i loved you first. i loved you first~

How do you cope with that feeling of loss when you finish a good written game

even tho the ending goes my way, i wanna cryyyyyyyyyy

  • Me: "think I'll play a bit of Pokémon before I go to sleep, y'know, just to unwind and relax a bit."

I Bet That You Look Good on the Dance Floor - Arctic Monkeys

Okay, here it is!! My first ever taunt video! I would like to love and thank @c-3pno for the clips, you are such an amazing friendo and I love you so much!

Any way, I hyped this up so much because I was so excited, but I apologise if it is terrible (it is my first one, give me a break)

Tagging: @oceanee @lucilaura @chapinfan69 @revengeworld because these guys wanted to see it!

I didn’t give up with the timing at the end what are you talking about…

for the first time, one of my fics cracked 100k words!

and i must use the obnoxious title function to tell you about it! ;) tonight’s update of To Make It Right brought it to 101,488 words, officially making it both the longest thing I’ve ever written, and my first work over 100k. Woohoo!

Originally posted by grumpy-sourwolf

Truthful tuesday, part 1 (my truth)

- Truth #1- I’m knee deep in music. Good solid music, the kind of stuff that should be coming out of your speakers on a friday night, on a Sunday morning, and when you put your sunglasses on monday morning and face the week.

I have a lot to say. Like a lot to say. I even have starts. A few stanzas here, good hooks there.

But I’m stuck at beginning. Like I need a poetic stick of dynamite to blow this dam open.


- Truth #2: There’s a john mayer song called “Assassin”, with the chorus;

“I was a killer, was the best they’d ever seen
I’d steal your heart before you ever felt a thing
I’m an assassin and I had a job to do
Little did I know that girl was an assassin too.”

And I have a tumblr who I follow who totally embodies this. She kills me dead. I even look at her pics, and it she just destroys me. Which is not my M.O. And she may or may not know, which is funny to me, as I’m a not that guy. I dont do crushes. I take things in hand and give it a go.

Who has, in this case, gotten dinghy, and I shouldn’t.

Good grief.

Just remember- if you feel like you are complete shit, somewhere someone whose life you have touched thinks you are pretty much the best thing ever. Maybe you don’t know that person, but living another day might give you a shot to find out who they are, and if you find them to be your best thing ever. Even if you search in vain, you’re still searching and you might find something you lost in the first place-yourself.

Truth #3- This might have helped. Or maybe I just need to go to the bathroom. We will see…..film at 11.Wait……..I’m not Chuck Berry.

Lol, I’m kidding. Thanks for listening. Thanks for sharing. And just thanks.

Let The Music Play
Tagged by the lovely @vive-le-france (thank you so much!)

Directions: You can tell a lot about a person by the music they listen to. Put your MP3 player, itunes, Spoitify, etc. on shuffle and list the first 10 songs, then tag 10 people! No skipping!

Hand Of God/Jon Bellion
Find You/(Acoustic- Live in LA)/Zedd
Soap/Melanie Martinez
Caffiene/Foreign Air
Coffee/Sylvan Esso
The Kids Don’t Wanna Come Home/Declan McKenna

Tags! @chherik @fxngirlmadness @knowerofuselessfacts @pixelshiftexe @iamvvanda @lotsoffandomimagines @melody-of-scream @fun-siize-antagoniist @disneymarina @smol-flower-kiddo @captain-purpledino @bartons-never-miss and anyone else who wants to do this! Xoxoxo💜

anonymous asked:

i'm thinking i might be a lesbian and even though I care about my current boyfriend a ton, i just feel like i'll never be able to love him or be attracted to him on the same level that he loves and is attracted to me ... but im also mentally ill so maybe im making it all up lol... sorry to vent this to you

hi angel im sorry. this is honestly such a tough situation and one i’m very familiar with. first things first, toss out the idea that you’re making this up – even if you’re ill, your feelings and sexuality are VALID. that’s internalized ableism telling you that you can’t trust yourself. you wouldnt fabricate something that would cause you so much stress, right? if you’re feeling this way, it is probably real. 

i would probably recommend you to gently separate when you’re able to. remember this isn’t your fault, it doesn’t make you a bad person, or a bad partner. sometimes we realize incompatibilities and there’s heart break but really no one to blame. im so proud of you and wishing you well  

anonymous asked:

Hi! ! I really love reading what you have to say about Shaw and POI and I was wondering, if you have time, maybe you could talk a bit about your experience watching Relevance when it first aired? (In honor of its anniversary since many of us only watched the episode a lot later)

Happy Sameen Shaw Day, anon!

Relevance was actually the episode that got me back to watching Person of Interest. I saw the first three episodes the first time POI aired, I was drawn by Jim Caviziel because I really loved him in Count of Monte Cristo but the fridging of Jessica really put me off and at that point I didn’t trust the showrunners so I decided to drop the show.

Also at that point in the broadcast season, there were a lot of white dude buddy cop shows around, plus I have to admit when I checked back in I found that the slash community was very hostile towards Joss Carter. 

I said to myself: Ehhhh forget this. 

Fast forward to 2013 my friend @feignedwisdom messaged me to check out the new episode of Person of Interest because Sarah Shahi was there.

(Dear Reader, I am a FAN.) 

So I decided to check it out– Fairly Legal was okay but it didn’t really capitalize on what Sarah was great at, I thought since FL seems to be ending why not try it? 

I cued up the episode and then it started with this:

And from that minute, I was hooked I fell in love with the character, with the episode, with Sarah Shahi’s portrayal of Shaw! Because she was lethal and badass! 

Her Shaw was everything I wanted in a badass character! And these are the type of characters Sarah Shahi does so well with– this kind of simmering beneath the surface, river runs deep characters who can kick our ass six ways to Sunday. 

How could I not love Shaw? 

Shaw was a one woman wrecking army! 

And because of this episode, I gave Person of Interest another chance, and boy I’m glad I did. 

when you’re putting together a little platonic playlist for moana + maui and you come across a ridiculous playlist of “songs about friendship” on youtube and decide to look up the words to the first one your eye catches on to see if it would fit just for fun and giggles

and the first line is LITERALLY

If you ever find yourself stuck in the middle of the sea I’d sail the world to find you

anonymous asked:

Confessing DiNozzo you loved him since you first saw him :D

You coughed and sat up, unable to sleep. This open wound was hurting.
You rolled over and grabbed your phone.

Tony walked into the bullpit the next day, circles under his eyes dark. He sat at his desk and noticed the light on his phone beeping. A voicemail.
‘Beep- Hey Tony. It’s me. I just… I couldn’t sleep.’
He inhaled. Your voice was something that could soothe him, even from miles and miles away.
'I wanted to tell you I love you.’
Tony’s heart stopped.
'From the first moment I saw you.“ You could be heard laughing and he could envision you shaking your head with a smile, hair brushing on your shoulders. 'You made me laugh. So hard. Remember that time you put Ziva’s stapler in jello?”
Tony grinned to himself, almost not feeling a tear wander out of his eye and down his cheek.
He loved you too.

anonymous asked:

For the date thing(if it's still a thing). Name is Phoenix.Im female and I'm queer 5'6, dark brown eyes, short wavy raven hair. Im a little chubby but I love my curves and thickness;). Passions are Astronomy, writing, and origami mostly. I love indie/folk/punk grunge music. I live for punk aesthetics. I'm shy and quiet at first. Our first date will be walking around town and visiting small shops then going back to my place and cuddling on the roof while we talk about the constellations. Date???

Mod Aaron

anonymous asked:

Hihi, I first stumbled across your videos after watching Sherlock S4. I think the first time I realised I wanted at least Sherlock to be absolutely in love with John, was during The Final Problem, when he tells Molly 'I love you'. At that moment I turned to my partner and said 'he could say that as a friend and not be lying to her, he's not lying to her but he's not in love with her' and I knew I was saying that because I believed he was in love with John. Hope your S4 analysis is out soon! ILA

I think you may have the wrong blogger, Nonny… the only videos I ever did were my S4 Countdown Videos, and not many people liked them or saw them so *shrugs*

But I do enjoy your story about Your Johnlock Moment™, because those moments are very magical indeed and deserve to be shared with the world at large. But yes, I believe that is the general consensus about Molly and Sherlock’s “moment” in the utterly fake TFP. I personally subscribe to TFP (and a small chunk of TLD) being part of John’s TAB, so my opinion of TFP and S4 as a whole is rather biased, but yeah, the Molly scene is so fucking hard to watch because CLEARLY Sherlock doesn’t want to make her say it, and he doesn’t want to say something that’s not true, and they BOTH know that it’s not, which is why it hurts so much. 

And I have no plans to put out an S4 Analysis video, LOL, though I’m sure that there are plenty of others who have done. I did post reaction vids to T6T and TLD, and I was too pissed off with TFP to even waste energy to do it, so that’s about what I planned on, hah.

Remember when...

Remember when you used to tell me how much you missed me, you would say how you wanted me to hold you & kiss you, remember when you used to send me cute selfies, you’d say “I feel cute today” & i’d say “you’ve always been beautiful.” Remember when you used to show me off like I was a trophy of some sort, you’d post me all over the internet & you’d take me everywhere. Remember when first made love, not the first time we had sex, because when you’re in love there is a huge difference between to two. Remember when I would stay at your house for weeks at a time, we’d get so annoyed with eachother & I miss that, I miss you. Remember when you got your wisdom teeth out & you slept on me bleeding on my favorite hoodie for hours, you eventually woke up & said “sorry.” Remember when you told me you wanted to be with me forever & I thought you mean’t it, do you mean it? Remember when we went to Florida, you were sad I could tell, but we made the most of it & I wouldn’t trade it for the world. Remember when we used to go to concerts, you were always so scared but I thought that was so cute…
Remember when we were in love, because you’ve slowly fallen out of it…

Beloved God, since no earthly engagement is possible without my using powers received from Thee, I will renounce everything that interferes with my daily engagement to meditate on Thee.

Give God First Place in Your Heart

Wherever your mind is, that is where you will spend your time. What if God had not given you the power to play or read or work? You could do nothing. So He should come first in your life. God knows what is in your heart; give Him first place there.

The only way to catch God is by love. Meditate upon Him, and then deeply pray: “Lord, I cannot live without You. You are the Power behind my consciousness. I love You. Reveal Yourself to me.” When you give up sleep to meditate upon Him, when you forsake selfishness and cry because of His suffering in your brothers, He comes to you. When you actually sacrifice for Him, He is caught in the net of your love. Nothing else can capture Him.

-Paramahansa Yogananda, Man’s Eternal Quest, p 28; Affirmation, Metaphysical Meditations, p 60.