i loved whenever they acted like friends

Fuel to Fire (3)

Stucky x reader

Notes: fluff, tattooing, some angst, smut (m/m and m/m/f), anxiety, depression, mentions of parental negligence, swearing. 

Summary: Living their dream, Bucky and Steve run their tattoo shop ‘American Ink’ together, happily married for several years and business is going well. When a girl walks into their shop and inevitably into their lives right after they’ve received some exciting news, they have no idea how their lives are about to change with some harmless but straight-forward flirting.

Fuel to Fire (intro) Fuel to fire (2)

A/N: Take caution, guys. It’s pretty sad and graphic story telling. 

“There’s something about her, Buck. She’s smart, gorgeous; but there’s something different” Steve muses as he’s calmly, though focused, moving his pencil across paper. The sketchbook lays on Bucky’s shins that are haphazardly placed in Steve’s lap.

“I know. I’m not sure what it is either, but there’s a darkness there” Bucky muses, watching their giant flatscreen television, though not really watching whatever show is playing.

“Yeah” Steve mumbles, and Bucky notices he’s not drawing anymore.

“Can I see?”

Steve shrugs and hands his sketchpad over. The design is simple, no fuss, exactly like Y/N comes across to them. The front sight of an Orchid, a straight lined triangle drawn over it. Within the lines of the triangle, the Orchid is detailed and clear. Outside of them, the petals of the flower are dark coloured and detailed as well, like looking at the negative of a photograph. It’s a rough draw, but beautiful on its own.

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Someone Like You (Smut)

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Faint vibrations rang in my ears, doing their best to pull me out of my otherwise deep sleep. I tried ignoring the phone’s small throbs the best I could, but the more the slight noises continued, the more I woke from my drowsy state.  

“Fuck sake, Mendes” I muttered, my hand searching for the phone lying somewhere next to me in the dark. 

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Little Matchmakers

A/N: I’m getting so many requests and I’m so happy I love writing haha, but this prompt is so great I really really like it hope you enjoy!

Ship: Diana Prince x Reader


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You loved your kids. All eighteen of them. You never expected ending up being a kindergarten teacher but you enjoyed your job completely. All your kids were smart and well behaved, not to mention they loved you.

But they were sneaky. Very sneaky.

Not in the classroom unless they were throwing you a surprise party or got you a present, but whenever a certain lady came to see you.. they’d act strange. On occasion you’d let some of your friends come visit you during lunchtime or after school ended, and sometimes the kids would be a bit confused.

“Miss (Y/L/N), is that your girlfriend?” You’d nearly choke on your coffee at the fact they knew what one was and you’d shake your head.

“No sweetie, she just.. A friend of mine.”

“But you hugged! You have cooties so now you have to love each other!” The whole class would giggle and you’d feel yourself turn red. You knew they didn’t mean to make you feel that way but they caught on to your odd behavior whenever she came to visit.

“Well, maybe one day. Everyone take out three crayons while I use that bathroom, I’ll be right back.” They did as told before on student shouted for everyone to come over to his desk.

“What is it Mattie?” All the kids sat around him and he climbed on top of his chair triumphantly.

“We should get Miss (Y/L/N) And Miss Prince together!” The children cheered quietly, sure to not alarm you.

“But how?” The kids quieted down for a moment before a few exclaimed.

“We can ask Miss Prince to kiss her!” A few others nodded in return, a few frowned and mocked kissing noises.

“Kissing is gross Macie. We can draw her a picture of both of them!”

“Or,” one of the shyer children stood on her feet. “We could put flowers on her desk and say they are from Miss Prince.” After a moment of silence, grins spread across their faces and they all nodded.

“Great idea Tess! At recess we can pick some of the pretty white flowers and write a note from Miss Prince!”

You’d think they would forget or not actually do it, but they did. When you came back from the bathroom, all the kids were in their seats as you asked and Caleb was already working on the note in blue crayon. At recess, as predicted all the children grouped up and picked some flowers. When you walked over to try and help, they hid the ones they already had down Mila’s shirt. (She was very itchy at lunch)

At lunch, one set of twins offered to give up their brownies even, so then they had slightly crumpled flowers, two brownies, a very blue note in crayon, and an itchy Mila. It was the end of the day, and before you walked in they had set all the items they’d collected on your chair and rushed back to their seats giggling.

“Alright class, we have a few more minutes until we go home, so you can all talk to each other.” No one turned to face each other or anything, their eyes stayed glued to the chair as you turned around to see it. “What’s this?” You picked up the small note and flowers, along with the two brownies and read it out loud, misspellings and all. It read:

“Dere Miss (Y/L/N), I lov yuou, And yuou are my grlfrend now. I got flowrs, brwnie and leter. Love Miss Prence”

You smiled at the sight of it, instantly recongizing Caleb’s handwriting and feeling your heart melt.

“Miss Prince left it here! We saw her! She said she loves you so now she’s your girlfriend!” A little girl named Emma declared, a few other small heads nodding as well.

“Is this a bad time?” Diana was standing at the door with her hands behind her back and smiling at Emma. “I guess you could say she’s right.” The kids gasped and looked back at you.

“Come on in Diana, you’re fine.” You smiled and walked up to hug her, but before you could she handed you a small bouquet of daisies, similar to the one on your chair.

“Hey, those look like the flowers Mila had in her shirt!” Mila glared at him and you chuckled. You turned back to Diana who had a slight blush and was smiling.

“I wanted to surprise you.”

“Looks like they beat you to it.” You handed her the note and she scanned it over, looking at the kids then you.

“As I said before, they aren’t wrong.” You gasped and everything was silent and stood still before you heard a tiny voice shout out.

“HUG!” Soon the rest of the class joined in with a chant and giggling, and you both obliged. Diana kissed you on the side of your cheek where the kids. couldn’t see and you smiled.

“You really want to be together?”

“Of course.”

“Miss (Y/L/N)? I think Mila needs to go to the nurse.”

“Star vs The Forces of Evil” - Love Triangle

What I love most about Star vs The Forces of Evil is the love triangle between Marco, Jackie, and Star. Unlike most current cartoon shows they either do is focus on the two specific character relationship develop and forget the other or it just written poorly like 

Mako, Korra, and Asami from The Legend of Korra  

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Mordecai, Margret, and CJ from Regular Show 

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They build it up pretty well like having the characters growth and develop their relationship

Back in season 1, Marco was always awkward whenever he’s around Jackie

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But after everything has happen to him, he’s actually feeling more comfortable around her now in later of season 1

And that my friends I call development 

However for Star and Marco relationship. They started as platonic, acting as friends and going on many adventures together

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And as their relationship grew, there love grew stronger as well

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Now in season 2, Star started to have feelings for Marco

But as that is going on, Marco and Jackie relationship starts to build up

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and then “Bon Bon the Birthday Clown”, the episode that nearly killed most of SVTOE fandom, espesically Starco fans, shows up

Finally after a long time Marco Diaz gets to date the girl he has a crush since they were infants, Jackie Lynn Thomas. Star began having second thoughts on her decision of going to the dead clown sceance than going to the dance with him.

  She actually start to feel doubt, jealously, and frustration of this  

While the Jarco date is going really well 

Back with Star, she decided to use dark magic to see what Marco been up to

and Star becomes envious 

Then this happen after they both crash off the skateboard! 

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After the fight with Ludo and him stealing Glossaryk from her. Marco comes to see her if she’s alright but than he admittedly go see if Jackie is okay… ouch  

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Then the trio went to Love Handel concert, all things were going well 

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Until Jackie and Marco kissed

Instead of being the third real of this, she with a force smile for her to tell him that it was okay

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Star and Marco relationship got really complicated is in Song Day, Star crush towards Marco got revealed 

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Now things got awkward to them

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They patch things up by talking to each other and just sticking as friends 

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But after her mom, Queen Moon Butterfly, tells her that she has to leave Earth ‘cause of Toffee uprising, she told him the truth of how does she really feel for him before she has to flee to Mewni. 

and that left Jackie completely shock

So I find this Love Triangle well written than most cartoon shows. It shown drama, great character development and, love and the build up was great. As much I love Starco and I consider to be my TRUE OTP, it was great to watch this. 

Moving to A New Home

Moving to a new home can be daunting and complicated at times, especially if it’s something you’re doing on your own. I promise that no matter how stressful it may seem, this process will become exciting and invigorating for you to conquer. Regardless as to whether you’re moving across state lines or to a new country, the adventure begins now! I hope this helps babes.

Before You Move

1. List it up. Make a list of everything that you will need to accomplish before you are ready to move. This includes items that need to be packed, people that need to be contacted, pet accommodations, etc. I love lists, but you may not, so use any organizational technique that works for you.

2. Divide and conquer. After you’ve made your list, organize items based off of how much time they’ll take you. Packing will be fairly time-consuming, so this is something you’ll want to invite friends over for and break up over several days. I like to have “moving” parties whenever I’m getting ready to move, essentially I buy some chips and dip, play some Trap, and invite my friends over to act as my minions. Something like canceling your subscription to Cosmo will take you very little time and energy to do, so it’s something you can do when you’re ready for a stress-free activity.

3. Contact companies. Speaking of canceling your Cosmo subscription, you will need to update your address with all of the companies you use. If you’re no longer going to be using that company, you’ll need to call them and tell them when to end your service. If you’re going to continue to using that company, you’ll have to call them and tell that you’ll need an address change. Give them the exact date you’ll be moving so that they can backdate your information. Some examples of companies:

  • DMV in the county you’re moving to (if you’re going to drive)
  • Your doctor’s office
  • Your college (even if you graduated, they send out alumni letters all the time)
  • Your credit/debit card company
  • Your bank
  • Your phone company
  • Any government programs you’re a part of
  • Any companies that you have loans with
  • Your health insurance company
  • Your auto insurance company
  • Amazon

4. Set up. Nobody likes living without internet in this modern age, so make sure to call your internet/cable provider for your new home and setup an installation date ahead of time. Do the same for your electric company, although they will probably be able to activate your electricity remotely.

5. Send ahead. If possible, send/drop off some of your items ahead of time. If you have a family member or a friend that lives nearby where you’ll be staying, ask if they can hold a few boxes for you. You can also mail yourself packages and ask your local post office to hold them for you, but you’ll need to arrange that ahead of time.

6. Forwarding address. You will inevitably forget something, so make sure to leave your forwarding address and contact information with your landlord, college, ex-roommate, etc.

During Moving

1. Take your time. Don’t try to unpack everything in one day! Take some time to explore your new space, and decide where to put everything in a leisurely way. There is no set schedule for moving.

2. Assistance. If you have friends/family helping you make the move, assign them specific tasks so that nobody spends their time pestering you and asking “what do you need help with?”. You can even decide these tasks ahead of time, during your plane or car ride over.

3. Be neighborly. You’ll likely meet some neighbors during this process, and make sure to stop and greet them, even if you’re in the middle of something. First impressions do matter, even when they shouldn’t, and spending thirty seconds to greet someone in a parking lot may save you a lot of hardship in the long run. Ask your neighbors to recommend local attractions, places to eat, what laundromats to use, etc.

4. Check everything. Walk around your new home and make sure that everything is as it should be. Make sure all the light switches work, all the doors open, that the cabinets are empty, that everything has been cleaned properly, etc. Address anything that is not right immediately in a letter to your new landlord. 

After You’re Settled (Specifically for Living Alone)

1. PKW. Phone, keys, wallet. Every time you go anywhere. Check twice. The worst part of living on your own is having to rely on yourself to never forget to lock yourself out or leave your wallet at a sandwich shop in a mall. Make absolutely sure you have duplicates of your keys (I would get a couple made) and give one to a friend who lives nearby who you can count on. I also like to keep an extra set inside the apartment itself in a secure place, just in case. Your landlord can let you in during office hours, but giving a key to a trustworthy friend helps you 24/7.

2. Cleaning routine. You don’t have to sit down at a writing desk and draft this out, but spend a few minutes coming up with a basic cleaning regime for you to follow. It’s definitely easier to do a little each day, but if that doesn’t work for your schedule set aside at least an hour and a half during your time off to get your apartment spotless. I don’t know about you, but whenever I deep clean my apartment I feel like I’m living in a hotel for a day, and I absolutely love it.

3. Make a “moving” shopping list. This is everything you will need (minus food) for your first week at your new place. Do a big shop, and get all the essentials out of the way: first aid kit, cleaning supplies, tape, cat food, etc. Your first week moving into your new place will be stressful enough, you don’t want to be halfway through setting up your living room and realize that you forgot to buy trash bags.

4. Secure yourself. I’m not the most agile or fast person in the world, and I do live in a mid-sized city that has a good deal of crime. The apartment complex I live in is very safe, but I still like to double lock my front door at night. It might be smart to keep some pepper spray or a baseball bat somewhere in your apartment, just in case.

5. Stay social. Even the most anti-social person gets lonely. Make sure to hang out with your friends, not just your co-workers, your actual friends. Get out off your apartment every few days and go see a movie, get a cup of coffee, go people watching at the park, etc. It’s easy to get depressed if you’re living alone and doing the same things the same way every day- allow yourself to mix it up.

6. Meal prep. It can be stressful and seem useless to cook complicated or “fancy” meals when you’re living on your own. Plan your meals for the week and make a list before going shopping. Get yourself enough food to make a variety of dinners that will only take you fifteen minutes. If you do want to go crazy and make steak and mashed potatoes for yourself, make enough for two meals. Also, nobody is going to think poorly of you for stocking your fridge with a couple frozen dinners.

7. Customer service. Living alone means that you are going to be doing a lot of talking to customer service representatives. Get comfortable talking to people over the phone. Tell the rep what you need as quickly as you can, and try to be polite because customer service at a phone center is a garbage job that doesn’t pay well. On the flip side, don’t be afraid to ask for a manager if you’re upset or unhappy with your service. Take their survey at the end of your phone call, tell them how unhappy you are. It’s someone’s shitty job to look at all those surveys, no complaint goes unheard. Companies with great phone service: Verizon, Apple, Amazon. Companies with awful phone service: USPS (literally the worst), electric companies, health insurance companies.

8. Guest space. This is not required, but it’s a good idea to have some sort of space for a friend to stay the night. A friend of mine had a bad breakup, showed up at my apartment with ten minute’s notice, and then fell asleep on my couch after an hour of crying. It as 7:30! Whatever, she needed it. Keep an extra blanket and pillow in your closet, I like to keep travel sized shampoos and conditioners in my bathroom cabinet on the off chance a guest wants to use my shower. I got these at a hotel for free, but they’re available at CVS and other pharmacies.

9. Toilet paper. Don’t let yourself run out of toilet paper! I like to buy more when I notice I only have one roll left. The same deal goes for paper towels.

10. Enjoy. Living on your own is simoltaneously exciting and exhausting, but an all around must-have experience. Enjoy the freedom to forget to make the bed, to decorate your bathroom however you want, to have ice cream for dinner, to watch reruns of Friends and cry when Rachel decides to move to France. Make sure to give yourself lots of space to move at your own pace, but please remember to eat three meals a day and to go to the doctor’s for a checkup at least once a year!

Making Friends and Staying Social

First things first- we as humans are social creatures. We seek out social interaction, even the most antisocial person in the world still needs the occasional stimulating conversation. Don’t stress about making friends, it’ll happen one way or another.

The best friendships are created organically, but that said, there are some things you can do to quicken the process.

1. Friends by proximity.  Be social and inquisitive when meeting your new co-workers and that openness will help you create fast friendships. Ask lots of questions, people love it when you ask them lots of questions about things. Remember elementary school? Remember how easy it was to make friends then? You’ve got this.

2. Places. Hang out at places that you would normally hang out with your friends. Scope out cool bookstores and cozy coffeeshops, and be on the lookout for similar-minded people. Find reasons to talk to these strangers, whether that means asking them for directions, what they’re drinking, etc. The next time you run into them, you’ll be able to start up a conversation.

3. Events. One of the quickest ways to make lots of new friends is to join a group that meets weekly that does something that’s important to you. This could be anything from a book club, to a Dungeons and Dragons game, to volunteer work. Go to your local library and read the bulletin board looking for groups that interest you. You may have to get on the internet to find something close by. At the very least you’ll have a weekly social event to go to where you won’t feel out of place.

4. Neighborly. This next one depends on you, but if you have cool looking new neighbors introduce yourselves to them. Hit them up at random and say something casual like “I was going to go out for a drink, wanna join?” Planning things in advance puts pressure on acquaintances, so try to be spontaneous.

Pentagon Kinks (Hyung Line)


Thigh riding: Jinho loves it when you ride his thighs, he loves the view of you riding him. The way your face contorts and how greedy you can be with his legs. He also loves holding you and this position really feeds into that. It allows him to hold your thighs, forearms, breasts, wrists. The options are limitless(!) and he really loves that. 

Pet names: Pet names are important to Jinho. He likes them because it’s something only he can call you. It’s just for you and him. Reminding him that you’re his whenever he calls you Honey, Sweetheart, Baby, Princess, Darling. He’ll use them all until he finds one he really likes. 

Light Spanking: See, Jinho loves the sounds you make for him. More than anything, so he’ll do anything to hear them. Leaning into you, pulling back your hair or even going a little rough, just to hear your sweet sounds. But one thing that he’ll do to hear your sounds is this kink. He likes it more because of the certain sound you make when he does it. It also feels good on his hand. He’ll groan with your moan as he spanks you and goes harder on you. 


Breath Play: For both of you really. Hui will use his beautiful hands to snuggle your thyroid or bring the covers over both of your heads and not let any fresh air in until you both come. Then, after you come and he sits up taking the covers with him, the cold, crisp air will surround you both. You and Huitaek will pant in the fresh air as he holds you and runs his fingers over the little marks his fingers made on your neck before they fade away.

Body Worship: Hui loves to take his time when he’s with you. To make sure that you know how much he loves you and wants to be with you. The thought of kissing each and ever inch of your body and then telling you how much he loves it, loves you. Its a thought that really gets him going. Huitaek will use his hands, lips, eyes, anything to explore your perfect body.

Oral: God, Huitaek loves oral so much. Giving and receiving. He loves making you shudder under his tongue and lips, he loves the feeling of you pulling his hair and he lives for your perfect arching. That said, the thought of you on your knees wrecks him even harder. He fantasizes your mouth and craves your kiss where he wants it the most. Hui will be open with you, so he’ll moan and groan as he guides you around his heat with his hands and coaching words, if you need or want it. He’s always going to return the favor, even if he had eaten you out just before you started on him.


Necking: Hongseok loves your neck. He loves watching it and kissing it, tracing his fingers over it. Maybe a bit of light choking? And lets be honest, you love his neck too. Hongseok would really enjoy you taking time to tease and play with his neck. Kiss it and whisper his name against it and he’ll slowly go insane. 

Surfaces: Counters/Islands/The Closest Wall/Random Door/Shower WALL/The Fucking Refrigerator. It doesn’t really matter where, Hongseok just loves to put you against a surface. He loves the sound you make and the sound the surface makes as you land against it. If Hongseok is out of the house and sees a nice corner or tables, his thoughts will immediately take him to you. The thoughts of laying you against it and seeing your arms above your head and you’re just in a bra and panties will haunt him. It is very possible that if the area isn’t too out-in-the-open then he’ll take you there the first chance he gets. Just to check if his fantasy could live up to the reality.

Hickies: Hongseok loves giving you hickies! He loves the look of his seal on you. The way you where his mark where ever you go. You’ll be covered with them because he’ll take time to add to the collection when ever he gets the chance. Hongseok will lean over during a boring part of a movie and suck another mark on your neck or shoulder, just to pass the time. He’ll be down with you leaving hickies on him, though he’d prefer scratch and bite marks. THE space on your neck, just behind your ear is his favorite to suck on. Imagine him coming up behind you and wrapping his arms around your body as his head slowly comes to that little space and then he begins his marking with a hum.


Hair: Hyojung loves the feeling of your hair wrapped around his fingers. If he’s had a bad day he’ll definitely pull your hair while he fucks you. However hot that may be, its not just for harsh days. Hyojung loves nothing more than his hair being pulled by your little hands. You could pull his hair while he’s going down on you or, you could pull his hair while he’s kissing up your body. He would fucking love it if you came into the shower to clean his hair. Like! Nothing could ever make him happier!

Role Play: Anything. Any role any play at all, Hyojung is down for it. Plus (!) he’d be so good at it. Professor/Student Doctor/Patient Cop/Criminal Stranger/Stranger! ANYTHING! He’ll play into it too, like if you’re out with friends and he sees you, he’ll just to act like he’s never seen you before and start flirting with you and then say something like “You know, I won’t be able to sleep tonight if I don’t have your number.” then you’re blushing and his members are like wtf is wrong with him, he’s literally dating her. 

Oral: Oh, Hyojung loves oral. He’ll give oral whenever you ask but he loves to receive it, oh so much. If you want to drive him crazy, suck him off. He’ll pull at his own hair and groan and moan for you. Gifting you with dirty talk as he tries to thrust into your mouth and fist whatever material is near him in his hands. He loves to be surprised with oral, so maybe try it out when your in a semi public place or on the sofa while you’re watching a movie but you don’t really care about it anymore. It doesn’t matter when or where just surprise him with oral and he’ll put you on a pedestal. 


Sounds: The sound of your voice is enough to make Shinwon at least curious at something closer than kissing. He genuailly loves to listen to you speak. The sound of your voice will simply make him smile. More than that though, is the sound of your moans and whines. He’ll do just about anything to hear them. Shinwon will lose his shit when you moan his name. He just can’t control how needy his body becomes to please yours with he hears his name on your lips. So say his name again, girl! 

Teasing: Shinwon will tease you without even noticing it. It’s the cheeky action and reaction that he likes and you know the boy can sexy like a pro. He loves when you tease him and lives to tease you. The boy will start talking about how beautiful you are as soon as you come out of the room from a shower. He’ll start talking about something that you two had done last night and how it drove him crazy, but he won’t all about it in a “dirty talk” kind of way. He’ll just talk about it casually with a smirk on his face. He’ll come up behind you and lightly push his fingertips into the line of your back and say something like “I wanted to leave a mark here all day.” and when you look up at him something will glow behind his eyes as he says: “What’s the matter. Y/N? Have you gotten wet again?” And the hair at the back of your neck will drip, reminding you that you had just came out of the shower. 

Aftercare: Shinwons after care is a bit different from others. He uses this time to recoup and cuddle. It’s closer to a "bedtime routine” than a care package in the way that he’ll hold you or you’ll lay on him while you both try to catch your breath and he’ll look up at the ceiling or over your face while his hands are tracing mysterious patterns on to your skin. He’d feel so special if you got up to get him a drink or snack but he’d be way clingy after sex so if you try to leave he’ll try to keep you bed. “Where are you going?” He’ll ask with either as an demand or with a pout. You’ll have to kiss him back against the pillow if you want to sneak away.

ok but i need a plot where there’s these two idiots who are roommates, and they bicker and act like a married couple constantly, and can hang out like bros but they’re completely platonic, no we’re not in love that’s preposterous!! and it’s so evident that they’re into each other like whenever one goes out on a date, the other is all bitter like ‘no i’m definitely not jealous’. and they like leave bars together at some stupidly early hour and their friends tease them and they just go home and get drunk together instead. and like domestic washing the dishes and fighting over who does what and flinging soap at each other. and then one day it kind of just clicks, you know, like wow you’re my best friend but i think i might love you as more this is so difficult and just, give this to me now.

Reasons why I love Speak Now

Speak Now is the only album I’ve ever heard that I’ve loved every song and either related to it very personally or felt so moved by. The lyrics are so beautiful. Each song makes me feel something. Songs like Innocent, Enchanted, Mean, Never Grow Up, Dear John, Haunted are songs that speak to me so strongly

Dear John

I relate to it because I was in love with a guy I really liked and he ended up leaving and joining the army but he never returned the feelings so it was different. He wasn’t like most guys I liked before and I thought I had a chance with him. No one has ever laughed and smiled at me like he did. One day I would think he was into me the next he’d be talking about other girls.

“Long were the nights when my days once revolved around you”

Back To December

This is one of my favorite Taylor Swift songs. I think it’s so beautiful and I love the message. An apology. I related to this for many reasons and I would’ve done things different if I could go back in time. This song I relate it to so many missed opportunities, people that have liked me and I didn’t return the feelings. I missed out on things that could’ve been great because I was chasing people that would never like me.

“It turns out freedom ain’t nothing but missing you, Wishing I’d realized what I had when you were mine, I’d go back to December turn around and change my own mind”


I was bullied in middle school to the point that I was afraid to go to high school so I didn’t. Finding a note in my 7th grade gym locker calling me a whore, annoying, fat and stupid. It was horrifying to me because I was small and I was a virgin so it didn’t make sense to me. I was only thirteen. All of 8th grade I battled with being stupid and annoying. I have a learning disability so that really got to me. I thought High School would be worst so I took a year off and in that year Speak Now came out and this song I clearly it did a lot for me. When I did go back to school it was easy and I liked it. People gre our of the immaturity.

“You have pointed out my flaws again

As if I don’t already see them

I walk with my head down,

Try to block you out ‘cause I never impress you

I just want to feel okay again”

Speak Now

Such a good song. I love how the album is titled Speak Now because of the message to not stay quiet and to Speak up so you don’t miss chances. I try and always speak up now.

Speak Now


I love this song and the music video is so cute. One day maybe I’ll have this.

“Braced myself for the goodbye, Cause that’s all I’ve ever known. Then, you took me by surprise. You said, “I’ll never leave you alone”

Sparks Fly

I’ve never had a kiss in the rain but this song was such a cute fantasy to me like Mine. I remember seeing my crush and hoping he’d smile at me. It’ll always be a goal I need to achieve lol.

“Cause I see, sparks fly whenever you smile”

Story Of Us

I’ve been stuck in a room with a guy that was in love with me. I loved him but wasn’t in love with him and that awkwardness was horrible and it sucked because we were great friends and I knew it would never be that way again.

“This is looking like a contest Of who can act like they care less But I liked it better when you were on my side The battle’s in your hands now But I would lay my armor down If you’d say you’d rather love than fight”

Better Than Revenge

I will always dance to this song my “friends” more like the bullies always liked to go after my crushes so I love it side note one of the bullies that went after my crushes got married to one of my friends a few years later so I guess she went after them out of jealously

“She had to know the pain was beating on me like a drum”


This reminds me of loosing someone that was out on my control. I’m haunted by the way they had the power to make me feel like I couldn’t live without them.

“Can’t breathe whenever you’re gone”

Last Kiss

This song is so beautiful and heartbreaking.

“I don’t know how to be something you miss”


“So don’t you worry your pretty little mind people throw rocks at things that shine.”

This line spoke to me on a much more than a love song. It made me feel like the people that bullied me they can’t take anything from me. Even if it’s not love.

Long Live

This song makes me so happy and reminds me about being a fan and how special it is. The lyrics are so amazing and I’m always blown away when I hear it. Thank you Taylor.

“Long live all the magic we made”

Never Grow Up

My cousin was 5 when this song came out and now she’s taller than me and I’m crying. I still relate to this I’m 22 years old and I feel like I’m 14 and I don’t want to grow up and be on my own. While growing up everyone wanted to get older. I just wanted to stay little.

“I just realized everything I have is someday gonna be gone”


This song made me think of someone when it first came out but 2 years after I met this guy and he was so nice, funny and handsome. He was instantly a good friend and I had a big thing for him. We’d joke around in class all the time and talk at lunch. I was so interested in anything he said. He was a good friend but I was scared he was into our other friend because she was prettier and smarter than I was. She took him to prom because she was in a higher grade. He admitted to me the next year that he didn’t like her even as a friend. He thought she was stuck up. The whole senior year I was scared to tell him my feelings even though he was single I didn’t want to ruin things. Then he left town after graduation and he never knew how I felt. I talk to him sometimes and he wanted to go to dinner with me when he gets back but now he has a girlfriend he seems to be in love with. Maybe one day I’ll have a shot again.

“I’ll spend forever wondering if you knew I was enchanted to meet you”


One of the best songs she’s ever written. I’ve been through a lot being bullied, sexually abused, used, hurt, afraid, lost friends, self harm, depression and anxiety and I’ve said things I didn’t mean. I’ve wanted to disappear so many times. Lost people, lost myself. This song brings me out of the pain encourages me my past isn’t who I am.

This song reminds me it’s never to late to go on and I’ll be okay

“I hope you remember

Today is never too late to be brand new”

Speak Now is so meaningful and I’m so thankful for each song. The feelings I’ve felt being explained so well through songs from someone I look up to. It’s amazing that she wrote each one and I’m so happy to have this album.

So Happy Birthday Speak Now, you’ve done so much for me.

Ruin The Friendship

Author: @dylan-trash-tbh

Pairing: Dylan O’brien x Reader

Words: 3k

A/N: I really enjoyed writing this. ❤️ thank you baby for your help @golddaggers ❤️

This is inspired by Demi Lovato - Ruin the friendship


Originally posted by obrienschicken

The incredibly talented Dylan O'Brien, besides being a huge thing in Los Angeles, was one of my best friends since we were both high schoolers. Dylan was my partner in crime whenever I needed him, no matter how embarrassing the situation was, and he was, obviously, part of each happy memory I had from my teenage years. Fuck, I was so endlessly proud of him. O’Brien managed to make his dream of becoming an actor reality. Of course I already knew that he was going to go far, not just because he deserved it, he did, man, if someone deserved to be in his place, that someone was Dylan, but he loved acting too much to not let it become his life.

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I do wholeheartedly believe that gay men should not like female anatomy as much as they want, but I cant seem to shake the feeling of Misogyny whenever they talk about their distain for it… Calling us and their male friends; fishy, cunt, bitch, etc.. And saying how “nasty” a vagina is a lot more often than straight men say it. And as much as I love drag I cant help but to think that either this is how they see us as, or this is how they think we should act. Either way gay men have been sexist for a long time, and no amount of saying “I’m gay! I dont see women like that!” disqualifies you from treating women with the same air of sexism that straight men do. Just because you dont find women attractive doesn’t means that you can’t demean us.

whenever I give a compliment I want it to be really genuine and well thought out.
I like to look over or evaluate everything I enjoy about a person and then try my best to put it into words. The way they act, dress, behave. The way they accomplish certain tasks. The way their laugh sounds or their overall presence. The things they do that make me love who they are.

hedaoftheskaikru  asked:

Are you taking prompts? It's totally cool if you're not, but if you are, that sex toy prompts list also had "✥ this sculpting class is the bane of my existence and for the final project (where i’m supposed to use a non-clay medium) i’m going to troll my teacher and make a bunch of silicone dildos. will you donate your dick to my cause?" And that just seems like such a Bellarke situation.

Alright, I finally did it! It turned out a lot less smutty than the prompt suggests though and a lot more fluffy, I hope that’s okay. Thank you for prompting this - and yes, I do take prompt, always! 

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“You need what?“

Bellamy can’t believe what he’s hearing. To be honest, he’s not entirely sure he isn’t hallucinating this entire conversation, tired as he is. The last few weeks have been brutal, and he’s barely managed to make the deadline for a paper that could make or break his career. So when he comes home after finally sending it off and then having to teach three classes back-to-back and reassure a bunch of panicking freshmen that they’ll get an extension on their own work, it seems perfectly plausible that he is in fact imagining it when he opens the door to find his best friend standing outside and exclaiming:

“I need your dick.”

It doesn’t sound any less crazy the second time, and Bellamy closes his eyes and pinches his arm, hard. But when he opens them again, Clarke is still standing outside his door, wearing tight jeans and a light grey, v-necked shirt and looking at him pleadingly. Not a hallucination then, even if the combination of that expression and that request – more like a demand, really, because Clarke is bossy as hell – seems to come straight out of one of the more vivid dreams he’s been having recently.

The thought must be showing on his face, because Clarke gasps and goes beet red.

“Not like that!” She pushes past him, smelling like the perfume he and Octavia chipped in together to buy her for her last birthday, and Bellamy takes a deep breath and then immediately feels pathetic.

“Well, what else would you need it for?” He snaps, a little defensive now because it’s hard to keep his cool around Clarke when he’s at his best, but dealing with her when he’s exhausted and she’s making nonsensical demands is damn near impossible.

“My sculpting class,” Clarke huffs, as if that would be sufficient explanation, then spots what he’s sure is a less than intelligent look on his face and keeps going. “We’re supposed to do a piece in a non-clay medium for our final project, and I want to piss my professor off.”

“The smug sexist one?” Bellamy asks, because even when his head feels like it’s filled with cotton balls, he apparently still remembers all the times Clarke ranted about the professor teaching her “Introduction to Sculpture”-class.

“Exactly. You know how he’s always showing us his “phallic art pieces” that are just plaster casts of his dick and making everyone uncomfortable?”

Bellamy nods. That habit in particular is one Clarke has been fuming about all semester.

“Well, I figured I’d give him a taste of his own medicine and make him look at someone else’s dick for a change. Or perhaps a whole bunch of dicks. A bag of dicks, so to speak.” She giggles a little at her own joke, then grins deviously. “So obviously, it’s got to be a better dick than the one he keeps shoving in our faces.”

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part two

He’s a thinker, a planner, and a philosopher, dissecting life and the world’s inhabitants. He likes to study the girl in his Potions period. She always wraps her hair into a tight bun, never quite catching each strand or curl. Her eyebrows never seem void of emotion, constantly expressing each thought or concern. He likes to watch her think. She does this thing, licking a stripe along her bottom lip, then quickly sucking the plump, pink flesh into her mouth. She doesn’t intend to give him a raging hard-on, but then again, she doesn’t even know he exists. He’s like a ghost to her. Constantly watching. Constantly waiting for attention, yet never being seen, never being realized, never being noted. He has a ‘shrine,’ as Zabini calls it. Its nothing much, just a box of things significant to them her himself. She dropped a quill in a hurry towards lunch; he meant to give it back, but never felt the urge to separate himself from a thing she touched, used, cared for. He wants her to touch him. He wants her to use him. If she only cared- then the world would be perfect.
Everyone has a way to deal with things. Theodore swims in the Black Lake when he’s stressed. On a cold day, when the wind shouts and the moon beams, he floats along the water’s edge, staring into black nothingness, the chill of the liquid plunging into his bones. No one gets why he does it, but Draco suspects he finds some sort of peace, knowing that the cold and dark feeling is his choice. Pansy’s a whore and everyone knows it. She’ll spread her legs for anyone that calls her pretty. She once said, drunk and insecure, that sex was an escape from feeling emotionally raped. He’s never judged her since. Blaise, perhaps, is the most sane of the three. He sings in the shower. Sure, to other houses, it might seem mundane, but to Zabini, its something else entirely. He’s quiet. That’s all he is, really. He’s the quiet, winter chill no one can touch. He only even responds to three other people in the castle, simply because they’re the only ones who won’t shriek in fear. Even with Malfoy, he barely laughs. The only time Draco ever saw him gasp for air from a joke is when Theo peed on himself at the beach. Yet, when everyone has left quidditch practice, and he thinks he’s alone, by himself, Blaise will casually hum a Sinatra tune, soon expanding into a full belt. He actually has a nice voice, from what Draco’s heard. In fact, he wouldn’t be surprised if Blaise pursued in the art, behind closed doors, of course. However, floating in the abyss, drowning in sex, and singing into an empty loo didn’t really scream Draco. He found an alternative.

Dearest Y/n,

You don’t know me. I don’t quite know you. 
You see, I don’t even know your middle name. I don’t know if you like the colour blue, or if you’ve ever been stung by a bee. Yet, I know that when you’re feeling sad, you pick at your fingernails and get an unbelievably adorable pout. I know that when you’re happy, you click your toes along the tile floor and crinkle your nose like a bunny rabbit. I know that you’re grossed out by frog legs, and that you hate being partnered with Anthony Goldstein. 
I realize this all must be a bit odd, and even creepy, so I’ll tell you some things about me. When I’m upset, I close my eyes, and imagine you and myself dancing in a field of violets. You’re dressed in a pretty, white sundress, your hair soaked wet from our day in the ocean. The sun is drying us, and for once in my day, I smile, imagining what life would be like if you were mine. When I’m happy, I write. I write to you, telling you about my day. I tell myself you’ll read this letter, and that you actually care about how my existence. I’m grossed out by messy eaters, and I positively hate cockroaches. 
I believe you have the right to know I’m in love with you. I understand how hard it must be to understand. But, please know that I believe you’re beautiful perfection everything. You’re my Aphrodite, my Cleopatra, my Victoria. I feel like I’m flying with angel wings when you bump into me while reaching for an ingredient and I can feel my heart leap into my throat whenever I hear your voice. I know this is what love feels like, and I just think you should know.

Best Regards,
Draco L. Malfoy

Four of these were made per day. He would vent about how stupidly Gryffindors acted, or if Trelawney assigned a project over the weekend. At night, he’d dream of Italian honeymoons and promiscuous rendezvous in the Prefect’s bathroom. However, on a particularly gloomy, Friday afternoon in February, he was interrupted abruptly from a smutty letter on the fourteenth.

Dearest Y/n,

It is finally the fourteenth of February. Saint Valentine has separated a day from the year where couples and singles and friends and enemies can come together, spreading the sheer joy of love. I absolutely despise it. I’ve never been anyone’s Valentine, but I think I could be a good candidate. I know that if you were mine, I’d lavish you in chocolates and diamonds. I’d enchant the Room of Requirement to become a lover’s paradise, complete with a lofty bed. I’d spread you onto the silky, pink sheets, kissing your neck and ravishing your skin. I’d watch your lips pucker with a choked moan, rutting into the mattress as you claw my back. Slowly, I’d lift your delicate dress, trailing my hand up your-

WHAT?!’ Blaise huffed, throwing a book towards Draco’s head. ‘We have a Charms exam Monday, and I am not allowing you to waste the weekend studying when we could finish it all right now.’ He took one look at the undignified paper before willing away his erection, and marching out the dormitory with a slam. He really hated it when Blaise was right.
Macbeth, the Malfoy family owl, was making a round trip to Draco for the holiday. His mother delivered a fresh box of sweets, to ‘get through the lonely times,’ while his father restocked his Gringotts account. However, the eagle-owl spotted a letter on the desk of Master Malfoy, along with a heady stack of signed and stamped messages. Hooting towards Theo, the boy smiled, lazily, slipping into his pajamas. ‘Hey, there, Oh Great Ruler, Macbeth.’ The owl nearly smiled, landing onto the shoulder of its companion. ‘How’ve you been, you elusive thing? Good, I hope.’ Snatching a rat’s tale from his satchel, he threw it into Macbeth’s mouth, smiling as the bird happily nibbled on its treat. Theo jerked his thumb towards the letters, almost smirking. ‘Can you believe he’s been writing telegrams to Y/n L/n for nearly two years and has yet to say hello? All he really needs is a nudge-WAIT!’ The bird swooped down to the desk, swiftly picking up a dozen letters, including the dirty passage he had yet to finish. Theo was already a dead man.

a/n- part II or nah


(Wrote this for a friend when she was feeling down… I hope this helps!)


Starting out;
- You two met at school and quickly became good friends,
- At first, y'all would only hang out to discuss school and to help each other with homework,
- You and Donghyuck would sit under a tree off to the side of the school, with your school books littered around and piled on your laps,
- Donghyuck would love this time because of how close you two were,
- Even with all the other noisy students around the school grounds,
- Donghyuck would only hear you,
- And he would always stutter whenever you’d talk to him or ask him a question,
- His friends would tease you,
- One of them would always walk by when you two were sitting at your tree and quietly snicker while Donghyuck shot them a threatening glare,
- You would walk pass Donghyuck locker to get to yours in the morning and see Donghyuck surrounded by his friends,
- You wouldn’t be bothered by this, he always seems so happy with his friends around,
- But you couldn’t help but feel a tiny bit of jealousy as you realized they get more of him,
- But hey, you two are just friends, why should you be jealous?
- As soon as his friends would see you, they’d begin nudging Donghyuck and excitingly whisper because “the love of his life is here”
- Only they weren’t really whispering and you heard every word,
- You couldn’t help but stare at Donghyuck while his friends pointed at you, pushing him in your direction
- You closed your locker, shoving your books into your bag as you walked over to Donghyuck and his friends, who quietly rushed off while SQUEALING after seeing you coming over,
- You tapped Donghyuck on the shoulder, seeing as he hadn’t seen you yet because his face was buried in his locker,
- Literally, he was slouching down with his face buried at the back of his locker,
- “Donghyuck, can I speak to you?”
- He jumped, quickly turning around to face you with a nervous glint in his eyes,
- he swallowed hard,
- staring into your eyes,
- “Yeah, of course?”
- You grabbed his hand, not noticing as his whole face flushed red,
- You led him to your tree, sitting down as he sat down next to you,
- “What’s up, (Y/N)?”
- You decided to be blunt because you don’t give a sheet and I also have to get the story going
- “Do you like me?”
- Haechan choked,
- His eyes fiLLeD WITH T E A R S
- no just kidding
- “What?”
- “Do you like me? I heard your friends talking about us.”
- Donghyuck was terrified.
- His hands shook.
- His heart pounded in his ears
- His blush practically burned his face
- He swallowed hard again, opening his mouth a couple times to speak but he didn’t know what to say,
- Until you gave him a concerned look, then he came up with something.
- “(Y/N), you are the most lovely and beautiful person I’ve ever met.”
- He was talking in such a soft and quiet voice,
- You almost didn’t need him
- “So do you like me?”
- You kinda just stayed put and stared at Donghyuck
- Waiting
- “Yes. Very much.”
- He then asked you on a date and you said yes and you two fell in love and blab blah blah
- Anyways
- Next category

- Always gentle
- Isn’t afraid to kiss you in public
- Thinks it’s funny to kiss you in front of his friends and watch as they fake gag
- He’ll always ask if he can kiss you on the lips
- It’s a very rare occasion when he’s confident enough to just kiss you out of no where
- Sometimes he’ll just randomly peck you on your cheek
- Or spontaneously pick up your hand and kiss it
- He likes it when you kiss his forehead, although he acts like he hates it
- Forehead kisses makes him feel all giddy and turns him into mush
- Whenever you kiss his forehead or cheek he just feels so loved.
- After you kiss him he’ll look at your lips,
- He ADORES your lips
- They’re just so perfect and cute
- Doesn’t matter if your lips are plump or not, or if they’re a weird color or smth ??
- They’re perfect to Donghyuck.
- Will also compliment your lips;
- “Can I kiss you? Your lips look really nice today.”
- “Im wearing lipstick, You want some too?”
- Likes to hold hands while kissing.
- Will take your hands into his and slowly lean down and place a gentle kiss on your nose,
- Eskimo kisses annoy him
- But he’s addicted to them
- Whenever you two are next to each other, he’ll nudge your cheek with his finger, and as soon as you look to him he’ll grab your face and Eskimo kiss you,
- But then will be a brat about it
- “Ew no, get away from me.”
- “You’re the one who initiated the kiss Hyuck.”
- “You disgust me…”
- Also butterfly kisses
- You like to randomly walk up beside him and plant a butterfly kiss on his cheek and see as he gets all blushy
- ANYWAYS, kisses on the lips are ever special
- They don’t happen a lot, mainly because you two are still very awkward + nervous
- Grabs your chin between his thumb and index finger or cups your cheek as he ghosts his lips against yours
- He’ll hum in embarrassment, closing his eyes as he gets closer to you,
- Likes to make the moment extra dramatic and lay his forehead against yours
- (Forehead touches AKA the thing that is in all my writings…)
- You’ll rub his arms or sides if he takes to long to kiss you, knowing he’s nervous
- Eventually you’ll just take hold of his shirt collar and softly kiss him yourself
- After a kiss on the lips he’ll tell you how beautiful you are
- “You know you’re beautiful right (Y/N)?”
- “You are so gorgeous (Y/N).”
- He’ll pinch your cheeks,
- “Cute.”
- he simply loves kissing you,
- N E X T

Skinship; + nct dream chaperones;
- back hugs are his favorite because then you can’t see his blush
- Is the kinda person to rub your back as he hugs you
- Also like to place his head onto yours
- He’ll randomly come over and put his arm around your shoulders if he’s feeling jealous
- Which
- Speaking of
- Mainly because he loves you SO MUCH and he doesn’t ever wanna lose you
- Just likes to be close to you
- He’ll always somehow be near you
- His friends always chaperone you two
- Jisung will come and stand In between you guys if you’re t o o close,
- “Adult supervision.”
- “I am older than you Jisung.”
- “A D U L T S U P E R V I S I O N.”
- You two are pure children of the lord so cuddling and hugs is all you’re ever gonna do until marriage ok,
- Chenle will drag you away if Haechan is too close
- “(Y/N)! Pay attention to me too!!”
- Renjun will tackle Haechan if Haechan is too close
- “I’m lonely Hyuck.”
- “Get off me Renjun.”
- Jeno will scream and distract you if Haechan is too close
- Mark just puts his arm in between you two and acts like he’s not doing anything.
- “You see nothing.”
- Jaemin always has something to show Haechan when he’s too close, and then as soon as Haechan is far enough away from you he’ll just walk away,
- “See this wall? Okay bye.”
- Donghyuck loves his friends but they’re annoying chaperones,
- whenever you’re tired, Donghyuck is always there
- He’ll gently take you into his arms and rub your back
- Will rub his cheek against your neck or nuzzle you with his nose
- Will let you lay your head unto his chest or shoulder
- He will become extremely paranoid though if you fall asleep on him because
- Would probably wake you up and make you lay down to rest properly
- Will get you a thousand blankets or jackets and won’t let you go until you’re warm enough
- Also loves to hold your hands
- If they’re smaller than his; adorable
- If they’re bigger than his; adorable
- Will put his arm around your waist but his friends slap his arm away so it doesn’t last for long
- If you tell Donghyuck that you’re uncomfortable or stiff, he’ll be there in 0.8 seconds,
- Is super gentle with his massages,
- He doesn’t wanna hurt you or make it worst
- Although after the massage he also demands one from you
- And you happily do it because he also takes the time to massage you and he’s extremely warm
- So he’s nice to massage and to cuddle
- k next

- Donghyuck trust you with everything,
- You listen to everything he has to say,
- Donghyuck trust you enough to open up to you
- You two have a keyword for when you just need to take a break and be alone with each other,
- The keyword is strawberry,
- Because Haechan is a strawberry,
- Sometimes when you’re having a bad time, and you just need to get away from everything, you’ll go up to Haechan and say,
- “I’m really craving some strawberry…”
- Donghyuck will take you outside or into a separate room to make sure you’re okay,
- You will do the same for Haechan,
- If you see that he’s about to break, or that he’s uncomfortable or isn’t happy, you’ll ask
- “Hyuck, can you help me cut up these strawberries?”
- (Nct dream is confused every time you disappear for strawberries)
- You’ll place your hand onto Donghyuck’s back and lead him to a secluded place and then make sure he’s also okay,
- You both let each other vent,
- You two know everything about each other,
- If Haechan is feeling insecure today, you’ll tell him everything you love about him,
- You’ll hug him after he’s done venting, and tell him your opinion, because you know he trusts your judgment,
- If you’re ever feeling insecure, Donghyuck will sit you down and cover you with a blanket, and then tell you that you don’t need to be insecure about your height or weight, or anything,
- Because you are so beautiful in so many ways,
- You trust each other enough to cry in front of each other or to show emotional vulnerability,
- You will both take care of each other if you cry or are feeling sad,
- You’ll ask each other what you can do, and then do everything in your power to cheer each other up or to help the other out,
- You’ll make each other hot drinks if your throats are sore after crying,
- You’ll spend the day with each other if one of you is feeling sad just to make sure the other knows you’re there for them,
- You’ll comfort each other, and let yourselves be vulnerable around the other,
- You’ll cuddle, and won’t let each other go,
- Sometimes you’ll make little gifts to cheer the other up,
- You’ll share cute little memories to make the other laugh,
- You’ll stay inside all day and watch each other’s favorite movies, and just be with each other all day,
- Sometimes If Donghyuck is sad, you’ll invite the other dreamies over to cheer him up and to have a little movie party.
- Sometimes if you’re sad, Donghyuck will get you a bouquet of your favorite flowers, and make you you’re favorite food,
- You’ll pig out on each other’s favorite candies or snacks and just be with each other
- You’ll make sure each other is okay, and remind them how much you love them,
- You two trust each other with everything, because you love each other truly, and you’re each other’s best friends,
- Ok the end buhbye

college! Jun

anon requested: “hullo!!! can i request a college!au for jun? (in the point form and stuff) thank you && i love your aus and posts in general <3”

admin soph: I legit thought this AU would be easy to write. Turns out, writing someone as a college student when you’re not a college student is hard af. I apologize in advance if this was written poorly and didn’t reach your expectations lolol

  • double majoring in Performing Arts 
  • particularly in Dance Focus just like Minghao 
  • and a Theatre Arts Major in Acting 
  • has a scholarship so double majoring made it possible for him
  • having double majors made him really busy all the time 
  • but he still manages to have time for his friends 
  • whenever he has free time,
  • can always be seen in the picnic area of the Campus with his other major friends 
  • or usually with Minghao, Joshua, and Wonwoo reading in the corner of the university library 
  • talking about how the author should’ve just done this or that 
  • when they really should be reading up for the upcoming semester exam
  • “I dont understand why we need to learn about the history of tap dancing for a whole week." 
  • "Because the professor likes to give us busy work get over it." 
  • "Honestly just slap stuff on a paper and he’ll give you an A" 
  • "Shouldn’t you guys be studying on your upcoming Music Theory test." 
  • "Shush Joshua." 
  • or in the studio going through the choreo he, Minghao, Hoshi and Chan made for a performance project and the upcoming winter recital 
  • or just staying in his dorm, catching up on sleep 
  • when a show is announced to happen 
  • he works double 
  • like seriously
  • the shows are where theyre able to showcase their talents and what they major in 
  • so performance majors and theatre majors are made to perform on the same day 
  • and it stresses him out a lot but he always make sure to do his best 
  • he has to make and memorize like 2 choreographies with his dance team for the dance performance and has to memorize his lines and get into his character for his acting performance 
  • even with all these work he would still try to try other things 
  • like singing and rapping ∙
  • he can sing pretty well to be in fact but just like Minghao, people wont give him vocal lines for shows smh
  • outside his major classes, he only chose to take one minor course and that was Linguistics in Korean Language 
  • thats the only course you both have together actually 
  • youre an Astronomy Major 
  • and the only courses you take outside of your major is Linguistics and History 
  • you have been in Korea for some time now but you still haven’t mastered the language so you thought the Linguistics course might help
  • you and Jun dont talk much though 
  • the only time you two were able to talk was when the professor partnered the two of you together and made you guys differentiate different satoori accents 
  • and that one time you bumped into him on your way to the library 
  • you also always see him in the picnic area with his friends when you wander around different departments 
  • sometimes you would sit either on a bench or under a tree, reading a book and you would hear music coming out of a speaker near you 
  • and you’ll see Jun with his dance team practising 
  • you also noticed how different he is when he is with his friends 
  • in class, he is this quiet reserved guy sitting at the back, listening to the professor while spinning a pen around his fingers 
  • with his friends, he is really outgoing and a huge dork 
  • you would hear him exchanging jokes with Wonwoo and you would quietly laugh at how corny it is 
  • "What did the dog say to the wall?" 
  • "Jun stop it’s now funny an-." 
  • "Wolwol” woof woof" in korean
  • “Aish. Why am I even friends with you?” wonwoo mutters as he quietly think of a better joke
  • you also would hear him messing around with Joshua 
  • “Im still offended that you didnt want to go biking with me again after what happened last semester." 
  • "Hyung. When we got back I honestly thought I was going to pass out right there and then. And you kept leaving me behind." 
  • "Because you kept taking selcas whenever we took a break, istg Junhui.”
  • and you would hear him talking about a dance he found on youtube with Hoshi 
  • “They werent hitting the beats on time." 
  • "Yes but they were expressing the lyrics with their dance." 
  • "But hitting the beats with the dance moves would look better. And with the dance moves they’re doing, its possible." 
  • and mostly him just annoying Minghao 
  • "Jun I swear, stop.”
  • “Were getting all thug now are we?”
  • okay so you were just sitting alone in the University Library, studying for your upcoming test about Astronomy History 
  • when someone just sat down infront of you 
  • causing you to slightly jump back from your seat 
  • "Oh jesus christ jisoos chirst Jun, you scared me." 
  • "Sorry, my friends wont let me study in peace and all of the tables are taken and you’re the only one I know. I was just wondering if I could study here instead?” he softly smiles at you hopefully
  • your internally squealing at how adorable he looked with that smile with his messy hair and black hoodie and sweatpants asdfdksla
  • “Yeah of course, no problem." 
  • "Thank you." 
  • and with that, he brought out his books and you both were studying quietly
  • you can see him looking at you every once and a while 
  • it made you anxious tbh 
  • because you thought you had something on your face 
  • a few minutes later he just put down his book and spoke 
  • "We don’t talk that much, what major are you?" 
  • "Im an astronomy major” you replied as you close your book 
  • “You study space. Wow. Well, I double major in Performance Arts and Theatre arts. " 
  • you nod, "yeah I see you in shows and recitals. " 
  • "Oh so you watch me,” he smirked, teasing you
  • you try not to let the blush creeping up show, but before you can reply,
  • “Im just kidding~ ” he chuckles, smiling at you 
  • “just study” you huff, jokingly being annoyed, that pink flush on your cheeks
  •  you wont deny that Jun is pretty handsome
  • and pretty dAMN HOT
  • and you were pretty sure that you were just attracted to his face since you still dont know him that well 
  • so you were confused as hell as to why you were blushing and your heart was beating so fast
  • minutes passed and you still were thinking about why you and your face reacted like that
  • you didnt even notice Jun looking at through the top of his book
  • and glancing up, you looked right back at him 
  • both of your gazes meeting 
  • you wanting to look away but his eyes, they sparkled like the shining stars you see through a telescope
  • it looked like a whole different galaxy 
  • you were able to regain your self-control and you averted your gaze back to what you were reading 
  • so you didn’t see him stare at you longer for a moment, dazed by your eyes
  • tired of studying, you have just been rereading the same paragraph over and over again 
  • you just wanted to go to the student cafe and get a mocha latte 
  • somehow, Jun read your mind 
  • “You have been staring at that page for forever, you wanna take a break and go the cafe?" 
  • "Did you just read my mind Wen Junhui?” you chuckle
  • “What if I did y/l/n y/f/n?" 
  • "Then you should already know my answer” you wink playfully
  • he just grins at your response 
  • on the way out, you guys passed by Junhui’s table of friends 
  • one of them was a girl 
  • so you figured that it might be one of his friends girlfriends 
  • “Me and y/n are going to the student cafe, if you need me, I’m there,” Jun said to them before waving goodbye 
  • the whole 10 minutes walk to the cafe was filled with a lot of talking 
  • Jun told you about how he met his friend Minghao 
  • how he literally spat on his face on their first meeting because of his braces 
  • you told him why you decided to move to Korea 
  • why you decided to take Astronomy 
  • arriving at the cafe, you both ordered your lattes and sat at a booth near the window
  • as you both were talking, the conversation got kind of serious
  • Jun told you about why he chose two majors 
  • because he didnt want to limit himself to only one
  • and that he also found his passion for dancing growing through the majors he took 
  • the two of you talked about how its hard to be away from your loved ones 
  • mostly about yourselves was the main topic 
  • after hours that seemed like minutes of talking, 
  • you both exchanged numbers and went back to your dorms 
  • you both started hanging out a lot after that 
  • he memorized your schedule, you memorized his 
  • knowing when the other was free, the two of you also had this cycle 
  • he would visit you in your department, get a latte, and walk to the library 
  • sometimes you would be the one who would visit him 
  • but the cycle goes on 
  • you learned a lot about him 
  • you learned that he is basically this tall cat person who is a big dork on the inside 
  • he would text you lame ass jokes at 3am 
  • he would even call you at 3am just to remind you that he is handsome
  • which is true, but he didnt have to wake you up at 3am to remind you that
  • and the more the two of you hung out, the more your feelings for him deepens 
  • he is just this precious dork that you want to protect 
  • today was Jun’s free time 
  • before you could text him and ask if he wanted to hang out, 
  • he beat you to it 
  • ‘A little birdy told be were both free. Do you want to stop by at the studio and hang out with us? :>’ 
  • ‘Sure Hui. Are they okay with me being there?’ 
  • ‘Of course, dont worry about it.“ 
  • "Okay see you in a bit." 
  • you decided to buy lattes for everyone before going to the studio 
  • they’ll be tired from practising so you really didnt mind buying 5 lattes 
  • when you got there, they were sitting in the middle of the room, sweating and panting 
  • you greet them and hand them their lattes
  • "Thank you y/n~ Jun your girlfriend is the best.” Hoshi giggles, making you stutter
  •  "I-I’m not his girlfriend,” you say half chuckling
  • “Yet.” he whispers, you not hearing
  • you have only hung out with his friends a few times 
  • but they already made you feel like you were part of the group, talking with them for hours 
  • they even let you watch the recent dance they made for a project
  • and ofcourse, they kept teasing you and Jun
  • “Jun how dare you let your girlfriend walk around campus alone." 
  • he glances at you, with a look you can’t decipher
  • "She isn’t my girlfriend.”
  • after a while, you decided it was time to go back to your dorm 
  • you said your goodbyes to them before going 
  • “You like her. Be honest.” Minghao says as he nudges Jun 
  • “Maybe I do, she doesn’t feel the same.” Jun sighs
  • “Theres only one way to find out.” Hoshi points out, grinning 
  • “Ask her out.” Chan says as he pats Jun on the back 
  • “I will.” Jun smiles at them, trying his best to be confident 
  • okay so your request of using the observatory room has been accepted
  • today was your free time, so what better way to spend it other than stargazing 
  • you invited Jun but he still hasn’t responded 
  • so you went there on your own 
  • you honestly liked being alone with the stars 
  • it made you feel at home 
  • after staying there for a while Jun texted you saying that he’ll be there in a few minutes 
  • when he came, you were laying down on the floor and just looking up in the sky 
  • so he just lays down next to you 
  • it stayed like that for a few minutes 
  • “Did you know that we’re basically made from stardust? Its amazing to think that those beautiful stars are made from the same thing.” you say, breaking the silence 
  • “Is that really true?” he asks, turning to you 
  • “I like to believe that its true” you say softly, continuing to stare
  • "It probably is. Because ever since we talked, you have been my brightest star in my darkest days.” he said in a whisper like manner,
  • but you still heard it 
  • you didnt say anything else 
  • your heart was beating rapidly at this point 
  • you were honestly biting the inside of your cheek just in case you were dreaming 
  • you were basically freaking out inside 
  • “What?” you ask nervously
  • “….I was just wondering…if you want to go have dinner with me sometime?” he asks shyly 
  • “Like a date?” you say, turning to stare at him
  • “Doesnt have to be! Lets just pretend I didnt say that” he says quickly 
  • “Oh, too bad. I was gonna say yes.” you reply, teasing him
  • “….really?” his eyes brightening
  • “Yes Hui.“ 
  • with you still laying on the floor, he sits up, grabbing your hands
  • staring down at you
  • "Then I take it back,” he smiles happily, “Will you go have dinner with me sometime?”
  • “I would love to Junhui.” you reply, smiling back
  • and so he lays back down, closer to you this time
  • your shoe grazing his leg
  • his hand gently looping your fingers in his
  • when Junhui told his friends that the two of you were dating, 
  • almost in unison, “WE KNEW IT!!" 
  • after a while, it started spreading across Junhui’s department and yours 
  • you honestly didnt know it would be this big of a deal 
  • Jun would always visit you 
  • even on days where he is really busy, he would still visit you 
  • you find it really sweet 
  • and loving that smile that would light up on his face, 
  • you would also visit him at his studio 
  • the boys have taken you in as one of them 
  • it feels like you’re a part of this big family 
  • and Jun being cheesy, for the first and last Saturday of every month,
  • he would reserve the observatory and you two will spend your free time there 
  • he would put a blanket on the floor and bring food 
  • and you two would stargaze, eat and talk for hours
  • or Jun saying pick up lines for hours
  • "I must be the Sun and you must be Earth, cause the closer we get, the hotter you become.” he says winking 
  • “Jun…why.” you say, covering your face in slight embarrassment
  • “No~ dont cover your face. I want to see the way stars shine in your eyes.” he replies cheekily
  • “Jun one more I swear. Where do you even get all of these?” 
  • you say questioning why you fell for this huge dork
  • as you blush really hard
  • “from my love for you”
  • Jun honestly loves making you blush 
  • looking at you, awed by your rosy cheeks
  • pulling you in close and wrapping his arms around you 
  • he kisses your head 
  • “My love for you is like the universe. Incredibly big and expanding vastly everyday.”

Originally posted by jisoos-princess


~ admin sophia

Public Love | Jaebum

Just a short imagine I wrote while I was bored and wanted to post it :)))) This is not edited or proofread, so I’m sorry if there’s any mistakes. I know this is kind of a ‘basic’ topic but I really wanted to write about it so, here you go:) 

Warnings: None :) 

Word Count: 2196

Originally posted by wangpxppy

He sat in front of you as he waited for his coffee. You were so excited to see him. He just got out of the airport and happened to see you in the coffee shop you usually did your school work at. You wanted so badly to hug and kiss him. But you couldn’t. You were in public. 

His management doesn’t allow him to go public with you. He’s begged his manager many time over the past three years to finally let him be able to hold your hand in public and take you out on a date. Let him walk around with you. But he always just got the answer “After this comeback” to receive “Not yet, ask again next year”. One of the other managers finally explained to him that they wanted to keep the image going for the boys. Wanted to keep them single to the public to ‘keep their fans’. They explained that if one of them had a girlfriend, some fans will stop supporting, causing future albums and comebacks to go to shit. When the other boys stated they didn’t care and wanted to see their leader happy, they refused to listen, keeping Jaebum on close watch. Making sure he didn’t leak any information. That’s why you’re a secret. 

Or not so much. To the public eye, and to his fans, you were just his best friend. Close to the other members but his best friend. Knowing him since before his debut, everyone knew you. Fans asking about you on his Vlives or in person, answering questions about you in interviews or to other idols to clear things up, which always broke his heart and just wanted to yell she’s the love of my life! Some fans even openly shipped you two. Telling you that they want you guys together when they saw you out and about. Everyone knew you, just not the way he wanted you to be known as. 

He didn’t mean for the first time you guys saw each other, after two and a half long months, to be in public. Since you lived barely a mile away from the airport, he decided to walk to your house, get some fresh air. He saw you in the coffee shop and couldn’t wait another minute longer. Two and a half months was long enough. He walked in, very quickly let me tell you, almost tripping on his feet. When you looked up from your textbook and notes, about to make sure the clumsy person was okay, you froze looking into those soft brown eyes you’ve only been able to see through your small phone lately. You quickly got up, forgetting where you were and that you needed to keep your cool, knowing some fans or even paparazzi must’ve followed him. He gave you a sad smile, before walking the rest of the distance and hugging you lightly. 

What he really wanted to do was hug you so tightly, you’d turn red and your bones would hurt. He wanted to twirl you around to hear that soft giggle he lives so much. He wanted to kiss those lips he loves and misses so much. He wanted to not let go. But he had to. Because you were in public. 

After the moment where he inhaled your scent, something he hadn’t realized he missed until then, he hesitantly  pulled away. He pointed to your seat and you sat down while he went to order a drink. You shuffled to put your stuff away, dropping a few things, but you didn’t care. Your boyfriend of three years was here. 

And that’s what led up to now. You guys sat across each other, studying each other. His brown hair, messy from his hoody. His brown eyes slightly swollen and his two little moles right below his eyebrow. His slightly chapped lips that he’s licked a few times in the past minute. His eyes staring at your features, taking in your appearance. Your lips red and swollen from biting them in concentration so much. Your hair down and in its natural state. You eyes red from your lack of sleep. 

He opens his mouth to speak but his cut off by the middle aged women bringing his coffee. “Here you go young man.” She kindly smiles as she sat the coffee down. She turns to you, her smile still bright. “You want your regular, sweetie?”

“Yes please, thank you Evelyn.” You smile as she nods and walks away. When she’s out of sight you finally look back to your boyfriend who’s been staring at you the whole time. You smile shyly, your cheeks heating up. 

“With how long we’ve been together, you’d think you wouldn’t blush because of me anymore.” He smiles softly as he takes a sip of his steaming coffee. 

“People say if you still have that effect on your significant other, that’s how you know they’re in love.” you shrug and leaning your elbow onto the table, chin on your palm. 

He raises an eyebrow as his smile becomes wider, eyeing you. “So you’re in love? With who?” 

“Just some guy. Super cute and tries to act like he’s not super soft when he really his. I miss him lots.” 

“Then why don’t you do something about it?” He challenges as he leans back into his eat, arms crossed over his chest. 

“Because we’re in public and we’d both probably get our heads chopped off if I do something about it.” 

His smile drops slightly with your statement. He knew it was a joke, but he also knew how much it hurt you to be kept a secret. He knew deep down you were hurting with that statement, slight hate towards his job for not letting you guys be together publicly. But he also knew that you wouldn’t ever complain about it, because you knew it was his dream job. And you loved him too much to make him choose. 

He sighs and leans forward, his arms crossed on the table. He looks up into your soft eyes that glow with the light that shines above you both. He looks at your smooth skin and flushed cheeks. “I’m sorry I put you through this crap, baby girl. I didn’t mean for me to surprise you here. I was walking to your place and saw you and I just couldn’t wait. Even though I basically am since I can’t even fucking touch you after waiting so damn long. I tried talking to them aga-” 

“Babe, it’s fine. I’m glad you came here. As long as I get to see you, I’m okay.” You smile softly as you look up in time for the coffee and thank her quietly before looking back to Jaebum. “How long are you back for?” 

“Three months. Maybe even longer. We’re just going to be preparing for a comeback.” He nods as he takes another sip of his coffee. 

“I’m really happy you’re back.” 

And you were. You weren’t unhappy with Jaebum at all. You loved him with all your heart and wouldn’t change that if you could. You did hate the fact that you could’t kiss him and if you could, you’d run away right now. You’d run away to a cabin in the woods where you;d be all alone. Just the two of you forever, you two in a little cabin watching the sun set and rise every day. You’d spend the day with just the two of you, walk around without anyone seeing and having to be cautious of everything you did around him. You wanted to have a normal relationship so badly it hurt. But you loved him too much, and if he was happy, you were happy. He’d never know how bad this hurt you to not be able to have a normal relationship with the man you loved since you were eighteen years old. You’ve wanted to gloat to people about you’re relationship and brag about how you found the perfect man in your childhood best friend. But you couldn’t. 

“I know this hurts you Y/N. I know it does but you don’t want to say anything because you’re the most selfless person I’ve ever met. I want you to talk to me about it.” 

“Jae, stop. Not here.” You mumble. The cafe is nearly empty except for another couple by the window in the front. The workers talking and not paying attention to the two of you. 

“I want you to tell me how much you hate it. How much this hurts not just me but you too. Tell me how you want me to fix this. I hate seeing the way your eyes get glossy whenever we’re in public because we have to act like we haven’t been in love for the past three years. I want nothing more than to wipe those emotions away but I need you to talk to me. Don’t worry about me or about the fans or my job. Worry about yourself and talk-” 

“Fine, Jaebum! I hate sitting here across from you and having to act like you mean nothing more than a friend to me. I hate how I have to act like this doesn’t bother me that I can’t kiss you or hug you more than ten seconds after I have’t seen you for nearly three months. I hate that your management basically controls our relationship and I hate that to the public eye I’m just some friend. I want people to know how much I love you. But I can’t do that.” 

He stares into your watery eyes and licks his lips. His eyes forming tears he wish weren’t caused because of his job. “Baby girl, I wish nothing more than to be able to kiss you right now. Or anywhere for that matter. I don’t want to have to hide our relationship either baby. I -” 

“It’s not your fault Jae.” You sigh and grab your bag. “I’m going to start heading home. You coming?” You ask him as you stand up and trudge your bag onto your shoulder. 

Jaebum bites his lip and nods. He knows you don’t like to talk about this. Especially not in public where you guys can’t comfort each other. He sighs as he gets up. You were already out of the door, walking slowly by the window, waiting to hear the door open and close before continuing to walk to your house. 

You’re about to cross the street when you feel someone tug on your arm pulling you back about a foot. You turn around expecting to see Jaebum’s worried face, thinking you were about to walk in front of a car. 

But no. You were met with the soft lips of your boyfriend’s, smacking into yours. You gasp a bit before kissing him back, your hands flying to his face. His hands lay on your waist and he brings you closer. You hear gasps and squeals come from across the street or in the coffee shop. The sound of clicks and flashes coming from across the street are what pulled you back to reality. You pull away from him with a gasp, your hands now on his shoulder. His eyes widen as he takes in your appearance. “Jae…” You whisper as you stare into his eyes. He smiles softly at you and kisses your nose.

“I’m not hiding you anymore. I’m not going to let this hurt us anymore. It’s my relationship and I just kissed you in front of a bunch of paps who followed me from the airport, so there’s no going back on it now.” He shrugs and his smile widens as he pulls you closer, your body flush against his as he wraps his arms rund your body. Finally holding you the way he wanted. Finally kissing you after so long. 

“Did you know-” 

He nods before you can finish, interrupting you with a kiss. “ I heard them behind me when I was walking, When you walked out of the shop I saw them again and needed to do this.” 

“Your managers and the boys-” 

“The boys will understand. They’ve been encouraging me to do this the past two weeks when they found out I was surprising you. As for the management.” He shrugs and looks across the street, smiling and waving at the fans who squealed and waved. “They’ll have to deal with it. I don’t know what they’ll do. But until then, I want to hang out with the love of my life and cuddle her. I want to make up for the lost time. I’m with you. I love you. You mean the world to me and I can’t lose you.” 

You smile brightly and pull him into a tight hug. “You were never going to lose me.” 

He pulls away and grabs you hand. “Now let’s get away from them. I want to be alone with you.” 

You smile brightly as he runs with you trailing behind him. You hear the girls yell for him and you. Yelling that they love you. He laughs and looks back at you. Happy because you’re in public. 


Dating Luke Would Include

◇Really bad pickup lines

◇Cuddling on lazy days

◇Braiding his long hair

◇Giving Petunia more attention than him

◇"It’s like you love my dog more than me"

◇"I do"

◇Wearing his “Sike” sweatshirt and flannels

◇"Babe? Where’s my Santa Cruz sweatshirt?“

◇"You’ve had it this whole time? I’ve been looking for it forever”

◇"It looks better on me anyways"

◇Him calling you “princess”

◇Roasting each other 24/7

◇Him going a bit too far

◇"Wait no princess I’m sorry I didn’t mean it"

◇Him being clingy 24/7

◇"Luke stop, I have to finish this"

◇"But isn’t your boyfriend more important"

◇Him sulking when you continue to ignore him

◇Cuddling him later as an apology

◇gOiNg On YoUr TiPtOeS tO kIsS hIm

◇Being best friends along with dating

◇Being able to tell each other everything

◇Going on crazy adventures

◇The 5sos fam loving you

◇Pretending to confuse him and Jack together whenever you’re at a Hemmings family gathering, just to tease Luke

◇Not being huge on PDA, but him always touching you in some form in public, so everyone knows you’re his

◇Acting like kids together

◇Silent treatment when you’re mad at each other

◇Eventually ending up talking again after 5 minutes because you have too much stuff to tell each other

◇Liz literally adoring you

◇Arz who? lmao

◇Him being really protective over you

◇Him teaching you how to play the guitar and piano

◇Being extremely comfortable with each other, maybe a bit too much

◇"I’m bored, wanna have sex?“

◇"Luke, you literally go onstage in 10 minutes”

◇"So…we can make it quick?“

◇Loving to watch him get angry, just because it’s hot

◇Really bad jokes and puns

◇Him laughing at his own terrible jokes

◇Dance parties with just the two of you

◇Being really weird together

◇"Cake is real”

◇"No, Lashton is"

◇LiStEnInG tO hIm SiNg

◇"Can you not"

◇Sassy Luke

◇Him hanging off of you like a sloth when cuddling, even though he’s like 10 feet tall

◇"I love your long hair, you look like a real life Disney prince"

◇"You know what else is long"

◇"Finish that thought and I’ll tell Liz"

◇Him constantly rolling over onto your side of the bed

◇"Get out of my spot you oversized giraffe"

anonymous asked:

I've noticed Jensen shuts down or says Destiel doesn't exist only when he does panels with Jared. But when he does panels with Misha he gives or tries to give a more honest meaningful answer about their characters relationship. He doesn't shut it down so quickly. Thoughts?

So like I said in the previous post  [x], I feel like this has less to do with the specific question being asked, and more to do with Jensen’s overall personality. Now let me preface this by saying, I don’t think that Jensen loves Jared more than Misha or vice versa—I think they’re both his best friends and he loves them equally. Their friendships are different however, and that makes all the difference in how Jensen acts when he is alone with either of them. Age has a lot to do with it; and I will use myself as an example here: I have (had … one passed away) two best friends who I adore with all my heart. One friend is younger than me by a few years, and the other was my age—older only by a couple months. Although I love them equally, I acted completely different with each one when we’d hang out. My younger best friend is like my little sister. I want to protect her first and foremost. I feel like that’s my job, so even though we can both get crazy and silly when we’re out and about, my first reaction whenever she suggests going on some new adventure, is to be calm, subdued and think “is this a good idea?” because—well, that’s the role I’ve always played in our friendship. I am the older, “wiser”, moral compass of the two and I need to help her navigate the best paths through life.

Now my other best friend … she and I always got into stupid situations together—and I was usually the one spearheading those plans. We would be loud and obnoxious and weird, because we weren’t necessarily “looking out for one another” (although, we did that too) but we were always trying to push each other a little further outside of our comfort zones. We saw ourselves in each other, and therefore, we saw our strengths and our weaknesses for what they were, and we tried to improve our lives—together. Whenever one of us got too “protective” of the other, it usually caused conflict, because neither of us played that role in the relationship. We were “equals” when it came to authority … and I think that is more the way Jensen and Misha see one another. Jensen looks at Misha as that crazy guy with no inhibitions whom he wants to be like; so when they’re together one on one, it’s like he has permission to let down his guard. When Jensen’s with Jared however, he needs to be in that big brother-protector mode. He watches over Jared as the guy explores his own limits.—  and don’t get me wrong, I think Jensen loves that role. That’s a deeply ingrained position for him, not just because that’s what he plays opposite of Jared on the show, but Jensen is a big brother in real life, and he’s used to being that protective watchman for his little brother and sister as well. I know I love being that person for my younger best friend (as well as my biological younger sister). I love being the one she can lean on, depend on, look up to. It’s very important to me and I think it’s extremely important to Jensen. Just look at how he acted when Jared had to leave Rome early because he was having a hard time with his depression. Jensen wanted nothing more than to protect that man, and he was a little anxious since Jared wasn’t within eyesight—he wanted to be able to make sure that he was okay.

So how does this affect the way he answers questions, you ask (to finally get back to the matter at hand) well, everything that I already pointed out, explains why Jensen responds differently in similar situations. When he and Jared are on stage, Jared usually does most of the talking, and Jensen jumps in when he feels it’s necessary. And any question that a fan asks him directly is usually answered in a brief and vague sort of way. Jensen is not long-winded when he’s on stage with Jared because his focus wants to be on Jared. He wants to be able to stand back a bit and “keep watch” and that’s easier when Jared is the one doing all the talking, so Jensen will keep his own answers brief.

With Misha however, he doesn’t need to be the protector (in fact, he might need a protector from some of Misha’s craziness every now and then … which is why Jared and Misha can get along so well).  So he can break into these long winded, deep, enthusiastic answers to questions because he knows that Misha is perfectly fine in the meantime, and probably doing something crazy behind him while he talks. So no matter what question he’s answering, whether it’s something simple or something about ships or what have you—Jensen will speak more, be more open, be more free with his words because he doesn’t have to take things as seriously with Misha around. More likely than not, if things start getting too serious on stage, Jensen knows he can count on Misha to break the tension at just the right time.

With my best friend who was a little older than me—I knew that when I started to get a little too loud, a little too crazy, she would always be there to quiet me down and to distract other people from my awkwardness. I think that’s how Jensen and Misha’s friendship works. Their reactions have nothing to do with any specific question that they get asked, and everything to do with the roles Jensen, Jared and Misha all play in each other’s lives. Each one is vital to who they are, and they all managed to slip perfectly into those places. They each fit together like puzzle pieces, and the final image is that of three best friends who make each other so happy and feel so complete, that their joy becomes infectious and radiates through anyone who sees it.

So we need to stop assuming that one particular action or one particular response is a blanket-emotion for Jensen’s (or anyone’s) life. Every situation is unique, but if you dig deep enough, you can find the real reason why someone reacts the way they do—and nine times out of ten, it’ll be due to love and a feeling of necessity rather than one of hate and loathing.

Jensen is a complex human being, but when it comes to Jared and Misha—his mannerisms become pretty simple. He loves them both. They’re both his best friends, and no one, solitary moment on stage is going to prove otherwise.