has elements of family drama, murder mystery, romance, psychological thriller and philosophical reverie on human nature.

The identities of characters, how they relate to each other and how this information is disseminated to the viewer is all really essential to the experience of this show, so I don’t want to ruin that for anyone. I would, however, like to give a couple pointers for anyone picking this show up with the usually Kdrama expectations, because it might increase your enjoyment:

1) The reveals aren’t really reveals. 

What I mean by this is, while there are scenes that are functionally “the reveal” where they tell you the true identity of one of the core players. You’re not going to be surprised. Unless you lack even a basic amount of genre savvy, you’re already going to know before the reveal happens. And, to my thinking. That’s kind of the point. I knew by episode 3…maybe episode 5 if I’m being super generous, who everybody was.

The writers seem to subscribe to the Alfred Hitchcock brand of suspense, where it is more likely to cause engagement and anxiety for the audience to know what’s going on and anticipate the consequences (i.e. know that there is a bomb under the table and observe the unsuspecting characters while they eat their lunch) than to have reveals sprung on the audience after being given no information, or insufficient information to predict the outcome.

Originally posted by ironicsuho

Another excellent byproduct of I Remember You’s style of mystery writing, is to give us some really beautifully crafted conversations laced with double talk. So many times you will find yourself pondering “does he know that she knows that he knows?” kind of questions. I found myself anticipating all the completely-theoretical-but-not-so-theoretical chats the characters had. They became my favorite parts of each episode. Those bouts of “I’m not saying I murder people in my spare time, but IF I was going to murder someone…” made this show an absolute, edge of your seat, blast to watch. I knew everything, or thought I knew everything, from the beginning, but I couldn’t sleep at night wondering where it was all going.

2) The main pairing isn’t really the main pairing.

What I mean by that is the balance of this show is about 1/3 romantic development and tension between Jang Na Ra’s Detective Cha and Seo In Guk’s s Lee Hyeon; 2/3 individual casing and over arching plot involving Hyeon’s missing brother and the whereabouts of Murder Baby. The romance is at best a subplot. A very enjoyable and deftly crafted subplot, but not the main attraction by any means.

The emotional main event is dealing with Hyeon’s guilt, his search for his father’s killer, his brother kidnapper, his need to know if that younger brother is still alive, to fill in the gaps in his memory, and to finally realize with certainty if he is in fact the monster he was called.

There’s more I could say about who I think the main couple in this show actually is. But anything I could say would ruin some of the fun. And literally any relevant gif I could put here would be a mild spoiler so:

Originally posted by never-chenge

^^Have Park Bo Gum drinking some tea.

This balance of romance and plot is on point. The show needs the extra time to do everything it needs to do with the plotty bits. Honestly, they ending still feels like it could have used the breathing room of a 17th episode to really let the slow burn build up come to a rolling boil. But considering realistic time constraints, the show did everything I wanted it to do, and left enough room for the imagination to roam around in.

As an added bonus, this show gave me a handful of actors whose careers I will never stop stalking. Because if we’re following Detective Cha’s, or hell, anybody’s example from this show, stalking is in fact the sincerest form of flattery. I can’t say enough about the nuanced performances from Park Bo Gum and Choi Won Young. Not only that but every single minor character absolutely nailed their scenes. Team Leader Kang and Detective Son’s bromance has forever staked out a little corner of my soul.

I haven’t even been able to say a fraction of what I could, what I would want to say about this show. But I have to wrap this up somewhere. I’m breaking decorum and asking for reblogs. If you liked the show and want your friends to watch it, reblog I Remember You shit. Reblog this review, if you feel so moved. This is also me, unabashedly pleading for fan fiction.

This show needs an active fucking fandom like…STAT.

Originally posted by crzdramaaddict

^^Where is the fic for these two? Where!?

There are ratings of the head and ratings of the heart, but this is one of those rare shows where I can’t separate my feelings from my thoughts. I Remember You gets a 10/10. Watch this show. Just watch it.