Why am I so obsessed with your blog lately??? Ive been on here like twice a day for a week and I've gone so far back in your tags it's actually unreal! I love everything about this blog! Anyways, you're an above-averagely cool individual so rock on, my fine friend. Seems like you're no stranger to carrying your head high. PS: your family is stinkin' adorable. what a beautiful inspiration. xoxo.
There’s so much I can’t say but feel about all of this. Everyday is new and brings a new level of revealed truth and emotions.
I’m dealing with resentment and disgust now.
I don’t want to post much bout those feelings and experiences though.
I’m having them. They’re strong and real and are oddly healing too.
But to be open and verbal about the depth of them is dangerous. There are a thousand bouncing thoughts that are now beginning to settle. I’m beginning to see who people really are instead of who I hoped they were. I held many people in higher esteem than they deserved. I’m starting to tap into the reality of what that means.
It’s a different kind of loss and grief to comprehend.
We go through levels of grief, right… But it isn’t in steps. I’m finding more that I’m slipping around between them.
I’m sure my blog is boring right now, as I’m trying to navigate through this.
I appreciate you sticking around. I’m surprised that you’re invested still.
Thank you for caring about me so much.