i love you augustus

I’m in love with you, and I know that love is just a shout into the void, and that oblivion is inevitable, and that we’re all doomed and that there will come a day when all our labor has been returned to dust, and I know the sun will swallow the only earth we’ll ever have, and I am in love with you.
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John Green, 

The Fault in Our Stars

“I’m in love with you,” he said quietly.

“Augustus,” I said.

“I am,” he said. He was staring at me, and I could see the corners of his eyes crinkling. “I’m in love with you, and I’m not in the business of denying myself the simple pleasure of saying true things. I’m in love with you, and I know that love is just a shout into the void, and that oblivion is inevitable, and that we’re all doomed and that there will come a day when all our labor has been returned to dust, and I know the sun will swallow the only earth we’ll ever have, and I am in love with you.

—  The Fault In Our Stars by John Green

I’m in love with you,“ he said quietly.

"Augustus,” I said.

“I am,” he said. He was staring at me, and I could see the corners of his eyes crinkling. “I’m in love with you, and I’m not in the business of denying myself the simple pleasure of saying true things. I’m in love with you, and I know that love is just a shout into the void, and that oblivion is inevitable, and that we’re all doomed and that there will come a day when all our labor has been returned to dust, and I know the sun will swallow the only earth we’ll ever have, and I am in love with you.

—  John Green - The Fault in Our Stars
Person: Why on earth do you fall in love with fictional characters rather that real boys?
  • Jem Carstairs: I can offer you my life, but it is a short life; I can offer you my heart, though I have no idea how many more beats it shall sustain. But I love you enough to hope that you wil not care that I am being selfish in trying to make the rest of my life - whatever length - happy, by spending it with you. I want to be married to you, Tessa. I want it more than I have ever wanted anything else in my life.
  • Augustus Waters: I’m in love with you, and I know that love is just a shout into the void, and that oblivion is inevitable, and that we’re all doomed and that there will come a day when all our labor has been returned to dust, and I know the sun will swallow the only earth we’ll ever have, and I am in love with you.
  • Maxon Schreave: I want everything with you, America. I want the holidays and the birthdays, the busy seasons and lazy weekends. I want peanut butter fingerprints on my desk. I want inside jokes and fights and everything. I want a life with you.
  • Will Herondale: Marry me. Marry me, Tess. Marry me and be Tessa Herondale. Or be Tessa Gray, or be whatever you wish to call yourself, but marry me and stay with me and never leave me, for I cannot bear another day of my life to go by that does not have you in it.
  • Dimitri Belikov: I love you, Roza. I'll always be here for you. I'm not going to let anything happen to you.
  • Ian O'Shea: I held you in my hands, Wanderer, and you were beautiful.
  • Percy Jackson: The world was collapsing, and the only thing that mattered to me was that she was alive.
  • Patch Capriano: I missed you, Angel. Not one day went by that I didn't feel you missing from my life.
  • Ethan Wate: I never loved you any more than I do, right this second. And I'll never love you any less than I do, right this second.
  • Tobias Eaton: I might be in love with you, but I'm waiting until I'm sure to tell you.
  • Jace Herondale: I love you, and I will love you until I die and if there’s a life after that, I’ll love you then.
  • Peeta Mellark: My nightmares are usually about losing you.
  • Real boys: ...
  • Real boys: ...
  • Real boys: ...
  • Real boys: ... nice butt

On this day in history, August 12th, two thousand and forty five years ago, Cleopatra VII, the last active ruler of Ancient Egypt, committed suicide.

Eleven days previously, her husband Marc Antony had already done the same. The couple had been engaged in a civil war against Octavian, the great nephew of Julius Caesar who had been declared his legal heir. During the final battle in Alexandria, Antony suffered serious desertions among his troops and lost the fight. Upon his return, he falsely heard Cleopatra had killed herself and fell on his sword.

After Antony’s death, Octavian arrived in Egypt and effectively took Cleopatra and her children by Antony prisoner. She had sent her eldest son Caesarion, her only living child with Caesar, away for his own safety. She knew that Octavian planned for her to march in chains behind his chariot during his triumph parade, and would very likely have her killed afterwards. Rather than suffer such humiliations and indignity, she chose to take her own life.

Popular history and mythology leads us to believe that she was killed by inducing an asp to bite her, after having locked herself in her mausoleum with her two handmaidens. However, many modern scholars believe that she instead took a mixture of poisons, since the venom of an asp does not cause a quick or painless death. Octavian and his men found her too late to do anything, Cleopatra was already dead and one handmaiden, Iras, was nearly dead on the floor. The second, Charmian, was straightening the Queen’s diadem. According to legend, one of the men asked if this was well done of her mistress, and she shot back “Very well done, as befitting the descendant of so many noble Kings.”

Upon her death, Octavian honoured her wish to be buried in her mausoleum at Antony’s side. He took her children with Antony, the twins Cleopatra Selene and Alexander Helios, along with their younger brother, Ptolemy Philadelphus, to Rome with him as prisoners of sorts. They were fated to march in his triumph parade in their mother’s place, the chains so heavy they could hardly walk. After this they were given to Octavian’s sister Octavia, who had been Antony’s third wife, to look after.

Cleopatra’s son with Caesar, Caesarion, was nominally sole ruler of Egypt after his mother’s death. Eleven days after her suicide, he was found after being lured back to Alexandria under false pretenses of being allowed to rule in his mother’s place. Octavian ordered his murder, on advice that “Two Caesar were too many.”

With Cleopatra’s death, and Caesarion’s subsequent murder, the rule of the Ptolemaic Dynasty came to an end and Egypt became a mere Roman Province.

I’m in love with you,“ he said quietly.

"Augustus,” I said.

“I am,” he said. He was staring at me, and I could see the corners of his eyes crinkling. “I’m in love with you, and I’m not in the business of denying myself the simple pleasure of saying true things. I’m in love with you, and I know that love is just a shout into the void, and that oblivion is inevitable, and that we’re all doomed and that there will come a day when all our labor has been returned to dust, and I know the sun will swallow the only earth we’ll ever have, and I am in love with you.

—  Augustus to Hazel | The Fault in Our Stars, John Green.
Fictional boys vs Real boys
  • Augustus : I'm in love with you and I'm not in the business of denying myself the simple pleasures of saying true things
  • Peeta : My nightmares are usually about losing you
  • Jace : I love you to death and if there's a life after that I'll love you then.
  • Tobias : I might be in love with you, I'm waiting until I'm sure to tell you.
  • Maxon : Break my heart a thousand times . It was only yours to break anyway.
  • Real boys : nice butt...
the signs as lines from the fault in our stars
  • aries: the marks humans leave are too often scars.
  • taurus: much of my life had been devoted to trying not to cry in front of people who loved me, so i knew what augustus was doing. you clench your teeth. you look up. you tell yourself that if they see you cry, it will hurt them, and you will be nothing but a sadness in their lives, and you must not become a mere sadness, so you will not cry, and you say all of this to yourself while looking up at the ceiling, and then you swallow even though your throat does not want to close and you look at the person who loves you and smile.
  • gemini: you are so busy being you that you have no idea how utterly unprecedented you are.
  • cancer: you don't get to choose if you get hurt in this world, but you do have some say in who hurts you.
  • leo: i believe the universe wants to be noticed. i think the universe is inprobably biased toward the consciousness, that it rewards intelligence in part because the universe enjoys its elegance being observed. and who am i, living in the middle of history, to tell the universe that it- or my observation of it- is temporary?
  • virgo: without pain, how could we know joy? this is an old argument in the field of thinking about suffering and its stupidity and lack of sophistication could be plumbed for centuries but suffice it to say that the existence of broccoli does not, in any way, affect the taste of chocolate.
  • libra: you realize that trying to keep your distance from me will not lessen my affection for you? all efforts to save me from you will fail.
  • scorpio: it's a metaphor, see? you put the killing thing right between your teeth, but you don't give it the power to do its killing.
  • sagittarius: i'm on a roller coaster that only goes up, my friend.
  • capricorn: but it is the nature of stars to cross, and never was shakespeare more wrong than when he has cassius note, 'the fault, dear brutus, is not in our stars...but in ourselves.'
  • aquarius: we’re as likely to hurt the universe as we are to help it, and we’re not likely to do either.
  • pisces: my thoughts are stars i cannot fathom into constellations.
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“Much of my life had been devoted to trying not to cry in front of people who loved me, so I knew what Augustus was doing. You clench your teeth. You look up. You tell yourself that if they see you cry, it will hurt them, and you will be nothing but a Sadness in their lives, and you must not become a mere sadness, so you will not cry, and you say all of this to yourself while looking up at the ceiling, and then you swallow even though your throat does not want to close and you look at the person who loves you and smile.”

― John Green, The Fault in Our Stars