i live my life on tumblr

People are always remarking on how weird the stuff I get in my inbox is, but honestly, Tumblr’s got nothing on tabletop roleplaying forums. Y'all haven’t lived until you’ve seen a dude threaten a forum administrator with legal action because another poster allegedly impersonated his fursona.

but sweetheart, I know where I want to be

I want
to live in a sleepy town
so I can dream
at a decent hour
to be in a different state
so I can escape
the map lines of my mind
to give you a new reason
so we can find words
that bring us back to life

I’ve taken things
too far
&
some things took
me to a place
I never thought I would see

sometimes I just
want to rip off my face
&
find another one
you could fall in love
with but then my
son would never know
whose chin he has

sometimes I just
want to get drunk again
get high again
so I can’t remember
what your smile looked
like
&
how I felt when
I twisted it

I want
to remember
so I can’t do it again

I want
you to remember
how we held hands

when our words
were invincible

life is easier
to take
when
it isn’t
taking you
&
I’m not sure

where I’m going

Hey guys! It has been quite a while since I have been active on Tumblr. Sorry for my absence… life has been so busy this summer and some things had to give. But I’ve been missing my happy place & my Tumblr pals so I am going to try to get back into this again and see how it goes. Hope you all are having a great summer and all things are great in your lives. Welcome to my new followers and thanks to those that have hung around. ♥

Hey Everyone! My name is Clifton, and I’m 24 years old, I live in New Hampshire, USA! 🇺🇸

A few facts about me: 

  • I’m getting my Masters in IT (why i wanted to subject myself to more torture idk) 😅
  • I’m a software developer for a fortune 100 company 💵
  • Music is my life! I’m mainly a hip hop guy (old and new) but I do have a guilty pleasure for taylor swift🙈
  • Hiking, traveling, adventures, sports are some of the things I love! (besides video games, netflix, food, GOT). I’ve traveled to Australia (twice), New Zealand and planning on going to Germany for Christmas and New Years this year! 🇦🇺🇳🇿🇩🇪
  • I’m pretty much a high spirit, positive guy (I love emojis obvi) and I enjoy long conversations with people and making new friends! 😁

Pen Pal preferences: 

  • We can exchange emails, letters, packages, messages via any social media platform, or whatever is most comfortable!
  • No preferences on age/race/gender.

So if you’d like to contact me, you can reach out to me via:
my email: cliftonwestjr @ gmail.com
my tumblr: beatific-felicity.tumblr.com/

Have an amazing day everyone!!

P.S. that’s my 8 month puppy, Savvy, graduating from her puppy training class!

AS LONG AS.....

As long as I have a want
I have a reason for living
As long as I have a heart
I have a reason for giving
As long as I have a mind
I have a reason for believing
As long as I have a Song
I have a reason for singing
As long as I have a moment
I have a reason for feeling
As long as I have an obstacle
I have a reason for climbing
As long as I have life
I have a reason for breathing
As long as I have you
I have a reason for loving.

- ЯR

HELP ME OUT

I’ve been putting this off because I thought I might figure it out eventually but now I’m desperate. I don’t know if this is happening because I’m dumb as fuck (which I am) or because there actually is a problem. Here’s what’s bothering me.

How the hell do you turn this safety filter thing off?

I’ve been living with the safety filter on for a while now because I literally don’t know how to turn it off. I can’t see a good portion of the posts you guys are reblogging. This is an issue I have encountered on both of my blogs and I don’t know why it’s happening. 

I’m an adult. Why won’t you let me see it, Tumblr? I’m desperate. I need to turn this thing off. Please help me out, guys. My life depends on you. :’c

Update from the signing earlier: All of the cast are super awesome in person, as I knew deep down xP They all chatted with me and loved my cosplay, especially Matt, Taliesin, and Laura, and Brian recognized my Twitter/tumblr handle and said he was glad to be able to “put a face to the name” 💕

Also, Matt said he saw me flip off Vecna from the balcony and Taliesin heard me yell “That’s my brother!” when he delivered a one-liner during the live show o.o :D

Hello!!!

Hello people!!!😊
My name is Salma and I am half Greek half Egyptian bisexual girl🏳️‍🌈and single who lives in the UK, I go by she/her 👩🏻. I am 17 years old and studying graphic design in college. I love music 🎶 reading 📖 and writing🖋. Illustration/art 🖌 photography 📷 and planning 📝 are my life 😻. My favourite type of planning is bujo. My most cherished tv series is supernatural ✡️. I watch a few more more but that one is my most favourite one. Lately I’ve been addicted to anime. I am not really good at explaining myself but I am very friendly I promise 😂😊. I am looking for friends or something more

👻:salmabassiouny1
Tumblr:http://lostinmythoughts-me.tumblr.com/

  • [Potions with Gryffindor and Slytherin]
  • Professor Slughorn: Imagine if someone handed you a box full of all the items you have lost throughout your life.
  • Severus: It would be nice to get my sense of purpose back.
  • Remus: Oh wow, my childhood innocence! Thank you for finding this.
  • Regulus: My will to live! I haven’t seen this in 15 years!
  • Peter: I knew I lost that potential somewhere!
  • Sirius: Mental stability, my old friend!
  • Professor Slughorn: Guys, could you lighten up a little?

it’s so weird to see people online say that they think all gay people are prone to “morally judgmental black and white thinking” when that’s just… not the lived experience of any gay people I know. most of us if not all of us are constantly interacting with people who hold a low level hatred for us and we don’t have any kind of choice in that. most of the time it’s “my coworker told me she thinks all lesbians are ugly and gross but most of the time she’s really funny so I forgot about it” or “my relative told me he thinks all gay people should be sterilized and put through conversion therapy, but he’s usually pretty nice to talk to at family functions”. like as gay people we’re constantly compromising on our safety/comfort/mental health for the sake of convenience and familiarity so maybe if you think we all judge celebrities or tumblr users too harshly based on a few microaggressions maybe consider the fact that in real life we hardly ever get to control the kind of environment we live in

And y’all don’t wanna hear this but aceness (having lived through it and connected with other people about it believe me I am not talking out of my ass) more than any other identity like this has a LOT of cases where it’s born out of conditions. It has a lot to do with being in a society where sexuality is expected. It has a lot to do with internalized homophobia. It has a lot to do with dysphoria. It has a lot to do with performative heteronormativity being shunned. It has a lot to do with sexual rejection. It has a lot to do with interpersonal anxiety.

And those are all very valid. But because aceness is obsessive about inclusion-as-proof-of-existence (you know, the existence of that community y’all defend so much but also claim you don’t have?), ace discourse also circles around telling people they don’t need to question the source of their feelings, they don’t need to think about the how’s and why’s of their identity. And like, that’s not fucking healthy.

I’m sure there are plenty of people who are just ace because they’re ace. But there are also a lot of people who are traumatized by this traumatic and inflexible society we live in, and while I’m not saying you’re not ace, I am saying figuring out if there’s an identifiable why might make your life so much better.

Because there are so many instances of people who have complicated feelings on love and sex and thus are averse stumbling onto MOGAI tumblr and going ah! Someone gets me! But later finding out that there was a reason, and confronting that reason, and leaving the label behind. Me included. I was aro AND ace, or believed I was for a time, because it seemed to explain a lot of my feelings on the concepts. But I’ve learned different. So in a way I’m glad that the community became so vile that I turned my back on it.

Sometimes I think about that guy that was like “I’m dating women but I don’t want sex with them, I’m ace but for some reason I’m attracted to men but I could never see myself dating one” and it’s like.. that’s textbook internalized homophobia and performative heteronormativity. And this is what I mean when I say it’s dangerous that the Ace community is so allergic to any critique of its methods of gaining ‘members’ or his rhetoric. Because it’s actively trapping people in a state of non-growth.

You won’t stop being valid if you find out there’s a reason you’re averse to romance or sex. You’re not a ‘fake’ aro/ace person if there’s a reason you identify that way.

And that’s the tea on that.

So I put
my head over
his chest,
and I heard
his heart beating,
I feel his soul
breathing,
a song
that makes
my life
more
worth living.
—  ma.c.a // The Sound of Him

While we’re on the subject of tumblr’s shortcomings as a fandom platform, I want to say one more thing. I’ve been thinking lately about how it’s really important to remember that fandom isn’t just on tumblr, but on AO3 as well. One angle that I don’t see people talking about a lot with regard to commenting on fic is that it’s another level of interaction that I don’t think fandom can live without–not just because it fuels writers, but because it can fuel readers too. 

Over the course of my fandom life, I’ve gradually worked my way up to leaving more and more detailed comments (not necessarily always longer, but definitely more specific) and let me tell you–it’s incredibly rewarding. Just recently, I left a comment that prompted a writer to share a lot more about what they were thinking while writing the fic and to give me a rec for a fic with a similar theme to the one they wrote. Sometimes writers will reply to comments by going into more detail about the headcanons they have for characters or explaining more backstory for a part of the fic that I mentioned liking. I’ve had people follow me here on tumblr after I commented on one of their fics on AO3 (and as a writer, I’ve followed people who have commented on my fic too–if I can find them here), and from that, sometimes new friendships arise.

What I’m trying to say is that the importance of comments as an aspect of fandom interactions can’t be overstated. It’s not just about stroking a writer’s ego. You can get things out of it too, whether it be a new headcanon to think about, an insight into the creative process, or even a new friend. Being specific about the parts of fic you like can give writers the confidence to write more things in the same vein or to write more period. Back in the LJ days, fic and personal posts were all mixed in together, so it was easier to have those kinds of interactions, but now that those worlds are split, I think it’s even more important to remember why commenting is important and what it can do for fandom as a whole.

So next time you’re leaving a comment, I challenge you to view it not as “paying your dues” for reading the story, but as an opportunity to interact with the person behind it. You don’t have to be long-winded. Tell them what your favorite part of it was. Pick out something that was unique about it and ask about their inspiration. Talk about how it made you feel or what it reminds you of. You won’t regret it. 

Sometimes I change my mind about people, sometimes I change my mind about myself. Sometimes I like things I thought I’d hate and sometimes I grow to hate things I used to love. Sometimes I can’t make up my mind because I don’t like any of the options and sometimes it’s because I like all of them too much. No one has everything figured out and some people don’t have anything figured out, but that’s called living and it means we’re real.
She’s made out of particles that construct planets, and she has the power to build universes. He’s made a home in her world, and she’s the reason for his oxygen.
—  he lives off
her breath
by @jwfeelings // Message me a word and I’ll write about it
And you don’t make me feel impossible. You don’t make me feel like I’m impossible to love and I cannot thank you enough for that. You could of loved anyone on this planet and you picked me and I cannot say how grateful I am for that. That you picked me. Me. Me. You picked me to love and I think that is the most magical thing ever. You picked to love my laugh and my obsession with animals. You picked me and you picked to love my love for books and all things nature. You picked to love my four year old boy laugh and my harshness when the world get’s to hard. You picked to love me and my pills that I take every day to battle clouds that seem to always follow me. You picked to love my scarred skin from night’s when everything got to much and you picked to love my stubbornness on what I want to eat for dinner. You picked to love my small hands and my small personality which you make me feel like it’s big and beautiful. You picked to love my 4 pm I love you’s and my 2 am I don’t want to be here’s. You picked to love my love for animals and homeless people and my uncontrollable laugh when you make a stupid joke. You picked to love my long brown hair and my dull brown eyes. You picked to love my love hate relationships with my mother and my sad life story. You picked to love me and you not only have made me feel loved, you have made me feel like I was beautiful when all I have ever felt my entire life was unworthy. You showed me that I did not need to live in a world of black and white and you opened my heart to color again and I cannot thank you enough for that but I’d like to start with our little “forever”. I hope you do too.
—  Thank you for loving me when I do not love myself. // Deeply Feeling Series