i love you my sweet sharon!

10 Things I Hate About You [b.b au] [1/10]

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Series Title: 10 Things I Hate About You (AU)
Fandom: MCU
Characters: Bucky Barnes x Stratford!reader, Clint Barton x Stratford!Natasha, Wanda Maximoff, Vision, Sharon Carter, mentions of Steve Rogers, mentions of Tony Stark
Warnings: Alternate Universe, mild swearing
Word Count: 1,797
Requested: No
Description: Y/N and Natasha Straford’s house rules say that Nat can’t date until Y/N has a boyfriend, so strings are pulled to set the dour damsel up for a romance. Soon Y/N crosses paths with handsome Bucky Barnes. Will Y/N let her guard down enough to fall for the effortlessly charming Bucky?

Disclaimer: not my gif

[Y/N] = your first name


Growing up in an upper-middle-class home in California was something that Y/N Stratford had always been thankful for. Being subjected to those assholes that people at her school called boys, however, was not something that she appreciated very much. None of the boys at Y/N’s high school were worth any of her time, in her opinion, and some of the girls there were pretty awful too. Y/N’s sister, on the other hand, totally disagreed. After their mother passed away, Y/N and Nat had started falling out more than ever, and they barely even spoke to one another anymore.

Natasha Statford was the incarnation of all the things that people at Stark High School wanted to be: pretty and popular. That was the extent of it. And not only was Nat shallow and a little bit of an airhead, but she was awful to her older sister, Y/N, and had taken advantage of their dad’s love for his daughters when their mother passed away. Nat wanted to do what everyone else her age did: date a cute boy with a high social rank at their school. Perhaps that was what made Nat the favoured Statford sister. Y/N was just as beautiful as Nat, and even more smart. But she had an antisocial, often abrasive attitude and wanted nothing to do with the losers at their school.

Nat’s best friend, Sharon Carter, was smart enough to befriend Nat in order to climb her way through the social system of their high school, not that Nat would ever realise, and had always had her eye on Steve Rogers; a self-absorbed high school senior and aspiring model. Steve’s affluent best friend Tony was the grandson of the man who founded the high school they all attended, and it only made the two of them even more unbearable. 

At least Y/N had one friend that was worth having: Wanda Maximoff. Wanda was considered to be even more odd than Y/N at Stark, and that was saying something. She wore dark clothing and loved Shakespeare more than anything. People gave her nicknames such as witch, but Wanda only ignored them. One more year of school and Wanda and Y/N would be gone from that hell hole anyway. 

In the morning, Nat and Y/N got to school separately. Nat rode the bus with Sharon in the mornings and Y/N took her old car that she had bought with the money she saved from all of her part-time jobs. Y/N – unlike Natasha – wanted to be responsible for herself and was sure that she would only use her inheritance for paying for college and nothing else. Natasha was already coaxing her father into buying her Prada backpacks and who knows what else. So once Y/N and Nat were out the door, it was almost like they didn’t even know each other.

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Way To Your Heart

Words: 790
Song Fic: Way To Your Heart by Soul Sister
Bucky BarnesxReader (Can be read as Male!Reader)
Request: Please write a Buck imagine where you’re an avenger and one time you think you’re alone at the compound so you start singing and dancing to soul sisters ‘way to your heart’. What you don’t know Bucky leans at the down and watches you the whole time with a smile. As soon as you notice him you’re all flustered and try to hide. But buck gets you hug you and tells you he also searches for the way to your heart and you end up kissing ? ️☺️ I really hope that’s not weird. Also his POV if you like 😘” -Anon
Author’s Note: I tried something different. rather than being just Bucky or the reader’s POV, this fic flips back and forth. Probably not a style I will use often if ever at all again, but it was something new. 


Reader

You inspected the kitchen once, then twice, even a third time to make sure it was empty. It was a little overkill and you knew it. It was so early that you knew even Steve wouldn’t be up yet. It was your favorite time of day. The brief few hours where there was no one else wandering around the compound. By 6am the place was a hive. People always coming and going, nonstop until midnight the next day. It was a wonder any of them got any sleep.

Even FRIDAY knew not to interrupt your early morning routine. (She might have learned that lesson the hard way when you disabled her voice recognition software one morning until right before Tony woke up.) So you shuffled into the center of the kitchen and hit play on your Morning Jams playlist. Dressed in nothing but a pair of socks and an oversized “Property of SHIELD” t-shirt, you started dancing around to the music a la Tom Cruise in Risky Business.

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You shouldn’t get used (Bucky Barnes x Reader)

Anonymous requested:

Can you do a Bucky x reader imagine where the reader almost gets into a fight with a girl at a coffee shop because she made a mean comment about Bucky’s arm. He tells her it’s ok that he’s used to the mean comments. The reader is heartbroken but kisses him and tells him he should never get used to hearing mean things about him. He tells her he’s really lucky to have her in his life

~so I have’t left my home yet, woohoooo! Although I’m leaving tomorrow morning hhaha, so this will be (I think) my last one shot written before holidays~


  • Words:  1.329
  • Pairing: Bucky Barnesx Reader
  • Warnings: Swearing, fluffiness overload.
  • Author notes: (Y/N) is your name

Originally posted by gerrd

Bucky was not very keen on going out, people gave him the weirdest looks over the metal arm and he didn’t want to put you through such unnecessary scrutiny; you, on the other hand, loved him enough to take the looks and even the mean comments he could receive.
 
One summer day, you were cuddling on the couch of the apartment you shared, it was nice living with him. It was one of the few places in which the winter soldier never showed up. At first you were understandably nervous for one of those breakdowns Steve told you about; they were extremely violent, and they scared the living hell out of you, but he never got one. Not in the first month, not in the second, and after a whole year of living together, you never experienced nothing of the sort.
 
“Baby” Bucky said while caressing your bare legs “Are you sure you don’t wanna go out?”
“I mean, I’d like to go out… But if you’re not comfortable with that, I don’t mind staying here” you smiled at him.
“I think it’d be nice if we go out…” He shyly muttered “I hate having you trapped in here”
“I’m not trapped sweetie” you giggled “I don’t really mind staying here, I told you” You ran your hand through his long, dark hair and he smiled under your touch “but I guess it would be nice to go out for something to drink… It’s getting quite hot in here, isn’t it?”
“Yeah” he agreed “go get prettier baby, and we’ll have a date”
 
You went to your closet and picked up a nice flowered dress; Bucky’s favorite one and drew a simple line on your eyelids. He waited for you in a black t-shirt that hugged his body perfectly. It wasn’t extremely tight, but it did let you see that he was trained.
 
“Someone call heaven, it seems like they have lost an angel” He smiled at you “you look ravishing honey”
“I love you Buck” you walked towards him and reached out for his metal hand “You ready to go?” He nodded and before you were out the door, he cupped your cheek with his flesh hand and then, he leaned to gently press his lips against yours.
 
You walked a few blocks to get to a café and immediately, all eyes were on you both. Well, on Bucky’s arm to be honest; you really didn’t care, you were just looking at him, and being with him was all that mattered to you, but you could tell he was very uncomfortable. He was even quieter than usual. You sipped from your juice and you overheard a woman talking about Bucky and his arm. They talked about how hot he was and how hotter he’d be without that “fucking Terminator arm”
 
“Hey, you wanna shut up?” You said, turning around to face her “We’re trying to have a nice drink in here”
“Baby, don’t…” Bucky whispered, reaching out his flesh hand “It’s ok”
“No James, it’s not” You said deadly serious “This woman over here should suck up her nasty ass comments, or even better, shove them up her ass”
“Say that to my face!” She yelled.
“I’m saying it right to your face, bitch!” You stood up “Don’t you ever talk about my boyfriend like that, ok?”
“Or what?” She asked in between giggles “Are you gonna punch me?”
“Of course I will” You threatened. For Bucky you’d do that and more “So shut up”
“Baby, please…” Bucky stood up and tried to calm you down “Don’t do this…”
“Yeah Terminator, keep your girlfriend locked away, please” The woman laughed and her group of friends laughed as well.
 
Somehow, you got out of Bucky’s embrace and walked to that bimbo looking blonde. She was definitely not afraid of you and she stood up as well. Bucky was right behind you when she grabbed your arm, trying to keep you down and grab you by your hair. He held your waist and pulled you back as fast as he could. He paid for the drinks to the waitress and walked with you on his shoulder back to your apartment. Even though you protested to be put down again, he tightened his grip in your waist up on his shoulder because both he and you knew that you’d be reckless enough to go back to the café and kick that woman’s ass. You thought she deserved a good punch in the face.
 
He went up the three floors until your home and softly placed you down again. He didn’t say much from that moment. It was still around 5 pm so he just locked himself in the bedroom for a while; you made two attempts of going in, but before going for the third one you decided to leave him alone for a while. He needed it.
 
At 9 pm you were worried. So you started knocking the door again and you heard steps inside the bedroom. ‘God, please be him, god, please be him…’ You repeated to yourself as you felt the door handle being held; to your fortune, it was Bucky indeed and his face didn’t seem to be so fine. He had been crying, so you decided to skip to the next, ridiculously and definitely unnecessary question.
 
“Babe…” You bit your lip, feeling quite silly for asking such a stupid question “Are you ok?” He nodded, pursing his lips into a smile “Stupid question, I know” You thought out loud, grabbing your head between your hands “Bucky, we need to talk about this”
“I really don’t want to…”
“James” It was the second time in the day you called him James, and he knew that he couldn’t take the idea out of your mind “We have to talk” You pointed at the couch and he understood that he needed to sit down.
 
He sat on the left side of the sofa and rested his elbows on his knees, you sat on the small table in front of him and started.
 
“Why are you like this? Is it because of the arm?”
“No, I don’t care about it, I’m quite used to the… attention” He sighed “It’s because of you… I don’t want to put you through that again. I couldn’t take it… And I did nothing to defend you”
“I definitely can stand up for myself” You pointed out “What I can’t take is that you get picked on for having that arm… Honestly I find it quite cool”
“But that’s because you know where I got it from, and you know the story about it and you accept it…” His grey eyes were sad and your felt your heart being broken “I don’t care about what they say about the arm, really”
“Buck, are you listening to yourself?”
“Baby, really… I’m way older than you and I have heard so many times the same thing, all over the world…”
“Buck…!” You said, about to lose your cool “It’s you that we are talking about… You shouldn’t get used to hear nasty ass comments of any kind of sort related to any part of your body” You cupped his face in your hands and pressed your forehead against his “I don’t want to hear you saying you’re used to anything” Your voice cracked “Never again” He nodded, moving your head as well “I love you, ok?” He nodded again.

Bucky searched for your lips and captured them in sweet, gently motions. Your hands let go of his face and rested on his shoulders instead, his left hand cupped your face and the other rested on your knee.
 
“I don’t know what I’d do without you (Y/N)” He said in between kisses.
“Probably you’d be still living with Stevie and Sharon” You giggled.
“I love you so much, my doll. I’m so lucky to have you in my life”
“I know, right?” You smiled and kissed him again.

anonymous asked:

Sharon is nervously introducing Natasha to Peggy as her girlfriend and then Peggy laughs cause she was gonna do the same with Sharon for her girlfriend and soon to be wife Angie.

Sharon hadn’t seen her Aunt Peggy in a while. Though they were technically aunt and neice the two of them were close as sisters Sharon being the daughter of Peggy’s much older brother.

Today was even more important than just Sharon’s reunion with her best friend and favorite relative, she was also introducing Peggy to her new girlfriend Natasha. Peggy’s ability to read people made her an excellent judge of character and Sharon always introduced her before getting serious with a girl.

She was nervous, because if she was being honest with herself, than she’d have to admit that she was already in pretty deep with Natasha, despite only dating for two months.

Sharon just loved her tiny spikey girlfriend, she loved when Natasha whispered to her other languages during sex, she loved the feeling being between her strong thighs, she loved her bad humor and weird taste in movies. Natasha was a collection of little things that made Sharon feel at home and it was difficult not falling in love with that.

“Alright,” Natasha said, adjusting her scarf before pulling on her jacket, “I can sense you freaking out over there and I just want to say chill. Families love me. Your Aunt will love me.”

“Yes I know, I’m just nervous. It’s important to me that this goes well.”

“It will, trust me. I’m the family whisperer.”

Natasha pulled her down for a kiss and then they headed out to meet Peggy at the brunch place.

Peggy was waiting for them in front of the restaurant, beside her was a exuberant dishwater blonde that was bouncing on her feet in circles around Peggy. Before Sharon could wave hello she was being yanked behind Natasha even as Peggy pulled a gun and trained it on Sharon’s girlfriend.

“Widow, get away from her!” Peggy hissed.

“This doesn’t concern you Agent Carter!” Natasha snapped back leveling her own gun before suddenly straightening, “Carter and Carter. Oh christ.”

Natasha’s gun disappeared back from whereever she’d pulled it from and she raised her hands looking vaguely apologetic.

“What the hell is going on?” Sharon demanded, “Peggy why are you pointing a gun at my girlfriend?”

“Because she’s an assassin who is only dating you to get to me.”

“Now hold on–” Natasha started before being interrupted by the dishwater blonde girl.

“What are you talking about assassin’s English. I feel like this is something that should have come up before we got married.”

“Married!” Sharon exclaimed just as Natasha also exclaimed “I’m dating Sharon cause I love her Carter, it’s got nothing to do with you.”

Sharon turned back to Natasha.

“You love me?” She could help the thrilled butterflies in her stomach, “I love you too.”

“That’s real sweet,” the dishwater blonde piped up, “but I feel like we’re glossing over the assassin part of this conversation.”

“Yeah, hey!” Sharon said, snapping out of the warm glow of new love, “what the hell?!”

“I can explain!” Natasha and Peggy said at the exact same time.

Thatalternativekid's Best Albums of 2014

Creating the following list was particularly challenging for me given just how diverse the spectrum of music created in 2014 was. New artists such as FKA twigs and Lake Street Dive blurred the lines between genres while seasoned veterans like St. Vincent and The Black Keys reimagined their role in the music world. On the albums Goddess and I Never Learn, earnest and pleading vocals took center stage, whereas on Alvvays and Salad Days, the focus was more on the aesthetically-pleasing and sentimental tunes. Lyrically, Sharon Van Etten and Run the Jewels broke new ground, bringing deep emotions to the table and raising up new issues for discussion. In addition, the mellow music of Jenny Lewis and Future Islands was reminiscent of times when the world was less complicated, and music more pure. In this past year musicians showed us that no matter what crazy happenings take place in the world around us, music will always be there to take us back to a place of peace, humanity, and beauty.

  1. St. Vincent - St. Vincent
  2. Are We There - Sharon Van Etten
  3. The Voyager - Jenny Lewis
  4. LP1 - FKA twigs
  5. Turn Blue - The Black Keys
  6. Bad Self Portraits - Lake Street Dive
  7. Alvvays - Alvvays
  8. Singles - Future Islands
  9. So Long, See You Tomorrow - Bombay Bicycle Club
  10. Too Bright - Perfume Genius
  11. Love Letters - Metronomy
  12. Ritual in Repeat - Tennis
  13. Sweet Disarray - Dan Croll
  14. Supermodel - Foster the People
  15. Ryan Adams - Ryan Adams
  16. This Is All Yours - alt-J
  17. 1989 - Taylor Swift
  18. Run the Jewels 2 - Run the Jewels
  19. Ultraviolence - Lana Del Rey
  20. Salad Days - Mac DeMarco
  21. Goddess - Banks
  22. They Want My Soul - Spoon
  23. I Never Learn - Lykke Li
  24. Drowners - Drowners
  25. Strange Desire - Bleachers

anonymous asked:

breakup poem recommendations? i need catharsis :/

Yeah, drowning in literature is always the solution, my friend.

Sweet Love, Sweet Thorn, Edna St. Vincent Millay
If You Forget Me, Pablo Neruda
You Thought I Was That Type, Anna Akhmatova
After Love, Sara Teasdale
Loss…, Gregory Orr
Ode to a Nightingale, John Keats
For my lover, returning to his wife, Anne Sexton
The Break Away, Anne Sexton
Circe’s Power, Louise Glück
Circe’s Torment, Louise Glück
The Afternoon Sun, C. P. Cavafy
The Glass Essay, Anne Carson
Fare Thee Well, Lord Byron
One Art, Elizabeth Bishop
O, How Thy Worth, William Shakespeare
Siren Song, Margaret Atwood

You can also opt for a more exhaustive format :

Meadowlands, Louise Glück
Autobiography of Red, Anne Carson
Sonnets to Orpheus, Rainer Maria Rilke
Stag’s Leap, Sharon Olds
A Lover’s Discourse, Roland Barthes

Missing Scene from Cap3:
  • [Scene opens on Sharon Carter, reading by her aunt's bedside. Light falls across Peggy's face as she opens her bleary eyes. Sharon takes her hand.]
  • Sharon: Aunt Peggy do you remember me? It's Sharon ...
  • Peggy: Sharon ... The sweet little girl who used to play soldier in my back garden?
  • Sharon: [smiles] Yes ... It's me.
  • Peggy: You look just like your mother.
  • Sharon: [smile wavers] How are you feeling?
  • Peggy: [pats Sharon's hand comfortingly] Don't worry about me, dear ... How are you? Is work treating you well? Is there anyone special in your life?
  • [Sharon drops her eyes]
  • Sharon: ... I ... Yes, actually ... Steve ... Captain Rogers ... and I ... Aunt Peggy, please don't be mad -
  • [Sharon trails off, eyes beginning to water. Peggy is quiet for several moments]
  • Peggy: ... I loved Steve ... I've never stopped loving him and I -
  • [Her breath catches for a moment, but she quickly regains her composure]
  • Cont: - wish things could have been different. But above all, I care about him ... and I believe you can make him happy Sharon. My best wishes to you both ... There's just one thing -
  • [Peggy reaches out shakily and Sharon takes her hand, steadying the elderly woman]
  • Sharon: Anything ...
  • [Peggy's eyes lock on Sharon's, as she leans forward over their clasped hands]
  • Peggy: Ride him ... Ride him like I always dreamed.
  • Sharon: AUNT PEGGY!!
  • Peggy: Honestly Sharon, have you seen his ass? Never let go of it ... NEVER LET GO.
  • Sharon: ... Aunt Peggy have you been watching Titanic again?
  • Peggy: IT'S BEEN 84 years, SHARON!

I have never made gifs but I couldn’t help this time :P … This was such a sweet moment ! The way she goes rushing for him. It’s adorable and sweet and special and now I’m gonna cry because my ship is the best and it’s making me emotional !

my feelings towards characters in Civil War
  • STEVE: wins most unhelpful person of the year award and most hypocritical and most lying
  • TONY: pls go to a hospital because i'm literally scared you're gonna keel over
  • NATASHA: oh look! a voice of logic and reason, thank god!
  • BUCKY: you deserve so much better
  • SAM: bless you beautiful soul even if i don't always agree
  • RHODEY: bless you beautiful soul and i totally agree with you on everything!
  • T'CHALLA: another one who found logic and reason, woo!
  • VISION: my sweet summer child
  • CLINT: fuck u
  • WANDA: sometimes i love you, sometimes you infuriate me to no end, what do i even do
  • SCOTT: just shut up
  • PETER: my sweet summer child #2
  • SHARON: i still sigh at some of your choices, but at least you have logic and reason too, score 3 for team logic and reason!
  • THUNDERBOLT ROSS: you sneaky clever bastard
  • EVERETT ROSS: i'm so sorry you got stuck with all these idiots and you have to share your last name with a creep
  • AUNT MAY: a new sass god has arisen
  • RUMLOW: wish you stuck around longer
  • HOWARD AND MARIA: NOPE
  • T'CHAKA: the ultimate leader of team logic and reason, the hero we needed and deserved
  • ZEMO: very clever, I'm impressed
  • STAN THE FEDEX MAN: a true hero
Have You Ever Been Replaced? (1/3)

Originally posted by mostlybenedict

Author: Arfrona-and-Marvel

Type of Story: Angst

Pairings: Sharon x Steve, Steve x Reader 

Warnings: Cursing, Self Hate

Word Count: 1260

Note: Feedback please. Also, I have nothing against Sharon.  Y/N = Your Name

This is after Civil War.

———————————————————————————————————–

Have you ever been replaced?

Physically, mentally, emotionally, in every damn way that kills you?

I saw her today with Steve. Don’t get me wrong, she’s nice. Her name’s Sharon. Yes, Sharon, sweet, sweet Sharon. She was taller than me, prettier than me, smarter than me. Just better. Steve was my best friend until she came along. She came out of nowhere and now she has him  in the palm of her hands. I don’t know what annoys me more. The fact that she’s now his best friend and girlfriend, or the fact that he left me so suddenly because someone better came along.
I always thought I loved Steve to a limit. Best friends. No, this girl came along and made me realized, I wanted him more than I ever thought I did.

Damn it.

Damn her.
Damn her with her curly blonde hair. Her nice smile. Her taller and better figure.
Damn him for replacing me without a care. Damn him for making me love him so much, just to throw me away.

Damn everything.

Yet, even after everything…

Here he is again. Here we are again. We’re sitting on the couch, just us watching some mindless TV.

“Hey, you know there’s a new movie coming out,” he says.

“Yeah?” My heart rate starts increasing at the sound of his voice. Damn him.

Superman V Batman, you love that kind of stuff right? Well, we haven’t hung out much these past days, do you want to watch it?” He smiles at me kindly.

“You got it Captain,” and for that day, everything feels right again. I have my best friend back for a few moments.

Days past before we talk again because he’s too busy with someone else, but did it matter to me? No. Why? Because I was an idiot. Idiotically in love with America’s sweetheart, in love with his smile, kindness, caring soul, and whatnot. I disregarded how he always had me around when necessary.

But still, I believe that everything will go back to the way it was before she came along.

I call him right as I get up to confirm our plans for the movies tonight. He didn’t pick up. I assume it was because it is too early. I get up and out of bed, ready to start my day.

Throughout the entire day I didn’t see Steve, but my hopes did not flatter. I still converse with Hawkeye, train with Black Widow, talk geeky with the green rage monster, eat pop tarts with Thor, and caught Tony up on my crush on Steve.

“Do you think anything will happen tonight?”

“Y/N, he has a girlfriend.”

“Well, yeah. Right. Do you think our friendship will at least be the same again?”

“Yeah, yeah I do,” Tony says setting down his screwdriver.

I let out a small squeal and leave the laboratory to get ready. I didn’t see Tony’s heartbroken look as he sees his friend getting ready for her ultimate heartbreak. He prays for something to happen for her to avoid all the heartache.

An hour later, I am finally ready. I pick up my phone to text Steve and wait for his reply. I go to the living room and sit down to watch a little TV.

Five minutes later, my phone buzzes. It wasn’t a text from Steve so I ignore it.

Fifteen minutes, I double text Steve asking him where the hell he is.

Thirty minute of silence.

Forty minutes.

An hour and I admit defeat. I have been stood up.

I’m still staring at the TV, but my mind is racing with possible reasons for this. I couldn’t believe it. I wouldn’t believe it. He wouldn’t stand me up. Right? Best friends don’t leave the other hanging like so. I shake my head.

No, maybe he’s hurt, or in danger, or worse.

I stare at my phone again and decide to throw my pride out the window. I text him once again asking him where he is.

He finally replies.

Sorry, you can’t have your phone on during the movies. What’s up though?

My heart stops, I hear white noise, and my breathing becomes slower, shakier.

The hell was he doing at the movies…

My hands shook as I text him. I go over and over what I wanted to write. I erase and retype my words on the screen until it comes out clear and nice.

Just haven’t heard from you all day, was worried.

I stare as the three dots come up again on the screen. I wait and wait and wait for his reply. My feet are bouncing in anticipation.

Finally, he sends me a picture.

The picture is him and Sharon, holding popcorn and tickets to…

Batman V Superman.

He forgot.

Of course he forgot. I’m nothing much. I’m just Y/N with a plain face, boring personality, and hopeless dreams.

I begin to laugh.

Hysterically.

I should have known. I should have fucking known. I wasn’t anything to him. I was just a placeholder. He didn’t care about me the way he cares about her, despite the fact that I was there first. I was the one who helped him become accustomed to life after in ice for seventy fucking years. I was the one who stood by him when he fought for Bucky. I was the one who, with Sam’s help, made sure he was safe and not off doing something stupid.

Then Sharon comes out of fucking nowhere and he drops me off like I was no impact on his life.
I laugh because I am pathetic. I waited for this old man to come and get me for nearly an hour. Thinking that I actually had a chance, of not getting him to love me like I love him, but still being my best friend. Still being his best friend.

I laugh and laugh because I thought he still cared. I thought he cared.

I feel someone’s arms around me, and I breath in for a few seconds to smell Wanda’s perfume. She’s hugging me tight, and I finally break down.
I sob into her arms as she holds me.

My head spins and I clutch my wildly beating heart. My vision is no longer just blurred but shaking. I then see that I’m the one shaking.

I should have known.

I should have realized.

I was so damn replaceable for this one bastard who never gave much of a damn about me.

I finally learn the lesson: Don’t ever. Ever. Give more love than you receive. It will destroy you in the end.

I didn’t understand that lesson because Steve had the power to drag my heart through hell, and I would let him do it a second time, and a third time. Because he always makes me forget what I learnt.

I stand up and Wanda helps me into my room.

“You vant to talk about it?” She says, her accent was soothing. She pushes the hair out of my face and hands me a tissue once we sit down on my bed.

“No, no I’m good,” I say.

“Yes,” she says.

“What?” I ask for clarification.

“Yes, you should confront him. It’ll ease your soul,” she says, reading my mind. I nod and just sit there staring the wall. My heart empty and numb, my eyes itchy and red, my ears were still ringing with white noise.

But a small part of my mind still wonders.

For how long did I mean so little to him?


Part 2: Near To Nothing 

Part 3: Deserve It

{ bound, somehow }

❝whether you care to admit it lately or not, i am an important part of your life, and whether i say it out loud or not, you are an important part of mine. and i think, even though we might draw further or nearer from each other, depending on circumstance, you and i are bound, somehow.❞

a holmes & watson fanmix

1. wet gold - the octopus project // 2. afterlife - arcade fire //
3. a place in displacement - south // 4. you were a kindness - the national // 5. the dress looks nice on you - sufjan stevens //
6. autumn story - firekites // 7. nightcall - london grammar //
8. dark hopes - barbarossa // 9. despair in the departure lounge - arctic monkeys // 10. miss miss - gregory and the hawk //
11. live forever - drew holcomb & the neighbors // 12. passenger seat - death cab for cutie // 13. where is my mind? (the pixies piano cover) - maxence cyrin // 14. i love you but i’m lost - sharon van etten //
15. blood bank - bon iver // 16. master & a hound - gregory alan isakov //
17. piazza, new york catcher - belle & sebastian //
18. sweet - leighton meester // 19. all my stars aligned - st. vincent //
20. chosen - blood orange

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previous holmes & watson mixes:
some sort of penance
turns out there’s two 

Clueless [ Steve Rogers x Reader ]

Prompt : Reader is an avengers and quite close with the avengers.She saw steve flirts with sharon and felt hurt. Lots of fluff.

Pairing : Steve Rogers/OC

Genre : Fluff, romance   |   Warning : None

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Originally posted by he-is-captain

“Morning!” Steve looked up and saw [Y/N] with two plates of pancakes on her hands.


“Good morning, [Y/N].” Steve returned her smile and sat next to Clint and Nat who were busy fighting for the first batch of pancakes [Y/N] just made.

“There’s enough for everyone, guys.” Tony rolled his eyes though he didn’t stop from trying to steal two slices of pancakes from the pancake piles.

“Good morning, lady [Y/N]. Thank you for the meal.” Thor gave her a huge grin.

“See? Thor’s the only person who can act like normal people.” [Y/N] pointed out before adding, “And Bruce too.”

“What about me?” Steve feigned a hurt look.

“You’re okay too, I guess.” She grinned and went back to the kitchen to grab the last plat of pancakes.

She took the empty seat across from Clint and next to Thor who was busy eating pancakes. Her plate was already filled with pancakes and bunch of her favorite berries, and a good amount of whipping cream with maple syrup. That was sweet, she thought and was about to thank Clint when the archer wiggled his eyebrows in a teasing manner. Oh.

“Thank you, Steve.” She turned to Steve with a shy smile.

“No problem. It’s the least I can do after eating your food.”

“You guys are so sweet it’s making me sick.” Tony commented. “Pass me the syrup.”

[Y/N] blushed and quickly focused her eyes on her plate of food, trying to ignore the butterfly in her stomach when she saw Steve’s cheeks pinked a little.

“I’m telling you man, it’s called love.” Clint leaned back on the couch while [Y/N] rest her head on his lap.

“No. Steve is just… being Steve.” She mumbled.

“Really?” He raised his eyebrows in amusement. “What about the time he offered to take you to Smithsonian Museum? Or the time he cancelled his blind date just so he can accompany you to that weird musical? Or the many times he protected you during missions?”

She didn’t answer. She couldn’t let her hope up, she couldn’t afford getting another heartbreak. [Y/N] has been through a lot of hardships before she came to the Avengers Tower and she wasn’t going to risk it by telling Cap how she feels about him. The sound of the door opening broke her train of thoughts and she sit back up, craning her neck to see who has came back.

Clint watched his best friend looked away when Sharon Carter walked into the room with Steve. He didn’t have a grudge against Sharon but the lady should’ve known not to flirt with Steve, he grumbled to himself. Well, she wouldn’t have known, actually. Sharon has never been to the quarter aside from mission brief with Maria Hill. So it’s highly possible she didn’t know his precious best friend is pining for Captain America and the man himself is too dumb to realize his feelings for [Y/N].

“You look great, Carter.” Steve’s voice was light and joyful. They were talking and Steve wasn’t even aware that [Y/N] is trying not to cry.

“You okay, kid?” Clint whispered.

“Yeah. I’ll just go to the training room to see Nat.” She got up and quickly left without giving Steve and Sharon a chance to greet her.

“Is she okay?” Steve turned to Clint.

“What do you think, Capsicle.” Well, Clint was supposed to be an adult but he was annoyed by how clueless Steve was and how flirty Sharon is being. He didn’t care. If that’s what it takes for Steve to realize his feelings for [Y/N], that’s what he’ll do.

Turned out, the whole Avengers have the same mentality as Clint’s, aside from Thor. They were bitching about and throwing cold replies to Sharon, which made the latter so uncomfortable and willing to leave the tower after few hours of catching up.

“What are you guys doing?” Steve sighed when he got back from the lobby.

“What are YOU doing, Steve?” Tony was more than happy to put some sense into him.

“We were just catching up!”

“You look like you were about to kiss her.” Bruce added.

“Which brings us to the question, what are you trying to do?” Nat finished.

“Are you trying to make [Y/N] jealous? Cause if you are, your plan worked very well.” Bucky, who were silent throughout the day, finally spoke.

“What? No! i—where’s she?” Steve looked around to find [Y/N] gone.

“She hasn’t been here since you brought Sharon. You didn’t notice that?” Clint said.

Steve let out a sigh. This is getting out of hand, he thought to himself. His heart did feel weirdly pained at the thought of [Y/N] feeling hurt because of him, which made him realize some things.

“I wasn’t trying to make her jealous, Bucky. I don’t even know—wait. Are you saying she loves me too?” Steve turned to his best friend who were receiving death glares from Clint and Nat.

“Yes. Just go and make things right with her.” Tony rolled his eyes.

“Training room!” Bruce called out when Steve was about to close the door on his way out.

“Hey, [Y/N].” Steve called. She was lying on her back in the middle of the training room with her eyes closed. He noticed she flinched a little, probably startled at his sudden presence.

“You know I don’t like Sharon, right?” He spoke again, this time sitting down next to her.

“It’s not really my problem.” She mumbled.

“Yes it is. Especially if the person I love thinks I love someone else.” Steve’s lips curved into an amused smile as he watched sat back up and her eyes snapped open in surprise.

“You love me?” She asked, clearly taken aback by his confession.

He pulled her into a sweet and passionate kiss. This feels very right, he thought to himself. They were a little breathless when they broke the kiss, both cheeks has turned an adorable shade of pink.

“Does that answer you question?” He asked.

“I don’t know, I may need more convincing.” She replied with a teasing smile.

wholenewleveloffreak  asked:

I don't understand why you hate m@rrish so much?? he treats her better than st!linski. P@rrish validates Lyd!a's opinions and trusts her to make the right decision for herself. And plus she's done with teenage boys remember? With the stud!a ship, the feelings are all ONESIDED. Lyd!a had never once reciprocated his feelings. That's why she keeps going with other people. She sees St!les as a friend or brother not a lover. We've never seen Lyds act like she does around p@rrish w/ st!les.

what tf did i just read

“he treats her better than stilinski” Where? you mean the countless times he has hallucinated her naked? he was reluctant to save her from eichen and Stiles the boy you claim treats lydia so bad had to convince parrish to come help save lydia.

 “parrish validates lydia’s opinions and trusts her to make the right decision for herself” again when did this happen? when did he do anything other than think about lydia naked he has never taken the time to sit down and validate her opinion yea he did help her train but it was cut off by parrish being horny around lydia (once again) “make the right decision for herself” what decision did lydia need to make that would require parrish’s trust that she could handle it … wait hold on that didn’t happen 

“she’s done with teenage boys” omg you are so right lmao!! Since lydia made a statement about how she is done with teenage boys she is in love with parrish yup that is what it means when lydia in season four who barely had contact with parrish she said this because she is in love with him !!! 


no  what happened was that lydia’s boyfriend died and before that jackson almost died then left for england.  So when lydia said “she’s done with teenage boys” she was tired of getting her heartbroken and loosing people she cared about so this was her way of saying i need some time to myself after loosing because everyone i love is dying or leaving me (including allison). 

“The feeling are onesided”

 “Lydia had never once reciprocated his feelings” 

The only reason lydia ignored Stiles in the beginning of season 1/ before is because she had no reason to talk to him. Stiles and Lydia were in two totally different friend groups. Yes Stiles liked Lydia but at this time Lydia was dating Jackson. What was she supposed to do leave Jackson because someone else liked her? All because Stiles liked her does not mean Lydia had to like her back because once again they were not friends at this point. And if you want to talk about reciprocating feelings Lydia has NEVER done so with Parrish. 

“We’ve never seen Lyds act like she does around p@rrish w/ st!les” you mean with stiles she acts loving, caring, sweet, protective, and funny. compared with parrish she acts well i don’t know how she acts with parrish because they had  what four scenes together (i’m not accounting hallucinations) 

But an in depth analysis of all the seasons where you claim “ the feelings are onesided”


SHITTTT

THEY’RE 

SO

FUCKING

ONE

SIDED

HOW

DID 

I

NOT

SEE

IT

BEFORE????



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Since I have gained 100 followers, why not have some fun stuff to do!
Now this are the three ideas that I’ve been thinking to do:

♦ Hold a Skype call.
♦ Write stories together in Google Doc or Online Microsoft word
(Utapri, Tokyo Ghoul, Free!, KnB, Black Butler, K-Project, etc…)
♦ Sleepover Saturday.

I don’t know which one to do or if to do them all…but yeah…

Here’s a random photoshop picture of Ai by my friend. Enjoy!

I GOT TO MEET NATASHA TODAY!!!! IT WAS SOOO AWESOME! She is even more gorgeous in person and so sweet. I love her!! But there was a point where I almost didn’t get to meet her so here’s the story.

The screening for Carmilla had just ended at Buffer Fest and my friend and I were hoping that we would be able to catch them after so that I could give them a box of donuts and a letter I had written. We walked out of the theatre but didn’t see any sign of them so we assumed they went to the green room or something. So, we decided to walk around the floor to see where they could have gone (i know i little stalkerish). Anyways, 10 minutes passed and we still didn’t see them so we went to ask one of the Buffer Fest volunteers if there was anyway we or she could give them the box and letter. She was so sweet and nice and did everything she could to help us including texting the volunteer that was with the cast and then going to see for herself because they hadn’t responded. A few minutes later, she came out with the other volunteer who informed us that the cast had already left and that she was really sorry :( The first volunteer saw that I was kinda bummed and suggested that we walk along Front st. in hopes that we might bump into them. So we said that we would do just that and thanked both of them and we were on our way. We went up the escalators and just as we were getting off, I looked up from staring at the ground and made the most inhuman scream in the world lol there she was, in all her glory, Natasha Negovanlis. She was about 2 feet in front of me when I screamed which made my friend double over in laughter and attracted a bit of attention. Saying that I was a little starstruck is an understatement. My whole world just did a 180. She was there in front of me, casually having a conversation, and this was my opportunity. Another creampuff saw how much I was freaking out and told me that I could do it and understood my reaction lol. (Tbh I almost didn’t approach her) Natasha saw me through the two people she was with and gave me a small wave and i did the same back. Soon after, she started heading towards the end of the building with a friend so I sort of ran after her. She turned around because she was telling her friend that she was going to do something (idk really know that part but I’m pretty sure it’s because she wanted to take pictures and talk to the fans that came out to the screening) and i kinda held out my arm to give her the box and the letter. She said hi and i said hi back then she asked me what it was and i told her that it was for her, elise, sharon, kaitlyn, aaron, and annie and that i meant to give it to them after but i didnt see them. She said thank you and gave me a hug and i asked if she would mind taking a picture with me and she said that she would love to. So my friend took the photo all while i was having an internal freak out session because i was taking a photo and was in the presence of NATASHA FREAKIN NEGOVANLIS 🙊🙉🙈😊😍 I said thank you and she went to go talk with some other fans behind me while i went to face the wall and process everything that just happened. We left just as she left as well. The end.

Long story short: i was awkward and shy and she was gorgeous and sweet and so nice. And today was just FANTASTIC

I declare war against you.

A mix for Nano physically and emotionally destroying Hat Films while making them thank her for it.

i. Rosebay Rhododendron (Blank Space / Taylor Swift) ii. Love-lies-bleeding (Sun Hands / Local Natives) iii. Birdsfoot Trefoil (One Yesterday feat. Foxes / Fall Out Boy) iv. Snowball (You feat. Sir Terry Pratchett / Steeleye Span) v. Yarrow (Power and Control / Marina and the Diamonds) vi. Dogsbane (Conquest / The White Stripes) vii. Morning Glory (Heavy in Your Arms / Florence + the Machine) viii. Rose of Sharon (Take Me To Church (cover) / Ed Sheeran) ix. Peony (Hatefuck / The Bravery) x. Tuberose (Protege Moi / Placebo) xi. Rue (I Kiss the Hand of my Destroyer / Chinawoman) xii. Cypress (My Best Dress / Florence and the Machine)

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Since we’re only a week away (!!!!) from the season premiere, I’ve been thinking about a certain Shandy spoiler and these three scenes popped into my head. The first two are what I think will happen and the third is more wishful thinking, but hey, a fangirl can dream, right? Anywho, here’s my take on that particular spoiler for the premiere.

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Okay so, because CA CW was causing me so much stress and anxiety, I realized a good coping mechanisim to get through the movie would be to watch the movie at home (a shitty camrip version) and write down my thoughts as I was having them. I kept pausing the movie to take breathers so I took the time to write down a commentary of my thought process while I was watching. Therefore, I made some unorganized, raw, and unfiltered commentary of the movie. AND YOU CAN READ MY SHITTY COMMENTARY IF YOU LIKE!!! Anyways. MASSIVE CA: CW SPOILERS UNDER THE CUT. SERIOUSLY. THIS IS LITERALLY A REACTION TO THE WHOLE MOVIE. 

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so um. i just hit 500 followers this week which is something i never thought would happen in a million years.  i want to say thank you to every single one of my followers and to everyone who has been so warm and welcoming to me, and a special thank you to everyone who has talked to me one on one.  it means a lot and i’ve really loved getting to know everyone here!  i’ve had my tumblr since 2010 but i basically didn’t use it until april when i discovered this is where the fandom lives hahahaha, so i’m fashionably late to the party i guess.  but to go from less than 50 followers in may to over 500 in september is really astonishing for me.  i appreciate all of you and i love seeing everyone on my dash.

i want to send special thanks and love to a few people i’ve gotten to know through a shared love of football!

akraie - kait chan, you are a precious flower and i will protect you forever.  can you believe we’ve known each other for over a year now?  thank you for everything, my love, you’re such a wonderful friend!

arcaneintellect - kaylee my sweet, you are the single coolest person i’ve ever met and you blow me away with your intelligence and kindness, thank you for everything!

ayventhemadridista - venni love, i am forever grateful for the random PM you sent me.  you are genuinely one of the nicest people i’ve ever had the pleasure of getting to know and i’m so thankful that you PMed me that day.  it’s been so wonderful getting to know you!

balenaldos - kylie honey, never stop PMing me about your ships it makes my day.  you’re so sweet and so positive, you never cease to make me smile!

fantastiscos - elisa you will forever be the cris to my kaká.  always.  i’m here for you, boo. 

girouds - kyle dearest, you’re so incredibly sweet and i love getting random messages from you.  you brighten my days and bring joy to my life.

mesutings - sharon omg.  what can i say besides omg.  you are the best enabler/cheerleader and i wouldn’t write half the stuff i’ve written if not for your encouragement.  plus you made me ship lamperry and we’re now bound by this common shame.  you’re an amazing person and ily.

tacklemeramos - sophie angel, if not for your encouragement i would have remained a deeply closeted, low-key man city enthusiast.  thank you for forcing me to accept the obvious and finally fess up to supporting them hahahaha.

trappedinpsg - paloma darling, it’s been such fun to get to know you and trudge along on our footballlegends101 project together. you’re such a sweetheart and your enthusiasm is contagious, thank you for being so kind all the time!

and finally:

jovehegelia - you are my very best friend in the whole world.  i love you so much and i am so proud of you and all of your accomplishments.  you’re more than just the raúl to my guti, you’re the best partner in crime a person could ask for and i’m forever in debt to you.  love you, pooka.

and now for the bulk of it.  i have so many blogs i love to follow and love seeing pop up on my dash, i could list just about everyone that i see on a regular basis.  the list below is just a teensy sampling of the wonderful people i’ve enjoyed following.  there are SO MANY OTHERS i could list as well, but in the interest of keeping it under 75 blogs, here’s a small list:

A-D:

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E-I:

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J-N:

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O-S:

paddywhackmcnair rainneyam realmadridisafeeling remontadas rmhoe rogue1988 rugrat-lee rxvarane sanikerrr sernandoss skrtelshead

T-Z:

thecr7universe thiagos2lva ur-diskerude vamos-realmadrid violetcertitude yungdiosa zevons

thank you everyone for taking the time to follow me, read my rants, reblog my crappy gifs, etc.  you’ve all made me feel so accepted and welcome and i love you all!