1. I will be honest with you, most days i wake up and my first though is you.
2. I’ve spent days in my thoughts, waiting for someone’s smile to open the door; and there you were- I’ve been waiting for you.
3. And all the songs i’ve been listening to finally made sense, i never thought they would.
4. You’re my 4.am thoughts. You have been for the past year.
5. Oh my god i love you more than you will ever know.
6. I never know what to say and i’m sorry, but if i could even find the courage to say something it would be “please don’t get tired of me.”
7.I love you, i love you so fucking much. You will always be my insomnia, my late night thoughts.
8.I adore you.
9.I know i get annoying and i frustrate you a lot, thank you for putting up with me.
10.I will always be in some kind of love with you, i hope you know that.
11. I still love you at 4.am
12. I fell in love with you, you don’t have to love me back. But i gave you my heart, please be gentle.
13. 4 shots later and the only name i manage to slur out is yours.
14. All the songs make sense now, they were about you.
RULES: ANSWER THE QUESTIONS IN A NEW POST AND TAG 20 BLOGS YOU WOULD LIKE TO GET TO KNOW BETTER 20′s too much omg i cant
nickname: hmm i dont rlly have any?? the most is like my friends calling me mom lmao
gender: cis girl
time right now: 8:20pm
last thing i googled: ‘black mirror cast’ i thought it was hayley atwell + it was + i cried so much at her episode omg
favorite bands: seventeen (ofc), day6 (stan day6!! they’re amazing!!!), first aid kit, haim, ladies code
favorite solo artists: declan mckenna, lee hi, hayley kiyoko, aurora, banks, joanna newsom, soko, willow smith, deserts chang (so i rlly prefer listening to female solo voices lmao)
song stuck in your head: ‘wishing u were somehow here again’ from phantom asbkshkbbm
last movie watched: idk actually?? i think maybe 'whip it’??? (fun fact i actually do roller derby + its Amazing, everyone pls try it!!!)
last tv show watched: black mirror!!
when did you create your blog: 4 months ago w o w thats gone quick
what kind of stuff do you post: kpop mainly, feminism/social justice stuff, aesthetic ish stuff, the occasional relatable suffering™ post
when did your blog reach its peak: nooo it’s only a bby still we’ve had no peaks yet
do you have any other blogs: nope!!
do you get asks regularly: i dont think i’ve ever had an ask akshjsjfkdjg
why did you chose your url: WEN JUNHUI
WEN JUNHUI i lov him
posts: 1945,,,,,, not bad for only 4 months??
hogwarts house: ravenclaw i have the scarf its official
pokémon team: i’ve never rlly been into pokemon!!
favorite colors: pastel Everything esp pink and minty blue, + rose gold
lucky numbers: 3 + 7
favorite characters: sansa stark (rip how the tv show treated u bby), ginny weasley, THE MARAUDERS + LILY POTTER, luciente from ‘woman on the edge of time’ (honestly this book is amazing, pls pls pls read!!)
what are you wearing right now: black vest top, joggers, + cute socks
how many blankets do you sleep with: hmm usually in winter like 2 duvets, in summer it depends on the weather!!
dream job: literary translator omg pls
dream trip: china!!! i rlly wanna visit every province at least once
A/N: hey guys! it’s been a bit since my last fic. idk, i felt like i was in the mood to write and here i am! i didn’t make this a full song fic bc i thought of this instead. i also didn’t do the full song, i hope you don’t mind. i hope you like it! also you might want to listen to i don’t care by fall out boy bc i have so much love for this band ugh
Wanna talk to Golden and get to know him? Then follow @goldenrecs!
A/N: I’M SCREAMING! I THOUGHT THIS WOULD NEVER GET OUT! I’M ALSO SCREAMING BECAUSE I HIT OVER 500 FOLLOWERS! THANK YOU SO MUCH! Also hahaha, it sucks. Sorry. The more this story progresses, the more horrible I think it is. Anywho! Enjoy this chapter. It’s pretty long to my standards. Also… there’s not really a song you listen to for this chapter? But if you wanna know the dance Y/N does at the party it’s this. Anywho, enjoy! :) ALSO WARNING! THERE’S SLIGHT CUSSING IN THIS CHAPTER!
Anon: Hey! Y/N! Golden is going to
that party! Will you finally tell us who he is?
Anon: Since Golden knows you and you
obvs know him, why don’t you reveal him to us at the party?
Anon: Idk who u think u r but once I
find out who Golden is at the party, it’ll b me who he’ll take interest in and
That was only a few of the messages
you’ve received since Wednesday when Golden announced his presence at the
upcoming party at Suho’s house. It was Friday and you and Chloe were sitting in
creative writing. Chloe was halfway dozing off while you were feeling uneasy by
the glaring looks your classmates were giving you and the spew of messages in
your inbox. Most of them were talking about how they were going to include you
in a Golden search party because you were the closest clue they’ve had since
the blog even started. You explained in a few messages that you’ve received
that even you had no clue as to who Golden is but was that even true now? You
had an almost positive feeling it was Taehyung but you couldn’t give up his
identity like that. Especially if you weren’t even 100% sure it was him.
Besides, you weren’t even sure if you were going to the party. Chloe and Jimin
threatened to make you but they couldn’t make you go if you didn’t want to.
You let out another sigh as you looked
around the crowded hall. Since you always sat in the back, you couldn’t
distinguish who sat up front as well as you could in the back. You did,
however, land eyes on Seulgi who was staring at you from her seat in the row
that was two rows away from yours. You arched a brow at her before she threw
you a fake smile and turned around to face the front of the class. You had a
nagging feeling that Seulgi was probably one of the people who harassed you on
hey mari! idk if u remember but i suggested 'astronomy' by the likes of us to u a while ago and this morning i came across a song thats an old fav of mine and immediately thought of u! its similar to astronomy (sort of; it also makes u want to fall in luv haha) and while i was listening to it it kinda scared me how perfectly it fits blue notebooks (like srsly i almost cried) but anyways i'll stop ranting the song is: for you by gavin james! 🌸
YES I DO REMEMBER I listen to that song on an (almost) daily basis ^^ thank you again for recommending astronomy to me, it’s really beautiful.
also…. OH my god, it does resemble blue notebooks so much, I’m emo now ahaha. these lyrics though:
“I’m stuck in the moment And so far from home Cause loving nobody It’s breaking my heart”
“But I wish time would slow down So I could keep your heart around If I can make you stay another day I’ll wait another day for you, and for you”
Dan came back from Germany, and Phil is happy because of that. But he hasn’t slept
well since he has depression. And since they haven’t been together since Dan
left, they have a whole afternoon together but Phil was too tired and depressed
because he was up all the nights depressed or waiting for Dan to wake up and
smile a little again.
A/N: Thank you so much for the likes! I actually thought that my brain wasn’t
good enough to write something that people would like! I hope you like my
oneshots! If you want to send me a prompt!
Warnings: Just a little bit of angst
Recommended: I did a playlist with the songs they have the names of the
fic so if you want to, listen with it! If you are on a mobile device and since
idk if you can listen,here are the links to the songs/audio!
to Germany for a project that he was doing, so I was left home alone for a few
days, which was sad, because I missed him laughing at the TV shows, the cuddles
and eating together. I haven’t slept well for a month actually. I actually have
been sleeping like 2-3 hours per day,and naps with Dan only. I have been feeling
useless lately, talentless, worthless. But since he was not here, I only slept like
1-2 hours. On nights, I think about the talentless person I am.Today,
he was coming back from Germany. I was so excited that I actually didn’t get
any sleep at all last night. It was 1pm when he told me he was here, so I went
to the airport to pick him up.
arrived, he was getting out of the airplane, and it looked like he just woke
up. When he saw me, he came to me and he hugged me.
babe! I missed you so much"I hugged him tightly.
missed you too Phil"Dan smiled sleepily
Dan walk because he had a lot of bags in his hands. Also, because he was still
kind of sleepy. He was rubbing his eye in such an adorable way, and he had the
totoro plushie I gave him for 1 year anniversary in his hand, which made him
look like a little kid just waking up. He looked adorable when he was waking up.
also see that you have hobbit hair today Dan, I missed the hobbit hair
too.”- I told him joking
I just woke up, that’s why. My hair also missed you touching it while
look adorable when you are sleepy” I told him laughing
do!”I told him and then I gave him a small kiss on the cheek.
time, we got into a taxi. Dan got a call and he talked most of the time on the
road. Then, he hung up.
a silence for about 3 minutes until I talked
*yawns* time is it?”-I asked while rubbing my eyes
2:23; Are you tired Phil?"Dan asked curious
actually am not tired, but how about you?”- I answered
kind of fell asleep when the airplane started to leave Germany. And then, I
woke up when the flight attendant said that we were here. So, I am not tired at
all. But you look tired Phil"Dan said as he looked on my face. I hoped the dark bags were under my eyes weren´t that easy to notice…
actually am not tired, I slept like a baby last night”- I said lying to
you say so…"Dan smiled and giving a kiss to my cheek.
want Dan to notice, but the dark circles under my eyes are getting more and
more prominent. He’ll notice soon, and he’ll make fun of me, and he will
think I am a useless person. What if he sees that I am useless and breaks uup with me?
arrived home, it was like 3 pm
you want me to help you unpack?”-Phil asked
will unpack tomorrow. I actually am pretty lazy to do it today”- Dan
what do you want to do then?”- Phil
some Mario Kart?"I asked
do you want me to order pizza?"Phil asked
I think that is a good idea”
turn on the wii u, I will order the pizza.”-Phil told me as he gave me a
you too Lion”
on the wii u and I told him that everything was ready.
were playing Mario kart 8, Phil rubbed his eyes slowly while yawning occasionally.
He actually looked pretty tired, but also adorable. But the online round
started, so I had to get ready to play. Since we were playing online, I was
going as fast as possible. And Phil was actually going pretty slow because of
rubbing his eyes.
you sure you are not tired?”- I asked
pretty sure I am not tired Dan. I just need…tea!, that’s all”- Phil told me with a smile
while rubbing his eyes.
a lot of rounds. When the rounds ended, I got 1st place, and Phil got 7th on 16
out of 20 of the rounds. He never gets lower than 3rd. NEVER.
come on, what happened?”- I asked him
happened that I got 7th” He answered laughing
never get 7th Phil. And you get angry when you get to 3rd.”-
just has happened once, I know I am an amazing *yawns* racer”- He said
while rubbing his eyes again
also amazingly tired, Lion, you need to rest now"I told him, hoping he´d understand.
it’s 5pm, we have a lot of time of the day to be with each other. It’s not even
the doorbell rang
pizza is here!”- Phil said to avoid going to bed. He got up quickly with the money and went downstairs.
downstairs for the pizza to avoid talking about sleeping. I wanted to play
videogames with Dan as much as possible, but maybe he didn´t want to. Maybe he wanted me to sleep so he could be free of this idiot. But when I was going downstairs, I
felt like I was going to fall, everything started to make me feel tired, but I didn’t
fall asleep. I opened the door, paid and then brought the pizza to the table.
Dan wanted to watch Netflix so I told him that it was fine by me. “So,
what do you want to watch?”- I asked Dan
can watch some Pokémon if you want to"he answered
put it then"I told him
watched Pokémon until about 8pm. Like it was still on the TV but Dan started a
pillow fight so we fighted and we made pillow forts. I had my Pikachu onesie
and Dan had his Charizard onesie on. I was actually about to fall asleep on the
fort, but then Dan started attacking.
am going to win this pillow fight!"Dan said on a sweet way
you are not! Are you ticklish Dan?"I asked him sarcastically
I’m not.”- Dan lied.
prove it then!”-I told him smiling while getting close to him
to tickle Dan, he looked adorable.
STOHOHOP!"He said, laughing
later, we decided to stop playing the fort fights because we wanted to write
all the 150 Pokémon names on a piece of paper.
started to write the names, it took us like 5 minutes to get to the half of the
list. But then Phil got a phone call, it was Louise
Louise”-I told her
I thought you were going to be on Germany for a few more days.”-Louise.
I really wanted to come back to see Phil, so I came a little earlier than the BBC
for a while and then I passed the phone to Phil. I was just watching how Phil
was talking and rubbing his eyes, he really needed to sleep. A while later,
Phil left the room to talk personally. Then, I thought of a Pokémon character,
but I actually didn’t remember his name. And all the devices were in the Phil’s
bedroom, with no battery. So, I slowly walked to Phi’s room, to not bother
him. I opened the door slowly, to not make too much noise. But when I got
closer, I heard a small part of the conversation that actually surprised me.
I’m fine, I am just not tired"Phil rubbed his eyes. Of course he was lying.
you haven’t slept well since the last time we talked! That was last
month!"Louise said as I opened my mouth widely. ONE MONTH?!
worry, I’m fine, at least I sleep like 1-2 hours with Dan"Phil said before
this continues, you are going with me to the doctor, deal?Depression is hard I know, but we have to try to at least sleep.”- Louise said worriedly. Was Phil depressed?
I have to go; I will message you tomorrow to see how you are doing, Bye.”-Louise
hung up, he noticed me.
how long have you been here?”- Phil scared
time enough to hear that you haven’t slept well in a month”-I told him a
know what to say”-Phil scared with his eyes full of tears
just need to tell me why this happened”-I told him a bit calmed.
you”-Phil said with more tears on his eyes, shaling a bit now.
moment he started crying, he ran to the living room and he started to cry on a
said worried while running to him
don’t you want me to know?”-I asked worried
think this is*sniff*dumb and I…I don’t want you to make fun of me”-Phil
will never make fun of you crying babe, I love you more than anything in this
world, you are my best friend and boyfriend. I won’t make fun of you crying,
never.”-I told him
asked me sniffing
told Phil and then I gave him a kiss
I…*sniff* have been*sniff* hating myself a lot lately, I feel *sniff*
useless, like this person that went famous on the internet, has a perfect
boyfriend, lives with him, but that has no talent”-Phil said before breaking into tears.
why didn’t you tell me?”
I am with you, I feel happy. Watching you asleep, makes me *sniff*smile and you
look so happy in your dreams, you smile while you are asleep, which is lovely.
And I don’t want you to wake up for my dumb interruption of
depression"Phil said while sniffling..
heard that words, my heart was breaking in small pieces.
are you talking about Phil? You are the one that helped me get out of my
depression, the one that made me continue on my channel, the one that helped me
on my existential crisis, the one that makes me smile every single day since I
left depression, the one that made millions of fans stop having depression and
giving them a smile every day, the one that laughs at my jokes, the one that
cuddles with me, and the one who accepted me as his boyfriend, roommate, and
best friend, and future husband. I love you, and I will love you forever and always"I said
you Dan, I love you"Phil hugged me.
love you too”
that, I gave him a sweet, adorable kiss, that made him smile.
came; Phil rested his head on my shoulder, and yawned.
you need some rest"I told him
I can’t fall asleep at night, I haven’t slept a full night for a
month"Phil rubbed his eyes
can help with that"I told him
on”-I said while running to my bedroom
time, Dan ran to his bedroom, I had no idea of what he was doing. When he came
back, he came with a blanket, two mugs and the totoro plushies.
are you doing?”- I asked him curious
you were sad at your house when I came over, this is what I always used to do to help you sleep: be together,
with hot chocolate and cuddling with our totoro plushies. I always made you
fall asleep with this when you were on your family’s house and you were ill, so
I am doing it now”- I told Phil
used to say that years ago, I don’t know if this still *yawns* works for
me”-Phil while rubbing his eyes tiredly
am pretty sure this is going to work”-I told him while giving him the
I asked him
*yawns* think so”-Phil smiled tiredly.
off the lights, I walked to the sofa with Phil, and we started to watch Winnie
the pooh(I know it was a little childish for me and Phil, but Pooh always makes
us sleepy) and in just seconds, Phil fell asleep on my arms: my right arm was
like a small pillow for his head, he was making this cute little sounds that he
always does when he is asleep; his glasses were about to fall off his face, he
had his Pikachu hat of the onesie on and he was hugging the totoro plushie I
gave him on his arm.
“Thank you, I really love you" Phil
breathed. I could see how sleepy Phil was, so I gave him a little kiss on the
forehead. Soon enough I could tell by his slow, rhythmic breathing that he was
asleep again. With Phil’s steady heartbeat and his gentle movements it didn’t
take me long to relax a bit. I was exhausted. My energy had hit rock bottom and
before I knew it I was asleep.
———————————————In the morning…——————————–
I got up
because of the sun rays that were on my face. I yawned a few times and then I
rubbed my eyes. Then, I turned my head to Phil, who was sleeping peacefully at
the couch. His hair was messy, just like mine. He slept for a full night, I was
proud of him. He started to stir a little, but I could see he was still exhausted.
well little lion”-I said sleepily as I planted a kiss on his forehead.
love you, thank you"Phil mumbled before going to sleep again.
I started to brush his messy hair and started thinking…how did I get so lucky?
I think the reason Spring Day was so emotionally charged for some people was the connection between YNWA and the Sewol Ferry disaster. Though it's not officially confirmed, it's one of the theories about the meaning behind YNWA and the imagery and lyrics in Spring Day make the connection so much more real. Honestly watching the Spring Day MV and listening to the song made me shed a lot of tears as I thought about all the young lives lost that day...
oh! I didn’t know much about the connection with the Sewol incident, I kinda read something about it but seeing it that way, it makes sense
I felt a really nostalgic vibe throughout all the mv and idk, i just felt it was really sad
Baby came home 2 / valentines - the neighbourhood
Moondust (stripped) - Jaymes young
Single - the neighbourhood
Trouble (stripped) - halsey
One last time - Jaymes young (warning: lyrics are vvvvvvvvvv sad but wow i love it so much)
If I believe you - the 1975
Cry baby - the neighbourhood
Prey - the neighbourhood
Drive - halsey
Somebody else - the 1975
Ghost - halsey
Polarize - tøp (listen at a low volume)
RIP 2 my youth - the neighbourhood
Friends - chase Atlantic (listen at a low volume)
Idfc - blackbear
Fireflies - owl city (this song remind me when i was little and when i never had a negative thought in my head so idk it just reminds me of when i was truly happy,,,,and it’s just a great song in general can’t go wrong w owl city)
Half the world away - AURORA
Truce - tøp
And of course,
Taxi cab - tøp
For the anon, these are just some songs that help me sleep when i cant
AYO! could ya pleeeaassee write a fluffy-ish smut (idk if that makes sense) Jack Barakat imagine that KINda goes to the song “your bed” please? ITS A BEAUTIFUL SONG AND I JUST WANT AN IMAGINE TO GO WITH IT BKSJBSBJBISBIS sorry takE Your time on it btw c:
AN I listened to this song like 10 times on repeat, writing down the lyrics before I decided what I thought it was about. I mean I have it and the lyrics, but writing them down on paper helps me to figure out what it’s about a lot better. I love song requests guys, they’re so fun to interpret :) I liked writing this one, thanks so much for requesting and being patient, I love you <3 enjoy :)
I could feel his hands all around me, feeling me, spreading their warmth. His body was against me, and I could feel his love again. He still loved me. I could feel it in my gut. I don’t want this to end.
“I love you, Y/N,” he whispered in my ear. “More than anybody should. I’ll continue to love you.” His hot breath on my face was making me crumble under his touch. I wanted more of him. I wanted to lie here forever. I would if I could.
“I love you too,” I breathed, not able to catch my oxygen very well. His hot kisses were everywhere, just like his hands, roaming my body, touching it so gently that I had to question myself as to whether or not he really did. If this could last forever, that would be wonderful.
a little too fast: a wally & linda mix songs for when it’s complicated because you’re way too into a younger guy who’s also your ex-boyfriend’s new girlfriend’s cousin… and the (second) fastest man alive.
i. classic - MKTO // ii. sweet piece of candy - someone’s little sister // iii. can we dance - the vamps // iv. froot - marina and the diamonds // v. my racing thoughts - jack’s mannequin // vi. fast as you can - fiona apple // vii. girls chase boys - ingrid michaelson // viii. drove me wild - tegan and sara // ix. did it again (feat. kid cudi) - shakira // x. all the pretty girls - fun. // xi. nuclear seasons - charli xcx // xii. if i go - ella eyre // xiii. adios - serayah mcneill // xiv. be good - emily kinney
AM NERD NERD & AM MURDER MURDER; Chalo & Priya mixes
Ok so like I have way too much free time and this sort of spiraled out of control after I heard a song that for some reason made me immediately think of chalo (the first one on his playlist) and I couldn’t get it out of my mind and spent a late night hysterically laughing at my own creation and thought process.
I thought Christina Grimmie being dead wasn’t real. I just can’t think of a reason someone might have for killing her, someone who hasn’t even been in the spotlight long enough to have some bad shit following them. When I was younger, her YouTube videos were all I watched. I’d sing along, get choked up listening to the power in her voice, and she absolutely wrecked all my favorite songs. I remember spending my evenings in my living room, cheering her on when she was on The Voice. She gave me a push to get better at playing my own music, and probably did the same for so many other people.
Knowing she’s gone breaks my heart, because she had so much going for her and she was such a beautiful and pure soul.
Rest easy, Christina.
My heart goes out to your family and friends.
it is 3am, im listening to piano covers of the songs off vessel and they are inspiring me so here are some killjoy headcanons because im tired and i have so many that need to be shared. Lets get started.