i love forbidden



When he tells you he loves you, do not believe him.
When he offers you a puff of his cigarette, say no, go home.
When your crush kisses you at a party and says he sees a future with you, do not proceed to kiss his best friend, no matter how drunk you are.
When the girl with no friends sits at your lunch table, do not get up and leave.
When he pulls up outside of your house in the middle of the night and claims that if you don’t come outside then he’s coming in, lock the windows, lock the doors, wake your father.
When your high school gym teacher puts his hands on your waist, pins you to the wall and whispers in your ear, do not take this as a compliment, do not turn red, call the headmaster, call his wife.
When the boy on the football team takes you to the attic and pins you down until you agree to have sex with him, explain that you’d rather kick him in the balls.
Then kick him in the balls.
When they say you remind them of Kendall Jenner, laugh, thank them, do not turn red.
When he tells you he loves you, do not believe him.
When your English teacher publically mocks you for confusing verbs and nouns, do not cuss him out, do not turn red.
When you lose your virginity, make sure it’s with someone you love.
When your best friend tells you she’s been opening her wrists, hide her razors, pour out the vodka, take her in your arms. Every time.
When you fail a test that you didn’t study for, learn from your mistakes.
When you fail a test that you did study for, do not beat yourself up over it.
When he leaves you for a girl with skinnier legs, let it sting for a while but don’t let it kill you. Never let it kill you.
When you crash your first car, apologise to your parents.
When he tells you he loves you, do not believe him.
When your math teacher threatens to call the headmaster if you don’t remove your bright red nail polish, show him how neatly you painted your middle finger.
When the most popular boy in school corners you at a party and whispers in your ear calling you a tease, do not just stand there, do not turn red.
When you and your brother’s best friend fall in love, don’t hide it from your family.
When your brother’s best friend moves across the world to pursue his dreams, let him go, let your heart heal.
When your brother’s best friend moves back a year later with tanned skin and a new tattoo, smile, ask him how his trip was, make sure you’re wearing a push up bra.
When the head chef at your first job kisses your neck in the stock cupboard, push him off, slap him, do not accept it, do not wait.
When the policewoman claims you were driving recklessly, accept the fine, accept the license points, do not fight back.
When he laughs at the way you pronounce the letter R, leave him.
When he pushes you down and refuses to take no for an answer, leave him.
When he litters bruises around your body with his once caring hands, leave him.
Do not regret this.
Do not turn red.
When he tells you he loves you, do not believe him.

—  everything wish i’d done the first time around
Whenever Things Seem To Be Getting Better
  • Me: Wow, I'm actually happy.
  • My Brain: ha! No you aren't
  • Me: What do you mean?
  • My Brain: Here are memories of all the things that you fucked up. Oh! Don't forget about the people that used to be a big part of your life but aren't anymore!
  • Me: ........oh yeah........

LGBT+ books: Georgia Peaches and Other Forbidden Fruit by Jaye Robin Brown

“Here’s what I know. Kissing Mary Carlson is spooning homemade peach ice cream into your mouth on the hottest Georgia day. It is shooting stars and hot lava. It is every goose bump you ever had in your entire life built up and exploding all at once. It is going to be the end of me, but I don’t care. “