i made phone calls

//i survived the day and made a bunch more phone calls and nerded about video games and got paid for it so i guess today was alright

i have chinese food and i am ready for malec i mean shadowhunters

i love kinshifts that give me confidence + shit. like wow i just made a phone call and actually sounded calm and professional and like???? an actual, polite adult

Alycia is someone I’ve had my eye on as an actor since the casting of Clarke… She was one of the girls we went down the road with. So when we were casting Lexa… It was like a no brainer, I was like if she’ll do it of course lets do that… There was really no time I thought she wouldn’t [return] because I knew how much she loved the part. I made all the phone calls I had to make it happen. I begged, I did beg but the begging was more about how many we would get her for not whether we would get her
—  Jason Rothenberg on whether Alycia Debnam-Carey being casted on Fear the Walking Dead was problematic for The 100.
Gilmore Girls Starters [Season Three ]
  • Because I’m fine if you want to go back to the way things were 
  • All right, you got home too late last night and I didn’t get a chance to talk to you.
  • You should wear your dress with the ponies on it.
  • Hey, let’s look into each other’s eyes and say “I wish I were you” at exactly the same time — maybe we’ll pull a Freaky Friday.
  • How long have you been sitting there?
  • Did I happen to miss the thousands of phone calls you made to me or did the postman lose the letters you sent to me?
  • Hey, maybe instead of going to college, you should drop out and I could quit my job and we can form an all-girl band
  • That attitude’s gonna lose you that toy.
  • All right, let’s go eat… see if we can figure out a way to salvage my future as a groupie.
  • Hey, wait now. You’re talking crazy talk trying to confuse me now, aren’t you?
  • Uh, you and I have got to have a little talk.
  • I’d do backflips, but I am way too cool.
  • Guys are stupid.
  • Don’t give me lip!
  • Don’t play dumb! You know what you did.
  • I wouldn’t direct any sort of comment toward me if I were you.
  • You think you’re bugging me sitting in front of me staring like that?
  • You know, I tried to ignore this. I really did, but I don’t know what the hell I was thinking.
  • There’s nothing standing in your way now, ‘cause I’m out.
  • I can’t even open my eyes.
  • What do you think is gonna happen?
  • You know what I think is gonna happen.
  • So this is how it’s gonna be from now on?
  • I’ve called several times the past few weeks and you’ve skillfully avoided every call.
  • That’s funny, you usually have something to say.
  • I don’t get it, what happened, you suddenly like me now?
  • I don’t have be remotely calm around you anymore, and I like that feeling
  • Hey, got any good stories?
  • You set my alarm for 5:15 a.m.
  • Okay, this is a big pain and I’d really like it to go away, please.
  • So you’re creating a crisis out of nostalgia?
  • It’ll be fun. There’ll be cheerleaders and clowns, people doing the wave.
  • Wow, you’re getting more and more like me everyday.
  • I had sex, but I’m not going to Harvard.
  • Well, ever since I got pregnant, I’ve become very nurturing toward all living things.
  • Why am I being mocked on my birthday?
  • Your first cop-raided party. I am just so proud.
  • You need to stop worrying. You need to stop obsessing. You need to stop looking at my boobs. 

Me to answering machine: Hi AuntPretty1! Murble and I are getting ZOEY’S pizza tonight. We haven’t put in the order yet so I’ll call you back when I know how long it is going to take. I’m actually at your house right now. In the basement. BYE.

2

“Never give up on something that you can’t go a day without thinking about." 
- Sir Winston Churchill 

@wiserstrongerbetter posted this quote today and it seemed fitting that I saw it after my earlier post. I’m not exaggerating when I say that I notice my loose skin and think about surgery everyday… 

Today’s snow day though was much needed. I was productive and lazy all at the same time, if that makes sense. I made some important phone calls, did some cleaning, watched a bunch of Netflix (just started American Horror Story and all I can say so far is wtf), worked out, and now I’m working from home. I’m on my break though, don’t worry. Oh and I won my DietBet!! Yesterday’s weigh-in must have been a fluke because my official weigh-in today for the DietBet was 183.0 pounds (down five from YESTERDAY). Stupid body. 

Now to hurry and get all my stuff ready for tomorrow. Hoping to get into bed soon after I’m done at 11pm! I have a really long day tomorrow, so I have to prepare all the things. 

so imma bleeding green - 4 real - srsly - (it’s a metaphor) - sure - it never fucking fails - family - wants what they always want - from me - and it ain’t - but it rhymes with - coffee - (i got priorities - still going 4 that personal best thing - c b low - iffn u dont already know) - but while imma at it - i could bring some coffee - too - (i wish Peet’s was still public - might be able to make a trade and a poem - might pay - 4 the phone call) - so - i made my own call - transfer from peter 2 paul - in a way  - made a trade - 2 - birds and stones - coffee and phones - my works done - im done in - 4 the day

glad i had my phone turned off while i napped - if they had woken me up - i mightta snapped

After a rough morning, today I started taking my medication again, made five phone calls (not a big deal for most people but I never answer my phone, let alone make calls), set up a bunch of appointments, and generally got the ball rolling on life. I am currently on my way to drop off a piece of mine at a gallery that wants to show it, then I’m going to go get a haircut and come home and clean my room.

I’m tackling all of the adult stuff and all of the childish stuff. Today is going to be productive, even if it didn’t start that way.

  • Me around 7 am:*remembers a phone call I should make* Damn, it's still too early ...
  • Internet:*stops working*
  • Me:Well, at least now it won't be so hard to get myself to make that phone call later!
  • Me:*hyperfocuses on a book*
  • Me:GODDAMMIT. I fell for the "computers are addictive" lie again. I assumed the internet was the problem when really I should have known by now that the problem is mY BRAIN

anonymous asked:

I can't seem to feel proud of my accomplishments, at least not for long. Today for example, I went through with a phone call I've been dreading for days and I wasn't even stuttering or anything. I was so relieved. I told a family member that I made that phone call. "So what?" was the response. It's always like this, sometimes the "So what?" isn't even someone else, it's just what I'm thinking. I can't break out of it.

Hey anon,

I definitely get where you’re coming from. It can be really difficult to accept your accomplishments as accomplishments, especially when there are people around you who belittle them.

If you find yourself doing this, or when other people do it, try to change your thoughts. Think, “this was something difficult for me, and I still did it. This is an accomplishment I can be proud of.” You probably won’t believe it at first, but eventually you will.

Stay strong.

–roboraptor

To those of you who struggle with anxiety and made a phone call today; I’m proud of you. You ordered a meal and messed it up a bit? It’s ok; the cashier won’t remember it, I promise. I’m proud of you. Gave a presentation despite being terrified? You did it. It’s over with. I’m so proud of you.