i made a thing to help me deal with my anger

Hatred


title; hatred

pairing; optional bias x reader

summary; you gonna hate me af lol + angst

a/n: for the new incoming followers and my old followers who have to deal with my spam posting– i am sorry this had to be angst but not really :)) 



You really did hate him. Everything he did infuriated you to no end. Especially when he turned and moved the girl’s hair away from her face. How he bumped shoulders with her, and her laugh rang in the air. How the two were walking in front of you, as if you were never there.

You hated how he looked back at you, smiled, and then bent down to whisper in the girl’s ear. The way the girl turned and looked at you with a curious look made your heart twist in anger.

The way he helped her carry her things made your stomach churn with jealousy. When had this started?

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Since I’ve been home I’ve been trying hard to mend my relationship with my mother.Asking her to do things for me instead of brushing aside any offer of help, as I did for years out of anger. Letting her handle all the money I won. Returning her hugs instead of tolerating them. My time in the arena made me realize how I needed to stop punishing her for something she couldn’t help, specifically the crushing depression she fell into after my father’s death. Because sometimes things happen to people and they’re not equipped to deal with them.

help a bro out?

here’s the thing

i’ve been dealing with a super abusive family for my whole life, especially with my older sister, who is manipulative and plays the victim role all the time just to get me in trouble and see me explode from anger. honestly all that jazz. my dad will hit me and scream at me whenever he gets the chance and honestly same with my mom. 

so today, from trying to ignore too hard my older sister, i snapped and yelled at her face and my parents, obviously, decided to tell me how bad i am and how i can’t live with people. im problematic, it’s all about me, i’m just a failure and will be enemies with everyone, not because of the way i’m treated, but because of my laptop because APPARENTLY it made me an explosive aggressive douchebag. i’m like that because of the internet and not because of being so tired of the way people deal with me.

so here’s the thing. i plan to search for a job as soon as i can get out of the university so i can buy?? maybe a small apartment that i can live alone and deal with all my shit by myself and not live with an abusive family that says they’re the best i could’ve ever had. but obviously i can’t count on my parents for it.

 so i thought of starting commissions. if someone is interested please let me know. i make everything cheap and i will draw anything. please help me i’m tired and desperate and i need to get the hell out of here and start a new life.

Since I’ve been home I’ve been trying hard to mend my relationship with my mother. Asking her to do things for me instead of brushing aside any offer of help, as I did for years out of anger. Letting her handle all the money I won. Returning her hugs instead of tolerating them. My time in the arena made me realize how I needed to stop punishing her for something she couldn’t help, specifically the crushing depression she fell into after my father’s death. Because sometimes things happen to people and they’re not equipped to deal with them.
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Catching Fire by Suzanne Collins

Love this attitude from Katniss and I think it’s something more people need to embrace. Too often when someone hurts or upsets us we waste time and energy on punishing them instead of acknowledging the hurt, accepting the apology, and making an effort to move forward.