i love afraid more than life

Hello!  My name is Daniel Preciado but some call me Looney.  I’m 26 years young and I just wanted to thank you for even taking the time to read this.  
As of right now I’m currently residing at Clallam Bay Corrections Center.  I’m looking for a friend or two to help me through some of the tough times.  Prison can get very stressful, lonely, & dark when a person is left to do this time alone or has few connections to the outside.
I have a huge warm heart & I love to have fun.  I would hate to see this heart grow cold over time.  I was born & raised in Yakima WA.  I been through hell & back, & I thank God I’m still alive.  I’m not afraid to stand up for myself or my friends, & as a result they label me a gangster.
There are many things in this life I don’t like but nothing more than being lied to.  I keep it real at all costs & expect the same from those around me.  So please don’t hesitate to speak the truth or express whatever you have on your mind.  I am a big boy & I can handle the truth :) lol.
I like to stay both mentally & physically fit.  I also love music…it proves an escape & for a quick second I feel free.  I enjoy anything that catches my ear from 70s, 80s, oldies, rap, rock, etc.  My favorite author is James Rollins.  I am also into cinema and my favorite movies include Friday, Good Fellas, Thrillers, & Action/Adventure.
Well, I just wanted to thank you for hearing me out.  Prison tries to break you & it’s people like you who hep lift us up out of this environment & keep us stronger.  Sometimes in life you got to take chances & I hope you take a chance on me like wishing on a star.  I hope this finds you in good health & hope to hear from you soon.

Sincerely,

Daniel

Daniel Preciado #382958
Golf B-16
Clallam Bay Corrections Center
1830 Eagle Crest Way
Clallam Bay, WA 98326

PS: You can also e-mail me on Jpay.com.  Just make an account, search by state (WASHINGTON) and enter my DOC # (382958) and it will add me to your list and we can email back and forth.

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i can stop this from happening / You Cannot Stop Protecting This City To Save Me / i won’t let that happen / How Long? / this is not gonna happen / I Can’t Hide From The World, Because Of What You Saw / i can’t lose [you] / Everyone’s Gotta Go Sometime, Right? / i won’t let you die / I’m Not Afraid To Die / the flash is gonna save you / I’m The Only One Who Doesn’t Get The Flash / everything i do is for you / nothing’s gonna take [you] away from me / My Life Isn’t Worth It, If That’s The Cost To Save Me / i love you more than anything / i love you, iris / 

You Lose, Barry. 

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Yesterday I was feeling incredibly impulsive and wanted to do something spontaneous so what better way of dealing with those feelings than to get some tattoos you’ve been considering for months?

The top picture is pretty self explanatory. I LOVE Star Trek with all my being and the quote “to boldly go…” represents living your life to the fullest and not being afraid of where it takes you.

The meaning behind the bottom picture is a little harder to figure out. As many of you know, I met Darren Criss this past year and as you can imagine, it was everything I had hoped for and more. I’ve been a fan of his for years, but never thought about getting a tattoo to symbolize the love and respect I have for him until he was standing in front of me and talking to me. I thought long and hard about what I wanted because I wanted it to be subtle but still represent him in some form. A song that has always resonated with me is “Not Alone” because when I was younger I was diagnosed with cancer and as a result of that developed horrific anxiety that still follows me around today. On top of that, I have recently struggled with depression so getting something related to that song seemed only fitting. I ultimately chose to get the notes that match up to the part of the song that says “baby you’re not alone” because when dealing with my own struggles, it was hard sometimes to understand that there are others who are going through the exact same things as me and though I may think it, I am never alone in this fight!

Sorry this post got a bit long, but I’m really excited so I had to share! Thanks for listening loves :)

P.S. I know that the sharp symbol is incorrect in the musical notes tattoo. Being impulsive can be great, but sometimes it causes you not to pay attention. I know if it really bothers me, I can get lines added to make it correct or I can just accept that as with everything else in this life, we are not alone in our failures!

things i love about Pidge
  • *hacker voice* we’re in
  • literally dressed like a 6th grade boy 
  • like 82.67% salt 
  • hates the outdoors— pilots the nature lion 
  • loves technology more than life itself (relatable) 
  • wears glasses that serve no ophthalmological purpose. just for the disguise aesthetic™
  • cannot contain her sass
  • small and bitter, like an espresso (relatable)
  • loves her fellow paladins 
  • but would sell them for one cornchip 
  • names robots like they are pets
  • *bullies you gently to show affection* 
  • is smarter than you and not afraid to let you know 
  • this screenshot: 

My goal isn’t to make people feel beautiful. It’s to make them realize that feeling beautiful doesn’t mean jack shit. Beauty fades. Beauty is not reliable. Beauty is subjective and fluctuating. You take up the space you want and say “I might not think I’m beautiful. Hell, I might be ugly to some people, but I still deserve to be here, to be loved, to do what I want.” I don’t think I’m beautiful at all, but I try not to stop that from getting in the way of living my life. That’s a much more powerful thought than “I’m beautiful too.” Don’t be afraid to be ugly and stop holding yourself to impossible standards in public. Ignore the male gaze. Ignore all gazes. Focus on yourself and what you’re trying to accomplish. 

To those who said I wouldn’t make it,
I stand here while I’ve survived heartbreak, bullying, disloyalty, a several stabs in the back, loss—heart wrenching loss that shredded me completely, with more love to give than the amount that’s been consumed from me.
I stand here today with a heart that’s not afraid to live, to love, to glow at opportunities— the light coming off its breakage.
I stand here with an unwavering smile as the scars cover my fists from fighting back, raw at the knees from falling and getting right back up, wearing a gash at my chest and another at my back, bleeding out for the world to see.
I stand here after I survived more than I thought I could handle,
Ready for what more my life has to offer me.

🎉HAPPY FUCKIN BIRTHDAY TO LEIGH DANIEL AVIDAN!🎉

This guy right here, has not only made an impact on millions of lovelies, but made an impact on my life in the best ways possible. He’s inspired me to want to express myself more, to not be afraid of being who I am, and just having fun in life taking chances. Dan means more to me than any person in this world, and I thank him from the bottom of my heart for helping me to heal from my sad and dark days. I’ll continue to love him always, and his modivation and kind heart will always shine bright like fireflies 💚

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Olicity Holiday Project: Dec. 10 - The moment you knew Olicity will be endgame

the entirety of 3x20 (The Fallen) 

 I am afraid I will never forgive myself for leaving you here. 

You told me once that… life is precious. And that you wanted more from it than I could offer you. Don’t give up on that. The only way that I’m going to survive this… is if I know that you’re out there living your life, happy. 

We’re always saying good-bye to each other. You’d think I’d be good at it by now. 

Well, let’s not say good-bye this time.

Do you think motherhood has changed you?
Oh, it has changed me, yes. Just the process of being pregnant and giving birth was incredibly profound. Also surrendering to the fact that with babies, and particularly infants and toddlers, you have to let go of your expectations and of whatever instincts you have to take control of the situation. Of course, being a mother, you have to make decisions all the time that affect this person who is completely dependent on you, but you also have to surrender to the experience, and that in itself is really liberating. For me, it’s the best thing that has ever happened - Playboy, March/April 2017.

  • <p> <b>Me :</b> I don't wanna love anyone as much as i loved you<p/><b>My ex :</b> why<p/><b>Me :</b> I loved you as much as I could ever love someone, I gave you more than my everything and all you did is throw it away because it was still not good enough for you<p/></p>

When I was 18 I read my first full comic series: Young Avengers V.2 and something changed inside me. I don’t know how to explain it. In interviews, @kierongillen used to describe the story’s theme as a metaphor to growing up, to that time in your life when you’re entering college and your life changes in a way that is not often explored in fiction. This is exactly what it was for me.

First of all, entering a communications environment meant constantly coming into contact with people who’d read more books and watched more movies than me, people who prided themselves on their knowledge of obscure films and independent “”“deeper”“” creators. I felt so lost. I have always loved creating fiction, especially fantasy and science fiction, all things that had no place within an elitist artistic community. And yet, here was this book that wasn’t afraid of being colorful and fun and pop, without being any less meaningful. It was a breath of fresh air. It was a beacon of hope.

Not only that, but every single theme in it resonated deeply within me. Adults not understanding you no matter how hard they or you try. Friends leaving and friends coming together. Searching yourself across multiple possible futures. Wishing you were better. Having to accept you are yourself and that is good enough. Wanting to change and grow, and having no choice but to do that because you’re suddenly thrown into an adult world when five minutes earlier you were being treated like a child. Suddenly, you realize your whole future is in your hands and it’s terrifying and exciting.

Most of all, America Chavez resonated with me. Here was a Latina where I was not expecting to find her. A strong woman self assured in her identity, strong and caring. She had taken a leap of faith in the search for her identity and she has fought to make it work. She was everything I aspired to be and since then I have followed her journey through Marvel while I follow my own.

This is my last semester of college and I’m about to go abroad to get a Master’s degree. I’ll be on my own for the very first time. I’ll be starting classes in a new college, in a new city, in a new country where my identity as a Latina will be a new thing for the first time (as opposed to living in a Latin America country). I am excited and terrified of this new journey of self discovery I will be jumping into.

This year, too, thanks to Gabby Rivera, America Chavez will go to college. She will, like me, start new classes, a new life, new experiences and a new search for her identity. The timing couldn’t have been better. I can’t believe I will get the chance to have her as my companion through the next adventure in my life. I am so grateful.

I guess what I’m trying to say is, representation matters. Comics matter. Stories matter. To me, at least, they have meant everything. I don’t know if I could have gotten through life this past four years without them. Maybe, but the ride wouldn’t have been this good. So thank you.

I know now that I love you more than anything. That the moment I should think about how I would survive, the only thing I could think about was you. And if I would meet you again. And I am so afraid of loosing you and never seeing you again. And I know it’s difficult for us now and no one of us knows if we will ever have a chance but what I want most right now, what I wish from the bottom of my heart is to have a chance to tell you how I feel, how much I love you and how wonderful person you are.
God, I miss you, I miss you so so much. I don’t wanna lose you. But only a miracle can save our love right now. Only a miracle.
—  moonstone-girl
Dating Bucky would include

Originally posted by thespoilerwitchblog

●Catching​ ​him​ ​singing​ ​old​ ​songs​ ​from​ ​his​ ​era
●Kisses​ ​that​ ​leave​ ​you​ ​dizzy​ ​and​ ​hungry​ ​for​ ​more
●Holding​ ​him​ ​so​ ​he​ ​can​ ​fall​ ​asleep​ ​and​ ​rest​ ​easier
●Him​ ​teaching​ ​you​ ​how​ ​to​ ​swing​ ​dance
●Playing​ ​with​ ​his​ ​hair​ ​and​ ​occasionally​ ​putting​ ​it​ ​up
●Comforting​ ​him​ ​when​ ​he​ ​wakes​ ​up​ ​from​ ​a​ ​nightmare​ ​screaming
●Movie​ ​nights​ ​are​ ​a​ ​big​ ​thing​ ​for​ ​you​ ​two.​ ​He​ ​wants​ ​to​ ​see​ ​everything​ ​he​ ​missed
●You​ ​both​ ​taking​ ​turns​ ​being​ ​the​ ​big​ ​spoon
●Tugging​ ​on​ ​his​ ​hair​ ​whenever​ ​you​ ​make​ ​out
●Him​ ​being​ ​impressed​ ​with​ ​lingerie​ ​and​ ​him​ ​going​ ​shopping​ ​with​ ​you​ ​and​ ​picking​ ​out​ ​new lingerie​ ​he​ ​wants​ ​to​ ​see​ ​you​ ​wear
●Him​ ​cooking​ ​you​ ​old​ ​meals​ ​his​ ​mama​ ​used​ ​to​ ​make  
●Traveling​ ​to​ ​new​ ​places​ ​together
●Hand​ ​holding.​ ​Holding​ ​his​ ​metal​ ​hand​ ​even​ ​though he​ ​objects​ ​at​ ​first.
●Him​ ​being​ ​afraid​ ​of​ ​being​ ​too​ ​rough​ ​with​ ​you​ ​when​ ​you​ ​are​ ​intimate
●Encouraging​ ​him​ ​to​ ​be​ ​more​ ​rough​ ​because​ ​you​ ​know​ ​he​ ​would​ ​never​ ​hurt​ ​you
●Lazy​ ​showers​ ​together
●Making​ ​him​ ​laugh​ ​more​ ​than​ ​he​ ​ever​ ​has​ ​before
●“I​ ​finally​ ​feel​ ​like​ ​I​ ​have​ ​my​ ​life​ ​back”
●Loving​ ​and​ ​supporting​ ​each​ ​other​ ​more​ ​than​ ​either​ ​of​ ​you​ ​ever​ ​thought​ ​possible

Dating Suga (BTS) Would Include

I’m working on stuff honestly ^^ Hope this is sufficient enough… may have gotten carried away with him being my UB XD Enjoy <33


  • It took him forever to confess to you bc ain’t Min Yoongi confessing to anyone he gotta make sure the feeling is 100% there
  • And it is I mean he pays attention to the little things and that’s when he realises he’s super in love with you and should tell you before you’re taken by someone else which he is super afraid of bc to him youre perf youve known each other a while sooo
  • Tries to come up to you like ‘sweg sweg sweg’ but actually ends up all stuttery I mean he once mentioned in an interview he’s shier than he seems so… ‘Um hey Y/n h-how’s life’
  • Imagine shy flustered Yoongi omg
  • He gets so much more blushy around you and you find it so cute like dude why around me you’ve been around me this long and acted fine
  • Do not expect any PDA or more than a little skinship in the first couple months he’s still getting into the swing of things
  • When PDA does become a thing it’s no more than holding hands or, if you’re in a more crowded place, his hand around your hip :3
  • Sleepy Yoongi is a cuddly Yoongi
  • Then again Yoongi is cuddly anyway
  • If the members are around he won’t kiss you or show cute skinship anywhere near as much as he does in public but he’ll still cuddle up to you
  • Neck kisses
  • Kissing the top of your head when you cuddle
  • Lazy cuddling; his arm loose around you and you snuggled up to him
  • Kisses with him always hold so much meaning
  • He prefers them deep and slow and passionate y e s
  • But when he’s in the mood his kisses are needy af and that’s when you know
  • When you’re upset he flashes that gummy smile bc istg that is everyone’s weakness
  • Dedicates raps and songs to you and even though everyone hears a cute love song you hear it and know immediately it’s about you it’s the cutest thing
  • And he will act like it’s no big deal but inside he’s going insane bc he wants you to like it and doesn’t know what he’ll do if you don’t
  • You see him getting a lil fidgety and can’t help but laugh and kiss him; ‘I love it, thank you so much.’
  • Naps naps and more naps
  • Dates with him are typically cozy indoor dates which include as little movement as humanly possible
  • You two cuddling under a pile of blankets on the couch with food and drink within arm’s length and a movie marathon yes pls
  • If you do go out he likes to take you to restaurants he likes and music stores hehe
  • Like those old fashioned record stores where he can show you the stuff he likes and stuff
  • It’s a big bonding activity and you get rlly interested in his favorite things and he becomes awestruck bc you’re so c u t e at that moment
  • Trying to get him out of bed is your worst nightmare
  • That is if he went at all
  • First you have to pry him off you
  • Then he’ll get all grumbly bc he wants to cuddle more
  • “Yoongi-yah you have practice”
  • “I’ll be fine”
  • Finally getting him up by making him coffee and breakfast
  • Him kissing you many times to thank you for said breakfast
  • Or there are other ways you can wake him up ;)))
  • The members (maknaes) making fun of him bc you turn him to a blushy lil mess
  • Him giving them death glares and you holding him back before Jimin gets thrown through the wall
  • On his days off you spend the whole day in bed
  • Long ass talks about anything and everything that last until early morning
  • That time is also filled with fond looks and small kisses and eventually one of you will whisper ‘I love you’ and the other will be all shocked but by this point you’re already so deeply in love with each other of course it’s returned
  • You loving his hands
  • His hands are godly
  • I’m sorry they are
  • Him finding it a bit weird at first but then he finds it funny and teases you
  • But also puts his hands to good use
  • Him making bullshit excuses to get out of doing chores and housework and you dealing with it bc you know he’ll never help
  • But sometimes he comes out of nowhere and helps clean bc he feels bad for you
  • You having to drag him out of the studio to sleep and him protesting bc ‘he works better at 4 AM’
  • Bringing him lots and lots of coffee and sitting with him when he works
  • Enjoying each other’s company in silence, you reading or working on your own stuff or smth
  • ‘Hey Y/N come listen to this?’
  • ‘Holy shit this is genius’
  • ‘Well yes I am Min genius’ *so happy you like it bc oops it’s another song for you*
  • He’s not the jealous type but doesn’t like the other members getting too close
  • If they ever do he doesn’t talk to them and get’s sassy and slightly childish around you
  • If he gets mad it’s for good reason bc he’s patient man
  • He’ll get all cold and if he’s super angry he’ll yell and then you know bc he does not yell often
  • He rarely apologizes first; fighting with him is hell
  • Dirty/pervy jokes and remarks out of nowhere making you kinda shocked
  • Then he looks at you all innocently and it’s just w h y
  • Trying to be swag
  • On both accounts
  • He’s not into couple items but maybe similar beanies or a bracelet or smth for an anniversary
  • Long walks in the park at night
  • Bringing him and the boys food and watching them practice all day as a result
  • Movie nights with BTS~~~
  • Yoongi moaning about the hyper children and you playing with them to exhaust their energy XD
  • During tours you call or skype or whatever and he answers even though you obviously still dunno the time difference and it’s 4:30AM
  • Bc he’s still working anyway
  • “Baby please sleep and eat and look after yourself I mean I’m not there to make sure you do”
  • “Don’t worry about me I’ll be fine”
  • When they get back they all clamor around you and Yoongi stands there like ‘come hug me and ignore them dammit’
  • And you do bc he looks exhausted and pale and kinda thinner than before and you end up tearing up a bit whilst hugging him tightly
  • Kissing him before being all “what happened to taking care of yourself you know I worry”
  • Him getting all guilty and stuff and you forcing him to sleep and eat and take it easy that day
  • He doesn’t know what he’d do without you tbh bc he forgets time and shit when he works
  • Whenever you’re nervous about smth like a test or performance in smth or whatever he has your back
  • “You got this. Make me proud. Show them the beautiful, swag filled, talented s/o of Min Yoongi”
  • When he’s stressed he avoids you more bc he doesn’t want to burden you but after you do a lil prying he cracks and unloads it all whilst you stroke his hair and encourage him
  • And he feels so much better after getting it all off his chest and he thanks God he has someone like you to listen
  • Similar casual sense of style - you become a stylish couple his airport fashion mhm
  • Him being a total fanboy over Kumamon and you joking he should just date him instead
  • Yoongi with glasses is your fave thing to ever exist holy hell he’s hot
  • His mussed hair in the morning and his husky ass morning voice omg fuck
  • Overall Yoongi made sure you were the one so once you agree to date him you’re HIS! He trusts you completely, is constantly thankful for you being around, and whilst he isn’t the best at showing affection he really tries. He loves you with all his heart and tries to let you know, slowly growing more comfortable around you until you’re like a best friend couple. He cares about you and so sometimes ends up taking more care of you than himself, but all in all you support each other and have a strong, loving relationship <33

Originally posted by forjimin

- Admin Belle

1. I don’t want to ruin our friendship and it’s more important to me than what I’m feeling towards her.
2. I’m afraid of rejections. I’m afraid of getting the “you are important to me, but we’re just friends” message and be left behind. I’m afraid to start all over again.
3. I’m not ready to be in a serious relationship and have commitments.
4. It’s happier because everything stays the same. I can do things without her, I won’t be worried to check her every time, I can stay by my side without invading her personal private space.
5. I know what will be the result, even before I start. I’m just a friend to her and it will be a “no”.
—  E.J. Cenita, 5 Reasons Why I Don’t Want to Confess My Feelings
Little Sister » Mycroft Holmes

Pairing: [Sibling] Mycroft Holmes x Reader

Fandom: Sherlock

Words: 2341

Summary: Life as Mycroft’s twin sister

A/N: This was my first time writing for Mycroft and I really hope that I got his character right! Also, this fic is happy and sad at the same time, so be prepared for some fluff and angst. (:

Originally posted by gatissed


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