i love that my grandma texts

92 Things Tag

I was tagged by @justinjeonseagull Aaaah I love when you tag me Kadie! 💗

Rule: Answer the 92 questions and tag 20 people!


1. Drink: lemon tea

2:. Phone call: my grandma

3. Text message: //To my friend// “Flower in my life, what are you doing?”

4. Song you listened to: LIMITLESS - NCT127

5. Time you cried: Last week, I think


6. Dated someone twice: No, never 😂

7. Kissed someone and regretted it: definatelly yez

8. Been cheated on: No no

9. Lost someone special: Yeah, it still hurts

10. Been depressed: aaaahn, yeah

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: Hahahahahaha…no I am still a fetus👶™/rt


12. Black

13. White

14. Blue!!!


15. Made new friends: Yes, irl and online!!!

16. Fallen out of love: yesss

17. Laughed until you cried: Everyday 😂

18. Found out someone was talking about you:  Yes but it wasn’t trash, so I’m ok

19. Met someone who changed you: Not yet, but I changed a lot of people lol

20. Found out who your friends are: Oh yeah

21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: No, didn’t kiss last year


22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: Most of them

23. Do you have any pets: No, I’m allergic 😭

24. Do you want to change your name: Hmmm… I guess my name is ok

25. What did you do for your last Birthday: Made cupcakes and ate all of them myself!

26. What time did you wake up: 9 o'clock A.M.

27. What were you doing at midnight last night:  eating hehe

28. Name something you can’t wait for: NCT Dream’s next comeback ✌

29. When was the last time you saw your mom: She is by my side in the car

30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: If I could finish school right now, everything else would be ok!

31. What are you listening right now: Around - Hitchhiker, TAEYONG

32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: YES IT WAS AWESOME

33. Something that is getting on your nerves: The today’s sunny/cold weather

34. Most visited Website: Tumblr, Youtube, Google lol

35. Mole/s: like freckles? If yes, a lot

36. Mark/s: I have a ton of scars 😂

37. Childhood dream: Realistically, becoming an architect… Unrealistically, becoming a K-Pop idol 😂

38. Hair color: Brown with red natural highlights, I don’t really know how

39. Long or short hair: Mid?

40. Do you have a crush on someone: I think?

41. What do you like about yourself: I love my personality, and also my little talents……..

42. Piercings: ear piercings in each ear, total of 2

43. Blood type: O- I really don’t know

44. Nickname: Nat, or Thalia, or Nana

45. Relationship status: Lonely 😭

46. Zodiac: Pisces

47. Pronouns: She/Her

48. Favorite TV Show/s: Masterchef, Criminal Minds and Sense8

49. Tattoos: I don’t have one, but want one.

50. Right or left hand: Both lol

51. Surgery: yeah, septum deviation correction

52. Hair dyed in different color: Nooo

53. Sport: Basketball!!!

55. Vacation: Anywhere

56. Pair of trainers: black Adidas Superstar


57. Eating: nothing yet

58. Drinking: Water 🤙

59. I’m about to: Start making lunch

61. Waiting for: NCT Dream to make a comeback, and my pork chops to be ready!

62. Want: Ice cream

63. Get married: Definatelly

64. Career: Currently I’m a senior, but I want to be an architect

65. Hugs or kisses:  Either 😂

66. Lips or eyes: Eyes

67. Shorter or taller: Taller

68. Older or younger: Doesn’t matter

70. Nice arms or nice stomach: Arms, I guess 🤣

71. Sensitive or loud: I am both, so both

72. Hook up or relationship: Relationship

73. Troublemaker or hesitant: Hesitant


74. Kissed a stranger: No

75. Drank hard liquor: Yes (long story…)

76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: No, thank god

77. Turned someone down: Maybe?

78. Sex in the first date: I’m a little baby too!

79. Broken someone’s heart: Yes…

80. Had your heart broken: Yes… ✌

81. Been arrested: Hahaha, noooo

82. Cried when someone died: Of course.

83. Fallen for a friend: Yes *hides*


84. Yourself: Maybe. Not all the time

85. Miracles: I believe, but haven’t had the proof yet

86. Love at first sight: Yes


88. Kiss on the first date: I don’t remember lol

89. Angels: YES


90. Current best friend’s name;

 Irl: Eduarda/Julia

Online: Isa, Sarah, and Kadie my little sis

91. Eyecolor: Brown, almost black

92. Favorite movie: Harry Potter, all of them 😁

I tag, and you don’t have to do it if you don’t want to~ (: @cherry-ten @blackbunshin @renjunsrealm @manyfandoms121702 @platonicloveremix @tyongie95 + anyone else who wants to do!

By Way of Spontaneity (Part 5)

Summary: On a whim, Bucky declares you to be his girlfriend to his grandma and mother. They’re eager to meet you and he asks you to pretend to be with him for just one dinner with his family. But is that really all?

Word Count: 773

Warnings: None.

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4

A/N: This is where I start to apologize for what’s coming. >.<

Originally posted by yourlipbalm

Mildred looked up at you as you all settled down in the living room, cups of coffee being handed to everyone. She gave you a smile. “Dear, my birthday is next week. Apparently, my family is holding a surprise birthday party during that weekend, Sunday. Would you like to attend?”

“Nana!” screeched Steve and Bucky simultaneously.

She laughed, waving them away. “You people are hardly secretive! I have known for a while.” She rolled her eyes and scoffed. “They’re throwing me this big party like they’re expecting me to die soon. Pah! Not happening.”

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Rom-Com Starter List
  • Friendship:
  • "I'm not washing vomit out of your hair again."
  • "Who do I need to punch?"
  • "Don't worry, I covered for you."
  • "You're seriously going out in that?"
  • "I don't think one bottle is going to be enough."
  • "Oh my god! My eyes!"
  • "You started dancing in the middle of the street and you expected me to join in..."
  • "I can't believe he/she/they did that to you!"
  • "How do you suck so badly at this?"
  • "A toast! To the best friend in the universe."
  • Romance:
  • "I was trying to be sexy!"
  • "Are those for me?"
  • "Tonight was...perfect."
  • "You can't just kiss someone like that!"
  • "How do you even do that with your tongue?"
  • "I can't believe your Mom/Dad just walked in on that..."
  • "When I was a kid, I used to dream about meeting someone like you."
  • "Are you asking me out?"
  • "Is that a phone in your pocket or are you just happy to see me?"
  • "I'm so sorry! I swear I don't usually vomit all over my dates."
  • "Did you just say that you love me?"
  • Enemies:
  • "Oh, you're going down."
  • "You look like shit. Is that the style now?"
  • "I can't believe that I ever thought you were a decent human being."
  • "Is that the best you can do."
  • "Oh no, you look great in that. My Grandma/Grandpa has something like that back home."
  • "If you take one more step..."
  • "How could you do that to me?!"
  • "I'm not apologizing."
  • "I can't do this anymore. I just can't."
  • "I don't hate you. That takes way too much energy."
  • "Go fuck yourself."
  • Texts:
  • [Text] Help. Stuck in the elevator with that creep again.
  • [Text] Fuck, don't tease me like that.
  • [Text] You want me.
  • [Text] Where did you go?
  • [Text] Date boring as hell. Save me!
  • [Text] You suck!
  • [Text] Might be a little late...cover for me?
  • [Text] How did you even get this number?
  • [Text] We're having a movie night. Bring ice cream and booze.
  • [Text] I fell asleep in the middle of him/her fucking me. Do not think they want to see me again.
  • [Text] What is wrong with you?
There’s a Korean word my grandma taught me. It’s called jung. It’s the connection between two people that can’t be severed, even when love turns to hate. You still have those old feelings for them; you can’t ever completely shake them loose of you; you will always have tenderness in your heart for them.
—  Jenny Han, P.S. I Still Love You

so my mom comes in and shes like “im being super petty rn” and i sat up and was like.. ok spill. so she’s like “i know this is kind of ridiculous… but i’m kind of jealous right now” and so she pulls out her phone and showing me the pictures of my grina aunt and cousin, scrolling thru pictures of the two of them having a blast with my grandma in mexico, going to all these lil restaurants and museums and my grandma’s smiling and having a blast and i’m like… “oh”

and my mom’s like “you get it now, right?” and im like “YES” and shes like “OH THANK GOD, i thought i was just being petty but SHE’S HAVING ALL FUN AND TREATING THEM LIKE HER DAUGHTER AND GRANDDAUGHTER AND I’M JEALOUS” 

so if you all ever wanna know where i get my pettiness from, look no further than my mom, an actual legend

Then and Now - Part 1 -

Part (1)

Pairing: Namjoon x reader

Genre/Warnings: Fluff and just a hint of angst.

Summary: Namjoon had the big chance of going home and seeing the family he stayed with in New Zealand while he was studying there, somehow though he went from smelling cologne to in a home having dinner with a date a grandma set up.

(gif credit to original owner)

(Dedicated to @tanitakhira for staying up till 3 am conjuring this up with me)

The airports in New Zealand were all pretty quiet compared to other bigger airports. However to you, it was bustling with life, people going places or coming back from their travels. You always got a new story every day since you worked in a little Pharmacy in the airport. You worked with your grandma, most days. You would get there very early and leave very late. You loved working with your grandma though she made everything fun and interesting. “Sweetheart stop daydreaming and go help that young boy over there.” Her sweet voice cuts into your daydreaming.

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I know I have been absent, that you haven’t seen a fic from me in ELEVEN days, but life, as you may have already imagined it, gets in the way. I’m sorry I’ve been on and off, I haven’t really wanted to. Writing has always been in the back of my mind, but between work, paying bills I have pending, family issues, and having my grandma over from Honduras, there has literally been no time. 

But that changes very soon. Hopefully. My grandma leaves back to our home country on Thursday, which means I can focus on writing a little longer now that I’m not worried about spending so much time with her because I don’t know if I’ll ever see her again. 

And work will maybe ease up on me. I don’t know about that yet. Money is greatly needed atm. (Saving up for a new car lol). 

So yeah, guys. Thought I could give you a little update on what I’m up to and how come I’ve been so quiet on here. 

I’ll try to write tonight and see if I have something up this week :) 

Me on Mondays

“Have a nice gay- I mean day!”

Person: Why do you look so impatient?

Me: So. Much. Gayness. In. So. Little. Hours.

Friend: Why’re you smiling?

Me: gayness occurs tonight.

Friend: Malec again?

Me: Damn right.

*at lunch*

Me: Okay I know you don’t watch this but please just hear me out they’re really healthy and in love an-

Friend: Paige you literally can’t keep doing this, I don’t care.

Friends friend: Paige she doesn’t care.

Friend of the friend with the friend: Paige no one cares.

Me: Ouch… I was just talking abo-

Everyone: Shadowhunters, Malec, your “fully gay and partially gay couple obsession” we know.

Friend: Not to mention the fact that you mention you want to be a gay male 24/7.

Me: You mundanes don’t understand the struggle of loving something this much.

Teacher: Paige, you can’t keep writing “Malec is rising tonight” on my whiteboard every Monday.

Me: You write down facts all the time why can’t I?

Me: *Listens to a song*

Also me: *relates it to Malec almost immediately*

Me: *Texts to her Stydia groupchat freaking out over Malec*

Me: *screams over a Malec scene*

Grandma: What channel is that on?

Me: *tells channel* Why? Are you going to watch it?

Grandma: No

*15 minutes later*

Me: Screams over Malec*

Grandma: Wow. They did that. *screams to me* Are they in love?

Me: They’re not just in love, they own love. They invented love.

anyway i’ve just been knocked on my ass by a wave of nostalgia and emotions over how much phantom of the opera has meant to me since i first saw the movie twelve years ago and if you need me i’ll be sitting here continuing to watch the 25th anniversary and crying intermittently 

“should we know us a little better” tag 📜

RULES: you must answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people

tagged by @monbeboo, thank you so much Ashleigh! <3


1. Drink: Water

2. Phone call: My grandma

3. Text message: “lmaooooo”

4. Song you listened to: shine forever - monsta x

5. Time you cried: i don’t remember

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Addickted Chapter 8

Hey Dersha Fam! Here I am again with the next chapter! Chapter 7 has already been posted in case any of you missed it! After this chapter we will have our last set of chapters..yes the series is ending but don’t fret because I personally have an special surprise for you all right after! But anyway here’s where things can take a turn for better or worse. Will Ahsha reveal her secret to Derek? will he stay and listen or will he leave? What’s next for this couple moving forward? Find out now! Enjoy ! @wicked-gamesofdersha 

3 Months Later

It was a Saturday afternoon. Jasmine and Cameron, Sloane, and Ahsha had just went grocery shopping for the house. Sloane was helping her daughter put things in the cabinets while the kids picked a movie for them all to watch later. Ever since Derek moved out of the house, Sloane had been over almost every day to help Ahsha with Jasmine and Cameron, while Ahsha had been going through her SAA meetings three times a week. Despite the separation between her and Derek, Ahsha was doing a lot better than she was three months before. She decided to continue her sessions with Raquel during and after her treatment. She had also adjusted her work schedule in a way where she could spend more time with Cam and Jasmine. She is still devastated at the fact that her husband’s not home, but like everyone else, he must deal with this in his own way. She had no choice but to except that, for now. The only good thing coming out of this situation was her second chance at getting closer to her children again and her mother’s unconditional support.

“Thanks again mom for helping me so much this week. I feel like between my job and the meetings, I barely have time to do anything else besides read stories to Jasmine and Cam and tuck them in.”

“You’re making a fuss about nothing. I’m a mother just like you, no matter how old you get, that won’t change.”

“I know that Mom but I’m sure your husband’s feeling a little neglected right now considering you’ve been with me and the kids practically every day.” The young mother laughed for the first time in a while, whilst placing the fruit snacks and cereal in the cabinets.

“Don’t you worry about your father he’ll live. Besides I plan on making it up to him later.”

“First time for everything I see.” Ahsha chimes.

“Who said it was the first time?” Sloane corrected her daughter opening a box of crackers and smirking.

“Okay mom I really, really don’t need to know that. My gosh! Have you no shame?”

“Hey you said it, not me. I’m just making sure you have all the facts baby-girl. You should know by now, not everything is what it seems.” Sloane interjects, taking a bite out of her cracker. The mother and daughter look away then look at each other and fall into a sequence of laughter together. The duo was so occupied with their humor they didn’t see Cameron popping in grabbing a pluck of grapes from the fridge.

“Hey, hey, I just bought those today boy, you ain’t devouring them all in one day.”

“Come on mom we have three new packs; can’t I just have one to myself?” The little boy requests walking towards his matriarch to hug her waist, giving her those brown doe eyes. She wraps her arms around his back looking into his pretty browns.

“You can have half of the bag but make sure you share with your sister.”

“Okay, hey mom?”

“What honey?”

“Do you want me to make enough room for daddy on the couch too so he can watch the movies with us?” Cameron assumes.

“Sweetie, I don’t think dad’s going to watch the movie with us today.”

“Why not? He told me he was going to.” Cameron asks, feeling confused with his mother’s change in attitude.

“I know that but, sweetheart he- “

“Are you two fighting again?” He says pulling away from her waist a bit.

“No son, we aren’t.”

“So what then?”

“Hey Cameron, why don’t you take those grapes and share with your sister while I talk to mommy for a little while. Alright?” Sloane interrupts. Ahsha had a sigh of relief with a hint of sadness as she watched her son exit the kitchen. Ahsha places her palms on the counter with her head up to the ceiling, taking a deep breath. Sloane places a hand on her shoulder.

“Have you heard from him lately?”

“I haven’t.”

“I thought you two were on speaking terms.”

“We were for a while, then he just stopped returning my phone calls. Too close for comfort I guess.” The wife said removing a bang from her eye.

“He’ll come around.”

“What if he doesn’t mom?” Ahsha implied as her head shot up to face her mother. Before Sloane could say anything else they heard a third voice in the living room and laughter came from Jasmine and Cameron.

“Nana! Nana! Daddy’s here!” Came Cameron’s excited, chirpy voice.

“Guess you’ll find out today then” Sloane confirmed before walking out the kitchen to greet her son-in-law. As she walks in, she attempts not to make direct eye contact with her grand-babies, otherwise they would know something was up.

“Well look what the wind blew in.” She teases, making her way to Derek.

“Hey ma.” The two hug briefly.

“What brings you by?”

“It’s my day off and Cameron texted me saying you guys were having a movie night later so I figured I’d drop by and visit for a bit and I needed to grab a few more things I needed as well.”

“Well you’re welcome to stay for dinner. Ahsha’s making spaghetti and I’m making my famous apple pie. All your favorites.” Sloane coaxed. She knew it’d be a long shot but she was desperate and she knew it would help Ahsha.

“As much as I love your pie, I’m gonna have to pass on that.”

“Come on dad, it’s grandmas pie you have to stay!”

“Not tonight buddy, maybe next time, tell your mother that I’ll stay next time.”

“She’s okay with it, right mama?” Everyone turned toward the kitchen to see that Ahsha was now standing in the living room watching the entire scene unfold.

“Right baby. I’m sure you and your sister would love it and…so would I.” Right at the end of that sentence is where the estranged couple gazed into each other’s eyes. Like a moth to a flame, they were immediately drawn to one another. It didn’t matter how long they’d been apart and somehow all the troubles they’ve been dealing with slowly disappeared and just for a second, it was just the two of them. They stared intensely at each other as if they were the only two people on Earth. But this small victory was short-lived as Derek was the one to look away first. Luckily Sloane knew it was her cue without Ahsha even telling her so.

“Come on babies, let’s go play in the backyard awhile before dinner. Let’s give your mommy and daddy some privacy.” She collected the children and headed for the door while Ahsha continued staring at her husband as he did his best not to look back. It was the two of them in the house now. There they were in front of another, so much to say but no direction on how to say what they wanted. It was too unusual for her so she took the first attempt to kill the silence.

“Didn’t expect your presence today.” Ahsha tells him, folding her arms.

“Trust me, I wasn’t planning on it but I…I wanted to see the kids.”

“Well since you’re here, you should stay. We can…talk.” Ahsha pleaded.

“Can’t. Listen I’m running low on time and I still have some things I need to get before I go.”

“You can’t just stay for a little bit?”

“I’m gonna go get my things now.” Derek replies coldly. He heads up to the bedroom they once shared and starts rummaging through his drawers. Ahsha truckled behind him and stays by the door folding her arms once again.

“You can’t avoid me forever, Derek.”

“I’m not avoiding you Ahsha.”

“Then stay” She insists, approaching him.

“I told you I can’t. I won’t take long I just have a few things I need to get for work. I’ll be our here in a flash.” He says, speaking without even looking at her.

“Will you talk to me please?”

“Derek.” He continues to pack, not paying her any mind. “Derek.” She calls out again, this time her voice goes in one ear and out the other.

“Derek!” She yells, raising her voice now which caught his attention. He doesn’t turn around but he still moves to speak and stops doing what he was doing.

“I don’t know what to say to you, Ahsha! Part of me just wants to find the words to say to hurt you like you hurt me.”

“I am hurting Derek.” She argued.

“Would you look at that, she cares.” He says, sarcasm dripping from the tip of his tongue.

“That’s not fair.” He turns around now.

“Fair? You want to talk about fair? Like you daydreaming about fucking other men when you’re lying next to me in this bed? Or how bout every-time I look at you, that’s all I see? Is that fair to me, huh, is it?”

“I didn’t go and do any of these things, Derek!”

“It doesn’t matter if you didn’t go out and do them, it’s the fact that you thought of doing it to begin with. You’re my life, you’ve been my life since the day we met and never would I ever think about another woman. You’re all I think about but you, you need more than just me, I see.” He spat. She flinched at his words, but he was completely right. Even if she didn’t complete these acts of deceit, her mere thoughts of another man was still a betrayal. Everybody knows embarking on an emotional affair hurts more than the physical. Physical is just sex; anyone can get that. But when you give your partner the indication that your heart no longer belongs to them, that’s worse than any pain a person can feel from walking in on someone sleeping with their man or woman. Even though Ahsha knew this could never be true, this is the way Derek felt right now and there’s nothing she could do or say to change it.

“Is that what you really think?” She asks, inching closer to him.

“It’s what I know. Look, I didn’t come here to fight, I just came for my things.”

“Our love is forever.” Ahsha lets out eyes closed silently to where only she could hear, or so she thought.

“What?” He whispers back, now facing her. She jumps and opens her eyes inhaling shaking her head.

“Nothing, Derek.” She whispers. Her footsteps start to recede until she hears his voice.

“Ahsh.” She turns around with tear-filled eyes and as quickly as she could, rushed into his chest, closing up the space between them. For a minute, she just wrapped her arms around his waist, her head on his chest, her hands gripping his shirt.

“Derek please just talk to me. I’m sorry. I’m so sorry” As she’s talking he slowly encircles his arms around her waist and hesitantly placed a single kiss on her hair, caressing it with his fingers. Love is stronger than any addiction, as a matter of fact, it is one.

Even though things were far from perfect, Derek couldn’t deny that he still loved this woman. Even still, he was very angry. He let his anger subside because he could never just sit and watch Ahsha fall apart in front of him like that. He repeatedly caressed her hair and kissed it over and over. Ahsha wasn’t sure what to think but she was in the only place she wanted to be right now, the comfort of his arms.

“I’m sorry. I’m sorry.” She sobs into his chest.

“Alright, shh, it’s alright just calm down.” The husband soothed and comforted, gently rubbing her back. She raised her head up to reach his lips and for a second, they meshed together. She moved to peck his lips again but then he pushed her away with great force.

“Ahsha, stop, I can’t do this. I’m sorry can you just go? Please.” His hands having a strong hold on her wrists. Just like that it felt like time had just stood still.

“I understand. If you don’t love me anymore.” She removes herself from his grip and began to walk away.

“Our love is forever.” He announces and she stops walking away. She turns to face him.

“That’s the fucked-up part of it all Ahsha. I do love you, and I always will. I just can’t trust you. I’m not sure if I will…again.”

“Derek I…”

“I gotta go.” He cuts her off, grabbing his duffle bag walking past her and out the door and leaves. She charges out the room standing by the staircase watching him as he makes his way down the stairs. Her knees buckled as she tried to hold her composure but that proved to be easier said than done. Meanwhile, Derek is at the bottom of the stairs with his bag in tow heading towards the front door. He grabs ahold of the knob.

Did he want to leave? No. But like any other man, he’s human and right now he wasn’t in the mood to kiss and make-up with his wife. This was going to take some time and he knew that. So, he opened the door and started walking out to his car. Little did he know, somebody else was watching him. He unlocked the car door and a familiar female’s hand touched his shoulder.

“Thought you were staying son.”

“I want to but I really can’t.”

“You can’t or you won’t?” She asked him. He sighs under his breath turning to face her leaning on the side of the car.

“Look, I’m going to say what I have to say and you can take it with a grain of salt if you have to but hear me out on this. You two built this family together. Years of hard work and dedication, are you really prepared to throw all of that away?”

“I didn’t throw anything away, she did.”

“I know it’s easy for you to believe that but we know that’s not the truth here.”

“So, what’s the truth Ma?” The man disputed.

“That there’s still a lot you don’t know about and questions you want answered. Maybe you should start here.” She exclaims pulling something out her back-pocket and hands it to him.

“What’s that?”

“Something that can help explain what you don’t know about your wife. I’d advise you to go home and look at it.”

“Man I really don’t- “He refused.

“If you won’t do it for her, do it for yourself.” She pushes, trying to convince him. Reluctantly, he takes the brochure from her hand as it reads: Sex Addiction Anonymous. Sloane places her palms on both sides of his face and kisses his cheek.

“You’re loved here, you hear me?” He nods at his mother-in-law than jumps in his car throwing his bag in the front seat. He drives off as the little ones and Sloane watch him leave the driveway.

“You think he’s coming back Nana?” The son wondered.

“Don’t worry Cam, he’ll be back.” She promises and ushers the two kids back inside as Ahsha sits on the floor upstairs, silently crumbling over her husband’s visit.

Where did Derek go after he left? To the other man who knows his wife best, Corey Beckford. The two men have built a great friendship since the first day they met, thanks to Ahsha herself. Derek knows that Corey is the one person that he can trust, especially with an issue as serious as this. He felt comfortable calling him at three in the morning when he was awake thinking about Ahsha, feeling his world caving in. The good listener that Corey is, had no problem whatsoever with helping Derek through this.

Hey, thanks for meeting with me, man.” Derek asks as he takes a seat at the bar in front of Corey.

“No problem. How have you been?” Corey asks, sashaying to the cups and grabs one, filling it with orange cream soda for Derek. Derek’s smile turns upside down; he avoids Cory’s gaze and takes in a loud sigh.

Corey pats Derek on the shoulder after sliding him the cold soda. “Rough, huh?”

“Corey, I can’t even sleep, let alone see her. It took everything in me to not pull her back into my arms the second time. To not throw my bag down and promise her and our kids that I’d stay. I miss her, I really do, but she needs help. I want to help her, but there’s something that she’s not telling me. Do you know what happened?”

Corey takes a deep breath and looks at his best friend’s husband.

“I know exactly what happened, Derek. I want to tell you; I really do but it’s not my place to tell you what’s going on. There’s more to the story, but you’ll hear about it in due time, from Ahsha. I will tell you, something about her past is the reason why she was having these thoughts.”

“Corey,” Derek starts and pauses, feeling his stomach turn. He takes a quick swig of the soda, letting the cool liquid hit his throat, focusing on the feeling instead of keeping his attention on his feelings. “Did I do something to Ahsha? Something that caused her to gravitate towards him? Like not give her enough attention? Not keep up communication like I promised we would do?”

“You shouldn’t be blaming yourself, Derek. This is Ahsha’s battle, not yours. You didn’t have anything to do with it.”

Derek’s eyes continue to water and he looks away from Corey to avoid crying in front of his face. One thing that Derek Roman does not do is tears, especially not in front of people, not even Corey, no matter how much he trusts him.

“I just want to know what happened that caused all of this. I need to know what happened.” Derek chokes out and finally lets out the sob that he had been holding in for so long. Corey takes a deep breath and gives the man some comforting by giving him a pat on the back.

“This is tough, believe me I know, especially when you need answers, but they’re not mine to give. Look, something happened in her past and it had nothing to do with you, whatsoever. She’s held it in for so long in fear that she’d be judged…”

Derek cuts Corey off before he can even mention another word. “Why would I judge her?”

Corey takes another deep sigh. “Look, what happened to her is something that could make you guys stronger, or break you two apart. Hopefully it’s the first option because you two are strong enough to get through anything. You two not speaking to each other for three months, co-parenting, and keeping your distance is not you two at all. The Derek and Ahsha that I know are that beautiful couple that everyone knows and adores, the couple that I looked up to when I was married.”

“Corey, you were only married for a year.” Derek jokes, wiping his eyes and sniffling.

“Whatever, Roman. Learn from my mistakes, I didn’t hear Jessica out and look at where we are now, divorced and co-parenting our child. You and Ahsha are better than that, D.”

Derek nods his head and sighs, running his hot hands down his tear stained face. “You’re right, we are.”

“She still loves you, her eyes say it all, they always do. Even when she’d come in here crying and telling me about the therapy sessions, or the dreams that she had about you. She knew she had a problem and for the first time in a long time I finally saw Ahsha leave her pride and get help. Derek, she went to seek help because she felt that if she didn’t, you two would fall apart.”

“Why couldn’t she have told me what was going on? I get that I was always at work, but she could have said something.”

“I’m not going to sugar coat things, but she needed someone to listen to, a woman’s point of view. We men don’t get things the way that women do.”

He is not one to run around in circles with things, but he felt that he needed more information to soothe his aching heart.

Corey looks at Derek and sees how heartbroken he is, so he tries to come up with a careful response to soothe his aches. “She came to me because I’m her only friend that knows her secret. She came to me so that she could find out how she could tell you. I’ve given her advice on how to tell you and when she told me that she was finally ready to tell you, I was so excited. I wasn’t expecting for you guys to take a break.”

“How do we recover from this? She had a mental affair…”

Corey raises his eyebrows and cuts Derek off. “Yes, that she sought help for, once again. There’s ways to recover from this, it seems impossible, but I know you two can get through it. Just keep your head up, D.”

A customer comes in to the club, interrupting the neatly finished conversation that the men tried to have with one another. “Thank you for having this conversation with me. I really appreciate it.” Derek says, feeling his spirts slightly lifted.

“There’s no need to thank me. Go talk to her, Derek. I expect a great report out of all of this.” Corey encourages.

“Well I’m thanking you anyway, C. I’ll talk to you, soon.” Derek answers. He gives his confidant and friend a sincere smile and heads out of the quiet nightclub before business starts picking up, feeling slightly better.

It’s three in the morning when Ahsha stumbles out of her bedroom and heads downstairs to make a cup of Sleepytime tea with milk. She had been tossing and turning in bed all night and finally realized that there was no way she was getting any sleep tonight. Derek’s appearance earlier was still fresh on Ahsha’s mind. All she wanted was her husband right by her side, but she knew that wasn’t happening until he heard her out about everything. Everything.

“Since when did we become like this?” She asks herself as she pours her milk into her mug.

Sloane wakes up to hearing her daughter downstairs and makes her way to see what all the commotion is. Heading into the kitchen, she sees Ahsha working on her a la seconde and fouette turns. “Ahsha!” Sloane calls out. Ahsha stops spotting her head and stumbles on to the floor.

“Mom, you scared me!” She says and picks herself up, taking a deep breath,

“Why are you up, sweetheart?” Sloane asks, lack of sleep is evident on Ahsha’s face. The dancer takes a seat at the barstool waiting for the tea kettle to make a noise.

“I can’t sleep. Derek’s visit is still fresh on my mind. I miss him but I didn’t know how bad I did until now.” Sloane nods her head in complete understanding.

“I see. You two and your stubbornness wear me out. I see it’s wearing you out too.” She stresses to her daughter who looks awfully offended at her comment.

Ahsha takes a deep breath. “He couldn’t hear me out, stormed out, left, and then came back. Part of me missed seeing him, the other part was ready to scream at him for leaving me without hearing my explanation.”

Sloane hesitates and looks down at the floor, alarming Ahsha. “Mom?”

“I gave Derek the brochure on SAA.” Ahsha’s face changes at Sloane’s confession. She secretly thanks God that the kids are hard sleepers and starts to get loud.

“Why would you do that? I wanted to tell him myself.”

“Right, but you couldn’t stop him when he walked out the door. I knew he’d listen to me, so I gave him the paper. I just wanted to help.”

Ahsha takes a deep sigh, placing her head in her hands. “But I wanted to handle it myself.”

“No! You handling things yourself got you two in this situation. You didn’t get help until this year and I’ve been begging you to go for years.” Sloane sternly answers, hitting Ahsha in the core. The dancer no longer craves her tea and gets up to turn the kettle off.

“I was scared to go. I thought that I was going to have a repeat of what happened back in college. I’m going to lose him.” The dancer changes her mind about turning the kettle off and walks away from it, still reflecting on the conversation with Sloane.

“You were also scared that Derek wouldn’t know how to handle learning this information,” Ahsha nods her head as her mother continues to talk, “baby, you know Derek loves you. Always has, always will, but you’ve got to tell him what happened at some point. I know you tried, but keep trying. I gave him the SAA brochure in hopes that he’d come back and ask questions which would prompt you two to talk. This is a hard conversation to come across, but you and Derek can make it through anything. The only way that you’re going to lose Derek if is you keep this behavior up and don’t tell him about what happened.”

“What if we can’t mom? What if he can’t bring himself to forgive me for these thoughts? What if I don’t get better?” She inquires, feeling her eyes pool up with tears.

“You can, and you will. Ahsha, you never know until you try. Making up assumptions on how Derek is going to react is not healthy. Only Derek knows his reaction, your job is to breathe and just tell him everything that is going on and let everything else fall into place. Corey and I are here to help you through this. Derek is going to be here too. I know he is.” The mother soothes her daughter’s fears with this response. Ahsha turns off the now whistling tea kettle and heads to turn it off.

“How, mom?” Sloane plays with her hands and takes a deep breath in.

“You two have been together for years and this was your first major fight. You two have had an amazing thing going until this happened. The both of you promised you wouldn’t let your marriage crumble, remember?”


“You have all this support all around you, but the only person who can help you overcome this addiction is Derek. Why? When you two made that commitment to be husband and wife, you two were bound spiritually, sex however is a different thing. When you two slept together, you two were not only bound body to body, but bound by your mentalities, your emotions, your spirits, that is when you two were soul tied. Soul ties are a very powerful thing.” The mother concludes, staying quiet for a minute to let the information marinate in her daughter’s head.

“Derek can help you overcome this due to your powerful soul ties to each other. Marriage, partnership, as well as sex are the things that bind you two together, no matter how rough things get. You two are bound spiritually, mentally, physically, and emotionally. You two cannot throw that away.” Ahsha wipes her face and falls into her mother’s arms, holding the woman close to her. Sloane eagerly wraps her arms around her daughter, giving her a comforting hug.

“You two are going to be okay, Ahsha. In due time.”Sloane encourages, pressing a comforting kiss to her daughter’s forehead.

“Please let them go back to what they were before.”She silently prays in her head as she still holds her only child in her embrace.

Ahsha had just said goodbye to her mom after their heart-to-heart, it is now five in the morning and sleep still wasn’t an option. She calls her best friend Kyle just to clear her head. The blonde answered on the first ring which shocked Ahsha, but she felt grateful for her friend being there for her no matter what time of the day it was.

“And that’s all he said?”

“Yes Ky, that’s it.”

“Well there must be something you can do to get him to come back, right?”

“Kyle. I’ve already begged him to stay when he came over. If I do anything else, I’m being selfish. I’ve already put this man and my family through enough. I’m just going to give him the time he wanted and hope for the best.” Ahsha justified.

“You can’t just stand around and not do anything, this is your family we are talking about.”

“You think I don’t know that Kyle?” The mother snapped hitting her leg violently on the counter out of irritation. She regrets her decision and rubs the red mark on her smooth mocha leg.

“Listen, I’m not trying to make you more upset, but this is the time for you to do something.”

“He has to come home for that, Ky.”

“No, he doesn’t. You just need to get your head out of the clouds, and find out where he’s staying and talk to him. Make it an intervention.” The blonde expressed bluntly.

“I don’t even know where’s he’s staying right now.”


“Because he never told me?” She replies, answering a question with a question.

“Find out then. You know I’m sneaky. What’s his iCloud info? I can just track his iPhone and then we can go drive to wherever the hell  he is and talk to him there. You’re just making this difficult, Ahsha.” The two women stay silent over the phone and then Ahsha starts to laugh at her best friend.

“I would love to do that Kyle, but I can’t. Sounds like a lot of fun though.” The woman sighs deeply.

“I know you are, babe but you need to try harder, Carebear. Don’t be such a Carebear right now.” She says in a serious manner, making Ahsha chuckle once again. The young mother has a strange, instinctive feeling in her stomach and heads downstairs. She sits in the living room to continue her conversation with her best friend.

“Kyle are you really trying to-“ She froze in her thoughts and turned around realizing she was no longer alone downstairs.

“Ky, I have to call you back.”

“Okay, no problem.” Kyle replies, hanging up the phone and going back to sleep. Ahsha places her phone away and stood in shock but awe as well. Her dying wish came true.

He came back.


“Hi.” She chokes out. The distant couple stands across from another. Derek sealed his hands in his pockets while Ahsha placed a hand on her hip.

“I want you to listen to me and not say a word until I can get this out. Please.”

“I can do that.” She insists.

“I’m not ready to come home yet, but I do want to at least try and give you an opportunity to explain. There’s still a lot that I’m not sure of and I don’t know if I really want to know what’s happened but I’m willing to listen.” He began walking to her now reaching for her hand.

“Can we sit?” He asks, giving her a reassuring smile, sensing her nervousness.

“Sure.” She lets him grab her hand and lead them to the couch. They sit together while they still hold hands.

“So, I went to see Corey today.”

“You did? Why?”

“He’s your best friend and I just thought that maybe he could tell me about whatever it is that you’re so afraid to tell me about. But he wouldn’t tell me. He told me that it was your job to tell me.” He commenced.

“So, what did he say?”

“He told me about the sexual fantasies you were having, why you were having them. He also said that there’s more to the story. What did he mean by that?”

“He was talking about my sophomore year in college before we met.” Derek perks up and the unsettling, sick feeling creeps back into his stomach again.

“What happened in college?”

 Last two chapters coming! Thank you for reading x 

anonymous asked:

Hey tell me more about your girlfriend and yourself. Anything you'd like to tell. i'm eager to hear more as your previous stories was so cuteeee

Oh, I love to watch how she makes selfies and to watch how more beautiful she is in real life than the picture is even tho later i watch those pics and realize that they are awesome. I love to make her smile because I’m fucking melted when she laughs. She makes me feel like the most pretty girl in the world by her compliments even though i know I’m not. She worships me like a goddess when I’m a complete mess and don’t deserve any kind of her attention with my aggressive and oversensitive personality. We don’t see each other really often, so i don’t have a lot of chances to show her my love, but i do find them. We’re texting all the time and we’re telling each other every little thing which happened with us, also we talk on our phones every day for a few hours. Sometimes when she goes to visit her grandma in the place where its no mobile connection I’m literally starving to hear her voice. I really love to hear how exited she gets about some new things she recently discovered and to watch this sparkle in her eyes when she talks about it. I can’t wait for the summer to see her more. Our parents don’t now about us, but its not bothering us in any way. We just love each other. I’m so fucking lucky to have her in my life. After we start dating i started to believe that there another person in this world which belongs to you :)

I was tagged by @thegreatpretender. Thank you angel xx

Rules: Answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people


1. Drink: coffee

2. Phone call: my grandma

3. Text message: my boyfriend 

4. Song you listened to:  bea miller burning bridges

5. Time you cried: yesterday


6. Dated someone twice: i guess yes

7. Kissed someone and regretted it: vast yes 

8. Been cheated on: no

9. Lost someone special: yes

10. Been depressed: yup

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: yeah


12. lavender

13. peachy

14. pastel yellow


15. Made new friends: yup

16. Fallen out of love: yes

17. Laughed until you cried: yes

18. Found out someone was talking about you: i did 

19. Met someone who changed you: yeah

20. Found out who your friends are: mhmm

21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: i guess so


22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: idk i guess i have more ppl that i dont know there

23. Do you have any pets: my cat Lord

24. Do you want to change your name: i wish

25. What did you do for your last Birthday: i spent it with my ex 

26. What time did you wake up: around 10 am

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: texting with my best friend

28. Name something you can’t wait for: seeing my bf and cigarettes after sex live hehe

29. When was the last time you saw your mom: yesterday

30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: my mental problems

31. What are you listening right now: nothing

32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: noup

33. Something that is getting on your nerves: my stomach problems

34. Most visited Website: idk youtube, tumblr probably 


35. Mole/s: i do have them

36. Mark/s: on my foot hahah

37. Childhood dream: to have a normal family 

38. Haircolour: red

39. Long or short hair: long 

40. Do you have a crush on someone: my bf

41. What do you like about yourself: i’d rather skip this one haha

42. Piercings: no

43. Bloodtype: A+ i think so 

44. Nickname: joksi, joka

45. Relationship status: taken

46. Zodiac: scorpio

47. Pronouns: she

48. Favourite TV Show: skins, tvd, bates motel, hannibal

49. Tattoos: dont have any

50. Right or left hand: right

51. Surgery: no

52. Hair dyed in different color: mhmm

53. Sport: i hate it

55. Vacation: i’ve been to haha

56. Pair of trainers: i do have them?


57. Eating: well rn nothing

58. Drinking: coffee atm

59. I’m about to: waste more of my time on here

61. Waiting for: my bf to message me

62. Want: to see my bf 

63. Get married: yes

64. Career: idk, i wanna become a writer 


65. Hugs or kisses: i guess both 

66. Lips or eyes: lips

67. Shorter or taller: taller

68. Older or younger: older

70. Nice arms or nice stomach: both haha, maybe arms

71. Sensitive or loud: i’m both

72. Hook up or relationship: relationship

73. Troublemaker or hesitant: troublemaker


74. Kissed a stranger: yes

75. Drank hard liquor: yes

76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: no i dont wear them

77. Turned someone down: yeah

78. Sex in the first date: on the second yes hahaha

79. Broken someone’s heart: i did

80. Had your heart broken: yeah

81. Been arrested: no

82. Cried when someone died: yeah

83. Fallen for a friend: i did hahaha


84. Yourself: i do, most of the time

85. Miracles: I guess so

86. Love at first sight: yes bitch 

87. Santa Claus: no

88. Kiss on the first date: ofc

89. Angels: i am an angel 


90. Current best friends name: kayleen 

91. Eye colour: black

92. Favorite movie: lolita, american beauty, girl Interrupted, leon the professional, the love witch, the wuthering heights, memento, thirteen, i spit on your grave 2 

I tag: @thespiritualsolarsystem @femkitti @amarigoldfield @aesthetiqe @ignenue @veinangel @velvetdiamonds @killert @kitten-from-the-crypt @entirewourld @daisypalmer @chillin-killinx @ssavurenkaita @justanother-crybaby @lolita-lexy @widdlefox @nostalgiabby @blackxlaceandblood @kisses-to-sinners @all-the-daisies-in-her-hair

I thought this was going in my drafts but look at me I’m actually doing a tag wow

was tagged by: @meimagino@kymbawee, @yourplisetsky thank you ❤️❤️

Rules: Answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people.


Drink: water

Phone call: my grandma I think

Text message: my BF

Song you listened to: Missing you - All time low

Time you cried: last night


Dated someone twice: no

Kissed someone and regretted it: no

Been cheated on: not to my knowledge

Lost someone special: yes

Been depressed: not in the clinical sense

Gotten drunk and thrown up: yes, drunk a few times but drunk-and-thrown-up twice and I don’t recommend

Made new friends: yes

Fallen out of love: I mean eventually yeah

Laughed until you cried: yes

Found out someone was talking about you: I’m not sure? actually yes but like they told me it was bc they were worried about me i guess, but I guess the question is about talking behind my back. But I’m sure a lot of people did but they weren’t my friends

Met someone who changed you: yes

Found out who your friends are: yes

Kissed someone from your Facebook list: yes

Kissed a stranger: no

Drank hard liquor: yes

Lost glasses/contact lenses: no

Turned someone down: yeah some creeps

Sex on the first date: nnnn…o?  

Broken someone’s heart: i don’t think so

Had your heart broken: yeah

Been arrested: no

Cried when someone died: yes

Fallen for a friend: yes but we were youngggggg it’s in the past and also turns out he was gay lmaoooo 

Kissed on the first date: yes


List 3 favorite colors: purple, blue, orange

How many Facebook friends do you know in real life: most of them I guess

Do you have any pets: I kind of have a cat but not really

Do you want to change your name: no but I did change it for my blog

What time did you wake up: 10:40am

What were you watching at midnight last night: my computer screen

Name something you can’t wait for: starting my life away from here yaay

When was the last time you saw your mom: literally 20 seconds ago

What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: almost everything up until now

What are you listening to right now: I found - Amber Run

Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: no

Something that is getting on your nerves right now: my sore throat

Most visited website: goodreads, tumblr and twitter

Mole/s: yeah cuz i’m pale af but i don’t have many

Mark/s: idk a couple of really tiny scars but i guess only i see them

Childhood dream: idk

Do you have a crush on someone: i have several friendcrushes, like that’s a thing right?

What do you like about yourself: my………….idk, rationality? 

Piercings: just the two usual lobe piercings? idk how they’re called

Blood type: A

Nickname: Renee is my nickname here 

Relationship status: in a relationship

Zodiac: leo but really I couldn’t care less about zodiac soz

Pronouns: she/her

Favorite TV show: YOI and the nonexistent aftg tv show

Tattoos: none

Right or left hand: right

Surgery: only wisdom teeth extractions 

Hair dyed in different color: i had a couple of highlights or stuff like that but never colored it completely

Sport: just working out at home idk, but i wanna start taking figure skating lessons (REALLY RENEE LIKE EVERY ONE ELSE WHO’S EVER WATCHED YOI? YES)

Vacation: seeing interesting cities or some interesting natural phenomenon 

Pair of trainers: is that sneakers? i mean what am I supposed to tell you? it’s the only shoes I wear lol (no ok but mot of the time)

Current and all-time best friend name: I don’t wanna give it away i’m sorryyyyy

Eye color: brown

Favorite movie: idk let’s say interstellar and the nonexistent captive prince movie


Hugs or kisses: hugs

Lips or eyes: lips

Shorter or taller: idc

Nice arms or stomach: idc

Sensitive or loud: sensitive

Hook up or relationship: relationship

Troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant


Yourself: no

Miracles: no, i’m rational, remember?

Love at first sight: not really

Santa Claus: no what am I five?

I think everyone has done it at this point so I don’t have 20 ppl to tag but: @nerily @laurent-rose @gay-street @venenix @onotherflights @yakoucchu @ilgattopatata @ehsocietypretendstoomuch @otayurl @crescendotayuri @phaytesworld @victuri-oh-nice @argentoheart @jubesy @clairelions and anyone else who feels like it