i literally just changed it a few days ago

Iridescent Wyvern - 

“Finished” version of the WIP of my OC Ashnaar I showed a few days ago. After reading your comments I eventually looked up iridescent scales to see what they truly looked like and they are much more complex than just saturated highlights and shades, they literally change colors depending on the angle from which they are seen. D:

I guess I still need some practice to make that look really convincing but I like how it is already.

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Been a while since I drew anything that I remotely liked. A few days ago I downloaded ArtPose for 3 whole bucks, and it’s as game changing as moving to digital was for me (layers, undo, and stylus are awesome) but I feel like such an art fraud just tracing over the pose. Hopefully I gain a better understanding of musculature from all this.

And I’m so behind. Everyone else has moved onto Lotor and Matt. Meanwhile, I’m not over BoM Keith.

I’LL NEVER BE OVER BoM KEITH!!! I literally gasped when he showed up in a dark suit.

Also, I think I’ve finally found a signature that truly expresses how I feel about my drawings. :P

Hired by BigHit: Dreams vs Reality- Part 4

Pairing: Taehyung x Reader

Genre: Fluff, Light Angst, [mentions of sex in later parts]

Summary: As a talented underground rapper, you’ve just become Bangtan’s new hiphop coach! What happens when you meet the boy who has big dreams of joining the rap line?

Parts: 1 // 2 // 3 // 4 // 5 // 6 // 7 // 8 // 9 // 10 [END]

Hired by BigHit Series: Taehyung // Hoseok // Yoongi // Seokjin // Namjoon // Jungkook // Jimin


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ackackh  asked:

I'd like to hear about your sister's book if you're interested in sharing. :)

Oh, you’d better believe I am! It’s called Bad Endings, and it’s a collection of short stories that spans from very early in her days getting accepted by literary magazines and journals (just a few years ago) to very recent ones she wrote just for the anthology. A lot of them - a lot of them are autobiographical in nature, but she also pulls little twists like writing about things people she’s close to have been through from their POV, or changing things in “what if” or sort of nightmarish ways so that they play out how they felt for her instead of literally.

The theme is really in the title, bc most of them end without really offering any conclusion at all - it’s a play on our mom telling her she wasn’t good at the end of things when she was a kid, like goodbyes and things she loved coming to a close upset her, and then on the concept of a “bad ending” for a game or story, where the endings seem “bad” from a writing standpoint because they’re just not there. But you get dropped into many of the stories without a real beginning point, either, so it’s not about structure so much as living this moment you get with this character. It’s more visceral, more about the experience.

And she’s just an incredible writer. Whereas I tend to wrap everything in as many pretty words as possible, Carleigh pares them down to as few as possible and gives each one maximum impact, so the emotional gut punches really do knock the wind out of you. The stories are these extremely poignant, emotional, sometimes brutal struggles told in matter-of-fact language because that’s how she’s lived her life, she’s been determined to succeed and remain independent with severe anxiety so it’s all been “one foot in front of the other, keep going, do what’s necessary, don’t brood poetically on shit just go, just go, just keep going,” and it’s given her this amazingly effective style that leaves me breathless.

That’s probably… more than you wanted to hear? But I can’t stop gushing about her when I start. Please pick it up if it sounds interesting, I know it can be found on Amazon! And thank you for asking this, I love getting to bring attention to her work when I can.

@daesungindistress  replied to your post: “i literally spent the whole day..”

Hahaha, I totally know the feeling! Although I actually haven’t put a ton of work into my blog’s appearance… hmm. Anyway, yours looks so nice!! I changed mine a week or two ago, it still needs work, but I made it where the sidebar image changes at random whenever the page is loaded. Because when it comes to pics of Daesung, I couldn’t possibly settle on just one! lol~

Aw thanks! Yeah I really like it too now :3

And haha, I saw you changed yours a few days back and spent a good amount of time refreshing your page to look at all the Daesung/Todae photos. A really good idea! (and you’re so right, there exist just too many quality pics of him)

Obviously Not

Quicksilver x Reader
Check out the incredible comic of this fic by @shoyzz!


Words:
613
Plot: When Peter overhears her talking to Jean about letting someone down easy - he’s devastated. 
Prompt: (Anon) Hi! I really enjoyed reading “pour some sugar on me” and I wanted to request my own Peter Maximoff x reader one shot where Peter has a crush on the reader and over hears jean and the reader talking about the readers crush which is Peter but he thinks its someone else and gets really frustrated and jealous because he just started to believe that the reader might like him back and it just turns into one big fluffy mess you can change anything you want but just something along these lines thanks!
A/N: I got this request a few days ago, and I’ve been SO excited to write this. Jealousy is such an interesting emotion to depict, and so relatable, too. I hope you have as much fun reading this as I had writing it; if you do, feel free to subscribe for (literally daily at this point) fluffy Maximoff fluff-fests (and my upcoming Part 3 of my most loved series, Even If You Are Trouble.)

Originally posted by hardyness

The radio was softly playing as Jean opened the door to her bedroom. The smell of nail polish invaded her nose; her room mate was humming quietly to herself, waving her hands in a vain attempt to get the polish to dry faster.

Jean slung her backpack down, collapsing onto her bed.
“Training?” (y/n) asked, flashing Jean a smile.


Jean ran her hands through her red hair, untangling some of the knots that had managed to work their way through it.
“Hank had me calibrating machinery with my head” she sighed “it was about as fun and exhausting as it sounds.”
(y/n) chuckled, bending down under her bed to grab the converses she had stored below it.
…enough time? Hair is a mess, hope he doesn’t notice..
Jean sat up, raising one eyebrow. 
“Going somewhere?” she asked, trying to sound nonchalant.
(y/n) shook her head, smiling “I know when you’re in my head, Jean”
Jean crossed her ankles, shrugging. “I would have figured it out sooner or later, regardless” she added, and then she realised, putting a palm to her face. “Peter.”
(y/n) flinched, a sly smile on her face “we’re going for a walk. It’s just a walk, Jean”.
“You’re thinking about his hair a lot for someone who’s only objective is some night time exercise”.
(y/n) shrugged her leather jacket on, buttoning up the cuffs as she did “Kurt bought me flowers yesterday” she added, looking Jean dead in the eyes “and he knows I like Peter. So I have to put the poor guy out of his misery and tell him that I’m just not interested before I hurt him.”

***

Peter mussed his silver hair in his hands, trying to get it to sit right. He’d been fretting all night about his appearance, and walking down the corridor towards her room, he was shaking like a leaf. He was wearing his best silver jacket, and some of Scott’s spicy cologne that made him smell like a fancy Christmas cake. Holding a bunch of white roses he’d picked from the gardens, he didn’t feel as surefooted as he usually did.


When he reached the door, he felt his heart hammering in his ears. He heard Jean’s voice, and his breath caught when he thought he heard (y/n) say his name.
He stood there, listening.
“Kurt bought me flowers yesterday” Peter heard, and then a muffled “Peter: So I have to put the poor guy out of his misery and tell him that I’m just not interested before I hurt him.”
Peter felt a cold sweat rush through him. He felt as though the world was moving, and he was standing still; ice water flushing through his veins.
She liked Kurt?
His best friend, Kurt?


He’d seen them in the library together laughing…and they had classes together in third period on Wednesdays. How could Peter not have noticed?
“Well, you’d better do it fast; he’s a sweet guy-”
“I will. I’ve made up my mind, and tonight I think that will be pretty obvious.”
Jean laughed, and to Peter, the sound seemed so mocking and cold.
How could she lead him on like this? They had been getting lunch together every week, and taking strolls to the park to stargaze. He thought that had meant something to her.
He closed his eyes, taking a deep breath.
Obviously not.
He dropped the flowers by her doorstep; there was no use in taking them home at this point. Biting his lip to fight back the wetness in his eyes, Peter dashed off, leaving roses scattered at her doorstep, dusted in silver by the light of the moon.

A/N: Part 2 is available here

Tagged by @roserades (ty)

Rules: Answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people.

LAST

Drink: water

Phone call: my aunt

Text message: my boss

Song you listened to: this

Time you cried: literally just a few days ago

HAVE YOU

Dated someone twice: no

Kissed someone and regretted it: no

Been cheated on: no

Lost someone special: yes

Been depressed: lmao

Gotten drunk and thrown up: nope

Made new friends: yes

Fallen out of love: no

Laughed until you cried: sometimes

Found out someone was talking about you: yeah?

Met someone who changed you: i guess

Found out who your friends are: maybe?

Kissed someone from your Facebook list: no

Kissed a stranger: nah

Drank hard liquor: yeah

Lost glasses/contact lenses: no

Turned someone down: no

Sex on the first date: nah

Broken someone’s heart: no

Had your heart broken: lmao!

Been arrested: no

Cried when someone died: yes

Fallen for a friend: yes

Kissed on the first date: no

GENERAL

List 3 favorite colors: purple, black, blue

How many Facebook friends do you know in real life: i don’t even have facebook anymore lol

Do you have any pets: two dogs

Do you want to change your name: no

What time did you wake up: 2pm

What were you watching at midnight last night: does listening to music count

Name something you can’t wait for: splatoon 2 and miitopia

When was the last time you saw your mom: yesterday

What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: everything lol

What are you listening to right now: this

Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: not that i remember

Something that is getting on your nerves right now: this summer heat

Most visited website: youtube

Mole/s: a few but they’re small

Mark/s: a few scars

Childhood dream: i wanted to be an artist

Do you have a crush on someone: nope

What do you like about yourself: how independent i am i guess?

Piercings: none

Blood type: unsure but i’m pretty sure i’m O

Nickname: Jay or Toon

Relationship status: single

Zodiac: pisces

Pronouns: he/they

Favorite TV show: hard to answer 

Tattoos: none

Right or left hand: right

Surgery: none

Hair dyed in different color: no

Sport: sleeping

Vacation: idk maybe japan or france?

Pair of trainers: none

Current and all-time best friend: none

Eye color: dark brown

Favorite movie: too hard

WHICH IS BETTER?

Hugs or kisses: hugs

Lips or eyes: eyes

Shorter or taller: either or

Nice arms or stomach: dont make me choose

Sensitive or loud: depends

Hook up or relationship: not interested in either but relationship i guess

Troublemaker or hesitant: hesistant

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

Yourself: LMAO!

Miracles: not really

Love at first sight: nope

Santa Claus: no

I tag: @hopefragment @fortgalahad @orcdorc @eggplantbear @everysinglepheel @nohriantrusts @betsumon @dwarfsunflower @earthboundwikia @kogasaurus 

anonymous asked:

thank you very much for the advice! i really appreciate that you took the time to answer. i tried inviting people places, and they always make excuses to not go or just dont show up (one girl literally did this twice to me after she said she was coming around to my house). im in the last year of school and my year group is really small so i don't have any idea who i could really make friends with, but im going to try and find some outside of school. i already tried being honest with one of 1/2

them and things changed for exactly one day. i actually kind of screwed up even more a few hours ago bc one of the others in the friend group is feeling excluded so we vent to each other and i sent her photos that were posted of the party and she went ballistic. i don’t know if i can resolve it now, but theyre kind of terrible friends anyway. i almost never start things like this but i was really hurting and im prepared to take responsibility. thanks again for the advice! it does help 2/2

Hello again! I figured you might’ve tried some of those things already, since I wasn’t aware of the specifics of your situation. Though I’m glad my advice could help a little bit. 

Looking outside of school is probably a good idea yeah. I hope you’re able to find some people! 

So your other friend got mad at them? I don’t blame you two for being angry with them, what they’re doing is pretty crappy it seems. Though I guess they might be mad at you for showing her those pictures. It’s fine if you feel like you’ve screwed up sometimes, as long as you’re prepared to own up to it it’ll probably turn out alright. I hope everything ends up working out for you :-)

waking up, i found that a few people were wondering about this post i made about xiuhan yesterday and explain what i meant in detail.

first of all, i would like to say that I DON’T KNOW if xiuhan is real or not, ok? they could be. maybe they are not. this post is just gonna explain what kind of changes I have noticed to their relationship and maybe you guys will agree, maybe you won’t

Before I get more into detail, this is (in my eyes!) how most shippers see xiuhan’s relationship: For most of them, Luhan is the one that is in love with Minseok and admires him and always looks at him like he’s his most precious person and Xiumin doesn’t even notice because he’s the innocent guy who doesn’t get anything about shipping and people pairing them up and stuff like that. Tbh, I also thought that this is what their relationship was like in the beginning, but recently something has changed a lot…

I can’t really say when their relationship started to change but i’ve noticed Minseok starting to show affection towards Luhan as well, which is quite a huge thing in my eyes. Back then it was Luhan most of the time, who approached Xiumin first, touched him, back-hugged him or put his head on Minseok’s shoulder to rest. Xiumin never pushed him away which shows that he’s always been comfortable with Luhan and them being that close, but recently he’s been initiating those kinds of moments as well and Luhan has been showing very interesting reactions. I don’t know WHEN Minseok noticed but it’s pretty obvious that Luhan gets kind of nervous or almost confused when Minseok touches him first or teases him (like yesterday - or was it the day before - when Xiumin approached Luhan from behind at TLP and literally shoved his face in Luhan’s and when Luhan turned around he was so surprised that he almost stumbled back and then tried to kick Xiumin in the ass? And of course, that’s just one example).

So again: I don’t know whether xiuhan is real or not. Of course, I don’t. I don’t know them personally. I didn’t think they were until a few weeks/months ago but with Xiumin starting to change I have the feeling that their relationship has changed as well. Maybe it’s just the fact that Xiumin got more confidence because of his popularity, maybe it’s just that he likes to see flustered Luhan or maybe (and that’s what it looks like to me) they have become intimate. This might be a bit far-fetched, but just the way they look at each other… - idk if you’ve noticed. During those fake-kisses at their concert, their faces almost never seem normal… if you know what I mean. If you get forced to do this kind of fanservice with someone who’s just a friend, you’ll either be disgusted or laugh your ass off. And xiuhan don’t really do that. I mean, they do laugh sometimes because it’s a kind of funny situation nevertheless but I always have the feeling that the moments their eyes lock, they really have that exchange of intense gazes like you see them in ridiculous teenager movies where you see someone from across the hall and think “omfg he’s the one. Sexual tesion overflow!” XDD

Anyway, going back to “how other shippers see their relationship" and how I think about that now: I doubt that Luhan is or has ever been aware of the fact that he has special feelings towards Xiumin. He acts confident and like it’s the most normal thing on the planet when he touches Xiumin, but I think he never actually thought he was being very different towards him compared to the other members. He probably just shrugged it off as “Xiumin is cute” and “We get along well “ and “We’re the same age” and he didn’t even notice that his skinship was kind of getting out of hand, especially because Xiumin never said anything to it either. But now that Xiumin has been taking the initiative, Luhan has noticed that what the two of them do together is not quite normal between friends and maybe a little too much… and that’s why he gets kind of confused or flustered and pulls away when Xiumin touches him, and Xiumin has found a new side to Luhan which he apparently finds quite amusing. And in addition do that I think that while teasing each other something more might have happened. I can’t quite say how but maybe they had something going on and for me it seems like Luhan is the one that is embarrassed about it and Xiumin isn’t and totally enjoys teasing Luhan with shoving his face into his and throw Luhan off the track. And because Luhan always claims that he’s a manly man he probably thinks that being nervous and flustered isn’t a reaction he should have when Xiumin approaches him, that’s why he tries to kick him in the butt and pretend like he’s “mad” or “annoyed” at Xiumin teasing him instead of really really nervous… 

anonymous asked:

So...who are your ultimate biases?

Okay this is probably the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do but I’ll try >.<

EXO: Sehunnie and Yeol (I’M SORRY OKAY I JUST CAN’T CHOOSE BETWEEN THESE ANGELS)

WINNER: Fake thug, teddy bear Mino

IKON: Forever power duo Hanbin & Bobby

BTS: Okay so definitely Taehyung but you can understand the struggle of Yoongi because he’s just doing every right all the damn time and he’s managed to climb to the top with TaeTae too. (Classic Yoongi not taking shit and Taehyung being chill as hell)

SHINEE: My queen Kibum

SEVENTEEN: Okay so I got a question about my Seventeen Bias literally a few days ago but I’ve doing some serious stalking and its changed dramatically I’m sorry! So now its Wonwoo, Jeonghan and Jisoo oh and Jun! (Tbh I’ll probably change again I still havent done enough research to rly know, sorry!)

BIGBANG: The sassiest dork there is Choi Seunghyun

GOT7: Jackson, just bc he’s Jackson tbh (If you stan Got7 you’ll know exactly what I mean)

VIXX: Hyuk, this little ball of fluffy sunshine does things to me ~~

suicidal-sweet-love  asked:

Gray! :)

“Share a relationship story.” *Sigh* I don’t know where to start this.. this is such a very long story. Apology in advance for those who don’t wish to read this. I will make it short as much as I can.

4 years ago, I met a girl on Twitter who changed my whole life. She is from Germany and I’m from Japan.

Everything of us started from “Follow me back?” from her. I followed back, and we started to talk about a lot of things. She always tweeted me whenever she found me “online” saying how are you or blahblah, we talked, talked, talked every day. I wasn’t kind of person who starts a conversation with someone. But she always tweeted me first to start a conversation with me, which was really cute :’) It didn’t take much time for us to get close, we became best friends immediately. I was realizing that she likes me more than a friend way.. she always told me very sweet things and I was smiling like a fool whenever I’m talking with her. I was also liking her back but didn’t ask her to be my girlfriend because I wasn’t believing that we can make it because we both were too young… I was so afraid of losing her, like end up not being together. But the more time passes by, we got to know about each other more and more. We both were in love with each other but wasn’t in a relationship because of me. As time passes by, we got more closer. One day, I’ve committed to myself believing in her words that she will always love me. She made me feel that she will never leave me no matter what and love me forever. She promised them to me. I was determined to get her by my side no matter what. I really meant it. So I finally asked her to be my girlfriend (partner) after half a year since we met. I don’t like calling her girlfriend. She is more than a girlfriend to me. I never met a girl who makes me happy as much as she does. She literally made me the happiest man alive, and I was also making her happy. We were deeply truly loving each other, more than anything. I dreamt of being with her forever, I was willing to give up on anything for her. I wanted to make her happy and feel loved each day, I treated her like princess in possible ways. She’s the most important thing in my whole life. I told her that she is beautiful every day, even though she never accepted it but got mad for me calling her beautiful haha she was so cute when she was mad, I was smiling and we were. We had ups and down just like other relationships, we overcame them together each time with our love. We had the strongest connection between heart and heart, our bond was never something that could be broken easily. No matter how much we fought, we forgave each other and end up smiling at the end. She promised to stay and love me forever, I also did. I never broke promise or my words to her while she often broke her words and our small promises… of course they had hurt me but I always forgave her, always gave her chances because I truly love her.

But as time passed by, she started to change… At the end of 2013, I was feeling like she was no longer loving me.. I could feel it by the way she treats me yet.. she was still such a sweet person to me. But I could feel it. I asked her for the truth that if she loves me or not but she didn’t answer me at first.. but I really wanted to know so I asked her again and she finally told me… that she is not sure anymore if she loves me or not… her words totally brought me down. I fucking cried.. I cried a lot. I couldn’t believe that she is not loving me anymore at first. I didn’t even want to accept that. I was so confused, she was too. We tried to look for a way of being together. She told me that she doesn’t wanna lose me, I told her that you will never lose me.. that I will always be there for her no matter what as I promised. The girl I dreamt of being with forever is no longer loving me. This fact was killing me.. while I was acting like “okay”. I was losing myself inside because she was my everything. I was so fucking afraid of losing the love of my life.. I never wanted to lose her. I was hoping every day that she will love me again. I didn’t give up on her. Since that day she told me the truth everything was different. Sometimes she told me that she loves me and she doesn’t wanna lose me but I could see that she doesn’t mean it by the way she treats me. I felt like we were falling apart slowly… I’m not the one who is getting far away, she was the one getting far away, while I was trying so hard to get her love back. I sent her meaningful messages almost every day, though I think she wasn’t that impressed but happy. I always replied her very fast, while she very often took way longer just to reply me than before, saying she’s busy… I waited for her answer if she loves me or not hoping it would change but it never changed even after a few months. Her answer was always “I don’t know” which is VERY hurtful answer.. I was not even able to know why she doesn’t want me or love me. I was crying each time I heard her answer “I don’t know”.. She may have told me that way because she didn’t want to hurt me by telling her truth. She was always kind of a girl who keeps almost everything inside. What made our relationship hard is her attitude to me that she keeps everything inside her. She only told me that I hurt her, but she never told me how I’m hurting her or why. While I always had let her know what kind of her action hurts me, and she tried to change it. But I couldn’t even get an opportunity to change myself. There were a few times that she actually told me, and I changed myself and NEVER did it again. She knew that I will never do it if she ever tells me, but she never told me most of the time. This is what I couldn’t understand about her. How can I change something that I don’t know? It’s impossible. I tried to look for a reason what’s of me hurting her.. but I couldn’t figure it out by my own. I was always willing to change myself or do anything for her to make her happy and she surely knew it but she never told me. I’d rather know the truth how much it hurts, I wanted her to tell me straight that she doesn’t love me anymore or want me… so I could accept it instead of having stupid hope that she may change and love me again.. I couldn’t throw my hope I still loved her.. And she was literally my everything.

As time passes by, she started to take a lot of time just to reply me.. and she even started to ignore my texts. She didn’t reply for the whole day, though I saw her “online” and talking with someone else but not me… I remember I cried a lot on that night.. She had never ignored me, she never did such a thing to me. It was so fucking horrible. I never thought she would do such a thing to me. It fucking hurts being ignored by the person you love. Something like these days continued… and I was totally broken and was stuck alone with a small hope of getting her love back… thinking she may tell me that she wants me tomorrow.

Who thought she would change like this? I gave her a promise ring and a letter just 3 or 4 months ago before this happened. I was believing that we’ll get married someday in a few years.. I literally couldn’t wait for that.

I still didn’t give up in these days, a tiny hope that she may change kept me going. I tried to stick with her though she was treating me like I’m nothing anymore. I tried so so hard for getting her love back, I did everything I could do in possible ways. But the more she ignored and pushed me away, I realized and had to accept that this girl doesn’t want me anymore… that she doesn’t need me. I was always telling her that “I will never leave you as long as you need me.” And I know this time had come.. though I never thought this would come when I said it. I was feeling like stupid doing so much for her while she didn’t even care to fix our relationship but ignore me while I never did such a thing to her. I was really tired of being hurt. After all… I’ve finally decided to give up on our relationship. I wonder what her “I don’t want to lose you” means.. She probably thinks that I left her and gave up on her. But she is the one who gave up on our relationship way ages ago before me, and she was the one who pushed me away. No matter how hard I tried to get closer to her, she pushed me away. I did everything I could, I had no regret for giving up. There was no choice left for me.. It’s how she feels, and I can’t change it. I finally accepted that she doesn’t need me. I stopped all effort to keep a conversation with her since she doesn’t want to talk with me. We haven’t talked since my birthday. But I know I will be there for her if she ever needs me again.. regardless of what she did to me in the past. I promised it and I will never break it. I had the best 3 years of my life because of her. Thank you so much… not sure if she’s reading this but I want to appreciate you for loving me.

I’m sorry for making it very long.. and bad english.

Thank you for taking time to read such super long story of mine x

Thanks Everybody

It’s after midnight in Los Angeles, where I live, which means it’s technically March 18th, which means it’s officially the release date of my first book, How to Fight Presidents. I have a lot of meetings and work stuff tomorrow, but I’ve set aside some time to travel to at least a few bookstores and see a book, on a shelf, with my name right on the cover, which is something I’ve never seen before. And it means a lot.

I wasn’t invited to a lot of parties. I didn’t play sports or go to gyms. I didn’t have enough courage to ask girls out on dates and, on the flip side, didn’t get asked out a lot. I didn’t hunt or dance or build or swim or fight club. I grew up in bookstores. I looked forward to Saturday night because I knew it meant sitting on the floor of the Barnes and Noble on Rte. 35 in Holmdel, New Jersey and reading until Deirdra, Luanna or one of the other managers whose names I learned kicked me out. And today, one of the books at that Barnes and Noble will have my name on it, and that’s dumb and silly.

I know objectively that it won’t be a truly life-changing day, in that my life situation won’t drastically change. I’ll still wake up, I’ll still play with my dog, I’ll still have to figure out what to wear to work, I’ll still count to three in cups of coffee, and the Check Engine light will still be on in my car. I will, in fact, have to play EXTRA hard with my dog, as the 18th is his birthday. That’s more important than the book, come to think of it.

I know that there are a few authors who wrote a book and had their lives changed after its publication. But I also personally know a bunch of writers who published a book and then went on with their daily lives, who got additional jobs and just lived and moved on. And the amount of people who have published non-life-changing-books dwarfs the amount of people who have published life-changing-books by quite a bit, I imagine. I know that the book will come out and that it’s possible that, three years from now, I’ll be introduced to someone’s boyfriend and say “Oh, yeah, I wrote a book a few years ago, it was cool, haven’t thought about it since.” That is literally as likely as this being a life-changing book. Those two outcomes are the same.

I remember this to remind myself that today is a day where a billion things will happen, and one of those things is my book being released to the public. It’s weird and dumb and impossible and exciting. I’m a punk from New Jersey who liked wrestling, still doesn’t know how to talk to girls and believed in Santa until he was 12 and someone let me write a book, and that book will be on shelves and available to own tomorrow.

TROYE SIVAN TALKS 'BLUE NEIGHBORHOOD,' WALKING FOR SAINT LAURENT AND HIS WISHLIST

The YouTuber-turned-music-star just dropped his debut album.

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By Erica Gonzales
Dec 9, 2015 @ 4:05 PM

“It feels like my birthday.” Australian singer Troye Sivan is riding high on excitement from his album debut. How else would a newbie to the music scene react to the day of his first album release?

With this level of enthusiasm, one would think this is Sivan’s first great feat, but that’s hardly true. The 20-year-old, who made his start on YouTube (besides previous acting gigs like playing young Wolverine in a small flick called “X-Men: Origins”), now boasts over 3.7 million subscribers. His breakthrough song, “My Happy Little Pill” from his 2014 EP has over 8 million views on his channel—​and over 31 million plays on Spotify. “Wild,” the anthemic title track of his 2015 EP has over 25 million plays.

Sivan began uploading covers at the age of 12, and his channel grew up as he did. He started video blogging, in which he sits in front of his webcam and talks to his massive virtual audience, with his piercing blue eyes and boyish charm, about almost anything—​from the Kylie Jenner lip challenge to “The Last Person I Kissed?” One of his most famous is a confessional called “Coming Out” where, as the title suggests, he reveals he is gay, and recounts what it was like telling his family. The video (clocked in with over 6 million views) resonated with his audience; drawing in comments of heartfelt with messages like “You’re an inspiration,” or “This video helped me accept my sexuality, thank you Troye.”

As his music gets more exposure, his profile is getting more populated with his original music videos and songs—​and it’s not the mainstream pop you’d expect from a YouTube persona with a teen fan base. His sound is mature, atmospheric with an electronic touch, and lyrically personal. Hedi Slimane is a fan. In fact, he liked Sivan so much he asked him to walk in the Saint Laurent in Paris this year.

With many an accomplishment under his belt, the budding star talked to us about his new music, learning to embrace fashion, and the power of being young, openly gay musician.

Harper’s BAZAAR: How does it feel to finally have your debut album come out?

Troye Sivan: It feels so good. I just like, I don’t think I can really process it, it’s obviously something that I’ve wanted since I was like 2 years old, I think. I always wanted to release an album and it’s been like, the big goal for me.

HB: What were some of your inspirations for the album? Are the lyrics really personal?

TS: Definitely, yeah. I think the process for me with this album was like, it was sort of confessional and I kind of just wrote as if it were a diary or a journal or something like that. It’s about everything from being at home, to leaving home to relationship stuff, to friend stuff—kind of whatever I was going through at the time. I was just trying to have these writing sessions to, you know, use it as almost therapy pretty much. So it was basically inspired by all of that, and a lot of time writing it basically meant that all my different influences from really, really big ones that completely changed my life—​someone like Amy Winehouse—​to someone who maybe I liked when I was 15 or whatever that I haven’t thought about in a while, but still that influence in the back of my mind. I feel like all of those influences, from big to small somehow managed to show themselves in the writing and in music and that made me really happy as well. It’s just an interesting journey.

HB: You’re very open with your followers on YouTube and social media. Are you like that with your music too? How are they different?

TS: It feels like for me, the music is much more personal and much more confessional. I kind of like, talk about things in music that I would never talk about with my best friends, which I think seems like a weird thing, but my justification in my head as to why it’s okay is because it’s cryptic enough and there’s enough meat around it to make it all okay and no one can really prove what any of the songs mean. So that’s I guess why I feel comfortable sharing. And also, when I made YouTube videos and stuff, I am the one who’s uploading it, I’m the one who’s editing it, so I’m very in control of what I’m sharing and not sharing. Whereas in music, it’s a lot more of pouring my heart out and kind of just putting it out there for the best.

HB: What was your experience with Hedi Slimane and Saint Laurent like?

TS: It was kind of crazy the way that it all came about. Hedi was a fan of the music and wanted to go out for maybe a lunch or something like that. So we went for lunch in Malibu one day and I was nervous and he was so lovely and nice and sort of like down to earth. He said that maybe we should go shoot around the West Hollywood area just super casually for his journal and so we did it. We kind of just went for a walk that day and took some photos, and two weeks later I got a call asking if I wanted to come to Paris to walk in a show. And it was the most overwhelming and insane experience. I had never done anything like that before and I felt just like completely entering a new world, and I loved it, and it was so fun. Obviously, you know, the clothes are so beautiful. So I felt very lucky.

HB: Were you always into fashion?

TS: No I think that for me, fashion is something that I sort of only recently thought of to kind of let myself enjoy and let myself be interested in. I think that it kind of is a testament of societal pressures and norms. But I was definitely scared of fashion growing up just because I didn’t want people to think I was gay. But now that I’m out and everything, I feel like it’s such a personal journey for me that I’m going on every single day where I feel more and more confident and comfortable to wear the clothes that I want to wear, and to have the interest that I have, and to paint my nails if I want to. I just felt like everything was there and I’m taking little steps to come closer to ultimately be the person I always wanted to really be.

HB: Why did you decide to make nail polish one of your signatures?

TS: It wasn’t as thought out as that. Basically the first show that I played on tour was in Seattle, and, you know, you wear something purple to support anti-bullying. And someone had purple nail polish and I said, “Sure, I’ll paint my nails purple,” and I did the first show. And then I saw tweets and stuff being like, “What color are you gonna do for the second show?” and so then I did white for the second show and I just kind of rolled on from there. And so now I guess it’s a thing. I mean, it’s stressful I don’t know what I’ve gotten myself into ‘cause I have to come up with new colors every show.

HB: Do you have a favorite shade?

TS: I really, really like wearing white. I think it looks really cool and I don’t have to worry about what I’m wearing if I’m wearing white. It just goes with everything.

HB: Describe your go-to outfit.

TS: It’s changing all the time. What happens with me is I’ll buy one article of clothing that will then kind of shape the way that I look for the next few weeks, and then I’ll buy something else. So literally maybe three weeks ago, I started wearing these little 5-panel hats. And now I feel like I look sort of street-y, sporty. I felt that I can’t even pull it off. But it’s a lot of Adidas and Nike and just like, streetwear.

HB: Would you say your stile has evolved since you’ve come out?

TS: Definitely yeah. It’s something that, for me, is changing every single day. My friends from back home have started naming the different ways that I dress and they’re like, “Oh this is European Troye” or like, “sporty Troye.” I don’t know, I’m really enjoying trying different things and I’m just excited by it. It’s something that at the moment to me is so exciting and invigorating, to be able to wear something that’s a little bit daring, something that you’ve like never worn before, but not asking yourself the question of, “What are people gonna think? Can I pull this off? Who do I think I am?” And I’m really just going with it and just having fun with it.

HB: What’s the transition been like from being a Youtube star to a music star?

TS: I mean it’s kind of weird 'cause I don’t know if that’s a transition that I have made or one that’s even necessarily necessary to make. So I think that, to me, YouTube has always been a way to connect with the people and talk to the people, and I still plan on doing that throughout everything that’s happening. I still want to, as much as I can, be on my YouTube channel, uploading things that are exciting whether it’s a vlog updating on how my tour is going or whether it’s piece of content surrounding the album, or whatever it is. My YouTube channel has changed a little in a couple of weeks, but it’s always been something that’s constantly changing. You know, I started off making singing videos, then I went into vlogging, then I went into like doing skits, and then I went back into vlogging, and now it’s a lot more music-centric. So yeah, I feel like it’s one of the things where I want to try as much as I possibly can. But as far as the lifestyle goes, when I was just making YouTube videos, I had a lot more time at home, there were a lot more pajamas.

HB: Have you noticed any difference from how your fans react to you?

TS: I think the thing that I’ve most noticed is just how sweet and passionate and excited they are. I feel more connected to my fans than I ever have before, seeing them at shows, and hearing them talk about the music, and seeing them respond to the music in such a positive way. I’ve tried really, really, really hard to make this album in the past, like, year really exciting for my fans. Everything from doing the shows, to just to show that I have cool content to be blowing out of my social [media] stuff. My main goal is to try to make this fun for everyone. And to see them responding to it and to see them having fun is really rewarding.

HB: How have your fans and viewers reacted to you since your coming out video?

TS: At first it was just this overwhelming wave of support and love, and to be honest it hasn’t changed much. I still feel that every day. I think maybe the only difference is that now someone will come up to me and say that they came out to their parents like, last week and give me a hug and say that, I don’t know, maybe my video helped them. And it’s such a rewarding, amazing feeling to have that relationship with them, and it’s something that’s super, super personal as well. So I feel like it’s brought all of us together.

HB: Do you consider yourself a role model for LGBTQ youth?

TS: Not really, I think the thing that I really want to try and do is just live my life really openly and honestly. I think there’s so much power in that, as simple as it is. I think that there is a lot of power in a gay guy having a really (hopefully) successful music career while just being completely openly gay and honest and happy. It’s something that we’re starting to see more of in people like Sam Smith or Olly Alexander from Years and Years, but it’s something that I think we can still see a lot more of. So I’m just really excited to be that for people.

HB: Do you think Blue Neighborhood is a vehicle for that?

TS: I hope so, yeah. I wrote just really openly, so I used boy pronouns and “he” instead of “she” obviously, and just kind of wrote exactly about what was going on in my life.

HB: What’s it been like being 20 years old, having your friends from home, and still traveling the world and promoting your music?

TS: It’s been really crazy. It’s been super overwhelming. On the other hand, I feel like it kind of happens slowly enough that I’ve been prepared for each thing that happened. Every now and then it feels like something’s quite a huge step up, like for example, the leap between having not played a show to the first show feels like really abrupt and “Oh my God, I’m not ready!” but you just do it and you’re like, “You know what I actually was ready.” Or like now, for example, I’m about to play Jimmy Fallon, which is my first TV performance, and I’m stressing out like crazy, but I’m hoping in the back of my mind that I’m ready and everything’s gonna be fine. I’m just trying to soak it in and slow down and I think that’s kind of the hardest thing to do, to just slow your mind down and enjoy everything that’s happening and really kind of take it in. It sometimes just happens so quickly that you don’t get the chance to pinch yourself and remind yourself how absolutely insane it is, what’s going on. Even today, for example, I’m just reminding myself every ten minutes that my debut album just came out and that’s something to really be happy about and celebrate.

​HB: How are you celebrating the holidays?

TS: I’m going home to Australia, and I’m gonna be home for like a whole month so I’m gonna be with my family and my brother, who lives in Melbourne and is flying into Perth, so that’ll be my entire family all together, which hasn’t happened for a while.

HB: What are three things on your wish list this year?

TS: I would like Pure Heroine by Lorde on vinyl. I would like maybe a massage, maybe if my parents bought me like an hour-long massage or something that would be nice. And if I could have anything, I would have my friend Blessing from South Africa come and visit Australia.

​Blue Neighborhood​ is out now on Spotify, iTunes, and other music retailers.

*wears nice form fitting dress and puts hair in a bun cause it’s hot as balls*

people that have seen me at least a few months ago:

“oh wow i didn’t recognize you, you’ve become such a pretty girl”

“you look great did you lose weight”

“you seem to be getting prettier every time i see you”

to my mother: “your daughter’s very beautiful she’s changed so much”

if you don’t like me at my t-shirts and sweats you don’t deserve me at my fancy i have literally not changed at all

Honestly, I didn’t think it was possible that music could literally save a life, but when I was going through some pretty rough times in my life a few years ago, I found this album. One of the most powerful lyrics I have ever heard was, “One day you will fly away from here. One day you will leave your hurts behind.” I remember hearing those words for the first time, and I had to stop what I was doing and just cry. I felt like they were talking to me. Above & Beyond changed my life and many others as well, because if it wasn’t for this album, I don’t know if I would be typing this right now. 😊🙏🙌
IG : Anjunaholic

But can we like just talk about how amazing of an actor Harry Shum Jr. is? As a major Glee fan back in the day, I loved his portrayal of Mike Chang. He was so quiet and reserved and insecure about his (amazing!!!) talents but he was so sweet and kind and pure and literally the exact opposite of his character Magnus Bane now in Shadowhunters but in the best way possible like Magnus is so out there and confident and fabulous and you would never even suspect that’s the same actor who played shy, insecure Mike Chang just a mere few years ago like serously Harry, you’re amazing, I love you.(^∇^)(^◇^;)

breathe-love-dream-repeat  asked:

Moga!!! Hello~ ^-^ I need some advice. Im aspiring to become an artist and one day go into animation but... I'm only 14 and my art isn't "fantastic" how long did it take you to become so fantastic? And how? (Strange question I know xD) anyway your art is beautiful and I hope you have a magical day!

Bah ^_^ you think I’m fantastic!? Thank you!!

I hope you don’t mind me answering this publicly because I think a lot of people struggle with this.

I’m going to show you a drawing that I drew when I was 13:

Now I know what you’re thinking: Damn, I will never be that good. 13 year old Moga was like a modern Da Vinci. 

Haha nah but seriously, you can’t base your art skills off what you can draw at 14. Artists are constantly growing and changing, especially in their teenage years!

Here are a few tips to improve your art (taken from an ask I answered a few weeks ago):

-Draw. Every. Single. Day.

-Draw a person (or whatever it is you like to draw), then pick it apart. What works? What doesn’t? Nose too big, eyes too far apart? When you finish, redraw it, and try to fix the problem areas.

-Study other artists! Learn their techniques. Literally minutes ago I was just watching this great livestream

-Work from references. Having a hard time with anatomy? Draw from a photo reference. LIterally any pose you can think of, I gurantee you can find it (or take a photo of it yourself).

-Lastly, don’t stress too much. Art is all about expressing yourself and having fun! Work hard, but don’t forget to have fun!

Hope you have a wonderful day <3