i love both of you though

so after careful deliberation and listening to the whole thing on very HQ speakers that made everything much worse…

i love flicker so much. it’s the perfect autumn album, for when your days get darker and rainy and everything seems a bit melancholic and you need something to reflect your mood, and though most songs are sad in some way, they remain hopeful and warm on those cold days and it’s all so human and real. these songs just make you feel all kinds of things, just like Niall did when he wrote them, you can tell. 

it’s just incredibly nice to get a bit of a look into his brain and how he cares for people when he does his absolutely best to keep everything private on a day to day basis. it’s a way he can tell his story without having to explain since we still don’t know any details, but the feeling you get with it? incredible. it’s his little piece of himself into the world, and i love it more than i can say. also musically? SO incredibly good. it seems like simple music but it’s so complex in its simplicity and you can tell how much effort and heart went into this.

good job, niall. i’m prouder than i can say.

anonymous asked:

Congrats on the lovely baby Jules AND on the successful chestfeeding!

Thank you! I’m really proud that we’re both doing so well! He’s a greedy monster though!

anonymous asked:

you're the first person to talk about how disgusting deenerys is to the slaves and freedmen. can you make like a comprehensive post about it, please? i'm rereading the books and so i don't remember well.

 I don’t at all remember exactly all I have ever said on this site, but I don’t remember ever using the work ‘disgusting’, if I did, I want to take it back right now. Slavers and slavery is disgusting. The way Daenerys tried to liberate slaves wasn’t disgusting, it was just stupid and wrong with disastrous consequences… And delusional, ignorant and hypocritical. 

Trust me though, I am by far not the only one, and most certainly not the first to declare Dany’s Mereen campaign all I said above and more. Loads and loads of people have criticized it and named it for what it is. 

I’m not gonna make a comprehensive post aka meta, because I literally do not even have the time to update the last two chapters of my fic (sorry bout that). I’m crazy busy and I lack both the time and energy necessary to look up book quotes and everything. 

I’ll give you a from the top of my head list, though, which is gonna me crazy long and detailed still. Hope that’s sufficient to give you an idea: 

- It’s lovely that she wanted to free slaves, but the reasoning sucks. She is perfectly fine with Drogo collecting them to afford the ships she needs, nor does she actually ever liberate Mirri Maz Duur and the other women, she merely stops the raping. In the first two books she not once mentioned because disgusted by slavery. When she goes to Yunkai, planning on buying the Unsullied, there’s not a vessel of her brain that protests against this plan because she’s so anti slavery. The truth is that Daenerys ‘liberates’ the Unsullied because she can’t afford them. She was planning on buying them. The Human Rights Declaration 1948 part of my brain knows this makes her guilty of slavery. Her anti-slavery campaign starts cause she’s broke, which is the worst of reasonings… despite all the claps she receives for being so kind-hearted. 

- The way she liberates them is stupid. She makes very different kind of mistakes in Yunkai, Mereen and Astapor, which is kinda amazing in a way, because all three cities are completely in ruins after she interfered, one more so than the other, but still. We can conclude she learns nothing as she goes, cause she keeps screwing up. Astapor may or may not be her greatest monstrosity of all. Stupid, stupid, stupid. Yunkai turning her back on her and becoming her 1# enemy was as predictable as anything (really, Dany? leaving the government and military fully intact? So odd, that they eventually rebel) and Mereen was, if anything, the prove we didn’t need to know Daenerys is a shit ruler. Dany and her anti-slavery campaigns indirectly killed many many people and brought prosperous cities to total ruin. 

- Just adding this: from a superficial moral pov liberating slaves is a really really good thing, but you can’t just say ‘and now you are all free’. Very little has changed in the actual lives of these people Dany ‘freed’, which only shows how little Dany-I-know-what-it-is-like-to-be-bought-and-sold-Targaryen understands of slavery. She delcares them free and believes the issues are gone, but that’s of course not at all how it works. Being a slave doesn’t just mean you’re the property of someone else. You can’t take slavery out of society by just banning it. Slavery is part of Essosi culture, it goes very very deep. She underestimates that, because, despite her own believes, she knows nothing of what it’s like to be bought and sold. She was Drogo’s exotic trophy wife, she became his queen for crying out loud, gained power, independence and was freed of Viserys. She compares that to being the absolute scum of society? Nah. Not impressed. 

- Let’s be real, Dany’s real, main and true goal is the Iron Throne. She’s not planning on staying, she’s in no way planning on dedicating her life to it. Odd right? To think freeing a society is something that doesn’t have to be someone’s life’s work. Liberating slaves, their freedom, is a stop along the way to her. She takes it so seriously that she didn’t even come up with a long term plan. She’s using this as a way to ‘learn’ how to rule. Think of that… liberating thousands and thousands of people is not something she sees as her life’s goal, it’s just a learning process to Daenerys before she goes for the real price. 

- Daenerys doesn’t pay the unsullied. Where were they supposed to go after she ‘liberated’ them? They were eunuchs who killed infants babies as part of their training, an inhumane training, with no family, no loved ones, no nothing. They had nowhere else to go but to follow their blonde princess. It looks like they choose her because she’s their mother Theresa, but honestly, it was the only option for them… And she doesn’t pay them. They’re slaves who’re ‘allowed’ to leave whenever they want. Ha. What exactly has changed for them, I ask? 

- Daenerys uses unpaid labor for public work projects in Mereen, something with beans it was, I think. *cough* slavery *cough*.

- Daenerys allows freed slaves to sell themselves back into slavery because the ‘freedom’ she offered them is worse. She also keeps part of the bargain. Ha.

- She crucifies over a hundred people who may or may not be guilty of any crime, doesn’t care to check their guilt. It disgusts me how people shrug this off with ‘they were slavers’. I personally don’y believe in fighting cruelty with cruelty, especially not when that cruelty comes from anger about a certain thing that the executed may or may not have been guilty off. And she allows them to choose themselves who among them gets killed. That’s one way not to get the guilty ones punished.  

- I can come up with a million things of what she does wrong in Mereen, really. She’s too cruel when she needs to be soft, and too naive when she should be wary. One example that I’ve always ‘loved’ because it’s so ironic, is when a rich woman comes to her, asking for help. The woman has lost her son and husband during the sack and fled her house to hide with family. When the woman returned to her house, she found it taken over by prostitutes, who were all wearing her jewelry and dresses. The woman pleads for Daenerys to help her get her home back. Dany’s judgement? The woman gave up her rights to her home the moment she fled… can you feel it? Remember who else fled her home and now wants it back? Exactly. Oh George.. the irony. 

- Daenerys uses torture. People always use that example of the minors, and of course this was especially horrifying, but no one can deny she’s guilty of systemic torture

- Daenerys believes her way of living is better than that of the Mereneese. She’s right kind of, about slavery and all, but not everything about the Mereneese culture is curel and savage. She complains about the fighting pits, she complains about people eating dogs, she complains about the way people dress… oh right, she actually has teenage boys murdered solely because of their choice of dress

- While Mereen starves and bleeds and suffers and nothing of Astapor remains except ‘Hell on earth’- Quintyn Martell, she sits in the tip of her fancy Pyramid, eating sweet fruit and drinking wine, looking down on her ‘free’ subjects, complaining about her many burdens as self-declared queen, dreaming about when to find a moment alone with her dear dear handsome Daario- who’s, obviously to everyone but Daenerys, using her. I can’t.  

- Have I mentioned she doesn’t care about Mereneese culture? She doesn’t put much time into learning about it, and all that she learns she waves away and deems inferior to her own. 

Oh RIGHT! She’s just a girls… she’s just learning! She’s trying! She wants to be good, she wants to do the right thing, she… means well

Do thousands of people have to die cause she means well? Me don’t think so. Kinda odd, isn’t it, that sacrifices like that must be made to make someone suitable to rule, when about every character in ASOIAF is more suitable to rule. Why does Daenerys gets to make these sacrifices? Cause she’s her mad daddy’s daughter? She’s not even the actual rightful ruler. In the books there’s Aegon, who’s going to turn Daenerys in a real usurper (the one she learned to hate all her life) and in the show there’s Jon. She’s not even the rightful ruler. She’s just a girl with too much power. 
That said, after all the experience she’s had and all the learning moments that have come her way, she’s learned fairly little. She continues to be delusional and ignorant and constantly makes mistakes she’s made before. 

To quote my favorite quoran: Dany ostensibly means well, yet destroys about everything she touches, cities, people and complete societies… yet people want her to be queen of Westeros? I think they have suffered enough. 

That’s all I can come up with without picking up the books. Hope you kinda understand my pov better now. If you don’t, that’s fine. Most Daenerys stans can’t be turned away from the dark side anymore, not after all that. 
What I mean is… if you can still support Daenerys and believe she should rule the world after all the crap she’s done… well, there’s nothing she can do to change your mind. 


Hey! As I said befor, I decided to go with an idea of my own to the fluff with Zen for the 4k followers special. It’s just a silly thing I had in mind after watching “Singing in the Rain” for the millionth time. Anyways… hope you guys  like this, thank you for the support and love through these 9 months of existence of this blog, 4k followers is a lot, and though it’s humanly impossible to show my love to all of you, just know I’m grateful to eah and every one of you. So thank you all, I’ll be back tomorrow with the winner NSFW prompt for Saeyoung. Well, without further ado…

The walk to your apartment would be slower if it wasn’t for the rain. Zen wrapped an arm around your shoulder to have you close as he held the umbrella above both of you. His legs are damp from the raindrops, it’s cold and late, and yet… he wished the walk was longer.

But stalling became impossible, and now you were standing at the door of your building, you wanted to invite him in, but you knew he would get weird and start his lecture on being careful around him at night and blah blah blah. He wanted to invite himself in, but…well, you should be careful of him at night.

“Well, so… guess it’s good night.” You chuckle nervously.

“Yes, it… it will be a good night after hanging out with you, princess.” He smiles, trying not to shake his body and give away all his tension. “So… take a warm shower and keep you windows closed, be careful not to catch a cold.”

“Yes… you be careful too, Zenny.”

“I will. But if I caught a cold, you would stay at my apartment to take care of me, wouldn’t you?”

“Of course, but… well, you heal so fast, I would just stay a few hours…” you smile playfully when he notices he got caught.

“MC?” he gets serious all of a sudden, making you lose your smile too.


“I hate that you have your apartment and I have mine… I mean, I hate… we live separated. I mean… I hate we don’t live together.”

Oh? Zen usually doesn’t trip in his own words, except when the subject is about the future steps of your relationship. Living together felt like the most natural one, even after he realized that you moving in to his apartment right after the RFA party seemed unnecessarily rushed. Well, things are a little different now, you’ve been dating for almost a year, he is growing in his career, so are you, so… it wouldn’t be rushed now, it would be… natural.

“I hate it too.” You say, hoping the rain didn’t muffle you voice. “Let’s do this, Zen.”

“I know you want to go slow, babe, and I… wait! What did you say?”

“I said we should do it, we should live together.”

“You’re… are you serious? Are you saying ‘yes’?” he holds his smile as much as he can, trying to confirm this isn’t an illusion.

“Yes, I’m saying ‘yes’, Zen.” You laugh at his widen eyes and grin.

“Babe, do you… do you have any idea of how happy I am right now? I’m… I’m the happiest man on Earth now!”

He hugs you tightly and places a kiss in your forehead, then in your cheeks, then in your lips, staying there for a few seconds. And he wishes his could last forever, but… it’s raining, it’s cold and it’s late… really late…

“I-I should get going, princess… morning rehearsals tomorrow, you know… so uhm… can I text you later?”

“Yes, sure. We can talk more about it, if you want…”

“Oh, I definitely do!” he hugs you again, holding himself to not kiss you again. He knows he’s never leaving if you get too close again. “So… good night, MC!”

“Good night, Hyun…” you stand on your tip toes and press your lips against his quickly, giggling when you pull away and see his flustered face. You wave at him as you open the door and go inside the building.

Zen waves back with a foolish expression. He is so happy he forgot how to smile for a second, he is so happy he feels like his heart is muffling the sound of the rain…

He’s so happy he could dance. Right then, right there.

The rain is nothing but a drizzle as he twirls the umbrella over his shoulder and sways his body from side to side, smiling widely.

Moving in together is a huge step, it’s the first one towards marriage. Ah, he was just so worried you would think all his promises about the future are nothing but words. If you suggested moving in together, it’s because you know how sincere he is, it’s because his dreams for the future are the same as yours.

And this makes him happy, so happy he is dancing like a fool. A fool in love who thinks the umbrella is only getting on the way, so he puts it down, letting the raindrops soak his clothes, his hair, his smiling foolish face.

Words can’t express his happiness, so he dances. And he could dance all night, trying to epress to himself how much this means, maybe he would if…


He hears your voic behind him, turning in your direction slowly. Oh… you were not supposed to see this. He never minds you watching him perform, of course, but this… this isn’t a performance, this is… just a fool in love.

You are holding your umbrella, curious eyes stare at him. Both of you just stay there facing each other for a few seconds.

“B-babe? Why are you here?”

“I was trying to reach you to give your jacket back, thought you might need with this cold weather. What… what are you doing?”

“M-me?” he looks at his umbrella, then at the whole scenario, and finally at you. “I’m dancing… and singing in the rain…”

You laugh as he talks like this is the most natural thing in the world. Well, to be honest, all the extra things that happen only in musicals or movies feel natural when you’re with him. He makes unusual things feel right… like moving in together after meeting each other only for 10 days… or dance in the rain.

“Well, sounds fun…”

“So do you want to join me, princess?” he offers his hand to you, and you smile.

“I would love to, but right now I have to bring my boyfriend to my place and make sure he doesn’t catch a cold or something worse… a pneumonia would be bad even for his monster healing…” you take his hand, but bring him towards you. “So come on… I’ll make you some tea and grab you some blankets.”

“B-ba-babe! I… you… I told you before you have to be careful of men at night!” he reprimands you, looking around as if he is saying the most outrageous thing you’ve ever heard.

“Well, good thing you’re not just any man, you’re my roomie, right?”

Oh god… what did he do to deserve someone so sweet, so caring… and that takes him so seriously? Zen looks at your hand intertwined with his, remembering this connection you have is so pure, so honest… everything he ever wanted with someone, and something he’ll work every day on making it stronger…

“Yes, let’s go, roomie.” He lets you guide him through the wet sidewalk.

anonymous asked:

Can we please discuss Sam's face in 12x12 after Cas says, "I love you. I love all of you"? Like how you can just /see/ it? /He knows/.

YES. This is one of my faves.

The way they both assume the first “I love you” is plural and for all of them, Dean is angry at himself that this has happened at all and Sam is like aw shit cos they both feel responsible for him dying, even though they do know it’s more Dean than Sam, it comes across as plural.


THEN you see both of them go OH SHIT. 

Dean has a fucking lip wobble and confused face like what? me?!

Sam practically steps back he inhales so far as he realises what he said

I love it :D

It’s 3:30 in the morning, and I want nothing more than to be talking to you. But I know I can’t do that even though you might answer a call or a text. That’s not really what I want, a quiet conversation over the phone while lying around alone on my bed under cold sheets. What I really want is to rest my head on your shoulder and feel your arms around me while I ramble on in a whisper about all these complicated emotions I feel for you.

-but we both know that will never happen


Isn’t it funny how Lauren seems to be more active on her Instagram lately? Right after she posted a pic with Ty, she posted so many pics that Tyren pic is now going down on her feeds. I mean, I found it funny because it looks like she tries to get the pic out of her sight. I just remember she said that she is a very private person when it comes to her personal life. In my opinion, her love life is quite personal for her. And to post a pic with someone special in social media means you let people to talk about your relationship. I think it’s pretty much not what Lauren likes to do. Or at least I think so. Anyway, it’s 2017 and I still believe in Camren. Not gonna deny, Lauren always had that ‘Camila’ smile every time she was with her. And the eyes, man. Their eyes. You can see love in their eyes every time they look at each other. Eyes never lie. Hope both Camila and Lauren find happiness wherever they are. Even though, they cannot tell the truth to us, I hope they can be honest to themselves. About everything, including their feelings towards each other.

simplyshelbs16xoxo  asked:

Sherlolly, of course

  • who holds the umbrella when it rains

Sherlock because he is taller so it is easier for him to keep the both of them covered. However he does on occasion get ever so briefly distracted (usually when he’s on a case) and forgets about the umbrella location so Molly does get rained on a little from time to time…

Originally posted by sherlollylives

  • who is the grumpiest in the morning

Sherlock. Definitely Sherlock. He keeps weird hours that don’t always line up with what most people consider to be “morning”

Originally posted by explosivecumberbatch

  • who worries more when the other is sick/hurt

I feel like they both worry about each other in different ways. Molly is a medical professional so she knows when something is just a cold. She’s more worried about what Sherlock will try to do while he is under the weather/laid up. I think when Sherlock isn’t quite sure how to help the people he cares about he goes a bit into overdrive…

Originally posted by astudyofsherlock

 and Molly almost never gets sick (one of the perks of being a long standing hospital employee. You build up an immunity to a lot of bugs) So when she does get sick, and he realizes she is sick, he does what he can to provide his own “Sherlock” bedside manner

Originally posted by that-wife-pfft

  • who plays pranks on the other

Molly starts it. It escalates back and for. Sherlock ends up taking it a step to far… but never so far that she won’t forgive him. 

Originally posted by explosivecumberbatch

  • who is always the first to suggest cuddling on the sofa

Molly for sure would suggest it. Couch cuddles after a long day? Awesome. Though “always” is a strong word…

Originally posted by sherlollylives

  • who insists on creating nicknames for the other

Neither of them really strikes me as the “nickname” type per-say, but I can see Sherlock getting it into his head that they should have pet names for each other because “that’s what normal couples do” and it becomes a sort of game between the two of them trying to come up with names that they both like/makes the other laugh. 

Originally posted by detective-from-221b

  • who drools on the other when they’re asleep

I could see both of them drooling if they were tired enough

Originally posted by astropoe

  • who says ‘I love you’ first

May I present, Exhibit A:

Originally posted by letsdiscussaboutsherlock

Honestly though after Sherinford I feel like it would be Sherlock who says it first for a while in the day to day. Molly would probably be a bit hesitant after the phone call and would need a bit of time, and Sherlock would understand and not expect her to say it…but after that pandora’s box of emotion was opened, after he almost lost her without telling her how he felt, I think he would want to make a point of telling her and telling her often. He’d want to make sure she knew how much he truly, genuinely, deeply loved her. I don’t think it would come out in sappy gestures and wild speeches of declared passion, but in simple things. A late night text just to check in. Any time they said goodbye, he’d be sure to tell her (just in case…) until eventually the heartache of their first ‘I love you’ was drowned out by all the happy, every day I love yous that followed. 

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God I love my husband so much!

To appreciate this story, you have to understand that I am the one who gets worked up about stuff. I am the one who gets heated about all manner of things, and he’s the one who just nods and offers silent support and tries to keep me out of trouble, LOL.

But today we both were free for lunch and went out together, just the two of us. And as we were driving back, I was fiddling with the radio when he suddenly exclaimed, “I just wanna drive up there and yell, Why don’t you get an American flag, you fuckin’ traitor?”

Now, my husband is not given to tossing out random f-bombs in the car (unless someone cuts him off in traffic, LOL!), nor had I ever heard him berate anyone over a flag, so I looked up at him rather stunned.

He waved his arm toward something up in front of us, saying, “Why? Why would anybody want to do that?”

Up ahead of us was a pickup truck with the entire rear window painted to be a Confederate flag. (And, of course, a Trump sticker was on the bumper.)

“Yeah, that’s kinda gross,” I said.

“Kinda gross? It’s fucking disgusting! Because you just know that asshole’s probably wearing a MAGA hat and thinks NFL players who kneel for the anthem ought to be shot for treason while he drives around sporting the flag of a bunch of ACTUAL traitors who declared ACTUAL WAR on America! And he’s too fucking stupid to see the irony!”

He was SO worked up, and I couldn’t help but laugh.

“What?” he said. “I just get so tired of this kind of shit.”

“I know, love. Me, too,” I said, patting his hand and still grinning.

Then we passed the offending truck, and saw that the driver did indeed have on a MAGA hat, and I started cackling while he muttered, “I hate idiots” under his breath, and I cackled harder.

Now we’re both at home, and he’s out back with a chainsaw–cutting a big tree into logs and piling them into HIS pickup truck for tomorrow night’s birthday bonfire for Son #1. And I’m watching him from the kitchen window and smiling again because he’s SUCH a country boy, and proud of it. And he’s living proof that you can can be a country boy AND be the complete OPPOSITE of a racist, sexist, ignorant asshole.

I’m thankful this is the man I get to raise sons with. And now I’m pretty thankful I can bring up today’s “traitor truck rant” the next time he tells me I’m getting too worked up about politics! 😂😂😂

Oh and Jack mirroring Dean was the best thing ever. It’s like he’s imprinting on him, even though Dean hates him (or so he says). I wonder why…

Them watching Scooby Doo was both a nice throw-back to 12x11 and foreshadowing, I loved it!

Sam getting real and being done with Dean’s bullshit was also awesome.

All in all a surprisingly good Buckleming episode (apart from the obligatory rape-y stuff).

anonymous asked:

My girlfriend is having trouble with her gender identity and she is suffering and hurting because she doesn't really know who she is anymore. What can I do to support her because I just feel awful that there is nothing I can do to help her because I don't know what to do? Any advice? Please.

Just be there to comfort her and support her in anyway possible. This is her journey and sometimes there really isn’t a way to help! If you’re knowledgeable in different forms of genders or have gone through something similar, you might be able to help that way. Just try to be understanding and loving and be with her through this. Maybe find a friend or someone else who went though finding their gender identity and suggest they talk together. Reminder her that she’ll figure things out eventually and that it takes time and it’s okay. I hope this helped- good luck to both of you! (Mod Luna)

@silverthroatednightingale replied to your photo “Part One : 40”

The carefully blank, unhappy look on Matthias’s face has gotten me right in the heart. :( Beautifully drawn, written, and researched story! I can hardly wait for this to reach the wider readership that it deserves!

You and me both, cozin! Sometimes it’s hard to be patient, even though I know my comic is like a little seed - recently planted, it’s gonna take some time for it to grow and mature. But then I get a really lovely compliment like yours, and patience doesn’t seem so hard after all. ❤

Thank you for sticking with me through part one! (You’re gonna love part two. You’re gonna hate it. It’s gonna be great. ^____^)


This one wouldn’t let me go until I got it out. It hit me as soon as episode 114 ended, and I’ve worked on it in bits and pieces since. I wish I had the time to make it true to what’s in my head, but other projects demand my attention. A lot of artists have been doing fan art of that episode, which is a testament to how powerful it was as a whole.

But this part was what hit me hardest. I took a lot of liberties with combining IC and OOC stuff with my own personal take on it, but I hope it comes across as at least a fraction of how the moment hit me. These characters are amazing and I will deeply miss them, but it’s the players and GM that make everything special. I can’t wait to see what’s ahead, both the bitter and the sweet.

Oh, and as a note, I don’t ship Vax and Scanlan, though if you do that’s cool. But one thing I love about Vox Machina is the open, raw love they have for one another, both platonic and romantic, that makes them family. Their expressions of that (and especially the players’ affection outside the game) reflect something we all need more of, and I think that’s part of what makes it all so compelling. <3

Okay, okay, okay, but I CANNOT get this AU idea out of my head:

Castiel, as a Reaper instead of an Angel.

Castiel, meeting Dean for the first time when Dean is four years old, standing in front of his burning home with the flames reflecting in the tear tracks on his face. Castiel revealing himself to Dean, gently prompting Dean to mind Sammy’s head as the infant cries and squirms, because he really doesn’t want to reap more than one soul tonight. Laying a sorrowful, sheltering hand on Dean’s head and staring down into pleading green eyes and whispering, “I’m sorry,” before walking slowly up the burning porch to reap Mary Winchester’s soul (who refuses to go with him anyways).

Castiel, as the Reaper who appears to Dean after the car accident while Dean is in a coma, shocked when Dean remembers him from that night so many years ago. Dean jokingly asking, “Are my guardian angel or something?” and Castiel sadly telling him, “No. Rather the opposite, I’m afraid,” and having to explain to Dean about the existence of Reapers. Castiel wishing to himself that he didn’t have to reap this vibrant young man, who is brave and frustrating and stubborn and obviously so full of life, and then realizing he should be careful about what he wishes for, because Dean is spared but Castiel is forced to reap Dean’s father instead, and he hates that he’s causing Dean more pain.

Castiel, meeting Dean again less than a year later. And then meeting him again. And again. And again, as Dean and Sam work the Trickster case, and Dean dies every day. They get to know each other pretty well, and it becomes something of a running joke: “We’ve got to stop meeting this way, Cas,” Dean teases, and each day Dean bemoans the ridiculous new way that he’s just been killed, and Castiel commiserates sympathetically and helpfully points out that at least Dean didn’t pee himself this time. And he hates that Dean has to die every day, but he hates himself even more because he can’t help dreading the day they catch the Trickster and it all stops, because then he won’t have an excuse to keep seeing Dean and listen to his laugh and hear about his favorite bands and watch the fond way he looks at his brother.

Castiel, appearing when Sam is stabbed by Jake, sick to death with the thought of reaping the soul from Dean’s brother. He doesn’t reveal himself to Dean in the real world this time, even though he could, because he can’t bear to have Dean turn those stricken green eyes on him, he’s a coward, a coward, a coward - but it doesn’t stop Dean, kneeling in the dirt and clutching the lifeless body of his brother tight in his arms, from screaming out, “I know you’re out there, Cas! Don’t you dare take him! I’ll never forgive you!” And he thinks it’s a cruel, cruel joke that he’s destined to continually reap the souls of the people Dean loves most, one by one, and when Castiel leads away the soul of Sam Winchester, there are tears on both their faces as they tell Dean ‘goodbye’, even though he can’t hear them.

Castiel, being summoned one year later, unsure of what’s happening, suddenly finding himself staring down at Dean’s shredded body on the floor at his feet - but Dean’s soul is still here, obstinate and unyielding, circled by snapping hellhounds but refusing to let them drag him away because “I said I’d go to Hell and I will, but I don’t need hand-fucking-delivered by these fleabags, I’ll take my own way there, goddammit! I’m allowed a Reaper! Bring Castiel the Reaper!” And Castiel raises his eyes and meets Dean’s gaze, and it’s gentle, and resigned, and frightened, and forgiving, and Castiel doesn’t deserve it, he’s never deserved anything less than the understanding in those eyes, and he’d rather be anywhere else, he’d rather be dead himself, than here to take away Dean’s soul to Hell. But he does his job and he leads Dean to the gates of Hell, except then he can’t go, he can’t leave Dean here, he can’t - until Dean kisses him, sudden and fleeting, and tells him, “It’s okay, Cas,” and pushes him away.

Castiel, blindly turning away for only the briefest span of time - the blink of an eye, the pulse of a human heartbeat - before he realizes he can’t do this. Screw the job, screw the deals, and screw the laws of nature, he will not leave Dean here…except when he turns around, Dean is already gone. 

Castiel, spending the next forty years breaking into Hell, laying waste to horde after horde of demons with the fatal touch of his ghastly true form. The memory of Dean’s kiss burns a brand against his lips, and when he finally, finally finds Dean, the touch of Castiel’s spectral hand burns its own brand on Dean’s soul as he grips him tight - the touch of death claiming a soul already dead, because Dean is his. Dean looking up at Castiel, and his soul is messy and tortured and broken, but he still manages a smile as he chokes out: “See? Told ya you were my guardian angel,” and Castiel carries Dean’s soul out of Hell and chooses life.

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anonymous asked:

Stenbrough, Georgie has a little cute crush on Stan

Oh my GOD I saw this and aaaaaa I couldn’t wait to write these!! I hope you like it because I love you for this request

- okay so this is when they’re 17 and Georgie is around 11 (I think)

- Georgie’s inspiration is Richie so he becomes sassy™

- When Bill first brings Stan home to sleep over after a date Georgie is so awestruck

- Like, wowie look at this boy his brother is holding hands with

- He’s pretty shy around Stan at first, he definitely gets all blushy and forgets how to human if Stan talks to him

- ‘Hey Georgie, how was school today?’ ‘Uuuuuuuuuu yes?’

- He likes to do stuff for Stan and purposely not for Bill

- One time, they made cookies at school so Georgie gave one to Stan and just left Bill out

- Stan gave him half anyway

- He asked Stan if he’ll go to his school dance with him (they had to take someone older to take care of them) and of course Stan agreed

- When he finds out that Stan and his brother are indeed dating he gets really upset

- because how dare Bill, his own brother, Stan is HIS boyfriend

- When Georgie gets used to Stan being around the house he tries to tell Stan that Bill isn’t good enough for him and that he’s wayyy better

- When Stan and Bill walk through the door, he’ll take Stans hand and drag him away

- He’ll tell Stan all of Bill’s flaws in efforts to make Stan change his mind but Stan secretly thinks all of Bill’s ‘flaws’ are adorable

- Georgie also thinks that the most innocent things that’s Bill does that he doesn’t agree with are the worst things ever

- 'Did you know that Bill sleeps with socks on, like WHO does that?!’

- 'Who even drinks orange juice after brushing their teeth?! He’s not boyfriend material at all Stanley’

- He’ll also compliment Stan a lot, mainly about his hair but sometimes about his fashion or personality

- Georgie isn’t too good at flirting yet but Stan appreciates his efforts

- 'Your hair is…very curly, yes’

- Bill is actually smooth™ and Georgie is kinda m a d about that

- Georgie has also accepted their PDA but that doesn’t stop him from trying to take his brother’s boyfriend

- Like Stan and Bill could be watching a horror movie, cuddling on the sofa and Georgie will bring Stan some candy and run away

- 'G-g-Georgie stop t-trying to take my b-b-boyfriend away from m-me’

- 'Sorry Billy but you said Stanley deserves the best and he’s with the wrong Denbrough right now’

- Stan likes to snuggle his face into Bill’s neck when they cuddle and talk

- one day they are discussing Georgie 'little’ crush on Stan

- Stan just laughs into Bills neck and says 'I never thought I’d be in the position where my boyfriends little brother wants to date me’

- 'It’s y-y-your fault for b-b-being so p-p-pretty’

- Bill knows he shouldn’t be but he’s super protective over Stan and that doesn’t change with even his own brother

- he loves Georgie, he really does, but he needs to back the fuck up from his man

- he takes tips from Richie (who would have thought) and leaves marks on Stan neck

- 'Fuck sake Bill, you know my dad is going to be so pissed’

- 'Well e-everyone knows you’re mine n-n-now’

- Georgie is very concerned when he sees the marks, even more so when he finds out Bill put them here

- 'Why are you hurting Stanley? See, I told you he’s a bad boyfriend’

- 'It means he’s mine forever now’

- now Georgie thinks that hickies are basically marriage

- He sees Eddie’s one day

- 'Are you married like Stan, Eddie?’

- 'Who the fuck did you marry because it sure as hell wasn’t me’

- 'Richie calm down, I’m not fucking married’

- Stan is always super sweet to Georgie, he thinks his little crush is adorable and he loves the way Bill is protective over him even when he doesn’t need to be

- 'I’m s-starting to think I’m n-n-not your f-favourite Denbrough , babe’

- 'Ah yes, because I would totally leave you for your ten year old brother, shut up billiam’

- Stan loves both brothers but he loves Bill more, don’t tell Georgie though

Add more because this idea is the cutest thing xo