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I Was Made For Loving You Pt. 1 (SehunxReaderxLay) *Angst*

Originally posted by coldbloodedexosquirrel

Summary: You and Lay have been dating for a while now, but some obstacles have been thrown at the two of you. It is true that you love Lay more than life itself, but Sehun has a special place in your heart as well. Who will you chose?

*Warning: Trigger warning?*

Pt2. , Pt3, Pt4, Pt5

“Are you kidding me!?” Lay screamed, as he walked up to Sehun angrily. 

“Lay, just chill okay. Nothing happened, he just fell asleep, I swear!” I held onto Lay’s wrist, begging him not to fight with the younger boy again.

“That’s not what it looked like to me!” He yelled, not breaking eye contact with Sehun.

“Dude, this is all just a misunderstanding, nothing happened.” Sehun raised his hands up, but Lay could see the smirk on his face.

This isn’t the first time these two have fought over some stupid misunderstanding. It’s been an everyday thing since two months ago when Sehun admitted to having feelings for me. 

“But you wanted something to happen, didn’t you?” Lay’s body tensed up and his hand balled up to fists.

“Lay, just drop this, please!” I begged, trying to pull him back, but he jerked his arm away from me. 

There was no point in trying to stop the two boys from going at it.

“Of course I did, is that even a question? I’d be a much better boyfriend for her anyways, so why does it matter?” He asked, sass spilling out of his mouth. 

“You’re so full of yourself, it’s disgusting.” Lay spat at him, his body was so tense, I could see him shaking. “Whatever, Sehun. You’re a waist of my time. She would never want you anyways.” He said, walking past me.

“That’s not how it was last night, you should’ve seen her going at it. Calling my name like it was the only word she knew.” Sehun said, smugly. Non of this happened of course. He just wanted to get under Lay’s skin, and it was working.

“Sehun!” I looked at Sehun, surprised he would say something like that. 

Lay stopped in his tracks and turned to face the boy again. “What the hell did you just say?” He asked, walking up to him again, this time getting closer, ready to fight. 

“Oh yes, the way she was squirming under me was great.” Sehun said. I couldn’t believe my ears. Sure, Lay and Sehun often fight, but he’s never gone this far to get under Lay’s skin like this. 

“Sehun, stop!” I tried to stand in between the two boys, but there was no use. 

“I think the words you were using was keep going.” He winked at me. As soon as he dropped eye contact, Lay threw a punch and hit Sehun square in the face. 

The next thing I knew, they were throwing punches left and right. The only thing I could think of to do, was get Suho. I ran to his room and flung the door open. 

“They’re fighting again.” I said, as he turned to look at me from his desk.

He let out a sigh and ran out the bedroom to where the two were. “I’m going to need help in here!” He yelled, summoning the other six boys out of their rooms.

Suho held Sehun back, and Chen held back Lay. “Come on guys, we have a performance soon. You shouldn’t be beating each other up now, would you?” Baekhyun asked, as he stood between them. 

They were both struggling to break free, but soon everyone else started to help hold them back. 

“(Y/N), take Lay to his room, please.” Suho said to me, still trying to keep Sehun from attacking Lay. 

I grabbed Lay’s hand, making him look at me. His expression softened a bit as he made eye contact with me, but he was still struggling to get to Sehun. “Lay, come on, it’s not worth it, let’s just go cuddle or something for a bit.” I said, trying to convince him to leave this whole ordeal be. 

He looked at Sehun then me, and he sighed. “Fine, we need to talk anyways.” He said, shaking everyone off of him and walking with me to our shared bedroom. 

He sat on the bed first and I shut the door, sighing to myself as I leaned against it. “This was the worst fight yet. Yixing, what were you thinking? Throwing punches like that. You could’ve gotten seriously hurt.” I said, now taking a seat next to him, touching the bruise that was now forming on his cheek. 

“What was I thinking? (Y/N), he was the one telling me about what you two did last night.” He looked at me, his eyes turning cold and realization setting on his face. He scooted away from me and scrunched his eyebrows. “Was all that true? What he said, was it true? Did you and him really…?” He asked, looking all around my face to see any hint of guilt, or lies. 

“What? You think we would actually do something? You think that I would let anything happen between me and him? Wow. That’s says a lot about what you think about me as a person, Lay.” I stood up, and crossed my arms.

“Look me in the eyes and tell me you didn’t.” He said seriously. He stood up as well and stared me dead in the eyes. 

I got really close to his face and looked him in the eyes as well. “I did not.” I said, backing away from him. “It hurts me that you think I ever would. I love you, Lay, not Sehun, okay? Don’t you trust me?” I asked, looking at my feet. 

Whereas it is true that I didn’t do anything with Sehun, it’s a lie that I don’t love him. I just love Lay more. And I would never let Sehun ruin our relationship in anyway. I refuse to let that happen. 

“I do trust you, I just don’t trust him. At all. I’ve lived with him long enough to know how he is when it comes to girls he has an interest with.” Lay lifted my chin so I would look at him instead of the floor. “I’m sorry for doubting you. I love you.” He smiled, and kissed my forehead. 

There was a knock on the door, and Sehun walked in the room, head hanging low. “Suho just yelled at me, he told me to apologize.” He sighed, and looked up at the two of us. He looked like a three year old who just got yelled at by his mother, it was kind of adorable. He took a deep breath and rubbed the back of his neck. “(Y/N) and I never did anything last night, or at all for that matter. i was just trying to piss you off. I’m sorry that I let it go too far.” He said, giving us an apologetic bow. 

There was a short silence between the three of us. I noticed that Lay wasn’t going to say anything, I think he could tell that this was a force apology, anyone could. “It’s alright, Sehun. Just try to not fight for a while. That goes to you too.” I said to Sehun, but turned to Lay and poked him in the side when I said the last part.

Sehun took another deep breath and closed his eyes for a moment, like he was trying to decide something. “I just wanted to say…” He paused for a second before continuing. “I’m only confident in myself so much, because people always tell me that I’m handsome. I really don’t think good looking to myself… You’re way higher up than me in my opinion, Lay. Hence why you have her and I’m alone.” He said, looking at the ground again. 

I stared at him, amazed that he thought this way. I was going to say something, but Lay beat me to it. “It’s not like you couldn’t get any girl if you wanted. (Y/N) wants you, I know she does. You’re handsome, smarter, catch on more quickly. You could easily steal her in a heartbeat, and I’m surprised you haven’t.” He said, looking down at me. I smiled at him, letting him know that I’m here with him for good. 

“I was too shy to tell her how I felt before she met you… Now it’s too late, because she’s madly in love with you. I mean, look at her. She’s staring at you like at any second you could disappear.” He sighed, and sadness filled his eyes. “I don’t stand a chance now, so you have nothing to worry about.” He gave Lay a sad smile, and walked out of the room, slamming the door behind him. 

I looked at Lay, who was staring at the door. “How could this happen? We let this whole thing go too far.” He said, staring blankly.

“I’ll go talk to him, you just rest okay? Put some ice on your cheek.” I said, pointing at his bruise, and walking out of the room. 

I go to Sehun’s room and knock on the door, but there was no answer, so I just decide to open it instead of waiting for him. However, he wasn’t in there. I walked around the dorm, but he was nowhere to be found. I asked around and no one has seen him. 

“Great.” I sighed and pulled out my phone to call him.

No answer.

I walked back to Lay’s room and let out yet another sigh. “He’s not in the dorm…” I told him. 

He put the ice pack down and started putting on his shoes and jacket. “Shit, tell Suho. I’ll start looking for him. It’s not the first time he’s run off like this. I just hope I’m not late this time.” He said, grabbing his phone. 

“Too late? What happened last time?” I asked, getting worried. 

“I’ll explain later, just get the others and call me when you head out, okay?” He kissed my cheek and ran out of the dorm.

I tell Suho first, and he gathers everyone else up first. We all discuss where he could have gone, and spilt up to look for him. Kai, Chen, and me were in a group. I called Lay to let him know where we were looking like he had asked. 

Thirty minutes in, it started pouring rain, making it a little harder to see. “There he is!” Kai shouted, pointing at a figure walking in the middle of the road. I could barely tell, but after my eyes adjusted, I could make out Sehun walking slowly. “Sehun! Get out of the road, you’ll get hit and it’s raining!” He shouted, trying to get Sehun to walk over to us. 

Sehun looked over at us and chuckled. “It’s not like anyone would care anyways, since I can’t get anybody to love me. All I do is fuck up. I’m the youngest, I’d be out of your hair.” He said, continuing to walk down the road. 

“Sehun, you’re being ridiculous right now!” Chen yelled, pulling out his phone and calling the other to let them know where we are.

“I’m one of the youngest too, we’re in this together (cue HSM), we made a pact. Remember the first day we met? You’re my best friend, please get out of the road. I would miss you, Exo would miss you, your fans would miss you, (Y/N) would miss you! Exo wouldn’t be the same without you. Please!” Kai’s pep talk wasn’t really working as well as he had hoped, because Sehun still refused to get out of the road.

There was a car coming, and you could tell that they weren’t paying attention to where they were going. “Sehun, Please!” 

alright I’m gonna say this, and then I wont say anything about it anymore. First off I know I post mainly about Ryan. This is because he’s the love of my life and I just have to post about him 25/8. But today I’m gonna talk about Brendon. Unfollow me if you want, but idc. 

I know I’ll call Brendon a shady ass motherfucker, because hey sometimes he is. Who am I kidding, most of the time he is, but I’ll be dammed if I see another person shaming him anymore. 

He has been through so much in his life He was kicked out of his house after dropping out of high school to focus on music. He had to work to pay for his apartment and among other things. 

He had to go through the loss of his best friend(and possibly more than that), and the loss of half the band. That in itself would make most bands stop all together. But no, Brendon wrote a whole album without Ryan and recorded it. He has always felt like writing was difficult and he even talks about it on multiple occasions. So to write something on his own and have it compared to Ryan’s stuff honestly probably made him feel like shit. 

He then wrote and recorded another album, which everyone shits on. That pisses me off because holy fuck, he’s trying. He. Did. Not. Have. To. Continue. Making. Music. But he did and if someone wants to insult TWTLTRTD, they can come talk to me because that right there I’ll write about all day. 

While touring for the previous mentioned album, Brendon had to deal with Spencer leaving to get help for his addiction problems. I am in no way saying anything against Spencer either, I’m just saying this affected Brendon deeply. His other best friend had to take a break and leave him, and if that in itself is not heartbreaking I don’t know what is. Brendon could’ve stopped Panic there as well, but no, he continued to make music and tour. 

He demoted Dallon, and only has other members on tour now. Yes that sucks, I totally get that people were angry, but we aren’t Brendon. He can do what he wants because, as we all know he is the last remaining original member. 

He is constantly tagged in stupid shit reminding him of Ryan, and interviewers always ask about his past, and about Ryan and really personal stuff, that affects him. We can see this through the way he answers questions, or the faces he makes, we see that obviously he’s affected in some way. 

Brendon’s periscopes honestly are amazing, and he doesn’t have to do them. But he does. He interacts with his fans, and is always happy to take pictures with them when they somehow manage to meet him. He brought back m&g, for christs sake. Brendon doesn’t owe the fans anything, yet he’s out here still kicking. 

Yes, he’s also done some not so cool things, and yes he’s kind of an ass sometimes, but wow. He’s a full grown man, I think he can be an ass sometimes. Everyone is. Especially when people feel the need to call him shitty names, constantly making fun of his forehead (he’s said multiple times hes very self conscious about it), insulting the way the new music sounds, and the way he’s been going about life. Let the man live, and just do what he’s been doing. We’ve gotten new music, new videos, a tour to look forwards to with another amazing band. 

Stop bashing Brendon so much and appreciate the shit he does for once. Because you know damn well he could’ve given up multiple times, and he hasn’t. He’s an inspiration for may people, and generally an amazing person. So please once again, stop hating on Brendon because it’s such an easy option. He’s gone through so much and does so much for everyone, that we need to take a step back and realize this. 

I don’t really know how to end this so I’m gonna end it by saying I love Brendon Urie, and I don’t want to imagine a world without him. 

puppycrushing  asked:

“I missed you.”

Never had she hugged someone so tight that she felt like their ribs might break. But she wouldn’t mind and hopefully neither would he — because that act was reserved for Mike and only Mike. Eleven had been waiting for what felt like an eternity to come back to him. Tears stung at her clamped-shut eyes, locks of now grown-out hair falling over her forehead in soft waves. Against his shoulder she drew in a shuddering breath and whispered back. 

                                      “ I missed you, too.

You know what I want The 100 to explore but I don’t think they will?  How Bellamy feels about his mother.  I don’t doubt that he loved her, but I would also imagine there was some resentment towards her too.  He was just a little kid when she had Octavia, putting him in an absolutely terrifying position of responsibility.  I want to know a) why Aurora made the choice to have Octavia (did she not realize she was pregnant until it was too late?  Did she love Octavia’s father so much that she wanted to have his child, consequences be damned? If so, what happened to him?) and b) how Bellamy feels about that choice.  He might love Octavia more than life itself, but she was also an enormous burden for a six year old to bear.  I think It’s a fascinating dynamic and I want to know more about it.