i love my foxes

the foxes as things i/people i know have said/done

girl: “what’s your number?”

also: my best friend has an album on her phone of pics of me flipping her off called “beautiful but rude-iful” and that’s some neil/matt shit right there

kept loading chocolate of various kinds into the shopping cart while staring my athlete friend dead in the eye, daring them to stop me, the entire time

also: kids were trying to sneak from room A to room B without being noticed by authorities and failed and i just leisurely strolled there (while texting) and no one stopped me

sat next to my friend while they edited all of my swearing out of an academic google docs document that our teacher also had access to

also: went on a twenty minute rant how much i wanted to kill the person who burned down the library of alexandria at two a.m.

ignored my friend’s texts for about a week straight because they wouldn’t stop asking about my love life and i think they legit thought i was dead

also: my friend listened to my rant about the library of alexandria and the only thing they said after my detailed murder plan was “okay, i hear you, but, like, you do know that person’s definitely dead already, right?”

our history teacher: “it’s national coming out day so if someone wants to…”
friend: *stands up* “i want to say-” teacher, so tired: “yeah, you’re gay, we know, please sit down”

also: sucessfully broke up a fight between two siblings by saying “but guys here’s ice cream”

i convinced some random woman in her sixties that i met at the hairdresser’s to dye her hair either blue or pink or rainbow because “do it while you’re still young” and “why would you care what society thinks of you” and “do it while you still can” and whatnot

also: a certain follow-up of events led me to spending most of the school day with hands covered in both blood and glitter and whenever someone asked the only explanation i offered was “aesthetic”

i threw a euro coin at my friend’s head from the other side of a big table with stupid accuracy to get them to shut up

also: friend 1:“i will literally pay you to take this exam in my name”
friend 2: “i don’t even take that subject, i know nothing about it”
friend 1:“i know, it’s fine, i don’t need a good grade, my average can take it, but "i” need to show up and it’s really early"

actually made a boy cry once because i was better than him at something he bragged about being good at

also: friend 1:“how was your day?” friend 2:“i saw only 2 white teen boys today but a total of 4 dogs so i think we can conclude today was a good day”

went on a good five-minute heated rant about how precious and glorious a person my best friend is to someone who insulted her, meanwhile she probably wanted to die the entire time

also: hit my head on a “caution! low ceiling” sign once

samrot-the-wicked  asked:

If we are talking and sharing about posting what makes us happy, then I'd like to say I like foxes. I try to queue up fox posts regularly, as I like seeing the little fellas. A dear friend often finds good fox posts for me. That's my equivalent to bees. <3

Foxes!! Lovely creatures. I can’t comprehend why they’re not as idealized for pets as dogs or cats. Seems arbitrary to me. Raccoons, foxes, and so forth are very sweet when handled properly.

im in my prime,
not withering and old.
but i refuse toplay
your wicked games any longer.

i know this tether is unbreakable,
but you make me feel like im interchangeable.
you drew a target on my heart,
when did this become fatal attraction?

i dont have the strength,
the energy,
nor the patience
to be held hostage by your love.

so baby please dont despair
when i say that
ive found the courage to
let you go.

you were never meant to be tied down in the first place.

—  believing i could love you was my mistake, c.j.n.

some lessons I learned from the Foxes

Andrew: know yourself. enforce your boundaries because you have the right to. ask for help when you need it. 

Neil: you are not the people who hurt you. you do belong somewhere. 

Aaron: facing the world alone will only bring you pain. forgive. 

Renee: you can always change. you are not irredeemable. 

Dan: your dreams aren’t stupid or impossible. you can achieve them. 

Allison: no one can tell you who to be. you decide. 

Matt: never forget what made you the person you are today. it may not be pretty, but you’re here, and that counts for so much. 

Nicky: you are nothing to be ashamed of. anybody who makes you feel different isn’t worth your time or energy. 

Kevin: you are stronger than you think. you are capable of greatness. 

if people were elements,
then we are ice and fire.

your touch is frost upon my burning skin,
my breath melts your frozen heart.
your kiss is cool against my lips,
and my heat warms you all the way down
to the tips of your toes.

and although we could complement each other,
beckon the other away from the end of polarity
to come and meet in the middle,
too much of one

will eliminate the other.

—  and i’d never forgive myself if i caused your destruction, c.j.n.