i made this at 2am with tears in my eyes

I wonder if you ever tried to forget me, all the times we had together, all the words I said that you used to remember. I wonder if you ever think of me at midnight. I wonder if I ever made you cry at night. I wonder if you sometimes wish I was here, if you wish you never let me go. I wonder if you ever blame yourself for letting me go; or if you blame me for drifting away from you. I wonder if you remember the first day we met, the first time we talked, our last conversation. Because I remember them clearly, and they’re haunting me at night. They haunt me at 1 am, 2am, 3 am till I fall asleep with tears in my eyes. I wonder if you still remember me at all, my voice, my personality. I wonder if you are really happy now. I hope you are happy now. Even though you said you’d call, you promised you’d stay…


Wondering // Excerpt from a book i’ll never write #1