i literally listened to it for a whole day when the album came out

Oh Sehun//Love Thy Neighbor

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Summary: You move into a new apartment after your boyfriend leaves to go abroad, making your relationship long distance. You’re tired, stressed and missing him - and your next door neighbor isn’t making life any easier. (Part 1/Part 2)
Scenario: neighbor!AU, slightly angsty
Word Count: 3,712

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Reasons I can’t get “Pierre & Anatole” out of my head

I had firmly resolved that “The Confrontation” from Les Miserables would always and forever be my favorite male-to-male confrontation in all of musical theatre. Firmly resolved. But then came Natasha, Pierre, and the Great Comet of 1812 (or just The Great Comet) and asdfghjkl guys, I’ve been obsessing over the whole musical. Especially with the Original Broadway cast album just released!!

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Anyways, here’s some of the reasons I love “Pierre and Anatole” so much. There are spoilers, so stay away if you’re afraid of those ;)

-the TENSION alone from the opening music…and they haven’t even spoken yet!

-Even though the lyrics are almost directly quoted from the actual book War and Peace, they still seem so musical and rhyme-y

-“Mon cher” (Anatole is literally calling Pierre “my dear” in French)

-How snobbish and aloof Anatole is trying to seem when he’s really about to wet his pants

-The rage of Pierre!!!

-“I don’t know what deprives me of the pleasure of smashing your head in with this” (Pierre holding a paper weight)

-The difference from how Pierre was all “f*ck it” in “Preparations,” and “The Abduction,” when he didn’t know that the girl Anatole was marrying happened to be Natasha, to how he is all “f*ck you” in this song, now that he has the knowledge

-“Pierre paces the room several times in silence. Anatole sits at a table, frowning and biting his lips”

-Anatole being a stupid whiny little b*tch and yet still…

-“Amuse youself with women like my wife!”

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^omg. this. line. Need I go in to how Anatole and Helene are *probably* the Jaime and Cersei Lannister of their day? Need I?! And all the other stuff…omg. This is a harsh bite.

-just every way that Pierre puts Anatole in his place to defend honor that isn’t even his own

-“But you have used such words to me—"Scoundrel,“ and so on, Which, as a man of honor, I will not allow anyone to use” ha.ha.ha. “You could at least take back your words, eh? If you want me to do as you wish”

Pierre you better not! No Pierre!!!

- …..


- “Fine I take them back”

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and not only does Pierre “take them back,” he also asks that Anatole forgive him, and then gives money to that heartless chihuahua!!! And he offers—offers to do so. Smh. WTF?! Why?!?!?!

And, finally….

-“For Petersbuuuuuuurrrrrrrg!” (you will have to listen to it to understand)

My Reputation Secret Session Experience

(an abbreviated version to keep confidentiality)

I got a DM from Taylor Nation before the London SS had happened, so I honestly had no idea what the “secret event” was. They called me and said the event was in Rhode Island, and I mean the only thing there is her house but I didn’t know what the event entailed. Knowing Taylor, I was like she’s gonna make it so fun and so detailed and so personal whatever it is.

I was not able to focus on anything for two weeks because I was just thinking about taylor and rhode island. I took a train from NYC to Rhode Island the night before. Wednesday October 18, 2017 was such a GORGEOUS day. The water was SO BLUE. THE SUN WAS SHINING. and there was a helicopter hovering in front of taylor’s house which annoyed me but yeah I’ll try to get over that.
Fast forward to being at her house. First of all, her security detail is hilarious. They are so nice and funny and were cracking jokes the whole time. The very first person I talked to was none other than Scott Swift, the man the legend, wearing a striped sweater only a dad would buy and his pockets overflowing with 1989 guitar picks. I spent a good chunk of time chatting with him on the deck he’s amazing—we stan forever.
Also I legit hung out and excitedly mingled in Taylor’s kitchen so long that I forgot it wasn’t normal to be in her kitchen. There was a huge spread of Chick-fil-a nuggets, pizza, chips, custom Rep cookies and M&Ms, Smart Water and Diet Coke.
*side note i’m a vegetarian but if taylor would have offered me a nugget i would have forgotten my vow against meat*
I was so comfortable and having so much fun that it just felt like I was at my friend’s house party, which I was. But then like every 30 minutes it would hit me that to the outside world, she was THE Taylor Swift, and I was in her kitchen…
Fast forward to Andrea coming down to also hang out and mingle with us. She smelled amazing (so did the entire house). She came up to me and Sol and said hello with a huge smile on her face and then pulled us both into a tight hug at the same time and said “YOU BEAUTIFUL SOULS.” and honestly I just wanted to hug her ten more times and be like THANK YOU FOR YOUR SERVICE MADAM PRESIDENT.
Side note, the kitchen has adorable childhood pictures of Taylor and Austin and pictures of the family on the beach and its all v cute.
Also I saw the mermaid, I MEAN THE MERMAID that taylor and selena posed by and i was like wow this iconic.
ALSO as many of you know i’m not only a taylor stan, but a huge todrick stan, and i have been for years. so i died a little when i realized that i was leaning against the same kitchen counter that they were sitting on during thanksgiving and i was like wow its cool i’m fine we’re fine EVERYTHING IS FINE.
Fast forward to Austin also coming downstairs to mingle. He’s adorable and I love him. I didn’t get to chat with him bc it was kind of crowded but he was smiling and laughing and looked genuinely happy to be there.
Tree was also floating around the kitchen here and there and let me just say she’s GORGEOUS. (also she was the MVP later when I needed to pee)
Okay fast forward some more and it’s time to move into the living room. There are cushions on the floor and I’m sitting with all of my friends, including several of us who are from NYC. There are people setting the room and Andrea, Scott and Austin just look so excited that we’re there and that made me so happy.
After what felt like centuries of people opening doors, stomping upstairs and shutting the curtains, it was time for the queen to make her entrance.
The door to my right flew open and that tall drink of water in black thigh high boots and blonde curls and a huge smile entered the room and collectively we all made noises that probably sounded non-human.
She said “Hi, I’m Taylor” as she sat down in this throne of a chair and crossed her legs that are collectively longer than the great wall of china.
She said “you’ve done your detective work right (my detectivey heart fell out of my detectivey ass) and you are at the Reputation Secret Sessions

**and that’s where the cone of silence comes on and what happened for the next several hours at the secret sessions STAYS at the secret sessions.**

So after I DIED because she obviously played us every track of the album. It was time for picturesssss.
As I walked in to see Taylor, I didn’t even make it to her yet before she strutted toward me and scooped me into a hug so tight that I said “hey i’m kelsea” into her hair ;askdjflskfj
She pulled away and was like “yeah I know, and you spell it S-E-A right?” AND LEMME TELL YOU i’ve gone my entire 24 years of life with my name spelled wrong, even people I’ve known for years will spell it Kelsey. and I replied to Taylor, “UM YEAH” and she got so excited she fist pumped and then put her hand up for a high five and we literally had the most epic high five of my entire life I’m pretty sure they heard it in Australia. ok.
At this point Sol walked in and I introduced her to Taylor too. She loved Sol so much. so so much.
Then I asked Taylor if she found me on Tumblr or Twitter, and she immediately replied “Tumblr” with a nod. and then she goes “I KNOW you love TODRICK, and I LOVE that.”  and I’m pretty sure that was the moment my brain short-circuited.

and i was like “OKAY well TN contacted me via Twitter and I was real confused because my handle is  @ toddyownsmyass” and her face lit up, her mouth dropped open, she grabbed my hand and laughed and said “OH MY GOD HAHAHHA”. 

Next I told her about our annual NYC July 9th party. I was like listen taylor, the entire reason i met sol is because we’re tumblr friends and we have this party every year at sofia’s apt in the upper west side where we stay up until 1:58 AM listening to Last Kiss and then she was like “AWWWW” and I remember her face just looking at the two of us in pure amazement.
OKAY now it was time for pictures and Taylor was like “we’re gonna take a group shot first and then we’ll do individuals ok?” and during our group photo she hugged both me and Sol so tightly. 

She looks at me and I put my hands together and I’m like “Okay, I want to recreate a photo you and todrick did on the couch” and she got so excited she was like “GREAT but I’m not doing the splits again” as she walks over to this gorgeous white couch. and i was like “nah girl i CANT do the splits, i wanna do that back to back one” and she was so invested it was adorable. It took us a few minutes of sitting back to back and discussing our knee placement, our hand placement, and both of us kept turning and looking over our shoulders to make sure we were matching and coordinating our bodies right. and then right before the picture taylor goes “what should we do with this hand? oh i know lets hold hands” and she grabbed my hand and held it so tightly. i’m pretty sure you can see in my facial expression how much that meant to me—i’m BEAMING. out of all forms of social interaction, hand holding is one of the most intimate,it’s not something we do with very many people if you really think about it.
after the picture is taken, we are still sitting back to back on the couch, holding hands, and she turns to look at me and goes “that’s the cutest pose i’ve ever done” and i’m all “Awwww thanks!” thinking she’s just being a sweetheart. and then her expression is happy but a little more serious, and she goes “No, I’m being serious, like I’ve never done anything cuter.” and ladies that’s probably the moment I was like “HI I’M KELSEA AND I WELCOME DEATH WITH OPEN ARMS”.
It was going to be time to leave because we had already taken our pictures but Taylor grabbed me and Sol again and squeezed us and gushed “you little FLOWER buttons” and at the time my brain was like ???? I thought maybe she was going to say we were flowers, and then halfway through changed her mind to buttons…well ANYWAYS she reblogged that photo of us later and clarified that she believes sol and i embody the aesthetic of tiny adorable little flower-shaped buttons and now i will no longer look at flowers nor buttons the same way and Sol and I text each other randomly “FLOWER BUTTONS” just to make each other cry it’s great. okay moving on…
It was time to leave and right before i walked away, I yelled to her “TAYLOR, YOU’RE INVITED TO OUR JULY 9TH PARTY ANYTIME, UPPER WEST SIDE, NYC, SEE YOU THERE!” and i did some mix between dabbing and pointing that can only be attributed to all of the time i spent in college with frat boys. and with this big grin on her face she yelled back “THANKS! LOVE YOU GUYS!”
and i stumbled out of the room to pick up the Reputation merch bag Taylor gave all of us (GET YOU A WOMAN).
As her security guard let us into a van to be taken back to our car, I asked what time it was and it was so late Sofia and I had missed our train back to Manhattan. We didn’t care. We were stranded in Rhode Island but WHO CARES BC TAYLOR SWIFT LOVES US.
Ali from TN was like, “you guys have friends at your hotel right? like you have somewhere to go?” so sweet i love ali– we stan her forever.
Sofia and I went back to our hotel, which we had already checked out of mind you, and sat in the hallway, dazed and happy, from 2-4am. Sofia posted a photo of us on tumblr and taylor liked it and i was like wow taylor knows we’re stranded that’s hilarious i bet she’s laughing. We ended up calling a car service to pick us up in rhode island AND DRIVE US BACK TO NEW YORK CITY IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT. I got back to my apt on the upper east side at 5am and took a nap and then got up for work and tried to be an adult but it was a very sad attempt.
This is a very abbreviated account of what happened that fateful day Taylor welcomed me into her home for 8+ hours. A lot of it has to stay secret and confidential until the album comes out on Nov 10. Even more of it will likely never leave the walls of that gorgeous house by the sea. I will cherish these memories always and I know I am forever changed as a person from the Reputation Secret Sessions.

Thank you @taylorswift for EVERYTHING. I’m so proud to call you a friend.


Sooo, I never thought I would ever make this kind of post but here we are. I still can’t believe it. This is the story of how my biggest dream, meeting Taylor Swift got true. I met her at the Secret Sessions for her Album reputation in London. I am not going to talk about the event in general. It’s called the “secret” sessions. But what I am going to talk about is how I personally met Taylor. So I walked through the door of the room she was in and when she saw me she shined so bright and came up to me saying “heeeeeeey!!” and then we hugged so thight. Like it was not one of these “polite” hugs, we almost ran into each others arms. And when she hugged me she said something that sounded like “Marleen”, my name. But I am not really sure if she really said it. I don’t know if she said but but from her face when she saw me I knew she recognized me somehow. She looked at me and my sister and said “you guys are so pretty!” and I said “thank you so much!” She hugged my sistser chatted a little bit with her (kinda about reputation so I will not tell you what they chatted about) and she gave her an high five. She turned to me then and I said “I totally know what I am going to listen to the next few months!” and she was like “YEEAH” making these really cute dance moves and then I awkwardly made them too and said I already see myself driving my care like *making car driving + singing* moves. She asked us “So what is your favorite song?” and we were like “uhhmmmm, I don’t ehevn know they’re all so good maybe *insert song name on november 10th here*” and she got really happy about that. Then we took your picture and I just hugged her and she leaned her head to mine and, as you see on the picture, I literally felt and saw her curls falling down on my face. After we took the picture I looked her into the eyes again and said “I love you so much” and she made this really lovely and cute face and was like “ohhhhh” and then we hugged again really warm and tight. The moment I hugged her everything on this world that ever hurt me was gone. Everything was perfect the way it was. When we left, I was almost out of the room, I turned around and said “… and SEE YOU ON TUMBLR” and she was like “YEAH! with a bright smile in her face.”I still can’t believe my biggest dream finally got true. Taylor is so kind and caring to everyone.

@taylorswift : Thank you so much for inviting me! This has been the best day of my life and I will never forget it in my whole life. I have been on your side since  2008, when I was 12 years old. I have been to your concerts in oberhausen, berlin and cologne, and supported you through every phase of our lifes. I see you as my best friend. You have always been by my side, you might know that from the past few years since you’ve been following me on tumblr but way before that I loved you as much as I do now.I promise, I will tell my kids and grandkids about you and how you inspired me to be the person I am. I will forever stay on your side and defend you, no matter what. I will always keep that day you wanted to meet me too in my mind. Thank you for making me and so many other people so happy. I feel special because of you!

@taylornation thank you so much for everything!! You guys were so nice and planning this event must have been a lot of work. You truly did a great job!!!

nathanael headcanons bc why not?
  • nathanael: there are people who throw out their copic markers instead of buying refills for them. how tragic is that?
  • he has a really hard time following in class when teachers talk too quickly or when the material is too heavy. so sometimes he’ll just sketch or do other homework in the meantime and ask ivan for notes after class is over. 
    • ivan’s happy to help out. it’s worth it for the album covers that nathanael draws for the mixtapes ivan gives to mylène. 
  • nino and nathanael used to sit in the back of the class together because they randomly bonded over this french rock band, magma, that they both love
    • there was one day where nathanael came sprinting into class with magma’s new album lifted over his head and nino literally jumped out of his chair and started screaming because “holy crap i forgot they were dropping an album can we please listen to it during lunch?”
  • adrien commissions ladybug fanart from nathanael in exchange for his physics tutoring services because mme. mendeleiev is really getting on his case about the quiz he didn’t do that well on
    • when nathanael gets a near perfect score on his latest physics test, he surprises adrien with a full-body, digitally colored print of ladybug and chat noir that adrien currently has framed in his room. 
  • alya and nathanael enter into a pact with each other where they save up small bits and pieces of their allowance at a time so that they can split the cost on new issues of their favorite comic book series
  • nathanael knew juleka and rose were dating before anyone else in class did and he’s super proud of that. the minute they announced it to the class, chloe cursed in the middle of homeroom and handed fourty euros to nathanael. 
  • marinette and nathanael are mutuals on tumblr and they’re always showing each other memes in between classes and tagging each other in posts. but they’re jerks about it because they won’t tell anyone in class what their urls are. 
  • kim challenges nathanael one day, saying that he can jog ten laps around the block quicker than nathanael can sketch him running and nathanael is totally up for that bet. 
    • it turns into a huge deal. sabrina spreads the event on facebook, alix spends all week training kim, and max oversees the event as the official judge and time keeper. 
    • when nathanael wins, kim bows to him whenever he sees him in the halls for close to two weeks. 
thin walls

summary; secrets have been kept, but the truth will always find its way out. when shawn hears something he shouldn’t have through the thin walls, walls of his own seem to crash down as well.



Your back hit his plush white sheets as you felt his soft lips roaming your hot bare skin. It was euphoric — you were lost in your own pleasure. Hands gripping your waist as your head was thrown back, all you were focused on was the scene unfolding in front of you. You loved moments like this. Something about the ability of being able to have both ecstasy and intimacy all at the same time had you running into this very scene every time.

As he found your sweet spot lying underneath collar bone, you couldn’t help but moan out his name. Pants and moans filled the room as he continued to mark your flushed skin. Your mind might’ve been under the influence of the many shots you took tonight, but the butterflies that he gave you in the pit of your stomach seemed to make you sober enough to absorb all of the pleasure. 

He collapsed on you a few seconds later as the two of you found a comfortable position to lay in. “That was amazing,” You let out as your chest heaved from what happened minutes before. Lying your head on his smooth and toned chest, you dozed off once the fun and buzz of alcohol began to subside.

Shawn stretched his stiff arms as he rubbed his eyes trying to wake himself up. He reached over to hug you but when he grabbed over at nothing, he started feeling suspicious. Looking over to your side of the bed to see your pillow standing straight up and sheets still smooth in the same way he set it up the night before, Shawn instantly knew that you never came home last night. You had told him that you were going to celebrate your best friend’s birthday and that you would be home late, which he was totally okay with. 

You weren’t lying about the party, but Shawn didn’t know that being home late meant not coming home at all. Shawn tried to stay up to greet you when you would come home most likely drunk, but his eyes shut before he could ever do so. He rolled over towards the night stand perched against the wall to check his charging phone for any texts. Unlocking his phone, he was only faced with the numerous texts still waiting for a reply that he sent to you the night before. He sent another message and almost called you until he figured that you spent the night at your friend’s house. 

Shawn knew how much you valued trust in a relationship, and he knew that you hated it when he worried too much about you. Shawn respected your words, but he couldn’t help but be a little scared about your whereabouts. He hated the thought of you being hurt or in danger because of him and his carelessness.

Adjusting to the natural sunlight peeking through his shared room with you, Shawn brought himself into the living room and then to the kitchen, making a beeline to the fridge. It was a little early for even Shawn to be awake, but he wanted to get himself ready just in case you were down to hang out today. He made two cups of coffee, one for him, and one for you. It was a habit made from living with you for almost two years now, practically muscle memory to him. Unlike you, Shawn was always a morning person and he knew that you always appreciated waking up to a cup of fresh brewed coffee with specifically two sugars and one cream. 

He was always so attentive to all of your details that sometimes you couldn’t help but think that he knew you better than you yourself.

Shawn adored everything about you. Everyday, he’d learn something new about you, soaking in all of new information like a sponge. He’d often take a few minutes out of his day and daily workout routine to just sit back and and think about how lucky he was to call you his. Shawn couldn’t help the stupid grin that would stretch from ear to ear or the warm feeling in the pit of his stomach when he’d think about you. Everything you did made him swoon and he fully knew that you had him wrapped around your finger. He didn’t mind though, because at the end of the day, he still got to call you his. 

You had easily been the best girlfriend Shawn has ever had; something about you made him feel alive, loved. Like any couple, the two of you have your ups and downs, but always find a way to overcome it. The relationship came so naturally – you were like his best friend, his partner in crime. Shawn didn’t know how much he needed you until you were in his life. You were the drug and he was your addict. He made you feel so special and he made sure that you knew how much he loved you. Shawn could spend hours on end talking about you – he could even write whole albums solely about you if he wanted to. It might’ve been two years down the road between you and Shawn, but he still found a way to make the relationship feel like the two of you were still in the honeymoon stage. Something about you always made his heart beat faster, his legs weak, and hands jittery. 

Shawn might’ve been a spontaneous and impulsive person, but he knew one thing: Shawn wanted to marry you one day in the future. You were his everything.

A short ten minutes had passed and the sun was almost done rising as Shawn took a seat in the living room the two of you decorated together. The silence was getting too much to sit through and the apartment suddenly felt so empty without your company. Shawn had missed the morning kisses he was so used to giving you and all he wanted at the moment was for you to come home so he could shower you in cuddles and kisses. You still hadn’t returned any of Shawn’s calls and he was starting to worry. Picking up his phone, he called Ian, who was at the party. 

After three rings, another voice was finally on the other line. “Hey Ian, have you seen Y/N? She still hasn’t come home from the party last night. Do you know if she stayed at Jessica’s house?” He tapped his foot patiently waiting for his friend to sooth his concerns.

“Wait, she’s not home? I mean it’s still pretty early right now, but I could’ve sworn I saw her get picked up at like two in the morning. I thought you came by to get her?” Ian explained, beginning to feel the same panic as Shawn.

Color drained from his face and he immediately felt a rush of guilt. He scolded at himself for not trying to get a hold of you earlier.

Shawn’s stomach dropped and his gripped tightened on the phone as he was becoming all too aware of the situation’s reality. “Alright, thanks man. One of her friends probably let her stay the night. Talk to you later.” He quickly said. 

Who could you have possibly gone home with? Checking his call history, Shawn made sure that he didn’t look over any missed calls from you. If you needed a ride, why didn’t you just call him? 

All of the possibilities swarmed his already busy mind. Shawn so badly wanted to give his girlfriend the benefit of the doubt, his heart telling him to trust you. The thought slowly brought him to ease as he remembered the words that you’d always say.

“Trust in me, Shawn. Trust in us. I love you, and I’ll never hurt you.”

Shawn recited through memory as he sunk back into the couch, watching the sun rise.

“Jessica, he’s not gonna find out. Please stop nagging me,” You said in a hushed tone to your best friend. Jessica has been your best friend since freshman year of high school, and you were starting to question if she was on your side or not. This wasn’t the first time the two of you have had this conversation.

“Look, all I’m saying is that you need to make a decision. You’ve been fucking another guy behind your boyfriend’s back for four months now. Did it ever cross your mind that you are cheating on your boyfriend while he’s completely oblivious to it? He was probably on tour thinking about you every moment from the other side of the world while you’ve practically been falling out of love with him.” She scolded at you.

“Hush! Don’t say it like that, someone might hear you.” A pang of guilt filled your body, “You’re on speaker and I’m literally a yard away from the apartment’s door! And don’t say that I don’t love him, because you know that’s not true.”

“You wouldn’t be doing this if you loved him,” Jessica quipped back.

Your best friend was right – she was always right, but you didn’t want to admit it. “Bullshit. I just missed him and Matthew happened to be there when Shawn wasn’t. He gave me the things Shawn couldn’t. The distance got to me, okay?Shawn’s just not enough for mean anymore, I guess,” You tried to persuade your friend that you weren’t in the wrong though you fully knew that everything about this was anything but right.

If you knew Jessica at all, she was probably rubbing her temples and groaning at you. “Are you hearing yourself right now?” Your friend spoke through the phone even louder. “Shawn has girls throwing themselves at him every night, but I don’t see him sleeping around. He’s been just as lonely and needy as you. Shawn has been back for two months, thinking that everything is still okay. Break things off with Matthew, and tell Shawn the truth before it’s too late.” She continued.

“Ugh, I don’t know what to do at this point. I can’t just l-let go of Matthew like that.” That was the truth. 

Something about him was intoxicating; he gave you the high that you so badly craved, he gave you the goosebumps that your relationship with Shawn couldn’t.

“Y/N, you know I love you, but you know full well that Shawn doesn’t deserve this. The poor boy is head over heels for you, and you’re throwing it away two years with him for some fling?” You quickly hid behind a corner as if anyone was listening to the phone call. 

“Okay, fine I’ll figure it out soon, but please don’t say anything. Shawn’s not gonna find out. There’s nothing to worry about.” You assured your friend as the two of you said goodbye. 

“Just, just don’t screw Shawn over like that.” Your friend warned before finally hanging up.

You had spent the last five minutes in front of the door to your shared apartment with Shawn talking to your best friend about the dilemma that you were in. Sure, you had been having an affair with another guy you met at a party four and a half months ago, but you couldn’t bring yourself to tell Shawn. The look on his face when you’d tell him would crush you. You could already imagine the way your betrayal would hit him. You knew Shawn didn’t deserve this, but the selfish part in you didn’t want to lose him. He did so much for you, gave you so much unconditional love. You could confidently say that he’s the best boyfriend you’ve ever had, but you were far from being the best girlfriend to him. 

He needed a loyal and loving girlfriend, something you’ve been neither of for a while. You’re not sure when it all happened, but things have been different between the two of you ever since Shawn’s been home from this tour. Sure, the two of you had done long distance before, but you were finally feeling the heavy effects of it on your bones. There hasn’t been the same exhilarating spark that you two first had at the beginning of your two year relationship – Shawn’s presence no longer made you feel any emotion but hurt. You didn’t want to say that you were no longer in love with you, but it’d be a lie to say that you still felt same way you did before he left for tour. The worst part was how the predicament was one sided because you knew for a fact that Shawn still thought everything was going okay. 

Pushing your thoughts aside figuring it was too early in the morning to be thinking about that stuff, you quietly unlocked the door. Making sure to stay quiet since Shawn was most likely still sleeping, you turned the knob to open it when it was swung open before you even had the chance to. 

Initially startled, it didn’t take you long to become aware of what was happening. You instantly regretted having the phone call so close to you and Shawn’s shared home, and you knew you were going to regret looking up because when you did, you felt the heartbreak you were trying to avoid. The person who had opened the door had been none other than Shawn, and when you saw the tears brimming at his eyes, lips quivering, and shoulders sunken, you knew exactly why.

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It’s breaking me down. Piece by piece - Stan Uris x reader

Requested by anon: If you’re still taking requests could you write a super fluffy scenario for Stan feeling insecure about the scars/wounds he got from Pennywise (when IT tried to bite his face off) and reader comforts him?

YesYesYesYesYes!!! In this they will be 16 as I need them to be able to drive because reasons. It will add to the story I promise. This got a big angsty in the middle but ends in pure utter fluff<3



He was beautiful. He truly was.

The way his curly locks bounced around his head when he walked, ran or rode his bike was beautiful. The way his hair tumbled away from his face and the way his eyes lit up when you two drove around in his car with the windows down was beautiful. He would never drive with the windows down if you weren’t with him since it usually made a mess inside of the car and his OCD couldn’t handle that but with you as a distraction he felt more at peace. The way his dimples showed when he smiled and the way his eyes would get red and puffy after a haunting nightmare was beautiful. His multiple round scars that were littered along the sides of his face were beautiful. When he got excited because of a bird he spotted and he went to ramble on about it he was beautiful.

Long story short, he was gorgeous. But there was times when he didn’t see why you thought that.

Don’t get me wrong, Stan wasn’t some pretentious asshole that thought he was the hottest guy on planet earth but he didn’t think he was ugly. The guy just thought of himself as, average. But the scars that now trailed his face from his temples to his jaw made him insecure. They reminded him of the clown and all the trauma it caused him and his friends but most importantly, you. You thought that they weren’t a big deal. They just made him; him and if you said he wasn’t amazing then that would be a blatant lie.

July 4th, 1990

The hot summer air washed over your hand and into the American flag you were holding out the window of Stan’s car. Born in the USA blasted throughout the entire radio system as Stan drove down Main Street. You two were driving with the other cars in a parade sort of way, since Derry decided that they would try something new for this 4th of July they let the locals decorate their cars with American flags and drive through town.

Stan wasn’t used to the attention but you somehow convinced him to do this with you. You weren’t too patriotic yourself this was just for the pure fun of actually engaging in something the city had arranged. So that’s how you ended up in this situation, not that it was a bad one. The midday sun beamed and reflected into your eyes that had crinkled corners because of the wide smile that played along your features. He was smiling and laughing along with you, the joke he just told being the source of you laughter.

The little drive wasn’t too long and after about 15-20 minutes you were strolling hand in hand in Derry park where you and Stan would go birdwatching. It was full of families with kids and couples having picnics or relaxing in the sun. Birds chirping and happy children’s laughter filled the air, but that was not the only thing that did.

As you two walked along the little pavement that traveled through the park hushed whispers could be heard. It wasn’t a new phenomenon though, your friends still kept the loser title you were given in 5th grade so it was bound to happen. Stan was one of the few Jewish kids in the school so that really got people to assume all of the stereotypes about his religion were correct. This obviously got him some unwanted negative attention but now with his rather unusual scars on his face it expanded.

Y/N was known as freak. Just another freak. It all started when Greta Bowie decided that it would be fun to spread rumors about her. They ranged from “she has literally fucked every guy in the losers club” to “I heard that she basically begged Mark for her to be allowed to give him a blowjob”. It was all bullshit, obviously. She didn’t care too much though. She and her friends knew the truth, that she and Stanley had been together ever since they were 13 year olds with no mishaps and very little fights. Of course it just made more rumors surface (wether or not they came from Greta was unclear) about how she was a filthy cheater who did nothing but hurt Stan. Not that they cared for him but when they got a chance to shit talk they took it.

When the couple was seen together the most common whispers went along the lines of “ look it’s that Jew kid and his whore girlfriend” or “it’s freak and scar face”. Y/N didn’t mind the comments about her, sure they hurt like hell in the beginning but now that had faded significantly. But the comments about her boyfriend went almost straight to his head. In the beginning it wasn’t that bad, he had been teased and tormented all his life by other kids but as he heard it more and more the more ha actually started thinking that it was true. He started thinking he was ugly, that the scars made him unlovable and that Y/N would leave him eventually.

He did feel bad for thinking that lowly of Y/N but he couldn’t help the insecure thoughts slipping into his mind. Today he couldn’t take it anymore. So as they were passing a bunch of the kids in their year started shouting insults their way, something about Stan being “a disgusting fucking Jew” and how his scars were “so ugly that not even Y/N truly loved him”. That was the last drop and it sent him over the edge. He gripped onto your hand harshly and quickened his pase while he almost dragged you with him to his car, he wanted to go home.

Tears were threatening to spill out of his eyes and small sniffles accompanied the growing lump in his throat. His cheeks were growing hot as he stomped towards his car with a fairly confused Y/N just behind him. Stan let go of your hand as he went to the drivers side of the car, flung open the door, sat down into the seat and slammed it closed. After a second or two you sprung into action.

Once you were safely at home on your porch is when he broke. You walked up to him, looked up slightly and softly wiped a tear from his face and then it all came crashing down. The one tear turned into sobs that racked through Stan’s whole body. You threw your arms around his torso and pulled him downwards to hug him. You could basically feel the Insecurity and fragility radiating off of him. He automatically linked his arms around your waist and put his head into the crook of his neck which made your shirt get stained with tears but you couldn’t care less. After a minute the violent sobs subsided and got replaced with small sniffles.

Slightly pulling away you placed your hands on each side of his face. His wet and red painted cheeks glistened in the sun and for some reason Stan had a smile on his lips that somehow looked like he was trying to apologize. You felt burning tears in your eyes threatening to spill, you had to stay strong. For Stanley.

“Let’s go inside, get something to eat and talk about this when we’ve both calmed down a bit. Okay?” You said with a very small but reassuring smile on your lips.

“Okay” his voice was hoarse whisper as he was trying to keep himself together.

“God I love you”

Later that night you two were laying huddled up in your bed with limbs tangled and listening to the new album by Tears for fears. By this time the darkness had surrounded the two of you and the only light that traveled through the room was that of your dimly lit lamp at your desk. You were tracing random patterns on his chest as he played with your hair. You had laid like that since you two had finished eating and cleaning up. The talking had eventually died down and formed into a comfortable silence instead. The events earlier hadn’t been brought up yet though and it would happen sooner or later. You chose the former option and took it into your own hands.

Shifting slightly you sat up and Stan watched you curiously as you did. Soon enough he felt the tension in the air that was starting to set and did the same too.

“So about earlier…” you looked down “what happened back there?” the question felt strange in a way.

“So, okay. You know how people talk about me. About us. Well after the Pennywise incident…” he gestured to his scars “it have blown up even more. People attack me for being Jewish and for my scars. I know I shouldn’t care but it’s starting to get to my head and…” he trailed off while biting down on his bottom lip in and attempt to stop it from quivering “it’s breaking me down. Piece by piece. As if I wasn’t traumatized enough after the sewers everyone decided ‘Hey, let’s pick on the kid who looks a little different!’ and make it even worse. Everything had just been leading up till now and it hurts. They are making me feel more and more insecure by the DAY! IT HURTS!” the last part was a shout that was followed by a lone tear traveling down his cheek.

Carefully you wiped it away and placed a kiss on the top scar on the left side of his face. Then on the one below the previous and the one after that and the one after that. Lastly you kissed his lips, it was short sweet and so loving. You looked up at him, he looked down at you. Taking one of his hands into yours you stared to play with his fingers.

“Stan, you are the most amazing person I have ever met. You are the one who never fails to amaze me. If that is by your passion about birds or by how strong you are, you always succeed. Stan you are so, so, so strong. The things that we went through that summer had everyone scared but it hit you and Bev the hardest. You were so close to the end yet you pulled through. I know you’re still fighting that internal battle and so am I, so are the rest of them too. The marks that damn clown left on you doesn’t make you any less than you were before. They make you more if anything. They make you, you Stan. You were beautiful before and you are beautiful now. You are the one boy I fell in love with three years ago and you are the boy I still love, just as much if not even more. I fell in love with your laugh, your smile, your dimples. Your sense of humor, your brains, your sarcasm, your clap backs…” you chuckled slightly as this made you feel like a little kid again. “I fell in love with you, Stanley Isaac Uris. No one else”

What A Feeling - #1 Heart Rates & House Parties

*July 2017

“Good morning, good morning,” Nick Grimshaw said over the radio airwaves. “We have a full house in the studio this morning because Y/Band’s/Name is joining us. Why don’t you all introduce yourselves so our listeners know that you all are in fact here with us.”

“What’s up, London,” your brother, Mitch, said into the microphone. “Mitch is here.”

You laughed shaking your head. “Hiya, it’s Y/N, thanks for having us Grimmy,”

“Even though its a bit early, I’m here too,” Jeremy yawned.

“Can we get this lad some coffee?” Taylor laughed.

“He’s already had like four cups on the way over,” you laughed.

“It was a long night,” Jeremy laughed.

“Oh, was it now?” Grimmy smirked. “Anyway, since you lot are our guests, why don’t you pick the first song of the hour?”

“Uh, okay, lads what should we pick?” You asked. “This is a lot of pressure.”

“What’s your favorite song right now?” Nick asked.

“I can answer that!” Taylor smirked. “She’s obsessed with Harry Styles’ solo album.”

“No, I’m not!” You blushed. “But it is a great record, you have to admit that.”

“I don’t think anyone was denying that,” Nick laughed. “What’s your favorite song from his album?”

“Oh, I don’t know,” you laughed. “Uh, why don’t we go with Only Angel? That’s like a good morning song, right? It starts off all nice and slow and then bam it turns into a jam.”

“Good god, never say that again,” Mitch laughed.

“Alright everyone, here is Only Angel by The Harry Styles requested by none other than the beautiful and talented Y/N,” Nick said before starting the song.

After the song finished up, you went into the actual interview.

“Okay, so you all are family, right? Mitch and Y/N, you two are brother and sister and then you Jeremy and Taylor are brothers, but you all are cousins?” Nick asked.

“Yeah, it’s just a big family gathering,” you laughed.

“So, how did that work? Did you all just decide to form a band one day or what?” Nick asked.

“Um, well, we grew up in a very musical family. Our Dad was a professional drummer and songwriter for many well known artists, so we just grew up surrounded by music. But as far as us becoming a band it literally all started in our garage,” Mitch laughed.

“Yeah, anytime we’d all get together, we would just go to the garage and start messing around with our guitars and other instruments. I’d say by the time we were about fourteen or fifteen is when we started taking it more seriously and writing our own songs and performing them outside of the garage and our families,” you said.

“And here are, almost ten years later with seven number one record breaking albums and countless awards,” Nick laughed.

“It’s crazy to think about really,” Taylor said. “That we’ve been doing this for so long and our fans are still wanting to hear new music from us and coming out to our shows.”

“We’re really thankful and grateful for our fans because if it weren’t for them, we  wouldn’t be here after all these years in the business, but honestly I think that it helped that our fans are sort of growing up with us. When we came out with our first record, I was almost sixteen at the time and now I’m almost twenty six, you know? So, as we were growing up and experiencing life, we wrote that into our music and our fans were experiencing similar situations,” you said.

“Well, it’s really a great record and we love it, we play your songs all the time. Thank you all  for stopping by today with your busy schedules, we loved having you,” Nick smiled.

“No problem, thanks for having us,” Taylor smiled.

Once you all were off the air, you took off your headphones and shook everyone’s hand.

“How long are you going to be in London?” Nick asked you.

“Um, we’re here all week,” you smiled.

“Great. I’m having a bit of a house party with close friends tomorrow night, would you want to come?” He asked. “All of you are invited.”

“Sure, sounds fun,” you smiled. “Need us to bring anything?”

“Just yourselves!” He smiled giving you a hug. “This is gonna be so fun!”

You laughed shaking your head at him before grabbing your things and leaving the BBC Studio.


“Hello everyone, we’re here with none other than movie  star Harry Styles, here to talk to us about his new film Dunkirk,” Nick said into the microphone.

“Hi,” Harry laughed putting his headphones on.

“So, how you doing? Last night was a huge night for you,” Nick said.

“Yeah, it was a great, I’m a little exhausted, but I’m good,” Harry said.

“Good, good,” Nick said. “Now, I saw Dunkirk yesterday at eight in the morning and it was rough. I was so emotional and it was just a fantastic film,” Nick said.

“Thanks, yeah I get a bit emotional watching it myself, which I’m not sure if that’s okay, you know crying during a movie that I’m in,” he laughed.

“Only if it’s in a cool way,” Nick joked.

“Always,” Harry laughed.

“Now, we know when you’re performing for shows, you have rehearsals and what not, but when it came to memorizing your lines, how did you go about it?” Nick asked.

“Uh, I mean I just had the script with me and ran my lines with some friends or as it got closer with some of my cast mates like Fionn or Tom, but yeah it’s a lot harder to remember lines than rehearsing music,” he laughed. “Although, I’m really glad there was very little dialogue as a whole.”

“Okay, so now we’re gonna play a little game,” Nick said. “I’m sure you’re wondering why there’s a heart monitor behind you.”

“Yeah, I’m a little worried right now,” Harry laughed.

“Too bad,” Nick laughed. “So, what we’re gonna do is the Doctor is going to hook you up to the heart monitor and we’re going to show you a series of images and some other things and see how you really react to them.”

“Oh god,” Harry laughed shaking his head.

The doctor hooks Harry up to the machine and they wait for his normal heart rate before beginning.

“It’s like you’re at a steady 65, so let’s begin,” he said. “The first picture we have here is of you and your Mum from last night’s premiere.”

“She looked beautiful,” he nodded.

“Okay, heart rate is still steady,” Nick said. “What about this one? Former One Direction bandmate Zayn Malik in a leather jacket and no shirt ensemble.”

“That’s a great look,” Harry said. “But personally for me a little too sweaty.”

“I agree and Harry’s still staying at a steady rate of 65,” Nick said. “Now, what about this one? This a photo of a Y/N from Y/Band’s/Name. What do you think of her?”

Harry started blushing and tried to hide back a smirk. “I’m sure she’s a wonderful person,” he said quickly.

“Have you ever met her before?” Nick asked.

“No, I haven’t,” he responded.

“Your heart rate has increased to almost 80,” Nick smirked. “Now, Y/N was actually on our show just yesterday morning and she’s quite the fan of you, why don’t you listen to this.”

“What’s your favorite song right now?” Nick asked.

“I can answer that!” Taylor smirked. “She’s obsessed with Harry Styles’ solo album.”

“No, I’m not!” You blushed. “But it is a great record, you have to admit that.”

“I don’t think anyone was denying that,” Nick laughed. “What’s your favorite song from his album?”

“Oh, I don’t know,” you laughed. “Uh, why don’t we go with Only Angel? That’s like a good morning song, right? It starts off all nice and slow and then bam it turns into a jam.”

“How do you feel about that?” Nick smirked.

“I I-uh, I’m glad she’s a fan,” he said nervously. “I’m a fan of hers as well.”

“Uh oh,” Nick laughed. “Your heart rate’s rising. We’re almost to a 100 folks.”

“No, it’s not!” Harry blushed shaking his head.

“Yes, it is,” Nick laughed. “I think it’s save to say that you might have a bit of a crush on Y/N?”

“I just like her music is all,” Harry said.

“I don’t think so, your heart rate is officially over 100. I think this is a new record,” Nick joked.

“I hate you. I hate all of you,” Harry laughed. “You two are idiots.”

“Oi, who are you talking about?” Nick asked.

“Lou and Harry,” he said pointing to them behind the glass of studio.

“Well, we’ll let you take this one home,” Nick smirked handing Harry the picture of you.

Harry shook his head and Nick went off the air. The doctor unhooked Harry from the monitor and he got from his chair.

“Sorry about that mate,” Nick smirked.

“I hate all of you,” Harry repeated

“Yeah, yeah,” Nick laughed. “You’re still coming round to my party tonight, right?”

“Maybe,” Harry said. “I don’t think I should after that,” he smirked.

“Oh, come on,” Nick laughed. “You know you’re still coming and you can’t hate us forever.”

“Alright, alright, I’ll be there,” Harry laughed. “But I still hate you.”

“After tonight, I don’t think you’re gonna hate me at all,” Nick smirked.

“And why is that?” He asked.

“Oh, just wait and see,” Nick said.


It was the night of Nick Grimshaw’s house party. You decided on a simple outfit of tight black jeans, a nice blouse, and some heels. You met everyone down in the lobby of the hotel before getting into a car to drive to Nick’s house.

“Hey Y/N, did you check Grimmy’s show this morning?” Jeremy smirked.

“Nope, I was sleeping,” you laughed. “Why what happened?”

“Oh, you mean you don’t know?” Taylor asked.

“Obviously not,” you said rolling your eyes.

“Harry Styles was on there today and he played some game with Grimmy involving a heart monitor and Grimmy brought you up, Harry’s heart rate rose to over a 100, supposedly,” Mitch said.

“Are you serious?” You laughed with a bit of blush on covering your cheeks.

“Yeah, I saw the video,” Jeremy said. “He was blushing so hard over you complimenting his album.”

“I bet he’s so embarrassed,” you said.

“I say he thinks you’re hot,” Taylor said.

“I highly doubt that,” you said. “He probably was just getting embarrassed or something, I mean that causes a rise in your heart rate too.”

“Even if that’s the case, it’s obvious that he’s not the only one embarrassed,” Taylor smirked.

“Fuck off,” You laughed pushing him back to his side of the car.

Truth be told, you did have a little bit of a crush on Harry Styles. You’ve never met him before, but there was obviously a physical attraction towards him and you were a huge fan of his music, even when during his One Direction days. Your crush though, was simply a crush and you were sure there would be no way he had a crush on you.

You all arrived to the party and walked inside. Since a few people from the radio and the music industry were there, you knew some people in attendance. You went straight over to grab yourself a drink and went through the crowd of people to mingle.


Harry arrived at Nick’s house with some of his close friends. When he walked inside, he got himself a drink and went in search of the host. He found Nick over by where the music was playing, of course, he thought to himself.

“Harry!” Nick said hugging him.

“I see you’ve had a few too many already,” Harry laughed.

“Eh,” he said. “I’m just a bit tipsy.”

“I can tell,” Harry said.

“I’m so glad you came! There’s someone I want you to meet here,” Nick said.

“Oh, really? Who?” Harry said.

“Y/N,” Nick smirked.

Harry almost spit out of his drink. “W-What? Y/N’s here?”

“Yep. I invited her yesterday when she was on the show,” Nick said.

“Wait? You knew she was going to be here tonight?” Harry said. “And you still went along with the heart rate shit?”

“Look, Lou told me about your little crush on her and she’s obviously a huge fan of you, so why don’t you just go and introduce yourself to her?” Nick said. “You never know, sparks may fly, music might be played…”

Harry shook his head. “I can’t. Not after what happened today. If she’s seen that, she’ll probably think I’m like obsessed with her.”

“You kinda are though,” Nick joked.

“No, I’m not,” Harry groaned.

“Anyway, just go talk to her mate. It’s a party, it’s what people do,” Nick said.

“I can’t just fucking walk up to her,” Harry said.

“You do it all the fucking time to people,” Nick said.

“I know, but I don’t think I could with her,” Harry said looking around the room.

He blushed when he saw you talking with your bandmates and some other people he couldn’t really see. You were laughing at something and he couldn’t help, but admire your smile. You looked really beautiful and he wanted to talk to you, he did, but his nerves were taking over. He hadn’t ever felt like that in his whole life and he doesn’t even know you.

“Fine, if you won’t go and talk to her, I’ll introduce you two myself,” Nick said grabbing Harry’s arm and pulling him towards where you were standing.


“Oh, Nick, hi,” you smiled when you saw Nick making his way to you.

“Glad you were able to come Y/N,” he smiled hugging you. “All of you, really. So, I thought I’d introduce you all to my best mate, Harry. Y/N, Jeremy, Taylor, and Mitch this Harry Styles, Harry Styles this Y/N, Jeremy, Taylor, and Mitch,”

“I got that, thanks,” Harry mumbled.

“Hi,” You smiled holding your hand out. “Nice to meet you.”

Harry blushed as he took your hand into his as he shook it. “Thanks, it’s great to met you too. I’ve been a fan for a really long time.”

“Oh, thank you,” you smiled. “We’re all big fans of you as well.”

“Especially, Y/N,” Taylor smirked wrapping his arm around your shoulder.

“Thanks,” Harry smiled as you blushed. “Um, can I get you another drink or anything?” He asked nervously.

“Uh, actually, yeah, I could use another,” you smiled.

“What are you drinking?” He asked.

“I could just come with you to the bar, if that’s okay,” you said.

“Sure, why not,” he smiled. “Does anyone else need anything?”

“We could use a few beers,” the boys said.

You rolled your eyes. “We’ll bring them back. Try not to move around too much, I’m not hunting your asses down just to give you your beers.”

“Yes, ma’am,” Mitch joked.

You and Harry pushed your way through the crowd and over to the bar.

“So, what brings you to London?” Harry asked.

“Promo for newest album mostly,” you said. “But we also planned a small show this week too.”

Harry nodded. “How long are you here for?”

“Just the week,” you said. “Then we head off to Paris, a few different cities in Italy, and then we’re going to Australia for a bit.”

“Wow,” he said. “The joys of promo season.”

“Yep,” you laughed. “But I’m sure you’ve had your fair share of promo recently with Dunkirk right?”

“Yeah, I’ll actually be headed to NYC soon for the premiere there,” he said.

“That’s exciting,” you smiled. “I love New York, although usually when we’re there it’s for work.”

“Yeah, I just recently bought an apartment there, so I find myself going there more for leisure time,” he laughed.

You both got beers for everyone along with drinks for you and Harry before making your way back over to the group. You handed everyone their beers and they ended up walking away and going to talk to other people, leaving you and Harry alone.

“So, I know your brother is the band, right?” He asked. “Which one is he?”

“Mitch,” you said.

“I can see that now,” he nodded. “You two look alike.”

You laughed. “Unfortunately, yeah,” you joked. “But everyone knows I’m the prettier one of us.”

“I’d have to agree on that,” Harry laughed taking a sip of his drink.

You blushed a little and smiled at him. “So, what about you? You have a sister right?”

“I do,” he nodded. “Gemma she’s older than I am and she never lets me fucking forget it,” he laughed.

“Oh, I know! Mitch is the same way,” you giggled.

“Does he pretend like he’s your parent or something?” He asked.

“Always,” you said. “When we first started out, our parents were on tour with us, but once we got older, our parents stayed home while we went off on our own and that was when his Dad mode stepped in. Whenever I was around a guy or we were out drinking or just doing whatever, he’d be hovering around all the time.”

“He doesn’t seem to be hovering around right now,” Harry said.

“Oh, he is, trust me, he’s just learned to keep his distance,” you laughed.

“Should I be scared?” He asked.

“No, I think you’re okay,” you giggled.

As the party went on into the late hours of the night, you and Harry spent those hours talking and doing a little bit of dancing. By the time, you realized how late it was, you started gathering your bandmates to head back to the hotel. You said your goodbye to Harry and Nick before walking out to get your car.

Right as you were about to climb into the backseat, you heard your name being called.

You turned around and saw Harry practically running down the driveway to you.

“I uh, I wanted to uh, g-give, uh give you my number,” he said holding out a napkin with writing on it.

“Oh, thanks,” you said. “Um, I’d give you mine, but I don’t have anything to write it on.”

“That’s okay, you can just text me it, if you want,” he said nervously.

“Okay,” you smiled. “I had a good time tonight. I’ll talk to you later?”

“Yeah, can’t wait,” he smiled.

You gave him a wave before getting into the car and shutting the door. The entire ride back to the hotel, the boys were teasing you about Harry and getting his number, but you just let them because nothing was going to take the smile off of your face.

gryles 2017 for vee @ladsfm

okay ah vee wanted this UPDATED!!! to add the start of the year too so! edited again!

heres a basic recap i guess but uhhh

  • harry nd nick literally spent xmas together aGAIN and they mention it casually as fUCK 
  • they started off their year domestic and shit how fucking adorable #netflixnchillncurry
  • okay so we didnt even KNOw this happened until they talked bout it in the sott premiere but! they literally spent a whole goddamn day together just dedicated to listening to ?? sott?? hs1?? i feel like they listened to the whole fucking album but im also pretty sure nick was like ‘no i didnt hear the album before!! this is all new!!’ when harry went on for the hs1 premiere but whatever nicks a fuckin liar we all kno it
  • im dying it was one album song like IT TAKES LESS THAN AN HOUR and they met up in the MORNING and didnt listen till afterNOON whatthe FUCK they literally spent all DAY together cos they were so NERVOUS what fools
  • then we have: ladzfm 2.0 aka sott premiere aka: “I feel lucky to be playing my first song with one of my best friends.” aka our collective death
  • we got a lot of good shit in this interview im actualy crying rereading it all what the fuck HMM SO WE GOT #fontchat, nick talking about trying to cook a roast for harry with remi IN LA, nick admitting that harry was one of 4 people nick told about getting breakfast (two being his parents FUCK), #ronniewoodchat??? nicks life is so weird, OH POST BRITS CHAT FUCK!, confirmed that nick and anne text on the reg, dog collar chat #legendsonly, #tbt to when they saw rita at G-A-Y , other cute shit
  • also this like idk how to describe it but nick and harry are BOTH the sun for eachother and they literlly light each other up
  • nick being adorable about it on insta too
  • okay now its the original post but i fixed those links you told me were wrong
  • okay i feel like u know that nick flew to america to take his mum on a holiday then like also watch harry debut on snl but i feel like revisiting so
  • there was ANNE that fucked us up to begin with
  • then when nick turned up at the snl studios??
  • like we were waiting for it but we never fucking expected it to actually happen what the fuck
  • nick looked so good when he was there fuck me
  • harry smiling and waving at his lil home party of 2
  • him and eileen going to the afterparty and chillin with jimmy whatshisface, eileen partying till the am?
  • uhh hardly important but idk
  • nick looks so fkin good even hungover as fuck after partying all night and celebrating (marrying) harry
  • the tweet got deleted ugh but nick was spotted at harrys graham norton performance! love a supportive husband!
  • harry came on the show for an hour for his album release party and? it was LIVE
  • started with nick complimenting harry on his outfit made outta tea towels
  • harry saves the audios that nick sends him when harry was sharing album clips and nick sung his own versions #confirmed
  • omg notebook chat was in this interview ugh
  • <3
  • jonna just posted this like last week and im still crying
  • okay first off nick looks fit as fuck in mallorca so
  • nick went to both the hens party and the stag do what a fuckin loser
  • hun! oh HUN
  • okay i think we got like ppl rumouring that harry was in mallorca but EMILY CAME THRU for us and posted this
  • the girls lookd so lovely at the wedding tho ahhh
  • this is what harry married i love Him
  • nick and harry musta been sharin a room cos nick was wearin his clothes aww
  • so basically nick blasted the hell outta wild thoughts on this holiday and put green hearts on fuckin everything so i did this mess
  • okay mallorcas over rip back to ldn life
  • nick got emo again idk
  • whatever they went out for LUNCH 
  • what the fuck how domestic
  • nick went to see dunkirk by himself cos he couldnt make the premiere etc etc 
  • completely by himself im dyin
  • then we were all like HEY I HOPE HE STILL MAKES THE PREMIERE cos liek we didnt know he was busy so when he rocked up to host this car gig or whatever we were all like hmm proud of u host grimshaw but also hun :/
  • and also the bleach makeup launch was on that night so like a lot of harrys close ldn crew pals missed the ldn premiere too and we were all like awww poor harry
  • both HARRY and NICK rocked up at the bleach party!
  • they both looked fit as everyloving FUCK this night too
  • N I C E
  • fucked up we never got an actual HQ pic of nick and harry together but you can see nicks arm in this on the right omg
  • im still gellz
  • unfortch it was prerecorded but like still
  • nick looked amazing (and harry took those pics and u cant tell me otherwise)
  • uhh some good quotes one two three four five 
  • they look lovely im stressed
  • (nick in glasses lookin like a doctor)
  • harry was MIA? for nicks actual bday SO INSTEAD they celebrated together (with harry lambert) a couple day early!!
  • nice lil lunch <3
  • nick looks rly fit
  • i cant beleive harry brought him the goddamn shoes
  • i cant belvie how much nick loves them
  • like full on 100% loves them
  • (harry has rly similar shoes too goddamn matchy matchy kids)
  • fast forward to later augugst where
  • aka Harry Styles at the BBC
  • then like FIVE DAYS AFTER IT WAS ANNOUNCED nick andharry were already up north filming one two three
  • nick tweeted about being off air for 3 days and jeff liked it :)
  • in the actual recording harry wears his usual florals  yeh nick actually fucking posted that to his own instagram story what thte fuck i love 2017
  • nick? murder me?
  • ahhh
  • and THATS basically it for the past couple of months? there was this mention the other day but apart from that!


My august playlist is finished and I would like to extend my sincerest apologies for writing 3000 words about it. It’s mostly for my own amusement so please feel free to scroll right past this. There’s a lot in here, from Grateful Dead covers to Sunn 0))) and everything in between so please enjoy.

The New Stone Age - Orchestral Manoeuvres In The Dark: This is the perfect album opener because almost every other song on this album is Orchestral Maneouvers In The Dark’s normal fare of great downbeat synthpop but this song is like a nightmare come to life and it really sets the rest of the album in a different light. The otherreason I love this song is that ‘oh my god what have I done this time’ is a constant thought so it’s nice to sing along to.
Buffalo Stance (12" Version) - Neneh Cherry: This song is an absolute masterpiece, the production is amazing, the synth riff is magic and this extended version is even better than the original because it has a lot more 80s scratching and also a bit in the middle where she says ‘WOT IS 'E LIKE??’
Wakin On A Pretty Day - Kurt Vile: This is a great example of why Kurt Vile is good because this song goes for 9 minutes and you don’t even notice. It just keeps cruising on and on and you don’t mind a bit
Turn Out The Stars - The Danish Radio Jazz Orchestra & Jim McNeely: This is another ABC Jazz find, its a very beautiful piece of music but what I like most is the ending where it stretches out a long long note into a big mysterious chord for no discernable reason.
Downtown - Destroyer: I have yet to look up a picture of what Destroyer looks like but I from his music I imagine him to be a sort of mineral deficient vampire type of man who has just been wandering around New York for a hundred years. I had a big moment with this album this month, it’s really just perfect start to finish. Wow I just looked up a picture of him and I’m not far off.
Song For America - Destroyer: I caught myself singing the part of this song where it goes 'winter spring summer and fall, animals crawl, towards death’s embrace’ while I was walking around town a couple of weeks ago which was good.
Hoping For - Bad//Dreems: Bad//Dreems are maybe the best Australian band around right now. This is the first song I ever heard from them a couple of years ago and I listened to it probably 20 times in a row while I rode my bike around the school I used to live next too one afternoon until a cleaning guy yelled at me.
Mirrors - Justin Timberlake: My girlfriend called me a '20/20 Experience apologist’ once and I’ve never gotten over it. It’s a good album! And Mirrors is the best song on it! It does the classic Timberlake/Timbaland thing of finishing up a perfectly servicable pop song after 4ish minutes and then starting up on some bullshit for another 4 and I love it the whole time.
Speaking In Tongues - Eagles Of Death Metal: The guitar sound in this sounds like someone in honking the horn of their car in the studio. Eagles Of Death Metal are a wildly patchy band but their first album is a classic front to back and this song especially is a standout.
Pain - The War On Drugs: I cannot get over how straight up beautiful this album is. I’ve listened to it more than anything else this month and I think every time I have a new favourite song. It turns out I love this one a lot though because as I was putting together this post I realised it was on here twice.
Simulation - Tkay Maidza: This album was kind of unfocused and I really hope Tkay figures it out for her next album because when she’s on she absolutely kills it and this song is a great example of that.
Countdown - Beyonce: I’m not a huge Beyonce fan (don’t @ me) but Countdown is easily her best song (don’t @ me). It’s just so dense and agile and busy in every aspect it’s absolutely hypercolour.
New Dorp, New York (feat. Ezra Koenig) - SBTRKT: This is still such a flooring song, it doesn’t sound like anything else and it’s so left-field while still being incredibly cool the while time. Also about a year after this song came out I found out that New Dorp is a real place in New York further confirming my theory that America is a cartoon.
Three Mantras Of Bon - Phurpa: Sorry, sorry, I’m trying to remove it. I accidentally had a big moment with a few different drone things this month and I fell asleep listening to Phurpa for about a week which I don’t recommend because it is literally just Russian men groaning at you fifteen minutes at a time and it feels like death has come to take your bones away. This song is good because they stop groaning halfway in and start making interminable vuvuzela noises instead.
Sprawl II (Mountains Beyond Mountains) - Arcade Fire: When @grumsal came to visit us this month he was quite drunk one night and explaining to me that Neon Bible is Arcade Fire’s most underrated album and Sprawl II is their best song, opinions that I’m quickly warming to.
Boys - Britney Spears: This song made me burst out laughing while I was alone because the bass in it sounds so funny. It’s like a straight up standard MIDI bass sound in this professional pop song and it sounds so, so dumb. This song alse features in the Beyonce film, Austin Powers: Goldmember so that’s how you know it’s good.
Notwo - Autechre: I wish Autechre has more straight up ambient songs like this because they’re very very good at it. This and Outh9X which comes after it make a good pair because Quaristice is almost exhausting by the time you get to the end of it so it’s nice to have 15 minutes of wind-down that you can still get into like this.
Hundred Syllable Mantra - Phurpa: Sorry, sorry, they are back and they have more groaning to do. I got deeply into this song this month and even now listening back to it I just want to lay on the floor and fucking die because of it. That’s how you know it’s a good song: it wants to kill you and you want to let it.
Melody 5 - Tera Melos: Tera Melos’ Untitled album is a masterpiece. It’s just pure creative energy, before they figured out you can sing on a song without itjust being yelling in the background. This song especially ecapsulates the spirit of the whole thing because it twists and turns forever without ever feeling forced or boring, it just goes on and on and on with new idea after new idea but still feels like a complete work as well. The sample at the end where she says “lucas[?] you are as beautiful as [?] and [?] [???]” makes me very emotional even though I have no idea what’s going on. Good song.
Guide Me O Thou Great Jehovah - House And Land: I found out about this duo because I’m a huge fan of the guitarist Sarah Louise but I didn’t even know she was a singer as well. This is great appalachian folk music without the watered down bullshit and WITH the sensibilities of modern composition. The calustophobically close vocal harmonies in this are just shocking.
The Day Is Past And Gone - House And Land: I saw someone on their bandcamp page saying they’d never fully appreciated the function of the drone in this sort of folk music before they heard this album and they’re absolutely right. Everything pivots around the guitar drone in this song for the first half, then when the guitar takes over the violin steps in and everything weaves around it.
Intro/Keep It Healthy - Warpaint: This is a great song but the intro especially made me think a lot about recording and the identity of albums and as inconsequential as it sounds I think the drummer fucking up and apologising at the very start benefits this album hugely because it immediately puts a very human face on music that could easily be quite aloof and distant to the point of alienation without it.
Vaseline Machine Gun (Live) - Leo Kottke: I love Leo Kottke so much and this is maybe the first song I ever heard of his and it absolutely blew my mind but this live version is very funny. This is solo acoustic guitar music, american primitivism from the bluegrass tradition, it’s not cool guy music by any stretch but Leo Kottke has somehow packed out an auditorium full of folks who are absolutely hanging on his every note and when the central slide melody of this song starts you can hear one guy in the crowd just absolutely losing his mind over it in a couple of long, distant “woooooooo"s and I like to imagine that that man is me.
Cavity - Hundred Waters: This song is so beautiful and so considered in every aspect. The frailty of her voice makes it feel like it could break at any second and the whole thing could collapse, the oscillating two note refrain that ties it together is so strong when it comes back and the percussion is so detailed in a way you wouldn’t expect from any other band but Hundred waters.
Metastaseis - Iannis Xenakis: Thankyou to @thoughtportrait for introducing me to the nightmare music of true oddball Iannis Xanakis, I was reading about him for a few hours while I listened through his music and Metasaseis is a good example of a piece of music that has a lot of context around it, and the concept of the composition being individually scored for every single player in the orchestra is interesting and innovative and everything like that but it’s not essential knowledge to understand this: you just listen to it and get overwhelmed.
For Organ And Brass - Ellen Arkbro: I am obsessed with this piece of music. It is absolutely transcedental but the first time I listened to it I heard a train horn honk in the distance outside our flat and thought it was part of the music, so it’s also that kind of music. It is twenty minutes of long, loud, organ and brass notes and I cannot get enough of it.
Bogan Pride - Bad//Dreems: “big muscles pumping in my sweatshirt/ big muscles pumping in my dreams”. Almost every Bad//Dreems song is about The Boys and either being one of the boys or how much you fucking hate the boys or how much you fucking hate that you are one of the boys and it’s so good.
Alice - Sunn 0))): The last part of my Drone Month was listening to this song a lot. This is my favourite from Monoliths And Dimensions because without any vocals or the choir of the others it feels very stripped back, the guitar moves in big waves and the brass follows. Also, I used this song to diagnose exactly which part of my car door was rattling when I played particularly bassy music this month, so it’s functional too.
Norwegian Wood (This Bird Has Flown) - Budddy Rich: I can’t believe I only found out this was a Beatles song this month when I was searching for this Buddy Rich version on Spotify. How embarrassing. I’ve listened to this album for years and this song is so melodically rich I wish it went for three times longer.
Obedear - Purity Ring: I watched Search Party this month and aside from being an absolutely amazing show that somehow balances incredible characters, violence and mystery while still being hilarious it reminded me how good of a song Obedear is. I wish it had a proper opening credits sequence because this song never goes for long enough in the show.
Out Of Line - Gesaffelstein: This song starts menacing and just gets more menacing the whole time. “a bitter sunken love in a bleach blonde submarine” is such a great line, and the voices barking on the offbeat near the end is so propulsive it makes me wish this song was longer.
Every Time The Sun Comes Up - Sharon Van Etten: This song gets stuck in my head whenever I wake up and have a news alert about whatever the newest calamity is, but it also makes me smile because having a line like 'I washed your dishes but I shitted in your bathroom’ in such a downbeat and serious song is so funny. “I shitted.”
Atomic Number - case/lang/veirs: This song feels like a folk song from another dimension where everyone worships the atom and the overlapping vocals in the verse are so nice. This whole album is just full of beautiful layered songs like this I really recommend it.
Black Gold Blues - Laura Veirs: the case/lang/veirs album reminded me how much I like Laura Veirs and how much of a moment this sort of Kaki King/Tegan And Sara genre was for a while. The karate noises in the background of this song really make it.
Golden Brown - The Stranglers: Will a song about heroin in alternating 6/8 and 7/8 featuring a harpsichord ever again be such a bop? Unlikely.
Aquarian - Grizzly Bear: I’m still working out how I feel about the new Grizzly Bear album. It’s so dense and it always takes me a while to work through their albums but I like it so far and this song has really stood out to me so far. The drums especially make it, in the second half the dragged snare becomes the centrepiece that the rest centres around.
Leak -Truth, yesnotesnotes- - Boris: If you’re still reading reply to this post and tell me whether you think of Heavy Rocks meaning Heavy as a concept Rocks like it’s good, or Heavy Rocks like big boulders. Because I’ve always thought of it as the former and I don’t know why.
Speak In Rounds - Grizzly Bear: Here’s an easier Grizzly Bear song. I had it stuck in my head intermittently all month and would just sing it to myself constantly, to the point where I looked up the lyrics and it’s literally about drawing a picture upside down to distract yourself from tinnitus.
The Obvious Child - Paul Simon: It’s crazy that Paul Simon put out the Rhythm Of The Saints right after Graceland because it’s like the expanded weirdo version of an already out-there album. Like a sequel from a different universe.
Acetate - Metz: I was listening to Death From Above 1979 and then I realised I should stop fucking around and just listen to Metz instead. I love the loping rhythm of the bass that drives everything in this song and how absolutely noisy every single part of it is, it’s pure frustrated energy.
Talkin’ World War III Blues - Bob Dylan: I’ve been reading a book about the Cuban Missile Crisis called One Minute To Midnight by Michael Dobbs and it reminded me how much of a bullshitter Bob Dylan is cause he said he wrote A Hard Rain’s Gonna Fall about the Cuban Missle Crisis but there’s recorded evidence of him playing it like a year beforehand. Anyway this is a far better song and the best kind of Dylan song where he just rambles on about a bunch of bullshit that happened in a dream for 6 minutes.
If I Had A Heart - Fever Ray: I’ve always sort of preferred Fever Ray over any of The Knife’s albums and as far as album openers go there really isn’t a better tone setter than this song and the huge throbbing synth that just sits there manacingly throughout while the organ builds walls over it.
Dust Bowl Children - Alison Krauss & Union Station: A few weeks ago we saw a double feature of Hail, Cesar and O Brother Where Art Thou at The Astor and I learned that Hail, Cesar is  masterpiece that I didn’t fully appreciate when I first saw it and I remembered how much I love Dan Tyminski’s voice. Incredibly good song from a huge voice about my personal passion: soil erosion and how we are all going to die because we haven’t learned from the sins of agriculture past.
Give The Mule What He Wants - Queens Of The Stone Age: I’ve listened to the new Queens Of The Stone age maybe 5 times through and it’s just not doing it for me, which is pretty disapointing. There is a bright side, however, and it’s that their first album has been re-added to spotify after disappearing for about a year. This is a song I regularly get obsessed with and have to listen to over and over and over but I can’t pin down what it is that I love about it. A huge part of it is definitely the propulsive groove of the verses and the way the drums and bass just roll forwards so heavily.
Thinking Of A Place - The War On Drugs: I’m so glad this song made it onto the album because when it was initially released I thought it was just going to be a Record Store Day exclusive single but it works so perfectly as a centrepiece to this album. It’s expansive and beautiful and it makes me so emotional!
Two Trucks - Lemon Demon: Two pickup trucks making love. American made, built Ford tough.
Atomic Bomb - William Onyeabor: This was another song that kept getting stuck in my head reading the Cuban Missile Crisis book, and also because of the news over the last month but probably mostly just because it’s a great song. There’s something about the vocal phrasing and the drum groove that makes this song feel really structurally strong for the jam that it is and I really can’t get enough of it.
The Scene Between - The Go! Team: The Go! Team are the most underrated band in the world and I’m dedicating my life to getting them the respect they deserve. For some reason their newest album has been removed from Spotify except for this single which I’m thankful for because it’s a great song.
The Werewolf - Paul Simon: Paul Simon is fucking 75 years old and he put out one of the best songs of his career last year! Who’s gonna stop him!
Tilt Shift - Mosca: “I never lost a fight [to camera: I have lost a few fights] but I will fucking shoot you bruv”
Tilt Shift (Julio Bashmore Remix) - Mosca: Tilt Shift is an incredible song and somehow I only found out that Julio Bashmore had done a remix of it last month. It’s a great remix because it sort of sounds like he’s just done a mashup of Tilt Shift and the Wii Shop Channel Theme, which is fine by me.
Spit You Out - Metz: The riff in this feels like Queens Of The Stone Age’s first album if they were incredibly upset. I love how long this song is, they really wring every last drop out of it.
The Deadly Rhythm - Refused: It’s been years and the drums in this song still kick my ass. It’s crazy that an album whose first lyrics are 'I’ve got a bone to pick with capitalism, and a few to break!’ can be so legitimately cool.
Over Everything - Kurt Vile & Courtney Barnett: I am so excited for this album. The two most relaxed songwriters alive finally collaborating to be incredible relaxed together. I wasn’t a hundred percent on this song when I first heard it because Kurt sounds like he almost can’t keep up with the song, but after listening to it a lot I’ve decided that makes it even better. Also a good 60% of this song is just them jamming out and I really hope the album follows the same formula.
The City - The Drones: There’s a great part in this song where the tape runs out during the recording and there’s a long break while they change it which as far as accidents go is an incredibly musically effective one.
Drive - Ainslie Wills: This song should have been a huge hit, I’ve been obsessed with it for two years now and it’s still incredible every time. Somebody sponsor Ainslie Wills and force her to make a new album already.
Me And My Uncle - The Lone Bellow: It’s truly crazy how much time I spent listening to a 5.5 hour Grateful Dead tribute album last year but it’s just that good. Please set aside half a day to listen to Day Of The Dead in full and have a massive Grateful Dead phase for six months after like I did.

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Essays in Existentialism: Arkers

modern clexa au: clarke griffin is the famous singer in the band “The Arkers” and lexa woods is a top model everybody adores. words gets out that they’re dating and the two have stated on multiple times that they’rejust friends. (spoiler alert: they’re totally not.)

The house was silent, was quiet, was void of all sounds and because of that it was a glorious slice of heaven in the middle of a maddening city. With no effort left, Clarke tossed the mail on the counter to be checked later, dropped her bag in the middle of the floor, opened her empty cabinets only to close it against disinterestedly before trudging down the hall and flopping face first and star-fished straight into her big, fluffy, wondrously perfect bed.

She wasn’t sure what time it was, and for a bit, without at least a little effort, she wasn’t positive which time zone she even inhabited at the moment, but none of that mattered. She had time, she had the day to herself, and she had glorious plans to suffocate in sheets and never move.

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My LA Reputation Secret Sessions Story :D

(i realize that this post is long so i decided to break it into fun little sections with names inspired by friends episodes :D )

The One Where Taylor Nation Attacked Me

On Thursday, October 19th I got the taylor nation dm :D The one that made my heart beat faster than ever. I stared at the blue little “new message” circle for what felt like hours (it was minutes, tops) and it had me crying and shaking at 10:24 am in my school’s dining plaza probably weirding out everyone around me. I was honestly minding my own business freaking out over the Gorgeous announcement when this happened. I could not believe it I couldn’t even breathe properly, but I opened the message and there it was, the all caps CONFIDENTIAL and everything.

The gag is, in the days before that moment i constantly shoved that thought in the back of my head because i didn’t want to be sad knowing that it would never happen to me. Yet even with it shoved in the back of my head I had such a feeling of hope. Sooo many people tried saying 1) taylor loves me 2) they think i’m gonna meet taylor this era or 3) they want me to meet taylor and as happy as that was for me it felt so :( bc it was such BLIND HOPE and i felt like it would honestly never happen for me. Ironically, i made so many tweets being sure that this would never happen to me, for example:

(the amount of old tweets or posts of mine where taylor proved me wrong and has made me look like boo boo the fool is hilarious)

but it wasn’t blind hope :D

Also, three hours before my taylornation message, I randomly tweeted “Don’t you see the starlight, starlight, don’t you dream impossible things!” which is….wild…like i can’t believe the universe works that way.

(point being i hope you guys who haven’t met taylor yet know you shouldn’t ever stop believing that this could happen for you. I know it feels like aimless dreams and impossible wishes but it definitely could happen for you, especially when your idol is trying just as hard to reach you.)

*taylor swift voice* next chapter

The One When It Was October  22nd

i have never felt so many emotions before in my life and i’m literally the most over emotional person in the world. my organs were flipping inside of me my heart was ready to jump out of my chest and there wasn’t enough air. it was such a feeling you guys. I was riding in my car with my parents where they would drop me off and i’d like to first of all thank the world that there is a 1989 secret sessions video out there so I could prove to my parents that this is a thing Taylor does and it wasn’t a scam and i wasn’t going to get kidnapped. My mom was legit scared to let me go and said “Lizbeth if you’re not back by 11 i’m gonna call the police” laasdkljakljs it was so funny (I got back at 11:17 she was scared but she obviously did not call the police she just waited outside the meetup with other worrisome/waiting parents) but anyway i checked in i met up with people and a lot of us knew NO ONe or just made friends with anyone we could find or some people did get to meet up with friends which was so nice …honestly everyone in that room was just very friendly and very happy for each other and just happy in general. We were all going through the same “i can’t believe this is real and it’s happening to me” thoughts. So we got loaded into the bus and everyone was chatting and excited and nervous and excited and happy and just in shock. 

The One Where I’m In Taylor Swift’s Home

holy fucking shit??!!?!?!?!?!?! it was soo beautiful and big and we stayed in the pool area and were greeted with refreshments and food/snacks that i was too nervous to eat (except 1 rep cookie). When we were called inside, the room was very cozy and warm and there were candles everywhere and blankets and pillows and i loved it it was very intimate. I was so excited for her to just pop up and she did, she came in from the back and we all started screaming :D you can hear people start to sniffle bc honestly most of us were just on/off crying the whole night. She was so cute she did a little happy dance holding her laptop and there was extra screaming when we saw Alana, Jack, Ruby Rose, etc it was just so surreal. You guys…taylor was there….. she was so close and this wasn’t some high quality video interview i was watching her from this was my own two eyes and she was right there. She greeted us and explained how it’s gonna go and told us how excited she was to be doing this for us. You guys she loves us so much, not just the 100 fans in that room but everyone of us on here. She wants to do this, she’s excited to do this. She is also the happiest I’ve ever seen her be. throughout the whole night I just got very emotional at how happy she was and how sure of herself she was and just how cute it was seeing her so :D. Honestly, the fact that I’ve always called her my best friend but this time in that room she was talking to us and sharing stories with us like we were best friends was….wow. I love her. We danced to LWYMMD and it was so fun and the entire room just radiated :D :D :D :D!!!! and everyone was having the time of their lives just dancing with her. She truly wanted everyone to have a good time and made sure everyone knew how happy she was to have you there. Many of us have eye-contact moments and it’s completely amazing to know. Like that’s just how much you can tell Taylor was really dedicated to making this night feel special for all of us. i love her idk if i’ve mentioned this, i love her. fun fact: i love her

The One When I Liztened To ‘reputation’

just kidding i have a few words that i can say :D !

It was so good. It was so so so good. My face went through every emoji possible the whole album through. Sonically and lyrically it stunned us all and it was so enjoyable and full of bops and classic Taylor Swift genius writing, but like on a whole other level of amazing. That’s all I’ll say :D (Also the pre-releases, as much as i love them and would die for them, aren’t the peak of the album trust me, there’s soooo much more)(y’all are gonna be so shook)(i still am)(im also so proud of her you can tell she’s proud of her work and she very much should be)

The One When The Night Was Flawless And It Finally Happened

I have loved Taylor for as long as I can remember. She’s my #1. She’s always been, like she’s genuinely my best friend. Her saying “you are the longest and best relationship that I have ever had” that one time at the 2013 BMA’s was the most validating thing. Because like…i know. She’s been there when I was sad and when I was happy and when I needed someone. I’ve loved and defended that woman to anyone for years and have dealt with sooo many teasings and “she doesn’t even know you”s. So the fact that this happened was…….. wow.

As I was getting closer and closer in line the butterflies (the beautiful kind) were going wild inside of me. I couldn’t believe it. I couldn’t believe i got to be here. I spent the last three days convinced i was gonna get a message that it was a mistake and she didn’t mean to invite me or it was gonna be cancelled or i couldn’t go or something because i was honestly so in denial. but it was almost my turn and the feeling when it’s hitting you that this moment you’ve wanted for so long is here is the most amazing and exhilarating feeling in the world. 

When it was my turn I walked up to her and was greeted with open arms and said “hi I’m liz” and she goes “Yeah i know you’re lizbeth right’ and i like gasped and was like “omg how did you know” and she’s like “yeah you’re lizbeth” :D :D :D :D (HER SAYING LIZBETH ACTUALLY MEANT SO MUCH TO ME I MADE A POST ABT IT) so i was like “taylor…i have to get this all out because if i don’t i’m gonna hate myself” and she laughed at me. queen of laughing. and then i just went for it and said “taylor, you’re my best friend.” and she said “aww” and I continued “like you are really my best friend. you’ve been there for me in my lowest moments and in my happiest moments. I love you so much. Like i literally sing with you in my car all the time and make sure it’s loud enough so it sounds like we’re singing together” and she laughed and went “oh my god i love that it’s like we’re duetting” and I’m like “yeah we are duetting taylor we honestly go off!!!” and then got serious again and told her about how there was an entire year period where I would cry myself to sleep every night listening to Safe & Sound because that year was so bad for me and it was so comforting to listen to. Then she gasped and said “oh my god” with the most concerned and loving look in her eyes. And i said thank you for everything and she grabbed my hands into hers and said “thank /you/ for everything i love that thank you” and then she went on about how happy she was that she was doing this and how she loved getting to do this for us and even with jack being there how nice it was for them to be seeing our reactions to the work they made. and she goes “and your reactions to eVERYTHING i love that” and i was like “oh my god taylor all those reactions were so genuine” “i know they were!” “because that album was just so so good it was so amazing i loved it so much!” and she said thank you :D 

when it was time for our picture she asked what kind of picture i wanted and i was like a hugging pic but for Reasons. and she looked at me like she was ready to #lizten which i appreciated. so i explained that there’s a picture of Taylena hugging at an awards show i couldn’t remember i probably looked sTUPID when she asked which one it was and i was like guh…idr…. but anyway i was like i wanna be on this side bc Selena was on that said and i was like “taylor i love you and Selena so much you have no idea I literally call myself taylena’s daughter and everyone agre-” and she cuts me off and goes “oh we would definitely adopt you we would totally adopt you she would want to adopt you i can confirm that she would want to adopt you”…. IF Y’ALL COULD SEE THE DUMB LOOK ON MY FACE…………. GUH….. every time i call taylena mom now it’s gonna be #legit ….wow….anyway i was shook. so we got into position i was like another reason i wanted to be on this side is because when I met her i was on this side of our pic too and she goes “oh i like that I love your attention to detail”…wow…..queen of compliments. and then we :D (((also quick mention that the fact that she has curly hair again also meant…a  lot to me..not that she doesn’t always look good in any hairstyle ever but i’ve just always been insecure about my curly hair and seeing that she’s embracing hers again makes me emo.))))

so i hugged her one last time and told her i loved her and she told me she loved me and i walked out of the room still looking at her, facing her as i walked backwards and she still looked at me and that was it…I got handed my reputation merch bag and couldn’t stop smiling on my way out. :D

I am so happy and so grateful for her and everything she’s done for me and I feel so blessed to have gotten to thank her for it all.

@taylornation​ thank you for all the work you did to help make this possible for all of us too.

@taylorswift I love you and I miss you already. i can’t wait to see our picture together. you are still my best friend and will always continue to be. i’ll also be sending you the adoption papers for you and Selena to sign soon. :D

anonymous asked:

Fickyfuck kid here. That's my best sentence I've ever written in my life and I used to write stories. (Writers block is a bitch and I have no where to write so it's just like I give my life to learning Russian... HOLD UP IDEA MAN y'all could do a reaction of the RFA to MC that just starts randomly talking in Russian not even realizing it. Holy fuck I wasn't planning this to happen, y'all don't need to write it (I totally get if you don't want to)) ~Your local fickyfuck

A/N: fickyfuck is still on my list of all time favourite sayings iloveyou  AAAAAAAAA I ONLY KNOW A FEW DIFFERENT (and very…very random) PHRASES IN RUSSIAN SO I HOPE I SPELT THEM RIGHT AND YA KNOW DIDN’T SAY SOMETHING REALLY RUDE OR WEIRD WITHOUT KNOWING IT (tho let’s be honest here, this is ME we’re talking about….) ^^;;;;; ~Admin 404



           -He came home early from class one day and found you playing video games!

           -Though, he wasn’t sure what game because???? He kept hearing another language?

           -Wait that…sounds like your voice

           -Maybe you’re speaking along to the game? Some made up language?

           -He walked into the room behind you and looked at the screen but there weren’t any characters talking

           -You were just running around, fighting whatever monsters popped up, but he still heard this muttering? Where in the world could this be coming from???

           -“Возьми это! Ты тупой монстр … Я истинный рыцарь этого мира … Ешь мой меч !!”

           -“Um.. MC? What was that?”

           -HE SCARED THE HELL OUT OF YOU!!! -which, incidentally, scared him too- and you had to have him explain what he was hearing. Maybe he was just hearing things??

           -After describing what he heard you realized that you were mumbling in Russian, and had to explain to him that you were the one talking. You were just trash talking the monsters in the game! He was really impressed that you knew Russian, and can’t believe he never knew!!! Completely amazed every time you switch to it, no matter how often he’s heard it


           -It was after a performance from his, and you were star struck!!

           -It was the best show you’ve seen in your life!

           -His singing!!!! It’s amazing at home but seeing it oN STAGE!!!!!!!!!!!! WHOLE DIFFERENT THING!!

           -You ran up to him once he was off stage and your mind was running so fast that you didn’t even realize you switched to Russian when congratulating him

           -“Это было удивительно! Так хорошо! Я так горжусь тобой!”

           -He was happy to see you! You look so cute when you’re that excited!

           -Though he had NO idea what you were saying, he kind of went along with it

           -Full of smiles, nods, and “Yeah!”

           -Until you finally realized he had no idea what you were saying and said the whole thing again so he could understand you

           -He loves when you switch to Russian because that means you’re really excited!!! And really excited MC is a really cute MC!! Also really appreciates that you’ll say everything again just so he can understand what you’re so excited about! literally sprints to the other room when he hears any sort of russian because??? what if he misses his MC looking cute


           -When working for Jumin, one must know a few different languages

           -Well, at least have some sort of understanding of them

           -So when you switched to Russian while telling her what kind of coffee you wanted, it took her a little bit to realize you had switched

           -The only reason she knew you switched is because you started to say some uncommon words that she didn’t understand

           -She knows the basics such as “hello”, “how are you”, you know, smaller phrases!

           -Not…whatever you had told her

           -“Я хочу, чтобы этот кофе … это своего рода вкус … поджаренный зефир!”

           -“I’m… I’m sorry, MC, what is it that you want?”

           -???? OH SORRY BAEHEE

           -It was really no problem for her, but seeing how embarrassed you tended to get when you switch languages made her wish you did it more often!! She thinks its adorable! Also, secretly studies more Russian to understand you!


           -He’s done business with other people who speak Russian as well

           -So, of course, he’s taught himself Russian!

           - among other languages as well

           -What he didn’t know, though, is that you know Russian as well??

           -When he came home one day to hear someone speaking Russian, he was extremely confused

           - who the fuck got past my guards

           -Until he recognized your lovely voice! What made him smile was the fact that you were complimenting Elizabeth, and showing her your love

           -“Вы очаровательны! Так мило! Я люблю тебя!”

           -So, of course, he walks into the room and compliments her in Russian as well! It may have startled you a little bit, but you quickly got over it!

           -He usually has to point out when you’re speaking Russian to others, and enjoys seeing how flustered you get when you apologize. When the two of you are at home, however, he doesn’t mind if you accidently switch to Russian because??? He understands it, why would it be a bother? He just responds normally to whatever you say!


           -He had to learn a BUNCH of different languages when he was an agent!

           -So…. of course he knows Russian!

           -But the real question here is….

           -When did YOU learn Russian??

           -He didn’t see anywhere on your record that you spoke Russian!!!!

           -So when you randomly switched to Russian while mid-conversation with him, he didn’t even blink an eye

           -“Есть что-нибудь вы хотите на обед, кроме чипсов?”

           -When you asked him if he wanted anything for lunch besides chips, he responded right back in Russian!

           -It doesn’t faze him at all! Never hesitates to respond back to you, and doesn’t care if you do it in public, in fact, he makes a game out of it. “How many people can we confuse?: Park edition”

           -Sucks for the people around you who can’t speak Russian! ESPECIALLY if you do it in the group chat! Refuses to translate for everyone else! Also loves messing with everyone by telling you inappropriate things in Russian in front of everyone else but refuses if Jumin’s there because he knows he can speak it as well


           -It actually really surprised him!!

           -He’s picked up a few phrases here and there from travelling, but WOW

           -You knew the whole language!!!

           -He asked you to describe what you felt when you looked at a photograph he just took

           -But did not expect you to respond back in RUSSIAN??

           -“Это заставляет меня чувствовать себя сухо и комфортно!”

           -“I’m…I’m sorry sweetheart, what was that? I only know a few basic words in Russian…”


           -IMMEDIATELY TAKES A PICTURE. Also vows to take a picture of you each time you realize you’re speaking in Russian. He wants to make a whole photo album about it!!

           -Honestly loves when you’re speaking Russian!! He’s starting to actually pick up on a few words here and there because of you! Believes if he listens to you mumble to yourself enough, he’ll learn the whole language too!


           -What the hell did you just say to me

           -Honestly has no idea what you’re saying

           -Isn’t even sure what language it was??? MC??? Explain??

           -He was just innocently sitting on the couch, watching some TV when you walked behind him and spouted off what he thought was nonsense

           -“Эй, что новое шоу вы хотите смотреть приходит на несколько минут.”

           -“What the fuck does that meAN”

           -Took you longer than you wanted to admit to realize you told him in Russian

           -After you translated for him, he pouts

           -He’ll go out later that day and buy a ton of books to learn Russian


“And the Grammy goes to...” (reader x Sam Wilson)

Characters: reader, Steve, Natasha, Sam.

Summary: Excited for the Grammy’s, you find out you might have to watch them alone when a teammate surprises you in more ways than one. 

Warnings: Fluff. Pregnancy mention I guess? Tiny bit of language. 

Word Count: 1.6k

Tags are at the bottom

A/N: I wrote this in honor of @imaginingbucky‘s birthday !! I hope your day is incredible, Chanel!! Love you, girl!! :) Also, I apologize if the events of the award show are out of order. I didn’t watch the whole show so I just caught up through clips. I have no strong feelings in regards to the award results so if you do, just keep your comments respectful, please! :) 


Originally posted by dailyteamcap

They only came around once a year. This was something you had been looking forward to for months, and now had no one to share it with besides your friends from home who would squeal with you via text. Out of all the available Avengers who weren’t out on missions, you couldn’t convince a single one to watch the Grammy’s with you.

As a last enticement, you had spent the entire afternoon preparing delicious treats to enjoy during your viewing party, including baking cupcakes and decorating little Grammy statues on top to the best of your ability. They looked a little lopsided, but it was fun and at least they would taste good.

As the airing time approached, it looked like it would be a party for one as you settled in front of the large projection screen in the living room, a delectable spread of snacks before you. The sound of footsteps approaching piqued your interest, peering over the couch to see Natasha come into view.

“Accepting my invitation finally, Nat?” you asked, trying to remain casual but a wishful tone snuck into your voice.

The redhead exhaled, “Sorry, Y/N. I’m heading out for the night. I’ll take a cupcake for the road, though.”

Disappointed, you waved a hand toward the snack table, “Help yourself. Have fun.”

“Will do,” she said with a wink, licking frosting from her fingers.

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I'm begging you all, please please reblog and tag Taylor in this

It just hit me that Taylor’s been with me for over ten years. I can’t believe how much I’ve grown in those years and how much I owe to her.
I was eight when “Taylor Swift” came out. I had just started school, and I was happy, as most eight year olds would be. I listened to it so much even though I couldn’t relate to many songs at all. I loved Our Song. I would always put on the southern accent whenever I would sing it, I loved that song SO much. I would listen to “Taylor Swift” on repeat for days on end.
I was ten when “Fearless” was released. I bought it the weekend after it came out. I remember loving The Best Day soo much. I think that would have to be the first song I ever really connected to. I was bullied in primary school (elementary for you Americans) and the only person who helped me through it was my mum. She always made me happy, especially after coming home from school everyday. The Best Day and Change were my anthems all through school. No matter what I went through, I felt for the first that Taylor was with me through it all.
“Speak Now” came out when I was twelve. I was in my final year of primary school. I was probably the happiest I had ever been. I was a school leader, I moved up to a higher level in my dance classes and I had more friends than ever. My life was really starting to look up, so I thought. I felt so connected with Taylor that year too. I would have “Speak Now” on repeat what seemed like every day after school. Mine, Sparks Fly and Speak Now were my anthems for a good year. Not because I was dating anyone, but because they were happy, like me.
When I was thirteen, I started high school. I went from knowing everyone by name to knowing no-one. None of my primary school friends went to the same high school as I did. I went from a school with a total of 200 kids to a school with over 1,000. It was hard. It was stressful. It was awful. I was relentlessly bullied that year. I didn’t fit in with many people in my year at all. I went from having over 15 friends at school to only being able to count them all on one hand. I wasn’t popular, I wasn’t cool and I wasn’t missed when I’d miss a day. That year was hard for me. I went from being happy to being so distressed all the time. Taylor would always make me happy. I discovered a new side to me that year. I listened to Dear John every day after school. It worked for me, it was a good song for me to cry too. I also rediscovered “Fearless” that year. Change became my favourite song. It spoke to me on a level I’d never be able to explain. I also loved Long Live. In 2011 I had already loved Taylor for five years, which seems like a long time when you’re thirteen! I promised Taylor I would never leave her, because she’d never left me.
In 2012 the album I needed more than I knew came out. “Red” was the thing I needed to keep going. To push on. I was fourteen and life was awful that year. The bullying got so out of hand that I had to move schools. The only good thing that happened that year was that I rekindled with my old primary school friends at my new school.
I didn’t think at fifteen that life could get any worse. In early 2013 I became really ill. It seemed as though I was sick every week, which as a result made me fall behind in my school work and miss regular classes. The doctor finally did a blood and discovered I had CMV. Basically, it’s the same thing as glandular fever. I was constantly tired, and my muscles ached really bad non-stop for three months. It was so bad that I couldn’t continue my studies for a whole term at school. I had CMV on and off for over eight months.
In August 2013, after most of my symptoms had gone I continued experiencing chronic fatigue and achey muscles. The doctor referred me onto a pain specialist who diagnosed me with Fibromyalgia. It means chronic fatigue plus pain everywhere. I had a slightly different case to most people as my pain is a constant 9.5/10. No matter what I did nothing made the pain worse… or better.
I thought about giving up on more times than not, but Taylor saved me, Red saved me. I’ve never been so low in my life but I got through it all thanks to my best friend Taylor and Red. They both got me through so much.
I had missed so much school that I had to be pulled out and study at home via distance education. That was the start of it all.
On December 14th 2013 I attended my first Taylor Swift concert. After eight years of loving her I couldn’t conprehend how lucky I was to be able to see her live for the first time. My older sister took me (even though she’s told me repeatedly she doesn’t like Taylor. How?!?!) In the bathrooms before the show started I had a breakdown. I’m absolutely terrified of guns and bombs and was petrified of something happening during the show. Once Taylor came out, all my worries/anxieties/problems disappeared. Literally. The next two hours were the best two hours of my life. I didn’t stop dancing or singing or screaming out of happiness until the show ended. Even after the show ended I was soo happy and filled with so much adrenaline. I hardly slept that night because I couldn’t believe I just witnessed the girl I’ve loved since I was eight, live on stage doing what she loves.
From that day forward I promised myself I would never stop loving Taylor, because she’s given me so much happiness of which I wish to give back to her as many times as I can.
The following October, “1989” was released. I don’t think I had ever been that excited for an album ever, apart from Red because that was announced and released at the perfect time. The day “1989” came out I was at a very important dance competition, so despite trying, I couldn’t miss it and stay home and just soak in all of “1989.”
My dad has always loved Taylor. He loves that she makes me happy and loves how much I love her, he also knows how great a role model she is. As I was travelling to the competition the “1989” album release day, despite me already having preordered multiple copies of it, he offered to go down to the local CD store as soon as they opened to buy me another copy of it. He was at the store before they opened, and when they opened he was the first customer in the store. He knew straight away where to find it and bought the very first copy of 1989 that store sold.
When I got home from the competition (we placed second in two items in case you’re interested, one of which I had a featured role in) I went straight to my room where all my brand new 1989 cd’s were and put one on straight away. I spent the rest of the day listening to it non stop for over six hours. Just over a year later I began the greatest weekend of my life to date. I was lucky enough to get tickets to the final two shows of the 1989 World Tour, in Melbourne. Even though I didn’t have tickets to the first Melbourne show, I decided to go in anyway as my friends were there and I really wanted to see them all get so hyped before the show. We had a little picnic and heard Taylor sound check Red. (at this point you should know how much that means to me)
The next day I went in early whilst my sister was at school so I could be closer to my favourite people in the world. My friends and Taylor.
Later that afternoon my aunty and sister arrived for the show.
I’ve never been as happy as I was in that moment. I’ve never been able to describe it but Taylor’s Clean speech that night really resonated with me. She has this magical power that makes you feel like it’s just you and her there. Like it’s just you two talking as friends rather than in a stadium full of 30,000 people. I did not stop screaming and crying and dancing that whole night. Then she played “Fifteen” for her surprise song. I screamed so loud because it took me back to 2013, when I was fifteen. It’s actually magical because when I went to the Red Tour she played it, I was fifteen and then at 1989 when she played it my sister was fifteen.
The second night was even better. (I didn’t know it was possible) My sister and I had seats in section D on the floor directly in front of the catwalk. That night was much like the first in the sense that I didn’t stop crying or dancing the entire night. That Clean speech resonated with me so much as well, just because of the point I was at in my life. Then it was time for the “surprise” song if you will. From the first guitar chord she played I knew it was Long Live. I immediately dropped to the floor and started crying like I’ve never cried before. I screamed every single word of it SO loud, because that’s our anthem. I’ve never ever been that happy, ever. I haven’t been anywhere near that happy since then, and I never will until I meet Taylor one day.
That next January everything went down hill again. I had to stop my dance classes and stop studying via distance even. My pain and fatigue had never been more dominant and I was constantly in a world of pain.
Nothing at all has changed since then. My stamina has severely declined and I can no longer go on shopping trips with friends or even go take a walk with my dog at the local park.
I had my 19th birthday just under a month ago and I spent the day watching Journey to Fearless and the Speak Now World Tour live with one of my closest friends then had a night out with my family for dinner. That birthday means so much to me because I was surrounded by (most of) the people I love the most.
Today I’m barely getting by. I’ve never been lower emotionally and never been in so much pain or so tired. I’m so emotionally and physically drained and I’m struggling to find things that make me smile everyday. I’ve never needed Taylor more than I do today which also makes me more thankful for her each and every day. She’s probably the only reason I’m still here today and I’ll never be able to ever thank her enough for that. She’s my best friend, my life, my love and I hope more than anything that one day I get to meet her in person. I hope so much I get to thank her for absolutely everything. Tied Together With A Smile from her debut album “Taylor Swift” is the only song I’ve had on repeat recently in my head recently. Because that’s my life.
There’s this quote I’ve had as my lock screen the past year, “one day someone is going to hug you so tight that all of your broken pieces will stick back together.”
Everything in me believes that will be the case when I meet Taylor, because I feel like she’s the only person who’s always been there for me, no matter what.
As I had to leave school, I eventually drifted away from all my friends there. I don’t speak to any of them anymore. The only friends I have now are those I’ve met online because of Taylor. If it wasn’t for them I wouldn’t be here today which is yet another thing I have Taylor to thank for. Taylor Swift is the only reason I am still here today, and I really hope I get to thank her and hug her in person someday. @taylorswift

Hello I forgot to post my July playlist when July ended so here it is now! It turns out it’s incredible easy to write 1500 words when you’re writing about songs you love so sorry about that. Four hours of top quality bops that range from russian choral music to classic !!!, please enjoy.

Signs Of Life - Arcade Fire: Everyone hated the new album but in my opinion it’s not only not bad, but Signs Of Life is one of their best songs yet. Also the video is incredibly good.
The Man - The Killers: The Killers are back and they’re making good songs again! This song sounds like the bicep emoji!
Hung From The Moon - Earth: Accidentally listened to this album a lot in July and kicked off a drone thing that has lasted through august.
Elevation - Television: Everyone always talks about the guitars in Television but nobody ever talks about how good the rhythm of the chorus in this song is.
Taman Shud - The Drones: Good song to yell along to and the only song I know that uses the word ‘inchoate’
Mountain Of Air - Ellen Arkbro: I really can’t recommend this album enough if you like the sound of having a dream made of brass.
South Point - Grizzly Bear: Grizzly Bear are a prog band.
Apache (Jump On It) - The Sugarhill Gang: Not only groovy, but racist too. There’s a good part where he explains that maize is just corn.
What’s A Girl To Do? - Bat For Lashes This is a good song and a great music video
Glass - Bat For Lashes: Bat For Lashes does better worldbuilding in this song than most novels.
Offering - Cults: I may be the only person in the world who is absolutely gagging for a new Cults album but thank god they’re back.
Return Of The Mack - Mark Morrison: THE song about being back on your bullshit.
Baller Of The Year - ESG: If you play this in your car it automatically starts ghetto swerving AND you start crying.
You Know I Wantcha! - Devin The Dude: Incredibly gross song about being very horny by yourself in a strip club for you to listen to.
Crawling After You - Bass Drum Of Death: After all this time, this song may be the only thing I love about GTAV.
Bad Liar - Selena Gomez Maybe the only Selena Gomez song I’ve ever heard and it’s so SO good.
Seven Eight Nine (Part 2) - Kenny Wheeler: I developed a bad habit of listening to ABC Jazz when I couldn’t sleep but thankfully I found some real gems doing it.
Fine Di Cobb - Originale - Stelvio Cipriani: Yet another fantastic find from spotify’s Best Of Eurocrime playlist.
A Fifth Of Beethoven - Walter Murphy: It is so funny that Beethoven wrote one of the biggest disco hits of all time. Between this and Wendy Carlos’ Switched On Bach there’s a very funny history of classical music causing a big stir.
The Lighthouse - Amon Tobin: It’s crazy that Amon Tobin’s best album was the soundtrack to Splinter Cell: Chaos Theory but he really elevated video game music as a whole with this one.
If The Brakeman Turns My Way - Bright Eyes: The concept of an opium den with a periscope is very nice to think about.
Hold Music - Architecture In Helsinki: Places Like This is an all time classic that nobody respects because people think Heart It Races is a novelty song instead of a masterpiece.
I Found A New Chapeau - Jo Jones: “The world’s greatest jazz drummer Jo Jones!” goes absolutely off for nine minutes against an organ that sounds like farts.
It’s Real - Real Estate: [beckons you closer and whispers] it’s real real estate
Obvs - Jamie xx: In Colour was truly the album of the year cause baby it is simply breathtaking start to finish!
Blue Train Lines (feat. King Krule) - Mount Kimbie: I hope King Krule joins Mount Kimbie as a full member because they have such a good thing going. This song took a while to grow on me but now I really cannot wait for their new album. The video for this one is also extremely good even though it required me to read an artist’s statement from the directors and a whole wiki article to understand it.
Six Days Remix - DJ Shadow: Last month I attended a 17 hour Fast And Furious marathon that has permanently affected my brain chemistry (which I’ve been meaning to write a long post about) and at the end I was certain of only one thing: the Six Days Remix was the best thing about Tokyo Drift by a country mile and it’s easily a top 5 DJ shadow song.
Nandi - Jlin: I can’t say enough good stuff about this album and this song is an absolute standout.
3 Freaks - DJ Shadow: Everyone’s always saying 'oh it was such a mistake for DJ Shadow to abandon his sound after making two critically acclaimed albums pushing sample based music in a new direction and make a hyphy album that everyone hated’ but consider this: Turf Talk And Keak Da Sneak
Fight For Peace - Frank Klepacki: I developed a brain parasite this month that forced me to become completely obsessed with the 15 year old RTS game Command And Conquer Generals, and then I found out that the soundtrack was on spotify.
Sultans Of Swing - Dire Straits: Everyone’s always talking about Mark Knopfler being good at guitar or whatever but for my money the drummer is the real mvp of this song, and the part where he just goes ham for like half a bar at about 4:20 really cracks me up.
Strangest Thing - The War On Drugs: Literally every song The War On Drugs have released from their upcoming album so far I have absolutely loved and I cannot wait to hear the whole thing.
Kyanite - Jlin: Jlin baby!! This is like traditional music from an alien civilisation or something, it’s incredible.
Sophisticated Lady - Art Tatum: Speaking of music from another planet I firmly belived Art Tatum was touched on the brain by God.
Romance Without Finance - Tiny Grimes: Please enjoy this 70 year old song about not dating broke girls, the backing vocals really make me laugh.
All Is Written - Matana Roberts: Matana Roberts is a very specific feeling but if you’re in the mood for confrontational experimental jazz please get into this whole album. Start with Coin Coin Chapter One if you want the full experience.
Time For Us - Nicolas Jaar: I love when Nicolas Jaar does funny voice. In the world I dream of this song is a dancefloor classic.
Blanket Me - Hundred Waters: I love Hundred Waters and this song make me so emotional to the point where i’m almost afraid to hear their new album.
When The World Was At War We Kept Dancing - Lana Del Rey: Lust For Life is incredible and hearing Lana sing ’s it the end of an era? is it the end of America?’ is like.. directly targeting my brain stem. I cannot describe how much I instantly fell in love with this song when I first heard it.
Jane - Jefferson Starship: The new season of Wet Hot American Summer reminded me how good this song is. I spent like half an hour reading the wiki article about Jefferson Airplain, Jefferson Starship and Starship and how they came to be to my girlfriend this month and let me tell you: she hated it.
Take You On A Cruise - Interpol: The instrumentation in this song sounds so much like the xx’s first album it is insane.
Vegas - Polica: I feel like I have a new favourite Polica song every week they are honestly the best band in the world.
Woody’s Roundup - Riders In The Sky: Hello, I woke up with the Woody’s Roundup theme song from Toy Story 2 in my head one day this month and so I put it on my playlist. It’s a good song, highly recommended thanks.
All Night Vigil, Op. 37: No. 3, Blessed Is The Man “Beatitude” - Sergei Rachmaninoff: Accidentally got very heavily into this russian orthodox christian choral music this month.
Magic Arrow - Timber Timbre: My friend texted me out of the blue saying how good this song is and he’s absolutely right. Timber Timbre’s self titled is an album i’ve continually returned to for years now, it’s truly something special.
Don’t Say I Know - Tera Melos: Tera Melos are finally, finally back! And they’re making incredible impossible music that’s catchy as hell again!
Keep The Car Running - Arcade Fire: Had a very intense moment with this song this month, listening to it on repeat and convincing myself that it was coming for me too.
Hocus Pocus - Focus: Baby Driver is a good movie! And this song and scene was a real highlight.
How Long - Out Hud: Thankyou to @popculturediedin2009 for introducing me to this great song from a !!! side project I never knew about and thankyou to the Lindsay Lohan film I Know Who Killed Me for introducing it to them in the first place.
I Can’t Turn You Loose - Sly & The Family Stone: The guy making noises into the microphone right at the start is really, really funny and I can’t believe it’s taken me this long of watching The Blues Brothers pretty regularly to look up the original version of this song.
Oh Yeah - The Subways: Rediscovered this album this month after singing Rock And Roll Queen about 20 times in a row with my friends thanks to a Singstar glitch and remembered how I had an absolute breakdown about this song when I was about 19, listening to it on repeat for hours and fretting that I was going to die because I would no longer be a teenager soon.
Me And Guiliani Down By The School Yard - A True Story - !!!: Bring back mid-2000s dance-punk we need it now more than ever!

when people are like “where has michelle branch been since 2003″ and i’m just like

first of all lets just not forget that michelle didn’t just disappear *in* 2003, that was when “hotel paper” came out, which btw is a multiplatinum selling album that she toured the hell out of and had 2 hit singles and then 1 single that sort of faded away and did not get a video BUT she speaks french in that song so its VERY GOOD. also the single artwork is like… holy fuck M A J O R B A B E A L E R T omg.

then michelle branch formed a country band called the wreckers with her backup singer and friend jessica harp. jessica sang on michelle’s album “hotel paper” and that album has a country song (”love me like that” with sheryl crow) so it kinda seemed inevitable. “the good kind” was on the one tree hill soundtrack in 2004 and you know they appeared in the show (michelle loves to appear in shows i guess including buffy, charmed and –as leslie gore– on american dreams). anyway she could have just kept being michelle branch feat. my friend and backup singer but michelle is a GOOD PERSON who was like NO LETS DISTRIBUTE THIS POWER and RECOGNIZE EACH OTHER AS ARTISTS and DO THIS THING TOGETHER which is extremely cool and good.

in 2005 the wreckers released a song with santana (called it’s called “i’m feeling you” but literally whatever) and then a single called “leave the pieces” dropped in 2006. it debuted at #1 on the billboard hot country charts. it was the first time a female country duo was #1 since the 1950s. it was nominated for a grammy. the single sold over a million copies. that is a successful fucking song goodbye.

anywhere they dropped an album and it has some great country pop singles that were sort of a pre-taylor swift thing and the album sold over 850,000 copies so that’s pretty cool. they had some other singles including “my oh my” which has a frankly insane video which i will just not embed here. i guess the album did well and stuff, they released a live album/DVD as well that was recorded at the bowery ballroom and i did not go but i did see them earlier on the wreckers’ tour and it was the first time i met michelle so that was very nice.

then the band ended which doesn’t seem that crazy considering it was a side project and i can only imagine the record label the entire time was like “AGH COUNTRY WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO US” not to mention a bunch of her fans were like that too including me but then I FUCKING GOT ON BOARD.

she did a song called “together” that was in sisterhood of the traveling pants 2 because OF COURSE SHE DID lol lets not forget that she basically owned teen girl feelings in the 2000s. her music was used in tons of and tons of trailers and it’s like GOOD FOR YOU GET THAT MONEY GIRL. anyway this has been a fun “teen girl vibes” interlude.

she also did this joni mitchell “a case of you” cover for a covers compilation album that her label put together. over the next few years she also covered the rolling stones’ “play with fire”, radiohead’s “creep” (it got used in a something?? amazon music also gave away an exclusive acoustic version in some promo) and let’s not forget she covered bowie’s life on mars for a GAP compilation and then was put on a japanese album reissue i think. she actually has done a lot of covers in her live shows including lit, elvis, joni’s “river”, and her first demo album from when she was like 14 has a rickie lee jones cover. michelle branch likes music itself a lot. she has also done guest vocals on a bunch of artists’ songs including *cough*hanson*cough*.

so now it’s 2008-2009 and michelle was still like doing country music and recorded a full album and blah blah blah it got shelved and shoved around and it was truly the beginning of what seems like a bunch of shitty label issues that resulted in a lot of music remaining unreleased. she played some shows to support the album in 2008 and it just did. not. happen. 

fuck the label i mean i swear to god i could have been listening to consistent michelle branch music for my entire 20s but noooooo. the album did not materialize, a single called “this way” did not properly get released, and eventually in 2010 she released an EP called “everything comes and goes” featuring this single “sooner or later” which has this video.

in 2010 it was announced michelle was album working on a new album called “west coast time” that was meant to be a return to her pop music sound but you know, it was 6 years since “hotel paper” at this point and michelle was growing up too and it had a bit of a cooler sound. the album was due for release in 2011, it had album art and everything although there was this moment where it started getting pushed and delayed like, 3 times in a year and a half. on the album cover michelle wears a hat which honestly does not help with the vanessa carlton comparisons. sidenote, this video of michelle trying to play “a thousand miles” is one of the best things i’ve ever seen but i am biased.

so anyway they teased the album’s release with a single called “loud music” that frankly seemed designed for radio and i love michelle branch like don’t get me wrong i am her biggest fan but there were better songs from that time probably. it had another roadtrip video michelle is just a big fan of cars i think.

michelle was doing press for this album, including some live webcast live stream whatever stuff where she played song clips. she did one on her website pre-facebook live days. she did some thing hosted by tyler oakley where she made a salad and people could tweet in questions??? michelle did a lot of food and cooking-adjacent things in this time too.

she also did some events and stuff including a live Q&A podcast recording at the apple store in soho and i literally did not live in NYC at the time but i came up just to attend (it was nbd because i was also casually sort of long distance maybe not exactly seeing but not not-seeing this really cute guy so it was a good excuse) and she previewed some new songs.

“west coast time” was the sort of pop album that michelle branch aka THE MICHELLE BRANCH was known for and had lots of songs that eventually leaked over time. one of those songs is called “spark” and it is extremely fucking michelle branch-y and would have killed. remember this was like 2009 era pop music and this was very NYLON it girl vibes.

spark is a great fucking song. other leaked songs include for dear life, if you happen to call, what don’t kill you (which was used in a 2013 movie and is ripped from that) and there are more. there’s like an album’s worth. it is very sad because they are good songs and seem like they were exactly right for 2010-2011. there’s also this song called another sun which is moody and ended up in a tv promo for a show called terra nova. it is very clear that at no point in the process did michelle branch just like, stop. 

oh btw during this time she also had a baby and raised her and she is like nearly a teenager now. 

ANYWAY now it’s 2017 and after a million delays and years and label presidents and a new label and some more delays and a lot of work, michelle branch has a new album that is still her but different from all her previous stuff because she is in her 30s now and frankly she is very cool like as a person which maybe she always was but she definitely is now. also she might be a witch but i think that’s just what happens if you live in LA for a few years you become a witch.

the album is more rock than you’d expect and clearly indie rock inspired and i feel like it is sweet vindication not just for her but for every obsessive fan, including me, who you might think is too old to be super into her music. nope! 

anyway i started listening to michelle when i was like 14 and my family moved to america and i didn’t have any friends and i heard “goodbye to you” on MTV and i was like “OMG THATS ME :*( :*(” and now i am twice that age, i am 28 and i am old. and she’s old too. we are all old now. we fast-forwarded like our whole 20s and now we’re out the other side, still fucked up but with cool shoes. congratulations to us!


“Life is a challenge, but it makes great art.”

Jonny Pierce is one of the greatest indie artists of our time as he’s spent the last 8 years cultivating The Drums into the magical musical unicorn it is today. With hits such as “Let’s Go Surfing” and “Money” under his belt, this one-of-a-kind artist is ready to release his latest album, “Absymal Thoughts,” absolutely solo— and he couldn’t be happier. It’s been a wild ride following the progression of The Drums over the years, so we were eager to chat with Jonny about his thoughts on changing the course of the band, as well as the events that really steered and molded his new album. Read more after the jump…

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anonymous asked:

I'm legit not coming for you but, you call yourself a feminist, So how could you like someone like Taylor swift? Genuine question tho lol. She is the literal meaning of white "feminist".

Well, I started liking Taylor Swift years ago, when I was 19 or 20. Speak Now had just come out when I was breaking up with this guy who treated me pretty badly and had cheated on me. Her album quite literally “spoke to me” (pardon the pun) and was helping me get over him, when I met this new guy.

He and I started dating. We ended up being together for 4 years. But when Taylor went on tour that year, he bought me two tickets to her show as a Christmas present and went with me. He knew that those songs reminded me of my ex, but he also knew that I had gotten past that time in my life THANKS to that album, and wanted to celebrate that. So we went together, and he sat there and watched me dance the night away, surrounded by teen/tween girls screaming in his ear. And he had fun. Because I had fun. He even bought me a Taylor Swift blanket and surprised me with it at the end of the show. That’s when I knew I had a good guy. 

The next Christmas, he and I got engaged. But he was an alcoholic, and eventually it became too toxic for me and I had to leave him. It was one of the hardest things I ever had to do. But he wasn’t getting any better and needed a catalyst for change so I left. Right around that time, Taylor’s next album, Red, came out. I also met one of my best friends around that time, who happened to also love Taylor. She was the only other person in my life that I knew who also loved her. She, along with the Red album, are quite possibly the reason I was able to stay strong through the break up of my engagement. This friend literally took me into her mothers house (along with my dog), went on road trips around the country with me, played Red over and over again until the record scratched. This went on for months and months and she never tired. 

Then I moved down to Florida and I met my most recent ex. The person I fell more in love with than anyone I have ever met. Like that overwhelming, can’t think straight, I’m a gonner, you are everything, kind of in love. I remember the song “State of Grace” playing over and over in my car when I first started dating him, so excited that I had found a new path for myself, a new life, a new love, and it was a clean slate after having to break off one of the most important relationships of my life, with one of the best people I had ever known. 

But, of course, that love didn’t last and lucky me, this guy ended up being the worst person I had ever been with. He abused me in every sense of word and after 2 years of dating left me broken in pieces on the floor (quite literally). This was when 1989 was first leaking, and also when I fell into such a pit of despair, I tried to commit suicide. To make matters worse, he kept coming around, slithering his way back into my life, just to crush me again. It was a toxic and never ending downward spiral. It was also around this time (as luck may have it, history repeats itself) I met another of my now best friends, who was also going through a break up, and I shared 1989 with her. Through the fallout of these horrific relationships we had to deal with, we held on to each other, and we held on to 1989- hard. I remember one night driving to the middle of nowhere and putting the song “Clean” on repeat so we could cry our eyes out for what must have been hours. We literally sat in silence, listening to the track, sobbing in One another’s arms. 

Eventually I won that battle and when I was healthy and happy again, my ex fiance came back into my life. We began talking every few days and I discovered he was healthy, sober, happy and doing really well(as was I). We recounted a ton of old memories and so many of them were filled with Taylor Swift songs - the concert, the fact that “Mine” officially became our song after we got engaged, the first time we danced on his porch and it was to “Fearless”. So much of our relationship began and ended with Taylor Swift’s music and I found myself listening to her old tracks, jumping back into those good times with him. 

Then he died. Suddenly. Brutally. Just gone in the blink of an eye. One day he was there, texting me, calling me, planning a trip to come visit and the next day he was just…dead. Do you know how hard it is to face every single person that your ex fiance ever knew, at his own funeral no less, and listen to them tell you that YOU were the true love of his life? That if he was still alive, you two would have ended up together? How no one after you even compared to you and that you were the reason he was able to get his life together and be BETTER? Do you know how that feels? I hope not. Because I can’t even put it into words. 

There are very few things I have left from that relationship. But what I always kept, which is still on my bed to this day is that Taylor Swift Speak Now blanket. And I don’t care how ratty or old or frayed it gets- I will never let go of it, or the songs that went with our time we shared. 

So you see Anon, I am a feminist. I don’t just call myself one, I am one. But I have been through hell and back in both my relationships and my life, and Taylor Swift’s music has always, somehow, had this magical connection to my history. It has brought me joy, it has given me moments I will never forget, it has introduced me to some of my absolute best friends, it has even quite literally saved my life in my darkest of hours. 

So maybe I don’t always agree with what Taylor Swift does or how she acts when it comes to her whole “girl squad” mentality, etc etc. But what connection I have to her transcends socially constructed political jargon and resonates on a deeper and more spiritual level than I can really even accurately put into words. Every SINGLE song she has ever written, could have been written by me, about someone in my life. Every. Single. One. It’s like her high points and low points, new loves and breakups, friendships and self discoveries all seem to both flourish and crash at the same times and in the same ways mine do.  Put on a song of hers, and I’ll tell you a personal story about that song. Her eras are my eras and I do not have that kind of uncanny connection to anyone else’s music. Not with anyone else in the world. 

And those moments, those memories that she has given me? They are worth a lifetime more than the risk of someone calling me a white feminist just because I like her music, or because it means something to me. 10 lifetimes worth, even. 

(and I could have written this out a lot more eloquently but I figured it was long enough to start)

I Hate Love Songs

A/N: HERES THE DEAL. My friend Kelsea (idk you’ve probably heard of her) dropped this super amazing obnoxiously incredible album on friday (get it here) and I still can’t pick a favorite off of it & i’ve been meaning to write for a while so I went and listened to the album again for some inspo (who am I kidding it’s been on a continuous loop since it came out) and this is what happened. happy reading you trash bags, ily xx

PS - the song I based this around was I Hate Love Songs. Its a real gem, go listen and this whole fic will make more sense.

“Ew. Gross. No.” Beca reached across the front of the dash to shut off the radio. 

“Becaaaaa!” Chloe slapped her hand away and turned it back on and louder this time.

“Chloe, I can’t take this cliche shit that’s on the radio anymore! Can I please just pick the music? We only have like an hour left ‘til we’re home.”

“A deal’s a deal, Mitchell.” 

“Dude, they’re literally singing the cheesiest of all the bullshit. I got news for ya, if your heart really skipped, you’d be dead.”

“It’s a metaphor, ass”

“One time I got glitter in my eye, that’s the only time they have ever held stars. Then, I ended up in the ER because I couldn’t get them out.”

“You were drunk.”

So not the point, Beale.” 

“No way dude. I beat you at strip poker and a regular game of poker, I get to pick the music.”

“If I remember correctly, we both won at strip poker. Or at least it sounded like it when I-”

Chloe rolled her eyes and cranked the radio all the way up, cutting Beca off.

– – – –

A little over an hour later (Chloe took the long way just to piss Beca off even more. She likes to call it tough love) they pulled into their driveway. 

Beca got out of the car, without a word, grabbed their bags from the back seat (because she was still a charmer, dammit) and went inside. Chloe followed her in and stopped her when she went to the fridge to make a drink. “Becs, I don’t see what the big deal is. It’s just musi- I mean-”

Beca’s jaw dropped. “You do know you’re engaged to a girl who writes songs and music for a living right…”

“Baby that’s not what I meant. Besides, your stuff is the best stuff on the radio and you know it.”

“Damn right it is.”

“So if Bruno’s latest is cheesy and gross but catchy I’m still gonna sing along to it.”

“But it doesn’t mean shit, Chlo! It doesn’t make sense! And violets aren’t even blue!”


“Violets are purple, not blue. So roses are red and violets are blue makes absolutely no sense. It’s all a lie, therefore the love is a lie.” Beca was continuing to rant as she was pouring more and more rum into her Coke. 

“You’re being crazy.” she set her keys and purse down on the island and walked over to Beca, taking the bottle from her hand and putting it back in the freezer.

Beca glared at the redhead for taking her rum, “am not.” 

“Where are you going?”

“Studio. I’ll be in bed late, don’t wait up.”

Beca grabbed her drink, quickly kissed her fiance on the cheek, and went to her studio in the basement. 

– – – –

It was nearing 2am when Chloe finally caved and went downstairs. Beca’s red recording light was on so she didn’t bother knocking, she just sat outside on the couches they’d put down there and waited for the light to shut off. The brunette never let her in on what she was working on until she at least had a demo of it. She was superstitious about letting anyone hear her stuff before it was almost perfect. 

Twenty or so minutes later the light was off and Chloe knocked lightly so she didn’t startle her. Beca held up a finger telling her to wait a second, then swiveled around in her chair and walked to the door. 

The DJ cracked the door to greet her, “Hey. I told you not to wait up, aren’t you tired?”

“I made you tea.” Chloe handed her a mug, it had gotten cold but still would help her throat if she was singing.

“thanks, sweets.” Beca grabbed the mug and took a sip.

“You coming to bed soon?”

“Yeah I will. I’m almost done.” 

“Can I hear it?”

“Not quite there yet” she took another sip.

“Okay, I’ll be upstairs.”

“thanks for the tea, baby.” Beca reached up on her toes to kiss Chloe’s cheek, “I’ll be up soon.” 

– – – –

The lie detector test determined that was a lie. Beca didn’t come to bed until the sun was coming up and Chloe was getting ready for work. 

“Fuck. I’m so sorry, Chlo.”

“It’s fine.” Chloe was putting on her shoes and didn’t make any eye contact when the younger girl walked in.

“I just got into a groove and didn’t wanna lose it.” 

“It’s okay.” Chloe mumbled as she threw her book bag over her shoulder.

“I finished it though, so you can listen to it later? After work?”


“Or I can play it for you. Yeah. I’ll play it for you.”

“Alright. I gotta go.”

Beca turned and watched the redhead walk out their bedroom door. She rushed and followed her out, or attempted to, as she walked down the hall she yelled after her, “Have a good day, I love you!”

“Love you too, Becs.” door slammed. 

All she could do at this point was try to get some sleep before she had to be into work in four hours, and even then she’d just keep working all night on some other project she got later in the day. Regardless, Chloe was pissed and she was hoping this would make up for some of it.

Part of her felt like an asshole for making a big deal out of something so dumb, but the other part of her didn’t care because she knew Chloe would love what she wrote and it would make up for all of it (she hoped).

– – –

Beca had Chloe on her mind all day, per usual, and got to thinking and knew she had to make this big and not some dumb ploy to just write a song to make Chloe feel better. It usually worked, but she couldn’t keep using it every time or it wouldn’t work after long. So, she took the night off work. 

After she ignored both of her calls and was responding with one word answers to her texts all before lunch, she decided that instead of just taking the night off she should leave early and beat Chloe home.

– – –

Well, she was definitely still mad. Beca called her, she finally picked up, and it was close to dinner and getting late, “I’m gonna be home late tonight. Got stuff to do.”



“I just uh was gonna play you that song I wrote last night. But it’s cool.” Beca let out a huffed breath and ran her fingers through her hair.

“Oh. Yeah. I can try and come home earlier but I don’t know how long this stuff will take me.”

“It’s okay.”

“I’ll text you when I leave?”

“Sounds good.”

“Love you.”

“You too, baby.”

and then she hung up.

Chloe didn’t traipse through their front door until well after 10pm. Beca had all the lights off in the house so Chloe thought she went to bed or was downstairs working again. But what Chloe didn’t know is that Beca was patiently waiting in their room with a bubble bath ready to go and two glasses of wine next to the tub. She was in her pajamas already and sitting on the bench at the foot of their bed with her guitar when Chloe walked in.

“Oh. Hi. I didn’t know you were still up.” Chloe dropped her book bag to the floor and kicked off her shoes while she walked over to their closet to change.

“Yeah. How was your day?” Beca yelled towards their closet.

“Was fine.” 


Chloe walked back out while pulling her tshirt over her head, Beca pretended not to stare at her boobs while she did, “So, what’s goin’ on here?”

“Well,” she cleared her throat, “I have a bubble bath ready, but thought you were going to be home sooner so like it’s probably cold, but also wine” she gestured with her head over to their ensuite bathroom, “and I really just wanted to play you that song.”

“Oh, right. Sorry.”

“Nah, it’s cool it’s cool.” she drummed her fingers on the body of the guitar.

“OH! You wanted to play it right now?”

Beca just hesitantly looked down at her guitar, around the room, and then back up at Chloe, “that was kinda the plan, yeah.”

Chloe walked over and sat on the bed, getting comfortable, “Okay, I’m ready.”

Beca turned around to face Chloe, because while she didn’t like eye contact while she sang her stuff for people, she liked to watch Chloe’s facial expressions while she did. “Okay, here goes.”

Beca started plucking the strings for a few beats and then began to sing,

“I hate Shakespeare and Gosling and cakes with white frosting two names in a heart shaped tattoo. I think cupid is stupid and violets are purple, not blue.”

Chloe smiled softly, then rolled her eyes. 

“I hate catching bouquets, the honeymoon phase, and letterman jackets don’t fit. Your eyes can’t hold stars and you’d die if your heart really skipped.”

She picked up the plucking to strumming and looked up at Chloe while she started the chorus, “I hate love songs, yeah I really do. I hate love songs, but I love you.” They both smiled at the last bit and Beca continued.

“I hate pink hearts with glitter, and Valentines dinner, and roses just die in a week. We were drunk when we met so we don’t know our anniversary,” she shrugged and simultaneously smirked, “whoops.”

Chloe started getting closer to Beca as she played the rest of the song. “And I’m far to vain, to kiss in the rain, the clouds they aren’t numbered to nine, and you make me feel somethin’ and it sure as hell ain’t butterflies.” 

She sang the last chorus with more confidence and with a smile on her face now that she saw Chloe was enjoying it and had somewhat forgiven her. 

Beca set the guitar down on the bench and kept singing while crawling closer to Chloe on their bed, “And I’ll always love you but I don’t have to sing it, ‘for worse or for better’ don’t rhyme. They say I got the right one so now I should write one….” she got closer to the redheads face, “but I’d rather just show you tonight.” drawing out the last note and closing the gap between them. 

Chloe pulled back and cupped Beca’s cheeks, “so about that bath?”