i love making these now

here i am making another post…neither my datemate nor i have heard back about job applications yet except for one, we can’t drive (so we’re limited in the distance we can go), the only job i’ve heard back about would severely damage my mental health, and we currently have no idea how we’re going to afford our utility bill and also manage to get enough food for both of us

we haven’t gotten the utility bill yet but i’m assuming it’s fairly low, since the only things that are on continuously are her laptop and the fridge, and we haven’t used a lot of water.

i’m just really nervous at this point, and i do want to thank the people who donated on my last post, it helped a lot and we still have some of it, but i haven’t been able to sleep, i’m looking into loans that i don’t fully understand, and i just don’t really know what to do. if we can’t pay the utility bill, we will get evicted; it’s a term on our lease, and i can’t go back to live with either of my parents because my dad sexually abused me and my mom is also abusive.

if you decide to donate and send me a request, i can read tarot or draw a sigil or cast a spell or write a story or something for you in return, i just need to know your request. my paypal link is paypal.me/anjaschil

if you can’t or don’t want to donate please reblog so more people see this, i really don’t know what to do, im self dxd autistic, did, and ptsd and prof dxd depression and my gf is prof dxd adhd and anxiety, and we have no clue how to do this

if you have advice or anything i’d love to hear it because i’m willing to try almost anything

so i’ve been confusing friends in the discord chat because of these shitposts i’m making so i feel like i should clarify that i’ve been using a copy of the tomato subs text file to fuck around and make fauxsubs in vlc player. which results in adventures like this:

Hey there

Its me

@imlovedavestrider

Back at it again with the, the hals and the running a friends blog

How did I get here? Well a certain someone felt bad for asking but i was like. No. It’s fine. It makes me feel special and appreciated. Its ok

And yeah here I am. For the summer. Enjoy my stay

Here’s the thing for me. About those scenes with Merle and “John.”

At the start, I couldn’t help but feel a little annoyed that Clint wasn’t asking different questions. Travis clearly had the same thoughts I did–tactically, Merle was playing it poorly. He gave more information than he needed and asked vague questions that didn’t yield practical intel on how to fight the Hunger. 

If it had been Taako, he’d have asked clever questions and been focused on getting info out of the Hunger, on besting it. If it had been Magnus, he would have straight up asked, “how do we kill you” and likely learned at least something from that. But this wasn’t Taako’s or Magnus’s role to play. 

Merle was approaching parley the way it was meant to be approached. Not as a warrior looking for a way to kill the Hunger, but as a diplomat trying to understand it. He approached it with an open mind. To the point where he was eventually able to ask “are you my friend?” 

He asked that of this nightmare entity, this thing that’s caused so much death and suffering–that’s killed him dozens of times. Maybe he’s just that able to open his heart. Or maybe despite the religious ideals he tries to project as a cleric, he’s someone who–whether the person in question is a human, or a god, or a sinister consuming force—just wants people to like him. 

Whatever the reason, he was able to look at the Hunger and try to reason with it. To talk to it earnestly about the value of life, and hope.

It didn’t listen. And when it didn’t listen, I actually believe Merle was disappointed. That for a moment he had hoped the Hunger could be better. Instead, he told the Hunger off, and said he didn’t want to see him anymore. 

And the Hunger is sad. For the first time in who even can guess how long, the Hunger feels sorrow, and regret. Because for a moment he had a friend, and then he lost that friend. Because of his own actions.

Merle didn’t learn how to kill the Hunger, he didn’t learn any information that could help them slow it down or get to the Light of Creation faster. But what he did hurt it more than any weapon ever could. 

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<i> mcr albums as instagram profiles
please do not repost/remove caption </i>

<b><i> inspired by @wentzilla </b></i>

Oh my god, in last night’s Bob’s Burgers, Bob takes Gene to a laser light rock show at the planetarium (super important to Bob, because it was his favorite when he was a teenager, and this is the last night before they’re closing the exhibit because it’s old and no one goes anymore, also it’s Bob’s birthday), and Gene has no idea what he’s in for, but he gets pumped for it anyway ‘cause Bob’s so excited about it, and finally they get in there and they’re watching it, and Gene has a sensory overload and kinda starts freaking out ‘cause he can’t handle it, so Bob takes him out and they sit in the car for a bit.  Gene’s angry because Bob didn’t tell him it would be so loud and scary, so Bob offers to play the album for Gene at a normal volume, and Gene starts to enjoy it, so he reclines the seats, takes out the cigarette lighter, tells Gene to pretend it’s a laser, and starts drawing in the air, explaining the plot to him (it’s like a full on Pink Floyd or Rush-esque rock opera about a bunch of robot overlords telling rockers that they can’t play music anymore, and one Rebel rising against them).  Gene gets really into it and decides he wants to see the finale of the laser show (which Bob regards as a life-changing experience), so they sneak back into the planetarium (there’s no re-entry allowed) with a few tricks that parallel the story from the album, and watch the climax of the show together (Bob fashions some earplugs for Gene out of a napkin).  On the way home, Bob’s asking Gene how he liked it, and Gene says “I loved it!”, Bob asks him to speak louder ‘cause his ear’s are shot, and Gene yells, “I LOVED IT, DAD”.  Bob yells back “I love you too, Gene”.

I FUCKING!!! CAN’T!!! DEAL!!!! WITH HOW GOOD THIS SHOW IS!!! I know i don’t talk about Bob’s Burgers a lot but this show is flawless and charming and gross and funny all at the same time, the characters are written like people with actual fears and anxieties, and unlike a lot of comparable shows, the comedy doesn’t come from the family being pitted against each other, it’s always the family against the world… I love it, I love it, it’s so pure and refreshing and still somehow manages to be funny without sacrificing it’s heart, and I fuckin’ love it, please watch Bob’s Burgers holy CRAP okay I’m done.

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Even “casually wearing my boyfriend’s clothes long before we were official Bech Naesheim

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shadowhunters + scenery

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list of random spirits encountered:

- a spirit haunting a lamppost on 3rd street. it asks for the umbrella of anyone passing by in exchange for a temporary alteration in reality

- a spirit haunting people with burdens on their mind. manifests as a pair of wings on their shoulders

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           To the sweetest, most caring and loving puppy person i’ve had the luxury to know,
           Happy Anniversary!

                                                                                                   #5YearsWithCHANYEOL