i love them to the end and back

trash-sicle  asked:

Thomas gets trans!Alex the fancy patterned binders for holidays and his birthday. So he has like dragon scales or galaxy or forest or whatever he likes. He always says Thomas doesn't need to spend all that money on him but secretly he looks forwards to each new binder.

?!?!!?!? THERE ARE FANCY PATTERNED BINDERS?! why didn’t I know this? :0!!! But yes Thomas loves spoiling Alex and he’s so grateful but “Thomas you really don’t have to, let me get you things” and Thomas is so quick with “NO u are my prince sh let me make you happy”. Alex of course is so so thankful but ends up spoiling Thomas back with whatever he wants. Just let them have a relationship that’s healthy and good

back in mid-march, i was ready for the b’s to miss the playoffs for the third year in a row. less than 48 hours ago, i was ready to watch the last game of the season. they’ve defeated my expectations so many times and at the end of the day, i will always love them with all my heart. here’s to an even better 2017-18 season

anonymous asked:

Why do you think coldwave is super canon plausible? Sorry if you answered this a long time ago.

The fact that they’re interpersonally compatible is a given by them being friends since Len was 14, and having worked closely together off and on likely for the majority of their adult lives, even if it wasn’t all them working together for years straight or anything.

They love each other, we know that. Len in Legends S1 (I’m ignoring that Aruba bullshit) would lay down his life for Mick, and in fact did at the end of S1. Mick followed Len on this journey in the first place and I personally believe part of why he came back around after Len died was to honor Len’s memory and sacrifice, and because he was inspired by Len.

And though they’re often at odds, pulling their guns on each other, they have a natural ebb and flow. They understand each other. They have secret codes and a very deep shared understanding and intuition for one another on a job and in almost any space. They literally move in sync in the first few episodes of Legends. They communicate a lot without words and trust each other pretty implicitly, which is why betrayals outside their norm feel so heavy to each of them when they occur. 

And then there’s this:

Originally posted by coldtomyflash

They’re partners. That’s love. And I’m not against reading it as platonic love, but I can see quite easily how it could be them in love, in their own way.

Honestly, the only live-action remake I want from Disney is The Hunchback of Notre Dame. I need them to take that stage adaptation and adapt it to film - sad ending and all. I need it to not cater to families. I need them to create a sweeping musical epic. I love the animated feature because of how grand and over-the-top the animation is and how sweeping the score is, but it suffers in how it tries to appeal to families. Hunchback isn’t a story that should be held back in that way. Don’t hold that story back - make it a PG-13 film with the most beautiful scenery and imagery with complex characters, and use Alan Menken and Stephen Schwartz’s score.

Like, the finale would be UNREAL if adapted to film. Quasimodo yelling “Sanctuary”, the citizens attacking the guards (”HEAR MEEEEE PEOPLE OF PARISSSSSS”), Quasimodo pouring lava from the towers (”COME ALL YOU SAINTS OF STONE”), Esmeralda’s quiet death, Quasimodo throwing Frollo off the side of Notre Dame. God, it would be EVERYTHING.

Not to mention, the songs that were added for the stage adaptation of Hunchback are realllllyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy good. Also, we’d get to pretend like “A Guy Like You” doesn’t exist which I already do so it’s chill. Not to even mention how beautiful and grand Notre Dame would look. “God Help the Outcasts” would be cinematically brilliant and subtle. “Out There” would be sweeping. “Topsy Turvy” would be very fun. “MADE OF STONE” WOULD BE SO GOOD. It would be perfect. Also, release it at the right time, and the entire piece could easily be an Oscars-contender.

In conclusion, Disney needs to greenlight a live-action Hunchback adaptation because it has the potential to be the most beautiful cinematic masterpiece they’ve released in years. Also, I want it real bad.

anonymous asked:

Even though as a viewer I know ezria will be endgame I still don't think Hanna should have been telling Aria to go ahead with the wedding planning at that time Aria really hadn't had any real serious conversation with Ezra to find out what was going on with them as a couple now that Nicole is back and I think Hanna probably should have said something maybe about talking to him first I still love Hanna but that was bad advice she gave Aria

I totally agree. I think she was just trying to be supportive and I get that but she seemed to kind of take control even though she truly has no grasp on the situation that Aria and Ezra are actually in. And the line about how Aria should trust Hanna because she’s been engaged herself, like, uhm. Hanna. Your engagement ended terribly and you kind of treated Jordan like crap lol like you’re not in a position to give advice about engagements, Hanna

anonymous asked:

Oh can I get tfa autobots+blitzwing (like the main autobot guys ) like headcanons/react to there bot s/o backing slightly secretive and disappearing into there for nearly days and one night they here the bot talking to someone in a hushed voice and when they burst in, it turns out there bot!s/o was hiding a mama cat and her tiny kittens (sorry my cat just had a kitten and there on my brain and I hope that's not too many characters )

I love tiny baby animals and get really excited to see them. I would probably do this.

Optimus Prime:

He’s ok with you having your privacy but disappearing for days on end seems suspicious.

Optimus doesn’t want to make assumptions but he can be sure.

Keeping this to himself he watches over you when you return the base for any other suspicious activity.

He heard you talk behind a closed door he peeks in to see his s/o holding balls of fluff.

After the explanation of your actions he feels guilty for his suspicion towards you, but is happy to help care for the fluff balls.

Ratchet:

Just lets you do your own thing for a while then you start disappearing days at a time.

This isn’t like you, he knows so he starts monitoring you more closely.

Ratchet confronts you after a while having enough of this nonsense.

You show him the kittens and says you can have one.

Now Sari has a kitten and the other has found a home with an Autobot.

Bumblebee:

Bumblebee isn’t okay with you wandering off and disappearing that means you are spending less time with him!

He tries to be sneaky and follow you to where ever you have been going every night.

You know he’s following and you let him.

When he sees you picking up the kittens he freaks. What are this fuzz balls and why didn’t them him about them.

He now comes over with you to see them. They’re now your furry children.Bee gets upset when they are old enough to leave, “They grow up so fast.”

Prowl:

Knows something’s up quickly but, waits for you to bring it up. He trusts you to tell him when you’re ready.

You do exactly that. Prowl understands they you don’t want the others to know about your adorable furry secrets.

He kinda just adopts them he’ll relax and just let them walk on him and nap on him.

He loves them.

Bulkhead:

May question you about the increase of disappearances but won’t try to get exactly what is wrong but would appreciate it.

After hearing your voice in the middle of the night he goes to see you to check if you’re okay.

Bulkhead didn’t expect that you were hiding a family of cats.

He was unsure at first but grew to like them . Won’t hold them even if he wants to in case he accidentally hurts them.

Will attempt to paint them at least once.

Blitzwing:

Believes that you are only going on long missions but realizes that you aren’t when Megatron starts complaining about you leaving unbenounced.

Blitzwing knows he can trust you but he doesn’t think the other decepticons have the same trust and my confront you about this. 

He doesn’t want someone to think you are being traitorous so he asks you to stop leaving on your own.

You take him out with you and show him the kittens.

Icy finds them therapeutic. Hothead thinks they’re cute. Random wanted to squish them(No Random stop that.)

Random also tried to take one to the base however you stopped him.

This is kinda really late here but all my blogs will be on full hiatus until the end of May because I’m studying for uni entrance exams !! I might drop by now and then, not too often, and most likely only on my Iceland muse. This means all rp replies are pending - I promise to get back to them after the exams - and I’ll be really slow about checking out new followers. You can still get a hold of me on Skype, Telegram and IM on Ice but replies there too may be slow as I try to not get too distracted. Thank you for understanding. ;w;

With Love, Sussu

afanofstories  asked:

will you continue the literary pharmacy or is it an abandoned project? i loved reading it very much, it's so beautiful :))

I’ve just been writing quite a bit for it today, and I hope I’ll be able to post chapter 7 by the end of this week! I’ll be working my last 4 shifts this week and after that I’m free, and I hope to get back into writing more regularly then. I definitely want to finish it, and I have a couple of other fics planned as well :)

(As for the headcanon asks, I got them and will answer them asap!)

xx Dionne

Answer the 11 questions at the end of the post, Tag 11 people, and then write 11 questions for them to answer.

Tagged by: @neverparted

1) what song that best describes your current mood?
Some Nights by FUN. Really living those awful ups and downs right now tbh.

2) what recent movie did you watch that made you stop and think? why?
I barely remember the last movie I watched (I think it was Moana?). But… mh one movie that got me thinking hard back then was K-PAX. Still love it.

3) what are the five things you cannot leave home without?
If you mean ‘leave’ as in ‘temporarily leave’, then…

  • tissues
  • a water bottle
  • my keys
  • ….and that’s it, really. Tissues are the most essential though, tbh. Sue my chronic nose problems.

4) why did you decide to write your current muse? ( or your most active one, if you have more than one muse ^-^ )
Originally I once got the idea of writing a book that contains the seven sins as characters. I discovered Binsfield’s classification of demons and, because the first chapter I thought of included Asmodeus, decided to make him one of my main characters. (Said first chapter would involve a young uni student or nurse assisting a 90+ old lady at home entering said lady’s home and finding a horribly handsome young man naked in her bed. Turns out that gran Hannah had a steamy night with /the/ demon of lust. Hilarity, death and a lot of demonic shit ensures.) Uh yeah. And because I wanted to get to know this character better before actually writing a story about him, I made an rp account for him. Only for him, the other sins were mere side characters. I deleted his account after a while though (shoutout to @survival-is for sticking with me back then and even when I came back :3). Later, after my previous rp circle died down, I decided to revive him and all the other sins and make a multimuse blog.

5) do you think that chivalry is dead? why or why not?
I don’t know? It’s a weird saying. Personally, I’ve known a few guys who defy that statement. But since chivalry is bordering the edge of misogyny for most people these days, I suppose that does not help make it live longer. Personally I prefer to call it “decent human behaviour and well manners” which, imo, should apply to all genders and sexes when interacting with each other.

6) if you could exchange lives with one historical figure, who would it be? why?
I… none actually because I quite like having human rights as a woman, contraception, hot showers and Wifi, thanks. Though I wouldn’t say no to being an ancient Egyptian queen for just one day. But that’s mostly my inner nerd speaking. I appreciate the high comforts of modern society too much :,)

7) if someone cut in front of you while you were standing in line, what would you do?
I live in Germany so tbh this is not a thing that I have to be afraid of happening lol But if it does happen, I call them out on it (politely at first), you bet.

8) what is the scariest thing that happened to you?
Dude I do not even remember any of the things that happened to me yesterday. So what do I know? The recently most scary thing was me getting on an elevator after a doctor’s appointment and as the elevator went down it started shaking so freaking bad I thought for sure it was going to crash and I’d die. (Evidently it didn’t, but wow I was scared shitless)

9) what is your favorite urban legend? 
I honestly don’t really know many urban legends. There’s nothing much in our region. But I can tell you my favourite fairytale :) It’s about how the stars came to be. Because you see, back in the day the sky was covering all of Earth, and it was always dark beneath it. Above it though, eternal light was shining and a choir of thousand voices was singing wonderful songs. From down below you can only see the underside of the sky, but up above the sky is so slippery that god has to lean on a wooden stick to not fall on it. Wandering the sky for thousands of years, this crutch left hundreds of holes in the sky floor, through which the light now shines down on Earth. Those are the stars. uvu

10) who do you ship your muse with? why? 
Uh my major ships for my muses on this blog are:

  • Asmodeus/Amduscias I mean?? Is there even anything remotively like it? Bonfire Hearts got me in a tight grip still and we won’t let go of each other lol
  • Leviathan/Female Leviathan (aka Liv) because nothing makes my heart go like two ancient sea monsters and their tragic love story
  • Paimon/Luzifer which is mainly exploited in AUs but you know it’s out there in canon too and it’s real
  • Nithael/Luzifer of which we never see anything because Nithael is dead af

Other relevant ships to name are Amduscias/Luzifer (I need more of that), Dennis/Levi, Asmo/His vampire boy crew, Satan/Madeleine (which has only occured in my head so far and I think only Lani knows about them heh)

11) which do you prefer: ghosts, vampires, werewolves, or zombies? why? 
Ghosts. Vampires are too cliché for my taste these days, zombies I’ve never liked because honestly I’m scared of that shit, and werewolves just.. bore me. Ghosts are cool tho. Ghosts can be very versatile.

my questions:
1) Did you have a favourite stuffed animal as a child? If so, do you still have it? What is it?
2) What was a movie series you started watching full of hope and excitement until the second or third one came out and you were awfully disappointed?
3) What is your favourite thing about yourself?
4) What is your favourite Disney song?
5) What is a character you’ve always wanted to make/rp but never got around to?
6) What is a song you connect with your current main muse?
7) Have you ever created an own character whom you then realised was a total Mary Sue/Gary Stu?
8) Pasta, rice or potatoes?
9) What age were you when you stopped running from your light switch to your bed after turning off the lights?
10) What do you think of the recent unicorn hype?
11) If you could be any fantastical creature of your own choice, what would you like to be?

Tagging: @promussecreta, @greatkingofthewest, @amusicas, @eternalandrei, @dennisparryghosthunter, @survival-is, @eveofsin, @willowwithdragonheartstring, @bookwicldcr, @faithsreward, @velvetandgoldgod

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One of the saddest parts of FFXV is that you can already see how Noctis will be both revered and forgotten by his people. There will be books about him, statues of him, songs written about him, but they will not remember him.

They will remember the magical king who spend 10 years inside a crystal, who drew magic from the earth and sealed it in glass, who could summon weapons from thin air and wrap across the landscape in milliseconds, who gained the favor of 5 God’s and slew the sixth, who killed the Accursed, who ended the starscurge, who brought back the sun and put an end to all demons.

They will forget the boy who fed stray cats with fish he caught himself. The boy who loved chocobos and video games and sleeping late. The boy who could spend days at a fishing pond, who was passionate and sarcastic and kind. Who laughed with his friends and cried with them. The boy who was human.

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- Why am I still alive?
- I don’t know.

anonymous asked:

(1) Hi Viria, I hope you are well :) I am sorry to bother you with this, but it's really important for me, and I wanted to share it with you. It'll be long and kinda sad at first, but it gets better, trust me. I'm a 23 y/o latina art student. When I was a baby, my mom left my dad and remarried, and my little sister was born when I was 10. She is the light of my life and I love her to no end. Our mom, however, had had and undiagnosed and untreated mental illness for years, and one day

(2) during a severe crisis she hurt us really bad. I was 12. She was taken away to a psychiatric hospital and Child Services prohibited her from ever getting near us again. Since then, I have been taking care of my little sister and practically raised her while my stepdad worked 2-3 shifts to afford our education and payment for my mom’s hospital, living and meds. He was always working and I took full responsibility for my sis. As you can imagine, even though I loved her with my life, 

 (3) the situation was very stressful and exhausting for me. By the time I was 15, I looked every bit a teen mom. One particularly hard night when my little sis had been crying about mom, I couldn’t sleep. So I turned to something that calmed me: the Harry Potter books. I read them online, and somehow ended up searching for HP fanart. That was the night I stumbled upon your DA account. And boy, did I love it! I know back in 2011 your skills weren’t what they are now,

(4) but I was blown away, and what’s more, I felt inspired to draw. I had never tried to make any art before; it wasn’t “my thing”. But that night, you inspired me. As time went by I kept drawing and closely followed your improvements. Your art was so relaxing, calming, and inspiring, that it really helped me during hard times. You kinda dragged me into all the cool fandoms, series and animes, and I found life to be far more bearable with so many awesome things to love and think about.

(5) Your DA and Tumblr were some sort of safe sapce for me. It always cheered me up and gave me joy, peace, inspiration. When the time came, I choose to study Art at college. It turned out you did too, and you kept up all the good stuff in your blogs. Weirdly enough, I kept feeling a sense of pride whenever you improved and got better. I was so strange that you were so so far away and didn’t even know I existed but you helped me so much.

(6) I got accepted at my country’s top University to study Fine Arts; I moved cities and took my sister with me; she grew into a wonderful, sensible, peaceful child, and her presence motivated me to be the best version of myself, while your art motivated me to keep expanding my academic/artistic abilities. Life was hard but good at college, and I had incredible opportunities. I am graduating this spring with an advanced studies specialization, and was recently hired to work at

(7) of a movie. It’s like living a dream. And tonight, just a couple hours ago, the most incredible thing happened. After dinner, my little sis came to me, phone in hand, and said “Hey Ana, you won’t believe what I found. There’s this girl who makes amazing art of all the fandoms you’re in. Her drawings are gorgeous and she has so many!”. She showed me your tumblr. I wanted to laugh and cry. She was amazed when she saw your old drawings and your current ones; speechless.

(8) She fell in love, and you know what? Immediatly after, she went to draw. She’s been doing so the past hours. I know this was offensively long, but Viria, I needed to thank you for what you did. Your art has always been SO much more than just digital drawings of fictional characters. It’s been the source of peace, safety and joy that so many of us crave. You have wonderfully impacted and influenced many people across the world with everything you make.

(9) I am so glad you exist and do what you do; you gave me the hobby that grew into my passion, thaught me so much, inspired me beyond belief and most of all, you helped make life more bearable. And now, you have made the same for my sister. Viria, the world wouldn’t be the same without you. You are truly a magnificent light among us, and for your existence and passion I’ll be forever grateful. Thank you, and may you always live the beautiful, happy, awesome life you deserve. Thank you.


I’m not even kidding I was sitting here peacefully chewing sandwich and by the end of these messages the sandwich was too salty so was my cappuccino I swear you got me to tears and now i’m just like

I’m a shaking emotional leaf but thank you so much for writing me! It means so much and i’m so touched and i just wish you and your sister all the best of luck, though it seems like you don’t really need it. Thank you, and I hope life goes wonderfully for you and your family! 

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@nerdygirl1219​ asked: Hi there! Do you think you could make a “Dating Zach Dempsey Would Include…” or Zach x Reader? Either one is fine with me! <3

DATING ZACH DEMPSEY:

  • OKAY let’s get this party started by saying that zach dempsey is the cutest of the cuties. it’s a proven fact. f i g h t me.
  • he likes  to pinch your cheeks and tell you that you’re completely and utterly adorable even when you whine for him to stop
    • “but you’re so cuuteee”
    • “go away nerd”
    • “no that’s clay; (y/n), clay is the nerd”
  • you’re the one who managed to get zach to open up again and become a whole lot happier after hannah’s suicide
  • like he’s not as sad or as angry and you can calm him down really easily, so his night traumas happen less and less
    • though you still help him through the occasional one, offering support and letting him hug you really tight afterward and he doesn’t admit it but sometimes he tears up a little and you don’t say anything but you always notice because you just know him
  • he smiles more often and he’s always cracking ridiculous but cute jokes because you make him hella happy
  • he’s also super tall, yeah?
    • which is annoying but also useful because his sweatshirts and sweaters are bigger which equals more warmth for you to flop around in
  • frequent piggy back rides
    • lots of them because “you’re tired and i like carrying you”
  • playing with the bangs that fall in front of his eyes
    • and he really likes when you play with his hair, it’s probably the thing he looks forward to the most when he goes to sleep over your house because your hands feel nice and it relaxes him
    • that and the fact that you cuddle him
  • he has a lot of pet names for you. darling, love, baby, sweetheart, cutie, it ranges depending on his mood and what he wants.
  • he didn’t think he would be able to say i love you first, he thought that you were going to be the one to admit it, and then he’d say it back when he was ready. you thought that, too. but he was ready to say it the moment he first talked to you, the moment you smiled at him, and it wasn’t fake or forced.
    • so he said it first and you almost cried but you didn’t so that you could say it back and it was wonderful and ended in sex
    • woooooah alright ik that took a turn but i mean zach dempsey is a hormonal teenage boy and you’re really hot he can’t help it
  • he really loves kissing you. every second of every day.
    • not that you’re complaining
  • he teases you about your height and hides thing where you can’t reach them because he’s a little shit.
    • but you love him anyway because he does those things
  • he can talk to you about anything and everything and he confides in you all the time but makes sure that he isn’t overwhelming you with his problems because he wants to hear about whats going on with you as well
  • justin often tells zach that he better not let you get away because “she’s obviously too good for you i mean come on if you let that get away i won’t even talk to you anymore i swear”
    • zach usually smacks him on the back of his irritating little head to get him to shut up but he’d never even dream about hurting you or letting you go because you’re special and he adores everything about you
  • you make him the happiest person in the entire world and you think the same about him the minute he wakes you up with that cute lil smirk and a kiss on the forehead

note: gif used is not mine

What I Read This Week

(4/16/17)

With all the Easter events I totally forgot to do “what I read this week” yesterday! Sorry!

Don’t You Know That’s the Way Love Comes? by ken_ichijouji (dommific), Gen, 10k (WIP)
Deputy Director of the Parks Department Victor Nikiforov gets the surprise of his life when the city government gets a visit from a pair of auditors. SO GOOD

Of Bright Stars and Burning Hearts by Reiya, Explicit, 44k (WIP)
Part 2 of the Rivals series and companion fic to ‘Until My Feet Bleed and My Heart Aches’. One small change alters the course of both Viktor and Yuuri’s entire lives, throwing them into a bitter rivalry that spans across many years and creates a world where they both tell a very different side to the story. I’M DYIN THIS IS SO SO AMAZING MY POOR SON VIKTOR I LOVE HIM

Masquerade by Ashida, Explicit, 74k (WIP)
“Just say the word.” came the whisper as Victor stepped close, behind them Yuuri was aware of guns out and at the ready, of confused men and questioned loyalties, here Victor was offering, and Yuuri was too selfish to say no.
“Ok.” Yuuri smiled as this game of masquerade came to an end, what would happen now, he didn’t know, he would probably die, his family would come after him and try to put a knife in his back or a bullet between his eyes, none of it mattered, because together they would fight, and the rest of the world would finally burn. The update killed me…. oh man I love love love love love love love this fic!

Twenty-Five Hours by 0lizzybennet0, Mature, 22k (WIP)
In which Yuuri spends a 25 hour flight next to Victor Nikiforov, skating legend, and feels it might simultaneously be the best and worst thing that has ever happened to him. ADHIUVBSDHIAFBDALHJBCDHJLS I AM YELLING THIS IS ONE OF MY FAVOURITE FICS

Language Barriers by Galloping_Monroe, Teen, 182k (WIP)
Victor Nikiforov had always wanted to travel the world. When an opportunity arises to spend his final year of university study abroad, he is quick to leap at the chance. Yuri Katsuki only applied because his friend forced him to. He’s just trying to get through the year, keep his head down and his grades up. Victor has other ideas. SUCH a good fic!

Like a Fairytale by lucycamui, Teen, 73k
In which Prince Victor gets swept off his feet at a royal banquet and will go to any length to find his ‘Cinderella’ Yuuri. (And Phichit is the fairy godmother who has no idea what he’s doing). THE ENDING WAS SO CUTE <3

Nerve Endings by Phyona, Explicit, 62k (WIP)
When Yuuri moves in with Victor in St. Petersburg, they have to work through Yuuri’s anxiety and Victor’s secrets to find their balance. aaaaaaAAAAAAAAA

Met by Accident (Shall We Skate?-YOIWeek2017) by paxton1976, Explicit, 293k (WIP)
Viktor is having the worst day of his life. He overslept and is late for work. To make things even better, he rear-ended the car in front of him. His attitude quickly changes when he lays eyes on the other driver. The man was shorter than him by a few inches. He had jet black hair that was slicked back with a bit of gel. His glasses left something to be desired, but Viktor admired those large chocolate brown eyes. Simply put, he was fucking gorgeous. I have been utterly obsessed with this fic!

Right Off His Feet by EmilianaDarling, Mature, 7.4k
One of Yuuri’s hands is sliding around his waist, guiding him effortlessly until they’re dancing together. Really dancing together, and Viktor forgets to think, to breathe. Yuuri’s so close that Viktor can feel the heat of his breath against the back of his neck, the warmth of his skin through his clothes. Then he closes his eyes, leans into the touch, and gives in completely as he lets Yuuri lead. This fic is AMAZING! Must read!

Victor!!! In IKEA by victoryinthestars, Gen, 1.9k
What happens when some of the best skaters in Russia help a lovestruck living legend, who’s always lived alone, prepare for his fiancée to move in? A trip or six to IKEA, of course. SO funny and a nice fic to read after some serious angst!

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Here’s to another week of great fic reading! Be sure to give the authors some love!

I hope we last. I hope we do.

But if we don’t, this is how I want you to remember me:

I want you to remember me curled up, listening to the sound of your heartbeat and tracing maps across your skin. Remember me laughing at your jokes, even the stupid ones. Remember me in hysterics for absolutely no reason and in tears because one time you made me so sad neither of us thought I’d recover. Remember me brave, that time you held my hand and I thought I was going to die; remember me scared and gentle and delicate and breakable - only for you though, only for you.

Remember me happy, and all the ridiculous ways I tried to get your attention. Remember the way I was too stubborn to talk to you and how absolutely insane it drove the both of us. Remember all the firsts and how they were so delightful we went back for seconds and thirds and fourths. Remember the songs you couldn’t stop listening to and the childish dreams you allowed yourself about the future. If it’s any consolation I allowed myself to have them too.

If it comes to it I don’t want you to remember the ending.

Remember the beginning. Remember the first time you knew.

Oh my god I am actually crying. EVERYTHING HAPPENED SO FUCKING FAST. I NEED TO PROCESS THIS OMG. OKAY SO FIRST LET’S TALK ABOUT EMMA IN NEVERLAND. SHE NEARLY FELL OVER BUT SHE’S LIKE “NOPE MY HUSBAND NEEDS ME” AND EVERYONE’S LIKE “WTF” AND SHE’S JUST SAYS “KILLIAN?!” AND THEN SHE FUCKING SHOVES THAT LOST BOY

LIKE NO ONE’S KEEPING HER FROM HER TRUE LOVE AND IN THE BACKGROUND KILLIAN AND TIGER LILY AND FIGHTING THE OTHER BOYS. I MEAN WHO NEEDS SWORDS WHEN YOU’VE GOT HANDS RIGHT?!?! AND THEN THEY OVERPOWER THE LOST BOYS (APPARENTLY 3 VS 20 AND THE 3 WIN) AND THEY COME BACK TO STORYBROOKE IN LIKE TWO MINUTES. IT’S LITERALLY IN-AND-OUT.

SHE’S ALL WORRIED FOR KILLIAN’S WELLBEING AND GIVES BACK THE HOOK AND EVERYTHING AND I’M STILL REELING FROM HOW QUICKLY THAT HAPPENED LIKE IT FEELS LIKE A FUCKING DREAM I CAN’T

AND THEN HE APOLOGISES FOR EVERYTHING AND IS ALL “I SHOULD HAVE NEVER EVEN CONSIDERED RUNNING AWAY” THAT SPEECH OMG IT WAS WHAT I WANTED FOR AGES AND EMMA’S REACTION LIKE “IT’S FINE I FORGIVE YOU I DIDN’T REALLY GIVE YOU TIME TO TALK” AND I WAS LIKE YASS

AND THEN SHE’S LIKE WE GOTTA PATCH YOU UP AND HE’S LIKE “W8 I NEED TO TELL YOU SOMETHING” AND YOU SEE HER APPREHENSION LIKE “WHAT’S GOING ON WITH THIS GUY HE’S HURT AND HE’S PUTTING OFF GETTING BETTER KILLIAN R U OK”

AND THEN

AND FUCKING THEN

HE PULLS OUT THE FUCKING GODDAMN RING, MAKING ME SCREAM LIKE A FUCKING PTERADACTYL AND REGINA AND HENRY ARE MY SPIRIT ANIMALS IN THIS SCENE, NOT WANTING TO BE A THIRD WHEEL

AND THEN THE FUCKING SPEECH THAT WE WERE ALL CHEATED OUT OF IN THE FIRST ENGAGEMENT HAPPENS. YOU KNOW WHAT I’M TALKING ABOUT. THE ROMANTIC SPEECH THAT HAPPENS BEFORE EVERY FUCKING ENGAGEMENT THAT NEEDS TO BE PLANNED AND BEAUTIFUL AND I WAS SCREAMING AND CRYING JUST LIKE EMMA

LOOK AT HOW SHE LOOKS AT HIM THIS IS THE LOOK OF TRUE LOVE PEOPLE PASS IT ON. THIS IS THE LOOK OF HAPPINESS AND I CAN’T EVEN. AND KILLIAN IS LIKE “I WILL ALWAYS BE BY YOUR SIDE NO MATTER WHAT” AND I WAS FUCKING BAWLING AT THIS POINT BECAUSE THIS RIGHT HERE IS MY OTP 

AND THEN HE GETS DOWN ON ONE KNEE AND IS LIKE “WILL YOU MARRY ME” AND AT THIS POINT I’M BASICALLY A HOT MESS

AND THEN THE YES HAPPENS

AND YOU SEE THE LITTLE LAUGH OF RELIEF/PURE HAPPINESS THAT HE DOES WHEN SHE SAYS YES AND HER SMILE IS SO WIDE AND BEAUTIFUL AND OML THIS SCENE IS LITERALLY EVERYTHING I EVER WANTED.

I DIDN’T EVEN KNOW I NEEDED THIS EXACT SCENE UNTIL IT HAPPENED. AND I DIDN’T KNOW I NEEDED IT TO HAPPEN IN THIS WAY. THE ANGST IS OVER; THE TRUE LOVE IS BACK; AND CAPTAIN SWAN IS FUCKING ENGAGED WITH TRULY NO WALLS, NO SECRETS THIS TIME AND I CAN’T I’M GOING TO PASS OUT FROM THIS

THIS IS MY OTP. MY FUCKING OTP OVERCOMING THE ODDS AGAIN AND AGAIN. MY OTP GETTING A FUCKING WEDDING AT THE END OF THE SEASON AND MY OTP BEING FUCKING BRILLIANT IN GENERAL IT PAINS ME HOW MUCH I LOVE THEM GUYS I CAN’T.

I need to lie down for a while.