i love how it says night time live happy

Let’s appreciate how almost all of You’s screen time in Episode 8 was devoted to her saying “Chika-chan…” and giving Chika worried looks.

70 Questions (but not really) Tag

My lovely bean @jimihsgirl tagged me in this, it’s 12:44 AM I have four more pages of a final paper to write but here I am doing this instead. Thanks for enabling me bean!!

I’m tagging my main hoes @someonethatcannotlove and @fictionprincess, along with @otakuprincesshannah and @pabojiminnie

1. do you have a good relationship with your parents? 

it’s definitely better now that i dont live at home, theres always room for improvement but im happy

2. who did you last say “i love you” to?
my friends that just left the study room where i will definitely be all night, im surprised its not meg or christine or mari though, i tell them i love them at least 43 times a minute….

3. do you regret anything?
its impossible to live without regret

4. are you insecure?
probably more than most people

5. what is your relationship status?
single and stressed

6 .how do you want to die?
by min yoongi choking me in a totally sexual way like pls end me (had to modify meg’s answer so it fit)

7. what did you last eat?
fruit snacks

8. played any sports?
like a bunch a million years ago and i ran track like sophomore year of high school before i decided never again

9. do you bite your nails?
nope, never have

10. when was your last physical fight?
me and my friend nick were joking around while waiting in line for a ride at the spring carnival today

11. do you like someone?
i have like a million of crushes on girls i see on campus a lot

12. have you ever stayed up 48 hours?
more but not because i wanted to :/

13. do you hate anyone at the moment?
hate is a strong word unless we are talking about donald trump (though the guys being really loud next to me are getting there, eat your stupid snacks somewhere else i’m clearly trying to write an essay????)

14. do you miss someone?
i miss my friend ronnie :/

15. have any pets?
back home theres like two dogs and a cat but my mom gave my cat to my cousin whos neighbor stole it so :///////////////////

16. how exactly are you feeling at the moment?
tired and stressed as fuck

17. ever made out in the bathroom?
no

18. are you scared of spiders?
v e r y

19. would you go back in time if given the chance?
im too tired to think of any specific life reason where i need to go back oh wait jk i want to have done this essay like three years ago

20. last place you made out with someone?
my dorm room while watching sharknado

21. what are your plans for this weekend?
study and college night time socialization aka party

22. do you want kids? how many?
yes but i want to adopt/be a foster mom, i already have one kid though and shes great but shes never had her aura cleansed and it lowkey stresses me out MEG CLEANSE YOUR AURA BEFORE I LIKE CRY???

23. do you have piercings? how many?
normal earring piercing, my second holes closed up but im getting my nose pierced soon

24. what is/are your best subjects?
english and my education classes

25. do you miss anyone from your past?
i dont think so, i keep the people who are important to me in my life

26. what are you craving rn?
d e a t h jk…kinda this is the essay from hell

27. have you ever broken someones heart?
not that i can recall

28. have you ever been cheated on?
no

29. have you ever made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?
i think i might have made a high school bf cry when i broke up with them…i dont do relationships well bleh

30. whats irritating rn?
this essay, the boys eating snacks beside me, my lack of sleep, finals, my lack of money, back pain from sitting here so long, literally everything?????

31. does someone love you?
i surround myself with people who will love and support me no matter how far the distance between us

32. what is your favorite color?
forest green and a bunch of shades of blue and black

33. do you have trust issues?
i have lots of issues but i dont think trust is one of them

34. who/what was your last dream about?
i think it was like something about christine getting drunk and messaging me on kkt idk its hazy and i havent been sleeping much, thanks for that college

35. who was the last person you cried in front of?
better question is who havent i cried in front of today/everyday 

36. do you give out second chances too easily?
i dont think i do, you cross a line and its over

37. is it easier to forgive or forget?
i dont know this question is middle school fake deep

38. is this year the best year of your life?
im completing my first year of college this year so thats kinda rad

39. how old were you when you had your first kiss?
dont know it was some girl who lived down the road from me in my backyard in one of those plastic wagons

40. have you ever walked outside completely naked?
as a baby yeah as an adult nah

(meg lost 41-50 so youre gonna have to deal)

51. favorite food?
im not a koreaboo i fucking swear but im a hoe for kimchi

52. do you believe everything happens for a reason?
oh god dont get me started, i didnt before but im sort of becoming more spirtual lately due to some events that have taken place (you know who you are) bought like four books about chakras and spiritual healing and past lives and just im a mess rn but i think it might be for the better

53. what was the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
sent meg a link to gucci shoes i wanted….

54. is cheating ever okay?
i dont think it is but like im not one to talk ive never cheated on anyone but like,,,idk loooooooong story

55. are you mean?
im very blunt and snarky so people seem to think so

56. have you ever been in a fist fight?
with my siblings all the fucking time

57. do you believe in true love?
no relationships are work its naive to think theyll just happen

58. favorite weather?
thunderstorms for sure

59. do you like the snow?
i think its really pretty but holy fuck to i hate walking to class in it

60. do you wanna get married?
i mean ideally yeah but its not my most important goal in life

61. is it cute when a girl/boy calls you baby?
i like babe better thats like my fucking thing

62. what makes you happy?
meg, mari, christine, eli, all my friends at school, my family, my cat that some rando old lady has locked away in her house, writing, reading, laughing, rain, breezy days, bts, indie bands, deep conversations, when i get to go on rants about things im passionate about, dogs, cats, carnival rides, flowers, f r e e t i m e, good food, making people smile, the xfiles, drew barrymore, idk a lot of shit honestly

65. your bff of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?
um handle it like an adult??? honestly it wouldnt be that big of a deal i dont think

66. do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?
i have lots of friends who are the opposite sex ive never acted different around them

67. who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?
nick gave me a hug before he left me to suffer

68. who is the last person you had a deep conversation with?
literally two random girls about spirituality but i live for my deep talks with my bean, i like being able to give her life advice and just listen when she needs me to #truemomstatus

69. do you believe in soulmates?
no, relationships are always work but i do believe your soul can be more familiar with someone therefore making it easier to connect with them speaking of this and just thinking about souls wow meg maybe i was your mom in a past life and therefore feel so much maternal love for you???????????

70. is there anyone you’d die for?
so many people, my bean, all my friends, my family

Shakespeare Sentence Starters

“That is should come to this!”
“There is nothing either good or bad, but thinking it makes it so.”
“The lady doth protest too much, methinks.”
“Brevity is the soul of wit.”
“And it must follow, as the night the day, though canst not then be false to any man.”
“How bitter a thing it is to look into happiness through another man’s eyes!”
“I like this place and willingly could waste my time in it.”
“Now is the winter of our discontent.”
“So wise, so young, they say, do never live long.”
“What’s in a name? That which we call a rose by any other name would smell as sweet.”
“But love is blind, and lovers cannot see.”
“I like not fair terms and a villain’s mind.”
“The miserable have no other medicine but only hope.”
“The better part of valour is discretion.”
“A man can die but once.”
“Cowards die many times before their deaths; the valiant never taste of death but once.”
“There’s daggers in men’s smiles.”
“Look like the innocent flower, but be the serpent under it.”
“Is this a dagger which I see before me, the handle toward my hand?”
“Fair is foul, and foul is fair.”
“The robbed that smiles steals something from the thief.”
“I have not slept one wink.”
“Everyone can master a grief but he that has it.”
“These words are razors to my wounded heart.”
“You pay a great deal too dear for what’s given freely.”
“The common curse of mankind–folly and ignorance.”

Monsta X in a Long Distance Relationship with you!

Wonho:

  • Wonho is always sending snapchats, even when the situation doesn’t call for it.
  • He’s also the type to screenshot all of your pics if they have your face in it.
  • He loves seeing your texts whenever you do send them because you two probably only talk through snapchat
  • On instagram, he’s your number one hype man and is always leaving like five comments on every picture with a dozen of emojis
  • He never usually sends voice messages, but if you were feeling down, you bet his ass would send you an entire song through a voice message
  • The first time he got to see you in person, he did not let you go for like fifteen whole minutes.
  • He would probably cry when he had to fly home, he’d also say something really cheesy before he left like, “I have to fly back to where I live, but my home is always with you”

Shownu:

  • He mostly talks to you through Facebook or Text
  • He doesn’t send many selfies, but if he’s having a good day, you might be lucky enough to get one from him.
  • He isn’t an avid emoji user, but he loves using the heart emojis
  • He might have his hands full a lot more, so you can expect calls and voice messages from him a lot more than the other members
  • He loves to hear your voice at night, too, but you and him live in different time zones so hearing his tired and deep voice in during a call in the morning/afternoon is a little strange, but you get used to it
  • When you two meet in person for the first time, he is practically glowing with happiness, he spends every moment he can with you while he’s with you in person.
  • When he has to go home, he doesn’t want to go, but he knows that you two will see each other again soon, so he’ll look forward to being with you again.

Hyungwon:

  • Sometimes you will go days without a single text-based conversation bc you’re just texting ugly pictures back and forth
  • But that’s sometimes not in your favor because he uses you as memes when you two are play fighting
  • Sometimes nights with Hyungwon get really deep and he reminds you that he’s really in love with you
  • Hyungwon does not have a middle ground, he either is 100% awake and responding to you the entire day, or he’s 100% sleeping and not responding to anything you send him
  • Because of the time zone difference, it’s hard to tell when he’s going to be awake and when he’s going to be asleep
  • He’s always @-ing you on public social media so that you two can be the social media power couple of the century
  • When Hyungwon meets you in real life, he tries to play it cool but he really can’t hold himself back from getting all giddy because he’s with you now!
  • When Hyungwon needs to go home, he needs to be convinced to leave because he’s so comfortable around you and loves you so much that he doesn’t want to leave you

Kihyun:

  • Daily reminders to sleep, eat, take your meds (if any), and to enjoy life and relax
  • He’d get a bit worried about you not responding right away, when he knows that you two would be awake at the same time.
  • He only calls if it’s an emergency, like something happened to him or if he heard something happened to you.
  • He sends you reminders about certain dates and things that you have trouble remembering before he falls asleep so you’ll see them in the morning
  • He would want to facetime you but he would have to plan out the details like a day prior so he can prepare
  • When he meets you in person, he greets you as if you two had met in person before. The atmosphere is calming
  • When he has to leave you, he would say his goodbyes and be off, but he’d purposely forget something with you so you wouldn’t forget your days together

Minhyuk:

  • He’s super happy whenever he gets a notification from you, even if it was just a like on his posts
  • Snapchats are frequent but he never texts through snapchat, all his snapchats are A++++ selfies that look good enough to put in a museum
  • He’d send his goodnights/I love yous through voice messages
  • Will 100% call you just to say “I love you”
  • 70% of his snapchat stories/instagram posts are about how much he wants to be with you in person
  • At night, he complains about being so distant from you and says that he’ll take every chance he gets to see you in person
  • When you two meet for the first time in person, he’s super clingy and happy to see you, his love is overflowing!!
  • When he has to say goodbye, he promises you that he’ll try to come back every year around the same time and he’ll learn more about the place you live in, so you two can make the most of their location

Jooheon:

  • So many snapchats and facetime sessions!! He loves to see your beautiful face!!
  • He leads on like he’d be the type to send a paragraph of text as a good morning text, but he’d probably send a voice message of him screaming “good morning” to you
  • He loves you so much and is not afraid to let you know through seven snapchats and five texts
  • Double texting? He probably Quintuple texts just to get his point across
  • Constantly venting/ranting about something petty/minor
  • Definitely over-uses emojis
  • When he meets you in person, his first goal is to make you laugh with his ridiculous humor, he probably screeches and hugs you really tightly
  • When he has to go home, however, he absolutely does not want to leave you. He probably drew out his goodbye for too long and ends up almost missing his flight.

Chankyun (I.M):

  • At first, his texts and calls are pretty standard, like the “How are you, how was your day, I love you” type of calls/texts
  • When he’s finally comfortable with you, he probably sends you memes
  • He is an avid user of the wholesome memes about loving their significant other
  • Definitely sends you long texts, but you never know what they could be about. They could be a meme theory, his longest yeah boi, or just an entire thesis on how much he loves you
  • He’d be super weak to you pretending to kiss him through the phone on a snapchat or through a call
  • When he meets you in person, he seems a bit reserved and quiet, but once you leave the airport and are in the car, it’s meme central
  • When he has to leave, he knows that when he gets off the plane, he’s probably just going to text you, so he doesn’t make a big fuss about leaving until he actually has to leave you. 

anonymous asked:

I can't believe him. Just look at the humor in his eyes! He knows he looks ridiculous and it's almost as if he's inviting all of us to join him in the joke and somehow he looks like a gorgeous super-cool 70's rock star and my brain can hardly process how adorable he is juxtaposed to the ugliest shirt on earth which only serves to make him look even more beautiful and i'm so confused and i'm also LAUGHING, because he is finding this all so much FUN.

he is honestly having such a fucking good time right now and i could not wish or hope for anything more!!!!! i was talking to one of my brothers mates girlfriends last night who’s english and SHE brought up the grimmy interview because she loves him and listens everyday even tho she lives here, and she was saying how their whole chat just felt like listening to two mates talk and that it was THAT INTERVIEW that made her check harry out and grab sott cause he seemed like such a happy, funny guy!!!!! all the radio interviews he has just seemed so BUBBLY and now this week he’s just. he’s having so much fun. our actual delightful little egg

hell-on-training-wheels  asked:

31, 41 and 49 for the number ask, please?

You’ve got it, mamacita!

31. If you could live in an alternate reality, which one would it be and why?

I would live in that reality where I got the skinny gene, the hot gene, was with my cinnamon roll, and rolled around in a bed of cash every night. Why? Sure, money can’t buy happiness, but it can buy a jet ski, and it’s pretty hard to be sad on a jet ski. Just saying. ;) 

41. Favorite line from a movie?

From my favorite movie of all time, The Prophecy, uttered by Lucifer to the main character: “Little Tommy Daggett, how I loved listening to your sweet prayers every night. And then you’d jump into bed, so afraid I was there. And I was!”  

Originally posted by onewingdippedinblood

I love The Prophecy. It’s chock full of dark humor. XD

49. What was the last thing you watched on Netflix? 

Sherlock. I introduced my dad to it, and now he’s Sherlocked too! 

Originally posted by sherlocked-to-holmes

Thanks for the asks!

Birthday Girl

Sebastian Stan x reader

Summary: it is your birthday but Sebastian is in Ireland. 

Originally posted by heartfularry

Originally posted by jakfruit

Credits to the people who uploaded the gifs.


‘Hi love. Happy birthday!’

'Hi Seb. Thank you! How are things in there?’

'Well, this place is fantastic. We should come together someday. Tell me about you, what is going to do the birthday girl?’

'The girls are coming and I suppose we are going out.’

'Have a great night then. Hope you drink as much as you did your last birthday.’

'You still remember that night?’

'You were so funny. I must say I like your drunk version, Y/N. It must sound awkard but…’

'I cant believe we are talking about this Seb. How is the film going?’

'Ok, just let me tell you you owe me a few drinks. Fine. We are filming the last scenes.’

'So, you are coming soon?’

'Yes! I will be soon in there.’

'That is great Seb.’

'Fuck. Y/N, sorry but the break is over. I have to go back to work. I love you.’

'It is Ok. I love you too. Bye.’

'Bye love.’

And this is how your day starts: with Seb’s call. Yes, you are used to this kind of relationship in which he travels a lot and there are times in which both of you do not see for months maybe. And it would be a lie if you say that you dont miss him since the last time you saw him was three months ago. You do not live together but you miss the nights in which one of you sleep in the house of the other, you miss his jokes, you miss him. However, you are happy knowing that he will be here soon. Besides, today is your birthday so, you decide to enjoy your day with your friends.

****

As you are getting ready before your friends arrive at your department, you get a notification in your cellphone. Once you finish curling your hair, you take you cellphone and look at the notification. You see it and you smile at the screen of your cellphone. Sebastian uploaded a photograph with you on his Instagram. 'Happy birthday to the girl who dates the Winter Soldier but is still part of Team Iron Man.’ They took you that picture in a party and Sebastian and you are dancing while looking and smiling at each other. It can be said that they photographed the perfect moment. God, you love him so much.

****

'Where do you want to go? You are the birthday girl!’ One of your girlfriends asks you.

'Wherever you want girls. I think we should ask Robin. What do you think Robin? Where should we go?’ Yeah, Robin is the one in the group who goes out the most. Therefore, she knows where the party is.

Robin recommends 'Jagger’ so, you and your five friends go there.

You have been here once and the place is amazing, the environment is fantastic. It is a bar but a disco too.

You are having an excitment and joyful night. Even a guy buys you a drink. You drink it and then you tell him you have a boyfriend. Yes, imagine his face. You take plenty of selfies. You dance as you have not danced in all this time. The girls make you have a perfect night.

****

You get up the next day because of the sounds your cellphone is making. Your friends start to upload the pictures you took tonight. You stay five more minutes in bed till you are awake enought to get up.

Luckily it is Saturday and luckily you did not drink too much. So, today you will just relax and take the day off. Just coffee and netflix.

And this is how you spend your morning.

In the afternoon, you hear that someone knock the door. It may be Charlotte who forgot her jacket tonight. You grab the jacket and open the door.

'I know you cant live without…’

'Hello Y/N!’

'Seb! Hi. What are you doing here?!?’ You are so suprised. The last thing you would imagine was seeing Sebastian in your department today.

'Well, I asked the director if I could come a couple of days and he let me.’ He kisses you. 

'I missed you. God, these last days I can only imagined you wearing that old man clothes.’

'Do not get use to them, it is just the character.’ He tells you while he kisses you. 'I have  bad news and good news. The bad news: I have to return to Ireland.’

'Shh, just enjoy the days while you are here.’ You hug him.

'Wait, there is more. The good news: you are coming with me. I want to spend more time with you and I dont forget you owe me a drink. So, lets go to the land of beer.’

'What? Oh, I love you so so much, even though I am still in Team Iron Man.’ You wink at him.

'Yes, thats your flaw. I love you too. Wait, I have your present in my suitcase.’

'Oh, and you are a dork. But you are my favourite dork Seb.’


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The Voicemail II (S.Coups)

type: one shot

genre: angsty fluff

synopsis: things weren’t as you seemed

author’s note: in honor of the comeback

|part one|

You didn’t know. You didn’t know whether he meant for you to listen to it or just delete it, unopened, so it would go into the void of unknown. But you did. And what it said left you breathless.


“I spent countless nights thinking about you. Thinking about the way your laugh filled me with happiness and how, for some reason, you were always cold and I was there to keep you warm. I wondered, night after night, if I told you that I loved you, would you say it back? And the first time I said it, that freezing winter night when your nose and cheeks were bright red and your teeth were clattering in the cold, you said it back. I can’t quite describe how I felt in that moment, but I’ll tell you this. An infinite amount of happiness couldn’t live up to it.

I know it’s hard – things like this. The heartaches and the tears aren’t worth any of it in the end. Especially when you deserve someone better. You deserve someone who will give you their time and theirself. 

But me?” At this, he let a small sigh into the phone. “No. You deserve so much more than me. I’m just Seungcheol. The guy who’s selfish and can’t give you any time because I’m scared of messing things up. But, I know I already have. And none of that is your fault, it’s mine. 

So, really. I am saying goodbye. And I’m saying I’m sorry. I’m sorry for all the troubles I’ve put you through – all the tears, and frustration, and sadness. But I also hope you find all of the joy, and laughter, and adventures again. Just not with me. It’s a waste of time if it’s with me.

I’m sorry.”


The phone clicked, after listening to the message over ten times. The first time you heard it, you sat in silence. Your hope of everything being okay was swept away by his words. His words that you wanted to hear reassure you and tell you that everything was fine. 

But they weren’t. Clearly.


You saw him in everything. When you were out walking, he was in the boy riding his bike along the sidewalk. He was in the laugh of the woman sitting on the bench. 

And when you went to school, he was in the slam of locker doors or the complicated math problem. He was in everything and it left you in despair. 

You thought you saw him walking down the sidewalk sometimes. Stopping in your own tracks just to double check. It never was him. Until one day.

You were sitting in a cafe, doing homework with a friend of yours, heads thrown back in giggles. Thoughts of Seungcheol had slowly started to retaliate, leaving you with a free feeling, but an empty one at that. You glanced out at the sunny street. The light was beaming down on the road; couples walked hand in hand, a dog weaved in and out of them. 

Then, there he was – hands shoved in his slouching jeans, a wrinkled white t-shirt laying casually on his body. You stood up against the shocked glare of your friend, who tried to make you sit down. But you couldn’t. Involuntarily, your legs carried you outside, away from your friend’s cry of your name, and towards Seungcheol. 

Faster and faster, your legs pushed you toward him until he stopped. You stopped, too. 

He turned his head slightly, after knowing there was someone – who, he didn’t know – following him. He continued walking again.

“Wait!” You called, hoarsely at first, but once he stopped, you knew you had to say it. Something that was bothering you ever since he spoke the words, “You deserve better,” into the phone. Because what you deserved, was him

“You were wrong.”

“ Happy 4th of July! Growing up as as kids in the United States we are often told stories of the “American dream” and how with great work and dedication you will be able to achieve your goals and live a happy and fulfilling life. I would like to say thank you to every one of you around the world for helping me to make my dreams come true and allowing me to sing for you and share my thoughts and aspirations with you. I love my country so very much and I love the people who have helped me get to this point in my life. Have a great night everyone, I believe in you and I believe in your dreams. Now it’s time for me to get back to vocal tracking for #bvb4 💀 photo by: @sedition1216” - @AndyBVB

I don’t think there’s a better way to say goodbye.


Look, I have set my eyes on you since I saw you. Those eyes of yours were exquisite, your lips… irresistible. I could live a hundred years with just one touch of your fingers. Your smiles could light up my dark moments. Your voice, warm as the summer breeze, enveloped my cold evenings as you said “Good night”.  The first time I held your hands, I felt heaven on earth. When you said that you love me, it felt like I could die in an instant. That’s how impacting your existence was to me.

 

But love, there’s no such thing as a “Happy ever after”. We live in the reality where everything could end in an instant and I apologize if I had to do this early. I just don’t want you to live with the pain of losing me after three years of us fighting. I had to end this not because I’ve given up but because I don’t want you to suffer anymore. I’ll take the pain, I’ll take the blame… all because I don’t want you to bear the pain until the end of your days.

 

I’m dying, Makoto. I only have three days to live. I didn’t tell you because it would kill you inside. This sickness has taken over my whole system and I have no choice but to accept defeat. I raised my white flag because you have been mortally wounded and I don’t want you to take your life after hearing this. I love you so much I don’t want you to live the next years taking the blame because you haven’t done enough. I did my best to fight this sickness and you were with me day and night. You were protecting me like I was an important gem and I appreciate it. But I know when to give it all and when to stop… and it’s the best time to throw the war away and accept defeat.

 

I love you so much, Makoto. Only if I can stay longer, I would appreciate every single trait that you have. I’ll miss you. There are no words that can convey how much I love you. Not even this letter, not even words. Please stay the same sweet man I loved and continue changing lives like how you changed mine. Eight years of being with you is such a miracle. I’ll tell God how beautiful your soul is. I’ll battle the demons who will ridicule you once I reach Hell.

 

Till then, I’ll watch over you wherever I may go.        

 

I love you.

I love you.

I love you so much, Makoto Tachibana-Yamazaki.


Sousuke

 

Makoto folded the letter that he received as he touched his deceased husband’s tombstone. A smile formed on his lips as he wiped the tears cascading down his cheeks. The cold, summer breeze blew and he felt like it was Sousuke who embraced his cold, shivering body. He placed the letter in his back pocket and continued staring at the ivory stone standing up in front of him.

“It has been three years, my love.” He whispered. “You still haven’t changed. You’re still the sweetest tsundere I have ever known and I’m proud to tell that I have loved you for eleven years now. I will continue loving you until the end of my days. I’ll tell God how valiant your fight in this earth was and I will break heaven and hell if I hear remorseful words toward you.”

He then switched his direction and walked away from Sousuke’s grave.

“I’ll see you soon, Sousuke Yamazaki.” The green-haired man muttered. “I love you too.”

anonymous asked:

. I feel like nobody loves me, like nobody will ever love me. all I do is sit on my bed listening to sad music. I'm just so lonely. I really need someone to be here for me. my friends say they're here but it doesn't feel like it. I've cut so many times but it's never enough. I just want to feel something. anything. I don't know what to do anymore. everything is crashing down on me. all my friends are in relationships and happy, and I'm just the loner taking late night walks alone...

I hate how people can feel like this. I hate how others are living my past and it fucking sucks. It sucks how others have to know how this feels. It sucks how people don’t know how or if they’ll get through it. And it sucks how no one else understands this moment.

I know, I really do, how this feels. In fact I still do feel that way. Only this time, there’s a chance for you to understand. I know you know that some people love you. No matter how hard to find it is I know somewhere you can’t deny that people care about you. 

It’s hard for you but for you’re friends it’s unimaginable. It’s like telling someone how to ride a bike. For you it’s almost a natural instinct. You can’t unlearn it. But to them it’s like an alien machine. They don’t know how fast to move their feet or what the wires do. The metaphoric meaning behind this is that they probably don’t know what to do or how to help. If they know anything they’ll probably be running everything they say through their heads several times before they even murmur. Make sure they know when you need them. If they know, they’ll care. They might be useless and awkward and you might think it would’ve been better if you’d left it but it wouldn’t have been. They don’t know anything about it. That’s a good thing though.

Just at some moments, forget the future. The future is unpredictable, addictive and as cloudy or fake as your thoughts about it. You can dream about it but never go guessing it.

Sorry I suck at this, I’m not good with talking but I just felt like I had to say something. Sorry.

guess who’s birthday it is where I liiiiiiive. sonnyyyyy! good thing in Australia we’re a day ahead of everyone else. but anyway, happy birthday to the man that makes my days bright, to the man that makes me feel safe, to the man that keeps me going, to the man that makes me the person I am today. I wouldn’t be here if it wasn’t for Sonny. Here never stopped me from believing and he never made me give up. Last time he came to here I tried so hard to see if I could meet him since my aunt works for radio. I never got to meet him in the flesh, but he told me he loved me on live air and gave me a shoutout. so it’s like we have met but we haven’t really 😂 he always makes me feel happy on sad doomy days and protected on dark nights. and watching him grow up into the man he is today, 27 years old, I think about how the time has gone and how much he’s gone through with his career. To wrap this all up, I just wanted to say happy birthday to my favourite artist, my favourite friend, my favourite angel. I love you. And I’ll never stop. - Maddie ❤️👽 skrillex