As I’m falling asleep tonight I think about you for one last time before closing my eyes into the darkness. I think about what you have taught me, how you have changed me. I couldn’t be more thankful for you. You may not love me the way I love you, but at least I know that I’m capable of loving someone this much is a greater achievement. I think of the simple kisses that made me smile with happiness, for I had everything; I had you. I think about how constantly filled my days with laughter when you called me things like a “dumb pancake” and a “stupid cauliflower”. It may seem stupid but it meant a lot. The times you would challenge me to fight you when we argued on how I looked. The times you would constantly try to take pictures of me. The times when you squeezed my chubby cheeks just for the fun of it, mocking me and saying “my baby”. The times that are now gone and are only alive in my memories. The times I’ll never get back. The times I’ll always remember. I love you, baby. I’m sorry I wasn’t the one, but I know still can be.
Words I’ll never say to you #2 // Midnight thoughts about you, my darling
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“Really?” the silence enveloped the house “again? That’s the fourth time this week, Steve.”
“I can’t help it, I can’t just say no, people need me.” Steve runs a hand through his blonde hair, look of disbelief crossing his features.
“I need you!” You half yell at the man before you, suited up and shield prepped on his back, ready to go save the day once more “what about me? Huh, your girlfriend, the person you said you wanted a future with!”
His face drops for a second before turning hard, “this is my job, you knew that it would be this way the day you signed up, what’s changed?”
“EVERYTHING” you screamed, “the missing anniversary’s, the being gone for weeks and no phone calls, the always being willing to volunteer for ANY mission. That’s what’s changed, it’s like you don’t want to be around me.”
“Don’t be fucking ridiculous,” he spat out “you know how much these missions mean to me, finding Bucky is number priority, always has!” that was a slap in the face.
“So, you are clinging on to the past, that’s good to know. I’d at least think, maybe, just maybe our anniversary was a priority for a day. A DAY.” tears threatening to spill down your cheeks.
It’s silent as you both stare at one another, this argument felt different, it wasn’t like the others. It was harsh, things that were unsaid from the beginning coming out, fears you knew where there are unveiled. His phone beeps again, letting him know he needs to be leaving, he sighs but doesn’t drop his stare from yours.
“I love you, I always have and always will, you gotta believe that,” Steev tells you sincerely.
You sigh, “And I do, I do Steve, I believe that once before everything I was something you needed. Now, it’s clear I was a distraction, something you clung to because of how hectic everything was. I was a piece of normality you craved back when” you sigh, allowing the tears to spill over “I don’t blame you for searching, looking for that last fragment of your life but I just hoped that you didn’t lose sight of the future.”
The air is thick, “I think you should go, I want you to be happy and you aren’t when you are with me, you’d rather spend your time searching for Bucky and I can’t wait around for you” he goes to walk towards you, you step back “not anymore.”
His phone beeps multiple times, he’s having trouble deciding but you know what he’ll choose, he needs Cap as much as the world does and unfortunately that comes with a price; a price of loosing him.
“Just go, don’t suffer me with the fake decisions, the world will always need Captain America and that’s something I cannot live with.” He sucks in a deep ragged breath, nodding once at you “I can’t keep watching you walk out the door, never knowing if you’ll come back, the wait kills me, Steven. So, do me a favour and just leave for good.”
He turns on his heel, head bowed before his back is to you, he doesn’t chance a last glance at you as he walks out the front door and down the porch steps; probably for the better. And he walks out of the door and out of your life for good this time.
Steve stared at the small Barton family, Clint hugging his children tightly and Laura looking on with a bright, delicate smile on her soft face. He had no idea, no idea that one of his team, a close friend had a family like this.
He understood the secrecy, the need to protect them, he would do the same if given a chance… he had that chance but the universe was always against him. He couldn’t even protect Bucky how could he protect a family of his own?
This was something he knew he’ll never have, he’ll never have anything close to this, no all those ideas and dreams crashed into the ice with him but never got revived along with him. The price of being a hero was giving up all prospect of something like this, Steve didn’t expect to be found or alive, so a future like this was off the table.
He couldn’t even find and help his best friend, a family was something that would never happen for Steve, he spent a long time looking for the right partner and now… well, there wasn’t even a point in searching for one.
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GOM + Nijimura For whatever reason they end up carrying their s/o,who has fallen asleep, to their bed and tuck them in
Kise: It was no secret that spending a full evening at a karaoke bar singing and dancing was tiring, but falling asleep was something new. Kise noticed your tiredness right away, the way you fumbled with your limbs and the look you had were suspicious, but he brushed it off, if you rested a bit, you would be in top condition again. “__-cchi, let’s sit down, you seem a bit exhausted.” Truth be told, you liked the idea, but your boyfriend's delight was your priority. "But the song is really good and I don’t want you to sit around since I know how much you are enjoying this.“ Your pout and tired gaze and stubborness were so cute, he could barely handle it. But, as the gentleman he is, he would always put you first as to not push beyond your limits. “I’m enjoying spending time with you __-cchi, I enjoy you, nothing else matters when we’re together.” His hand found yours and he led the way through people to your seat. “But if one of our songs comes around, I’m gonna jump on that stage.” “Do you think I will stay still? Someone has to protect you __-cchi.” And so chatter turned to laugh and then into silence, comfortable silence. He loved holding you like this, his arms wrapped around your shoulder and your head in the crook of his neck. He thought just how perfect this moment was, when he heard one of the guests of the bar singing your song. Heaven seems to have noticed his prayers. “__-cchi! Our so-” Just when he thought it couldn’t get better, fate had another ace up its sleeve. You were asleep, a small smile gracing your features. “Sweet dreams, __-cchi.” He pressed a kiss to your forehead and carefully moved, not to wake you up, and picked you up princess style. Once the two of you arrived at your home, he gently placed you on your bed and covered you with your favourite blanket, watching your peaceful expression with a sincere smile, another wave of emotions hitting him, not believing his luck.
Akashi: Stargazing with you was on his wish list for quite some time. The sky was clear, countless stars making it only more unforgettable. The yard of his mansion was more than enough for you, tho he insisted to take you somewhere else. The sole thought that you were together on a blanket, surrounded by nothing else than nature, holding hands and talking about everything filled your heart with more joy than anything bought with money. The fresh air, the shining of the moon, the sound of your voices - a dream that came true. You looked up to the sky and then to his face, paler than usual, and a smile formed itself on your lips. “What is it? Do I have some tiny insect on my head?“ Even though his humor wasn’t the best, he never failed to make you laugh, and that is important. “Well, to be honest, if an elephant was here, I wouldn’t notice.” Your laugh was what made him feel alive, it was the sweetest sound his ears ever got permission to hear. “Thank you, Seijuro. I love you.” These words slipped from your lips with such ease that he forgot about all the pain his heart had to conquer, a heartfelt ‘thank you’ from you meant the world to him. “No , my love, I am the one who needs to thank you. I love you so much, __.” You could his heart beat faster, as your head was on his chest, it was the ideal lullaby for you. Akashi enjoyed the silence, it was so intimate and yet so innocent. He never expected you to fall asleep, but it was nonetheless a pleasant surprise. He lifted your head carefully and wrapped his arms around your shoulder and knees, letting you rest on his chest again. You had your own room at Akashi’s place, but he didn’t want to disappoint you with not being by your side when you wake up. Slowly he positioned you in his bed, and tip-toed to the other side, as not to make any noise. Both his arm and a sheet were wrapped around your sleeping figure, protecting you from the cold and darkness. One last whisper separated him from joining you in the land of dreams. “I love you, __.”
Midorima: Bless the man who thought about putting comfortable couches in libraries. Another peaceful study/reading date, the silent atmosphere made Midorima’s nerves relax. You loved seeing him like that, fully concentrated, but not frowning like usual. You finished your book half an hour ago, but haven’t spoken since starting the session. You didn’t want to disturb him, you gave him all the space and time he needed. When you stood up to return the book to its place, Midorima reached out to you. “I’m sorry Shintarou, I didn’t mean to disrupt your reading. What is it?” “Why didn’t you say you were finished?” “It’s okay, I enjoyed waiting, I thought about the whole story and I could watch you.“ There was that giggle again, the one that could melt ice and also him. "Y-You can watch me whenever you want, nanodayo.” You moved a finger to his lips. “Stop right there, I don’t want any scolding, it’s okay because when I return I will sit next to you and cuddle with you while you finish that book, then we both are happy and satisfied. How does that sound?” “W-We can go now, you don’t have to wait, nano-” You wouldn’t let him finish that sentence because it war pure nonsense. Your lips pressed firmly against his own should be enough to dispose of his guilt. “See you in a bit, Shin-chan.” Another hour passed, your frame gently leaning on his, the only sounds - your even breathing and the noise of pages being turned. “__, we can g-” The instant he saw your face, his cheeks became a pallete of red. He had to bring you home, but how? Waking you up was an option, but he really didn’t want to; carrying you all the way could wake you up and seem strange. Just when he thought he had to wake up, it hit him, of course, Takao was the answer! After an awkward call, Takao showed up with the rickshaw in front of the library. “Need help, Shin-chan?” “Just don’t talk, Takao.” “Haha, okay, but only because __-chan is asleep.” When the three of you got to your house, Midorima picked you up bridal style and apologized for late intrusion, hoping your parents wouldn’t think badly of him. Once he passed them, he laid you on your bed and covered you, making sure no part of your body would be cold during night. He managed to mutter out a whispery “good night” before almost tripping in your room.
Aomine: Having a basketball date with Aomine was nothing unfamiliar to you, you even started to like it. His smile was definitely worth the sweat. “Come on __, are you kidding me? We just came here and you are already slacking off.” His ‘just came here’ was an hour in normal people time. “Oh shut up, if we were doing Maths, you would have quitted ages ago.” Instead of answering you, he stole the ball from you and held it above your head. “Oi, give it back Ahomine!” “Your dribbling was worse than Bakagami’s, I couldn’t bear to watch it.” He should thank God that you already fell for his teasing grin, otherwise it wouldn’t have been pretty. “Alright, then we make a little break!” Your speed gave off another impression. “You little liar, you can't play with me, but you can sprint to the bench?!“ "I have always energy for resting.” Aomine rolled his eyes but eventually joined you on the bench. “It’s getting late, __. Want me to walk you home?” “Hnnn.” “What was that?” Your words became muffled sounds because your face was burried in his toned arm. A slight blush creeped up on his cheeks, you were way too cute in that state. “I think you don’t need to answer that.” He picked you up and carried you piggyback. After greeting your parents, he moved on to your room. He knelt so he could untangle your limbs. After finally succeeding, he brushed a lock of hair behind your ear, still kneeling beside your sleeping self. “I forgive you for being tired, it sure as hell isn’t easy to be so damn beautiful.“
Anonymous Request: Idk if you’re taking in request but i have one of you could possibly do a reader X Bucky ? She has cosmic powers and can show a universe in her hands and one day he was testing her limits and she went back in time to the 40s ?
HUGE Shout out to @mullinhore who has been my sounding board and did a shit load of editing and brainstorming with me for this part! I LOVE YOU DARLING!!!
Y/N woke up feeling sick. It was her last day with Bucky and she was devastated. She gently unwrapped Bucky’s arms from around her and snuck out of the room. They had only fallen asleep a few hours ago, the night consisting of making love, talking and holding each other close. She had taken several photos of them together over the past several weeks however the ones she took last night were her favorite. It showed them happy and smiling while lying in bed cuddling. The battery on her phone was dangerously close to dying but she took it out and turned it on looking at all the pictures. She flipped over to her music and put on one of her favorite songs then continued to look at the pictures.
Hey! ♕! This is Wind, aka montygreens your fellow smol nerd. Could you do the rate for that blog? Also I voted for bellsblake because that url is the bomb but also as someone who is currently going through teen wolf (have you seen my dumb commentary?) layheysisaacs is awesome too. Isaac is the best. Also omg congrats on 200? That's amazing!! 💕💕
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