i liked this story a lot

pitviperofdoom  asked:

Hey so I've loved your Retold Fairytales for some time but I just binged your entire Gods and Monsters and I??? love Styx. A lot. And I'm curious about Hephaestus and Styx growing up as best friends in the Underworld. If you could work your magic when you have the time, I'd love to see a story about them!

Styx does not have a home in the underworld, not really. She has a room in Hades’s palace, of course, and a nook in Hecate’s house.  Charon has a cottage by her river, a humble thing for a being of such great power, and she’s shoved her way onto his narrow bed and curled into the warmth of his chest more than once. She darts through the horrors of Tartarus, and plays in the Elysium Fields.

All of the underworld is open to her, and she’s lived here the entirety of her existence. But she’s yet to find a piece of it that feels as if it belongs to her, that doesn’t feel borrowed.


Hecate brings home a baby with no legs beneath the knee and wide, curious eyes.

Styx adores him instantly.

Hecate is a busy woman – her duties in the underworld keep her constantly moving, and she spends much of her time shrouded in her secrets. She is the goddess of magic, and there are things that only she can do, things that other people can’t even know about. She is not a person with much time to spare, and babies take a lot of time.

Hades watches him often, directing the traffic of souls and overseeing construction with the child held to his chest. Charon fashions a sling, and the baby sleeps against his back while Charon ferries souls across her river.

Time passes. The baby is not like her.

The baby grows.


Hephaestus is a child, and he lives in a dangerous place. His aunt raises him, and she is a busy woman who does important things, and it seems to him like nothing in their home is safe to touch, that it is all cursed or corrosive or even, at time, sentient.

The palace is not much better. Hades always welcomes him, has a warm smile for him, but is too busy to linger. He walks on wobbly legs of glass that Aunt Hecate fashioned for him, and they allow him to walk, but they pain him too. He cannot run or jump, he cannot explore the edges of the underworld like he so desperately wants to because his legs are delicate, clumsy things. They are glass, and they shatter too easily.

“Don’t be sad,” a voice says in his ear, and he’s grinning before he even turns around. Lady Styx is there, smiling at him. She looks to be his age, although she is much older, and she has black skin and grey hair and eyes. Her skin is the color of her river’s water, and her hair and eyes the color of the foam when it rushes too fast. For as long as he can remember, she has always had kindness to spare.

“I’m not sad,” he says stubbornly. “Aren’t you busy?” She is a goddess, one as powerful and important as his aunt or Hades. He wants to grow up to be just like her.

She shrugs, “My river knows what to do. Do you want to go on an adventure?”

“Yes,” he says instantly. The only time he’s allowed to explore is when Styx is with him. If his glass legs break, she can carry him, and if anything tries to attack or hurt them, she can stop it.

She grabs his hand, smiling. It’s cold. She’s always cold, the same icy temperature as her river. “There are volcanos in Tartarus. Have I taken you there before?”

He shakes his head, and in the next instant they’re gone.


Styx and Hephaestus manage to get in all manner of trouble, including, but not limited to: accidentally giving Cerberus two extra heads, devising and implementing a manner of torture for Tantalus that is so brilliant Hades can’t even get mad at them for it, and figuring out it is possible to surf of Styx’s rough waters with glass legs, but only if you’re very, very stupid and have the goddess in question by your side and laughing so hard she forgets that her primary job here is to prevent you from dying.

When he’d found them, Hades had given them the worst admonishment he knew how to give: a disappointed frown. Hecate had laughed and told them to be careful of his legs.

Hephaestus’s childhood had its bright spots. Almost all of those bright spots included Styx.


Hephaestus looks older than her now, a young man when she is, as always, a child. He’s gotten quieter as he ages, his dark eyes permanently thoughtful.

“You shouldn’t come here without me,” she scolds, sitting down beside him. He doesn’t respond, swinging his hammer down on glowing metal with a boom loud enough that the volcano shakes with it. “You know Hecate doesn’t like you going into Tartarus alone.”

“You were busy,” he says, not accusatory, just a statement of fact. “Here, cool this for me.”

She sighs, but cool water rushes from her hands and onto the superheated metal. It hisses and steams, but when the air clears Hephaestus holds it up and appears to be satisfied. “Must it be in a volcano? We can make you a forge in safer part of the underworld.”

“Volcanos are useful,” he says, the same answer he always gives her. “I have more of these to do if you want to stick around.”

Helping him build whatever he’s currently working on is pretty boring. But he’s her friend, and it must be important if he’s risking his life by going into Tartarus on his glass legs to do it. “Sure,” she sighs slumping down to sit crosslegged next to him. He pats her on the head, which she’s all prepared to be insulted by - she’s a kid, but she’s not a kid – when she sees his lips curled up around the corners of his mouth. He’s making fun of her on purpose, which is still annoying, but is less hurtful than him treating her like a kid just because he looks older.


The first set of legs that Hephaestus makes for himself are made of iron. They’re not as pretty as he’d like them to be, but that’s all right. He can run in these legs, jump in them, fight in them. He is no longer a being made of glass, no longer someone who can be easily broken.

Styx is the first person he shows them to. He leaps and somersaults in them, something he could never do before. She’s delighted at first, smiling and clapping, but by the time he finishes, arms out-thrown and beaming, she’s wilted. She sits hunched and tries to keep her smile in place, but it’s trembling.  

“What’s wrong?” he asks, kneeling in front of her. “I thought you would be happy for me.”

“I am!” she hiccups, and now she’s crying, big fat tears that he wants to wipe away but can’t. She cries the water of her river. If he touches them, he’ll burn. “I am happy!’

He risks it, tugging the end of his sleeve down to quickly wipe her left cheek, then ripping it and throwing the cloth away as it burns. “You don’t look happy.”

“You’re going to leave,” she says, and he goes cold. “You have legs, and now you’re going to leave, and I’m not. I am the Goddess of the River Styx, I must stay with my river. But you’re going to leave.”

His heart breaks seeing Styx cry. He loves Hecate, loves Charon, loves Hades. But if there is one person in this realm he can truly call family, it is her. They share no blood, but she’s the only sister he’s ever known. “I’ll visit! You can visit me too. I wasn’t born here, Styx. Hecate isn’t my mom. I was born on Olympus, and I can’t hide in the underworld from Hera forever. I don’t want to either.”

“I know!” she says, her breath coming in stuttering gasps as she tries and fails to stop crying. “You’re so smart, and all the things you make are amazing. You need to go out there, so other gods can see you, so that people can see you. I just – I’m going to miss you.”

He’s a god – a little river water won’t kill him. He pulls Styx into his arms, ignoring the pain in his shoulder as her tears burn through his skin. She resists for a moment, then goes slack, throwing her arms around his neck. He says, “I’m going to miss you too.”


Hephaestus does not want to cause an uproar. He’s had fantasies of storming Mount Olympus, of confronting Hera, of doing any number of foolish, stupid things. But he is not a foolish, stupid man.

Hecate has picked out a volcano for him already, one she tells fits all his requirements and is not in the domain of any other god, even the lesser ones. He will go slow. He will build, and improve the lives of the mortals. Temples will be erected in his honor, tributes placed at his feet, his name on all their lips. He’ll build his power the hard way, until they can ignore him no longer, until Hera and Zeus have no choice but to offer him a place at their table on Olympus.

But not yet.

For now, he builds something else, something even more important.


“Can I open my eyes yet?” Styx asks, pouting.

Hephaestus’s hands are on her shoulders, pushing her forward. “No.”

She scowls. She can tell they’re by her river, in a bend where no one travels through, but that’s it. Her knowledge of the geography of the underworld is always in relation to her river. “What about now?”

“Yes,” he says.

She wasn’t expecting it, so it takes her a moment to blink her eyes open. “Did you make this?”

“Hecate helped,” he admits, “I wasn’t sure what to do for things like curtains and windchimes. Do you like it?”

It’s a house. A small one, not much bigger than Charon’s. It’s made of obsidian, but not several pieces put together. It looks like the whole things was carved out of one massive piece of obsidian. The walls are black and smooth and shining. There’s a large, round bed in the center that’s a pale blue, the chairs in a deep purple, and her curtains are a soft yellow. The house is black, but Hephaestus has filled it with color, given her a rainbow tucked in every space. Copper pots hang in the kitchen, and there are signs of his forging everywhere – in the cabinets, the door knobs in the shape of flowers, the singular windchime hanging in her open window, even though there is no wind here.

“Do you like it?” he repeats. “I know you tend to just – end up wherever, but I thought you should have a place that was just yours. If you want something different I can change it–”

“No.” She swallows and touches her wall, the silver design in her walls that he must have inlaid himself. “It – it’s perfect.” Quieter then, “You gave me a home.”

No place in the whole of the underworld has ever felt like it belonged to her. This one does. It doesn’t feel borrowed.

Hephaestus ruffles her hair, “It seems only fair, since you did the same for me. This realm wouldn’t have been my home without you.”

They’re smiling at each other, and the tension she’d been carrying ever since she realized Hephaestus would be leaving drains out of her.

He’s older now, almost an adult, and he’s leaving the underworld. But he’s not leaving her.

“You’re my best friend,” she tells him, in case he’s forgotten.

“Good,” he tells her, “because you’re my best friend too.”

gods and monsters series, part xxiii

read more of the gods and monsters series here


4x01 “Lazarus Rising // 5x14 My Bloody Valentine”
9x01 “I Think I’m Going to Like It Here” // 9x06 “Heaven Can’t Wait
9x07 “Heaven Can’t Wait” // 13x01 “Lost & Found” // 13x02 “The Rising Son”

 “The Imitation of Life: Like Father, Like Son…” or “Castiel’s Arc in Fast Forward”

I had meant to post this gifset sometime after last week’s episode already, but never managed to get around to writing the accompanying meta thoughts to it, but maybe it was meant to be that way since now I have two more scenes to add to it.

I think it’s save to say that Jack, by choosing Castiel as his father, is definitely following in his footsteps as well. You could almost say what we have witnessed so far is Jack living through Castiel’s story in “fast forward”. There are a lot of obvious callbacks aligning Cas and Jack like the gifs show.

From being stabbed and coming out unharmed to the scenes with the water bottle and the vending machine that were clear callbacks to Castiel’s struggle and first complete experience to not just live with, but live as a human himself to Castiel growing fond of televsion (like Jack is too) or just generally trying to blend in and imitating others.

That last bit is exactly what we see Jack do in this week’s episode as well. Studying Dean and copying him (it also reminds me again of how in S11 we had something very similar set up with God and Dean - a direct nod towards Dean’s divinity - see meta and post here). It reminds also of Castiel in S9 when he studied how “humans do it”. Plus, Jack is kind of repeating Castiel’s, his father’s, journey with the Winchesters by learning humanity through them. And in that regard it’s also kind of interesting that Jack picks Dean as his role model here (much to Dean’s dislike).

It also further fits to the narrative of how Castiel mostly found his way to humanity through Dean as a person and learnt from him in first instance and then of course through both brothers later. And of course it sets up and further strengthens the direct connection and alignment of Jack with Cas. It’s of course been hammered down in text text text already but it’s in these smaller gestures and moments that narrative is further emphasized and played upon as well.

So given that Jack picked Dean as a role model and the fact that - as I talked about in relation to last episode here too - Jack and Dean share the same fate of not being allowed to be a kid, maybe the narrative will actually tie in Dean just as much as Sam (who shares the unwanted connection ot Lucifer, etc. with Jack) to the myth arc. Here’s to hoping…

random thought:

just about every single sequel I’ve read or heard of that was specifically based on ALW’s Phantom (not just phanfiction but published novels too) doesn’t actually want to do anything at all with PotO’s themes or things that make it special

they all want to rewrite Titanic

the whole idea - a beautiful woman who’s somehow Different or Special (in Rose’s case it was her appreciation for modern art and her education, in Christine’s case it’s her voice) who’s pursued and romanced by an underprivileged artist and menaced by her current long-term partner the aristocrat who seems kind and gentle on the surface but turns out to be possessive, abusive, and dangerous - doesn’t on the surface have a lot to do with PotO? but a lot of sequel stories have Raoul as a very Cal Hockley-esque figure. and I think the appeal of Jack Dawson goes a long way in explaining why phangirls like reimagining Erik into somebody who’s both passionate and creative and sexually charged and kind and gentle and protective.

there’s also a weird level of similarity between Titanic and the 2004 movie? both have views of the lower class as more boisterous and party-having (and the way they’re shot in ‘Masquerade’ brings to mind the steerage scenes from Titanic), both are in the context of a frame story that continually cuts back to the older survivor remembering what was lost (the frame story was sort of present in the stage show? but it mostly served to set the mood so we didn’t start with Organ Mania), and both have heroines in their late teens who are faced with a choice between a dangerous and risky but exciting life and a safe and socially stable one. that last one is a common thread through all parts of the Phantom story, but I mention it here because while Leroux’s Christine (and Philbin’s, and Schoelen’s, and Foster’s to an extent) dabbled with the darkness and decided that the light was the better choice, Rossum’s more than any of the well-known ALW heroines leans toward the Phantom character as opposed to Raoul. Not that she really has much of a choice with Schumacher constantly going “MAKE EVERYTHING MORE SEXY” in the background, but it’s worth pointing out.


Hey everyone, so I have seen a lot of talk about people feeling left out or unloved or favorites being played or people saying they’ll never be noticed or meet Taylor. Just overall a whole load of negativity and it has been bothering me a lot - not only because I know you how you feel, but also because I know we’re wrong and there isn’t enough support and positivity going around on this website. 

So I have decided to type out a giant text post regarding the way I feel about all of this, and I think some of you may find it really helpful or comforting, and some of you may brush it off.. and that’s fine as well. I just have a lot of thoughts right now, so I’m putting them into words.

1 - I’m going to start with a blanket statement that I’m sure a lot of you that are feeling upset or left out are tired of hearing but i promise this statement is true: Taylor Swift loves each and every one of us who love and support her. She does. End of story.

2 - I feel like giving up all the time, she’ll never notice me or want to meet me because I don’t post that many selfies and I don’t talk about my everyday life as often as some do, I am too insecure to post funny videos or to do a live stream on instagram. But when my anxiety settles and I take a look around - that is not what Taylor is looking for. Does it attract her attention sometimes? Yep, of course it does. But so do posts about her music, posts about how much we love her, stories of what she’s done for us, dad jokes related to her or just general freak outs when she releases a new single, a new video or even just an AT&T commercial that’s 30 seconds long.

3 - It is so easy to feel small and feel like she will never notice you because there are just too many of us - and while the fact that there are a ton of us is true, it doesn’t mean she won’t ever find you and it does not mean that it’s never going to be your time, there are people I know - mutuals, that had never been noticed by Taylor and had been here for years and randomly one day Taylor started liking all their stuff, all the time. I realize that I don’t know Taylor personally but if I know anything about the women that I have spent over the last decade dedicated to - it’s that she truly loves us and goes out of her way to find us and make sure we all feel special and loved, and she tries on a daily basis to find new blogs that have been out there rooting for her - so please just be patient - it is NOT because she hates the stuff you post or thinks your weird or doesn’t like you or just ignores you, it’s not! We’re all funny, we’re all witty, we’re all beautiful, we’re all fangirls and we all love Taylor - we all post a million things every day that she would like if she saw it. So just be patient, she’ll see it one day.

4. Meeting Taylor may seem impossible now, and I am going in and out of feeling that way myself. So your feelings are completely valid and absolutely one hundred and ten percent understandable and normal to feel. BUT, please try and keep an open mind and stay positive about it. I obviously can’t sit here and say every single last one of her hardcore and casual fans will meet Taylor, because there are MILLIONS upon MILLIONS of people that like Taylor Swift. But I CAN say that those of us out here going the extra mile, those of us who have been here for long haul, those of us out here with blogs dedicated to her and living the swift lifestyle will get our day. And I swear to you - I know it in my gut - Taylor is out there trying to figure out how she’s going to make it happen. Also, Taylor isn’t going anywhere anytime soon - there is time, be patient. 

5. Seeing people meet Taylor can be hard, because jealousy is a real and perfectly normal emotion especially when it comes to something you’ve dreamed of for so long and seeing so many other people get this can make you feel so small. And then you start to feel selfish and it’s an endless battle because you don’t want to be jealous. So start with this thought process: Those fans have wanted to meet Taylor just as much as you do, and they too at one point said to themselves “she’ll never notice me, she’ll never want to meet me” but look at them now! So try to be happy for them, because they have lived out one of their dreams by getting to meet her, and that is such a beautiful thing to happen to anyone, it really is! Even though it makes me a little jealous and sad - honestly, I LOVE seeing my mutuals and even people i’ve never spoken to meet Taylor, because of first of all you have photographic evidence of people meeting the one person they’ve always wanted to meet - the person that saved their lives or made them chase their dreams or feel brave enough to fal in love, and everyone deserves the chance to hug and thank Taylor for all those beautiful things. I think about how happy I would be if that were me, and then I realize THAT’S how happy those fans are, and that is such an amazing thing to see people so happy. Just try to embrace it, try to be happy for them even if its hard sometimes. But also, realize that it is okay to have moments of sadness and doubt, but don’t let it consume you because your time will come. 

6 - Think about it this way - the more people that get to go to sessions and meet Taylor and get noticed or whatever it may be, the more room there is for you to get your chance! So be excited that people are meeting her! It means you’re one step closer to having your moment with Taylor. Seeing that she’s out there actively trying to meet as many people as possible, even if it isnt you right that moment, means that she is doing her best and WANTS to meet us. ALL OF US. 

7 - Remember to be thankful - remember that Taylor does not have to do any of this. Sometimes I think this fandom as a whole, myself included at times, gets spoiled with the fact that Taylor does all of these things for us - packages, over the top tours, ticket programs so we don’t lose tickets to scalpers, meet and greets before and after her concert, welcome us into her home, joining live streams, reblogging and commenting and liking tumblr posts, following us on social media… no other celebrity does that, because they do not have to. Taylor literally owes us nothing and yet she gives us everything. So try to stay humble and remember that… try to remember that this fandom as a whole is so blessed to begin with that Taylor is so good to us… that even if you don’t get noticed anytime soon or don’t get invited to meet her.. we still have been given so much by Taylor and she does the best that she can. 

8 - I can’t speak for Taylor but I feel like it hurts her when she sees negative posts about her not liking us or not noticing us or never going to want to meet us because we aren’t good enough. She loves all of us and you know better. You know she doesn’t want to make any of us feel left out or hurt or isolated or not good enough… she’d include every single of us if she could at one time. We just have to wait for our time. Patience is key.

I don’t know if anything I said helped, or made sense or if anyone even read this far (hi, thank you if you did) but I just really wanted to get that out there… incase anyone needed to see it. 


I love voltron cuz it has SPACE and COOL ALIENS and RAD AS FUCK FIGHT SCENES and also super relatable and endearing characters

Like Pidge is my absolute favorite and that’s largely due to I relate to her a lot in terms of family like, I have three older brothers whom I am VERY close too and they all remind me of Matt and like, I would also go above and beyond for them should anything happen and that’s why I connected so closely to Pidge’s story?? Also Pidge is just super hilarious and sweet and smart it’s so easy to love this show for me

The one reason I adore Ophelia is because she is exactly like childhood me. She loves books, she is always trying some cool enchantment with her gemstones which I attempted when I was small, she has a similar story-loving personality, and she wants to be a great heroic chosen one. When I was young I did a lot of things she does, and I was so happy when I recruited her. As a bonus, Selena is her mother to my game, so she even has my red hair!


Summer Rain mood at the moment

I took everyone’s advice and took an actual break for the last 10 days or so. It’s been wonderful and I feel so much better. With that said, there were some things I went through that I wish I’d known before I left my abusive relationship and I want to share them in case it’s useful at all for anyone.

This might be my last post on my own experience, but it definitely won’t be the last time it’ll appear on my blog. For months now a lot of brave people have shared their experiences and it’s been inspiring and enlightening. I want to do my part to keep providing that listening ear because such amazing people have done the same for me and have given me the strength to move forward.

What I learned after the breakup is that returning the big things, changing all my passwords, and living life without my ex was the easy part. A lot of other things make it more complicated, though.

First, abuse takes many forms, and there’s no shame in the word. We’re most familiar with media portrayals of an abusive romantic relationship, but it can just as easily happen with parents, friends, and coworkers. A lot of people who weren’t my family or close friends were really shocked I was no longer in that relationship because my ex seemed like such a nice and generous person. He is. But it doesn’t change the fact that he was also controlling, emotionally manipulative, and regularly threatened me when he didn’t get his way. Despite saying I wanted to be open about my experiences, it was very hard to use the “a-word” because it seemed to put such a harsh and heavy label on someone, whose actions described as “abuse” were very private and unknown. But I’m trying. Because abuse takes many forms and it took me a while to even want to classify my own experiences as abuse. But the fear whenever I’d see a missed call after class or the pounding in my chest and dizziness when I’d talked to another person, not my ex, and having him find out was real. From being unable to change my profile pictures on social media (to those not of “us”) to being forbidden to pursue further studies in another country to being told I couldn’t live with my family anymore, was real. Being made to feel guilty and like a “lead-on” for rejecting physical advances I was clearly not comfortable with, with action to the contrary of any of the stated being equivalent to my ex’s suicide, was indeed abusive behaviour. And I’d known all of it was wrong, but I kept pushing aside my decision to leave. Aside from drowning myself in work, a big factor was that I didn’t want to look like an idiot.

That’s the next point. There’s so much stigma against people who’ve left an abusive relationship. A lot of family and friends who didn’t hear the story as it developed kept telling me not to go back to that relationship (without first hearing my particular situation), because the dominant narrative of abuse is that the vulnerable party continues to go back to the relationship. People put up with abuse for a lot of reasons, emotional dependency included. But the word “abuse” is laden with that particular narrative. Moreover, after hearing my side, the next (almost painful) thing I’m told is that I was a fool, stupid, or an idiot for putting up with it. My being put together, breaking up being a calculated and thought-out decision, factored in to their thinking that I was dumb for not seeing the warning signs that they obviously saw from my telling of the tale alone. Again, a lot of reasons for not leaving when the signs came up because my ex really was nice in all the conventional ways. Most of the time it seemed as though the good times outweighed the bad. It took reflection and introspection over a few months for me to conclude it was a pattern of abusive behaviour amid all our many interactions. That I felt I had to justify myself for calling the behaviour abusive also means that I had to present that pattern and that narrative that made it obvious. 

Things were made more complicated because I still see my ex on campus, and sometimes have to work with him. He still tries to contact me outside of work and since then has been leaving me emotionally hurtful and angry messages, then suddenly messages about his sadness and loneliness and saying how much he cares. It’s the same kind of emotional yoyo that I’ve been on during the relationship, only now I’m not bound in any way to appease it. It’s been difficult, because I really don’t want to talk to my ex, or interact in any way, but I’m trying to be polite. I graduate in half a year and I can definitively do that then. Again, human circumstances can be complicated.

I have no idea if this helps anyone who is planing to leave or has just left an abusive relationship. But I want to end on the note that even though a lot of people haven’t made it too easy for me since I left, I am so much happier now than I used to be– and people have told me so. I am in such a better place and I can think about my future and my own goals without a dark cloud hanging over me. I guess there aren’t as many stories about what happens after one leaves (and has no residual feelings about staying), as there are about the brave individuals who decide to leave. I hope that this one helps.

And as always, if you’re dealing with anything stressful or you just want to share send/ask me anything :)

anonymous asked:

Not an ask but I really like how Francis and Tanaka are on the same side in all your theories :)

Hi! Sorry for the slight delay but thanks a lot for reading Anon. ^_^ 

Actually, sorry if that makes me sound biased somehow, but the thing is, ever since this scene from the side story “With Father”:

and this post translated by @akumadeenglish:

There’s that old saying “One’s foster parents have more influence on the child than one’s real parents.”: Ciel became an extreme sadist due to Sebastian’s education in the last three years and it seems like the evil blood in him [*the evil side of his personality] was completely awakened [by Sebastian].

But if we consider the possibility that Vincent might have been brought up by Tanaka-san, that old guy must be quite…… oh I’d rather stop here.

…I’ve been thinking that Tanaka and Frances must have been close for a long time, because he’s the one who stepped up after Claudia died. I mean, looking at the timeline…

their mother died when Vincent was 15, which means Frances must have been 13 years old or younger at the time, but Vincent kept going at Weston until he graduated…

…meaning that, for the following two years after her mother died, Frances was all alone at home with Tanaka (and other servants). So, personally, I think that’s why…

they probably get along very well, if I don’t mention all the headcanons I have about how he might have trained her and how they might definitely be in cahoots, watching over how our!Ciel is doing as the Watchdog. 

I’m glad if you like this idea though. :) Thanks again for reading Anon and have a nice weekend!

I wanna start off by saying that this post is not meant to offend anyone, or make anyone feel bad for their religion. But in light of recent events, i have some things i want to say.

First off, this isn’t something i share with a lot of people, but i feel like this is a time where my story could help. When i was a child, i was sexually abused by my biological father. I won’t go into detail, because that’s not whats important. But it happened, and it happened for years.

And while he did serve prison time for what he did, my issue currently lies with something much bigger than the justice system. It lies with the mormon church, and people covering up for him.

About a year ago, i was asked to write a letter to the first presidency of the Mormon church, and to the prophet of the Mormon church, and they had asked for my opinion on whether or not i believed my biological father should be allowed to be re-baptized and granted membership. This came at a time after i had left the church and cut ties. But i wrote the letter, because i truly believed that he should not be allowed to be in a church where he would have access to children because he never once showed remorse for what he did and i truly believe that given the chance, he would do to another child what he did to me and other children. And it wasn’t an easy letter to write, because i put things in it that no one else knew about, and feelings i had never told anyone before. Only to be told that they were going to reconsider and hold onto the letter until further notice. And that alone hurt me, because it felt like they had asked for something so personal, and was then told in a way that it didn’t matter.

And then tonight I found out that his membership had never been revoked in the first place. And that for years, i was lied to. I had been told that he had been, and that his name was no longer on my personal church records. And that i wasn’t sealed to him anymore because he was no longer a member of the church. I was told this by my church leaders as a teenager, i was this by his church leaders when he was released from prison, and i was told it by members of the first presidency last year, and by members of his family. All of who, were lying to me.

And in my eyes, i feel like the church is defending him and what he did to me, and several other children. Which makes them guilty of the same crime.

And my whole point to all of this relates back to everything going on in Hollywood and around the Harvey Weinstein situation. There is so much talk and people saying that this sort of thing only happens in Hollywood and that’s simply not true. Cover ups are happening, and happen, everywhere and in every place that someone has power over someone else. It happens.

The leaders and the higher ups of the Mormon church have swept this under the rug so that no one will know and so that HIS life won’t suffer from the choices he made and the things he did to his own daughter. And for so long i was afraid to speak up against the church, and just in general because it felt like everytime i did i was questioned or just ignored in general and that no one cared, but after this last blow and knowing that he has been allowed to remain in the church after what he did to an innocent child, to his own child, makes me sick. Every member of that church that defends, and lies for him and protects him, is just as guilty as he is. Where there is power, there is corruption. And to defend him is to say that he is right, and that i am wrong.

This is the same church that told me i was wrong and a sinner because im gay. And the same church that is protecting a child molester. Let that sink in. Let i sink in that a church that claims to want to help people, is allowing a child molester to be in the prescence of children without their parents knowing the risk and danger of allowing him to be there.

And its wrong. And no one is doing anything about it.

And in sight of this, im going to be taking a break. There are things i need to deal with, and im not in a place where i can do that and keep up with this blog. I hope you can all understand, and i promise ill come back. I just don’t know when.

And please, if you’ve been hurt by someone or sexually assaulted, please know that you are not alone. And that it wasn’t your fault. And no matter what anyone else says, you matter, what happened to you matters and i love you.

The “Problem” Of Lotor

So since Voltron’s 4th season (or rather the half of season 3 that wasn’t released back in August since they changed their release strategy) dropped last week, there’s been a lot of talk about the actions of this season’s general antagonist, Prince Lotor, in those episodes. And they deserve discussing! It’s quite a radical shift from where he started earlier in the season in both his standing and his motivations, and I eagerly await where his story will take him next.

But I’m seeing some….distasteful framing of the situation and his character from a lot of fans/people, and it’s starting to bother me a great deal. First, I believe some context is in order. Both prior to his appearance and after “Season 3″ dropped in August, the show itself and the cast/crew took great pains to draw distinctions between Lotor and his father, Emperor Zarkon, the overall “Big Bad” of the series; the latter were continually saying things like “he’s different from his father”, “he’s complex”, “there are layers to Lotor”, etc. I don’t imagine they would do this unless they had good reason to believe that they had pulled this off.

The initial contrasts are fairly easy to determine on the surface level. Where Zarkon is big, scarred, wrinkled and burly, Lotor is short, thin, and fair-skinned/haired. Neil Kaplan in his performance as Zarkon speaks slowly much of the time (it’s why it’s such a big deal when he finally starts to snap in Season 2) and hammers his opponents brutally during fight scenes when he gets them. By contrast, AJ LoCascio is smooth, haughty, and quick on his feet as a performer (much like the prince is during both hand-to-hand and ship-based fight scenes), adopting a faux-British accent for Lotor that draws similarities to Kimberly Brooks’ affectations as Princess Allura (similarities that I suspect may have plot relevance, but that’s for another time). Zarkon coldly demands that others sacrifice themselves in his name for the empire’s continuing glory, showing praise only for those who match his ideals (like his wife Honerva/Haggar) and preach absolute loyalty, and he absolutely abhors what he sees as weakness. Lotor cajoles, bargains, makes deals, and is fairly personable even when he’s threatening people, such as on Puig when he even crouches down to get onto the leader’s eye level.

Ultimately, I think this comes down to a difference in worldview between the two characters. Zarkon sees the universe as his to command and conquer and the people in it as possessions, especially “weak” people like Lotor. Lotor, quite obviously to me at least, does not; he’ll manipulate and twist the situation to his own ends, of course, but he is more willing to give people something genuine and valuable in return. Ergo, his actions to me and his attempts to form connections with people like the generals, seeming to have been similarly discarded by the empire for not matching their racist-ass blood purity ideals, read nothing so much like an abused child who has a lot of fronts and walls up.

Take his conversation with Haggar after Commander Raht’s spying attempt is discovered and, uh, foiled (gotta love stand-ins like dropping a robotic arm on the ground for “this guy was probably killed offscreen”). In contrast to pretty much every previous scene with him, Lotor is short-tempered and snappy with Haggar here, insisting that he’s the one running the show and how dare she invade his privacy. It feels like a familiar argument, especially given Haggar’s blank-faced, stoic response in the face of his genuine anger at being compared to his father. But after that, he’s more or less back to his typical self, trusting the generals with the mission to steal the teludav and only losing his temper when it fails because that was seemingly quite a crucial part of his plan (notably, until a certain incident, Lotor always explains his plans and motives to the generals so that they comprehend even seemingly strange, contradictory actions).

And even then, when we revisit him in the second part of the season/season 4, there is still this easy friendship and bond with the generals as their plans come further together. “Black Site” (aka the episode where “great googly moogly it’s all gone to shit” applies) even has him blowing off Haggar pretty unwisely after she checks in on him again. Next, we get the scene where he’s ultimately called back to be fired because Zarkon is out of bed and in new medical armor (a brilliant character gesture; he’d rather be encased in such a cumbersome thing than appear weak). Neil and AJ are fantastic in this scene together, rehashing another seemingly familiar argument, but with a twist. A neat thing about Lotor is that even when he’s manipulating people, there’s kernels of truth in what he says about his values and worldview, and that’s true here. Zarkon is the domineering, clearly abusive father, shutting down anything that Lotor wants and insisting that he’s failed him. Lotor plays the eager-to-please child to perfection, saying that they can work on this, “I can learn!”, and for a brief moment, he almost seems hopeful that this time, it worked? But of course, it doesn’t, and he’s sent on his merry way, smirking at the camera.

And then, as noted, everything goes to shit. Haggar, still suspicious of whatever Lotor’s doing, appears to use the body of either Narti or Kova, the cat creature who helps the blind general see, to spy on the prince and the generals. In a panic, he does *something* to Narti that appears to kill her (I say “appears” because frankly everything about that situation seems fishy) as a fleet bears down on them all, Zarkon declaring that they’re enemies of the state and are to be killed on sight. NOW here’s where Lotor starts to unravel and we get to a scene that I think people are somewhat willfully misreading.

Lotor takes the remaining generals to, essentially, the corpse of the planet Daibazzal, former homeworld of the galra (the circumstances behind its destruction having been explained to us, and as Lotor helpfully recaps, in “The Legend Begins”). He then attempts to activate a rift between realities using his half of the comet ship’s remaining quintessence. And….it fails. In response, he appears to go nearly catatonic. The generals, paranoid over him notably not telling them why he felt the need to dispatch Narti and that he can’t protect them anymore since his plans are failing, take action. Acxa shoots him point blank (notably, he looks stunned that it’s come to this and doesn’t try to dodge or otherwise react) and he wakes up restrained, Zethrid apologetic about having to turn him over to the empire to ensure her and the others’ survival.

Here’s where my problem comes in. Some have taken this scene as “girl power” and “women escaping an abuser” when, framing wise, it’s anything but. The show wouldn’t have spent so much time affirming Lotor and the generals’ relationship as a positive one of equals and, more notably, as a parallel to Team Voltron’s found family goodness if this wasn’t meant to be tragic on both ends. Lotor tellingly does not blame them for their actions or hurt them more than he needs to in order to make his escape (he hurts himself WAY more; did you hear those bones cracking? Eugh!). And we see in the season finale that he would rather nearly kill himself outrunning Zarkon’s ships by skimming across a sun than go back to that. Voltron might dislike him, but if he presents himself as someone valuable, such as someone who can save them from calamity, they can protect him better than anyone else in the universe.

It’s shallow and reductive to me that people would reduce Lotor, an abused child (and this isn’t just me saying this; several other people have noted parallels in their own behavior towards their abusive parents and what Lotor does) trying to get away from his abusers, to a toxic male predator who the generals didn’t need or care about. Plus, we still have roughly half a show to go through. Who knows what’s going to happen next?

SpiderDreamer out.

anonymous asked:

The dads story seems unfinished/half assed (most likely) lol. I guess part of it is we all spent so much time coming up with theories about Connor's dad but idk the story just seems off and sort of pointless. Did his dad really just show up to talk shit about Oliver and sort of project his own regrets/insecurities about his life onto Connor lol since he really didn't seem that mad about him dropping out and didn't seem to care too much about the money.

I liked the story with Connor and Jeff. Though I do believe it suffers from being rushed and crammed into a single episode. Beyond projecting his regrets and insecurities onto his son, which is kind of weird in its own way, I think the real purpose of Jeff’s visit (from a writer’s POV) is to show how far Connor’s fallen. 

So here’s what Jeff got right: Connor has changed a hell of a lot since he came to Middleton. It’s only been about a year and a half in real time, but Connor is pretty much unrecognizable from the guy we first met in S1. I think Jeff has a right to be concerned. I also think there’s some merit to his words ‘I’ve known you your entire life and you are not this guy’. Jeff is not the estranged father we all thought he was. They may not have had a great relationship, but I think Jeff was always there. And he’s right. Connor is faking happy. Connor is miserable. I don’t think Oliver really sees it, but Jeff does. 

And here’s where Jeff goes wrong: He attributes the changes in his son to his new boyfriend. Not really surprising if we consider that Jeff has probably never seen Connor in a relationship before, let alone with a guy like Oliver. So Jeff thinks Oliver is holding Connor back. His strong, independent, ambitious son who didn’t need people has dropped out of law school and settled down with a guy that Connor himself describes as “nice and normal”. 

It’s no wonder Jeff thinks Oliver is wrong for him. 

Jeff doesn’t know the trauma Connor has been through. He doesn’t know why Connor clings to Oliver, that Oliver may be holding him together as opposed to holding him back. 

And honestly, we may never see Jeff again on the show. But his purpose has been served. I think this going to be a wake up for Connor. Connor is going to realize his life is stagnant. His relationship with Oliver is stagnant. Something has to change. He may downward spiral even further. Or he might find his ambition and drive again. But he can’t stay where he is. Perhaps he’ll finally open up a bit to Oliver. I’m personally hoping he gets some of that independence back. A little bit of that drive maybe. I miss that guy. 

anonymous asked:

Could I request for headcanons about cute signs when he has a crush for Selkie, Shigaraki, Kurogiri, Stain & Dabi please? P.S. Another character I blame the anime for making me like him. I forgot to mention earlier that I also love how you wrote Ectoplasm too. The same thing I said applies to this character too (not doing this character if you don't want to)

Ah Selkie, the owner of the giant crotch I have in my profile pic. Also thank you! I appreciate that, I’ll do my best with bara seal. Also I like that he’s grouped up with the villains 


⚪️ He’s constantly going up to you and asking you if this new pose or face he’s making is cute. It’s usually not, but there is something about him in general that’s pretty cute so it’s okay.

⚪️ He likes to be able to tell you all about the new things that he’s come across on his job. Lots of stories, mostly having to do with the sea or sea life in some way or another. Sometimes he over-exaggerates himself though in an attempt to make himself sound even cooler to you.

⚪️ If you’re about to be in any sort of danger, no matter how minimal it may be, he likes to make a big show of ‘saving’ you. So whether you’re about to slip on a puddle and he catches you in his arms or you’re getting attacked by villains, he’s there to make an entrance. 

⚪️ He’s gonna be pretty forward with asking you out, but he’s actually surprisingly shy about it. That’s definitely when he looks the cutest - when he isn’t trying to be.

⚪️ Result: Loves to show off and impress you. Your attention is his source of life.


⚪️ Good luck.


⚪️ Not the shy type and not the flirtatious type. However he’s always very cordial with you, speaking to you politely and treating you with a certain kindness. He does this relatively with most people, but you’re different. It’s very obvious.

⚪️ He doesn’t want you involved in villain stuff if you aren’t a villain. If you are, he does his best to make sure that you’re safe. If he finds out you’re in danger or Shigaraki is putting you in danger, he does everything he can to change that. 

⚪️ He likes when you hang out in the bar with him since he trusts you. Sometimes he tells you about the things that are going on with the League or his own life, but he’s still quiet on certain topics. Not because he doesn’t have faith in your loyalty, but because he doesn’t want to betray the trust of those around him.

⚪️ He’s good with the kind of romance that you read out of novels or see on TV. It’s a bit cheesy, but he tries. I think he’d actually be pretty open about his feelings and eventually asking you to be with him. He wouldn’t really waste time with the ‘will you go out with me’ part.

⚪️ Result: He’s gonna be straightforward about his feelings. He also treats you considerably well.


⚪️ If you want a guy that’s not going to fuck around with games and ‘do they like me, do they not’, then he’s your man. Really. He doesn’t have time for it.

⚪️ He’s not a loving, affectionate, and sweet man by any means. However, he does care. He’s capable of having feelings. You’re special to him, and because of this, he’d be damned if he lets anything happen to you.

⚪️ Gets pretty angry if he finds out you’re doing something dangerous without him knowing and, even worse, doing something to somehow support the heroes he hates the most. He won’t try to control you in the end but he wants to be the only one you’re loyal to.

⚪️ If he likes you, he tells you. If he wants you to be with him, he tells you to be. Well, he gives you the chance to reject him and doesn’t try to force you into anything, but he’s gonna be pretty upset regardless. Still, there’s no point in making someone be with him if they don’t want to be, then it’s not fun. 

⚪️ He shows a care and softness toward you that he doesn’t really to anyone else. Letting you get close to him, tease him, talk to him - he let’s you do a lot of things that, with other people, would easily set him off.

⚪️ Result: Straight-forward and blunt with his feelings. Doesn’t play around and doesn’t appreciate you playing mind games with him either.


⚪️ A bit of a stalker. 

⚪️ He loves teasing you and being sarcastic. Sometimes his humor is so blunt and sarcastic that it borders on being just plain mean though. He really likes you though, don’t worry. Even if you’re tired and he tells you ‘you look like shit. Shouldn’t you go to sleep or something?’ He still thinks you’re beautiful and doesn’t want to actually hurt your feelings. 

⚪️ To make up for it, he’ll then suggest that you can sleep with him. That might make you feel better.

⚪️ I mention this kind of in my relationship headcanons for him, but he’ll bring you things that he’s stolen. Just little gifts that he thinks you’d like. He can be thoughtful when he wants to be.

⚪️ He’s touchy. Mainly because he likes to see you get embarrassed, nervous, and/or flustered. If you’re the type who just flirts back with him, that’s awesome too. 

⚪️ He’s probably the first one to make a move. He doesn’t really have any shame and isn’t shy about his feelings at all. He actually likes the hard-to-get game a bit though, so if you don’t give in right away you definitely won’t be losing his attention. His feelings are obvious though. 

⚪️ Also, he’s proud of you. Sometimes he likes when you get into dangerous situations just because it either means that A) he gets to watch you put someone in their place B) He gets to swoop in and save you and act all cool or C) You both put someone in their place together.

⚪️ Result: He’s blunt with his feelings and you’re going to know that he’s at least attracted to you. He’s not going to ask you out of he doesn’t have romantic feelings, but assuming he does, he will. 

Shigaraki (Actual Headcanons):

⚪️ Hope you’re okay with being stared at. Even if there’s a hand covering his face, 99% of the time he’s still staring at you. The feeling of his eyes being on you is tangible.

⚪️ He doesn’t mean to do it, he just finds you so interesting, annoying, frustrating, and tempting all at the same time. If he realizes that he’s staring or you or someone else happen to point it out, he gets mad. Probably tells you or them to shut up and denies it.

⚪️ Wants to touch you. When you’re alone and he’s comfortable enough around you, he will trace a finger or two along your skin. The sensation of feeling you is unlike anything else. More than that, it’s exciting to see just how much you trust him, since really, he could probably kill you quickly if he wanted to. But of course he doesn’t want that. And you trust him not to, which is so hard for him to fathom.

⚪️ If you’re a villain, you’re always doing the safe missions, if you’re doing any at all. He’s not risking you getting hurt. If you’re not a villain, then he wants you un-involved directly with the League. 

⚪️ If he calls you ‘stupid, annoying trash’ he probably doesn’t actually mean it. He’s also probably just making a reference to the trash NPCs that you fight before you get to a boss battle in a video game. Not sure if that makes it any better though.

⚪️ Hates when you’re giving others attention, especially when he’s in the room with you. Especially if it’s Dabi ‘cause fuck that guy. He’s going to get jealous and he’s probably going to drag you away to be alone with him somewhere. He doesn’t often take his frustration out on you though, and if he does, it’s an accident. He doesn’t want to actually hurt you.

⚪️ If he hurts you on accident, he won’t apologize. It’s too hard for him to do so. But you can see the remorse on his expression and in his demeanor, hear it in his voice. 

⚪️ Once he finally realizes that you’re annoying because he has feelings for you, he’s going to very stubbornly and non-romantically tell you to be with him. Yes, tell, not ask. However, he has grown a bit more mature over past events, so he’s not going to be a complete child about it. 

⚪️ Result: He is scary. He doesn’t mean to be all the time, but he is. Don’t expect a lot of cuteness with him but he still does care about you. A lot. His feelings for you are pretty obvious to just about everyone around you.

Hooptober 4.0: 6/6 decades, 6/6 countries, 6/6 before 1970

The word ‘dreamlike’ gets thrown around a lot in reviews, but I can think of no other way to describe Vampyr.  In general, it’s a hard film to categorize- almost a silent movie, almost German expressionist, almost a straightforward horror movie, almost based on the stories of J. Sheridan Le Fanu, but not quite any of the above.  Following the journey of a young man who looks alarmingly like H. P. Lovecraft, what we see is a hazy bad dream of mad doctors, dying maidens and premature burial.  Even at its most frightening imagery, though, it is impossible to become too worried, as we expect to wake up at any moment. 

Vampyr is notable overall as a showcase of what early film could do.  It is a culmination of the art being developed in Weimar Germany, right when that art was about to be officially and legally gutted.  It looks strange to us today because it must have also looked strange in the thirties, a film out of time and place in any era.  It exists only in the dreamlands.

anonymous asked:

Hi! I have a question about research hindering writing. Obviously, not researching is a bad idea, but I struggle to incorporate simple stuff I learned into an almost finished fic that only needs editing & never do that. So I skip the research to avoid this from happening, but never finish either bc conscience. The other extreme is getting so much satisfaction out of the research itself that my interest in writing vanishes? Like I finished a story w/o writing it?? Any tips on how to balance this?

Ah, a very good question. I’ll bet a lot of people struggle with this. I wrote a very obsessively researched fic once (actually, all my fics in that fandom were obsessively researched cuz it was an Age of Sail fandom) and making the research cooperate with the storytelling was a learning experience, to say the least!

Each story is different in its kind and intensity of research, so there are probably many answers to this question. Here’s a few I can think of.

If it’s the former scenario you mentioned where you write a complete story, do some research and incorporate it into a later draft:

  1. Keep the research and rewriting tasks as separate, finite and systematic as possible. You might first go through the story and mark all the passages that need some kind of follow-up research. Then use those marks to make a checklist of things to be researched. Once you’ve done this research one item at a time, then take each item on the list, and one by one, go through the draft again to identify the passages that need to be tweaked or rewritten to incorporate what you’ve learned. Don’t try to incorporate everything at once. Be very one-at-a-time about it, and cross things off the list as you go. That will keep the overall task from feeling like a big, intractable mess.
  2. You could also use time limits in conjunction with this. “Okay, I’ve got an hour to figure out this one thing, and if I can’t find it or I start to go down a Wikipedia rabbit hole, my timer will cut me off. Then I have half an hour to incorporate it into the story.” Or whatever time limit seems wise to you.
  3. Alternately, just send out the story without the research! Unless it’s a topic that needs to be gotten right (like, for ethical reasons), I find that nine times out of ten, readers don’t really notice or care. You’ll often get that one person who’s an expert in [x] who corrects you (and usually it’s on something you didn’t even think to research), but that’s more their issue than yours.

If it’s the latter scenario, where you’re doing the research up front before you start drafting, the problem is a little different:

  1. First, decide if you need the research to start writing. For my Age of Sail story, the research actually determined the plot, and the more research I did, the more ideas for subplots I got. I couldn’t have started that story without researching it. For other Age of Sail stories, though, I didn’t need to know that much to start writing, so I saved the research for the end.
  2. With any research, give yourself a time limit. And set that time limit a little earlier than you want to. Lots of research makes you feel like you’ve written the story before writing it, so you’ll want to leave your research somewhat incomplete before starting the draft. Which might mean more at the end, but by then, at least, you’ll have a draft.
  3. Sometimes I limit myself by the number of books I’m allowed to read. Or the number of chapters. The key is to set a cap on it before you start, if you know you have a tendency to get stuck in this stage.
  4. In other words, use the research to generate ideas for the story, but stop before you’ve planned out a whole story. Leave some gaps. Start the draft when you still have some of that curious research-directed momentum going and use it to actually write instead of continuing to read. Direct that curiosity at the story itself, not at learning all the background. It’ll feel awkward because you’ll feel like you’re making shit up irresponsibly, but that’s what all writing does.
  5. Some people do research as they write. For me personally, this is a recipe for disaster. For other people, it keeps them engaged and moving forward. Only you can know, but it sounds like you’re probably more like me.

That’s all I can think of for now. It’s based mostly on my own experience, though, so other folks, feel free to weigh in if you’ve had to deal with this problem.

calling all flarrowverse writers and readers!

hi everyone!

okay so my name is mina. I’m 22 and am about to embark in a writing/editing career having ditched the law route (a long story that I am happy to tell anyone in their own time haha). I also am a huge laurel lance and iris west fan, and bar supergirl I do watch all the flarrowverse shows. I write fic primarily for lauryssa and westallen, and I also have started writing original stuff.

okay, mina, fine. why are you telling me this?

glad you asked! so I would like to start a writing group for flarrowverse writers and readers. I want it to be a safe space where we can salt about the flarrowverse shows (because lbr there is a LOT to salt about) but most importantly to share our work and get critique and feedback in a friendly and fun environment. this is for fanfic and original stuff, btw. I’m currently working on a play and I’ll freely admit I am setting up this group in part so I can get some feedback on it before I submit it to the comp I want to enter it into. but it’s also so we can have a network of readers and betas and writers who want to create content for our fandom and otherwise that is quality. as a writer I always want to improve in my work, and I also want validation for what I do. I’m sure you can sympathise with me in that sometimes with fanfic I feel like I’m screaming into the void.

and also! before I forget! you’re going to be making new friends! this fandom can be a difficult one to be in, but the friends I’ve made already are ones I want to keep for life. hopefully I can find more through this network.

this sounds great. so are there any rules to this network?

there are, actually. they are as follows:

~if you vocally hate on iris or laurel or any of the other females or minority groups on your blog, this probably isn’t the right place for you. (I’m singling out iris and laurel because they tend to be the most hated as, respectively, a mentally ill woman and a black woman.) if you don’t like a character, fine, but I’m going to be following everyone in this network and I don’t want to see a lot of anti stuff, so if you’re constantly reblogging anti felicity smoak posts on your blog (I’m using her as an example because she is jewish, but this applies to cisco too as a latinx man and curtis as a gay black man, and so on) we probably won’t get along.

~shipping is on a “you do you” basis. I have good friends who don’t ship my otp and I still love them. unless a ship is in some way racist, abusive or homophobic or otherwise inherently problematic (I get that that is very subjective, but use your judgement), please try not to hate on ships needlessly. having an anti tag is fine, but you have to tag it. similarly I’m fine with you shipping my notp provided it is tagged and I can blacklist.

~salting about the shows is fine. I recognise that all the shows in flarrowverse have their problems and I want this space to be a space where we can criticise them. however, we’re focusing primarily on the characters, not the actors. I know the actors can be problematic but we’re more interested in the story than anything else. I’m not saying don’t ever talk about the actors, but that’s just something to be aware of.

~sharing stuff will primarily be done through google docs.

~chatting will primarily be through an app called discord (although if anyone has issues with this I am happy to consider whatsapp - it’s just because discord has a search function that I think would come in handy).

~as I say, I’m going to be following everyone in this network, so if you have a tagging system of some kind that would be a bonus, esp if you’re multifandom.

~intersectional feminism, please! transphobia, ableism, sexism, racism, homophobia, biphobia, antisemitism, islamaphobia, xenophobia, supporting trump and anything else that makes you seem bigoted or intolerant are all red flags for me and again, I doubt we’ll get along.

~this group is for writers and readers, and people who are old and new to the flarrowverse fandom. if you’ve only just started writing, or you’ve only just caught up with the flash, that’s cool! you’re free to dive in if you want to. if you read a lot of fic but don’t write any, your opinion is still incredibly valuable, and you of course are free to salt about the flarrowverse shows as much as you like :)

~finally! this is a private chat. that means you have to respect someone if they say they don’t want to share something with the general tumblr public. it also means if you are given the link to a google doc, you don’t share it with anyone else. this network is all about trust. for instance, I’m going to be sharing details of my writing that I wouldn’t share with tumblr as a whole. you have to respect that.

all right. I want to join. how do I do that?

easy! fill in the form below and send it to me as an ask or submission. once I get a few responses I will get around to contacting people in the next few days.

name/preferred pronouns:
country/time zone:
fandoms within the flarrowverse:
your role in the fandom (writer, giffer, artist, beta, reader, etc):
favourite characters:
least favourite characters:

so that’s it! remember, if you decide to apply, your commitment is completely up to you. I would ask that you try to check in once a week, but I appreciate people have stuff on so if you’re really busy, it’s fine. and of course if this doesn’t get at least 15 notes, we’ll pretend it never happened.

gearstorm  asked:

So uh what's floes origin story? In universe, if there is one. And were you ever planning a way for the barrier to get broken without any one getting dead? (Also you turned off anon how dare you betray me like this)

(i did? i keep doing that and not remembering it for whatever reason, sorry!!)

I somehow actually managed to make an explanation to fit Floe in the universe. It came to me so suddenly but I loved it, so here we go for Floe Science –

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furiouslynx  asked:

Hey, is Jack short for something like Jackson or John (never understood how Jack is short for John) or is your name just gonna be Jack? Cause that kinda reminds me of Jack Reacher, which is kinda cool.

Just Jack.

Though there are a lot of reasons, one being it’s versatile, it also can be gender neutral (my mom can call me ‘Jackie’ to her uber christian friends). My original name was based on the Beetles and if I was born male I would have been probably named John. And in a story my mom wrote about me she changed my name to Jackie since Jack was another form of John.

Also Jack has a lot of halloween and horror association which makes me a happy camper.

Ngl, I suddenly care about Eri a whole lot less, because from a storytelling perspective she just got incredibly overpowered, almost Deus Ex Machina levels of overpowered, and apparently the only thing stopping her is “her lack of control”. 

If she ever gains control of her Quirk, she will literally become a character capable of erasing any form of consequence from the story. Mirio’s missing Quirk? Back again. Deku’s broken bones? Healed again. She could probably undo the damage to All Might as well, and bring him back to the point where he didn’t have the damage to his body, thus providing us with the “happy ending” everyone wants where nobody dies and everything is good. 

If she’s still living by the end of this arc I am going to be incredibly disappointed.