i love this album i could cry

HFK Commentary

The Prologue - I knew this was a concept album with a Romeo + Juliet story but she actually read the actual prologue of Romeo + Juliet my love of both Shakespeare and Halsey have been truly united and I can die peacefully.

100 Letters - With the exception of the three singles released this is the first actual song I’ve heard off HFK and it’s so different from Badlands but I already love it. I’m glad despite this being more of a radio album that the lyrics are still pure Halsey.

Eyes Closed - Honestly, I prefer the stripped version of this but I still enjoy it. I feel like I need to drive around with this on repeat for a few hours.

Heaven In Hiding - I got chills during the chorus it’s so good. I feel like an alternate version of this could’ve been on Badlands.

Alone -  This is so different than anything I was expecting from this album but I kind of really love it wow.

Now or Never - I don’t care what anyone says I loved this song when it came out and I still love it no matter how many times I listen to it.

Sorry - I was wondering if she would do a slow song at all and I’m glad she did aside from the fact that I want to rip my heart out and cry until I die. 

Good Mourning - I feel like this is the people of HFK speaking but I could be wrong. Either way I feel like I’m late for an appointment.

Lie - I feel like Halsey was super pissed when she did this. I really wish Quavo wasn’t in it though just because I don’t care about him at all. I just want to hear more Halsey. She sounds good in the background though.

Walls Could Talk - I’m curious if this is about Lido. I really it like it but it’s so short.

Bad At Love - This is just all kinds of great and I hope she performs this live because I’d love to hear it so much.

Don’t Play: I was pretty bored with this one until I heard Halsey say “motherfucker” a bunch of times and now I feel revived.

Strangers - I’m not really a fan of Lauren but she sounds so good with Halsey and I really do love this song.

Angel on Fire - The lyrics for this are so good. I also feel like this would’ve worked on Badlands. Anyways, this song makes me feel like screaming or smashing dishes around my house or showering with all my clothes on.

Devil In Me - This makes me feel sad. I want to give her a hug.

Hopeless - I was really nervous about this because of Cashmere Cat but I think this is actually one of my favorites on the album and I’m so happy with it.

Overall: I was so worried about this album because I love Badlands more than anything but I’m so happy with this album. I don’t really know what else to say besides that I adore Halsey and will listen to nothing else this summer. 

Favorite Songs: Hopeless, Sorry, 100 Letters, Angel on Fire, Devil In Me, Alone, Bad At Love

Least Favorite: Lie

IT’S JUST KYUNGSOO

♤ actual soft ball of fluff
♤ fluffier than a pomeranian okay
♤ smiley kyungsoo makes everyone happier
♤ like he’s a little kid omg
♤ don’t tell me you don’t love smiley kyungsoo
♤ only satan hates smiley kyungsoo and you ain’t satan
♤ if you are satan hi how are you jUST KIDDING you better love him
♤ he looks so cuddly for once like
♤ i just wanna hug the life out of him he’s that cute
♤ fight me if you think he ain’t a cutie

Originally posted by dohkyungcutie

♤ don’t piss him off
♤ literally split personalities right there
♤ one minute he’ll be all happy but then
♤ when chanyeol happens
♤ room. evacuation. ROOM. EVACUATION.
♤ SOS BECAUSE THE DEVIL HAS ARRIVED
♤ the world didn’t end on saturday 23 it’ll end when ksoo wants it to
♤ fucking angel devil hybrid in a tiny human body
♤ tbh he’s still cute af when he’s pissed
♤ constantly in bitch fight me mode

Originally posted by callmeyourhope

♤ his gummy smile
♤ i swear it’s too omg
♤ i die inside whenever he does that
♤ like don’t tell me you don’t or else i’m just weird which i’m not
♤ it probably cures depression that smile
♤ MAKE !! KYUNGSOO !! SMILE !! MORE !!
♤ honestly though it’s precious
♤ i would fucking kill for that smile it’s so cute
♤ you know when babies giggle and everyone is like aw so cute
♤ well i do that when ksoo smiles okay

Originally posted by yonkaisoo

♤ his eyes are the like omg
♤ will be the death of me
♤ how they gradually widen without him knowing
♤ like could you not i’m trying to live here
♤ oh fuck it i’ll lose anyways
♤ always looks shook
♤ or he looks like he remembered that he forgot to turn off the bathroom lights
♤ either way shook
♤ actually that’s really cute compared to shook beagle line lol
♤ god i love those eyes awWWW

Originally posted by messijoahae

♤ his vocals are actually god’s blessing to us
♤ like they could be drugs i wouldn’t know ????????
♤ also he’s literally the rap line
♤ LET KYUNGSOO RAP
♤ it’s a beautiful sight
♤ stfu exo you ain’t got shit on ksoo’s rapping okay
♤ but in all seriousness his vocals are a blessing
♤ like i shit you not if he released a solo album i’d die a little 
♤ also when he sang in miracles in december my mum started crying okay
♤ W O RSH IP H I S VOC A LS PLEASE

Originally posted by bangtan-monsta

♤ probably wants to kill chanyeol lets be honest
♤ but then gets giggly and pissed at the same time
♤ make up your mind dude
♤ also he’s like dON’T FUCK WITH ME BITCH
♤ sexual tension
♤ honestly if there was a film abt him and yeol killing eachother i’d be dead
♤ wouldn’t we all
♤ probably wants to poison chanyeol’s drink but junmyeon be like kids chill
♤ sLAPSGIVING CHANYEOL DID YOU HEAR THAT ;)
♤ honestly i think he just enjoys witnessing other people’s misery 

Originally posted by veriloquentmind

♤ i feel like one day he won’t have enough hair to cut
♤ like he cuts his hair so much are you okay bro
♤ literally looked like an egg for a few months
♤ still a hot egg
♤ would cook that egg
♤ also glitches out a lot
♤ making those hot ksoo edits for the dash indeed
♤ but actually he’s high quality meme material
♤ esp the times he wants to murder exo 
♤ tbh he’d look good in any given scenario lol esp smut

Originally posted by leslipigeonoficial

♤ kinda looks like a member of satan’s cult
♤ probably will sacrifice exo’s poor bodies to satan (excluding yixing n jongin)
♤ chanyeol goodbye
♤ always looks angry or sexually frustrated
♤ 37% of the time looks cute
♤ cherish cute kyungsoo
♤ also when he was like the same height as sehun that was funny
♤ nice joke thanks
♤ really not that short
♤ who am i kidding lmao he’s short af compared to chanyeol it’s so cute

Originally posted by love-meknot

♤ cutie
♤ but his aegyo is kinda
♤ looks like satan wanting to pet a kitten
♤ cute and unsettling
♤ isn’t he just wonderful
♤ especially in smut
♤ what oh yeah he’s sexy man
♤ sexy when eating food yum
♤ kinda looks either clueless or regretful when he’s with exo tbh
♤ “being famous means putting up with basic bitches like baekhyun”

Originally posted by theonly-vagina-kyungsoo-will-fuk

♤ his existence is a blessing 
♤ but a punishment to chanyeol lol
♤ cute tiny angel demon
♤ how does he even manage
♤ oh yeah he likes harassing exo without them knowing
♤ what a sweetheart
♤ aww his cute lips great for licking things
♤ like ice cream cones of course
♤ i wonder how fast he could eat ice cream
♤ what a nice thought eh ?????

reddie hcs based on an actual phone call i just got from a friend

(sidenote: all the stuff richie says is basically direct quotes from this phone call i received it was so fucking sweet and i haven’t felt this loved in a long time ok)

- they’re in college or something and richie gets really drunk one night and just calls eddie and just starts going off like

- “EDS. i’m really drunk right now and i’ve just been thinking about you and i was thinking about you the other day too and i’m just so glad that we’re friends you know? you are just like… so amazing and i love ya to pieces”

- and he’s doing one of his dumb voices and eddie is speechless because richie just keeps going like

- he just goes on and on about all the things he likes about eddie and is just like “and i can’t believe that i get to hang out with you you’re just so strong you know? you don’t take any shit. when someone says something fucked up you don’t take it sitting down you know? i wish i was half as strong as you”

- and he’ll get sidetracked and start talking about some dumb shenanigans he and bev got up to and eddie will laugh and richie will remember he called to talk about eddie and be like “oh right i’m getting sidetracked, back to all the reasons why you’re so great, eds.”

- and he’ll start on another tangent and some of it is repeats of what he’s already said bc he’s drunk but like it’s just so genuine and earnest

- and eddie wasn’t expecting this at all he was just getting ready for bed and he’s like…in the common room of his dorm and he’s getting teary eyed bc wtf richie and so he gathers up his stuff and runs up to his room for some privacy while richie is just loudly ranting to him about how wonderful he thinks eddie is

- "EDS. I just. I LOVE YA. I think the WHOLE WORLD of ya. I can’t believe such a great cool person like you spends more than 20 minutes with a dumb asshole like me you’re just so great. I don’t think you could ever do anything that would ever make me mad at you. I just love having you on a pedestal and I don’t EVER wanna bring you down.“

- “you know, if there was an album of like…the best of eddie kaspbrak…it would all be interactions between you and me. sure the rest of the losers might be in there once or twice i’m sure they’ve had some good times with you but YOU AND ME man.”

- and eddie is outright sniffling right now and trying not to let richie know that he’s crying over how fucking dumb and sweet richie is being and richie’s like

- “and i hope you know you’re stuck with me. you ain’t getting rid of me any time soon. i’m like…the strep throat of friendship i just keep coming back and i can’t get enough of you.”

- “and don’t you ever fucking give up on me eds. you do so much for me like…my whole life is basically just like…you know when someone starts to trip and they try to just like…keep running forward to catch themselves? like that’s me and you just stick with me and make sure i don’t do something stupid enough to actually kill myself”

- “you’re just so good. don’t you ever fucking let go and die on me. i think you dying is the only thing that could ever make me mad at you, you know.”

- and then bev comes back from the bathroom at whatever bar they’re at and richie is just like

- “oh shit bev is coming back from the bathroom i gotta go but just remember i love ya eds. when we get off the phone i want you to pull up that song by that Toto guy. africa you know the one? just listen to that song and remember that i love ya”

and that was basically the 40 minute call i just received from my friend who was apparently high as fuck. sidenote: the song he wanted me to listen to was Hold On I’m Coming by Sam and Dave.

BTS - Wings Inspired Jackets

Jeon Junkook - Begin

“You Make Me Begin”
If you look close the word “hyung” is written in one of the 6 tears. A tear for each of his brothers. The small sprout is meant as his young days as a rookie and then growing up, growing wings that are strong despite the scratches and struggles.
Model: https://www.instagram.com/camiinwonderland1/ (AKA ME ) 

Park Jimin - Lie

“Caught In A Lie”
I always pictured it as you know crossing your fingers behind your back and then being tied as you were “caught” in the lie …a snake and a appel going back to the trailer that was posted.
Model: https://www.instagram.com/pookaprincess/

Kim Taehyung - Stigma

”Are You Calling Me A Sinner?” 
I had honestly a hard time with this one … while trying to “picture it ” I must have drawn 10 different designs that changed…having my sister listen to my rambles sure helped. I wanted to somehow also get the the whole wingless angle part in it. 
Model: https://www.instagram.com/amaris_cosplay/

Min Yoongi - First Love 

“So Don’t Let Go of My Hand”
Legit this song makes me wanna cry…having had to read the lyric and hear it so many times has made it to one of my favorite in the album (EVEN THO ALL ARE GOOD OK 
Model: https://www.instagram.com/rottenjayj/ (AKA BEST SISTER AND HELPER LEGIT COULD NOT HAVE DONE THIS WITHOUT HER….she’s my rock (no joke ) 

Kim Namjoon - Reflection 

“I Wish I Could Love Myself” 
This was yet another song that was hard to picture and too a lot of going back and forth…until i woke up in a cold sweat with the idea. I wanted all the jackets to have some kind of “call back” to the BS&T MV or the small trailers they did for each of their songs. 
Model: https://www.instagram.com/sable_eye/

Jung Hoseok - Mama
“I Learned Passion And Sincerity”

This song despite its fast beat is super deep… and in a lot of ways it’s easy to understand what he means. Most of us want to be able to give back to those who believed and supported us when nobody else did. We’re all dreamers right?
Model:  https://www.instagram.com/amaris_cosplay/

Kim Seokjin - Awake 

“I Want To Run, Just A Bit More” 
THOSE VOCAL OK MORE OF JIN AND RESPECT HIM MORE OK PLZ. So yeah  I kind of had to somehow try to get his face on this jacket..idk why …I dont always qustion my brain when it get’s indeas. (SO GOOD ) 
Model: MY ROCK https://www.instagram.com/rottenjayj/ 

PHOTO/EDIT: https://www.instagram.com/aagaard_svendsen/
DESIGN/MADE: https://www.instagram.com/camiinwonderland1/

My main inspiration in fashion is music….and since I’ve loved BTS for so long and the “WINGS” album got released I got this idea. “Why not make a jacket for each song? All of them black and white but with different cuts and one different paint color that stands out ?” So that’s EXACTLY what I did ..I can’t say it was easy each jacket took me about a month (outside school and work ) to design, sew and paint (YES THEY ARE ALL HAND PAINTED WITH FABRIC PAINT)

Honestly doing something like this is scary as AF…cause we all understand and Imagine the lyric differently and this is only my take on it ..it might be totally wrong…BUT I thought that since the boys are in USA now I would show my support as well as how they really do inspire others! (WELP IM OFF FOR A ALL NIGHTER FOR SCHOOL WORK WISH ME LUCK RIP SEE YA )

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Robert Smith once described David Bowie’s Low as the best record ever made. He gushed:

“I bought it on cassette and the same day I went to a garden centre with my mum. I’d ordered it from the local record shop, and Paul, who was in the band, and is my brother-in-law, had dropped it through the letterbox. It’s like one of those weird days. I walked home from school, there was the cassette and we had a cassette player in the car. I went with her to a garden centre, and I listened to ‘Low’ while she went and did whatever mums do in garden centres, and I was like utterly, my whole perception of sound was changed. Just how something could sound completely different, like ‘Breaking Glass’, everything on there in fact, ‘Sound And Vision’, everything on there, everything I heard was astonishing, really astonishing. When I put it on now the sound, dunk dunk, everything is just fucking genius! There are other albums that I love much more, like viscerally much more, like ‘Axis: Bold As Love’, or ‘Five Leaves Left’, albums that I can cry to, but ‘Low’ was the album that had a huge impact on me, just how I saw sound. No other album has done that to me.”

Hiiii tay, my names crystal and I’m 19 years old from Australia 🇦🇺 the top photo is me in 2013 and the bottom one is 2017, you’ve seen me in every possible awkward stage in my life and to allow myself to be whoever I needed to be at the time is something I’ll never be able to thank you enough for! you have absolutely no clue in the world that I exist but I have been absolutely mesmerised and inspired by you for a whole 9 years! Over these 9 years you have been my complete source of strength in a number of ways and just when I’ve thought that there’s no way I could overcome something you’ve given me a reason to!

First of all I’d like to start off with the fact that I am the #1 last kiss stan. That song is by far THE most painful, heartbreaking, hauntingly beautiful song that has ever blessed my ears. Yes I cry EVERY time I listen to it, yes it reminds me of all the love I’ve lost and will lose in the coming years yet everytime I come back to that song and listen to it over and over again! I know it’s strange that a song that makes me so incredibly sad is my absolute favourite but I’ve never had a song that has emotionally impacted me that much and made me feel that much there is no way I could possibly love anything more than that song

Secondly I’ve been around for almost every album release including the last three and I just KNOW this one is completely different. You are much closer to us than you ever have been and it’s the reason I am able to continue each day with a smile on my face, the fact that you love and care about us, AS MUCH as we love and care about you is just so insane? How are you YOU, I’ll never understand or comprehend how we are so lucky and blessed to be on this earth at the same time as you!

Thirdly, 4 years ago you released a song called treacherous that included the lyrics “nothing safe is worth the drive”. Now I wish there were words strong enough to explain what those 6 words have meant and done for me over the last 4 years. I am a person INCREDIBLY scared of change, it makes me anxious and nervous and feel like I’m not in control. Over the past four years I have struggled with change immensely, I’ve graduated high school started university, fallen in love and out and have always fell back on those words to keep me going. Those six words are the reason I wake up every morning and know I’m going to go to sleep at night and do the same thing the next day. They have allowed me to embrace and accept change and to reap all of its rewards. Because of those lyrics I’m able to do things I would never dream of doing out of fear of it not working out. thankyou for those words which I hope one day to personally get on my body (hopefully written by you) that have saved my life in more ways than one

I’ve had the pleasure of being in your presence four times in concert and I hope the feeling I get every single time I’m there is something I can keep experiencing for as long as I possibly can. PLEASE come back to Australia so soon, we miss you immensely

Until we finally meet in person @taylorswift

All my love, crystal 💗

seoksanhwa | kth

summary: may you keep your friends close and your enemies closer. watch your back, keep to the wall. always be ready to attack. do not let your guard down, for it will be the last thing you ever do. the game of love is cruel and treacherous, the obstacles high and the stakes even higher, and the royal family never did play fair. 

{sageuk, joseon, and prince!au}

pairing: taehyung x female reader
word count: 23k
genre: fluff, angst, light smut
warnings: death, smut
a/n: this has been the biggest beast tbh. huGE shoutout to @simplymesimplyodd for beta-ing this and generally being very supportive via text as i screamed about being lazy and not wanting to finish this.

heavily, heavily inspired by halsey’s latest album, hopeless fountain kingdom, and completely fucked over by taehyung and namjoon’s 4 o’clock, which was the worst and best thing to be released while i was in the midst of writing this. i recommend you listen to both while reading this. house of cards and love is not over could do you some good, too.

historical accuracy who? never heard of her.

As the sun gives way to the isolated moon, wading in the sea of the sky, its closest friends bursts of light millions of eons away, a cry sounds from the center of the royal palace. It pierces through the thin wooden walls, reverberating around the courtyard as the eunuchs shiver in fear and the court ladies rush to the door. The grounds are relatively empty, save for the few couplets of servants doing their rounds, tending to the flowers and the trees and the letters and the wells.

Another shriek erupts from that same barren room, much more voluminous than the last. It sends shivers down the spines of the advisors in the throne room. Their foreheads are placed to the wooden floor, resting in a bow as they pray to the heavens.

Pray, pray, pray.

They will not move from that position until they receive word.

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Harry Styles - Harry Styles - A lil review

Meet Me in the Hallway: 2, 3, 4… Love the soft, strumming guitar and Harry’s longing and haunting vocals. Just the way his voice breaks on the word “hallway”… So helpless-sounding and heartfelt. Ugh. Love that as the song nears its end, the instruments are stripped away one by one, and in the end there’s just one guitar and Harry’s voice, and then there’s just Harry’s voice holding that last note. Damn good, and a very clever choice. This song could last an hour long and I still would have to press “replay” over and over again.

Stand-out lyrics: “We don’t talk about it, it’s something we don’t do. ‘Cause once you do without it, nothing else will do.”

“Hoping you’ll come around, just let me know, I’ll be on the floor.”

Sign of the Times: Full-on-flush. I’ve talked about my love for this song many a time since it came out, so I’m moving on. (But I think it’s absolutely gorgeous and one of my faves.) 

Carolina: This song feels so old-school and cool. I was immediately struck by that thick bass throughout this song, LOVE it. Love the falsetto parts. Love the oh-yeah parts. Mayyyybe my least fave song on the album, but it’s still SOLID.

Stand-out lyric: “There’s not a drink that could sink her, how would I tell her that she’s all I think about? Well I guess she just found out”

Two Ghosts: Right away, the melody and harmonies… so lush. The acoustic guitar is so lovely, and I love the tone of the electric guitar on top - it almost sounds like it’s crying. This song gives me CNSY and Ryan Adams vibes, which I love, like it just breathes and moves in a really similar and nice way. Cool lil detail: The way he enunciates the ‘t’ in heartbeat at the end.

Stand-out lyric: “We’re just two ghosts swimming in a glass half empty. Trying to remember how it feels to have a heartbeat.”

Sweet Creature: A little Beatles-esque gem of a tune. This is such a soothing and flowy song, and his vocals match the tone perfectly. It’s warm-sounding and simple, and I love that he’s left a little air in this one. It feels organic and just sweeeet. And I love sweet.

Stand-out lyrics: “I always think about you and how we don’t speak enough. “
“Running through the garden, where nothing bothered us.”

Only Angel: Love the calming opening, which drags you into this really eerie and calming musical landscape. You’re ready to set up camp and hang out for a bit, and then Harry’s scream just rips you the fuck out of it. WAY to start a song, haha. Heavy guitar, the screams, the clapping, the background vocals, love it all. Such a colorful song. It’s red and blue at the same time. Tall and short at the same time. It’s pulsing, the beat is sick and his deep timbre gives me shivers..

Stand-out lyrics: “Couldn’t take you home to mother in a skirt that short, but I think that’s what I like about it.” 

“Broke a finger knocking on your bedroom door.”

“I must admit I thought about making you mine.”

Kiwi: I’m so here for these drums, and heavy guitars!! GOD. The attitude he has on this song?? It’s like he’s grabbing you by the collar, bringing you close and going “Nope, it’s just you and me”… *fans self* It’s edgy and very 70′s Brit rock, he’s belting out those notes with fierceness.
Love the “ding” after he sings “I’m gonna pay for it”, those little details are so cool and add so much to the complexity imo. And the gritty guitar solo is tasty as hell. You know when the shower is almost too hot to take? That sweet-spot, that’s what this song feels like.

Stand-out lyrics: “And now she’s all over me, it’s like I paid for it, I’m gonna pay for this.”
“I think she said ‘I’m having your baby, it’s none of your business.’”

Ever Since New York: So magical and soft. A big contrast after Kiwi, but fitting as the album cools down again. Love the drumming, there’s so much going on in this song. It’s intricate and subtle. Love that he matches his vocals to the tone and the sentiment of each track. With this song, he never tries too hard. He’s just singing like it’s the most effortless thing for him. And the stacked vocals on the chorus is a beautiful touch. Loved when he changed up the notes on this on SNL, and I wish he’d done that on the recorded version as well, but that’s a small complaint. 

Stand-out lyrics: “Choose your words, ‘cause there’s no antidote.”
“I understand I’m talking to the walls.”

Woman: Love this. His vocals are just stunning, (AGAIN) just the way he drags out the word “know” in that first line -AH! This song is so funky, so dope. It’s simple, but hella catchy. With this song, I feel like everything comes together. Like the lyrical idea feels good and goes perfectly with the sonic recording which goes great with the melody and groove. And the background vocals that start around 3:03 adds a really alluring element to the song.

Stand-out lyric: “I hope you can see the shape that I am in. While he’s touching your skin, he’s right where I should be”.

From the Dining Table: From the second you hear his lips part in this, you’re drawn in. He’s singing in a conversational way, which makes it sound really earnest and vulnerable. And that moment when the strings entered floored me the first time I heard it, it was so unexpected. A beautiful explosion of sounds. To me, this song feels like this scenario: It’s raining. You’re in bed, half asleep, there’s a candle about to smoke out, and it’s making the dozens of shadows in the room dance around..

Stand-out lyrics: “Comfortable silence is so overrated. Why won’t you ever say what you want to say.”
“Maybe one day you’ll call me and tell me that you’re sorry too,”

That last one just hit you right in the gut, because it feels so damn authentic and sincere, and that’s something that runs through the whole album imo. It feels exactly like what he should be doing. It’s so him. It never feels contrived or fake. There’s so much heart in it and you can tell that there’s a lot of hard work behind it. There’s not one stand-out weak song, I start playing the first song and I just let it run until it’s done, and that’s rare for me. So THANK YOU more than I could ever explain, Harry. I’m obsessed with this record and I needed it. ❤️ 

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Where were you when I was burned and broken
While the days slipped by from my window watching
Where were you when I was hurt and helpless

I’m gonna personally fight every person who hated on Folie a Deux and made Patrick associate it with bad memories, that album was incredible smh

Preference #4: He Comes Home Angry (Ashton)

The sound of the door slamming shut echoed throughout the house, making you jump. You moved the finished pasta off the stove, took off your apron and made your way into the lounge, where you saw almost exactly what you had expected.
Ash sat on the sofa, his knee jiggling up and down, his face buried into his hands out of pure frustration.
“I’m so sorry, baby,” you sighed, making your way over, sitting beside him, and beginning to attentively and tenderly stroke his hair.
You weren’t surprised he was in this state. In all honesty, you had been expecting it.
To say Ashton was upset was an understatement. He was devastated. He wasn’t necessarily angry at the fans for listening to it - he understood that they were excited, and had been waiting for a long time. He was also only mildly upset with the fans who decided to spread the links.

It was more the fact of all the work he had put in to the album, and it felt as though it had all been thrown in his face. He felt as though nobody understood all the effort and emotional energy that went into making something that meant so much to him.

Yes, he understood it was only two snippets. He understood it could have been a lot worse - an entire draft of a song that was nearly finished, for example. Yes, himself and the other boys often joked about leaking the album, and initially that’s what he thought it was. After all, it was only two extremely short demos. But when he saw the look on his brothers’ faces, filled with disappointment, he knew it must have been someone else.

The gentle touch of your fingers startled him, bringing him out of his thoughts. His fists clenched ever so slightly, in absolute vexation.

“Don’t touch me,” he growled almost inaudibly, the words rumbling in his throat.

“What did you say, Ash?” you asked gently, having completely missed what he said.

He stood quickly, and moved away from you.

“I… Um, I just want to be here for you? I can give you space if that’s what you’d… like, prefer,” you mumbled sheepishly, feeling absolutely perplexed at the way he was behaving towards you.

“I know it was you who leaked the demos,” he accused, looking at you with fire in his eyes.

You were completely taken aback.

“Of course I didn’t, Ash! Why the hell do you think I’d ever even think of doing that?” you tried to defend yourself, but it seemed hopeless to you. For some obscure, unknown reason, Ashton seemed set on delegating the blame to you.

“Oh, please,” he scoffed, rolling his eyes at your words. “You’re the only one who was given them! Do you really think anyone who worked and put all that time and effort into them would ever even dream of doing that?”

You bit your lip, feeling anger beginning to bubble away inside you. You took a moment to compose yourself; the last thing you wanted was for this to escalate.

“And do you honestly think I’d do something so disrespectful to the man I’m in love with? Something that I knew would hurt you?” you shot back. It sounded pathetic, but a part of you already wanted to cry at the thought of Ashton thinking so lowly of you.

“I never thought you would, but it looks like you have,” he challenged. The look of resentment replacing the look of sheer, unadulterated love he usually had made your heart feel heavy.

What could you do to make him see sense? Yes, you had heard the demos, but you would never do something like that to him. Not when you knew how much this new album meant to him and the guys.

“Ash, no… I swear, the last thing I’d ever want is to hurt you. I love you, you know that… please believe me,” you pleaded with him.

“Y'know, I don’t think this is gonna work between us. I trusted you, more than anyone else I’d ever met. I just need space,” he enunciated, trying and failing at keeping his voice steady and void of emotions.

You watched him slip his feet into his shoes and shrug his jacket back over his shoulders. The tears building in your eyes made your vision blurry.

“Baby, please, don’t leave me. Please. I would never lie to you! You know that… Please don’t do this,” you whimpered, reaching out to touch him, desperate to keep him close to you. But even though he was so close to you physically, he felt more than a million miles out of your reach.

Your fingertips just managed to skim over the side of his cheek, and he flinched away from you, once again. His face was damp with tears of his own.

Without a further glance in your direction, he walked out of the door, letting it close with a slam similar to the one he entered with; except this felt so much more poignant. It felt final.

You broke into sobs, wanting nothing more than to hold him close to you, to have him believe you, to have him tell you that he loved you.

Having completely lost your appetite, you threw the stone-cold pasta into the bin beside you, and dragged yourself up the stairs to your bedroom. You looked at the king size bed, seeing a few of Ash’s recently worn shirts laying there. Without a second thought, you slipped out of your own clothes and straight into one, craving his presence, wanting him near you in any way possible. You brought the fabric up to your tear stained face and inhaled his scent, numbing the sharp pains in your heart if only slightly.

Not even thinking of going through your normal nighttime routine, you slid between the sheets of the bed, curling up on his side of the bed, cuddling the duvet closer to you.

*******

Your eyes opened slowly, the dried tears on your face making your eyelashes tick together ever so slightly. Ash hovered above you, carefully guiding a make-up remover wipe along your face.

He looked at you with an expression of pure guilt.

“I’m sorry, baby. I know it wasn’t you. I do trust you. I was just… upset, and that’s no excuse, I know. Please forgive me. I love you so much,” he whispered, a few tears spilling out from his eyes.

You threaded your hands delicately into his hair, feeling a sense of calm in the way he nuzzled closer to your touch instead of recoiling from you.

“I know. Let me be there for you, Ash,” you mumbled, your eyes flickering across every feature of his face. He nodded, pressing a chaste, tender kiss to your lips.

“I’m so sorry, love,” he croaked, voice cracking with emotion he had been depriving himself of feeling earlier.

“Kiss me,” you murmured into the dimly lit room, your gaze now fixed firmly on his hazel eyes. You rubbed your thumb soothingly across his blotchy cheek, guiding him towards your lips.

Ash leaned forwards, pressing his lips to yours, letting out a hushed moan at being close to you again. You whimpered into the kiss, wrapping your legs around his waist, tightening your grip in his hair, as his hands began to trail along your body. The kiss became ever more desperate, and even as you pulled apart to gasp for air, he pressed his forehead to yours, starting intensely into your eyes.

“It’s been so long since I’ve felt this close to you, love,” he breathed. “I’m sorry we’ve not been spending much time together lately. I’ve just been so busy… won’t happen again, baby…” and within an instant his lips were back on yours, his hands moving further south to grip your ass gently, never losing the sense of urgency between the pair of you.

“I love you,” you gasped into his mouth between kisses.

Ash didn’t respond, but you felt his smile against your skin.

The pair of you would be just fine.

——-

AN: lmao oops this almost turned into smut, hope you enjoyed this one!

send some requests… y'know. if you’ve got any.

Lana Del Rey — Ultraviolence Album  {Sentence Starters}

  • “I’m a sad girl.”
  • “Is this happiness?“
  • “What I do, I do best.“
  • “I’m pretty when I cry.”
  • “But you are invincible.”
  • “I don’t know what I need.”
  • “You’re a hard man to love.”
  • “I could have died right there.”
  • “Are you gonna hurt me, now?“
  • “But you were worth it, anyway.”
  • “And we were young and pretty.“
  • “I want money, power and glory.”
  • “Maybe you should play it safer.”
  • “You like to rage… don’t do that.”
  • “You leave and you leave, again.“
  • “You believe me, don’t you, baby?”
  • “The power of youth is on my mind.”
  • “It’s such a change from old routine.”
  • “It might not appeal to fools like you.“
  • “I wanna take you for all that you got.”
  • “They say I’m too young to love you…”
  • “And if you don’t like it, you can beat it.”
  • “I can do it if you really, really like that.”
  • “Don’t even know what you’re good for.“
  • “And if you call for me, you know I’ll run.”
  • “You make me feel like your whole world.“
  • “I’m gonna take them for all that they got.”
  • “That’s all over, now. Did what I had to do.”
  • “All the pretty stars shine for you, my love.“
  • “But I can’t fix him… can’t make him better.”
  • “Need you, baby, more, more, more, more.“
  • “But if you send for me, you know I’ll come.”
  • “Where have you been? Where did you go?“
  • “Tell me something… like I’m your favorite girl.”
  • “I fucked my way up to the top. This is my show.”
  • “Yet still inside I felt alone, for reasons unknown to me.”
  • “Watch what you say to me, careful who you’re talking to.”
  • “But that’s not what this bitch wants… not what I want at all.”
  • “I guess that no one ever, really made me feel that much higher.”
  • “Creeping around on the side might not be something you would do.”
  • “How are we supposed to get there with the way that we’re living today?”
  • “My father’s love was always strong, my mother’s glamour lives on and on.”
G Eazy Imagine

A/N: Hey! Sorry for being MIA if you’ve noticed at all but I’m back so sorry for such a long wait. Please know I take requests for anybody! Enjoy :) 

Request:  Hey, imagine request! I really like the one you just did with G-Eazy. Can you maybe do a part 2 of that one, and maybe some other ones maybe involving you getting into a car accident while pregnant or some other stuff like that? Thanks!

Synopsis: Gerald and you go out to dinner but you don’t quite make it to the restaurant.

Warnings: Blood, swearing, and mentions of injuries

Originally posted by allmusicvideogifs

Your POV

I put the little test down on the counter and walk away from it as fast as I could like it was some explosive that was going to go off. In some ways it was, the 3 minutes would be up and I wasn’t sure how it would go. G was in the studio working as hard as ever, that was no surprise to me by now. He was trying to put out another album for the fans so he was barely at home but you didn’t mind. I had work and other things to do even though at times I did grow frustrated with it but it is what it is. 

The timer goes off in the bathroom, the ringing filling the air in the silent house. Frozen in my feet I tell my legs to move but they don’t budge. Taking deep breaths I walk back into the bathroom and pick up the little pregnancy test, just rip off the band aid. 

Pregnant. 

I’m in shock. We had been so careful, this wasn’t the right time. Gerald was about to put out another album and go on tour. He didn’t want kids right now, what do I do. How far along am I? I immediately call a doctor to schedule an appointment and thankfully they can get me in the same day. I go to put my shoes on when my phones starts ringing and I see G’s face appear on the screen. 

“Hey baby! I have a great news! We finished the album so the guys at the studio are hosting some dinner tonight at that place downtown we’ve been wanting to go to.” Pride is all that could be felt. 

“That is amazing babe! What time are you going to be home at?” I ask nervously and quickly stash the test away so he wouldn’t find it. 

“Probably around 7, I’ll come home change and we’ll go. Oh babe I got to go I’ll text you bye!” He hangs up before I can put in another word. So much for telling him today, but I suppose I wasn’t ready to tell him anyways. I get in my car and drive to the doctors office. As I sit in the waiting room I anxiously bounce my leg up and down, clutching onto my purse. Maybe the test was wrong? That’s happened to people before. 

“Y/F/N Y/L/N.” Somebody calls and I quickly follow her to a back room. I undress and wait anxiously. I had never been so quiet in my life. The doctor reassures me that everything is fine, even though that doesn’t relieve any of my stress and performs some tests and brings out and ultrasound. 

“Well, you are definietly pregnant! Now let’s just see how far along,” The doctor glides the machine across my stomach. I watch the machine and thats when I see that something was there, a baby was there. 

“Wow! You are about 3 months pregnant!” The doctor smiles at me and I was in shock before but this was all new. 

“H-How? How did I not know?!” I question and she handsme some paper towels to wipe my stomach with. 

“Everybody is different, there are some signs but not every pregnancy is the same. Some don’t show as much as others. The baby is healthy but just make sure you start taking supplements we don’t want to have any trouble with the baby to come. Again, congratulations.” The doctor leaves and I sit by myself and start to cry. How did I not know? I could have done something to it and not have known. 

“I’m so sorry.” I touch my stomach. I would love and care for this baby no matter what, I would do anything in my power for this child. 



I go back home and wait until around 6 to start getting ready. How was I going to tell him that I was pregnant with his child? I wasn’t sure but tonight was about Gerald’s album. “Babe! I’m home, where are you?” I freeze but quickly come back to answer his question. “I’m in the bathroom upstairs!” I yell and I could hear his large footsteps climbing the stairs.

Suddenly his large fram peaks around the corner into the bathroom as I finish putting on some lipstick. 

“Damn baby, look at you!” Gerald takes a step back and admires everything about me.

“I’m one lucky man.” He whispers in my ear, now standing behind me. His hands wrap around my hips but I quickly break the contact and walk away. 

“Well! We should get going are you ready?” I ask and he seems to be a bit taken back but doesn’t say anything. 

“Yeah, let’s go. Just going to change real quick.” G says and I nod making my way downstairs. 

I was making this obvious that something was wrong, out of the normal. Well, something was out of the normal. I had been carrying a baby for a while and had no idea. I shake the thought out of my head as Gerald walks down the stairs. 

“Got everything?” He asks and I nod. We get into his car, it was one of my favorites. I knew Gerald loved this car, he would go 100 mph on the freeway in it, and that felt slow to him. To no surprise we get on the freeway and he’s passing every car. I try not to say anything but my anxiety only hightens and I knew that stress wasn’t the best for the new found baby. We pulled off and went into the city but he kept his speed up.

“Gerald, you need to slow down. You can’t drive like that anymore!” I shout and he turns to look at me and clenches his jaw. The street lamps light up the dark night as well as the car so I catch glimpses of how tense he was.

“What’s your fucking problem Y/N? You’ve been moody since I got home. Do you not want to go? Are you not happy for me?” Gerald clenches the steering wheel and doesn’t slow down. 

“Gerald it’s a red light!” I yell and all the sudden a truck honks and I turn to look out my window to see it coming right towards me. 


I open my eyes to feel shooting pains everywhere in my body, it radiated from my head to my toes. The hiss of the engine smoke could be heard as well as other peoples voices but I couldn’t think clearly. 

“Y/N? Y/N! Are you okay?!” I can hear G’s voice but I can’t look at him it would hurt too much to turn to him. 

“B-Baby, b-baby.” I mutter as I grip my stomach, my baby. What about my baby? 

“I’m right here. It’s me Y/N, I’m right here.” Gerald reassures thinking I was calling for him. Sirens filled my ears and within minutes we are pulled from the car and in an ambulance. I could see that Gerald had cut his head and it was bleeding but the paramedics managed to bandage him. 

“You are going to be alright. We just think you have a concussion.” A paramedic says and I nod which gives me a slight pain. 

“M-My baby, I’m pregnant. I need to know, is my baby okay?” I ask not thinking about Gerald but the paramedic looks at me confused and shocked. He then looks to Gerald who shares the same expression. 

“We are almost to the hospital they’ll check you out there okay? You and your baby will be taken care of.” I smile but a tear slips from my eye, this isn’t how I wanted to tell Gerald. He wouldn’t even look at me, I watched his every move until we got to the hospital. 

Within a couple of hours they had checked my baby and me and everything was okay. I had a slight concussion and was a bit dehydrated. I sat at the end of the bed waiting for my discharge papers. Gerald paced the room for a while before finally settling down in a chair. He kept his face in his hands but a deep sigh could be heard from every now and then. 

“Gera-” I whisper but her quickly interupts. 

“Y/N, not right now.” He says sternly and I decide that it wasn’t in his right to be pissy. 

“Gerald, you listen to me. I didn’t know until today, so don’t go thinking I was holding out on you with this. Tonight was about you, I wanted it to be about you G! You’ve worked so hard you deserved to have a night that was focused on that. I was going to tell you, and I’m keeping the baby.” I say and he looks up at me. 

“Whether you be there and raise the kid with me is your choice but you can’t change my mind.” My tone is stern with him now as I was serious. 

“Y/N.” Geralds voice cracks which catches me by surprise. He got up from the chair and came over to where I was grabbing either sides of my face. 

“I’m sorry I put you through this, both of you.” Gerald glances down at my stomach and up to meet my eyes. 

“I love you, and I love this baby. We are in this together babe. You and this baby are the best things to happen to me in a long time, okay? I love you Y/N.” With that Gerald kisses me.

“We are a family.” 

ross,,,,got engaged in a fucking ice cream shop??? that’s the most ross thing he could ever do

I can relate to American Idiot in a personal manner so much that for me it is impossible not to love this album. The stories, the characters, the emotions and the feelings, they are so overwhelming and so vividly captured. I hear my own dreams and demons in it and there’s even more to that. I could talk for hours and hours about how I love this great album yet at the same time I feel like I cannot even find a single word to describe what I feel. It makes me wanna laugh and cry and shout and meditate all at once. It shapes me, it changes me. Even though rationally I am well aware that not every person, not every one who love or has ever loved Green Day, has to love American Idiot, still sensationally I’m like, “How could anyone not love American Idiot?

Thank you for helping me fall in love with music. Thank you for letting me have a relationship with my parents when I was younger. Thank you for giving my father and I a conversation when he couldn’t stand to look at me. Thank you for helping me find myself, for helping me feel less alone no matter what. No matter how much my music taste changed throughout the years, I could always turn back to you and the band. You always understood how I felt, and I understood you. I wish I could say I still did in the end. I wish we saw warning signs I wish someone could have helped you.
I can remember when I was super little, as young as 3, my dad would put the Hybrid Theory CD on in the car when it was just us and we would sing along, and we kept that up until he left. He was the first person I contacted when I heard about your death. I think LP was the only thing my parents actually both had a common love for besides their own kids.
I hope your kids are okay. You’re not my dad, but the band as a whole played a huge role on raising me from elementary school to now. You taught me right from wrong and helped keep me going. I’m not that same band obsessed kid from middle school anymore, but my love for you and LP never left, I guess I was born with it. Call it genetics.
I don’t know what to say right now, I don’t know how to thank you. I’m sitting in my room listening to your old albums. I’m crying for the first time since fathers’ day.
I’m just very sad. I wish there was something I could have done. Thank you for pulling me out of depression and self harm and thoughts of suicide. Thank you for being huge part of my life, and thank you in advance for continuing to be there through your music.
I really can’t thank you enough.
“You can’t be afraid of people willing to hurt you, cause if you fear life, then you will never live.

-Chester Bennington (1976-2017)
Rest Easy.

My Life In 13 Random Songs

I’m taking a break from our usual programming to answer some questions courtesy of @positivedisplacement (via @chaunceyandchumleysdad), but I’m going to bend the rules just a bit. Instead of putting my music collection on shuffle and answering each question based on the song that pops up, I’m going to cheat and answer based on songs from my record collection. It’s not quite as random, but I hope you enjoy the list below just as much.

1. This song describes your personality: “Helplessness Blues” by Fleet Foxes. I’m still trying to figure it all out, but if I don’t, I wouldn’t mind working at an orchard, either.

2. This song describes what you want/wish from your life: “Good Vibrations” by the Beach Boys. The title says it all.

3. This song describes how other people perceive you: “Buddy Holly” by Weezer. People say I do kind of look like Buddy Holly. And I’m always losing my shoe.

4. This song describes the love of your life: “True Love Waits” by Radiohead. She’s very patient with me.

5. This song describes your life at the moment: “Once in a Lifetime” by Talking Heads. How did I get here?

6. This song to make love to: “Adore” by Prince. Or any Prince song, really.

7. This song to dance your heart out: “Modern Love” by David Bowie. I mean it’s the first song off an album called Let’s Dance so how could this not be the right answer.

8. The song that will make you cry: “Two-Headed Boy, Part Two” by Neutral Milk Hotel. Such a sad song made even sadder when you hear Jeff put his guitar down when he gets up to leave at the end and knowing we may never hear another new NHM song again.

9. The song about your future: “Can’t Hardly Wait” by the Replacements. I can’t wait. Hardly wait.

10. The last song you will ever hear in your life: “In the Aeroplane Over the Sea” by Neutral Milk Hotel. Double dipping in the NMH well, but how strange it is to be anything at all, indeed.

11. This song describes your next life: “I’ll Believe in Anything” by Wolf Parade. Hopefully it’ll be a place where nobody knows me and nobody gives a damn.

12. The song that makes you feel better: “Stuck Between Stations” by the Hold Steady. Craig Finn always makes me feel better, and this is one of their best.

13. You end up listening to just one song for the rest of your life: “Sound and Vision” by David Bowie. It’s gotta be Bowie, and it’s gotta be his finest.

Let me know what you think of the list!

And tagging some more vinyl friends to join in on the fun, too (if you want!): @ihavelistenedto @reviewthistune @secretsharklover @mikeelikesmusic @flipbin @recordhoarder @ohgodamibored @vinylsocialclub @melvinomusic @mshiphop @thevinylhours @fixedantlers

I’ll Make This Feel Like Home

i saw this post and just had to write something. enjoy some soft kleinsen and a ridiculous amount of one direction references. by @neglectedrainbow. AO3 Link.

Evan is sitting on Jared’s bed, watching as the lights outside his window dim. What isn’t lessening, though, is the sheer amount of noise that’s clattering around the room. Jared’s mother has left to attend some sort of late business dinner, and Jared’s sister has left to attend a sleepover, leaving the two boys alone in the Kleinman household. Jared has apparently taken this opportunity of solitude to begin blasting music as loud as he possibly can.

Considering that his only speaker is a laptop, Evan’s rather impressed at the immense volume of it all. Most of the noise, he thinks, isn’t actually from the speakers, but rather from Jared himself.

He’s hopping around the room, glasses askew, dressed in his dark blue flannel pajamas. He pauses, for a moment, throwing his head back, whipping his hair about, yelling with a clear finality, “And that’s what makes you beautiful!” The music dims, only to begin again, a new song now, moments later.

Jared’s smiling like a maniac, the little gap in his front teeth on full display. Evan can’t help but grin back at him, his heart filling with fondness as Jared begins to sing again. “I’ve tried playing it cool, but when I’m looking at you,” he points at Evan and begins to hop from side to side, “I can’t ever be brave, ‘cause you make my heart race.”

He reaches out to Evan, snatching his hand and pulling him to his feet. “So! Get out, get out, get out of my head, and fall into my arms instead! I don’t, I don’t, don’t know what it is, but you got that one thing!”

Jared wraps his arms around his boyfriend’s neck, still swaying to the beat, his hot skin like a burning furnace against Evan’s. Jared repeats the chorus, still singing slightly too loudly to be strictly considered polite, but Evan doesn’t mind. “So! Get out, get out, get out of my head, and fall into my arms instead!”

Evan smiles, brushing his nose against Jared’s for a moment, “I’m already in your arms, you goof.”

The other boy pulls back, cackling out a loud laugh, “Wow, Evan, I didn’t know you could be so smooth.” His eyes glimmer behind layers upon layers of affection.

The song ends. Jared dives over to the computer, scrolling to choose another song. “Hmm…” He turns to Evan, “Any preferences? Which album?”

Evan pauses for a moment, before deciding, “The last one, please.”

“Hey!” Jared huffs, frowning. “It’s not ‘the last one’; it’s the most recent one. ‘Cause they’re coming back. I don’t know when, I don’t know where, but it’s happening.”

Evan holds up his hands in mock surrender.

Jared rolls his eyes jokily, “Connor’s always talking about how revolutionary Four is. Which, of course, I totally agree with, I’m just more of a Take Me Home guy myself. Or Up All Night, because let’s be honest, that album is jam after jam after jam. And Zoe’s always talking about her love of Midnight Memories, but you… You and Alana, I knew you two would like Made in the A.M. the most.” He smiles, “And, of course, anytime ‘If I Could Fly’ plays, you get all teary.”

“It’s a beautiful song,” Evan replies, in his defense. He pauses. “Who wrote that one again?”

“Harry.”

“That’s the one with the new album, right? In the pink bathtub?”

Jared nods, finally locating the song. “Exactly.”

Evan distinctly remembers Jared forcing him to stay up for the midnight release of that album. And Jared pretending not to cry the entire time. And, so, okay, Evan got a little teary too, because seeing Jared emotional makes him emotional. And, also, to be completely honest, Evan is kind of obsessed with “Sign of the Times”.

The speakers croon, “If I could fly, I’d be coming right back home to you. I think I might give up everything, just ask me to.”

Jared stands up, reaching out, his fingertips brushing lightly over the back of Evan’s hand. Evan moves forward, bending down slightly to be level with his boyfriend, resting his hands on Jared’s plush hips. They sway lightly, sweet harmonies filling the air. Jared whispers the lyrics into Evan’s ear, his voice low and rich. “Pay attention, I hope that you listen, ‘cause I let my guard down. Right now I’m completely defenseless… For you eyes only, I show you my heart. For when you’re lonely, and forget who you are…”

Evan presses closer, his head on Jared’s shoulder, finishing the lyric, “I’m missing half of me, when we’re apart. Now you know me, for your eyes only…”

The other boy grins, “You do know the words!”

Evan nods, and Jared pulls back, excitement brilliant across his face. “Yes! My plan! It’s worked!” He raises a single eyebrow, his expression forming into one of great seriousness. “So, now that you’re officially a One Direction fanatic, who’s your favorite member? I know you’re not supposed to have a favorite, but…”

Evan’s smiling again, too, grinning at his ridiculous boyfriend. “I don’t know enough about them to have a favorite yet.”

Jared looks affronted for a solid ten seconds. “We’re gonna have to fix that ASAP.” His expression softens, “Your favorite is gonna be…Harry. Or Niall. Or 2012 Liam. I’m more of a Louis guy myself, but Harry’s the right kind of spunky for you, and Niall’s just so…Niall.”

He starts bouncing with excitement again, and Evan’s heart stutters, filling up with endearment. “Connor’s favorite is Zayn. I think he skipped school the day he left, was just so devastated. I mean, he always skips school anyway, but that was like… You know…” Evan doesn’t, not really, but he nods along sympathetically.

Suddenly, a new chord erupts through the speakers, a new song beginning, making them both jump in surprise. Jared pumps a fist in the air. “Evan! Evan! It’s our song! Evan, this is literally our song.” He pulls Evan in again, and they begin to dance.

Evan’s coordination is frankly nonexistent, so it’s a bit of a disaster, the dancing, but they manage to push through it. Jared doesn’t even flinch when Evan steps on his toes anymore, and Evan’s stopped apologize twenty-seven times every time it happens.

At least they know how to keep a steady rhythm and follow a beat, he supposes.

Jared places one hand on the back of his boyfriend’s head, threading his fingers lightly through Evan’s hair, singing. “I was stumbling, looking in the dark. With an empty heart. But you say you feel the same… Could we ever be enough? Baby, we could be enough.”

Evan swallows, watching the overhead light flicker shadows across Jared’s face, taking in the depth of his eyes. They’re a light teal, soothing like the ocean, with one section of deep brown, glimmering like a stain glass window.

Jared leans in, his breath warm on Evan’s skin.

They’re so close.

It’s good. It’s all so good.

“And it’s alright,” he whispers, tightening his hands on Evan’s waist. “Calling out for somebody to hold tonight. When you’re lost, I’ll find the way, I’ll be your light.” He glances up, their gazes connecting. “You’ll never feel like you’re alone… I’ll make this feel like home.”

Evan kisses him, then, his hands on Jared’s hips, standing in the middle of Jared’s room, warm light shining over their embrace.

The sun sets softly outside the window.

so deh just ended and honestly,, it was like the best thing i’ve ever seen tbh,, so i just wanted to put together some things i loved about it!!

-first off, some people were upset that ben platt couldn’t be here suddenly (vocal rest) and that instead it was going to be colton ryan, and honestly?? he was amazing??? like w o w

-colton portrayed evan perfectly, like he would do this thing where he would just shake his hand?? it looked like a spasm and it was just,,, so believable? and not to mention his voice filled up the entire theatre like i got chills every time he hit a high note he was sososososo good

-there was so much emotion poured into the second act, and rachel bay jones was just amazing?? like you just wanted to give her a hug

-will roland was fantastic like you could basically feel his energy,, like honestly i love him and jared so much,, also jared is made out to be a self centered jerk at the beginning but during good for you he just blows up with all these pent up feelings and it just gives him so much depth

-actually seeing deh gave so much more depth to connor too than what you hear in the album?? like you can see that he was actually trying to make up with evan in the only way he could ((signing his cast))

-alana?? is so pure??? she’s so upbeat and independent and i love her

-words fail made me cry so hard, especially with cynthia murphy crying in the background,, you can see how devastated the family is and it broke my heart

-THE TECH AND THE LIGHTS WERE SO BEAUTIFUL???? I WAS ALMOST IN TEARS AAAAAAAAAAAA

-evan’s speech made me so scared for him, you could see how uncomfortable and scared he was, and the silence after he dropped his cards was almost deafening

-lastly Z O E M U R P H Y,, laura dreyfuss’ voice was so beautiful like i’m still in awe,,, the line “you were not the monster that i knew” during requiem was sO LOUD AND EMOTIONAL AND I CRIED RIGHT THERE

in conclusion, alana is a sweetheart, connor and jared have depth, AND COLTON RYAN IS AMAZING GUYS