i love this so much that i had to gif

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“Firstly, congratulations to the other nominees I recently had the pleasure of work on Murdoch Mysteries and they’re both so lovely and it’s just an honor to be in their company. Secondy, most of you are wondering “Who the heck am I”, I’m sure. Few years ago when I booked the role of a broody lesbian vampire on a little YouTube series called Carmilla I would’ve never imagine stading here so thank you so much to all of our fans who voted for me. It has been an honor and a privilge to provide more positive on screen representation for the queer community. For MY community. And I would not be here today without all of our fans support. I also would like to thank everyone at Smokebomb, Shaftesbury, Shift 2 and my Mom who’s my number one fan who made my dress last night. And specially to my beautiful co-star who’s the real back bone of the little webseries that could you inspire me to work harder everyday, Elise. thank you so much for being my on-screen love interest. and maybe my real life one sometimes. Shh.”

Oookay. So. I guess this is a Christmas/General holiday present for @thatsthat24 because I love him very much.
I worked a good 2 weeks on this because I’m busy and don’t have time to animate much. Not counting when I wasn’t working on it this still took a good 10 hours. I’m not proud of how choppy the animation is, but I hope, Thomas, that you can appreciate it? Plus I’m relatively proud of the art itself


Anyways, for @thatsthat24
I made this because you pulled me out of a terrible place. I’ve had crippling anxiety since losing my dad at the age of 6, and some form of depression with it since I was young, and I’ve been suicidal for many years. Pretty much for the past two years I’ve had nights at LEAST once a week usually more where all I wanted at all was to be dead and for the pain to be gone. And for many of those nights there were things and people who snapped me out of it for the time being. But the feeling came back every time, within a week. And those people have saved my self.

However, I’ve been watching your stuff since around when you started making Vines and you always cheered me up at least a little. But it wasn’t regularly. After a while I lost you for a few months until a month or so ago, when I rediscovered you and was instantly hooked, far more than before. I instantly started drawing things for you and sending them and you saw all of them and said such nice things and it just boosted my low confidence so much and made me so much happier. Your words make me smile and cry but in the end it all makes me feel better and not worse, no matter how strong my reaction. And not just your words to me, it’s your undying love for your fans, both as your fans and as individual people that keeps me going and feeling loved.
Since I got hooked with you and started actually interacting with you, I’ve definitely had some extreme lows. Many anxiety and panic attacks and more than a few mental breakdowns. But never since I first registered how much you meant to me and how much happier you make me have I wanted to kill myself or wished death upon myself. That’s progress for me.


This is getting long so I’m gonna try to wrap it up.
This animation/gif thing is pretty much to show how Thomas made my month a happy time with sad times in it not a sad time with happy days sprinkled through, and how he brought a lot more happiness into my every day life.


Tldr; Thomas Sanders is an angel who saved my life

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Summary of Haken 80% of the time (♥ω♥ ) ~

i will leave you with this beautiful cup of herbal tea for another week…

my arm is still in some type of a cast shit and it’s super uncomfortable and I could be on a vacation in Los Angeles right now, but I had to return the tickets and cancel because PAIN, and instead I’m traveling for work and hoping to do it good with one fully-functional arm.

sorry for so much complaining! thanks for listening though, and for all the notes, i love you, you are good friends, i’ll be back i promise

byeeee ❤

Human souls are like reflecting water. People often speak or act opposite of their true feelings. But essentially, the human heart wishes to connect with and accept each other. And I know one day there will be someone who will protect, redeem, and shepherd you. And the moment you come to accept his true heart, you too will comprehend the meaning of these words my mentor etched onto my palms…

(Acceptance) +  (Heart)  (Love)

it’s valentine’s day! i honestly never realised it until I open up tumblr and got blasted with mutuals, ffs & friendship loves (i also saw Liyah’s post & it make me want to do it too!) thank you so much for including me in your lovely posts, they made my entire day! ♡

Sorry if I haven’t been active lately, but I promise to spend more time here when everything is settled. I also think today is the perfect time to do this and give some of my love & make everyone happy! so these are basically mini love letters and I’m going to mention/fangirl over some of my faves then tag all the rest! welcome to my 1st ever mutual appreciations!! 

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