i love this interview a lot omg

OMG OK LET ME LEARN Y'ALL A THING. My friend told me about this guy named Sufjan Stevens and all I can say is WHY IS NO ONE TALKING ABOUT HIM.

Okay so first, he is such a pure lil bean. He’s a Christian but get this– HE’S NOT SEXIST, HOMOPHOBIC, TRANSPHOBIC, RACIST, ISLAMOPHOBIC, OR APHOBIC. I know right??? He just loves Jesus a whole hecking lot and it’s so freaking cute. He’s also this cute shy lil mouse boy and he barely does interviews because he has anxiety. Just a lil flower boy with no time for neurotypical BSery.

SECOND. He writes the most ADORABLE, PURE, SQUEE-WORTHY mlm music. Like seriously, put that shit on your fic-writing playlists and you will be writing some cute-ass fluff in no time. He just loves boys a lot and it makes my heart so big and full.

THIRDO. He is a STEAL. Seriously, I have high standards and I would go frickledy-frack on him in like three seconds flat if I was even in the same room as him. Those blue-green eyes. Those delectable lips. Whew, is it sweaty in here or is that just me?

FOURTHERLY. He and his gay opera friend Nico Muhly are way too cute for words and I am frankly disappointed that the Tumblr fandom crew hasn’t made any ship content whatsoever. If they aren’t dating I am going to be literally shattered. My poor heart can’t take all the cuteness.

IN CONCLUSION! Listen to Sufjan Stevens or the Tumblr gods will smite you.

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things about robert i love

- his personality type is (most likely) infp

- he started wearing lipstick because it made him feel more confident and more attractive

- everyone in the band and the cure’s circle has a nickname (except simon) and robert’s is robin

- before shows they would ask the audience what songs they wanted to hear and have a team member record what they ask for , and then rearrange the setlist depending on what the audience wanted

- he likes poetry, french literature and classical music

- he writes all of the songs himself yet has the rest of the band receive royalties

edit: @colourfullyseethroughhead corrected me on this! the whole band plays a part in writing the music and are given equal royalty pay for it ! they’re all geniuses bless them :_)

- he used to be great at football and wanted to be a footballer as a kid before learning guitar

- he has an odd, non-sexual obsession with mouths? “I do find mouths fascinating and kind of repulsive. They’re sort of like a … gaping wound in people! They can be really horrible. It’s such intimate part of your body and yet it’s a multi-purpose opening, used for shovelling food and pouring drink into. I find myself sometimes with people I don’t know just staring into their mouths….”

- on stage he used to shut his eyes and lean on the mic so he could avoid seeing the people

- when they filmed the charlotte sometimes video in an abandoned mental asylum, he found and was captivated by the drawings done by former inmates

- after this the cure started doing benefit concerts for MENCAP (the society for the mentally handicapped)

- once in paris he climbed around the outside of a hotel they were staying in to get into one of the other rooms, nd they were on the second floor

- “I had my first day at home this week for a long time,” he enthuses. “I went into the garden and I pulled out two years’ worth of weeds. I really enjoyed it!”

- ‘Smith admits to me that he’s thinking about getting cats and rabbits “when they’re little, so they’ll grow up loving each other,”’

- “Mary was telling me I mustn’t be horrible about other groups in interviews. She says I’m always talking about people I hate and I sound bitter.” omg bb

- he has a lot of nieces and nephews, on which he dotes

- “I sit looking up at the sky like millions of other people,”

- “People assume that I look the way I look because I’m in a group, because a lot of people in groups – particularly heavy metal bands – look one way when they’re in public and look another way in their off-hours. But I would look this way even if I was just going shopping.”

to conclude he’s my favourite guy. a good guy


“But now there won’t be any more seasons. So I still feel there’s a lot Even could have told, and a lot he could have taught others. Through his story. So of course, I’m sure I could have played this character for years. But it’s weird that it’s over.”

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There wasn’t much of a precedent for Cameron Avery’s current rock stardom, given that he grew up in a traditional household. But his musicality was firmly in place from a young age. “My mum says I used to stand in front of my aunt when I was 1 and sing ‘The Lord Loves Me’ over and over,” he says. “When I was finished, I’d say, ‘Clap for Cameron?’ Then I’d start the song again.” Later he moved on to more complex musical pursuits. “When I was older, I took a tennis racket, strung some shoelaces through it and pretended it was a guitar. I was a pretty skilled kid, apparently.” He’s a skilled adult as well—in addition to playing bass for Tame Impala, the Australia-born multi-instrumentalist is a former member of Pond and The Growl, and he released his winning solo debut, Ripe Dreams, Pipe Dreams, in 2017.

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okay if you say so 🌝

3/? things luhan says

When the Beatles split Lennon used [Yesterday] to chastise his former partner in the lacerating ‘How Do You Sleep?’ “I felt deep pain,” McCartney says now. “Stick it in the jugular, why don’t you, John. The funny thing is later I heard that he didn’t write that line, that John, Allen Klein and Yoko were sitting round together and someone came up with that line. But it was very painful, a bad period, there was a lot of deep messages in all the stuff we did then. I was really writing a lot of songs to John.

Then I got this great story, in one of the last interviews John did, where he said this guy brought him a copy of 'Coming Up’ and he was, like, 'Bloody hell, Paul’s on to something – better go back to work.’ You better believe I love that story.”

—  Paul McCartney, Independent (Nov 15, 2001)

omg i just #confirmed that the fukgfing sound byte in the middle of this song is from bernie sanders in an msnbc interview he did in 2012

also, it’s a fucking banger and yall should listen to it

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Okay wow, this chapter is a blessing. I’m super glad we get to see more and more of Tanaka and his relationship to Kanoka including their past. He is an amazing character and it seems like he finally gets the backstory/background information he deserves. 

I really loved that Atsumu talked to Kageyama, although that was expected, and I don’t know, it’s just my feelings, but it’s a little like we’re going to get a setter’s showdown and I AM SO HYPED. Damn, those intense looks… 

Also, Karasuno in their reverse jerseys.. can’t wait to see that animated! And Kageyama being savage as fuck calling Hinata a mandarin, I love him so much omg. 

And Inarizaki is so fucking extra like?! They nearly have a whole orchestra/marching band with them, and they’re all tall and pretty and confident, they have lots of TV interviews, and they are nearly treated like idols?! And they’re wearing pitch-black jerseys…. might heart can’t take this… send help…

daphtheowner  asked:

I AM DEAD 💔💔💔 TOSHI COME HERE LET ME HUG YOUR TEARS AWAY 😢😢thank you so much lovely, you are awesome, really 💕 AND I HOPE IS NOT TROUBLE TO REQUEST A PART 2 ❤️ if you are up to of course, aaaand when you're ready ❤️❤️❤️❤️

escapismislife asked: OMG I’M A MASS OF EMOTIONS RIGHT NOW! ;-; don’t hurt toshinori like that, can i request a part 2 pretty pls? Of that one that looks like a breakup after the interview slip up. I really need it, like, a lot ;-;. YOU ARE DOING A FANTASTIC JOB in this blog and i’m loving it so much


So I’ve gotten several requests to do a part 2 of the Toshinori angst I wrote, so here it is! I’m really glad you guys are so enthusiastic about this, I worked really hard on that scenario. Thank you for all of your support, you guys are so sweet! ^////^


Yagi Toshinori

• He really didn’t want to go to work the next day. He didn’t want to face you just yet, he didn’t think he could deal with that quite yet. To top it off, he was emotionally exhausted from the night before.

• The other teachers could immediately tell that All Might wasn’t like himself that day. He had a lot less energy than usual and he wasn’t even bothering to smile when the kids weren’t around.

• The only one that brought this up was Aizawa, who noticed that you hadn’t come to work that day and that All Might wasn’t his usual self. He put two and two together and concluded that something had happened between the two of you.

• “You’re acting strange,” was all Aizawa said to All Might, who was in his “true form,” while the two were on their break. Toshinori didn’t even bother to try and act like everything was okay.

• He merely hung his head and sighed. “______ and I got into a fight yesterday.” Aizawa nodded, encouraging his coworker-slash-friend to go on.

• “I don’t even know if you can really call it a fight. I messed up during an interview and told them to be quiet. Honestly, I don’t remember what I actually ended up saying. But they were really hurt by it and if I could take it all back, I would in an instant.”

• Aizawa nodded again. He didn’t want to say anything, knowing that there wasn’t much he could do for the man. Still, he spoke. Maybe he could at least try and make him feel better, even if he can’t resolve the problem for him.

• “Maybe you can take it back. I know ______. I know that they’re probably hurting as much as you right now. If you just talk to them–”

• “They told me not to talk to them or follow them when they left,” Toshinori said sadly. That’s exactly what you said. You told him not to follow you.

• “You don’t really think they meant that, do you?” Toshinori looked up at Aizawa as the latter continued. “They obviously just wanted to be left alone for that night. Right now, what they want the most is probably for you to talk to them.”

• And so he did. Toshinori didn’t want to go to where you were staying (your friend’s house). He didn’t think he’d be able to stand seeing you right now. He probably wouldn’t be able to say what he wanted to say without breaking down.

• So he called you. The phone rang. And rang. And rang. And then finally you picked up. There was a long moment of silence on both ends. “…Toshinori,” you said after a while, the emotion in your voice undetectable.

• Toshinori took a deep breath and finally spoke. “I’m sorry,” he said. You didn’t say anything, so he kept going. “I was wrong to ignore you. I was wrong to disregard your feelings like that. I was wrong to not have said anything. I was so wrong, ______.”

• He held a hand to his eyes, trying to stop the tears that were already flowing quickly down his face. He knew you were crying, too, after hearing a sniffle on your end.

• “I’m sorry, too, Toshinori,” you said, whimpering. “I shouldn’t have said those things to you. I was so mean and I didn’t mean what I said. I know how important your work is to you and everyone else, and I’m so sorry I didn’t realize that. Please forgive me.”

• “______, I already forgave you,” he said. “I understand if you don’t want to come back after all of that, but if—”

• “What are you saying? Of course I want to come back! I’m sorry for leaving you. I wasn’t thinking straight.”

• Toshinori just gave a weak laugh. “I know. But it’s okay now. We’ll get through this together, baby. We’re in this together.”

anonymous asked:

hi i hope this isn't too personal but i was wondering how you knew you had autism? i'm 22 and i show an awful lot of signs of being autistic but i've never been tested for it. my parents have even shown concern when i was younger that I had it but i guess it didn't concern them enough to test

OMG! It’s no problem, I would LOVE to answer this question!!

To be fair you can’t really be “tested” for autism. It’s a comprehensive interview that *can* include *some* tests that measure your ability to problem solve, how you react to frustration/difficulty, etc.

So, I was also diagnosed really late, and tbh I never would have suspected if I didn’t also have two autistic (Aspergers) friends (that recommended I look into a diagnosis) and a pre-existing diagnosis of ADD and social anxiety. The pre-existing ADD diagnosis is what, I think, prevented me from seeking an autism diagnosis. I just attributed most of my struggles to being ADD. But, in the end, it wasn’t a sufficient diagnosis that could explain all of my experiences.

Another huge factor for me is that I don’t live in a Western country, and Western countries are far more accepting of things like autism.

So I’ll just get really personal here and give a lot of details. 

Some clear signs I had autism and just never knew it:

1) My parents have described me as doing certain telltale “stimming” behaviors since INFANCY: rocking (I rocked in my crib as baby, I rocked in the car as a child, etc.), finger flicking, and the like.
2) My artistic ability from a VERY young age, my obsession with Disney/fairy tales and Star Wars, obsession with bugs, obsession with breeds of dogs and cats, etc. (called “special interests” these can change over time, or some can stay for your whole life - like SW and Disney for me!)
3) Sensory issues. I get migraines all the time, as a reaction to hypersensitivity to light and sound. I feel as if I can hear things others don’t bother to notice: the whirring of computers, the buzzing of fluorescent lighting, the dripping of the bathroom faucet from the other room. I see the tiniest details in my environment that NO ONE else sees, and I have a very keen eye for color mixing while painting. There are others - such as balance and coordination problems, dislike of certain smells/sensations, etc. But you get the point.
4) Some issues in social communication - which is a must for being autistic. I’ll talk more about this below, but I am actually quite “high functioning” (for lack of a better term - I don’t usually like that term, tbh) when it comes to communication and social skills. If you met me, you’d literally never suspect I was autistic. But there are certain things I struggle with when relating to others or when communicating - they’re just not immediately apparent to others. Expressing my emotions in words, expressing why I have difficulty doing certain things, understanding why people are mad/upset with me sometimes, understanding why people engage in certain behaviors that seem normal to others (small talk)… there are others, too, but that’s probably enough for now.
5) Executive functioning problems - losing things constantly, poor organizational skills, “math dyslexia” (dyscalculia), keeping and remembering appointments, time management, etc.
6) I’ve had “melt downs” (more as a child and teenager than now) which are essentially just really bad panic attacks. The trigger can be something as simple as losing my keys and not being able to locate them.

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Random DCMK Things: If Gosho Boys Were a Boy Band-Saguru’s Profile


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  • As I’ve said in my previous “If Gosho Boys were a Boy Band” blogs, Hakuba would be the leader of the Gosho Boys because out of all the boys, he is the most mature, most calm and most composed. I mean, do you see how prim and proper he is? 
  • As a detective, if you remember the DC episode where Hakuba and Heiji did a detective showdown with other detectives, you would notice that Hakuba’s very organized with coming up with his deductions. Other than that, he is very calm unlike Heiji who’s way more aggressive than he is. Well, this gave me the impression that Hakuba’s personality just screams leader. IDK how I should further explain it.
  • As a leader, Hakuba would bring order to the chaos Kaito, Shinichi and Heiji, all together are. Out of all the Gosho Boy’s Hakuba seems to be the most behaved. XD
  • Hakuba is very particular with the managers and the staffs orders, especially during performances. He is very strict about the steps and the blocking during live performances because he doesn’t want to cause trouble to the people behind the set. Hakuba’s a big hater of ad-libs because he disrupts the pre-organized original plans. He often gets into trouble with the other members because they can be really spontaneous with their stage performances, especially Heiji and Kaito. Though the boys could make it work, Hakuba still isn’t a fan of their spur-of-the-moment ad-libs and feels that they could be a bit too much (ESPECIALLY KAITO), to the point of upstaging the other members.
  • With this being said, Hakuba may come across as a bossy leader, but really, he’s just doing his best and following Manager Haibara’s orders. XD Other than that, Hakuba feels the need to be more authoritative of the boys, given the fact that things could be chaotic with all of them around, together in one room. He’s just doing his duties and he’s so good at it.
  • As a leader, Hakuba would be like Super Junior’s Leeteuk. They kinda have the same hairstyle too, but that is not the only reason why they could be similar. For those of you who may not know, Super Junior consists of 15 members (Well, used to. Some members already left. T.T). They debuted with 13 members and if you add the two members from their subgroup, Super Junior-M they make up of fifteen. Anyway, Leeteuk, as their leader takes care of all these boys (now, men). And can you imagine just how he could do that? *slow clapping* And with Hakuba and the Gosho Boys, the situation would be just the same. I mean, yeah, they are only four boys but they are four chaotic boys (Hakuba, not so much but Kaito + Heiji +Shinichi? That’s a riot.). Just think about how Hakuba would try to take care of all these guys. I think it would be really interesting. XD

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Look at Leeteuk right here? Isn’t he cute? He’s just like staring at the toddler with ease and thinking, “Hey, kid. I take care of 14 boys. So, I could handle you just fine.”

I could imagine Hakuba being like:

“Btch pls. As if Kuroba isn’t enough to drive me insane. You had to add Kudo and Hattori too. But, okay. Yeah. I can do this.” *stretches his limbs*

  • Hakuba, together with Shinichi would be the one promoting the group internationally. Since Hakuba flies from Japan and England all the time. This is possible. Shinichi on the other hand, would be promoting in America ‘coz he has a lot of connections there. Anyway, Hakuba has a good grasp on the English language and as the leader, he’s mostly assigned to be the one talking a lot during interviews. So, promoting outside the country is also part of his job.
  • Hakuba would also be the one composing most of the Gosho Boy’s songs together with Shinichi. I’m not quite sure if Hakuba does play some instruments in the canon verse, but yeah I honestly think he does and is good at it. Plus, he is also a Sherlock Holmes fan and he might’ve took lessons in playing the violin because of that. It’s not impossible. Hakuba’s pretty financially stable too. :)
  • As the leader, Hakuba’s would be a little underrated. Even if he honestly is just as talented as the other boys. In most kpop groups, I feel that a lot of leaders are actually brought out of the spotlight, mostly out shined by the main visual, main vocal, main dancer etc. Usually on photo shoots, the leaders are always on the far end of the side. IDK why. But yeah, even if it is like that, Hakuba would really shine in his own way, without even trying so much because he is great at what he does.
  • Hakuba would be as much of a great singer as Kaito is. Like if he isn’t the leader, he could be the boy band’s main vocal. (Sorry Kaito. hahahaha). With this being said, Hakuba and Kaito have a subgroup ballad duo because their voice blend together so well.
  • Hakuba has the least problems with Shinichi and works well with him, especially with playing instruments and composing songs together. They think alike.
  • Hakuba would often clash with Heiji a lot coz both of them could be really authoritative, but when he’s tired, Heiji usually takes over especially when Kaito and Shinichi are causing a ruckus and Hakuba has basically given up on even giving a fuck with the shit KaiShin is doing. In these cases, Hakuba is really grateful towards Heiji. 
  • Hakuba would most likely be the member to get a lot of endorsement deals from foreign countries. IDK, Hakuba has that model feels. I mean, can we all just admire how fabulous he is?
  • Hakuba’s very much the most polite among the Gosho Boys. After concerts or stage performances he would never forget to give the audience  good bow and a lot of  thank yous.
  • With this being said, when Gosho Boy’s wins an award, Hakuba would have a speech and a long list of people to thank because he is so polite and he gives credit where credit is due.
  • Hakuba would be a great leader. Even if he is strict he would still have a soft side. He would be deny it a lot but he loves having the boys around and he is as much as a dork as they are.
  • Hakuba wouldn’t let the Gosho Boys disband ever. As a leader, he strongly holds on to his boys.
  • Hakuba would be really supportive of the boys in their solo careers and the boys would be the same toward him as well.
  • Hakuba would also be doing hosting jobs in music shows and variety shows from time to time, because why not? 
  • Hakuba would be featured in a lot of music videos of other artists, because he’s great in acting too.
  • Fangirls love Hakuba a lot even if he would seem underrated at times. 
  • There would be dating rumors about Aoko and Hakuba because in an interview, Hakuba would openly say that Aoko of the Gosho Girls is his ideal type and that he had a crush on her. But as soon as rumors about them surface, Hakuba would be denying them and confess that he has got over her and is dating Gosho Girl’s Akako. (LOL huhuhu I kinda ship them huhuhu)

Omg! Sorry this took so long! I planned to do this on Hakuba Saguru’s birthday  ‘coz he’s an August baby like me, but I got pre-occupied with family gatherings (because my grandfather’s birthday is also in august) and I was also looking for a job that month and other than that, I was also participating in Detective Conan Week 2017, I was also busy writing my KazuHei fics. Plus, the hype over the ShinRan Bomb. In short, I was a busy busy bee and not to mention, insanely distracted.  Anyway, I hope you guys liked this series and I hope I gave a lot of love to Hakuba, since @ladygoldstein mentioned that he is pretty underrated. T.T.

If you guys haven’t read my other “If Gosho Boys were a Boy Band” stuff I’ll put in the links below. :)





After trading low blows the previous year, John and Paul had reached some kind of détente [in 1972]. … Trying to repair the damage, John used journalist Ray Connolly … as a go-between to hand-deliver a letter to Cavendish Avenue. A visiting Jim McCartney took the envelope from Connolly at the front door before unhappily warning the writer, “If I were you, son, I wouldn’t get involved in all this." On the last weekend in January [1972], Lennon and McCartney hooked up for the first time since the ruckus began. Saturday saw Paul and Linda fly to New York and accept an invitation to visit the Lennons at the apartment they were renting, at 105 Bank Street. … Over dinner, John and Paul chatted amicably, if still a touch guardedly, and agreed to stop slagging each other off in public, whether in the press or in song.

Tom Doyle, Man on the Run: Paul McCartney in the 1970s


Re: Ray Connolly: is this the same incident as the one he describes in his own book, when John asked him in October 1971 to be the “go-between” and ask Paul to get in touch with him about a “songwriting” matter? It has to be, right? Or did John make Ray be his go-between to Paul MULTIPLE TIMES?? Please say yes. Ray is the Nurse to John and Paul’s little post-breakup Romeo and Juliet story. Wtf.

But, if it was the same incident, why didn’t Ray know that his message was successful, as Doyle describes above? Was he just out of the loop? Where did Doyle get all this extra info? (Could it be Paul? He seems to have given Doyle lots of interview time, etc., and no other source is cited.)

Re: Jim. OMG. OH. MY ACTUAL GOD. I just love that Jim McCartney is here at Cavendish in 1971 or ’72 being like, “I told everyone all along that Lennon was trouble, and look where it got you.” Also, apparently Jim and Ray had met before, and Ray was kind of like a friend of the family at this point, which is EVEN BETTER. But yeah. It’s just so … agh. Don’t get in the middle of John and Paul when they’re fighting, YOU’LL ONLY GET HURT. Thank you, Concerned Dad Jim McCartney, Who Always Knew John Would Get Paul in Trouble, But Maybe It’s Not Too Late for Ray. (Sidenote: it was.)

Lastly, I was somehow unaware until today of this specific 1972 McCartney-Lennon dinner in New York, and I want to read 45 million fics about it, please and thank.

ETA: Of course, amoralto has a great audio post where John talks (in generalities) about the meeting! 

[TRANS] Falling into Oh My Girl Time - TenAsia ‘10+Star’ October Issue Interview

src: (x), OMG DCInside Gallery

Time goes by really fast. It’s already been a month since the ’Listen To My Word (Aing)’ promotions.

Mimi: It was an honour that we could sing Papaya sunbae’s song again. There are still a lot of people that remember their ‘Listen To My Word’, I was worried about who we would become under that reputation. I think we were able to do it in our own way with Oh My Girl’s own colour, and receive love for it.

Arin gives the fans a heart attack every time with ‘aing’ during ‘Listen To My Word (Aing)’.

Arin: I practiced (laughs). I’m embarrassed to show aegyo. Whenever we perform, to do it different ways I always ask Binnie how I should do it.

Binnie: Arin said it’s hard to do cute faces, so I picked ones that I liked; for that time among lots that she didn’t do, we showed you a few that were worthy.

Jiho: Binnie recommends aegyo to the members that will suit each person, she knows us that well.

Hyojung: Binnie collects bad pictures of the members. She finds and watches our pictures and videos, and tells us what expressions are good, what angles pictures look prettier at.

Binnie: The members’ characteristics are different for each person.The members don’t know what expressions we make while on stage, so I find and watch fancams. That way, I can discover members’ expressions that I had never known before, and that’s really fun.

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The eyes give these idols away every time and despite RM having shades on during the EMM interview, I still caught him giving the very pretty Ms. Morgan Lynzi the “up and down” trying to be slick.

You can catch him doing it at the :40 sec mark when you watch the video. Lifts his head up holds it for a solid Mississippi second and then looks down like, nobody saw it.

Also did you notice how he lowered his voice 3 decibels for this interview. I mean his voice is deep but it ain’t THAT deep. I swear Rapmon be showing out, showing off and putting on when it comes to WOC.


Side Note: omg, wearing sunglasses is a great pass to stare, And it’s a fact that when men are attracted to a woman, they lower their voice to a deeper tone, I’ve seen it a lot. But I never forget the interview she did with Big Bang, T.O.P was flirting and sooo shy around her, I never seen him act like that and he’s done so many interviews with Korean and Japanese women, and usually Taeyang and G-Dragon speaks English well without stumbling/stuttering so much, but in the interview with Morgan they didn’t make sense half the time, it was cute xD . You can tell when a guy is attracted to a girl, it’s obvious the way they act, especially if they usually don’t act like that.

anonymous asked:

I absolutely LOVE your reverse au. I've seen a lot of others but yours is just so good?? It captures them both very well and imo seems a lot more realistic and well thought out than most other reverse au's I've seen. thank you for writing it

omg thank you so much! I really wanted to write an AU focusing on mental health since Victor’s depression (and bipolar disorder cough) gets left a lot out of discussions. 

As a thank you here’s a sneak peek.

The interview that changed Victor’s life was less than 5 minutes long. It was announced seconds after Yuuri stepped down from the Grand Prix Final podium with his fifth gold medal around his neck. The press were few, and were explicitly told there would be no questions. Yuuri would make his announcement, and then leave with no interruption. Any reporter who had an issue with this didn’t even make it into the room.

Only one camera had been present.

Molly, Hannibal and a lonely Will  [Hannibal 3.08 The Great Red Dragon]

Based on the scenes we have, What I see is: Will is still extremely lonely even surrounded by the things he should love, dogs, an understanding and kind wife who shares his interests, a kid he could mentor (e.g. on fishing I guess), the concept of family in general, that Will has never had a chance to experience. 

Molly asked Will, “How bad is it gonna be if you stay here and read about the next one? If you stay and there’s more killing, maybe it would sour this place for you.“ 

Then Will answered, “Do you want me to go?”

To me, in this scene Will was in fact hoping Molly would say something selfish or unkind, to demand him not to go, or rather, give Will a reason not to go. But then she said, “I’d have the satisfaction that you did the right thing. He kills families.”

Will hinted, “If I go… I’ll be different when I get back.” 

And Molly assured him, “I won’t.” 

I think that’s the moment I realised Molly does not understand Will at all, she does not understand the fear within Will. She sees Will as someone who wants to save and help those other families and who is conflicted because he is afraid his own family (Molly and Walter) won’t love him or will see him differently when he comes back. Instead, Will could have fear for Molly and Walter yes, but Will is actually more conflicted because he was scared for himself. His fear is, sort of, sadly, more about himself then for other people or for other families.  Molly does not see what going back to help Jack would do to Will, how it would change him again by pushing him back to the pit of darkness he has just barely climbed out and tried to live ‘normally’

The way Will still follows the news of the Tooth Fairy gives me an impression that he is still attracted to the dark side, he still wants to solve cases. Part because he wants to catch the killer, part wants to understand the killer, part want to save people, part because this is what he truly understand in this world. What Will understands, in parallel with 1.04 , sadly, is never family value.

Then Will went to open Hannibal’s letter later that night, and there, Hannibal’s words were exactly what Will have been wanting to hear from Molly. 

“I would encourage you as a friend, not to step back through the door he holds open. It’s dark on the other side and madness is waiting.”

There, the sad truth, Hannibal is the only one in the world that understands Will, understands Will better then Will himself. Will was conflicted if he should go, Hannibal just told him a simple NO with his warning. Of course, then Will gives in to whatever pressure everyone was giving him and his curiosity for the killer, he stepped back through that door. 

But then it was different this time, he could not get back to the mind set alone. I see someone thought it was Hannibal’s letter that baited Will to see him again. But I think in the end it was Will’s loneliness in this world, that drives Will back to Hannibal. Hannibal and Will are truly alone in this world without each other because nobody could truly understand their minds better, not Molly, not Alana, and definitely not Jack (don’t get me started on how selfish Jack is here). They are the only two people that could really ‘see’ each other, not in the sense of love or Hannigram, but as Hugh Dancy said in past interview, as in two unique and lonely and dark souls in the world who happened to meet by chance and fate.

I honestly and truly believe Molly is good for Will, her kindness and similar interests etc., and I do not agree Will does not love Molly and Walter. Will cares about Molly and Walter a lot, see the stare he gave Jack to ask him to put away the dead family photos. I have no doubt they care and love each other too (um Walter thou…that kid was behaving like Damien in The Omen, he is omg a bit creepy why lol) …but loving and caring for someone does not mean you can understand or be understood in a relationship.  it’s like that damn reality when two people gets married, but the one next to you might not be the one understands you best in this world, it was the one WHOM YOU CHOSE TO BREAK UP WITH, WILL

Hannibal knows Will would return to him one day, he was confident Will would find him and he knows it, he has been waiting for Will. BUT I do not think Hannibal baited Will with the letter. Hannibal warned Will of the darkness and madness, and pointed out an option of ‘out’ for Will, but Will still chose to step through the door. It was Will’s choice and free will, much like in ‘Digestivo’, Hannibal’s surrender was his choice and free will.

Author Spotlight: fnurfnur

This feature is a collaboration with panempropaganda and everlarkedalways as part of Panem Propaganda’s 100 Days of Mockingjay: Shipping and Fanfiction.

This interview is a companion piece to an article written for Panem Propaganda, available at X.

With many thanks to panempropaganda, everlarkedalways, and fnurfnur.

Graphic by everlarkedalways. Interview by papofglencoe.


“[T]he first Everlark fanfiction I ever read was The Little Match Boy… omg the tears! I loved it. I will read anything written by her, sure that I will enjoy it.”     -joshs-left-earlobe

What is so unique or special about Everlark to you?

I have always seen a lot of myself in Katniss, especially the imperfect, problematic qualities. And Peeta himself is not perfect, as much as fanfiction and Peeta lovers would try to convince you otherwise. But these two people, despite their imperfections and everything they have been through, still love each other and fight for each other. There’s something incredibly comforting in that- that two people who have been through so much hardship and who are incredibly flawed and human can still have life-changing, all-encompassing love. It may not be “happily ever after” like a fairy tale, but life so rarely is.

What inspired you to write Everlark fanfiction in the first place?

I read HG fanfic for almost a year before I tried to write it. At first I only read canon fanfic, then I branched out to AUs. And there I saw so much creativity and room for interpretation, I got inspired to think of different scenarios. When one of them stuck with me- Everlark in physical therapy- and a whole world started to develop in my mind. Eventually the only way to “fix” this problem in my mind was to write it. Once I started writing fic, I got addicted.

What’s your personal favorite of your own fics and why? What inspired it?

I love (almost) all of my fics for some reason, but The People of Panem v. Katniss Everdeen is my most favorite, probably. There were two time points that I wanted fanfic to help me fill in- pre-epilogue and Katniss’s trial. Fanfic more than fulfilled pre-epilogue, and there are several fics out there that have written that part so well I consider it canon. But I never found any that covered her trial, at least not without being AU in some major element. So I tried to think how it could have happened, without changing a single element of canon. I found that working within those constraints forced me to be creative in a new way. It’s also my favorite because I worked very closely with alonglineofbread/wollaston on it- having her as a coach AND teammate AND cheerleader (a.k.a. an amazing beta and friend) was an absolutely wonderful experience. She brought out the best in that story.

What’s the greatest challenge for you to writing Everlark?

Giving them conflict. Dangit, haven’t these two kids been through enough? Can’t they just cuddle and bang and be cute and naked? But as much as we would like that, the conflict is what drives a story forward. I still have trouble doing it- I do want to write one of those fics that just rips your heart out with angst and conflict- but until then, the conflict will be relatively mild and resolved within a couple of chapters.

When you’re pushing the limits of character or situation, what ineffable traits of Katniss and Peeta/Everlark do you keep intact to preserve their characters?

That’s a good question, and probably this question is the one I’ve been mulling over the longest. I suppose it’s that Katniss is by nature an introvert and Peeta is an extrovert. Katniss draws her strength- or at least, she thinks she does- from being alone. She doesn’t need anyone to survive. But there are a few people she allows “in” for lack of a better term, and they make her stronger and more complete than when she is alone (Prim, Peeta). Peeta is an extrovert- is naturally social and gains strength from being around others. But all of those people aren’t around when he really needs help (like after the first Games). So while Katniss and Peeta have personalities that may have a fundamental difference, it’s also what brings them together. She is the person who loves him even when he’s not friendly. He is the person who loves her enough to make her friendly.

What’s your favorite Everlark trope and why?

Probably none I can say here, this is a family website. M-rated tropes are all that are coming to mind right now. I can tell you I do not enjoy the Everlark trope of Katniss being a terrible cook.

What is an Everlark fanfic that has stayed with you? Why?

There are two in-progress fics that I have truly dropped everything to read when they update (even to the point where I was once driving home from work in my 45 minute commute, saw the email notification from FFn that it updated, and pulled over to the nearest parking lot and immediately turned off the car and read the update). Those would be When the Moon Fell in Love With the Sun by porchwood/mejhiren and Anywhere I Would Have Followed You by dracoisalooker76. I know there have been others but I am woefully behind in reading fanfic now but just thinking of those two fics makes me want to crawl into bed and cry because they give me SO MANY FEELINGS. Those two writers are ridiculously talented.

What is your favorite Everlark headcanon or fanon?

I will always believe that 1) one of Peeta’s brothers was named Rye, and 2) Caesar was feeding info to District 13/the rebellion. On the second point, I remember some people having trouble with that in The People of Panem v. Katniss Everdeen and I wrote almost as many words on why I stand behind that than I wrote in the actual fic.

fnurfnur is the author of works such as Range of Motion, Surviving Death, Sweat Equity, and The People of Panem v. Katniss Everdeen. She is on AO3 and on tumblr as fnurfnur.